- 1. Let's go.
- 2. A fine son of a bitch, you were...
- 3. Took it all to the grave...
- 4. Vitalina...
- 5. My condolences.
- 6. You arrived too late.
- 7. Your husband was buried three days ago.
- 8. Here in Portugal
there is nothing for you.
- 9. His house is not yours.
Go back home.
- 10. I'll go, I'll go...
- 11. unsure, waiting...
- 12. life isn't as easy as they think...
- 13. get up, empty stomach...
- 14. life isn't easy...
- 15. his place as a man,
in the hood, in the alley,
- 16. as a man,
in the house, as a worker,
- 17. his place in the alley...
- 18. mirror of patience,
pray for us...
- 19. towed the walls, tile the floor,
door with no lock...
- 20. mother searching... her son...
- 21. sitting, waiting...
- 22. I'll go, I'll go...
- 23. Candle on the mattress.
- 24. Nothing left of that love.
- 25. My condolences.
- 26. My condolences.
- 27. This roof is falling apart.
- 28. I'll get some guys to fix it.
- 29. Seven cans of tuna,
- 30. Excuse me.
- 31. You're surprised, aren't you?
- 32. You didn't expect my visit.
- 33. You don't want me close to you
even in your dying hours.
- 34. We married in the civil registry
on 14th December 1982,
- 35. and in church on
5th March 1983.
- 36. There is nothing left of that love,
of that clarity.
- 37. I don't trust you
in life nor in death.
- 38. Your body...
- 39. in the graveyard, in the coffin...
I couldn't see it.
- 40. Are you buried under the ground?
- 41. I had forgotten
the taste of home cooking.
- 42. Just like my mom's beans.
- 43. With rice, pumpkin...
- 44. Cassava, sweet potato.
- 45. Have a little bit.
- 46. Marina doesn't eat much.
- 47. We are going through hard times.
- 48. We are sleeping rough
at the train station.
- 49. Everyday I have to go forage for food...
- 50. down at the supermarket.
- 51. I met Joaquim in prison,
he was also a good cook.
- 52. I washed the dishes.
- 53. We who drink...
- 54. we who steal,
we can be very deceitful.
- 55. But we also know
how to help our fellow men.
- 56. He never forgot,
always gave me a hand.
- 57. Last time I saw him,
he was sitting by the door,
- 58. had put on weight,
- 59. dreadlocks, sandals,
full of himself.
- 60. So many times he asked me
to help him fix this house.
- 61. He wanted more rooms,
a new paint job,
- 62. fix the walls,
tile the floor.
- 63. His head was full of dreams.
- 64. He said:
"My wife must see this house all pretty."
- 65. Are you feeling ill?
- 66. I'm very cold.
- 67. Let's go?
- 68. Marina, hurry up.
- 69. Thank you, ma'am.
- 70. Ntoni!
- 71. Ntoni...
- 72. Don't hide your face.
- 73. Get behind me!
- 74. Get him a drink!
- 75. I bathed him.
- 76. I shaved him.
- 77. I changed his clothes.
- 78. I gave him some soup,
he didn't eat much.
- 79. This floor was full of vomit.
- 80. "Hey guys,
have you seen Joaquim?"
- 81. We passed by everyday,
we knocked, nobody replied.
- 82. We found him unconscious on the bed,
covered in vomit.
- 83. I put my ear against the door,
I could almost hear him weeping...
- 84. Are you feeling ill, boy?
- 85. I feel bad,
can't get up...
- 86. Why didn't you answer when I knocked?
- 87. I did answer,
but you didn't hear me...
- 88. I gave him a glass of water, he threw up.
- 89. My belly is burning...
- 90. I tried to get him to the hospital
but he didn't want to go.
- 91. You need surgery, boy.
- 92. I don't want it,
I'd rather die...
- 93. You want me to call
your wife in Cape Verde?
- 94. No, it's not worth it.
- 95. I've been waiting for my plane ticket
to Portugal for 40 years.
- 96. I will stay for the rest of my life.
- 97. I'll go...
- 98. sitting, waiting for you...
- 99. laying, his face to the sky...
- 100. work day and night...
- 101. no one came...
- 102. This house of yours
is a poorly done job.
- 103. Windows like gutters.
- 104. I keep hitting my head
on these shitty doors.
- 105. The house we built together in Cape Verde
- 106. Ten rooms, a kitchen,
a good bathroom, big water tank.
- 107. Close to the chapel of Figueira das Naus.
- 108. I sold a small calf for 100 contos.
- 109. I bought a truck load of iron,
a truck of sand, cement and water.
- 110. I built all the blocks with my own hands.
- 111. You laid down the bricks,
towed the walls, tiled the floor.
- 112. People passing by couldn't believe
- 113. we had done that work
all by ourselves in 45 days.
- 114. You'd come to Cape Verde for 45 days.
We worked day and night.
- 115. Sometimes we didn't even go to bed.
"Lay down for a little bit."
- 116. "No, I have to work."
- 117. "The cement mix is ready
to make the blocks in the morning."
- 118. One day you ran off to Portugal,
you didn't even say goodbye.
- 119. I went back home, made dinner,
waited with the food in the pan...
- 120. then I threw it all away.
- 121. While you ran the alleyways on
the other side of the river... France...
- 122. chasing those street women,
like a lamb that just escaped the barn.
- 123. When I wrote asking for money
you didn't reply, you kept silent.
- 124. You thought it was a joke:
"If I had known it would be so tiring,"
- 125. "I wouldn't have come for
a 45 day holiday to Cape Verde."
- 126. After you left, I worked very hard.
- 127. I took care of all the doors,
all the windows.
- 128. I built the water tank.
- 129. I sold another calf
and bought more doors and windows.
- 130. I was working pregnant with a little girl
that didn't even have a name.
- 131. I carried 50 kg cement bags,
on my head, every day.
- 132. One of my feet swelled bigger
than the other.
- 133. You never saw it.
- 134. You never entered our house
after it was finished, all painted.
- 135. You kept saying you would come,
you would come...
- 136. And you died,
and you never came.
- 137. Is this the same woman
who was at the funeral?
- 138. - No, it's another one.
- Have you seen this girl's figure?
- 139. - Is this her?
- No, it's another one.
- 140. Get out!
- 141. Go home!
- 142. No mass today!
- 143. No one comes anymore!
- 144. Not even to pray the Rosary...
- 145. Don't you remember me, Father?
- 146. You buried my husband seven days ago.
- 147. He left with a clean soul.
- 148. I sang him a nice sermon.
- 149. Did you enjoy my sacrament?
- 150. I was late.
- 151. Nothing left for you here.
- 152. The door has no lock.
- 153. I hear a man crying all night.
- 154. There is nothing sadder
than a priest in this place.
- 155. Cement is expensive.
- 156. Bricks are expensive.
- 157. Paint is expensive.
- 158. Nobody helps us.
- 159. It's me,
- 160. I lifted you from the ground,
- 161. I was young, down in Chão Bom,
your first parish.
- 162. I went to fetch a bale of hay
with my donkey.
- 163. Suddenly, a Hiace pickup van
crashed into another car.
- 164. More than thirty people,
- 165. guts falling out,
legs, arms, feet, hands.
- 166. You stumbled out of the church.
- 167. You ran and fell in a pool of blood.
- 168. You yelled: "Have a safe journey!
The Lord travels one step ahead!"
- 169. A safe journey.
The Lord travels...
- 170. Those folk just wanted your blessing.
- 171. I can't baptise anyone else.
- 172. I can't say mass no more.
- 173. You denied them their baptism.
You sent them to Father Juvino.
- 174. You put them on the road to Tarrafal.
- 175. And they never got there.
- 176. Now this is their home.
Every day I cry next to them,
- 177. sitting on these empty chairs.
- 178. This is my people's home.
- 179. But I pay.
- 180. I pay all of them.
- 181. Water bills, electricity bills,
- 182. medicine,
- 183. coffins.
- 184. Did you pay for my husband's funeral?
- 185. I paid all the bus fines.
- 186. Train fines. Police.
- 187. Did you buy the flowers?
- 188. I settled his mini-market bills.
- 189. Don't you want to go back home?
- 190. No.
- 191. Are you feeling better?
- 192. Feeling a bit better, I am.
- 193. We share the mourning.
- 194. You lost your husband,
- 195. I lost my faith in this darkness.
- 196. Are you afraid?
- 197. Fear can also get you to Heaven.
- 198. He's not dead.
He's only sleeping.
- 199. Until the end of times.
- 200. Until you join him.
- 201. What for?
- 202. I want you to pray a Mass for him.
- 203. And for me.
- 204. Couldn't you have fixed this roof?
- 205. You know how scared I am.
- 206. You were quite a worker
in Cape Verde.
- 207. You were a fine boy.
- 208. Full of courage.
- 209. Just like me.
- 210. I see all these men
passing by this house.
- 211. Your comrades.
Sad men, drunkards.
- 212. You turned lazy like the rest,
hands tied to your chest.
- 213. You turned your face to death.
- 214. We could have stayed in Cape Verde.
- 215. We didn't have much,
but it was ours.
- 216. We worked the land together.
- 217. Here, there is only bitterness.
- 218. Here, we are nobody.
- 219. Your death cannot erase
all the evil you have done.
- 220. You can't run away anymore.
- 221. I come to confess.
- 222. The wedding ring...
- 223. my youngest son...
- 224. didn't see her at the funeral,
no one came...
- 225. he lays,
his face to the sky...
- 226. Lower your eyes upon these souls,
waving goodbye to their mortal bodies.
- 227. Lower your eyes upon this house.
- 228. Welcome your servants
Alfredo, Lucinda and their sons,
- 229. in your celestial palace,
under your guard.
- 230. Relieved.
- 231. Our country is in Heaven.
- 232. It's late to pay visit,
but I'm missing my partner.
- 233. This is a night to spend together.
- 234. This is where we used to eat
our streaky bacon, our pork chops.
- 235. Where we used to play cards.
- 236. This is where we used to write
those letters to you.
- 237. We broke our legs and arms.
- 238. We used to work in this Portuguese cold.
- 239. So cold we couldn't unzip our pants
to take a piss.
- 240. One day we hung out by the alley,
- 241. the other day we were selling drugs
to pay the butcher.
- 242. Stove,
- 243. closet,
- 244. freezer,
- 245. table, chairs,
- 246. microwave,
- 247. mattress, bed, sheets,
- 248. pots, plates, spoons, cups,
- 249. house, backyard, street,
- 250. television, wall clock, small radio,
- 251. bed stool, water, light,
- 252. a very good door.
- 253. This is the tab of my return.
- 254. I won't cry for no wretched man.
- 255. Lamb of God,
- 256. Who takes away the sins of the world,
- 257. Have mercy upon us...
- 258. Lamb of God,
have mercy on our brother.
- 259. Guide him through his journey,
- 260. his last breath.
- 261. Holy Lord,
- 262. welcome your servant...
- 263. Joaquim de Brito Varela.
- 264. Bricklayer,
- 265. electrician.
- 266. Have a safe journey, Joaquim.
- 267. Our Lord snatched him from this world,
- 268. after all of his hardships,
- 269. so that his feelings
would not be stolen by malice,
- 270. and cunning
would not enthral his soul.
- 271. It's pleasing...
- 272. in the eyes of the Lord,
- 273. the death of his servants.
- 274. Relieved, he rests from his work.
- 275. The memory of his misery,
- 276. of his immigrant life...
- 277. It's poison!
- 278. There will be no more death.
- 279. Nor mourning.
- 280. Nor pain.
- 281. Nor tears.
- 282. Blessed be the one who cries.
- 283. For he will be relieved.
- 284. Blessed be the one...
- 285. We had a wedding here...
- 286. last Sunday...
- 287. - Why are you against me and on their side?
- Am I not a man like them?
- 288. - Son of Cain!
- A worker like the others?
- 289. - Men favour men!
- Immigrant like the others.
- 290. I closed his bitter eyes.
- 291. When you see a woman's face in the coffin,
you can't imagine her suffering.
- 292. Are you well enough
to say the Our Father prayer?
- 293. Go ahead,
because I can't.
- 294. Did he kill himself?
- 295. It was your Joaquim that I visited in jail.
- 296. It was his confession
I heard at the hospital.
- 297. Do you speak Portuguese?
- 298. No.
- 299. You must learn it
if you want to speak to him.
- 300. Have you made peace with Marina?
- 301. I have no luck with women.
- 302. Just like my dad.
- 303. He left my mother with three sons
and ran away to Cape Verde.
- 304. He said he wanted
to be buried back home.
- 305. But every time he called my mom,
- 306. we felt there was love.
- 307. My mom used to say:
- 308. "He is the love of my life."
- 309. And my dad would say:
"She's my sweetheart."
- 310. Remorse brought him back to Portugal.
- 311. He died at the hospital of Amadora,
like your husband.
- 312. He lived here alone.
- 313. Before me,
there was only this girl from Tarrafal.
- 314. Her name was Vitalina.
- 315. Another Vitalina.
- 316. She took all his savings,
left him flat broke.
- 317. I told him:
"I already know your sweetheart."
- 318. "My sweetheart?
You're my sweetheart!"
- 319. "Silly man, she stole all your money
and built a palace in Tarrafal."
- 320. "You looked foolish, crying."
- 321. He said:
"Shut up, it's not true!"
- 322. "Yes, it is!
You're a dog, a liar!
- 323. "I found a photo album
in your suitcase,
- 324. "with ten or twelve photos
of that girl,
- 325. "laying on that bed,
her arms stretched open.
- 326. "You took pictures of her
all over this house.
- 327. "In the bathroom washing her hands.
- 328. "In the kitchen washing the dishes.
- 329. "Playing CDs and DVDs in the living room.
- 330. "In the backyard, giggling,
kneeling by the laurel tree.
- 331. "Wearing your lace shirt,
- 332. "with that work vest
drying on the rope.
- 333. "You took her photo in the
living room, her foot up on a chair,
- 334. "in a tight little blue dress,
her legs wide open,
- 335. "I could see her white panties."
- 336. I need me to find an ugly woman,
'cause the pretty ones...
- 337. If she's ugly, one turns off the lights
and she becomes pretty.
- 338. If she's pretty, one turns off the lights
and she becomes even prettier.
- 339. Sometimes, even if there's love,
things don't work out.
- 340. Don't fool yourself.
- 341. If there's love,
things must work out.
- 342. What's your name?
- 343. Ntoni.
- 344. Ntoni, love is so important.
- 345. "The future queen...
- 346. "was not yet...
- 347. "nine years old...
- 348. "when she met...
- 349. "for the first time...
- 350. "the one that...
- 351. "would become...
- 352. "her husband.
- 353. "In July 1939...
- 354. "the world trembled in fear...
- 355. "of Hitler and the Germans,
- 356. "but the heart and thoughts...
- 357. "of Elizabeth were occupied...
- 358. "with things...
- 359. "far less dangerous."
- 360. Our Father is out of control.
- 361. He says that spirits
only speak Portuguese.
- 362. And that I have to learn it
to speak to you.
- 363. It's difficult.
I am dumb.
- 364. If I learn, will you respond?
- 365. Will you finally say all those things
you didn't say in Cape Verde?
- 366. The day you ran away
I felt you were full of hate inside.
- 367. Did you throw away
all the letters I sent you?
- 368. They were all written in Portuguese.
- 369. If I speak Portuguese,
- 370. will you speak with me?
- 371. When Christ felt...
- 372. his hour had finally...
- 373. come...
- 374. grave, calm...
- 375. and serene...
- 376. he approached
those who sought him.
- 377. All of them,
eyes on the ground.
- 378. The one...
- 379. who had to deliver him...
- 380. came closer...
- 381. took him in his arms...
- 382. and whispered:
- 383. "May God save you, Master."
- 384. And kissed his face...
- 385. as he had been told to do.
- 386. The path was hard.
- 387. The path was hard.
- 388. Both ways,
- 389. and down under,
- 390. darkness covered the Earth.
- 391. Beyond the highest hill,
- 392. arriving at last,
- 393. suddenly,
- 394. his face lit up
- 395. with a soft,
- 396. but immense light.
- 397. Everything became clear.
- 398. The valley and the scarp.
- 399. And half of the sky...
- 400. appeared...
- 401. as pure moonlight.
- 402. That radiant face...
- 403. was the one that Judas...
- 404. never touched.
- 405. But the other face,
the one he kissed,
- 406. remained dark,
- 407. as if hiding his crime.
- 408. Shone no light.
- 409. It was a dark night,
- 410. breaking the world in two.
- 411. And that half
was the one that remained
- 412. shrouded in shadows.
- 413. We were born from those shadows.
- 414. Vitalina...
- 415. Marina died yesterday.
- 416. A candle fell on her mattress.