1. You've been through the epidermis,
derma and muscles.Copy !req
2. Julie disappointed herself.
This used to be easy.Copy !req
3. She was still among the top students,Copy !req
4. but there were too manyCopy !req
5. interruptions, updates,Copy !req
6. feeds,Copy !req
7. unsolvable global problems.Copy !req
8. She sensedCopy !req
9. a gnawing unease
she had tried to suppress by crammingCopy !req
10. by drowning it in digital interference.Copy !req
11. This was wrong.
This wasn't her.Copy !req
12. She'd chosen medicineCopy !req
13. because it was
so hard to gain admission.Copy !req
14. Where her excellent grades
actually meant something.Copy !req
15. But then she had
a revelation.Copy !req
16. Her passion had always been the soul.Copy !req
17. The mind, not the body.Copy !req
18. Surgery is like, so concrete.Copy !req
19. It's almost like being a carpenter.Copy !req
20. But now...Copy !req
21. My passion has always been
what goes on inside — thoughts and feelings.Copy !req
22. It was like a window had opened.Copy !req
23. Not anatomy.Copy !req
24. If psychology will make you happy,
then do it.Copy !req
25. I think you're really brave.Copy !req
26. I can't take it anymore.
I don't want to.Copy !req
27. She left him.Copy !req
28. Though he was devastated,Copy !req
29. he had to respect
the way she took control of her life.Copy !req
30. She observed her fellow students.Copy !req
31. Norway's future spiritual advisers.Copy !req
32. Mostly girls with borderline
eating disorders.Copy !req
33. Say you're at a party.Copy !req
34. She still felt trapped in
the role of model student.Copy !req
35. All this cramming.Copy !req
36. When was life supposed to start?Copy !req
37. What's your name?Copy !req
38. Julie.Copy !req
39. The person's name is Julie.Copy !req
40. Let's say Julie and I
meet at a party,Copy !req
41. and we feel a mutual attraction.Copy !req
42. Hypothetically.Copy !req
43. Actually, she was a visual person.Copy !req
44. Now I know.Copy !req
45. I want to be a photographer.Copy !req
46. A photographer?Copy !req
47. I see.Copy !req
48. Julie spent her student loan
on cameras and lenses.Copy !req
49. As long as you're serious about it.Copy !req
50. No safety net. No holding back.Copy !req
51. Need help?Copy !req
52. She took a temp job
in a bookstore.Copy !req
53. Started a photography course.Copy !req
54. Super!Copy !req
55. She made new friends.Copy !req
56. It felt like coming home.Copy !req
57. Suddenly Oslo was a different city.Copy !req
58. New places. New faces.Copy !req
59. Hi. Aksel.Copy !req
60. Right...Copy !req
61. You're the comic book artist?Copy !req
62. She'd heard
he was the creator of Bobcat.Copy !req
63. Sorry, I'm a wild animal.Copy !req
64. Have you read it?Copy !req
65. Yeah.Copy !req
66. So?Copy !req
67. She pretended she'd read it.Copy !req
68. She only remembered one strip
she'd found vaguely sexist.Copy !req
69. I know what you mean.Copy !req
70. Nothing's ever good enough.Copy !req
71. The only thing worse than
all the idiots is yourself.Copy !req
72. But...Copy !req
73. If we go on, I'll fall in love with you.
Then it'll be too late.Copy !req
74. Maybe we should agree to...Copy !req
75. stop seeing each other.Copy !req
76. The problem is our age difference.Copy !req
77. I'm just afraid we'll fall into
a vicious circle.Copy !req
78. You're much younger than I am.Copy !req
79. You'll start to question who you are.Copy !req
80. I'm past 40.
I've entered a new phase.Copy !req
81. Whereas you still need time
to find yourself.Copy !req
82. You don't need me waiting.Copy !req
83. You need to be completely free.Copy !req
84. I'm just afraid we'll hurt each other.Copy !req
85. Later she said
that was the precise momentCopy !req
86. she fell in love with him.Copy !req
87. Shall I put your bag in the bedroom?Copy !req
88. Yes, please.Copy !req
89. I have two copies of a book!Copy !req
90. Huh?Copy !req
91. Yeah.Copy !req
92. I'll throw one away.Copy !req
93. Can I have two shelves?Copy !req
94. How many closets do you need?Copy !req
95. How many can I have?Copy !req
96. No, that's not how it works.Copy !req
97. This is antique glass.
All wavy and stuff.Copy !req
98. No, don't do that. Not like that.Copy !req
99. No!Copy !req
100. Lift this catch here.Copy !req
101. I'm terrified it'll break.Copy !req
102. I gaze out this window.Copy !req
103. - No way!
- I'm not kidding.Copy !req
104. Hey, that's how relationships work.Copy !req
105. She's a bit frosty towards me.
That's new.Copy !req
106. Yeah? Why do you think that is?Copy !req
107. It's embarrassing to say.Copy !req
108. We've been single together.Copy !req
109. Lived that life.Copy !req
110. Then suddenly I move in with you.Copy !req
111. - And you're happy?
- Yeah.Copy !req
112. No, no, no...Copy !req
113. Did you date this guy?Copy !req
114. Yeah, just a fling.Copy !req
115. Okay.Copy !req
116. Stop!Copy !req
117. You're so predictable!Copy !req
118. Let's just fuck.Copy !req
119. Hello!Copy !req
120. CHAPTER 1Copy !req
121. - Happy to see you!
- Me, too.Copy !req
122. - Doing good?
- Yeah.Copy !req
123. Hi, Martin.Copy !req
124. Welcome.Copy !req
125. Thanks for coming.Copy !req
126. Dad designed it.Copy !req
127. We should renovate,
but don't want to change anything.Copy !req
128. It's beautiful.Copy !req
129. Yeah, but there's stuff like that. Damp.Copy !req
130. We get this room
because we're childless.Copy !req
131. Dibs on the top bunk.Copy !req
132. I always feel that Tone doesn't like me.Copy !req
133. She's just shy.Copy !req
134. That's what you say about boring people.Copy !req
135. - It's my turn now.
- Okay.Copy !req
136. Thank you.Copy !req
137. Vin?Copy !req
138. Vin de blanc?Copy !req
139. Thanks.Copy !req
140. Do you have any friends with kids yet?Copy !req
141. No. Only one.Copy !req
142. Guess this feels unfamiliar.Copy !req
143. - They're very sweet.
- Thanks.Copy !req
144. So what are you doing now, Julie?Copy !req
145. Aksel says you've started writing?Copy !req
146. Well, I wouldn't exactly
call it writing.Copy !req
147. Being modest?Copy !req
148. No.Copy !req
149. Seems so.Copy !req
150. Is there anything you'd like to do,Copy !req
151. as a career?Copy !req
152. Questions, questions, Karianne.Copy !req
153. That question was vulgar
when we were students.Copy !req
154. Lucky you!Copy !req
155. Yeah, we were.Copy !req
156. True, we had a lot of freedom.Copy !req
157. Being young today is different.Copy !req
158. The pressure is heart-breaking.Copy !req
159. There's no time to think.Copy !req
160. Always something on the screen.Copy !req
161. Take William.Copy !req
162. If we don't set limits,
he spends his life on screens.Copy !req
163. Nice try.Copy !req
164. Okay.Copy !req
165. No, it's not your turn.Copy !req
166. It's Martin's turn.Copy !req
167. Julie's still the closest.Copy !req
168. Bedtime.Copy !req
169. - She's exhausted.
- No!Copy !req
170. No!Copy !req
171. - Yes!
- No!Copy !req
172. I don't want to go to bed!Copy !req
173. I don't want to!Copy !req
174. Eva, don't make another scene.
Come here!Copy !req
175. No! I don't want to!Copy !req
176. Let go!Copy !req
177. - You silly girl!
- I don't want to!Copy !req
178. But I want you to!Copy !req
179. I don't want to!Copy !req
180. Kids can be intense.Copy !req
181. Well, it's okay.Copy !req
182. - Fun with kids.
- Yeah.Copy !req
183. Can't we just enjoy it?Copy !req
184. Please. No fights.Copy !req
185. There are kids here, and it's chaos.Copy !req
186. Just try.Copy !req
187. Try playing with them
or something, okay?Copy !req
188. Please.Copy !req
189. Spare me the kid talk.Copy !req
190. Sorry, but I wasn't the one who started.Copy !req
191. You're with someone who's
younger than you. There's a gap.Copy !req
192. You're almost 30.
Not a bad age to have kids.Copy !req
193. I'm 44. I want to go to the next level.
With you.Copy !req
194. It has nothing to do with my friends.Copy !req
195. You seem to be waiting for something.
I don't know what.Copy !req
196. Hello?Copy !req
197. Jeez.Copy !req
198. I didn't want to get into this.Copy !req
199. Really not.Copy !req
200. Everything's on your terms.Copy !req
201. You have time off,
so we're on holiday.Copy !req
202. You agreed.Copy !req
203. After you publish, you get bored.Copy !req
204. And start talking about kids.Copy !req
205. The others here have kids,
so it's an issue.Copy !req
206. Not true.Copy !req
207. It is true.Copy !req
208. And then...Copy !req
209. you get a new idea at some point,Copy !req
210. and disappear into your drawing board.Copy !req
211. What are you saying?Copy !req
212. Don't start. It's not cool.Copy !req
213. Shut up. Please.Copy !req
214. Of course I'd be there if we had kids.Copy !req
215. You know that.
You know I want children.Copy !req
216. Sure, and I'll also want kids
at some point.Copy !req
217. But I don't know...Copy !req
218. I have no maternal instinct, right?Copy !req
219. No, you'd make a great mom.Copy !req
220. I'm sure of it.Copy !req
221. I want to have children, too.Copy !req
222. At some point.Copy !req
223. So what are we waiting for?
What has to happen first?Copy !req
224. I don't know what exactly.Copy !req
225. I just want to do more first.Copy !req
226. Okay, like what?Copy !req
227. What's the obstacle?Copy !req
228. I don't know! Why do you ask?Copy !req
229. Your concept is flawed.Copy !req
230. Most people have kids without
sorting out their life first.Copy !req
231. - They figure it out.
- Flawed?Copy !req
232. That's how most people do it.Copy !req
233. But I don't want everything
to happen on your terms,Copy !req
234. based on what you want.Copy !req
235. Fine. I got it.
But what do you want?Copy !req
236. Oh, please! We have to stop.Copy !req
237. I need sleep
to put up with those people.Copy !req
238. I know a guy
who has a theory about that.Copy !req
239. He says we have
a limited number of sperm.Copy !req
240. Say... three trillion in your lifetime.Copy !req
241. Jerk off too much...Copy !req
242. and you run out.
Could be true.Copy !req
243. Easy now, Portnoy.Copy !req
244. How fascinating.Copy !req
245. Personally, I feel likeCopy !req
246. I know everything
about male problems.Copy !req
247. Erectile dysfunction,Copy !req
248. morning wood,
infatuation with young women...Copy !req
249. premature ejaculation...Copy !req
250. Nice work, Aksel.Copy !req
251. It's in all the books and movies.Copy !req
252. Where's the menstrual period?Copy !req
253. Female orgasm and desire? Where?Copy !req
254. Good question. Tell us.
In juicy detail.Copy !req
255. No, the point isCopy !req
256. it shouldn't be taboo.Copy !req
257. If men had periods,
that's all we'd hear about.Copy !req
258. Can you womansplain itCopy !req
259. a bit better?Copy !req
260. What do you mean?Copy !req
261. Like mansplaining, but womansplaining.Copy !req
262. What?Copy !req
263. Mansplaining is...Copy !req
264. When a 45-year-old man explainsCopy !req
265. how things really are
to a younger woman.Copy !req
266. Nice demonstration!Copy !req
267. My pleasure.Copy !req
268. Ding! Great!Copy !req
269. Whiskey, anyone?Copy !req
270. How's the senior citizen club doing?Copy !req
271. Come on.Copy !req
272. Look who's here!Copy !req
273. Are you okay?Copy !req
274. Not really.Copy !req
275. Show me.Copy !req
276. No!Copy !req
277. Let me see...Copy !req
278. We'll laugh about it later.
It's just a scratch.Copy !req
279. Karianne's such a drama queen.Copy !req
280. It's my fault.Copy !req
281. Not at all, Julie.Copy !req
282. It is. I always overdo it.Copy !req
283. I know being here isn't easy for you.Copy !req
284. I'm not into this whole
"happy family" thing either.Copy !req
285. I'm glad it turned into a party tonight.Copy !req
286. I hope you had fun!Copy !req
287. What the hell's wrong with you?Copy !req
288. What's wrong with having a little fun?Copy !req
289. I didn't have any fun!Copy !req
290. Sorry that happened.Copy !req
291. You don't care!Copy !req
292. Shut up! Just shut up!Copy !req
293. You don't give a shit about me!Copy !req
294. Shall we make a baby?Copy !req
295. Fuck you.Copy !req
296. - Hi.
- Good morning.Copy !req
297. There's coffee. And cups.Copy !req
298. CHAPTER 2Copy !req
299. Sorry, I forgot.Copy !req
300. What's your line of work?Copy !req
301. I work in a bookstore.Copy !req
302. Which one?Copy !req
303. Norli, by the university.Copy !req
304. Could you excuse me for a moment?Copy !req
305. Could you sign?Copy !req
306. Sure, I'll just finish this.Copy !req
307. Any new Bobcat in the pipeline?Copy !req
308. I've moved on.Copy !req
309. Do you work full-time there,Copy !req
310. or are you just temping on weekends?Copy !req
311. - Sorry.
- Bye.Copy !req
312. Hey, I think I'll head home.Copy !req
313. Okay.Copy !req
314. - You good?
- Yeah.Copy !req
315. - Sure?
- Yeah, I'm fine.Copy !req
316. - I can stay if you like.
- It's okay.Copy !req
317. - But I have to stay a bit longer.
- Of course.Copy !req
318. Okay. See you at home.Copy !req
319. Hi. Can I have a smoke?Copy !req
320. Of course.Copy !req
321. I had my second child
ten years later.Copy !req
322. Now we're supposed
to introduce solids at 4 months.Copy !req
323. What made the pediatricians
change their minds?Copy !req
324. - Do you cuddle your kids?
- Sure, a lot.Copy !req
325. They'll be drug addicts.Copy !req
326. They'll be addicts
because I cuddle them?Copy !req
327. Yeah, according to new research.Copy !req
328. New research says
you shouldn't cuddle your kids?Copy !req
329. I realize it must be counter-intuitive
for a mother.Copy !req
330. But motherhood upsets
your limbic system.Copy !req
331. So my kids are going to be drug addicts?Copy !req
332. That's ridiculous.
Do you have children?Copy !req
333. No, but I'm a doctor.
I have a medical perspective.Copy !req
334. Babies express themselves by crying.Copy !req
335. It's normal for a mother or a father
to comfort them.Copy !req
336. Hi.Copy !req
337. Not asking me the usual questions?Copy !req
338. - Which ones?
- Who I am, what I do.Copy !req
339. Who are you? What do you do?Copy !req
340. I hate those questions.Copy !req
341. They're especially bad
when you're a doctor.Copy !req
342. Are you a doctor?Copy !req
343. No, you are.Copy !req
344. Which questions should I ask?Copy !req
345. Ask me who I know here.Copy !req
346. - Who do you know here?
- Nobody.Copy !req
347. I crashed the party.Copy !req
348. You just waltzed in?Copy !req
349. Okay.Copy !req
350. Nothing's gonna happen.Copy !req
351. Of course not.Copy !req
352. I'm with someone I love.Copy !req
353. Me, too.Copy !req
354. And I can't stand cheating.
I've been there. Never again.Copy !req
355. - Right, cheating is...
- No good.Copy !req
356. But where do you draw the line?Copy !req
357. You can feel it.Copy !req
358. If I do this...Copy !req
359. Is that cheating?Copy !req
360. No.Copy !req
361. What about this?Copy !req
362. - No, that's permissible.
- Is it?Copy !req
363. And hurting someone
who's not your partner?Copy !req
364. - You hurt your partner?
- Is that cheating?Copy !req
365. Did that hurt?Copy !req
366. Did it?Copy !req
367. - Feel good?
- Yeah, it did.Copy !req
368. Okay.Copy !req
369. Let me smell your sweat.Copy !req
370. - No.
- Yes.Copy !req
371. - Seriously?
- Yes, that's allowed.Copy !req
372. - It stinks!
- Yes.Copy !req
373. The kind of smell you never forget.Copy !req
374. My turn to smell you.Copy !req
375. No, please.
I regret it now.Copy !req
376. Let me smell.Copy !req
377. I think you smell nice.Copy !req
378. I don't know if...Copy !req
379. this is permissible.Copy !req
380. Go ahead.Copy !req
381. Okay.Copy !req
382. You start,
then I'll go next.Copy !req
383. I actually think sex is bestCopy !req
384. when the dick isn't too hard.Copy !req
385. Because...Copy !req
386. in a way, then I'm the oneCopy !req
387. who makes it hard, you know?Copy !req
388. My secret will be dumb now.Copy !req
389. I guess I misunderstood.Copy !req
390. I was going to say
I like the Barcode Project.Copy !req
391. It looks pretty from the bridge
when I go to work.Copy !req
392. I expose my darkest secrets,
and you...Copy !req
393. You said "secrets",
not "darkest".Copy !req
394. So why is that a secret?Copy !req
395. Because everyone thinks it's ugly.Copy !req
396. Sorry, we're...Copy !req
397. - Can I whisper it?
- Okay.Copy !req
398. What?Copy !req
399. Sorry, I seem to
be sitting on everything.Copy !req
400. My bad.Copy !req
401. There's nothing sexual about that.Copy !req
402. Not at all.Copy !req
403. Although you do like soft dicks.Copy !req
404. Yeah.Copy !req
405. Okay. Your turn.Copy !req
406. I can't pee.Copy !req
407. Just relax.Copy !req
408. I'm going this way.Copy !req
409. Okay.Copy !req
410. What's your name?Copy !req
411. Julie.Copy !req
412. - I'm Eivind. Eivind...
- Don't say it.Copy !req
413. Why not?Copy !req
414. I'll find you on Facebook, and...Copy !req
415. Good thinking.Copy !req
416. Okay.Copy !req
417. - Bye.
- Bye.Copy !req
418. - We didn't cheat.
- No.Copy !req
419. - Not at all.
- No.Copy !req
420. Bye.Copy !req
421. CHAPTER 3
ORAL SEX IN THE AGE OF #METOOCopy !req
422. Aksel?Copy !req
423. Aksel, I need to tell you something.Copy !req
424. Aksel?Copy !req
425. "A friend told me she had sex
with a manCopy !req
426. "who pumped his dick into her mouth
while he held her head.Copy !req
427. "She was confused
because she enjoyed it.Copy !req
428. "It really turned her on.Copy !req
429. "Can you be a feminist
and still enjoy being mouth-fucked?Copy !req
430. "Most women I know are ambivalent
about performing oral sex.Copy !req
431. "They must act as if they like...
the pathetic expectationCopy !req
432. "that it'll turn them on...Copy !req
433. "I like it flaccid.Copy !req
434. "So I create the stiffnessCopy !req
435. "instead of having it thrust upon me."Copy !req
436. This is good.Copy !req
437. - Yeah?
- It's over the top.Copy !req
438. I don't agree with everything,
but it's very well written.Copy !req
439. Original. Very good.Copy !req
440. What will you do with it?Copy !req
441. I don't know.Copy !req
442. You really think it's good?Copy !req
443. Yeah. Absolutely.Copy !req
444. You sure?Copy !req
445. Yeah, I'm not lying.Copy !req
446. No?Copy !req
447. Are you sure?Copy !req
448. Don't you dare doubt it.Copy !req
449. It's pretty cerebral.Copy !req
450. But it turns me on too.Copy !req
451. - Right?
- Kinda.Copy !req
452. Is that why you wrote it?Copy !req
453. Intellectual Viagra?Copy !req
454. - Yeah.
- It works.Copy !req
455. Her piece
"Oral Sex in the Age of #MeToo"Copy !req
456. was published on jubel.no.Copy !req
457. It was widely shared and set off
a lively Facebook debate.Copy !req
458. With the strong painkillers I'm on,
I can't drive.Copy !req
459. CHAPTER 4Copy !req
460. I understand.Copy !req
461. I hoped I could come, but...Copy !req
462. I can't spend an hour on a bus
with this back.Copy !req
463. Don't worry about it.Copy !req
464. Could you come to Hønefoss
next weekend?Copy !req
465. So we can celebrate together.Copy !req
466. Nathalie says
happy birthday too.Copy !req
467. Say hello from me.Copy !req
468. How nice to see you.Copy !req
469. - It's been too long.
- Way too long.Copy !req
470. Anyway, have a nice birthday.Copy !req
471. Thanks.Copy !req
472. Okay.Copy !req
473. I'm too skinny?Copy !req
474. - You work too much.
- True.Copy !req
475. We'll talk later.Copy !req
476. Happy birthday!Copy !req
477. - Why do I always have to go see him?
- He's not coming?Copy !req
478. Well, he's got a backache.Copy !req
479. There's always something wrong with him.Copy !req
480. Hello!Copy !req
481. So, he's not coming.Copy !req
482. That's not nice.Copy !req
483. He wanted to, but he has a backache.Copy !req
484. Does he realize how it makes you feel?Copy !req
485. - He's...
- It's a backache, Mom.Copy !req
486. Sorry.Copy !req
487. Please help yourself.Copy !req
488. Thank you. It looks delicious.Copy !req
489. I hope you like it.Copy !req
490. At 30, Julie's mom, Eva,Copy !req
491. had been divorced for two years.
A single mom,Copy !req
492. and accountant in a publishing house.Copy !req
493. Thanks.Copy !req
494. Have you read Julie's article?Copy !req
495. Of course.Copy !req
496. - And?
- It's great.Copy !req
497. - Have you read it, Mom?
- No.Copy !req
498. Julie's article. It's excellent.Copy !req
499. At 30, Julie's grandmother
had three children.Copy !req
500. She played Rebecca West in Rosmersholm
at the National Theater.Copy !req
501. At 30,
Julie's great-grandmother, Astrid,Copy !req
502. was a widow, alone with four children.Copy !req
503. Julie's great-great-grandmother
had seven children.Copy !req
504. Two died of tuberculosis.Copy !req
505. Julie's great-great-great-grandmother,
Herta, was a merchant's wifeCopy !req
506. with six childrenCopy !req
507. in a loveless marriage.Copy !req
508. Julie's great-great-great-great-grandmother
never turned 30.Copy !req
509. The life expectancy for women
at the time was 35 years.Copy !req
510. I don't want to bother you
with it, but...Copy !req
511. It's getting harder and harder to pee.Copy !req
512. I was scared it was prostate cancer,Copy !req
513. but it wasn't.Copy !req
514. - Well, that's good.
- Yeah.Copy !req
515. Still...Copy !req
516. I go to the toilet all the time.Copy !req
517. And...Copy !req
518. there's leakage.Copy !req
519. Thanks for the cool jacket.
Good timing.Copy !req
520. I want to get into hiking.Copy !req
521. Sorry we're late.Copy !req
522. You didn't make them coffee?Copy !req
523. It's okay.Copy !req
524. I'll fix something.Copy !req
525. - How'd it go?
- Great.Copy !req
526. - How many saves?
- Lots.Copy !req
527. Good job.Copy !req
528. Happy belated birthday.Copy !req
529. 30 is pretty major.Copy !req
530. Too bad we missed it.Copy !req
531. The tournament lasted all day.Copy !req
532. So we couldn't come.Copy !req
533. No problem. That's okay.Copy !req
534. She's the goalkeeper.
You should see her play.Copy !req
535. No, she doesn't have to.Copy !req
536. She's awesome.Copy !req
537. I'll let you know next time.Copy !req
538. Yeah, please do.Copy !req
539. Cool.Copy !req
540. Did you get the article I sent you?Copy !req
541. Yeah, I was about to ask you.
I couldn't get the link to work.Copy !req
542. My PC acts up.Copy !req
543. Know anything about computers?Copy !req
544. I can take a look.Copy !req
545. But can't she just resend the email?Copy !req
546. Wasn't there a...Copy !req
547. Did she send it
in an email?Copy !req
548. An attachment to an email.Copy !req
549. No, I pressed the button on the mouse.Copy !req
550. Then I put the arrow on the square.Copy !req
551. I tried twice, then it vanished.Copy !req
552. It could be my fault.Copy !req
553. Maybe I sent the wrong version.Copy !req
554. We'll fix it.
You have to read that article.Copy !req
555. It's really good.Copy !req
556. Very...Copy !req
557. Very well written, and...Copy !req
558. Clever girl.Copy !req
559. When are you coming to see us,
Per Harald?Copy !req
560. We'd love it.
Come see where your daughter lives.Copy !req
561. Sure, of course.Copy !req
562. But it's hard to park in Central Oslo.Copy !req
563. They've got that...Copy !req
564. resident...Copy !req
565. resident parking there.Copy !req
566. Yeah.Copy !req
567. It's made it much easier
to find a space.Copy !req
568. You just have to pay.Copy !req
569. And move the car every half hour?Copy !req
570. Is that the reason
you don't come to see us?Copy !req
571. Because it's hard to drive in town?Copy !req
572. That's not it.Copy !req
573. Then what is it?Copy !req
574. Well, you know...Copy !req
575. with my painkillers,
I'm not allowed to drive.Copy !req
576. There's that, too.Copy !req
577. The good thing is,
he's open about it.Copy !req
578. His pains. His prostate.Copy !req
579. You have to make your own family.Copy !req
580. CHAPTER 5Copy !req
581. Excuse me?Copy !req
582. Hi.Copy !req
583. Do you have Green Yoga?Copy !req
584. Let me check.Copy !req
585. - Which book again?
- Green Yoga.Copy !req
586. Published last year.Copy !req
587. No, I'll have to order it.
It's not in stock.Copy !req
588. How long will it take?Copy !req
589. Two weeks.Copy !req
590. Okay. No thanks.Copy !req
591. They don't have it either.Copy !req
592. Okay.Copy !req
593. We can try at Ark.Copy !req
594. Thank you.Copy !req
595. I told her
I forgot my sunglasses.Copy !req
596. I just had to sayCopy !req
597. that I know what we said.Copy !req
598. But I think about you a lot.Copy !req
599. And...Copy !req
600. I don't want to bug you
if you're happy.Copy !req
601. Are you?Copy !req
602. - I don't know what to say.
- Say nothing.Copy !req
603. I'd like to see you again.
Just to talk.Copy !req
604. I mean, I'm not going to...Copy !req
605. But I'd like to see you again.
Just to...Copy !req
606. I'm at Åpent Bakeri in Barcode
nearly every day.Copy !req
607. I work there, I mean.
If you want to.Copy !req
608. So...Copy !req
609. - Eivind?
- Yes.Copy !req
610. Your glasses.Copy !req
611. Oh, right. Fuck.Copy !req
612. Language opens the door
to the subconscious.Copy !req
613. Freud was a great writer.Copy !req
614. He could be self-critical.Copy !req
615. He never hesitated
to revise his theories.Copy !req
616. He viewed each individual patient
as a research subject.Copy !req
617. Freud didn't distinguish between
therapy and research.Copy !req
618. I find that very compelling.Copy !req
619. Especially these days,Copy !req
620. when scientific methodology
is appliedCopy !req
621. even in the humanities.Copy !req
622. Enough about Freud.
How's the movie coming along?Copy !req
623. Isn't it almost done?Copy !req
624. Yeah, I've seen it, but...Copy !req
625. - You have?
- Yes.Copy !req
626. It's no longer mine at all.Copy !req
627. Is it as bad as you feared?Copy !req
628. The worst thing is how
they've housetrained Bobcat.Copy !req
629. It's all very sanitized and safe.Copy !req
630. I'll show you something.Copy !req
631. A mock-up of the movie poster.Copy !req
632. I have to admit...Copy !req
633. I'm embarrassed my name's on it.Copy !req
634. Shit.Copy !req
635. No! Seriously?Copy !req
636. You must be kidding. No way.Copy !req
637. That's the poster. For real.Copy !req
638. Let's see.Copy !req
639. Looks like Chip and Dale.Copy !req
640. Holy shit.Copy !req
641. Should I laugh or cry?Copy !req
642. Everything was butchered.
The story. All the details.Copy !req
643. They removed the starfish.Copy !req
644. Sorry, I'm lost.Copy !req
645. What starfish?Copy !req
646. It's, you know...Copy !req
647. the butthole. The anus.Copy !req
648. His butt is smooth in the movie.Copy !req
649. This thing is gone.Copy !req
650. That's bad in my book.Copy !req
651. In underground comics you shit,Copy !req
652. you puke, you fuck and all that stuff.Copy !req
653. Bobcat is a wild cat
in a world of domestic cats.Copy !req
654. He's a rebel against the bourgeoisie.Copy !req
655. One of the most iconic buttholes ever.Copy !req
656. Coffee?Copy !req
657. Yeah.Copy !req
658. I don't know what we should do.Copy !req
659. I have to go.Copy !req
660. Aksel,Copy !req
661. we need to talk.Copy !req
662. Yeah, of course.Copy !req
663. What's wrong?Copy !req
664. Julie said she'd been thinking.Copy !req
665. It wasn't his fault.
Nothing he could have changed.Copy !req
666. It's not anything you've done.Copy !req
667. It's not your fault. But I feel...Copy !req
668. It was about
all their old arguments.Copy !req
669. Things they both knew.Copy !req
670. It was bad timing.Copy !req
671. They'd met in different phases of life.Copy !req
672. They wanted different things.Copy !req
673. We want different things.Copy !req
674. Are you leaving me?Copy !req
675. Yeah.Copy !req
676. I want it to be over.Copy !req
677. Are you sure you're yourself right now?Copy !req
678. What do you mean?Copy !req
679. Do you realize...Copy !req
680. Do you realize what you're doing?Copy !req
681. What you're destroying?Copy !req
682. Yes, of course.Copy !req
683. That's why it's so hard.Copy !req
684. Where will you live?Copy !req
685. I don't know.Copy !req
686. You don't know?Copy !req
687. No. With Mom.Copy !req
688. Move home to Mom?Copy !req
689. Yeah. Until I find a place.Copy !req
690. Okay.Copy !req
691. No, come on...Copy !req
692. It's over.Copy !req
693. I've had it. What else can I say?Copy !req
694. Is something else bothering you
and you're venting on me?Copy !req
695. No.Copy !req
696. I've thought about it for a long time.Copy !req
697. It feels right.Copy !req
698. Have you met someone?Copy !req
699. No.Copy !req
700. I'm so sick of all this, Julie.
Dammit.Copy !req
701. Sick to death of it.Copy !req
702. But okay.Copy !req
703. Just leave. If that's what you want.Copy !req
704. I'll take a walk while you pack.Copy !req
705. Julie said he deserved
a more grounded woman.Copy !req
706. Ready for children.Copy !req
707. Who was dependable,Copy !req
708. didn't flake out every six months.Copy !req
709. But I like you flaky.Copy !req
710. Aksel said he liked her flaky.Copy !req
711. That he needed someone like that.Copy !req
712. Who could draw him out
of his drawing board.Copy !req
713. And as for having kids...Copy !req
714. He said
he'd rather be childless with herCopy !req
715. than have kids with anyone else.Copy !req
716. You know that's not the only problem.Copy !req
717. So what is the problem?Copy !req
718. It's a combination of things,
not just that.Copy !req
719. I can see you're in a crisis right now.Copy !req
720. I can understand that.Copy !req
721. But if you love me,Copy !req
722. we'll sort it all out.Copy !req
723. Yes, I do love you.Copy !req
724. And I don't love you.Copy !req
725. Julie felt that this sentence,Copy !req
726. the way she said it,Copy !req
727. her emphasis on certain words,Copy !req
728. summed up the impossibility of it all.Copy !req
729. I feel like a spectator in my own life.Copy !req
730. Like I'm playing a supporting role
in my own life.Copy !req
731. I get that you feel stuck.Copy !req
732. You need a change.Copy !req
733. But is this the solution?Copy !req
734. This is exactly my point.Copy !req
735. I'm trying to tell you how I feel,Copy !req
736. and you're defining my feelings.Copy !req
737. I see what you're doing.Copy !req
738. What am I doing?
Tell me what I'm doing.Copy !req
739. Shut up, and I'll tell you.Copy !req
740. You're acting out the confrontation
you never dared have with your father.Copy !req
741. - You're taking it out on me.
- Is that so?Copy !req
742. What do you know about it?Copy !req
743. This is the crux of our relationship.Copy !req
744. Everything we feel,
we have to put into words.Copy !req
745. Sometimes, I just want to feel things.Copy !req
746. You insist on being so
damn strong all the time.Copy !req
747. For you,Copy !req
748. being strongCopy !req
749. is about formulating things.Copy !req
750. If you analyze thingsCopy !req
751. at every psychological level,Copy !req
752. you think you're strong.Copy !req
753. Because I'm less analytical,
you think I'm weaker.Copy !req
754. She said she was terrified
of being alone.Copy !req
755. Terrified of living without him.Copy !req
756. That when she left,Copy !req
757. she'd be like Bambi on the ice.Copy !req
758. And that was precisely
why she had to do it.Copy !req
759. Aksel mumbled soothing words
she didn't hear.Copy !req
760. She was thinking about how,Copy !req
761. at the age of 30,
she'd just compared herself to Bambi.Copy !req
762. No.Copy !req
763. I'm pathetic.Copy !req
764. No, you're not.Copy !req
765. Aksel...Copy !req
766. Hey...Copy !req
767. I didn't mean what I said.Copy !req
768. It's okay.Copy !req
769. I said plenty of things, too.Copy !req
770. Stay a little longer.Copy !req
771. You'll regret it.Copy !req
772. I'm sure I will.Copy !req
773. The saddest thing,Copy !req
774. is one day, you'll want kids.Copy !req
775. In any case,
you'll have other relationships.Copy !req
776. And you'll realize that
what we had was unique.Copy !req
777. I know.Copy !req
778. You don't. But I do.
I've had many relationships.Copy !req
779. I know how hard it is.Copy !req
780. Nobody communicates like we do.
Laughs like we do.Copy !req
781. Who knows?
Maybe we'll get back together someday.Copy !req
782. Then and there...Copy !req
783. she meant it.Copy !req
784. I mean it.Copy !req
785. CHAPTER 6Copy !req
786. - Are you cold?
- Yeah.Copy !req
787. - It looked easier on YouTube.
- I told you we should practice.Copy !req
788. Wait...Copy !req
789. This one first.Copy !req
790. - Are you sure?
- Yes, this goes on top.Copy !req
791. Right, but is it first?Copy !req
792. Isn't the other one first?Copy !req
793. - No, that's the top.
- Okay.Copy !req
794. Eivind turned it into a funny story
he told everyone.Copy !req
795. But it touched
something deeper in her.Copy !req
796. Awoke something in her.Copy !req
797. She googled her family name.Copy !req
798. Her grandfather came
from the Far North.Copy !req
799. The DNA sample
she sent to America confirmed it.Copy !req
800. Eivind didn't see how
her newfound identityCopy !req
801. as 3.1% SamiCopy !req
802. connected to mind-expanding substances
and unrelated exotic rituals,Copy !req
803. but tried to be supportive.Copy !req
804. As she became increasingly militant,Copy !req
805. she saw how climate change
was hurting indigenous people.Copy !req
806. Inuit starving as seals vanish.Copy !req
807. Melting ice ruining reindeer pastures.Copy !req
808. Aborigines dying of skin cancer
from the hole in the ozone.Copy !req
809. Eivind could forget
about flying to New York.Copy !req
810. Breathe in. All the way up.Copy !req
811. She made them liveCopy !req
812. more sustainably.Copy !req
813. He could always do better.Copy !req
814. Study the ingredients more closely.Copy !req
815. Consider the environmental impact
of his purchases.Copy !req
816. Plastic is killing the oceans.Copy !req
817. Norwegian cod
was ferried to China and back.Copy !req
818. Cobalt mining was destroying the Congo.Copy !req
819. Batteries had blood on their hands.Copy !req
820. The sum of Western guilt
sat beside him on the couch.Copy !req
821. Went to bed with him at night.Copy !req
822. Everything was weighed against
the greater cause.Copy !req
823. He felt he was betraying Sunniva.
Betraying the Sami people.Copy !req
824. Felt like the world's worst person,
but couldn't resist.Copy !req
825. I forgot my sunglasses inside.Copy !req
826. Right.Copy !req
827. Be right back.Copy !req
828. CHAPTER 7Copy !req
829. Eivind didn't want kids either.Copy !req
830. Climate researchers foresaw
hard times for future generations.Copy !req
831. Overpopulation was the reason
everything was falling apart.Copy !req
832. Julie liked how this pessimism
added depthCopy !req
833. to his cheerful nature.Copy !req
834. But she could tell
he had other reasons too.Copy !req
835. Eivind's father, like Julie's,Copy !req
836. tended to forget birthdays.Copy !req
837. Eivind would often say,Copy !req
838. "According to my father's calendar..."Copy !req
839. I'm 12 years old.Copy !req
840. They're all hard. No ripe ones.Copy !req
841. People die of thirst in ChileCopy !req
842. because avocados need so much water.Copy !req
843. Still following Sunniva on Instagram?Copy !req
844. Yeah, she posts interesting links
about the environment.Copy !req
845. We don't message or anything.Copy !req
846. She's got over 30,000 followers.Copy !req
847. For showing off her ass?Copy !req
848. She's not showing off her ass,
she's doing yoga.Copy !req
849. It's yoga.Copy !req
850. Okay, she shows it off a bit.Copy !req
851. I don't mind you following her.Copy !req
852. It's not a problem, but...Copy !req
853. I don't want to beCopy !req
854. the sensible choice
while she's the sexy one.Copy !req
855. There's nothing sensible about you.Copy !req
856. - I mean...
- Yeah.Copy !req
857. - The angle of her pelvis...
- It's yoga.Copy !req
858. That's not yoga.Copy !req
859. It is yoga.Copy !req
860. You liked it!Copy !req
861. Oh, my god!Copy !req
862. - That's not cool!
- I had to like it!Copy !req
863. That's right.Copy !req
864. So, that's why...Copy !req
865. CHAPTER 8
JULIE'S NARCISSISTIC CIRCUSCopy !req
866. I want people to watch me dance.Copy !req
867. It's annoying as hell.Copy !req
868. You can make a fool of yourself
on the dance floor and still be cool.Copy !req
869. So true! I've noticed that.
When we dance,Copy !req
870. you take up all the space.Copy !req
871. Yeah, but it's also like,Copy !req
872. "Everyone look at me!"Copy !req
873. Yeah, that's my point.
You're always so mysterious.Copy !req
874. You still have your stash?Copy !req
875. What's that?Copy !req
876. Where'd you find it?Copy !req
877. What is it?Copy !req
878. Magic mushrooms.Copy !req
879. Have you tried it?Copy !req
880. Yeah.Copy !req
881. Right.Copy !req
882. Why'd you do that?Copy !req
883. Yuck.Copy !req
884. Tastes like dirt.Copy !req
885. Anyone?Copy !req
886. I don't feel anything.
They're probably too old.Copy !req
887. I gotta go.Copy !req
888. Are you sure? Could be risky.Copy !req
889. Come on, man.Copy !req
890. We've done this before.Copy !req
891. - We'll talk tomorrow.
- Call me.Copy !req
892. Adil?Copy !req
893. Can you speak?Copy !req
894. It's kicking in for him.Copy !req
895. Julie?Copy !req
896. Is it starting to kick in?Copy !req
897. You need water.Copy !req
898. It's important.Copy !req
899. You have to drink lots of water.Copy !req
900. Here.Copy !req
901. Drink it all.Copy !req
902. You'll be okay.Copy !req
903. You know I'm here for you.Copy !req
904. Julie?Copy !req
905. Drink the water.Copy !req
906. It's okay! I'm here!Copy !req
907. Julie, are you okay?Copy !req
908. I thought I'd make it.Copy !req
909. Are you okay?Copy !req
910. Thought we could use some coffee.Copy !req
911. We won't be doing that again.Copy !req
912. You should take a shower.Copy !req
913. Do I smell bad?Copy !req
914. - Is that...
- Oh, my god.Copy !req
915. Oh, my god.
I need to take a shower.Copy !req
916. Don't worry, it's not urgent.Copy !req
917. Shall I make breakfast?Copy !req
918. I feel I can be myself with you.Copy !req
919. Completely.Copy !req
920. You weren't yourself before?Copy !req
921. I was, but I felt like...Copy !req
922. I had to be...Copy !req
923. a bit...Copy !req
924. like I was when we first met.Copy !req
925. Thanks for putting up with me.Copy !req
926. I love you.Copy !req
927. CHAPTER 9Copy !req
928. Have you read your
old Bobcat comics since you grew up?Copy !req
929. Because in our day and age,Copy !req
930. they seem so inappropriate and murkyCopy !req
931. that we feel almost sickCopy !req
932. reading them.Copy !req
933. It's unpleasant to realize
you created a characterCopy !req
934. who gained popularity
at the expense of women.Copy !req
935. Okay, I get it.Copy !req
936. You're saying art should be pleasant?Copy !req
937. Do you think it's art?Copy !req
938. I brought along
some of your early comics.Copy !req
939. Bobcat is one thing,
but then there's Dick Wolf Dick,Copy !req
940. Pedo the Parrot...Copy !req
941. Right, I don't really think
this is the right medium toCopy !req
942. explain comic book humor.Copy !req
943. Have you ever considered that
some of your readersCopy !req
944. may have been victims
of incest or rape?Copy !req
945. Do we stop creating
because some people might feel bad?Copy !req
946. Artists get killed for drawing things
others find offensive. They're shot.Copy !req
947. Are you comparing Mohammed caricaturesCopy !req
948. with drawings of women with big tits?Copy !req
949. Or with incest?Copy !req
950. What's your point?Copy !req
951. Well, yes and no.Copy !req
952. It's a bit of a cop-outCopy !req
953. to claim freedom of speech
when people criticize you.Copy !req
954. We're discussing your work right now,Copy !req
955. so nobody's censoring you.Copy !req
956. As a woman, I'm upset.Copy !req
957. I'm offended,
though we're not supposed to say that.Copy !req
958. You have a choice.
You don't have to feel offended.Copy !req
959. It's not a choice.Copy !req
960. This is very generational.Copy !req
961. One author cannot be held
solely responsible.Copy !req
962. I think art has to be messy and free.Copy !req
963. It has to be a bit dangerous
to be fun.Copy !req
964. I want art to be a form of therapyCopy !req
965. where I can express and work throughCopy !req
966. all my unacceptable thoughts,Copy !req
967. all my darkest impulses.Copy !req
968. But you're using your male privilegeCopy !req
969. to mock people weaker than you.Copy !req
970. It's hardly art, or even humor.Copy !req
971. Sorry, it's not
smart enough to be satire.Copy !req
972. But this isn't about me.Copy !req
973. Like, when I create something,Copy !req
974. it's not just me talking.Copy !req
975. - I know that much.
- Do you?Copy !req
976. Let's say I draw this interview
as a cartoon.Copy !req
977. The comic version of me
might call you a whore.Copy !req
978. It doesn't mean I think that.Copy !req
979. It could beCopy !req
980. a parody of a certain type
of insecure male...Copy !req
981. You used the word "whore"?Copy !req
982. Yes, I said "whore".Copy !req
983. You're not interested in what I mean.Copy !req
984. Can't you see
that's crass sexualization?Copy !req
985. I think we're on a slippery slope here.Copy !req
986. All you post-feminists
are so fucking self-righteous!Copy !req
987. Thank you, Marthe Refstad
and Aksel Willmann.Copy !req
988. The term is "sex worker" now,
by the way.Copy !req
989. CHAPTER 10Copy !req
990. I'm happy to help!Copy !req
991. Long time no see!Copy !req
992. - Yeah.
- How are you?Copy !req
993. Okay. And you?Copy !req
994. I'm good.Copy !req
995. Do you ever talk to Aksel?Copy !req
996. Is he okay?Copy !req
997. Yeah, well...Copy !req
998. I heard the radio interview.Copy !req
999. Yeah.Copy !req
1000. He went a bit far.Copy !req
1001. He's not doing that well.Copy !req
1002. Did you know he's sick?Copy !req
1003. Aksel?Copy !req
1004. Haven't you heard?Copy !req
1005. He has cancer.Copy !req
1006. Sorry, I thought you knew.Copy !req
1007. It spread quickly.Copy !req
1008. They discovered it too late.Copy !req
1009. Cancer?Copy !req
1010. Pancreatic.Copy !req
1011. But...Copy !req
1012. How is he coping?Copy !req
1013. Pretty well, under the circumstances.Copy !req
1014. But it's hard.Copy !req
1015. The prognosisCopy !req
1016. is not good.Copy !req
1017. It's incurable.Copy !req
1018. Thanks for letting me know.Copy !req
1019. I thought you knew.Copy !req
1020. No, I hadn't heard anything.Copy !req
1021. It's just...Copy !req
1022. I didn't know.Copy !req
1023. When did you write this?Copy !req
1024. Have you read it?Copy !req
1025. I was moving it to paper recycling.Copy !req
1026. It's very good.Copy !req
1027. You think?Copy !req
1028. Yeah, it sucked me right in.Copy !req
1029. It's really, really great.Copy !req
1030. I mean...Copy !req
1031. It's like...Copy !req
1032. What?Copy !req
1033. Well...Copy !req
1034. I have to say,Copy !req
1035. it's really nice to read about you.Copy !req
1036. But it's not about me.Copy !req
1037. But the Christmas scene
is your family, right?Copy !req
1038. Yeah, but it's fiction.
You didn't get that?Copy !req
1039. I made it up.Copy !req
1040. Okay, it's fiction.
In any case...Copy !req
1041. - It's good.
- Because it's me?Copy !req
1042. No, because it's nice.Copy !req
1043. "Nice"?Copy !req
1044. Yeah, nice. Good.
Well written.Copy !req
1045. The way you write
is really great.Copy !req
1046. Like here:Copy !req
1047. "Too many memories overlapping,
blending into a blur."Copy !req
1048. That resonates with me.
It's well written. Truly good.Copy !req
1049. It's not well written.Copy !req
1050. What's wrong?Copy !req
1051. Suddenly you're into literature?Copy !req
1052. What was the last book you read?Copy !req
1053. - Are you okay? What's up?
- Why?Copy !req
1054. You criticize
everything I do these days.Copy !req
1055. Sorry, but going through my trash
is pretty invasive.Copy !req
1056. - Can't you see that?
- Relax.Copy !req
1057. - "Relax"?
- Calm down.Copy !req
1058. Relaxing is your specialty!Copy !req
1059. You don't mind
serving coffee till you're 50.Copy !req
1060. But I want more!Copy !req
1061. That's hurtful.
I don't know what to say.Copy !req
1062. CHAPTER 11Copy !req
1063. Hello?Copy !req
1064. Hey...Copy !req
1065. Have you eaten?Copy !req
1066. Yeah, but I can make pasta if you like.Copy !req
1067. No, I don't need any if you've eaten.Copy !req
1068. Oops, sorry.Copy !req
1069. It started with a backache.Copy !req
1070. I've had backaches before.
I didn't worry.Copy !req
1071. Then my skin turned almost golden.Copy !req
1072. I thought I looked good.Copy !req
1073. It turned out to be jaundice.Copy !req
1074. Mom said I was born jaundiced.
They put me in a light box.Copy !req
1075. Is it painful?Copy !req
1076. No, not really.Copy !req
1077. It's okay.Copy !req
1078. They block selected
neural pathways with Botox.Copy !req
1079. That's good.Copy !req
1080. Yeah, it keeps me from taking
too many painkillers.Copy !req
1081. How's your family doing?Copy !req
1082. Fine, I guess.Copy !req
1083. Mom still follows your every move.Copy !req
1084. And your dad?Copy !req
1085. I've basically cut him off.Copy !req
1086. Good.Copy !req
1087. He can chase me if he likes.Copy !req
1088. Does he?Copy !req
1089. No, not really.Copy !req
1090. Two coffees.Copy !req
1091. They thought it was hilarious.Copy !req
1092. In some circumstances,Copy !req
1093. morbid humour can be funny.Copy !req
1094. Even anal sex at a bar mitzvah?Copy !req
1095. It makes me laugh.
But I'm an old guy now.Copy !req
1096. No.Copy !req
1097. Well, you know...Copy !req
1098. I kind of expected this.Copy !req
1099. I'd given up long before I got sick.Copy !req
1100. Really. I just watch
my favourite old movies over and over.Copy !req
1101. Lynch, The Godfather Part II...Copy !req
1102. How many times can you watchCopy !req
1103. Dog Day Afternoon?Copy !req
1104. Many times!Copy !req
1105. You should.Copy !req
1106. Absolutely.Copy !req
1107. Sometimes I listen to music...Copy !req
1108. I haven't heard before.Copy !req
1109. But...Copy !req
1110. It's old as well.Copy !req
1111. Music I didn't know about,
but from when I grew up.Copy !req
1112. It felt as though I'd already given up.Copy !req
1113. I grew up in an age
without Internet and mobile phones.Copy !req
1114. No, but honestly...Copy !req
1115. I sound like an old fart.
But I think about it a lot.Copy !req
1116. The world that I knew...Copy !req
1117. has disappeared.Copy !req
1118. For me it was all about going to stores.Copy !req
1119. Record stores.Copy !req
1120. I'd take the tram
to Voices record store in Grünerløkka.Copy !req
1121. Leaf through
used comics at Pretty Price.Copy !req
1122. I can close my eyes and see
the aisles at Video Nova in Majorstua.Copy !req
1123. I grew up in a timeCopy !req
1124. when culture was passed along
through objects.Copy !req
1125. They were interesting becauseCopy !req
1126. we could live among them.Copy !req
1127. We could pick them up.
Hold them in our hands.Copy !req
1128. Compare them.Copy !req
1129. A bit like books?Copy !req
1130. Yeah, a bit like books.Copy !req
1131. That's all I have.
I spent my life doing that.Copy !req
1132. Collecting all that stuff,
comics, books...Copy !req
1133. And...Copy !req
1134. I just continued,
even when it stopped giving meCopy !req
1135. the powerful emotionsCopy !req
1136. I felt in my early 20s.Copy !req
1137. I continued anyway.Copy !req
1138. And...Copy !req
1139. now it's all I have left.Copy !req
1140. Knowledge and memories
of stupid, futile thingsCopy !req
1141. nobody cares about.Copy !req
1142. Don't say that.Copy !req
1143. You've got the comics you created.Copy !req
1144. I wish I'd had what you had.Copy !req
1145. To be able to drawCopy !req
1146. without doubting that you're doing
what you're supposed to do.Copy !req
1147. I really wish I had that.Copy !req
1148. Yeah, but...Copy !req
1149. I've got cancer. I'm dying.Copy !req
1150. Of course I'm being retrospective.Copy !req
1151. You said you've done that for ages.Copy !req
1152. Not for that long.Copy !req
1153. In recent years. I reached
a point in life when suddenly...Copy !req
1154. It just happened.Copy !req
1155. When...Copy !req
1156. I began to worship what had been.Copy !req
1157. And now I have nothing else.
I have no future.Copy !req
1158. I can only look back.Copy !req
1159. And...Copy !req
1160. It's not even nostalgia.
It's...Copy !req
1161. fear of death.Copy !req
1162. It's because I'm scared.Copy !req
1163. It has nothing to do with art.Copy !req
1164. I'm just trying to process...Copy !req
1165. I have surgery tomorrow at 9.Copy !req
1166. I felt I could tell you anything.Copy !req
1167. You wouldn't judge me.Copy !req
1168. You're the least
judgemental person I know.Copy !req
1169. I don't have
anyone I can talk to...Copy !req
1170. the way we used to talk.Copy !req
1171. Can you tell me
what you used to tell me?Copy !req
1172. I hated hearing it at the time,
but can you tell me...Copy !req
1173. I'll be a good mother?Copy !req
1174. Are you pregnant?Copy !req
1175. Congratulations?Copy !req
1176. How do you feel?
Good or bad?Copy !req
1177. I don't know.Copy !req
1178. I'm not sure.Copy !req
1179. It was an accident.Copy !req
1180. I must've been careless.
I mean, clearly I was.Copy !req
1181. Were you really sure?Copy !req
1182. Sure you wanted kids?Copy !req
1183. I was scared, too.
I had doubts, of course.Copy !req
1184. But I didn't want to show them,
to keep you from...Copy !req
1185. I never doubted
you'd make a good mother.Copy !req
1186. I saw that you doubted it.Copy !req
1187. If I regret one thing,
it's that I never managedCopy !req
1188. to make you see how wonderful you are.Copy !req
1189. What are you thinking?Copy !req
1190. This is hard to hear.Copy !req
1191. But... will you keep it?Copy !req
1192. I don't know.Copy !req
1193. I wasted so much timeCopy !req
1194. worrying about
what could go wrong.Copy !req
1195. But what did go wrong,
was never the things I worried about.Copy !req
1196. If he's a kind man, then go for it.Copy !req
1197. With a kind father,
and you as the mother,Copy !req
1198. everything will be fine.Copy !req
1199. Your voice has stayed in my head.Copy !req
1200. We still have great conversations.Copy !req
1201. No way?Copy !req
1202. About what?Copy !req
1203. Mostly about comics.Copy !req
1204. Eclectic tastes.Copy !req
1205. Same here.Copy !req
1206. I have imaginary conversations with you.Copy !req
1207. I'm sure I remember things about you
that you've forgotten.Copy !req
1208. And the other way round.Copy !req
1209. Yeah, maybe.Copy !req
1210. When I'm gone,Copy !req
1211. all that stuff about you
will go with me.Copy !req
1212. May I ask you
a question?Copy !req
1213. Had you already met him
when you broke up with me?Copy !req
1214. Yeah.Copy !req
1215. Why didn't you tell me?Copy !req
1216. I don't know.Copy !req
1217. I didn't dare.Copy !req
1218. And now you're breaking up with him?Copy !req
1219. No, why do you say that?Copy !req
1220. Maybe because you don't seem happy
about the baby.Copy !req
1221. And that's what you do
when things get tough.Copy !req
1222. I'm glad I'm pregnant.Copy !req
1223. I'm sorry.Copy !req
1224. It's alright.Copy !req
1225. You were the most important
relationship in my life.Copy !req
1226. You don't have to say anything.Copy !req
1227. I know it's not the same for you.Copy !req
1228. That's normal.
You have many years left to live.Copy !req
1229. But I know,
I feel it.Copy !req
1230. And I want you to know.Copy !req
1231. You were the love of my life.Copy !req
1232. You're a damn good person.Copy !req
1233. I should've told you before.Copy !req
1234. But I couldn't.Copy !req
1235. I'm pregnant.Copy !req
1236. How long have you known?Copy !req
1237. I know we don't want kids.Copy !req
1238. No...Copy !req
1239. I don't know if I do.Copy !req
1240. I feel like I never see anything through.Copy !req
1241. I go from one thing to another.Copy !req
1242. I need timeCopy !req
1243. to think about all this.Copy !req
1244. About us.Copy !req
1245. It's okay.Copy !req
1246. CHAPTER 12Copy !req
1247. That's where I lived.Copy !req
1248. We moved there when I was 8.Copy !req
1249. Shall we knock?Copy !req
1250. No. I don't think so.Copy !req
1251. What do you remember from here?Copy !req
1252. I remember these colours.Copy !req
1253. They were always my referenceCopy !req
1254. when I drew my comics.Copy !req
1255. These colours.Copy !req
1256. And I rememberCopy !req
1257. the local drunk,
who was super nice.Copy !req
1258. I'm so tired of pretending
everything is okay.Copy !req
1259. It sucks being in so much pain.
It sucks.Copy !req
1260. Everything sucks.Copy !req
1261. And...Copy !req
1262. I don't want to be a memory for you.Copy !req
1263. I don't want to be a voice in your head.Copy !req
1264. I don't want to live on through my art.Copy !req
1265. I want to live in my flat.Copy !req
1266. I want to live...Copy !req
1267. I want to live in my flat with you.Copy !req
1268. I want to be happy together.Copy !req
1269. Bye.Copy !req
1270. Bye.Copy !req
1271. Hi, Julie.Copy !req
1272. Aksel's condition has suddenly worsened.Copy !req
1273. He's too ill for his planned treatment.Copy !req
1274. He may not make it through the night.Copy !req
1275. His family is with him,
but I thought you should know.Copy !req
1276. There's nothing more to say.Copy !req
1277. Cut!Copy !req
1278. One more.Copy !req
1279. One more quick take.
Slight adjustment.Copy !req
1280. Be sadder.Copy !req
1281. Okay.Copy !req
1282. But he gets up so quickly.Copy !req
1283. Hey!Copy !req
1284. Okay, camera ready.Copy !req
1285. Action!Copy !req
1286. There's nothing more to say.Copy !req
1287. Cut! Great.Copy !req
1288. Let's move on.Copy !req
1289. Right, stills.Copy !req
1290. Sorry, I need some shots of you.Copy !req
1291. - Sure. Here?
- Yeah.Copy !req
1292. - Are you okay?
- Yeah.Copy !req
1293. But I think I was pretty terrible.Copy !req
1294. Then use that.
Hold on to that feeling.Copy !req
1295. Act like you're looking at him.Copy !req