1. A film in 12 chapters,
a prologue and an epilogueCopy !req
2. You've been through the epidermis,
derma and muscles.Copy !req
3. Julie disappointed herself.
This used to be easy.Copy !req
4. She was still among the top students,Copy !req
5. but there were too manyCopy !req
6. interruptions, updates,Copy !req
7. feeds,Copy !req
8. unsolvable global problems.Copy !req
9. She sensedCopy !req
10. a gnawing unease
she had tried to suppress by crammingCopy !req
11. by drowning it in digital interference.Copy !req
12. This was wrong.
This wasn't her.Copy !req
13. She'd chosen medicineCopy !req
14. because it was
so hard to gain admission.Copy !req
15. Where her excellent grades
actually meant something.Copy !req
16. But then she had
a revelation.Copy !req
17. Her passion had always been the soul.Copy !req
18. The mind, not the body.Copy !req
19. Surgery is like, so concrete.Copy !req
20. It's almost like being a carpenter.Copy !req
21. But now...Copy !req
22. My passion has always been
what goes on inside — thoughts and feelings.Copy !req
23. It was like a window had opened.Copy !req
24. Not anatomy.Copy !req
25. If psychology will make you happy,
then do it.Copy !req
26. I think you're really brave.Copy !req
27. I can't take it anymore.
I don't want to.Copy !req
28. She left him.Copy !req
29. Though he was devastated,Copy !req
30. he had to respect
the way she took control of her life.Copy !req
31. She observed her fellow students.Copy !req
32. Norway's future spiritual advisers.Copy !req
33. Mostly girls with borderline
eating disorders.Copy !req
34. Say you're at a party.Copy !req
35. She still felt trapped in
the role of model student.Copy !req
36. All this cramming.Copy !req
37. When was life supposed to start?Copy !req
38. What's your name?Copy !req
39. Julie.Copy !req
40. The person's name is Julie.Copy !req
41. Let's say Julie and I
meet at a party,Copy !req
42. and we feel a mutual attraction.Copy !req
43. Hypothetically.Copy !req
44. Actually, she was a visual person.Copy !req
45. Now I know.Copy !req
46. I want to be a photographer.Copy !req
47. A photographer?Copy !req
48. I see.Copy !req
49. Julie spent her student loan
on cameras and lenses.Copy !req
50. As long as you're serious about it.Copy !req
51. No safety net. No holding back.Copy !req
52. Need help?Copy !req
53. She took a temp job
in a bookstore.Copy !req
54. Started a photography course.Copy !req
55. Super!Copy !req
56. She made new friends.Copy !req
57. It felt like coming home.Copy !req
58. Suddenly Oslo was a different city.Copy !req
59. New places. New faces.Copy !req
60. Hi. Aksel.Copy !req
61. Right...Copy !req
62. You're the comic book artist?Copy !req
63. She'd heard
he was the creator of Bobcat.Copy !req
64. Sorry, I'm a wild animal.Copy !req
65. Have you read it?Copy !req
66. Yeah.Copy !req
67. So?Copy !req
68. She pretended she'd read it.Copy !req
69. She only remembered one strip
she'd found vaguely sexist.Copy !req
70. I know what you mean.Copy !req
71. Nothing's ever good enough.Copy !req
72. The only thing worse than
all the idiots is yourself.Copy !req
73. But...Copy !req
74. If we go on, I'll fall in love with you.
Then it'll be too late.Copy !req
75. Maybe we should agree to...Copy !req
76. stop seeing each other.Copy !req
77. The problem is our age difference.Copy !req
78. I'm just afraid we'll fall into
a vicious circle.Copy !req
79. You're much younger than I am.Copy !req
80. You'll start to question who you are.Copy !req
81. I'm past 40.
I've entered a new phase.Copy !req
82. Whereas you still need time
to find yourself.Copy !req
83. You don't need me waiting.Copy !req
84. You need to be completely free.Copy !req
85. I'm just afraid we'll hurt each other.Copy !req
86. Later she said
that was the precise momentCopy !req
87. she fell in love with him.Copy !req
88. Shall I put your bag in the bedroom?Copy !req
89. Yes, please.Copy !req
90. I have two copies of a book!Copy !req
91. Huh?Copy !req
92. Yeah.Copy !req
93. I'll throw one away.Copy !req
94. Can I have two shelves?Copy !req
95. How many closets do you need?Copy !req
96. How many can I have?Copy !req
97. No, that's not how it works.Copy !req
98. This is antique glass.
All wavy and stuff.Copy !req
99. No, don't do that. Not like that.Copy !req
100. No!Copy !req
101. Lift this catch here.Copy !req
102. I'm terrified it'll break.Copy !req
103. I gaze out this window.Copy !req
104. - No way!
- I'm not kidding.Copy !req
105. Hey, that's how relationships work.Copy !req
106. She's a bit frosty towards me.
That's new.Copy !req
107. Yeah? Why do you think that is?Copy !req
108. It's embarrassing to say.Copy !req
109. We've been single together.Copy !req
110. Lived that life.Copy !req
111. Then suddenly I move in with you.Copy !req
112. - And you're happy?
- Yeah.Copy !req
113. No, no, no...Copy !req
114. Did you date this guy?Copy !req
115. Yeah, just a fling.Copy !req
116. Okay.Copy !req
117. Stop!Copy !req
118. You're so predictable!Copy !req
119. Let's just fuck.Copy !req
120. Hello!Copy !req
121. CHAPTER 1Copy !req
122. - Happy to see you!
- Me, too.Copy !req
123. - Doing good?
- Yeah.Copy !req
124. Hi, Martin.Copy !req
125. Welcome.Copy !req
126. Thanks for coming.Copy !req
127. Dad designed it.Copy !req
128. We should renovate,
but don't want to change anything.Copy !req
129. It's beautiful.Copy !req
130. Yeah, but there's stuff like that. Damp.Copy !req
131. We get this room
because we're childless.Copy !req
132. Dibs on the top bunk.Copy !req
133. I always feel that Tone doesn't like me.Copy !req
134. She's just shy.Copy !req
135. That's what you say about boring people.Copy !req
136. - It's my turn now.
- Okay.Copy !req
137. Thank you.Copy !req
138. Vin?Copy !req
139. Vin de blanc?Copy !req
140. Thanks.Copy !req
141. Do you have any friends with kids yet?Copy !req
142. No. Only one.Copy !req
143. Guess this feels unfamiliar.Copy !req
144. - They're very sweet.
- Thanks.Copy !req
145. So what are you doing now, Julie?Copy !req
146. Aksel says you've started writing?Copy !req
147. Well, I wouldn't exactly
call it writing.Copy !req
148. Being modest?Copy !req
149. No.Copy !req
150. Seems so.Copy !req
151. Is there anything you'd like to do,Copy !req
152. as a career?Copy !req
153. Questions, questions, Karianne.Copy !req
154. That question was vulgar
when we were students.Copy !req
155. Lucky you!Copy !req
156. Yeah, we were.Copy !req
157. True, we had a lot of freedom.Copy !req
158. Being young today is different.Copy !req
159. The pressure is heart-breaking.Copy !req
160. There's no time to think.Copy !req
161. Always something on the screen.Copy !req
162. Take William.Copy !req
163. If we don't set limits,
he spends his life on screens.Copy !req
164. Nice try.Copy !req
165. Okay.Copy !req
166. No, it's not your turn.Copy !req
167. It's Martin's turn.Copy !req
168. Julie's still the closest.Copy !req
169. Bedtime.Copy !req
170. - She's exhausted.
- No!Copy !req
171. No!Copy !req
172. - Yes!
- No!Copy !req
173. I don't want to go to bed!Copy !req
174. I don't want to!Copy !req
175. Eva, don't make another scene.
Come here!Copy !req
176. No! I don't want to!Copy !req
177. Let go!Copy !req
178. - You silly girl!
- I don't want to!Copy !req
179. But I want you to!Copy !req
180. I don't want to!Copy !req
181. Kids can be intense.Copy !req
182. Well, it's okay.Copy !req
183. - Fun with kids.
- Yeah.Copy !req
184. Can't we just enjoy it?Copy !req
185. Please. No fights.Copy !req
186. There are kids here, and it's chaos.Copy !req
187. Just try.Copy !req
188. Try playing with them
or something, okay?Copy !req
189. Please.Copy !req
190. Spare me the kid talk.Copy !req
191. Sorry, but I wasn't the one who started.Copy !req
192. You're with someone who's
younger than you. There's a gap.Copy !req
193. You're almost 30.
Not a bad age to have kids.Copy !req
194. I'm 44. I want to go to the next level.
With you.Copy !req
195. It has nothing to do with my friends.Copy !req
196. You seem to be waiting for something.
I don't know what.Copy !req
197. Hello?Copy !req
198. Jeez.Copy !req
199. I didn't want to get into this.Copy !req
200. Really not.Copy !req
201. Everything's on your terms.Copy !req
202. You have time off,
so we're on holiday.Copy !req
203. You agreed.Copy !req
204. After you publish, you get bored.Copy !req
205. And start talking about kids.Copy !req
206. The others here have kids,
so it's an issue.Copy !req
207. Not true.Copy !req
208. It is true.Copy !req
209. And then...Copy !req
210. you get a new idea at some point,Copy !req
211. and disappear into your drawing board.Copy !req
212. What are you saying?Copy !req
213. Don't start. It's not cool.Copy !req
214. Shut up. Please.Copy !req
215. Of course I'd be there if we had kids.Copy !req
216. You know that.
You know I want children.Copy !req
217. Sure, and I'll also want kids
at some point.Copy !req
218. But I don't know...Copy !req
219. I have no maternal instinct, right?Copy !req
220. No, you'd make a great mom.Copy !req
221. I'm sure of it.Copy !req
222. I want to have children, too.Copy !req
223. At some point.Copy !req
224. So what are we waiting for?
What has to happen first?Copy !req
225. I don't know what exactly.Copy !req
226. I just want to do more first.Copy !req
227. Okay, like what?Copy !req
228. What's the obstacle?Copy !req
229. I don't know! Why do you ask?Copy !req
230. Your concept is flawed.Copy !req
231. Most people have kids without
sorting out their life first.Copy !req
232. - They figure it out.
- Flawed?Copy !req
233. That's how most people do it.Copy !req
234. But I don't want everything
to happen on your terms,Copy !req
235. based on what you want.Copy !req
236. Fine. I got it.
But what do you want?Copy !req
237. Oh, please! We have to stop.Copy !req
238. I need sleep
to put up with those people.Copy !req
239. I know a guy
who has a theory about that.Copy !req
240. He says we have
a limited number of sperm.Copy !req
241. Say... three trillion in your lifetime.Copy !req
242. Jerk off too much...Copy !req
243. and you run out.
Could be true.Copy !req
244. Easy now, Portnoy.Copy !req
245. How fascinating.Copy !req
246. Personally, I feel likeCopy !req
247. I know everything
about male problems.Copy !req
248. Erectile dysfunction,Copy !req
249. morning wood,
infatuation with young women...Copy !req
250. premature ejaculation...Copy !req
251. Nice work, Aksel.Copy !req
252. It's in all the books and movies.Copy !req
253. Where's the menstrual period?Copy !req
254. Female orgasm and desire? Where?Copy !req
255. Good question. Tell us.
In juicy detail.Copy !req
256. No, the point isCopy !req
257. it shouldn't be taboo.Copy !req
258. If men had periods,
that's all we'd hear about.Copy !req
259. Can you womansplain itCopy !req
260. a bit better?Copy !req
261. What do you mean?Copy !req
262. Like mansplaining, but womansplaining.Copy !req
263. What?Copy !req
264. Mansplaining is...Copy !req
265. When a 45-year-old man explainsCopy !req
266. how things really are
to a younger woman.Copy !req
267. Nice demonstration!Copy !req
268. My pleasure.Copy !req
269. Ding! Great!Copy !req
270. Whiskey, anyone?Copy !req
271. How's the senior citizen club doing?Copy !req
272. Come on.Copy !req
273. Look who's here!Copy !req
274. Are you okay?Copy !req
275. Not really.Copy !req
276. Show me.Copy !req
277. No!Copy !req
278. Let me see...Copy !req
279. We'll laugh about it later.
It's just a scratch.Copy !req
280. Karianne's such a drama queen.Copy !req
281. It's my fault.Copy !req
282. Not at all, Julie.Copy !req
283. It is. I always overdo it.Copy !req
284. I know being here isn't easy for you.Copy !req
285. I'm not into this whole
"happy family" thing either.Copy !req
286. I'm glad it turned into a party tonight.Copy !req
287. I hope you had fun!Copy !req
288. What the hell's wrong with you?Copy !req
289. What's wrong with having a little fun?Copy !req
290. I didn't have any fun!Copy !req
291. Sorry that happened.Copy !req
292. You don't care!Copy !req
293. Shut up! Just shut up!Copy !req
294. You don't give a shit about me!Copy !req
295. Shall we make a baby?Copy !req
296. Fuck you.Copy !req
297. - Hi.
- Good morning.Copy !req
298. There's coffee. And cups.Copy !req
299. CHAPTER 2Copy !req
300. Sorry, I forgot.Copy !req
301. What's your line of work?Copy !req
302. I work in a bookstore.Copy !req
303. Which one?Copy !req
304. Norli, by the university.Copy !req
305. Could you excuse me for a moment?Copy !req
306. Could you sign?Copy !req
307. Sure, I'll just finish this.Copy !req
308. Any new Bobcat in the pipeline?Copy !req
309. I've moved on.Copy !req
310. Do you work full-time there,Copy !req
311. or are you just temping on weekends?Copy !req
312. - Sorry.
- Bye.Copy !req
313. Hey, I think I'll head home.Copy !req
314. Okay.Copy !req
315. - You good?
- Yeah.Copy !req
316. - Sure?
- Yeah, I'm fine.Copy !req
317. - I can stay if you like.
- It's okay.Copy !req
318. - But I have to stay a bit longer.
- Of course.Copy !req
319. Okay. See you at home.Copy !req
320. Hi. Can I have a smoke?Copy !req
321. Of course.Copy !req
322. I had my second child
ten years later.Copy !req
323. Now we're supposed
to introduce solids at 4 months.Copy !req
324. What made the pediatricians
change their minds?Copy !req
325. - Do you cuddle your kids?
- Sure, a lot.Copy !req
326. They'll be drug addicts.Copy !req
327. They'll be addicts
because I cuddle them?Copy !req
328. Yeah, according to new research.Copy !req
329. New research says
you shouldn't cuddle your kids?Copy !req
330. I realize it must be counter-intuitive
for a mother.Copy !req
331. But motherhood upsets
your limbic system.Copy !req
332. So my kids are going to be drug addicts?Copy !req
333. That's ridiculous.
Do you have children?Copy !req
334. No, but I'm a doctor.
I have a medical perspective.Copy !req
335. Babies express themselves by crying.Copy !req
336. It's normal for a mother or a father
to comfort them.Copy !req
337. Hi.Copy !req
338. Not asking me the usual questions?Copy !req
339. - Which ones?
- Who I am, what I do.Copy !req
340. Who are you? What do you do?Copy !req
341. I hate those questions.Copy !req
342. They're especially bad
when you're a doctor.Copy !req
343. Are you a doctor?Copy !req
344. No, you are.Copy !req
345. Which questions should I ask?Copy !req
346. Ask me who I know here.Copy !req
347. - Who do you know here?
- Nobody.Copy !req
348. I crashed the party.Copy !req
349. You just waltzed in?Copy !req
350. Okay.Copy !req
351. Nothing's gonna happen.Copy !req
352. Of course not.Copy !req
353. I'm with someone I love.Copy !req
354. Me, too.Copy !req
355. And I can't stand cheating.
I've been there. Never again.Copy !req
356. - Right, cheating is...
- No good.Copy !req
357. But where do you draw the line?Copy !req
358. You can feel it.Copy !req
359. If I do this...Copy !req
360. Is that cheating?Copy !req
361. No.Copy !req
362. What about this?Copy !req
363. - No, that's permissible.
- Is it?Copy !req
364. And hurting someone
who's not your partner?Copy !req
365. - You hurt your partner?
- Is that cheating?Copy !req
366. Did that hurt?Copy !req
367. Did it?Copy !req
368. - Feel good?
- Yeah, it did.Copy !req
369. Okay.Copy !req
370. Let me smell your sweat.Copy !req
371. - No.
- Yes.Copy !req
372. - Seriously?
- Yes, that's allowed.Copy !req
373. - It stinks!
- Yes.Copy !req
374. The kind of smell you never forget.Copy !req
375. My turn to smell you.Copy !req
376. No, please.
I regret it now.Copy !req
377. Let me smell.Copy !req
378. I think you smell nice.Copy !req
379. I don't know if...Copy !req
380. this is permissible.Copy !req
381. Go ahead.Copy !req
382. Okay.Copy !req
383. You start,
then I'll go next.Copy !req
384. I actually think sex is bestCopy !req
385. when the dick isn't too hard.Copy !req
386. Because...Copy !req
387. in a way, then I'm the oneCopy !req
388. who makes it hard, you know?Copy !req
389. My secret will be dumb now.Copy !req
390. I guess I misunderstood.Copy !req
391. I was going to say
I like the Barcode Project.Copy !req
392. It looks pretty from the bridge
when I go to work.Copy !req
393. I expose my darkest secrets,
and you...Copy !req
394. You said "secrets",
not "darkest".Copy !req
395. So why is that a secret?Copy !req
396. Because everyone thinks it's ugly.Copy !req
397. Sorry, we're...Copy !req
398. - Can I whisper it?
- Okay.Copy !req
399. What?Copy !req
400. Sorry, I seem to
be sitting on everything.Copy !req
401. My bad.Copy !req
402. There's nothing sexual about that.Copy !req
403. Not at all.Copy !req
404. Although you do like soft dicks.Copy !req
405. Yeah.Copy !req
406. Okay. Your turn.Copy !req
407. I can't pee.Copy !req
408. Just relax.Copy !req
409. I'm going this way.Copy !req
410. Okay.Copy !req
411. What's your name?Copy !req
412. Julie.Copy !req
413. - I'm Eivind. Eivind...
- Don't say it.Copy !req
414. Why not?Copy !req
415. I'll find you on Facebook, and...Copy !req
416. Good thinking.Copy !req
417. Okay.Copy !req
418. - Bye.
- Bye.Copy !req
419. - We didn't cheat.
- No.Copy !req
420. - Not at all.
- No.Copy !req
421. Bye.Copy !req
422. CHAPTER 3
ORAL SEX IN THE AGE OF #METOOCopy !req
423. Aksel?Copy !req
424. Aksel, I need to tell you something.Copy !req
425. Aksel?Copy !req
426. "A friend told me she had sex
with a manCopy !req
427. "who pumped his dick into her mouth
while he held her head.Copy !req
428. "She was confused
because she enjoyed it.Copy !req
429. "It really turned her on.Copy !req
430. "Can you be a feminist
and still enjoy being mouth-fucked?Copy !req
431. "Most women I know are ambivalent
about performing oral sex.Copy !req
432. "They must act as if they like...
the pathetic expectationCopy !req
433. "that it'll turn them on...Copy !req
434. "I like it flaccid.Copy !req
435. "So I create the stiffnessCopy !req
436. "instead of having it thrust upon me."Copy !req
437. This is good.Copy !req
438. - Yeah?
- It's over the top.Copy !req
439. I don't agree with everything,
but it's very well written.Copy !req
440. Original. Very good.Copy !req
441. What will you do with it?Copy !req
442. I don't know.Copy !req
443. You really think it's good?Copy !req
444. Yeah. Absolutely.Copy !req
445. You sure?Copy !req
446. Yeah, I'm not lying.Copy !req
447. No?Copy !req
448. Are you sure?Copy !req
449. Don't you dare doubt it.Copy !req
450. It's pretty cerebral.Copy !req
451. But it turns me on too.Copy !req
452. - Right?
- Kinda.Copy !req
453. Is that why you wrote it?Copy !req
454. Intellectual Viagra?Copy !req
455. - Yeah.
- It works.Copy !req
456. Her piece
"Oral Sex in the Age of #MeToo"Copy !req
457. was published on jubel.no.Copy !req
458. It was widely shared and set off
a lively Facebook debate.Copy !req
459. With the strong painkillers I'm on,
I can't drive.Copy !req
460. CHAPTER 4Copy !req
461. I understand.Copy !req
462. I hoped I could come, but...Copy !req
463. I can't spend an hour on a bus
with this back.Copy !req
464. Don't worry about it.Copy !req
465. Could you come to Hønefoss
next weekend?Copy !req
466. So we can celebrate together.Copy !req
467. Nathalie says
happy birthday too.Copy !req
468. Say hello from me.Copy !req
469. How nice to see you.Copy !req
470. - It's been too long.
- Way too long.Copy !req
471. Anyway, have a nice birthday.Copy !req
472. Thanks.Copy !req
473. Okay.Copy !req
474. I'm too skinny?Copy !req
475. - You work too much.
- True.Copy !req
476. We'll talk later.Copy !req
477. Happy birthday!Copy !req
478. - Why do I always have to go see him?
- He's not coming?Copy !req
479. Well, he's got a backache.Copy !req
480. There's always something wrong with him.Copy !req
481. Hello!Copy !req
482. So, he's not coming.Copy !req
483. That's not nice.Copy !req
484. He wanted to, but he has a backache.Copy !req
485. Does he realize how it makes you feel?Copy !req
486. - He's...
- It's a backache, Mom.Copy !req
487. Sorry.Copy !req
488. Please help yourself.Copy !req
489. Thank you. It looks delicious.Copy !req
490. I hope you like it.Copy !req
491. At 30, Julie's mom, Eva,Copy !req
492. had been divorced for two years.
A single mom,Copy !req
493. and accountant in a publishing house.Copy !req
494. Thanks.Copy !req
495. Have you read Julie's article?Copy !req
496. Of course.Copy !req
497. - And?
- It's great.Copy !req
498. - Have you read it, Mom?
- No.Copy !req
499. Julie's article. It's excellent.Copy !req
500. At 30, Julie's grandmother
had three children.Copy !req
501. She played Rebecca West in Rosmersholm
at the National Theater.Copy !req
502. At 30,
Julie's great-grandmother, Astrid,Copy !req
503. was a widow, alone with four children.Copy !req
504. Julie's great-great-grandmother
had seven children.Copy !req
505. Two died of tuberculosis.Copy !req
506. Julie's great-great-great-grandmother,
Herta, was a merchant's wifeCopy !req
507. with six childrenCopy !req
508. in a loveless marriage.Copy !req
509. Julie's great-great-great-great-grandmother
never turned 30.Copy !req
510. The life expectancy for women
at the time was 35 years.Copy !req
511. I don't want to bother you
with it, but...Copy !req
512. It's getting harder and harder to pee.Copy !req
513. I was scared it was prostate cancer,Copy !req
514. but it wasn't.Copy !req
515. - Well, that's good.
- Yeah.Copy !req
516. Still...Copy !req
517. I go to the toilet all the time.Copy !req
518. And...Copy !req
519. there's leakage.Copy !req
520. Thanks for the cool jacket.
Good timing.Copy !req
521. I want to get into hiking.Copy !req
522. Sorry we're late.Copy !req
523. You didn't make them coffee?Copy !req
524. It's okay.Copy !req
525. I'll fix something.Copy !req
526. - How'd it go?
- Great.Copy !req
527. - How many saves?
- Lots.Copy !req
528. Good job.Copy !req
529. Happy belated birthday.Copy !req
530. 30 is pretty major.Copy !req
531. Too bad we missed it.Copy !req
532. The tournament lasted all day.Copy !req
533. So we couldn't come.Copy !req
534. No problem. That's okay.Copy !req
535. She's the goalkeeper.
You should see her play.Copy !req
536. No, she doesn't have to.Copy !req
537. She's awesome.Copy !req
538. I'll let you know next time.Copy !req
539. Yeah, please do.Copy !req
540. Cool.Copy !req
541. Did you get the article I sent you?Copy !req
542. Yeah, I was about to ask you.
I couldn't get the link to work.Copy !req
543. My PC acts up.Copy !req
544. Know anything about computers?Copy !req
545. I can take a look.Copy !req
546. But can't she just resend the email?Copy !req
547. Wasn't there a...Copy !req
548. Did she send it
in an email?Copy !req
549. An attachment to an email.Copy !req
550. No, I pressed the button on the mouse.Copy !req
551. Then I put the arrow on the square.Copy !req
552. I tried twice, then it vanished.Copy !req
553. It could be my fault.Copy !req
554. Maybe I sent the wrong version.Copy !req
555. We'll fix it.
You have to read that article.Copy !req
556. It's really good.Copy !req
557. Very...Copy !req
558. Very well written, and...Copy !req
559. Clever girl.Copy !req
560. When are you coming to see us,
Per Harald?Copy !req
561. We'd love it.
Come see where your daughter lives.Copy !req
562. Sure, of course.Copy !req
563. But it's hard to park in Central Oslo.Copy !req
564. They've got that...Copy !req
565. resident...Copy !req
566. resident parking there.Copy !req
567. Yeah.Copy !req
568. It's made it much easier
to find a space.Copy !req
569. You just have to pay.Copy !req
570. And move the car every half hour?Copy !req
571. Is that the reason
you don't come to see us?Copy !req
572. Because it's hard to drive in town?Copy !req
573. That's not it.Copy !req
574. Then what is it?Copy !req
575. Well, you know...Copy !req
576. with my painkillers,
I'm not allowed to drive.Copy !req
577. There's that, too.Copy !req
578. The good thing is,
he's open about it.Copy !req
579. His pains. His prostate.Copy !req
580. You have to make your own family.Copy !req
581. CHAPTER 5Copy !req
582. Excuse me?Copy !req
583. Hi.Copy !req
584. Do you have Green Yoga?Copy !req
585. Let me check.Copy !req
586. - Which book again?
- Green Yoga.Copy !req
587. Published last year.Copy !req
588. No, I'll have to order it.
It's not in stock.Copy !req
589. How long will it take?Copy !req
590. Two weeks.Copy !req
591. Okay. No thanks.Copy !req
592. They don't have it either.Copy !req
593. Okay.Copy !req
594. We can try at Ark.Copy !req
595. Thank you.Copy !req
596. I told her
I forgot my sunglasses.Copy !req
597. I just had to sayCopy !req
598. that I know what we said.Copy !req
599. But I think about you a lot.Copy !req
600. And...Copy !req
601. I don't want to bug you
if you're happy.Copy !req
602. Are you?Copy !req
603. - I don't know what to say.
- Say nothing.Copy !req
604. I'd like to see you again.
Just to talk.Copy !req
605. I mean, I'm not going to...Copy !req
606. But I'd like to see you again.
Just to...Copy !req
607. I'm at Åpent Bakeri in Barcode
nearly every day.Copy !req
608. I work there, I mean.
If you want to.Copy !req
609. So...Copy !req
610. - Eivind?
- Yes.Copy !req
611. Your glasses.Copy !req
612. Oh, right. Fuck.Copy !req
613. Language opens the door
to the subconscious.Copy !req
614. Freud was a great writer.Copy !req
615. He could be self-critical.Copy !req
616. He never hesitated
to revise his theories.Copy !req
617. He viewed each individual patient
as a research subject.Copy !req
618. Freud didn't distinguish between
therapy and research.Copy !req
619. I find that very compelling.Copy !req
620. Especially these days,Copy !req
621. when scientific methodology
is appliedCopy !req
622. even in the humanities.Copy !req
623. Enough about Freud.
How's the movie coming along?Copy !req
624. Isn't it almost done?Copy !req
625. Yeah, I've seen it, but...Copy !req
626. - You have?
- Yes.Copy !req
627. It's no longer mine at all.Copy !req
628. Is it as bad as you feared?Copy !req
629. The worst thing is how
they've housetrained Bobcat.Copy !req
630. It's all very sanitized and safe.Copy !req
631. I'll show you something.Copy !req
632. A mock-up of the movie poster.Copy !req
633. I have to admit...Copy !req
634. I'm embarrassed my name's on it.Copy !req
635. Shit.Copy !req
636. No! Seriously?Copy !req
637. You must be kidding. No way.Copy !req
638. That's the poster. For real.Copy !req
639. Let's see.Copy !req
640. Looks like Chip and Dale.Copy !req
641. Holy shit.Copy !req
642. Should I laugh or cry?Copy !req
643. Everything was butchered.
The story. All the details.Copy !req
644. They removed the starfish.Copy !req
645. Sorry, I'm lost.Copy !req
646. What starfish?Copy !req
647. It's, you know...Copy !req
648. the butthole. The anus.Copy !req
649. His butt is smooth in the movie.Copy !req
650. This thing is gone.Copy !req
651. That's bad in my book.Copy !req
652. In underground comics you shit,Copy !req
653. you puke, you fuck and all that stuff.Copy !req
654. Bobcat is a wild cat
in a world of domestic cats.Copy !req
655. He's a rebel against the bourgeoisie.Copy !req
656. One of the most iconic buttholes ever.Copy !req
657. Coffee?Copy !req
658. Yeah.Copy !req
659. I don't know what we should do.Copy !req
660. I have to go.Copy !req
661. Aksel,Copy !req
662. we need to talk.Copy !req
663. Yeah, of course.Copy !req
664. What's wrong?Copy !req
665. Julie said she'd been thinking.Copy !req
666. It wasn't his fault.
Nothing he could have changed.Copy !req
667. It's not anything you've done.Copy !req
668. It's not your fault. But I feel...Copy !req
669. It was about
all their old arguments.Copy !req
670. Things they both knew.Copy !req
671. It was bad timing.Copy !req
672. They'd met in different phases of life.Copy !req
673. They wanted different things.Copy !req
674. We want different things.Copy !req
675. Are you leaving me?Copy !req
676. Yeah.Copy !req
677. I want it to be over.Copy !req
678. Are you sure you're yourself right now?Copy !req
679. What do you mean?Copy !req
680. Do you realize...Copy !req
681. Do you realize what you're doing?Copy !req
682. What you're destroying?Copy !req
683. Yes, of course.Copy !req
684. That's why it's so hard.Copy !req
685. Where will you live?Copy !req
686. I don't know.Copy !req
687. You don't know?Copy !req
688. No. With Mom.Copy !req
689. Move home to Mom?Copy !req
690. Yeah. Until I find a place.Copy !req
691. Okay.Copy !req
692. No, come on...Copy !req
693. It's over.Copy !req
694. I've had it. What else can I say?Copy !req
695. Is something else bothering you
and you're venting on me?Copy !req
696. No.Copy !req
697. I've thought about it for a long time.Copy !req
698. It feels right.Copy !req
699. Have you met someone?Copy !req
700. No.Copy !req
701. I'm so sick of all this, Julie.
Dammit.Copy !req
702. Sick to death of it.Copy !req
703. But okay.Copy !req
704. Just leave. If that's what you want.Copy !req
705. I'll take a walk while you pack.Copy !req
706. Julie said he deserved
a more grounded woman.Copy !req
707. Ready for children.Copy !req
708. Who was dependable,Copy !req
709. didn't flake out every six months.Copy !req
710. But I like you flaky.Copy !req
711. Aksel said he liked her flaky.Copy !req
712. That he needed someone like that.Copy !req
713. Who could draw him out
of his drawing board.Copy !req
714. And as for having kids...Copy !req
715. He said
he'd rather be childless with herCopy !req
716. than have kids with anyone else.Copy !req
717. You know that's not the only problem.Copy !req
718. So what is the problem?Copy !req
719. It's a combination of things,
not just that.Copy !req
720. I can see you're in a crisis right now.Copy !req
721. I can understand that.Copy !req
722. But if you love me,Copy !req
723. we'll sort it all out.Copy !req
724. Yes, I do love you.Copy !req
725. And I don't love you.Copy !req
726. Julie felt that this sentence,Copy !req
727. the way she said it,Copy !req
728. her emphasis on certain words,Copy !req
729. summed up the impossibility of it all.Copy !req
730. I feel like a spectator in my own life.Copy !req
731. Like I'm playing a supporting role
in my own life.Copy !req
732. I get that you feel stuck.Copy !req
733. You need a change.Copy !req
734. But is this the solution?Copy !req
735. This is exactly my point.Copy !req
736. I'm trying to tell you how I feel,Copy !req
737. and you're defining my feelings.Copy !req
738. I see what you're doing.Copy !req
739. What am I doing?
Tell me what I'm doing.Copy !req
740. Shut up, and I'll tell you.Copy !req
741. You're acting out the confrontation
you never dared have with your father.Copy !req
742. - You're taking it out on me.
- Is that so?Copy !req
743. What do you know about it?Copy !req
744. This is the crux of our relationship.Copy !req
745. Everything we feel,
we have to put into words.Copy !req
746. Sometimes, I just want to feel things.Copy !req
747. You insist on being so
damn strong all the time.Copy !req
748. For you,Copy !req
749. being strongCopy !req
750. is about formulating things.Copy !req
751. If you analyze thingsCopy !req
752. at every psychological level,Copy !req
753. you think you're strong.Copy !req
754. Because I'm less analytical,
you think I'm weaker.Copy !req
755. She said she was terrified
of being alone.Copy !req
756. Terrified of living without him.Copy !req
757. That when she left,Copy !req
758. she'd be like Bambi on the ice.Copy !req
759. And that was precisely
why she had to do it.Copy !req
760. Aksel mumbled soothing words
she didn't hear.Copy !req
761. She was thinking about how,Copy !req
762. at the age of 30,
she'd just compared herself to Bambi.Copy !req
763. No.Copy !req
764. I'm pathetic.Copy !req
765. No, you're not.Copy !req
766. Aksel...Copy !req
767. Hey...Copy !req
768. I didn't mean what I said.Copy !req
769. It's okay.Copy !req
770. I said plenty of things, too.Copy !req
771. Stay a little longer.Copy !req
772. You'll regret it.Copy !req
773. I'm sure I will.Copy !req
774. The saddest thing,Copy !req
775. is one day, you'll want kids.Copy !req
776. In any case,
you'll have other relationships.Copy !req
777. And you'll realize that
what we had was unique.Copy !req
778. I know.Copy !req
779. You don't. But I do.
I've had many relationships.Copy !req
780. I know how hard it is.Copy !req
781. Nobody communicates like we do.
Laughs like we do.Copy !req
782. Who knows?
Maybe we'll get back together someday.Copy !req
783. Then and there...Copy !req
784. she meant it.Copy !req
785. I mean it.Copy !req
786. CHAPTER 6Copy !req
787. - Are you cold?
- Yeah.Copy !req
788. - It looked easier on YouTube.
- I told you we should practice.Copy !req
789. Wait...Copy !req
790. This one first.Copy !req
791. - Are you sure?
- Yes, this goes on top.Copy !req
792. Right, but is it first?Copy !req
793. Isn't the other one first?Copy !req
794. - No, that's the top.
- Okay.Copy !req
795. Eivind turned it into a funny story
he told everyone.Copy !req
796. But it touched
something deeper in her.Copy !req
797. Awoke something in her.Copy !req
798. She googled her family name.Copy !req
799. Her grandfather came
from the Far North.Copy !req
800. The DNA sample
she sent to America confirmed it.Copy !req
801. Eivind didn't see how
her newfound identityCopy !req
802. as 3.1% SamiCopy !req
803. connected to mind-expanding substances
and unrelated exotic rituals,Copy !req
804. but tried to be supportive.Copy !req
805. As she became increasingly militant,Copy !req
806. she saw how climate change
was hurting indigenous people.Copy !req
807. Inuit starving as seals vanish.Copy !req
808. Melting ice ruining reindeer pastures.Copy !req
809. Aborigines dying of skin cancer
from the hole in the ozone.Copy !req
810. Eivind could forget
about flying to New York.Copy !req
811. Breathe in. All the way up.Copy !req
812. She made them liveCopy !req
813. more sustainably.Copy !req
814. He could always do better.Copy !req
815. Study the ingredients more closely.Copy !req
816. Consider the environmental impact
of his purchases.Copy !req
817. Plastic is killing the oceans.Copy !req
818. Norwegian cod
was ferried to China and back.Copy !req
819. Cobalt mining was destroying the Congo.Copy !req
820. Batteries had blood on their hands.Copy !req
821. The sum of Western guilt
sat beside him on the couch.Copy !req
822. Went to bed with him at night.Copy !req
823. Everything was weighed against
the greater cause.Copy !req
824. He felt he was betraying Sunniva.
Betraying the Sami people.Copy !req
825. Felt like the world's worst person,
but couldn't resist.Copy !req
826. I forgot my sunglasses inside.Copy !req
827. Right.Copy !req
828. Be right back.Copy !req
829. CHAPTER 7Copy !req
830. Eivind didn't want kids either.Copy !req
831. Climate researchers foresaw
hard times for future generations.Copy !req
832. Overpopulation was the reason
everything was falling apart.Copy !req
833. Julie liked how this pessimism
added depthCopy !req
834. to his cheerful nature.Copy !req
835. But she could tell
he had other reasons too.Copy !req
836. Eivind's father, like Julie's,Copy !req
837. tended to forget birthdays.Copy !req
838. Eivind would often say,Copy !req
839. "According to my father's calendar..."Copy !req
840. I'm 12 years old.Copy !req
841. They're all hard. No ripe ones.Copy !req
842. People die of thirst in ChileCopy !req
843. because avocados need so much water.Copy !req
844. Still following Sunniva on Instagram?Copy !req
845. Yeah, she posts interesting links
about the environment.Copy !req
846. We don't message or anything.Copy !req
847. She's got over 30,000 followers.Copy !req
848. For showing off her ass?Copy !req
849. She's not showing off her ass,
she's doing yoga.Copy !req
850. It's yoga.Copy !req
851. Okay, she shows it off a bit.Copy !req
852. I don't mind you following her.Copy !req
853. It's not a problem, but...Copy !req
854. I don't want to beCopy !req
855. the sensible choice
while she's the sexy one.Copy !req
856. There's nothing sensible about you.Copy !req
857. - I mean...
- Yeah.Copy !req
858. - The angle of her pelvis...
- It's yoga.Copy !req
859. That's not yoga.Copy !req
860. It is yoga.Copy !req
861. You liked it!Copy !req
862. Oh, my god!Copy !req
863. - That's not cool!
- I had to like it!Copy !req
864. That's right.Copy !req
865. So, that's why...Copy !req
866. CHAPTER 8
JULIE'S NARCISSISTIC CIRCUSCopy !req
867. I want people to watch me dance.Copy !req
868. It's annoying as hell.Copy !req
869. You can make a fool of yourself
on the dance floor and still be cool.Copy !req
870. So true! I've noticed that.
When we dance,Copy !req
871. you take up all the space.Copy !req
872. Yeah, but it's also like,Copy !req
873. "Everyone look at me!"Copy !req
874. Yeah, that's my point.
You're always so mysterious.Copy !req
875. You still have your stash?Copy !req
876. What's that?Copy !req
877. Where'd you find it?Copy !req
878. What is it?Copy !req
879. Magic mushrooms.Copy !req
880. Have you tried it?Copy !req
881. Yeah.Copy !req
882. Right.Copy !req
883. Why'd you do that?Copy !req
884. Yuck.Copy !req
885. Tastes like dirt.Copy !req
886. Anyone?Copy !req
887. I don't feel anything.
They're probably too old.Copy !req
888. I gotta go.Copy !req
889. Are you sure? Could be risky.Copy !req
890. Come on, man.Copy !req
891. We've done this before.Copy !req
892. - We'll talk tomorrow.
- Call me.Copy !req
893. Adil?Copy !req
894. Can you speak?Copy !req
895. It's kicking in for him.Copy !req
896. Julie?Copy !req
897. Is it starting to kick in?Copy !req
898. You need water.Copy !req
899. It's important.Copy !req
900. You have to drink lots of water.Copy !req
901. Here.Copy !req
902. Drink it all.Copy !req
903. You'll be okay.Copy !req
904. You know I'm here for you.Copy !req
905. Julie?Copy !req
906. Drink the water.Copy !req
907. It's okay! I'm here!Copy !req
908. Julie, are you okay?Copy !req
909. I thought I'd make it.Copy !req
910. Are you okay?Copy !req
911. Thought we could use some coffee.Copy !req
912. We won't be doing that again.Copy !req
913. You should take a shower.Copy !req
914. Do I smell bad?Copy !req
915. - Is that...
- Oh, my god.Copy !req
916. Oh, my god.
I need to take a shower.Copy !req
917. Don't worry, it's not urgent.Copy !req
918. Shall I make breakfast?Copy !req
919. I feel I can be myself with you.Copy !req
920. Completely.Copy !req
921. You weren't yourself before?Copy !req
922. I was, but I felt like...Copy !req
923. I had to be...Copy !req
924. a bit...Copy !req
925. like I was when we first met.Copy !req
926. Thanks for putting up with me.Copy !req
927. I love you.Copy !req
928. CHAPTER 9Copy !req
929. Have you read your
old Bobcat comics since you grew up?Copy !req
930. Because in our day and age,Copy !req
931. they seem so inappropriate and murkyCopy !req
932. that we feel almost sickCopy !req
933. reading them.Copy !req
934. It's unpleasant to realize
you created a characterCopy !req
935. who gained popularity
at the expense of women.Copy !req
936. Okay, I get it.Copy !req
937. You're saying art should be pleasant?Copy !req
938. Do you think it's art?Copy !req
939. I brought along
some of your early comics.Copy !req
940. Bobcat is one thing,
but then there's Dick Wolf Dick,Copy !req
941. Pedo the Parrot...Copy !req
942. Right, I don't really think
this is the right medium toCopy !req
943. explain comic book humor.Copy !req
944. Have you ever considered that
some of your readersCopy !req
945. may have been victims
of incest or rape?Copy !req
946. Do we stop creating
because some people might feel bad?Copy !req
947. Artists get killed for drawing things
others find offensive. They're shot.Copy !req
948. Are you comparing Mohammed caricaturesCopy !req
949. with drawings of women with big tits?Copy !req
950. Or with incest?Copy !req
951. What's your point?Copy !req
952. Well, yes and no.Copy !req
953. It's a bit of a cop-outCopy !req
954. to claim freedom of speech
when people criticize you.Copy !req
955. We're discussing your work right now,Copy !req
956. so nobody's censoring you.Copy !req
957. As a woman, I'm upset.Copy !req
958. I'm offended,
though we're not supposed to say that.Copy !req
959. You have a choice.
You don't have to feel offended.Copy !req
960. It's not a choice.Copy !req
961. This is very generational.Copy !req
962. One author cannot be held
solely responsible.Copy !req
963. I think art has to be messy and free.Copy !req
964. It has to be a bit dangerous
to be fun.Copy !req
965. I want art to be a form of therapyCopy !req
966. where I can express and work throughCopy !req
967. all my unacceptable thoughts,Copy !req
968. all my darkest impulses.Copy !req
969. But you're using your male privilegeCopy !req
970. to mock people weaker than you.Copy !req
971. It's hardly art, or even humor.Copy !req
972. Sorry, it's not
smart enough to be satire.Copy !req
973. But this isn't about me.Copy !req
974. Like, when I create something,Copy !req
975. it's not just me talking.Copy !req
976. - I know that much.
- Do you?Copy !req
977. Let's say I draw this interview
as a cartoon.Copy !req
978. The comic version of me
might call you a whore.Copy !req
979. It doesn't mean I think that.Copy !req
980. It could beCopy !req
981. a parody of a certain type
of insecure male...Copy !req
982. You used the word "whore"?Copy !req
983. Yes, I said "whore".Copy !req
984. You're not interested in what I mean.Copy !req
985. Can't you see
that's crass sexualization?Copy !req
986. I think we're on a slippery slope here.Copy !req
987. All you post-feminists
are so fucking self-righteous!Copy !req
988. Thank you, Marthe Refstad
and Aksel Willmann.Copy !req
989. The term is "sex worker" now,
by the way.Copy !req
990. CHAPTER 10Copy !req
991. I'm happy to help!Copy !req
992. Long time no see!Copy !req
993. - Yeah.
- How are you?Copy !req
994. Okay. And you?Copy !req
995. I'm good.Copy !req
996. Do you ever talk to Aksel?Copy !req
997. Is he okay?Copy !req
998. Yeah, well...Copy !req
999. I heard the radio interview.Copy !req
1000. Yeah.Copy !req
1001. He went a bit far.Copy !req
1002. He's not doing that well.Copy !req
1003. Did you know he's sick?Copy !req
1004. Aksel?Copy !req
1005. Haven't you heard?Copy !req
1006. He has cancer.Copy !req
1007. Sorry, I thought you knew.Copy !req
1008. It spread quickly.Copy !req
1009. They discovered it too late.Copy !req
1010. Cancer?Copy !req
1011. Pancreatic.Copy !req
1012. But...Copy !req
1013. How is he coping?Copy !req
1014. Pretty well, under the circumstances.Copy !req
1015. But it's hard.Copy !req
1016. The prognosisCopy !req
1017. is not good.Copy !req
1018. It's incurable.Copy !req
1019. Thanks for letting me know.Copy !req
1020. I thought you knew.Copy !req
1021. No, I hadn't heard anything.Copy !req
1022. It's just...Copy !req
1023. I didn't know.Copy !req
1024. When did you write this?Copy !req
1025. Have you read it?Copy !req
1026. I was moving it to paper recycling.Copy !req
1027. It's very good.Copy !req
1028. You think?Copy !req
1029. Yeah, it sucked me right in.Copy !req
1030. It's really, really great.Copy !req
1031. I mean...Copy !req
1032. It's like...Copy !req
1033. What?Copy !req
1034. Well...Copy !req
1035. I have to say,Copy !req
1036. it's really nice to read about you.Copy !req
1037. But it's not about me.Copy !req
1038. But the Christmas scene
is your family, right?Copy !req
1039. Yeah, but it's fiction.
You didn't get that?Copy !req
1040. I made it up.Copy !req
1041. Okay, it's fiction.
In any case...Copy !req
1042. - It's good.
- Because it's me?Copy !req
1043. No, because it's nice.Copy !req
1044. "Nice"?Copy !req
1045. Yeah, nice. Good.
Well written.Copy !req
1046. The way you write
is really great.Copy !req
1047. Like here:Copy !req
1048. "Too many memories overlapping,
blending into a blur."Copy !req
1049. That resonates with me.
It's well written. Truly good.Copy !req
1050. It's not well written.Copy !req
1051. What's wrong?Copy !req
1052. Suddenly you're into literature?Copy !req
1053. What was the last book you read?Copy !req
1054. - Are you okay? What's up?
- Why?Copy !req
1055. You criticize
everything I do these days.Copy !req
1056. Sorry, but going through my trash
is pretty invasive.Copy !req
1057. - Can't you see that?
- Relax.Copy !req
1058. - "Relax"?
- Calm down.Copy !req
1059. Relaxing is your specialty!Copy !req
1060. You don't mind
serving coffee till you're 50.Copy !req
1061. But I want more!Copy !req
1062. That's hurtful.
I don't know what to say.Copy !req
1063. CHAPTER 11Copy !req
1064. Hello?Copy !req
1065. Hey...Copy !req
1066. Have you eaten?Copy !req
1067. Yeah, but I can make pasta if you like.Copy !req
1068. No, I don't need any if you've eaten.Copy !req
1069. Oops, sorry.Copy !req
1070. It started with a backache.Copy !req
1071. I've had backaches before.
I didn't worry.Copy !req
1072. Then my skin turned almost golden.Copy !req
1073. I thought I looked good.Copy !req
1074. It turned out to be jaundice.Copy !req
1075. Mom said I was born jaundiced.
They put me in a light box.Copy !req
1076. Is it painful?Copy !req
1077. No, not really.Copy !req
1078. It's okay.Copy !req
1079. They block selected
neural pathways with Botox.Copy !req
1080. That's good.Copy !req
1081. Yeah, it keeps me from taking
too many painkillers.Copy !req
1082. How's your family doing?Copy !req
1083. Fine, I guess.Copy !req
1084. Mom still follows your every move.Copy !req
1085. And your dad?Copy !req
1086. I've basically cut him off.Copy !req
1087. Good.Copy !req
1088. He can chase me if he likes.Copy !req
1089. Does he?Copy !req
1090. No, not really.Copy !req
1091. Two coffees.Copy !req
1092. They thought it was hilarious.Copy !req
1093. In some circumstances,Copy !req
1094. morbid humour can be funny.Copy !req
1095. Even anal sex at a bar mitzvah?Copy !req
1096. It makes me laugh.
But I'm an old guy now.Copy !req
1097. No.Copy !req
1098. Well, you know...Copy !req
1099. I kind of expected this.Copy !req
1100. I'd given up long before I got sick.Copy !req
1101. Really. I just watch
my favourite old movies over and over.Copy !req
1102. Lynch, The Godfather Part II...Copy !req
1103. How many times can you watchCopy !req
1104. Dog Day Afternoon?Copy !req
1105. Many times!Copy !req
1106. You should.Copy !req
1107. Absolutely.Copy !req
1108. Sometimes I listen to music...Copy !req
1109. I haven't heard before.Copy !req
1110. But...Copy !req
1111. It's old as well.Copy !req
1112. Music I didn't know about,
but from when I grew up.Copy !req
1113. It felt as though I'd already given up.Copy !req
1114. I grew up in an age
without Internet and mobile phones.Copy !req
1115. No, but honestly...Copy !req
1116. I sound like an old fart.
But I think about it a lot.Copy !req
1117. The world that I knew...Copy !req
1118. has disappeared.Copy !req
1119. For me it was all about going to stores.Copy !req
1120. Record stores.Copy !req
1121. I'd take the tram
to Voices record store in Grünerløkka.Copy !req
1122. Leaf through
used comics at Pretty Price.Copy !req
1123. I can close my eyes and see
the aisles at Video Nova in Majorstua.Copy !req
1124. I grew up in a timeCopy !req
1125. when culture was passed along
through objects.Copy !req
1126. They were interesting becauseCopy !req
1127. we could live among them.Copy !req
1128. We could pick them up.
Hold them in our hands.Copy !req
1129. Compare them.Copy !req
1130. A bit like books?Copy !req
1131. Yeah, a bit like books.Copy !req
1132. That's all I have.
I spent my life doing that.Copy !req
1133. Collecting all that stuff,
comics, books...Copy !req
1134. And...Copy !req
1135. I just continued,
even when it stopped giving meCopy !req
1136. the powerful emotionsCopy !req
1137. I felt in my early 20s.Copy !req
1138. I continued anyway.Copy !req
1139. And...Copy !req
1140. now it's all I have left.Copy !req
1141. Knowledge and memories
of stupid, futile thingsCopy !req
1142. nobody cares about.Copy !req
1143. Don't say that.Copy !req
1144. You've got the comics you created.Copy !req
1145. I wish I'd had what you had.Copy !req
1146. To be able to drawCopy !req
1147. without doubting that you're doing
what you're supposed to do.Copy !req
1148. I really wish I had that.Copy !req
1149. Yeah, but...Copy !req
1150. I've got cancer. I'm dying.Copy !req
1151. Of course I'm being retrospective.Copy !req
1152. You said you've done that for ages.Copy !req
1153. Not for that long.Copy !req
1154. In recent years. I reached
a point in life when suddenly...Copy !req
1155. It just happened.Copy !req
1156. When...Copy !req
1157. I began to worship what had been.Copy !req
1158. And now I have nothing else.
I have no future.Copy !req
1159. I can only look back.Copy !req
1160. And...Copy !req
1161. It's not even nostalgia.
It's...Copy !req
1162. fear of death.Copy !req
1163. It's because I'm scared.Copy !req
1164. It has nothing to do with art.Copy !req
1165. I'm just trying to process...Copy !req
1166. I have surgery tomorrow at 9.Copy !req
1167. I felt I could tell you anything.Copy !req
1168. You wouldn't judge me.Copy !req
1169. You're the least
judgemental person I know.Copy !req
1170. I don't have
anyone I can talk to...Copy !req
1171. the way we used to talk.Copy !req
1172. Can you tell me
what you used to tell me?Copy !req
1173. I hated hearing it at the time,
but can you tell me...Copy !req
1174. I'll be a good mother?Copy !req
1175. Are you pregnant?Copy !req
1176. Congratulations?Copy !req
1177. How do you feel?
Good or bad?Copy !req
1178. I don't know.Copy !req
1179. I'm not sure.Copy !req
1180. It was an accident.Copy !req
1181. I must've been careless.
I mean, clearly I was.Copy !req
1182. Were you really sure?Copy !req
1183. Sure you wanted kids?Copy !req
1184. I was scared, too.
I had doubts, of course.Copy !req
1185. But I didn't want to show them,
to keep you from...Copy !req
1186. I never doubted
you'd make a good mother.Copy !req
1187. I saw that you doubted it.Copy !req
1188. If I regret one thing,
it's that I never managedCopy !req
1189. to make you see how wonderful you are.Copy !req
1190. What are you thinking?Copy !req
1191. This is hard to hear.Copy !req
1192. But... will you keep it?Copy !req
1193. I don't know.Copy !req
1194. I wasted so much timeCopy !req
1195. worrying about
what could go wrong.Copy !req
1196. But what did go wrong,
was never the things I worried about.Copy !req
1197. If he's a kind man, then go for it.Copy !req
1198. With a kind father,
and you as the mother,Copy !req
1199. everything will be fine.Copy !req
1200. Your voice has stayed in my head.Copy !req
1201. We still have great conversations.Copy !req
1202. No way?Copy !req
1203. About what?Copy !req
1204. Mostly about comics.Copy !req
1205. Eclectic tastes.Copy !req
1206. Same here.Copy !req
1207. I have imaginary conversations with you.Copy !req
1208. I'm sure I remember things about you
that you've forgotten.Copy !req
1209. And the other way round.Copy !req
1210. Yeah, maybe.Copy !req
1211. When I'm gone,Copy !req
1212. all that stuff about you
will go with me.Copy !req
1213. May I ask you
a question?Copy !req
1214. Had you already met him
when you broke up with me?Copy !req
1215. Yeah.Copy !req
1216. Why didn't you tell me?Copy !req
1217. I don't know.Copy !req
1218. I didn't dare.Copy !req
1219. And now you're breaking up with him?Copy !req
1220. No, why do you say that?Copy !req
1221. Maybe because you don't seem happy
about the baby.Copy !req
1222. And that's what you do
when things get tough.Copy !req
1223. I'm glad I'm pregnant.Copy !req
1224. I'm sorry.Copy !req
1225. It's alright.Copy !req
1226. You were the most important
relationship in my life.Copy !req
1227. You don't have to say anything.Copy !req
1228. I know it's not the same for you.Copy !req
1229. That's normal.
You have many years left to live.Copy !req
1230. But I know,
I feel it.Copy !req
1231. And I want you to know.Copy !req
1232. You were the love of my life.Copy !req
1233. You're a damn good person.Copy !req
1234. I should've told you before.Copy !req
1235. But I couldn't.Copy !req
1236. I'm pregnant.Copy !req
1237. How long have you known?Copy !req
1238. I know we don't want kids.Copy !req
1239. No...Copy !req
1240. I don't know if I do.Copy !req
1241. I feel like I never see anything through.Copy !req
1242. I go from one thing to another.Copy !req
1243. I need timeCopy !req
1244. to think about all this.Copy !req
1245. About us.Copy !req
1246. It's okay.Copy !req
1247. CHAPTER 12Copy !req
1248. That's where I lived.Copy !req
1249. We moved there when I was 8.Copy !req
1250. Shall we knock?Copy !req
1251. No. I don't think so.Copy !req
1252. What do you remember from here?Copy !req
1253. I remember these colours.Copy !req
1254. They were always my referenceCopy !req
1255. when I drew my comics.Copy !req
1256. These colours.Copy !req
1257. And I rememberCopy !req
1258. the local drunk,
who was super nice.Copy !req
1259. I'm so tired of pretending
everything is okay.Copy !req
1260. It sucks being in so much pain.
It sucks.Copy !req
1261. Everything sucks.Copy !req
1262. And...Copy !req
1263. I don't want to be a memory for you.Copy !req
1264. I don't want to be a voice in your head.Copy !req
1265. I don't want to live on through my art.Copy !req
1266. I want to live in my flat.Copy !req
1267. I want to live...Copy !req
1268. I want to live in my flat with you.Copy !req
1269. I want to be happy together.Copy !req
1270. Bye.Copy !req
1271. Bye.Copy !req
1272. Hi, Julie.Copy !req
1273. Aksel's condition has suddenly worsened.Copy !req
1274. He's too ill for his planned treatment.Copy !req
1275. He may not make it through the night.Copy !req
1276. His family is with him,
but I thought you should know.Copy !req
1277. There's nothing more to say.Copy !req
1278. Cut!Copy !req
1279. One more.Copy !req
1280. One more quick take.
Slight adjustment.Copy !req
1281. Be sadder.Copy !req
1282. Okay.Copy !req
1283. But he gets up so quickly.Copy !req
1284. Hey!Copy !req
1285. Okay, camera ready.Copy !req
1286. Action!Copy !req
1287. There's nothing more to say.Copy !req
1288. Cut! Great.Copy !req
1289. Let's move on.Copy !req
1290. Right, stills.Copy !req
1291. Sorry, I need some shots of you.Copy !req
1292. - Sure. Here?
- Yeah.Copy !req
1293. - Are you okay?
- Yeah.Copy !req
1294. But I think I was pretty terrible.Copy !req
1295. Then use that.
Hold on to that feeling.Copy !req
1296. Act like you're looking at him.Copy !req