1. - Bless you.Copy !req
2. It's freezing in here.Copy !req
3. - Look at that green thumb.
- I wish.Copy !req
4. - How's your sinuses?
- Better.Copy !req
5. Good.Copy !req
6. I should be home by 7:00.Copy !req
7. Honey, can you call the landscapers
again about the sod?Copy !req
8. They gotta get moving,
or we're gonna miss...Copy !req
9. - I'll try them again.
- Thanks, hon.Copy !req
10. Maybe it's the couch.Copy !req
11. Great!Copy !req
12. - So, um...Copy !req
13. - we were thinking...Copy !req
14. in here...Copy !req
15. um...Copy !req
16. with the...Copy !req
17. coming-out part
along the wall?Copy !req
18. Okay, sure.Copy !req
19. And I guess come in
through there.Copy !req
20. - Not through there?
- Right.Copy !req
21. - Okay.
- Great. Thanks.Copy !req
22. Three, two.
Now reach up to the corner.Copy !req
23. Up and up.
Nice. Good stretch, Bev.Copy !req
24. Nice.
Push it. Four more.Copy !req
25. Three, two. Sasha, here we go.
Take it around.Copy !req
26. Two, two.
Down. Two, two.Copy !req
27. Two more. Here we go.
Let's smile, ladies.Copy !req
28. Right, two, three,
and left, two, three.Copy !req
29. Well, I just
eventually found...Copy !req
30. the whole 12-step thing
was like...Copy !req
31. just another form of addiction.Copy !req
32. - That's exactly what this book is saying.
- Yeah?Copy !req
33. Yeah, it's about
how to own your own life.Copy !req
34. Because what he's saying is that
we don't really own our own lives.Copy !req
35. We're taught
what to do, what to think...Copy !req
36. but emotionally we're not
really in charge.Copy !req
37. But see, I think
that with the exercise...Copy !req
38. and the diet
and healthy foods...Copy !req
39. [ Woman #1 ] I just think
he's very good at certain things.Copy !req
40. - Really?
- Oh, yeah.Copy !req
41. - Have you read him, Carol?
- No.Copy !req
42. He's very good
on certain things...Copy !req
43. emotional maintenance...Copy !req
44. stress management.Copy !req
45. You know, Carol,
you do not sweat?Copy !req
46. Oh, I hate you.Copy !req
47. I know. It's true.Copy !req
48. No, it's great.Copy !req
49. - Hi.
- Hi.Copy !req
50. - Did you forget?
- No. It's inside.Copy !req
51. - I just, uh -
- What?Copy !req
52. Something happened.Copy !req
53. Come in.Copy !req
54. How old was he?Copy !req
55. Five years older.Copy !req
56. He was the oldest
of my mom's kids.Copy !req
57. It, um...Copy !req
58. wasn't...Copy !req
59. No.Copy !req
60. That's what everyone keeps...Copy !req
61. Not at all.Copy !req
62. 'Cause he wasn't married.Copy !req
63. Right.Copy !req
64. It's just so unreal.Copy !req
65. - Did you see the den?
- At your party. It's gorgeous.Copy !req
66. You know, I'm suing the contractor.
Did I tell you?Copy !req
67. No.Copy !req
68. You don't even want to know.Copy !req
69. Fulvia? I'm home.Copy !req
70. Hello?Copy !req
71. Hi, Mother.Copy !req
72. What? No.
I just walked in the door.Copy !req
73. That's all right.Copy !req
74. How are you feeling?
How's your back?Copy !req
75. That's good.Copy !req
76. It's not a bad time, Mother.
I just...Copy !req
77. All right. That's fine.Copy !req
78. He's fine. They're fine.Copy !req
79. I will.Copy !req
80. I will, Mother.Copy !req
81. Okay.Copy !req
82. I'll talk to you soon.Copy !req
83. Okay.Copy !req
84. Bye-bye.Copy !req
85. Fulvia?Copy !req
86. Any teléfono while I was gone?Copy !req
87. Oh, my God.Copy !req
88. No, missus. No teléfono.Copy !req
89. Is this what they delivered?Copy !req
90. Fulvia?Copy !req
91. We did -
We did not order black. This is...Copy !req
92. This is -
This is not what we ordered.Copy !req
93. Yes, in Sherman Oaks.
May I have the number...Copy !req
94. for Nelson's
on Riverside, please?Copy !req
95. I don't believe this.Copy !req
96. Ye- Thank you.Copy !req
97. Yes, may I have the shipping
or delivery depart...Copy !req
98. - Mom?
- What, Rory?Copy !req
99. - Mom, soccer practice. Don't forget.
- I didn't forget last time.Copy !req
100. - Whatever. It's the bus. I gotta go.
- It was a mix-up. Okay.Copy !req
101. - Bye.
- Bye, honey.Copy !req
102. Fulvia?Copy !req
103. Fulvia?Copy !req
104. - Fulvia?
- Sí?Copy !req
105. Where's my book?
My telephone book?Copy !req
106. Uh, I put it
in the bottom shelf...Copy !req
107. because of the cabinet men.Copy !req
108. Oh, okay. I see.
Thanks.Copy !req
109. You've got to step
back and say, "Wait a minute.Copy !req
110. It's not an honor or a privilege
or even a duty to be a patient.Copy !req
111. "If people don't want it on religious
grounds or quality-of-life grounds -"Copy !req
112. - Fulvia, could I have some milk?
- Sí.Copy !req
113. - Some leche, por favor?
- Sí, seguro que sí.Copy !req
114. [ Man #2 ]
to let a critically ill patient die...Copy !req
115. but you're also saying
it is all right to hasten that death.Copy !req
116. - [ Man #1 ] I didn't say that.
- I disagree with that.Copy !req
117. [ Man #2 ] Isn't Elizabeth Bouvier, by
starving herself, hastening her own death?Copy !req
118. [ Man #1 ] No, I think
you have to draw a distinction...Copy !req
119. between steps the doctor could take
to actively kill somebody...Copy !req
120. Señora.Copy !req
121. Thank you.Copy !req
122. You okay, missus?Copy !req
123. and say, "Whatever happens, we are
going to withdraw from the situation."Copy !req
124. [ Man #2 ] It's terrible to say with 30
seconds left, but isn't that a thin line?Copy !req
125. But it's a very important line.Copy !req
126. It's one thing to remove
a piece of machinery...Copy !req
127. whether big as a respirator
or small as a feeding tube.Copy !req
128. It's another thing to say,
"His life isn't worth much anyway...Copy !req
129. so we're gonna
help you out more."Copy !req
130. Sorry.
They were in the back.Copy !req
131. Oh, it's okay. Thanks.Copy !req
132. - Oh, that purse is adorable!
- Thank you.Copy !req
133. - How's your little girl?
- Oh, she's fine.Copy !req
134. - She's so cute.
- Oh, thank you.Copy !req
135. Okay. Bye.Copy !req
136. Bye.Copy !req
137. No, we wanted teal.Copy !req
138. We ordered teal,
but we received black.Copy !req
139. But your original order
shows black.Copy !req
140. That's impossible, because it doesn't go
with anything we have.Copy !req
141. All right.Copy !req
142. All right. Let me try
the Sherman Oaks store upstairs.Copy !req
143. See what they have in stock.Copy !req
144. Thank you.Copy !req
145. [ Woman On Radio, Fervent ] If I told
you the end of the world was coming...Copy !req
146. and you said to me
that you'd get on your knees...Copy !req
147. and you'd pray,
I'd say you're in trouble.Copy !req
148. Because when I go to bed
and pull those covers under my neck...Copy !req
149. I say, "Jesus,
I'll see you in the morning."Copy !req
150. You do that very well. Thank you.Copy !req
151. I was raised
in a fundamentalist church.Copy !req
152. I heard this all my life. We sang songs
about being in God's army...Copy !req
153. I think you've changed the subject.Copy !req
154. - I see a president who's embattled...Copy !req
155. And a president who's, based on -
what do I base it on?Copy !req
156. not being close to him
but close to people who are...Copy !req
157. in the press who watch him carefully,
as being very pained at the moment...Copy !req
158. and certainly...Copy !req
159. - a man who wants to make his mark...Copy !req
160. I've never heard anybody ever say
he's that fundamentalist...Copy !req
161. that he believes the end is nigh.Copy !req
162. I really - You and I take
a different view on that one.Copy !req
163. But are you married to Marjoe?Copy !req
164. - No.
- Just, you sound - the technique.Copy !req
165. I just really believe...Copy !req
166. he thinks he's doing the Lord's work.
He's always been a very...Copy !req
167. Maybe he's right.Copy !req
168. A movement to save the trees?Copy !req
169. Some say
it goes deeper than that.Copy !req
170. Today, environmentalists
from all over the globe...Copy !req
171. are adopting a new, more holistic
approach to their studies...Copy !req
172. which they call "deep ecology."Copy !req
173. Deep ecology goes beyond
the traditional scientific framework...Copy !req
174. to incorporate a greater
spiritual awareness of the planet.Copy !req
175. Or, as ecophilosopher
Parlum Grass puts it...Copy !req
176. "an understanding
of the oneness of all life."Copy !req
177. "I have a feeling that we are entering
a new time," Pearcel writes...Copy !req
178. "a period of a different
paradigm or model."Copy !req
179. A period of learning to run
warm and cool...Copy !req
180. not hot and cold,
toward viruses...Copy !req
181. "cells, and one anoth-"Copy !req
182. I started this fruit diet.Copy !req
183. I've been so out of it
since my brother's funeral.Copy !req
184. - Have you ever done one?
- No.Copy !req
185. They're supposed to sort of
naturally cleanse the body...Copy !req
186. of all the toxins.Copy !req
187. I should do it.
I've been so run down lately.Copy !req
188. Really?Copy !req
189. Yeah, I've just been
really busy.Copy !req
190. We have this client dinner
coming up, so...Copy !req
191. Right.
Maybe you should try it.Copy !req
192. No.Copy !req
193. It'd be a lot of fun.Copy !req
194. We could do it together.Copy !req
195. Come on.
Why don't you just try it?Copy !req
196. - Do you know what you want?
- Yes.Copy !req
197. I am going to have the fruit salad
and the herbal iced tea.Copy !req
198. Okay. And for you?Copy !req
199. - I'll have the same.Copy !req
200. I got one. I got one.Copy !req
201. This beautiful, shapely blonde
runs into the emergency room...Copy !req
202. and when they ask her
what's wrong, she says...Copy !req
203. "It's kind of embarrassing..."Copy !req
204. but I was using my vibrator,
and it got stuck.Copy !req
205. "I can't get it out.
It's stuck inside."Copy !req
206. So they rush her into emergency,
admit her...Copy !req
207. they rush her to the operating room,
and they get some specialist...Copy !req
208. to perform the surgery,
and it's a ten-hour ordeal.Copy !req
209. And finally she wakes up
the next day...Copy !req
210. and the specialist walks in
and says...Copy !req
211. "Well, I got some good news
and I got some bad news."Copy !req
212. The bad news is
we did everything we possibly could.Copy !req
213. We tried everything, but we just
couldn't get the darn thing out.Copy !req
214. We just couldn't.Copy !req
215. But the good news is...Copy !req
216. "we were able
to change the batteries."Copy !req
217. Somebody doesn't seem
to like your jokes, Ted.Copy !req
218. - Huh?
- Carol...Copy !req
219. Excuse me. I-I don't...Copy !req
220. Sorry.Copy !req
221. I'm so sorry, Greg.Copy !req
222. You're just...Copy !req
223. You're overexerted, I guess.Copy !req
224. I've never...Copy !req
225. Maybe the doctor can
give you something for it.Copy !req
226. Well, hmm.Copy !req
227. I really don't see anything
wrong with you, Carol.Copy !req
228. I mean, outside of a slight rash
and congestion.Copy !req
229. Now, I'll give you
some ointment...Copy !req
230. and some decongestant,
but, uh...Copy !req
231. jeez, I-I don't know
what else to do.Copy !req
232. Are you - Well, what?Copy !req
233. I guess I'm just
a little stressed out lately.Copy !req
234. - Uh-huh.
- And just tired from it.Copy !req
235. Well, that's not uncommon.Copy !req
236. Um, you're not doing drugs,
are you?Copy !req
237. No.Copy !req
238. I don't take drugs
or drink or...Copy !req
239. I don't even, um,
like coffee very much.Copy !req
240. I'm just a total milkaholic,
actually.Copy !req
241. I mean, before the fruit thing.Copy !req
242. Well, stop the fruit diet.
You need protein.Copy !req
243. And while you're at it...Copy !req
244. try staying off dairy.Copy !req
245. Dairy's very hard
on your digestion...Copy !req
246. hard on your intestines.Copy !req
247. I'll see you in a couple weeks.
You'll be fine.Copy !req
248. Thanks.Copy !req
249. "In the '80s, there are more and more
gangs in the Los Angeles basin..."Copy !req
250. plus many more stabbings
and shootings by AK-47s...Copy !req
251. Uzis and MAC-10s...Copy !req
252. killing numerous
innocent people.Copy !req
253. L.A. was the gang capital
of America.Copy !req
254. Rapes, riots,
shooting innocent people...Copy !req
255. slashing throats,
arms and legs being dissected...Copy !req
256. were all common sights
in the black ghettos of L.A.Copy !req
257. Today, black and Chicano gangs
are coming into the valleys...Copy !req
258. in mostly white areas
more and more.Copy !req
259. "That's why gangs in L.A. are
a big American issue. Rory White."Copy !req
260. - Good job, Ror.
- Why does it have to be so gory?Copy !req
261. "Gory"?
That's how it really is. God.Copy !req
262. - Hey, hey, hey.
- You want some coffee?Copy !req
263. Yeah, I'd love some.Copy !req
264. So what did Hubbard
have to say?Copy !req
265. He just said I should, uh...Copy !req
266. slow down a little, you know.Copy !req
267. Stop the fruit diet.
Eat less dairy.Copy !req
268. That's exactly what I said,
isn't it?Copy !req
269. I knew that whole fruit thing
didn't make any sense.Copy !req
270. But basically...Copy !req
271. there's nothing to really worry about,
aside from being a little run down.Copy !req
272. Well, that's good.Copy !req
273. So...Copy !req
274. Dad, how do you spell "Uzi"?Copy !req
275. Just how it sounds: U-Z-I.Copy !req
276. Carol...Copy !req
277. - we doing a regular cut today?
- Yeah.Copy !req
278. Actually, I was thinking of-of...Copy !req
279. trying a perm for a change.Copy !req
280. Perming it.Copy !req
281. Elyse didn't tell me
you scheduled a perm.Copy !req
282. No, I didn't schedule one.Copy !req
283. I just thought of it now,
of trying it, unless...Copy !req
284. No. No, there's time, actually.Copy !req
285. I - I had a cancellation.Copy !req
286. - You still want that manicure?
- Sure.Copy !req
287. Thanks.Copy !req
288. It's very cute on you.Copy !req
289. It looks nice.Copy !req
290. - Oh - Oh, my God!
- Oh, my God.Copy !req
291. Paula, do you have a Kleenex?
Do you...Copy !req
292. - Oh, my God!
- Anyway, so...Copy !req
293. so we meet him for lunch,
Cosford, Ted, and I...Copy !req
294. and who comes in
but this kid in shorts.Copy !req
295. He looked like he was
about Jonas's age.Copy !req
296. Couldn't believe it.Copy !req
297. Ted said I looked
like I'd seen a ghost.Copy !req
298. I like what they did with your hair.
It's great. I like it.Copy !req
299. I'm glad, honey.Copy !req
300. Yeah. Sexy.Copy !req
301. How you feeling?Copy !req
302. Huh?Copy !req
303. - I still have this, um -
- What?Copy !req
304. This head thing.Copy !req
305. Oh, boy.Copy !req
306. - Greg -
- Carol, what the hell is going on here?Copy !req
307. - Nothing.
- Nobody has a fucking headache...Copy !req
308. every night
of the fucking week!Copy !req
309. I must have a touch of something,
because I...Copy !req
310. I don't want to hear about it.Copy !req
311. I'm sorry. I, um...Copy !req
312. I know it's not normal, but...Copy !req
313. I can't help it.Copy !req
314. Good night.Copy !req
315. - [ Woman On Radio, Indistinct ]Copy !req
316. Sixties at the beaches
and lower 70s downtown.Copy !req
317. Valleys will climb
to the mid-70s.Copy !req
318. - Fifty-nine degrees in Hollywood.
- Traffic on KNX every six minutes.Copy !req
319. - Here's John Engel.
- Thanks, Susan. It's been another rough morning.Copy !req
320. You need patience
on the Southland freeways.Copy !req
321. It started with that downpour
you were talking about.Copy !req
322. Had a lot of rain.
Right now it's quite the hike.Copy !req
323. Sure hope you brought camping gear
for that Ventura westbound transition...Copy !req
324. to the Golden State southbound.Copy !req
325. Non-injury accident in the left lane
at the trans road.Copy !req
326. When you stop at Pacific,
that's what you have to Sherman Oaks.Copy !req
327. But there is some good news.
Just spoke to the van, and guess what?Copy !req
328. 91 westbound's a cakewalk
all through the Santa Ana canyon.Copy !req
329. Actually, you're close to maximum speed.
You can even go...Copy !req
330. maybe 45 miles an hour...Copy !req
331. 91 westbound to the 15
through the canyon...Copy !req
332. into Anaheim Hills,
and enjoy that while you can.Copy !req
333. I'm sorry, honey.Copy !req
334. Me too.Copy !req
335. It's okay.Copy !req
336. It's okay.Copy !req
337. Hey.Copy !req
338. - You're all right.Copy !req
339. Jesus, honey.Copy !req
340. Take a deep breath and hold.Copy !req
341. Release.Copy !req
342. Again.Copy !req
343. Release.Copy !req
344. Again.Copy !req
345. Release. Again.Copy !req
346. Okay.Copy !req
347. Hey, Greg,
how the hell are you?Copy !req
348. - Good, good. And you?
- I'm okay. Have a seat, guys.Copy !req
349. Well...Copy !req
350. basically, Carol,
you are perfectly healthy.Copy !req
351. If anything, your condition has slightly
improved since your last visit.Copy !req
352. Now, this is just a suggestion,
but, uh...Copy !req
353. you might want to consult someone,
and I know...Copy !req
354. a very, very good doctor
who's just more suited...Copy !req
355. to stress-related conditions,
which I think this is.Copy !req
356. - A psychiatrist?
- Yeah.Copy !req
357. Uh-huh.Copy !req
358. - Everything all right, ma'am?
- What?Copy !req
359. Yeah.Copy !req
360. What are you doing, honey?Copy !req
361. I...Copy !req
362. I couldn't sleep.Copy !req
363. The air, the...Copy !req
364. the smell.Copy !req
365. Okay.Copy !req
366. Slow it down.
And bring the knee up. Pull.Copy !req
367. Good. Get those knees up there.
Tummy in. Exhale. Exhale.Copy !req
368. And push it out.
Here we go. Push.Copy !req
369. And right. Push left.
Right.Copy !req
370. Four more. Three.Copy !req
371. Good!
Let's scoop to the right.Copy !req
372. Two, three. Good.
Get that leg up there.Copy !req
373. Whoo!Copy !req
374. - Carol.
- Hi.Copy !req
375. - Are you okay?
- Yeah, I just have to get somewhere.Copy !req
376. Oh. I'll see you
at Barbara's Sunday?Copy !req
377. - See you Sunday.
- Okay.Copy !req
378. - Okay, bye.
- Bye.Copy !req
379. Do you work?Copy !req
380. No, I'm a house...Copy !req
381. Um, I'm a homemaker.Copy !req
382. I'm working on some designs
for our house, though...Copy !req
383. - Mm-hmm.
- In my spare time.Copy !req
384. And, uh -
And you have one child?Copy !req
385. My husband's little boy.Copy !req
386. He's not my son.
He's my stepson.Copy !req
387. Rory.Copy !req
388. He's ten.Copy !req
389. How long have you
been feeling unwell?Copy !req
390. Um, about two months.Copy !req
391. Three. Um...Copy !req
392. I've been under
a lot of stress lately...Copy !req
393. and then
my friend Linda and I...Copy !req
394. She's probably my best friend.
She lives down the...Copy !req
395. Uh, anyway...Copy !req
396. we started
this fruit diet together.Copy !req
397. I think that sort of set it off.Copy !req
398. So...Copy !req
399. - Are you uncomfortable?
- No. I...Copy !req
400. I just thought...Copy !req
401. I mean...Copy !req
402. Aren't you supposed
to ask more questions?Copy !req
403. Well, no.Copy !req
404. We really need to be
hearing from you.Copy !req
405. What's going on...Copy !req
406. in you?Copy !req
407. - Oh, that's so cute!
- Isn't it?Copy !req
408. - Look at this.
- I love that little bunny.Copy !req
409. - I know.
- I wonder what it could be.Copy !req
410. - Hope she doesn't -
- Oh, a baby book!Copy !req
411. - Look at that.
- Oh, God, it's beautiful!Copy !req
412. - You don't have one?
- No, no.Copy !req
413. - I'm so glad.
- I love it. It's perfect.Copy !req
414. If you need to take it back, I won't be
offended. It's from Neiman Marcus.Copy !req
415. Oh, no, no. I really love it.
It's perfect.Copy !req
416. It's so sweet. You should see my baby book.
It's this disgusting puke orange.Copy !req
417. - That's very appetizing, Barbara.
- I'm serious.Copy !req
418. Okay, Lynn.
My turn.Copy !req
419. - Linda, thank you.
- Mm, I hope you like it.Copy !req
420. That's so pretty.
Did you wrap that yourself?Copy !req
421. God, are you kidding?
I wish I were that creative.Copy !req
422. I've seen you wrap things.Copy !req
423. Oh, I can't even draw
a straight line.Copy !req
424. Oh, God! I love this!Copy !req
425. - Do you?
- Look at this. It's a mobile.Copy !req
426. I thought it'd look great
over a crib.Copy !req
427. - Who wants decaf?Copy !req
428. - Herbal tea?
- You must be so excited.Copy !req
429. - We're really happy.
- Real coffee?Copy !req
430. - He must be so happy.
- "Ecstatic" is more like it.Copy !req
431. - What do you think you'll name it?
- That is so great.Copy !req
432. - Barbara?
- Yeah, hon?Copy !req
433. - Where's your bathroom?
- There's a powder room...Copy !req
434. off the entrance hall
to your right.Copy !req
435. I like "Tyler."
Gary likes "Alex."Copy !req
436. Mommy!Copy !req
437. I heard you, Elyse! I don't know
what you should draw now!Copy !req
438. Let Mommy have grown-up time
with the other mommies, okay?Copy !req
439. Someone told me they heard
she was seeing their shrink...Copy !req
440. so I just thought
you might have...Copy !req
441. No. I didn't even
know that...Copy !req
442. Is something wrong with Carol?Copy !req
443. No. We were just...Copy !req
444. 'Cause her skin looks kind of -
Her hair looks really cute, but...Copy !req
445. Elyse, your ice cream is melting,
and Mommy is very busy!Copy !req
446. - Did you get some?
- No.Copy !req
447. - Do you want some?
- No.Copy !req
448. - Are you sure?
- Yeah.Copy !req
449. Carol, this is yours.Copy !req
450. And you have to eat it immediately,
'cause it's melting all over.Copy !req
451. Oh, I shouldn't.Copy !req
452. - What do you got there, honey?
- My coloring book.Copy !req
453. Can I see?Copy !req
454. Oh!
She's gotten so big.Copy !req
455. Mm.Copy !req
456. Mmm.
Barbara, this is delicious.Copy !req
457. You know,
we haven't really talked lately.Copy !req
458. How are you doing?Copy !req
459. Good.
I've just been a little...Copy !req
460. - Lookit. It's you.
- Oh. Yeah.Copy !req
461. Um, under the weather.Copy !req
462. - Right.
- Lookit. She's a princess.Copy !req
463. Oh, that's very good.
It's very realistic.Copy !req
464. Ladies, we are now opening
the big present. Please come in.Copy !req
465. Okay. Here we come.Copy !req
466. Come on, Elyse. Let's go look
at the big present, okay?Copy !req
467. - Want to sit on my lap?
- Yeah.Copy !req
468. My God.Copy !req
469. - Look at this fancy wrapping.
- Yeah.Copy !req
470. You girls did too much.Copy !req
471. - Come on, don't be polite.
- I'm trying!Copy !req
472. A stroller!Copy !req
473. Oh, thank you!Copy !req
474. That's exactly
the one I wanted! Oh!Copy !req
475. There's a package
with the wheels inside.Copy !req
476. You just screw them in.
Even you can do it.Copy !req
477. Mommy?Copy !req
478. Carol? You all right?Copy !req
479. Carol...Copy !req
480. - What's going on?
- I don't know. Carol?Copy !req
481. Oh, my God.
Linda, what happened?Copy !req
482. She can't breathe!Copy !req
483. Eileen, call her house.
Someone should call her doctor.Copy !req
484. Jennifer, could you
get some water, please?Copy !req
485. Just try to relax, okay?Copy !req
486. - Calm down.Copy !req
487. It's okay.
It's all gonna be fine.Copy !req
488. Just relax.Copy !req
489. Just - Just relax.
Breathe.Copy !req
490. Carol!Copy !req
491. My name is Carol White...Copy !req
492. and I live
in Southern California.Copy !req
493. I saw your notice
at the health club near my house...Copy !req
494. and decided to write and tell you
a little bit about myself.Copy !req
495. For some time now,
I have not been feeling up to par...Copy !req
496. and was hoping your organization
might be of some help.Copy !req
497. I'm originally from Texas...Copy !req
498. although I've lived
in the L.A. area most of my life.Copy !req
499. I had asthma as a child,
but it never really got in the way...Copy !req
500. of school or recreation.Copy !req
501. I've always thought of myself
as someone...Copy !req
502. with a pretty normal upbringing...Copy !req
503. and as basically
a healthy person...Copy !req
504. but for the past
several months...Copy !req
505. that has all started to change.Copy !req
506. - Suddenly I find myself feeling sick.Copy !req
507. Honey, what's going on?Copy !req
508. I've been calling.
I thought you were asleep.Copy !req
509. Someone -
Brenda called about trading...Copy !req
510. Thursday carpool for Saturday
or something like that.Copy !req
511. She said you'd know
what that was about.Copy !req
512. Anyway, she said
she'd call you back.Copy !req
513. Um, I thought you were asleep
'cause you weren't...Copy !req
514. Wh-What are you doing?Copy !req
515. I was writing this, um...Copy !req
516. I don't even -Copy !req
517. Oh, God, what is this?Copy !req
518. What?Copy !req
519. Where am I...Copy !req
520. right now?Copy !req
521. We're in our house.Copy !req
522. Greg and Carol's house.Copy !req
523. Who are you?Copy !req
524. You are of all ages
and from all walks of life.Copy !req
525. But you find you all have
one thing in common:Copy !req
526. strange, never-ending ailments.Copy !req
527. Suddenly you can't
cook dinner anymore...Copy !req
528. because the smell of the gas
from your stove makes you ill.Copy !req
529. Or if you take the freeway, you feel
as if you might choke on the fumes.Copy !req
530. Your family and friends tell you
that you're overreacting...Copy !req
531. that it's all in your head.Copy !req
532. But your symptoms worsen.Copy !req
533. Fatigue and depression
turn to migraines...Copy !req
534. blackouts, even seizures.Copy !req
535. Now, if this sounds familiar...Copy !req
536. you're not alone.Copy !req
537. What you most likely are is one
of a vastly growing number of people...Copy !req
538. who suffer
from environmental illness.Copy !req
539. That means that,
for reasons not yet known to us...Copy !req
540. certain people's natural tolerance
to everyday substances...Copy !req
541. is breaking down,
usually as a result...Copy !req
542. of some kind
of chemical exposure.Copy !req
543. Today, there are 60,000 chemicals
in everyday use...Copy !req
544. yet only ten percent
are tested for human toxicity.Copy !req
545. This is a disease
that you catch...Copy !req
546. from your environment.Copy !req
547. Fulvia?Copy !req
548. Fulvia?Copy !req
549. Greg?Copy !req
550. - Carol?Copy !req
551. - You scared me.
- Sorry.Copy !req
552. No, I'm sorry.
I was just...Copy !req
553. I just took Fulvia down.
So did you just get home?Copy !req
554. - Yeah.
- So how did it go?Copy !req
555. - What?
- Your thing this morning.Copy !req
556. What was it on?Copy !req
557. Well, it was just this thing on getting
sick on fumes and bug sprays...Copy !req
558. and stuff.Copy !req
559. You mean, on...Copy !req
560. like, pollution?Copy !req
561. More about people
who get sick from chemicals...Copy !req
562. and what it does to you.Copy !req
563. Who told you to go to this?Copy !req
564. No, I just...Copy !req
565. At the health club,
I saw a flyer.Copy !req
566. So you think this is
what's made you...Copy !req
567. I mean, why you've been sick?Copy !req
568. Because of... bug spray?Copy !req
569. No, I - I just...Copy !req
570. I don't know why.Copy !req
571. So most of the time,
there's a trigger...Copy !req
572. new carpeting,
new kitchen, new car.Copy !req
573. Or somebody works around
paint fumes or strong fragrances.Copy !req
574. Okay. No reaction.
Please prepare...Copy !req
575. - .01 of two.
- Right.Copy !req
576. Then one day, bam, it hits you,
and suddenly your body is reacting...Copy !req
577. to everything like a Geiger counter -
food, air, everything.Copy !req
578. - .01 of two, milk.
- Thank you.Copy !req
579. What we're doing now is testing
about 50 separate foods and molds...Copy !req
580. to determine what your
neutralization doses will consist of.Copy !req
581. And then they'll, um -
they'll stop it?Copy !req
582. Uh, no. Arm, please.Copy !req
583. No, neutralization-provocation
is a way to aid you...Copy !req
584. during your cleaning-up process,
but that's all it really is, is an aid.Copy !req
585. Okay, this'll sting
just a little bit.Copy !req
586. Dr. Reynolds, call for you on 8.Copy !req
587. Dr. Reynolds,
Eric Delaney on 8.Copy !req
588. Okay, that's milk
at.01 of two.Copy !req
589. Excuse me.Copy !req
590. Are you okay?Copy !req
591. Eric, Dr. Reynolds.
What's up?Copy !req
592. Right.Copy !req
593. Right.Copy !req
594. Well, look.
If your oasis...Copy !req
595. and twice-a-week injections
don't simmer you down...Copy !req
596. you know you have
other hidden sensitivities...Copy !req
597. most likely molds or fungus.Copy !req
598. Continue the rare fruit diet,
and if you don't get better...Copy !req
599. check back with me
or have Dr. Baines check into...Copy !req
600. - an unresolved Candida problem.Copy !req
601. - Dr. Reynolds, she's reacting.
- Eric, I gotta leave you.Copy !req
602. Prepare a neutralizing dose
at.01 of three, please.Copy !req
603. Carol, this will cease momentarily.
I apologize for any discomfort.Copy !req
604. - Sarah, be sure to record...Copy !req
605. pulse-rate change
following injection.Copy !req
606. Okay.
.01 of three milligrams.Copy !req
607. Okay, thank you.Copy !req
608. Just take it easy.Copy !req
609. Okay.Copy !req
610. Okay, we have palpitations
with deep distress...Copy !req
611. in conjunction
with a racing pulse rate of 104.Copy !req
612. There's flushing
and some wheezing.Copy !req
613. Bit of swelling in the mouth.Copy !req
614. This is a big one, Carol.
Milk's a biggie.Copy !req
615. It's okay.Copy !req
616. Are you okay?Copy !req
617. Have some water.Copy !req
618. Yeah.Copy !req
619. We can turn it on and off
like a switch.Copy !req
620. We just don't know
how to make it go away.Copy !req
621. The first thing you need to do
in order to "clear"...Copy !req
622. is create an oasis
in which to live.Copy !req
623. Your oasis is your safe place,
your toxic-free zone...Copy !req
624. where your load
has been significantly reduced.Copy !req
625. For some, that can mean...Copy !req
626. an airtight,
porcelain-lined enclosure...Copy !req
627. something like a refrigerator.Copy !req
628. For others, their safe room...Copy !req
629. is just a stripped-down room
within their house...Copy !req
630. that's conducive
to good ventilation...Copy !req
631. or air control.Copy !req
632. My name is Sarah Pinter.Copy !req
633. I live in Orange County,
near a fumigation company...Copy !req
634. and we're in the process
of a suit against the company...Copy !req
635. for improper handling
of their chemicals, so...Copy !req
636. Great. Thank you.
Yes?Copy !req
637. Would you stand, please?Copy !req
638. My name is
Abigail Cartier-Rousseau...Copy !req
639. and my sensitivity originated
with fragrances.Copy !req
640. I was employed for 23 years.Copy !req
641. - Uh-huh.
- I've been spending some time...Copy !req
642. at the retreat in Wrenwood,
so I'm doing much better.Copy !req
643. Great. Great. Terrific.Copy !req
644. Thank you.
And you, ma'am?Copy !req
645. Honey.Copy !req
646. My name's Carol White.
This is my husband, Greg.Copy !req
647. We live
in the San Fernando Valley.Copy !req
648. Greg.Copy !req
649. We're here for my wife,
who's been ill...Copy !req
650. to learn more information...Copy !req
651. and hopefully
gain from it as well.Copy !req
652. Thank you.
I hope so too.Copy !req
653. My doctor thinks I'm nuts.Copy !req
654. He thinks the whole thing
is completely in my head.Copy !req
655. That's what my husband
still thinks.Copy !req
656. It is in your head.
It's in all our heads.Copy !req
657. What do you mean
by that, Helen?Copy !req
658. It makes you crazy.
She's right.Copy !req
659. It ends up in your head
because it affects the neurological.Copy !req
660. And it will make you depressed.
It really will.Copy !req
661. I mean, how does
a five-year-old say it's psychosomatic?Copy !req
662. How does he make
his eyes swell shut?Copy !req
663. Why would he want to do that?Copy !req
664. He can't go
into "Chunky Cheese" anymore.Copy !req
665. He can't go into showbiz.Copy !req
666. Why would he do that
to himself?Copy !req
667. It's true. It's like,
you go into a building...Copy !req
668. you're walking along the hall.Copy !req
669. You don't know when that monster
is gonna jump out at you.Copy !req
670. You're just, like,
going along the wall...Copy !req
671. - like any normal person.
- Right.Copy !req
672. With your mask
and your oxygen tank...Copy !req
673. and your bottled water.Copy !req
674. So at first I didn't understand
why citrus...Copy !req
675. since I had tested negative
for citrus, until all of a sudden...Copy !req
676. I remembered how the oranges
had rolled out of their plastic...Copy !req
677. into the bag
with Greg's papers in them.Copy !req
678. - 'Cause newspapers, the ink...Copy !req
679. - Really?
- also - yeah.Copy !req
680. That, and um...Copy !req
681. You know our couch?
Our beautiful new couch?Copy !req
682. - Yeah.
- Totally toxic.Copy !req
683. - Really?
- Yeah.
- Wow.Copy !req
684. I know. So...Copy !req
685. um...Copy !req
686. It's hard. Like, I, um...Copy !req
687. I can't wear makeup anymore.Copy !req
688. - God.
- Burns my eyes. I get sick.Copy !req
689. Well, I guess
one good thing is just...Copy !req
690. how it's made you
so much more knowledgeable...Copy !req
691. on food and everything,
and chemicals.Copy !req
692. That's true.Copy !req
693. They just know so much more
about it there, though...Copy !req
694. the people who go through this.
I mean...Copy !req
695. So much of it, too,
is that we were raised...Copy !req
696. and grown in a chemical place.Copy !req
697. And you go into a grocery store...Copy !req
698. and you-you-you
you grab a chemical...Copy !req
699. without reading,
without investigating...Copy !req
700. Sorry.Copy !req
701. Um...Copy !req
702. But anyway,
it's just made me...Copy !req
703. more aware than I used to be.Copy !req
704. - You know what I mean?
- Yep.Copy !req
705. Next up, the load:Copy !req
706. What is it, why is it...Copy !req
707. and what can be done
to improve it?Copy !req
708. First, what is your total load?Copy !req
709. Well, in the chemical-laden world
in which we live...Copy !req
710. impurities are all around.Copy !req
711. Everyone must deal with a certain
amount of impurities and toxins...Copy !req
712. at any given time,
and that's your load.Copy !req
713. It's the maximum amount
of toxins...Copy !req
714. your body can tolerate...Copy !req
715. which, for most people,
is rather large.Copy !req
716. But a chemically sensitive person
is not able to carry a normal load.Copy !req
717. What we have to do is unload.Copy !req
718. This means
we go back to zero...Copy !req
719. and, starting from scratch,
substance by substance...Copy !req
720. we build the load back up.Copy !req
721. Remember,
the goal is to get clear.Copy !req
722. And so the safest and quickest way
to clear is to fast.Copy !req
723. Fasting, which can last up to five days,
depending on the individual...Copy !req
724. is usually followed
by the rotation diet...Copy !req
725. or the rare foods diet...Copy !req
726. both of which help
protect the system...Copy !req
727. while reintroducing foods
back into it.Copy !req
728. Whatever diet you choose...Copy !req
729. be sure to omit
mold antigen-containing foods...Copy !req
730. like bread, cheese, alcohol...Copy !req
731. ketchup, vinegar, mayonnaise...Copy !req
732. mustard, coffee, or chocolate.Copy !req
733. Molds are very hard
on the immune system...Copy !req
734. whether you're E.I. or not.Copy !req
735. And throughout
your unloading process...Copy !req
736. be sure to have adjusted
your living conditions accordingly.Copy !req
737. Safe bodies need safe environments
in which to live...Copy !req
738. and there are
healthy alternatives that exist...Copy !req
739. for just about every toxic product...Copy !req
740. gas, or ventilation system
out there.Copy !req
741. But it's up to you to find them.Copy !req
742. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
We're spraying right now.Copy !req
743. Oh, my God!Copy !req
744. Carol, you're doing fine.
Just hold in there.Copy !req
745. Move your head.
Concentrate.Copy !req
746. Keep your head
to the side, Carol.Copy !req
747. Keep with us, Carol.Copy !req
748. Carol, keep your head
to the side.Copy !req
749. No unusual foods.
No medication.Copy !req
750. - Emotional strain?
- No.Copy !req
751. Well, can you think of anything else
that might be causing it?Copy !req
752. So what you're saying, Carol,
is that this is based...Copy !req
753. solely on the pesticide
and nothing else.Copy !req
754. I have a chemical impairment
that makes...Copy !req
755. I realize that, Carol, but it's just
not turning up on the tests.Copy !req
756. - Please don't do that!Copy !req
757. Nurse, don't spray that here.Copy !req
758. Thanks.Copy !req
759. Look, Carol,
from a medical standpoint...Copy !req
760. there's no way to prove this thing
is an immune system breakdown...Copy !req
761. much less one based
on environmental factors.Copy !req
762. Now, if your psychiatrists
can't provide...Copy !req
763. Think, honey. I mean...Copy !req
764. what gave you the bloody lip?Copy !req
765. - What would cause you to actually bleed?
- I don't know.Copy !req
766. The chemicals.Copy !req
767. They visit them,
pray with them, get them...Copy !req
768. [ Man #2 ] New York...Copy !req
769. be the same again.Copy !req
770. Things just started
tumbling down on top of me.Copy !req
771. [ Man #3 ]... is here to ensure
your team ring fits...Copy !req
772. [ Man #4 ] No question,
this is gonna be a big sales...Copy !req
773. It is a real problem, and I think
more people are becoming aware...Copy !req
774. because more and more people
are becoming sick from chemicals.Copy !req
775. Nestled in the foothills
of Albuquerque...Copy !req
776. the Wrenwood Center describes itself
as a nonprofit communal settlement...Copy !req
777. dedicated
to the healing individual.Copy !req
778. Offering the services of a combined
health retreat and community center...Copy !req
779. - Wrenwood consists of 200 residents...
- Greg.Copy !req
780. - Visitors, and staff, many of whom suffer...
- Greg!Copy !req
781. - From chemical sensitivity...
- Listen. This thing's on.Copy !req
782. Including its founder,
author Peter Dunning.Copy !req
783. Environmental illness is just one
of a cluster of new immune disorders...Copy !req
784. such as Epstein-Barr syndrome,
chronic fatigue syndrome...Copy !req
785. and, of course, AIDS...Copy !req
786. all of which continue to elude
conventional medicine.Copy !req
787. At Wrenwood,
we offer an alternative.Copy !req
788. I like to think of us
as a safe haven for troubled times.Copy !req
789. We're the most extensive...Copy !req
790. cooperative treatment residency
of our kind.Copy !req
791. But what I think makes us
really unique...Copy !req
792. - I think I -
- is our emphasis on the individual.Copy !req
793. What?Copy !req
794. I heard about this place
from somewhere.Copy !req
795. warning us
of a disease-ridden future?Copy !req
796. If so, the Wrenwood Center
is certainly ahead of its time.Copy !req
797. People come
for all different reasons.Copy !req
798. I guess the thing we all have
in common is, like, why.Copy !req
799. You know? Why did we all
get sick to begin with?Copy !req
800. What's it called?Copy !req
801. Wrenwood.Copy !req
802. Wrenwood.Copy !req
803. It's right in here.Copy !req
804. Stop!Copy !req
805. Stop!Copy !req
806. Not allowed!Copy !req
807. Go back!Copy !req
808. - Not allowed!
- What's she going on about?Copy !req
809. - Stop!
- Wait. You better stop.Copy !req
810. Stop!Copy !req
811. Go back!Copy !req
812. You're contaminating
this entire area!Copy !req
813. How much do I owe you?Copy !req
814. I see you.Copy !req
815. Excuse me.Copy !req
816. - Excuse me. Are you Carol?
- Yes.Copy !req
817. Hi. I'm Susan.
I work with Claire.Copy !req
818. - We've spoken on the phone.
- Hi.Copy !req
819. We're so glad you made it.Copy !req
820. I heard Nell making a ruckus.
I thought it might've been your car.Copy !req
821. - I hope she wasn't too -
- Oh, no.Copy !req
822. She's been having a rough time lately.
Her husband's very sick...Copy !req
823. and she's just...Copy !req
824. - well -
- That's okay.Copy !req
825. Well, let me help you
with your things.Copy !req
826. I'll take this one.Copy !req
827. - Thanks.
- Sure.Copy !req
828. This is a chemical-free zone.Copy !req
829. We have reading boxes,
safe TV...Copy !req
830. and there's a 911 phone...Copy !req
831. in case of any kind
of medical emergency.Copy !req
832. Right.Copy !req
833. We're sorry your husband
wouldn't be able to join you.Copy !req
834. I know. He's just in the middle
of all this business.Copy !req
835. They should be here soon, though,
he and our son.Copy !req
836. - I should call them, actually.
- Sure, sure.Copy !req
837. - There's a phone inside at the center.
- Great.Copy !req
838. We acquired the center in 1978...Copy !req
839. and we've been battling
to keep it ever since.Copy !req
840. But basically, this is where...Copy !req
841. all group convening takes place.Copy !req
842. Um, we have
all of our workshops...Copy !req
843. and, um, our evening talks...Copy !req
844. that sort of thing, here.Copy !req
845. The dining room
is right across the way...Copy !req
846. - on the other side of the street.
- Oh, hi!Copy !req
847. - You must be Carol.
- Carol, this is Claire, our director.Copy !req
848. Hi. Welcome to Wrenwood.Copy !req
849. How was your trip?Copy !req
850. Whoops.
Well, I guess you're just wiped out.Copy !req
851. There's nothing
more debilitating than travel.Copy !req
852. Claire was hypersensitive
when she first came to Wrenwood.Copy !req
853. Now I'm just semi-hypersensitive,
like the rest of the world.Copy !req
854. - I'm a little - from the flight.
- I know.Copy !req
855. We'll just quick get you checked in
and then take you to your cabin...Copy !req
856. and you can plop
or whatever till dinner.Copy !req
857. But I know
there are quite a few people...Copy !req
858. who are anxious to meet you.Copy !req
859. Thank you.Copy !req
860. If you want to leave your bags here
and use the pay phones...Copy !req
861. they are just
beyond the chapel.Copy !req
862. - The little auditorium to the right. Okay?
- Okay.Copy !req
863. Thank you.Copy !req
864. - Hello?
- Hi. It's me.Copy !req
865. - Hi. Are you there?
- Yeah, I'm here.Copy !req
866. Great!Copy !req
867. - Is it nice?
- Yeah.Copy !req
868. Great.
That's great, honey.Copy !req
869. Yeah.
You know, we'll see.Copy !req
870. Did you forget anything?Copy !req
871. No, I just thought I'd call,
tell you I was here and everything.Copy !req
872. I'm glad you caught me.
We were about to go grab a bite.Copy !req
873. Oh, you go ahead.Copy !req
874. - I'm sorry. I just -
- No, no, I'm glad.Copy !req
875. I'm glad it's nice there.
That's great.Copy !req
876. Look, you just relax...Copy !req
877. and take care of yourself,
get well quick...Copy !req
878. and we'll come see you
in a couple of weeks.Copy !req
879. Soon as I reach deadline on this.
Okay, babe?Copy !req
880. Okay.Copy !req
881. - Love you.
- I love you too, hon.Copy !req
882. Say hi to Ror.Copy !req
883. I will. And, um,
we'll talk again real soon.Copy !req
884. - Okay?
- Okay.Copy !req
885. - Bye-bye, sweetie.
- Bye.Copy !req
886. - Night.
- Night.Copy !req
887. I want to welcome all newcomers...Copy !req
888. I want to welcome all newcomers...Copy !req
889. all short-and long-term visitors...Copy !req
890. and extend our warmest support
for the acceleration...Copy !req
891. of your healing process.Copy !req
892. So that you can relax...Copy !req
893. and receive the full benefit
of your stay here...Copy !req
894. we ask that you observe community
wishes in the following ways:Copy !req
895. Silent meals are observed
at breakfast and lunch...Copy !req
896. with a side of the room for men
and a side for women.Copy !req
897. In addition, we ask you
to refrain from smoking...Copy !req
898. drinking, and use of recreational drugs
while on the premises...Copy !req
899. and we ask that you respect
our practice of moderation in dress...Copy !req
900. and restraint
in sexual interaction.Copy !req
901. Instead, we ask that you try...Copy !req
902. to focus these feelings inward...Copy !req
903. toward your personal growth
and self-realization.Copy !req
904. - End of speech. Welcome, everybody...Copy !req
905. Especially our long-termers,
Carol and Ward.Copy !req
906. And now, with no further ado...Copy !req
907. I give you
our own Peter Dunning.Copy !req
908. Yay, Peter!Copy !req
909. - Oh, you like this shirt?
- Are you familiar with his books?Copy !req
910. - No, I don't think so.
- They're so wonderful.Copy !req
911. I'll lend you some.Copy !req
912. Peter is a chemically
sensitive person with AIDS...Copy !req
913. so his perspective
is incredibly vast.Copy !req
914. - My deepest welcome to Carol and Wade.
- Ward.Copy !req
915. W-Ward.
Welcome to Wrenwood.Copy !req
916. All right. If you'd all...Copy !req
917. close your eyes...Copy !req
918. and pass your valuables
to the front.Copy !req
919. - No, no. Come on.Copy !req
920. Not really. Okay.Copy !req
921. So we're feeling good, huh?
We're feeling warmth.Copy !req
922. We can look
into each other's eyes...Copy !req
923. and actually see rejuvenation...Copy !req
924. and personal transformation
happening.Copy !req
925. Why?Copy !req
926. Because we've left
the judgmental behind.Copy !req
927. Whew!Copy !req
928. And with it...Copy !req
929. the shaming condition that kept us
locked up in all the pain.Copy !req
930. But what I want to share
with you tonight...Copy !req
931. what I want
to give you tonight...Copy !req
932. is an image to reflect on...Copy !req
933. an image of a world outside...Copy !req
934. as positive...Copy !req
935. and as free...Copy !req
936. as the world
we've created here.Copy !req
937. Because when you look out
on the world...Copy !req
938. from a place of love...Copy !req
939. and a place of forgiveness...Copy !req
940. what you are seeing outside...Copy !req
941. is a reflection
of what you feel within.Copy !req
942. Does that make sense?Copy !req
943. - So...Copy !req
944. What do I see outside me?Copy !req
945. I see the growth
of environmentalism. Right?Copy !req
946. And holistic study.Copy !req
947. I see a decline
in drugs and promiscuity.Copy !req
948. I see sensitivity training
in the workplace!Copy !req
949. - Yeah!
- And the men's movement.Copy !req
950. - And multiculturalism.Copy !req
951. I see all these positive things
outside in the world...Copy !req
952. because what I am seeing
is a global transformation...Copy !req
953. identical to the transformation...Copy !req
954. I revel at within.Copy !req
955. And with that...Copy !req
956. We are one
with the power that created us.Copy !req
957. We are safe...Copy !req
958. and all is well in our world.Copy !req
959. Carol? I'm sorry.Copy !req
960. - Are you having a reaction?
- No. No.Copy !req
961. I'm fine.Copy !req
962. Ohh.Copy !req
963. - Oh, shh.Copy !req
964. Oh, come on. Shh.Copy !req
965. That's okay.Copy !req
966. Just breathe.Copy !req
967. That's right.Copy !req
968. Good.Copy !req
969. That's good. You're okay.Copy !req
970. Tsk. Oh, Carol.Copy !req
971. You know something?Copy !req
972. All these feelings
you're having are just fine.Copy !req
973. They're so natural.Copy !req
974. I mean, you've just done
something so big...Copy !req
975. you know, something...Copy !req
976. many people never do
in their lifetimes.Copy !req
977. You've taken this big step
on your own behalf.Copy !req
978. You've... left behind everything
that's known and secure...Copy !req
979. and all the people
you love and trust...Copy !req
980. and you've come
to this strange new place...Copy !req
981. with strange new people.Copy !req
982. It's completely understandable...Copy !req
983. that you might feel lonely...Copy !req
984. or fearful or even angry.Copy !req
985. You know...Copy !req
986. when I first came here,
I couldn't even walk.Copy !req
987. I'd been living six miles
from this chemical factory...Copy !req
988. this was in Michigan...Copy !req
989. that was leaking, like,
15 gallons...Copy !req
990. of chemical by-products
every day.Copy !req
991. When I got here, all I could do
was just sit in my safe room...Copy !req
992. and every day...Copy !req
993. every hour of every day...Copy !req
994. I would look at myself
in the mirror...Copy !req
995. and I would say to myself...Copy !req
996. "Claire..."Copy !req
997. I love you.Copy !req
998. "I really love you."Copy !req
999. At the end of the month,
I could leave my room...Copy !req
1000. and shortly thereafter,
I was walking.Copy !req
1001. For me...Copy !req
1002. this was a gift,
this whole thing was a gift...Copy !req
1003. because everything
got taken away from me.Copy !req
1004. I - I mean...Copy !req
1005. everything
in the material world.Copy !req
1006. And what was left...Copy !req
1007. was me.Copy !req
1008. Thank you, Claire.Copy !req
1009. Are you better?Copy !req
1010. You'll do fine.Copy !req
1011. - Sweet dreams.
- Good night.Copy !req
1012. Good night.Copy !req
1013. Dear Greg and Rory...Copy !req
1014. how are you guys?Copy !req
1015. I hope everything is going good.
I really miss you.Copy !req
1016. I'm feeling a little better,
so I decided to stay the full amount.Copy !req
1017. At first it was hard
to get used to...Copy !req
1018. but now I really think
it's starting to help.Copy !req
1019. I've been so much more relaxed
and eating healthfully...Copy !req
1020. and the desert landscape
is really beautiful here.Copy !req
1021. I can't wait till the 25th
to show you around...Copy !req
1022. and introduce you to everyone.Copy !req
1023. Give my love to Sally
and your mother and Linda...Copy !req
1024. and be sure
and help your dad, Ror.Copy !req
1025. Love and kisses, Carol.Copy !req
1026. Is that Lester you're watching?Copy !req
1027. Sorry.
I didn't mean to startle you.Copy !req
1028. Oh, it's fine.Copy !req
1029. I was just watching him go by.Copy !req
1030. Why does he...Copy !req
1031. Oh, poor Lester. He's just...Copy !req
1032. very, very afraid...Copy !req
1033. afraid to eat,
afraid to breathe.Copy !req
1034. But let's talk about you.Copy !req
1035. I heard you weren't
feeling so hot.Copy !req
1036. It was just a little, um...Copy !req
1037. shortness of breath
and some dizziness.Copy !req
1038. I noticed the highway
near here...Copy !req
1039. and I wondered
if maybe my cabin room...Copy !req
1040. was a little downwind
or something.Copy !req
1041. I thought maybe
if I tried another cabin...Copy !req
1042. - Claire would be the best person to speak to about that.
- Claire is?Copy !req
1043. - She's really the one.
- Okay.Copy !req
1044. I remember Claire sharing with me
a little while back...Copy !req
1045. some concern over you.Copy !req
1046. That you'd been feeling
some remorse...Copy !req
1047. maybe some apprehension.Copy !req
1048. - I was just -
- All I'm saying...Copy !req
1049. is that these feelings you're having,
Carol, are extremely common...Copy !req
1050. especially in relation
to new environments.Copy !req
1051. Especially for someone
who's environmentally ill, okay?Copy !req
1052. And what we're about
is trying to help absorb...Copy !req
1053. as many of these tensions
as we can...Copy !req
1054. so you're free to do
the kind of healing...Copy !req
1055. that you need to be doing.Copy !req
1056. - Does that make any sense?
- Yes.Copy !req
1057. 'Cause when that's accomplished,
I'm doing my job.Copy !req
1058. No, I know.
I'm just still learning...Copy !req
1059. you know, um, the words.Copy !req
1060. Oh. Well...Copy !req
1061. the words are...Copy !req
1062. just the way
to get to what's true.Copy !req
1063. - Right?
- Right.Copy !req
1064. - See the coyote?
- Where?Copy !req
1065. Straight.Copy !req
1066. - Is that all right?
- Sure.Copy !req
1067. I need a partner.Copy !req
1068. Great.Copy !req
1069. Guess we'll have
to figure out what to cook.Copy !req
1070. - Right.
- Yeah.Copy !req
1071. All right, well...Copy !req
1072. I'll think about... what to cook.Copy !req
1073. Me too.Copy !req
1074. Bye.Copy !req
1075. She had all these little different,
you know...Copy !req
1076. candies and stuff
she'd keep in there.Copy !req
1077. She used to let me open the clasp
and look inside the purse...Copy !req
1078. then close the clasp.Copy !req
1079. I'll never forget that purse.Copy !req
1080. Okay.Copy !req
1081. Now, speaker number two...Copy !req
1082. describe to your friend a room...Copy !req
1083. you remember having as a child.Copy !req
1084. - Um -Copy !req
1085. Um - Um...Copy !req
1086. God, this is...Copy !req
1087. I guess this one I had was...Copy !req
1088. had...Copy !req
1089. - yellow wallpaper...
- [ Vehicle Approaches, Stops ]Copy !req
1090. - And -Copy !req
1091. What's going on over there?Copy !req
1092. - Oh, my God.
- Who's that?Copy !req
1093. - Who's the guy?
- I don't know.Copy !req
1094. - I think it's Nell's husband.
- [ Woman #2 ] That looks like Nell's husband.Copy !req
1095. Today...Copy !req
1096. is another...Copy !req
1097. precious day on earth...Copy !req
1098. so let's throw away...Copy !req
1099. every negative...Copy !req
1100. destructive thought
we might have...Copy !req
1101. and look around ourselves
with love.Copy !req
1102. I tried to teach him this...Copy !req
1103. to give up the rage...Copy !req
1104. to strive for a quiet mind.Copy !req
1105. My concern is,
it sounds like a spiraling down.Copy !req
1106. If you're feeling more sensitive
to the fumes that way...Copy !req
1107. you shouldn't really be outside.Copy !req
1108. The problem is, there just aren't any
center accommodations available now...Copy !req
1109. except for cabins
and dormitories.Copy !req
1110. Oh, I'm fine, really.Copy !req
1111. Oh, except for Harry's.Copy !req
1112. Harry's?Copy !req
1113. Mr. Keene, Nell's husband,
built a safe house.Copy !req
1114. You can see it.
It's right next to recycling...Copy !req
1115. over there,
the little white igloo.Copy !req
1116. - He lived in that?
- Oh, yeah.Copy !req
1117. After his stroke, he needed
a more controllable space...Copy !req
1118. so she stayed in the cabin,
and he lived in the safe house.Copy !req
1119. And he actually improved.Copy !req
1120. It's ventilated
and porcelain-lined...Copy !req
1121. and he was perfectly safe
as long as no one set foot inside.Copy !req
1122. I don't know
what she's planning to do with it.Copy !req
1123. Ladies and gentlemen,
I have a confession I'd like to make.Copy !req
1124. I've stopped
reading the papers.Copy !req
1125. I've stopped
watching the news on TV.Copy !req
1126. I've heard
the media gloom and doom...Copy !req
1127. and I've seen
their fatalistic, negative attitude...Copy !req
1128. and I finally realized,
once and for all, I don't need it.Copy !req
1129. And so I transform
that negative stimulus...Copy !req
1130. into something
that will not do harm to me.Copy !req
1131. Because if I really believe
that life is...Copy !req
1132. that devastating,
that destructive...Copy !req
1133. I'm afraid that my immune system
will believe it too...Copy !req
1134. and I can't afford
to take that risk.Copy !req
1135. Neither can you.Copy !req
1136. We are one...Copy !req
1137. With the power that created us.Copy !req
1138. - We are safe...
- We are safe...Copy !req
1139. and all is well in our world.Copy !req
1140. So my brother called,
and Darlene had another girl.Copy !req
1141. Oh. I'll call them tonight.Copy !req
1142. Oh, and Linda called
and said to hurry up...Copy !req
1143. and clear or clean
or whatever it is...Copy !req
1144. - "Clear."
- and come on home.Copy !req
1145. That's sweet.Copy !req
1146. So you really feel like it's...Copy !req
1147. still the right choice?
I mean...Copy !req
1148. Yeah, I...Copy !req
1149. I do. I mean...Copy !req
1150. right before the fumes,
I was good.Copy !req
1151. My load was up.Copy !req
1152. I was eating well, so...Copy !req
1153. What did they say
about the fumes?Copy !req
1154. Just that I'd probably move
to another, different cabin somewhere...Copy !req
1155. - Uh-huh.
- where I won't feel them.Copy !req
1156. Right.Copy !req
1157. Okay.Copy !req
1158. I just think
it's true what they say...Copy !req
1159. that it's up to the individual,
and that it takes time.Copy !req
1160. Right.Copy !req
1161. - Whose house is that?
- That's Peter's.Copy !req
1162. - It's gorgeous, isn't it?
- Yeah.Copy !req
1163. - Feel like moving?
- No.Copy !req
1164. She's, um...Copy !req
1165. Her husband just passed away.Copy !req
1166. Come on, Rory.Copy !req
1167. Now!Copy !req
1168. Steve...Copy !req
1169. why did you become sick?Copy !req
1170. Um, well, I became sick...Copy !req
1171. because I just O.D.'d
on all the drugs I was doing.Copy !req
1172. Uh-huh.
Why did you become addicted?Copy !req
1173. Well, I guess
I became addicted...Copy !req
1174. to, like, blot out the pain...Copy !req
1175. of not liking myself.Copy !req
1176. - Of hating myself, really.
- Mm.Copy !req
1177. Self-hatred.Copy !req
1178. Yep.Copy !req
1179. Okay. Thanks, Steve.Copy !req
1180. - Hello, Joyce.
- Hi.Copy !req
1181. - How are you?
- I'm okay.Copy !req
1182. Joyce, what do you think
was behind your illness?Copy !req
1183. Why did you become sick?Copy !req
1184. I believe that
I made myself sick...Copy !req
1185. after my son got sick...Copy !req
1186. because I was just...Copy !req
1187. Well, you get
so eaten up with guilt, really.Copy !req
1188. You know, because I felt
that I had done it to him.Copy !req
1189. I was the one
who put him in that school.Copy !req
1190. I put him in that environment.Copy !req
1191. You were punishing yourself.Copy !req
1192. Yeah.Copy !req
1193. Thanks.Copy !req
1194. Marilyn?Copy !req
1195. I was, um...Copy !req
1196. deeply wounded as a child...Copy !req
1197. and had completely
blocked it out for years...Copy !req
1198. and then, uh,
suddenly became very ill.Copy !req
1199. Why, do you think?Copy !req
1200. Maybe to let myself know
something was wrong.Copy !req
1201. Okay.Copy !req
1202. And...Copy !req
1203. the person
who hurt you the most...Copy !req
1204. Was me.Copy !req
1205. For?Copy !req
1206. Not forgiving him.Copy !req
1207. Okay.Copy !req
1208. Thank you, Marilyn.Copy !req
1209. Um, Carol...Copy !req
1210. would you like to respond?Copy !req
1211. Okay, okay.Copy !req
1212. We don't want to force anyone.Copy !req
1213. Nell?Copy !req
1214. What?Copy !req
1215. Would you like to take part?Copy !req
1216. What is the question?Copy !req
1217. The question is...Copy !req
1218. why did you become sick?Copy !req
1219. First, I got sick...Copy !req
1220. and my husband
thought I was crazy...Copy !req
1221. and then he got sick
the same way.Copy !req
1222. What was happening in your life
around the time that you...Copy !req
1223. How were you feeling
when you first got sick?Copy !req
1224. I just wanted to get a gun...Copy !req
1225. and blow off the heads
of everyone who got me like this.Copy !req
1226. Nobody out there made you sick.
You know that.Copy !req
1227. The only person who can
make you get sick is you, right?Copy !req
1228. Whatever the sickness,
if our immune system is damaged...Copy !req
1229. it's because
we have allowed it to be...Copy !req
1230. through exactly the kind of anger
you're showing us now.Copy !req
1231. Does that make sense?Copy !req
1232. Does anybody have
a problem with that?Copy !req
1233. Which is why you need
to remember your affirmations...Copy !req
1234. and figure out
how to love Nell a lot more.Copy !req
1235. And even Nell's disease.Copy !req
1236. And put that gun of yours away.Copy !req
1237. Sometimes...Copy !req
1238. Sometimes all I see
is the hatred and frailty...Copy !req
1239. people's cruelty
to one another...Copy !req
1240. cruelty to themselves...Copy !req
1241. and I realize...Copy !req
1242. how lucky I am.Copy !req
1243. How blessed.Copy !req
1244. - Is that everything?
- I think so.Copy !req
1245. Rory, be careful with that.
It's real heavy.Copy !req
1246. I have it!Copy !req
1247. Rory, don't talk to your mother
in that tone.Copy !req
1248. Fine.Copy !req
1249. - What time's your flight?
- 7:20.Copy !req
1250. Ror, if you really want
to be helpful...Copy !req
1251. make sure our stuff's in the car
and we're ready to go.Copy !req
1252. - Want me to get that?
- I got it.Copy !req
1253. You sure?Copy !req
1254. - Whoa. Watch it.
- Whoops.Copy !req
1255. You okay?Copy !req
1256. You all right?Copy !req
1257. I think it might be
your cologne.Copy !req
1258. Honey, I'm not wearing
any cologne.Copy !req
1259. Uh, maybe in the shirt.Copy !req
1260. I don't know.Copy !req
1261. Well, I guess we better get moving
if we're gonna catch the plane.Copy !req
1262. You gonna be okay?Copy !req
1263. I'm fine.
It's just for a short time.Copy !req
1264. - I know.
- I'll be fine.Copy !req
1265. Okay.Copy !req
1266. - Can I hug you?
- Of course.Copy !req
1267. So this other guy didn't know
anything was wrong with him either...Copy !req
1268. except that whenever
he would go into a mall...Copy !req
1269. he would get
totally depressed...Copy !req
1270. you know, start crying really hard,
and contemplating suicide.Copy !req
1271. And then he would step outside,
and he would be fine.Copy !req
1272. You know, totally normal.
This would happen every single time.Copy !req
1273. - God.
- Yeah.Copy !req
1274. - You know what they called him?
- What?Copy !req
1275. "Dr. Jekyll
and Mr. For-mall-dehyde."Copy !req
1276. Oh, God.Copy !req
1277. - I'm so gullible.
- No, I'm serious.Copy !req
1278. This really happened.Copy !req
1279. I always forget
if it's pasta, cheese, sauce...Copy !req
1280. cheese, pasta...Copy !req
1281. or pasta, sauce, cheese...Copy !req
1282. pasta, cheese, sauce.Copy !req
1283. I think it's pasta...Copy !req
1284. pasta, pasta, pasta, cheese...Copy !req
1285. - Stop it! Stop it!
- pasta, sauce.Copy !req
1286. Suddenly all I see...Copy !req
1287. all over my hands
and my legs are...Copy !req
1288. black, horrible sores
all over me, oozing.Copy !req
1289. And at first I'm horrified...Copy !req
1290. and I'm full
of self-pity and anger.Copy !req
1291. I'm enraged until I realize...Copy !req
1292. Suddenly I look down again,
and I realize...Copy !req
1293. that they aren't sores at all...Copy !req
1294. but these... black pansies...Copy !req
1295. these sort of wilted black pansies
I used to pick when I was a child.Copy !req
1296. So in my dream,
I remember that.Copy !req
1297. And as I pick up...Copy !req
1298. each wilted flower...Copy !req
1299. they would just instantly...Copy !req
1300. bloom into beautiful bouquets.Copy !req
1301. - Oh!
- Every single one.Copy !req
1302. - Ending in rejoice.
- That's remarkably clear.Copy !req
1303. It's extraordinary.Copy !req
1304. Incredible lasagna,
by the way, guys.Copy !req
1305. - Yeah.
- Great dinner, both of you.Copy !req
1306. And you know, it almost tasted
like the real thing.Copy !req
1307. To Carol and Chris.Copy !req
1308. - To Carol and Chris.
- To Carol and Chris.Copy !req
1309. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.Copy !req
1310. Um, I've got a little
announcement to make.Copy !req
1311. Um, since
it's almost tomorrow...Copy !req
1312. and tomorrow happens to be...Copy !req
1313. - Carol's birthday...
- Ooh!Copy !req
1314. We have
a little surprise for her.Copy !req
1315. Speech!Copy !req
1316. - Speech!
- Happy birthday, Carol.Copy !req
1317. - Speech!
- No, I...Copy !req
1318. - Happy birthday, sweetie.
- I...Copy !req
1319. - Say something.
- I can't. I've never made a speech in my life.Copy !req
1320. - Please.
- Oh, God. Um...Copy !req
1321. I just want to thank Chris
for doing this...Copy !req
1322. and everybody here so much.Copy !req
1323. It just - You pulled me
through a really hard period.Copy !req
1324. Anyway, I couldn't have
done it without you.Copy !req
1325. - I don't know what I'm saying.Copy !req
1326. Just that I really hated myself
before I came here...Copy !req
1327. and, um, so...Copy !req
1328. I'm trying to see myself
hopefully, um...Copy !req
1329. more as I am, more...Copy !req
1330. um, more positive...Copy !req
1331. like seeing the pluses.Copy !req
1332. Like, I think it's slowly
opening up now.Copy !req
1333. People's minds, like...Copy !req
1334. educating and, and...Copy !req
1335. AIDS and, um...Copy !req
1336. and other types of diseases...Copy !req
1337. 'cause - 'cause...Copy !req
1338. And it is a disease,
'cause it's out there...Copy !req
1339. and we just have to be
more aware of it...Copy !req
1340. make people aware of it
and, um, even ourselves...Copy !req
1341. like, uh, going...Copy !req
1342. reading labels
and going into buildings...Copy !req
1343. To Carol.Copy !req
1344. To Carol!Copy !req
1345. Thank you, Chris...Copy !req
1346. for everything.Copy !req
1347. - Are you sure you're all right, Carol?
- I'm fine, really.Copy !req
1348. Okay.Copy !req
1349. Thanks.Copy !req
1350. - See you tomorrow.
- For sure.Copy !req
1351. - Good night.
- Night.Copy !req
1352. I love -Copy !req
1353. I love you.Copy !req
1354. I really love you.Copy !req
1355. I love you.Copy !req