1. What is your full name?Copy !req
2. My name is...Copy !req
3. Yuri Alexandrovich Zharov.Copy !req
4. Look straight ahead.Copy !req
5. Where are you from?Copy !req
6. I am...Copy !req
7. Look straight ahead.Copy !req
8. I'm from Kharkov.Copy !req
9. Where do you go to school?Copy !req
10. I go...Copy !req
11. I go to a technical college.Copy !req
12. Yuri, we'll start our session now.Copy !req
13. Look at me.Copy !req
14. Only at me.Copy !req
15. Look right in my eyes.Copy !req
16. Coming forward...Copy !req
17. Turn around.Copy !req
18. Concentrate on my hand.Copy !req
19. You'll feel it drawing you back.Copy !req
20. Good.Copy !req
21. Spread your fingers.Copy !req
22. Like this.Copy !req
23. Now concentrate, Yuri.Copy !req
24. Send all the tension from up here
down to your hands.Copy !req
25. More. Your hands are getting
more and more tense.Copy !req
26. With all your might
and your great will to succeed,Copy !req
27. focus on your hands.Copy !req
28. They're getting
more and more tense.Copy !req
29. Your hands are getting
more and more tense.Copy !req
30. Even more.Copy !req
31. Look at your hands
and your fingers.Copy !req
32. They're growing
more and more tense.Copy !req
33. All this tension is flowing down
into your fingers.Copy !req
34. Good. Look at your hands.Copy !req
35. Your fingers are tense.
Concentrate.Copy !req
36. On "three,"
your hands will freeze in place.Copy !req
37. Ready?Copy !req
38. Look at your hands. One...Copy !req
39. two...Copy !req
40. three!Copy !req
41. Your hands are frozen stiff.Copy !req
42. You can't move them.Copy !req
43. Try as you might,
they won't move.Copy !req
44. Even the slightest movement
is a struggle.Copy !req
45. They're frozen stiff.Copy !req
46. Now I'll bring you out of it,Copy !req
47. and you'll speak
clearly and effortlessly,Copy !req
48. unafraid of your own voice
and words.Copy !req
49. If you can do that now,Copy !req
50. you'll speak that way
all your life.Copy !req
51. Clearly and loudly.
Here we go.Copy !req
52. Look at me.Copy !req
53. On three...Copy !req
54. I'll lift the tension
from your hands and speech.Copy !req
55. One... two... three!Copy !req
56. Loud and clear!
"I can speak."Copy !req
57. I can speak.Copy !req
58. The Mother and NataliaCopy !req
59. Screenplay by ALEXANDER MISHARIN
and ANDREI TARKOVSKYCopy !req
60. Directed by ANDREI TARKOVSKYCopy !req
61. Cinematography GEORGY RERBERGCopy !req
62. Art Direction NIKOLAI DVIGUBSKYCopy !req
63. Music by EDUARD ARTEMYEV
Sound by SEMYON LITVINOVCopy !req
64. Edited by LYUDMILA FEYGINOVACopy !req
65. Featuring I. DANILTSEV
L. TARKOVSKAYA, A. DEMIDOVACopy !req
66. A. SOLONITSYN, N. GRINKOCopy !req
67. T. OGORODNIKOVA, Y. NAZAROV
O. YANKOVSKY, F. YANKOVSKYCopy !req
68. Y. SVENTIKOV
T. RESHETNIKOVACopy !req
69. Narrator INNOKENTY SMOKTUNOVSKYCopy !req
70. Poems by ARSENY TARKOVSKY
Read by the AuthorCopy !req
71. With Music by J. S. BACH,
PERGOLESI, and PURCELLCopy !req
72. Executive Producer
E. WEISBERGCopy !req
73. The road from the station
passed through Ignatyevo,Copy !req
74. then veered off
toward the homesteadCopy !req
75. where we spent
our summers before the war.Copy !req
76. It then continued on through
a dense oak forest to Tomshino.Copy !req
77. We usually only recognized our kinCopy !req
78. when they appeared from behind
a large bush out in the field.Copy !req
79. If a man turned
toward the house,Copy !req
80. then it was Father.Copy !req
81. If he didn't...Copy !req
82. then it wasn't Father...Copy !req
83. and it meant
Father would never return.Copy !req
84. Excuse me, miss.
Is this the way to Tomshino?Copy !req
85. You shouldn't have turned
at the bush.Copy !req
86. - And what's all this?
- All what?Copy !req
87. Why are you sitting there?Copy !req
88. I live here.Copy !req
89. On the fence?Copy !req
90. You want to know the way
to Tomshino or where I live?Copy !req
91. Ah, there's a house here.Copy !req
92. I brought all my instruments,
but I forgot the key to my bag.Copy !req
93. Would you have
a nail or screwdriver?Copy !req
94. No.Copy !req
95. I don't have a nail.Copy !req
96. Why so nervous?Copy !req
97. Give me your hand.
It's okay. I'm a doctor.Copy !req
98. Well?Copy !req
99. Don't talk or I can't count.Copy !req
100. Shall I call my husband?Copy !req
101. You don't have a husband.Copy !req
102. You're not wearing a ring.Copy !req
103. Where's your wedding ring?Copy !req
104. Though people don't wear rings
much nowadays.Copy !req
105. Old folks, maybe.Copy !req
106. May I ask for a cigarette?Copy !req
107. Why are you so sad?Copy !req
108. I don't see
what you're so happy about.Copy !req
109. It's nice to crash to the ground
with an attractive woman.Copy !req
110. Now that I'm down here...Copy !req
111. there are all kinds
of things down here.Copy !req
112. Roots, bushes.Copy !req
113. Have you ever thought -Copy !req
114. Has it ever occurred to youCopy !req
115. that plants feel...Copy !req
116. and are aware...Copy !req
117. maybe even understand?Copy !req
118. The trees.Copy !req
119. This hazelnut tree -
- It's an alder.Copy !req
120. Doesn't matter.Copy !req
121. They're not hurrying anywhere...Copy !req
122. while we rush around
in a great fuss...Copy !req
123. spouting our banalities.Copy !req
124. All because we don't trust
nature within us.Copy !req
125. It's all our mistrust and haste...Copy !req
126. our lack of time
to stop and think.Copy !req
127. Listen, you have a bit of -Copy !req
128. No, no. I get that a lot.Copy !req
129. That won't happen to me.
I'm a doctor.Copy !req
130. What about Chekhov's
"Ward No. 6"?Copy !req
131. Chekhov made the whole thing up.Copy !req
132. You know what?Copy !req
133. Come visit us in Tomshino.Copy !req
134. - Listen...
- We have good times there.Copy !req
135. You're bleeding!Copy !req
136. - Where?
- Behind your ear.Copy !req
137. Other side.Copy !req
138. We celebrated every moment
of our trysts as an epiphany,Copy !req
139. alone in all the world.Copy !req
140. Lighter and more daring
than a bird's wing,Copy !req
141. you skipped down the stairs,
leading me, dizzy,Copy !req
142. through moist lilacsCopy !req
143. to your kingdom
beyond the looking glass.Copy !req
144. When night fell,Copy !req
145. a blessing was bestowed upon me:Copy !req
146. The altargates parted,
and in the darknessCopy !req
147. nakedness shone brightly,
slowly reclining.Copy !req
148. Upon waking I exclaimed,
"Be blessed!"Copy !req
149. Knowing my blessing
was too bold.Copy !req
150. You slept, and the lilacs
on the table reached outCopy !req
151. to touch your eyelids
with the blue of the universe.Copy !req
152. Touched by that blue,
your eyelids were calm,Copy !req
153. and your hand was warm.Copy !req
154. Inside the crystal,
rivers pulsed,Copy !req
155. mountains smoked,
oceans glimmered.Copy !req
156. In your palm you held
the orb of crystal,Copy !req
157. asleep on your throne.Copy !req
158. And - my God!
- You were mine.Copy !req
159. A wakening, you transformedCopy !req
160. our mundane human language.Copy !req
161. Speech filled my throat
with such resounding forceCopy !req
162. that the word "you"
revealed its new meaning:Copy !req
163. "my sovereign."Copy !req
164. Everything in the world
was transfigured,Copy !req
165. even simple things
like basin and jug,Copy !req
166. their layers of hardened waterCopy !req
167. standing between us
as if on guard.Copy !req
168. We were led who knows where,Copy !req
169. to cities built by magic
that parted before us like mirages.Copy !req
170. Mint bowed beneath our feet,Copy !req
171. birds accompanied us
on our path,Copy !req
172. fish swam upstream,Copy !req
173. and the sky spread out
before our eyes,Copy !req
174. while fate followed behind
in our footstepsCopy !req
175. like a madman with a razor.Copy !req
176. Dunya! Dear Lord!Copy !req
177. Dunya!Copy !req
178. Pasha! What's going on?Copy !req
179. There's a fire,
but don't start shouting!Copy !req
180. That son of a -
Just wait till I catch him!Copy !req
181. Maybe it wasn't our Vitya.Copy !req
182. He might be in there!
He could be burned alive!Copy !req
183. And where's Klanka?Copy !req
184. Klanka!Copy !req
185. What?Copy !req
186. Papa.Copy !req
187. - Hello?
- Alexei?Copy !req
188. Hi, Mama.Copy !req
189. What's wrong with your voice?
Are you sick?Copy !req
190. It's nothing.
Probably just a sore throat.Copy !req
191. I haven't spoken
with anyone here in three days.Copy !req
192. Anyway, it's good
not to talk for a while.Copy !req
193. Words can't really express
everything a person feels.Copy !req
194. It's like they're too... feeble.Copy !req
195. Want to hear something strange?Copy !req
196. I just had a dream about you.
I was still a child.Copy !req
197. Mama, remind me:
What year did Father leave us?Copy !req
198. Was it '36 or '37?Copy !req
199. It was 1935.Copy !req
200. But why do you need to know?Copy !req
201. What about the fire?Copy !req
202. Remember when
the barn burned down?Copy !req
203. That was in '35 too.Copy !req
204. But now you've thrown me off.
I called with news.Copy !req
205. You know...Copy !req
206. Liza died.Copy !req
207. - Liza who?
- Liza!Copy !req
208. Elizaveta Pavlovna. She worked
with me at the printing house.Copy !req
209. On Serpukhov Street.
- Ah! Oh, God!Copy !req
210. When?Copy !req
211. This morning at 7:00.Copy !req
212. What time is it now?Copy !req
213. What time of day is it?Copy !req
214. - Around 6:00.
- In the morning?Copy !req
215. What's wrong with you?
Evening, of course.Copy !req
216. Mama...Copy !req
217. why do we always quarrel?Copy !req
218. In any case, forgive me
if I'm somehow to blame.Copy !req
219. Printing house.
Next stop: Serpukhov Street.Copy !req
220. Why the big rush?Copy !req
221. Hello, Maria Nikolayevna.Copy !req
222. Where are the proofs
I worked on yesterday?Copy !req
223. I don't know.
I've only worked here a week.Copy !req
224. I'll be right back.Copy !req
225. Elizaveta Pavlovna is here.Copy !req
226. Marusya, what's going on?Copy !req
227. Something in yesterday's galleys?Copy !req
228. In the special edition for Goslit?Copy !req
229. No need to get upset.Copy !req
230. - I'll check the cabinet in typesetting.
- Yes, check there.Copy !req
231. It's not a big deal.Copy !req
232. Masha!Copy !req
233. Dear God,
not in that special edition!Copy !req
234. It'll be all right, Masha.Copy !req
235. There shouldn't be misprints
in any edition!Copy !req
236. Shut up, you idiot!Copy !req
237. - Something wrong?
- Nothing serious.Copy !req
238. No, of course not.
Just checking something.Copy !req
239. I'm probably mistaken.
I mean, I wasn't mistaken.Copy !req
240. Take it step by step.Copy !req
241. I'd better do it myself.Copy !req
242. Everything's so darned urgent!
No one has any time!Copy !req
243. Marusya...Copy !req
244. You think I'm afraid?Copy !req
245. I know you're not.
Let others be afraid.Copy !req
246. Some of us work
and some get afraid.Copy !req
247. What is it?Copy !req
248. What's done is done.
The run is finished.Copy !req
249. I waited for you all day yesterday.Copy !req
250. They all said you wouldn't come.Copy !req
251. Remember the beautiful weather?
It was like a holiday!Copy !req
252. I didn't even wear a coat.Copy !req
253. Today you came,Copy !req
254. but today served up
the gloomiest day,Copy !req
255. with the rain,
and the hour being so late,Copy !req
256. and raindrops running down
the cold branches,Copy !req
257. raindrops no words could stop
nor kerchief wipe away.Copy !req
258. Come now, Masha.Copy !req
259. There was no misprint, right?Copy !req
260. Everything okay?Copy !req
261. It would have been outrageous.
Obscene, even!Copy !req
262. Then why are you crying?Copy !req
263. Why did it suddenly hit me?Copy !req
264. I saw the word clearly,
set in type!Copy !req
265. What word?Copy !req
266. Well?Copy !req
267. You're right.Copy !req
268. That's a good one.Copy !req
269. Pure alcohol.Copy !req
270. There's not much,
but it packs a punch.Copy !req
271. You're drenched.
You look like a scarecrow.Copy !req
272. I really am soaked.Copy !req
273. Good Lord!
I think I'll take a shower.Copy !req
274. I'll go have a shower.
Where's my comb?Copy !req
275. Dear God!
You know who you remind me of?Copy !req
276. - Who?
- Maria Timofeyevna.Copy !req
277. Who's that?Copy !req
278. Here. You were looking
for your comb.Copy !req
279. Tell me.
Who's this Maria Timofeyevna?Copy !req
280. Maria Timofeyevna Lebyadkin.Copy !req
281. Captain Lebyadkin's sister.
Stavrogin's wife.Copy !req
282. What's she got to do with me?Copy !req
283. I'm just saying
the resemblance is striking.Copy !req
284. Assuming you're right...Copy !req
285. in what way exactly?Copy !req
286. Say what you will,
Dostoyevsky got it right.Copy !req
287. What do I say?Copy !req
288. "Lebyadkin, bring me some water!
Get me my shoes!"Copy !req
289. Only he doesn't bring her water.
He beats her silly!Copy !req
290. While she thinks everyone lives
at her beck and call!Copy !req
291. Stop quoting Dostoyevsky
and explain yourself.Copy !req
292. Your whole life is "Bring me water!"
and "Get my shoes!"Copy !req
293. And what does it get you?Copy !req
294. An illusion of independence.Copy !req
295. You're utterly helpless!Copy !req
296. If something doesn't suit you,Copy !req
297. either it doesn't exist
or you turn up your nose.Copy !req
298. What are you talking about?Copy !req
299. I'm amazed
at your ex-husband's patience!Copy !req
300. The way I see it,
he should have bolted ages ago!Copy !req
301. I don't understand.Copy !req
302. Do you ever admit you're wrong?
Never!Copy !req
303. It's amazing!Copy !req
304. You created this whole situation!Copy !req
305. My God!Copy !req
306. If you failed to coerce
your poor husbandCopy !req
307. into adopting these senseless,
liberated ways of yours,Copy !req
308. let's just say
he escaped in time!Copy !req
309. As for your children...Copy !req
310. you're sure to make
their lives miserable!Copy !req
311. Stop acting like a madwoman!Copy !req
312. Masha!Copy !req
313. Come on!Copy !req
314. Come on now!Copy !req
315. Leave me alone!Copy !req
316. "Midway upon the journey of life,Copy !req
317. I found myself in a forest dark..."Copy !req
318. Dear God!Copy !req
319. What? Have you forgotten?Copy !req
320. I've always said
you're like my mother.Copy !req
321. That's probably
why we got divorced.Copy !req
322. I'm horrified to see Ignat becoming
more and more like you.Copy !req
323. Really? Why "horrified"?Copy !req
324. Alexei, you and I could never talk
like normal human beings.Copy !req
325. When I recall...Copy !req
326. my childhood and my mother,Copy !req
327. somehow she always has
your face.Copy !req
328. But I know why.Copy !req
329. I pity you both equally...Copy !req
330. you and her.Copy !req
331. Why pity?Copy !req
332. Ignat, stop fooling around.
Put that glass back.Copy !req
333. You'll never be able
to live with anyone.Copy !req
334. That's quite possible.Copy !req
335. No offense.Copy !req
336. You seem somehow convincedCopy !req
337. that the simple fact
of your presenceCopy !req
338. should make
everyone around you happy.Copy !req
339. You demand everyone's attention.Copy !req
340. Probably because
I was raised by women.Copy !req
341. And if you don't want Ignat
turning out like me,Copy !req
342. get married soon.Copy !req
343. - To whom?
- That I don't know.Copy !req
344. Or else let me have Ignat.Copy !req
345. Why haven't you made peace
with your mother yet?Copy !req
346. You're the one in the wrong.
- I am?Copy !req
347. Why?Copy !req
348. Because she thinks
she knows better than meCopy !req
349. how I should live
and what will make me happy?Copy !req
350. You? Happy?Copy !req
351. As for her and me,
I feel it far more keenlyCopy !req
352. than you do
looking on from the outside.Copy !req
353. What do you feel more keenly?Copy !req
354. That she and I are drifting apart...Copy !req
355. and there's nothing
I can do about it.Copy !req
356. Natalia, distract him somehow.Copy !req
357. He's starting in about Spain again.Copy !req
358. Everyone will get worked up.
There'll be a big scene.Copy !req
359. All right.Copy !req
360. I wanted to ask you something.Copy !req
361. Our place is being renovated.Copy !req
362. Ignat would like to stay
with you for a week.Copy !req
363. What do you think?Copy !req
364. Of course.
I'd be happy to have him.Copy !req
365. Ángel, what's he saying?Copy !req
366. He's imitating
the famous matador Palomo Linares.Copy !req
367. What crap!Copy !req
368. But what moved him most
was the farewell the last night.Copy !req
369. The whole city saw him off
with singing and dancing.Copy !req
370. His mother couldn't be there.
She was ill.Copy !req
371. And while everyone else sang,
his father stood off to the sideCopy !req
372. looking silent and sad.Copy !req
373. Palomo knew they were both
thinking the same thought:Copy !req
374. Would they ever see
each other again?Copy !req
375. Are you kidding me?Copy !req
376. We spent years teaching you,
with no success!Copy !req
377. Now it turns out you can dance!Copy !req
378. Big talker!Copy !req
379. He was in Spain
and didn't understand a word.Copy !req
380. Luisa...Copy !req
381. don't you ever feel
like going back to Spain?Copy !req
382. I can't.Copy !req
383. My husband is Russian...Copy !req
384. and my children are Russian.Copy !req
385. It's okay. I'll talk to her.Copy !req
386. Go back inside.Copy !req
387. Ignat!Copy !req
388. Come here. I'm leaving.Copy !req
389. My God!Copy !req
390. Give it here.Copy !req
391. It never fails
when you're in a hurry.Copy !req
392. Don't sort it. There's no time.Copy !req
393. - I got a shock.
- What?Copy !req
394. I got a sort of shock.Copy !req
395. What kind of shock?Copy !req
396. Like all this has happened before,
picking up coins like this.Copy !req
397. What are you talking about?Copy !req
398. But I've never been here before.Copy !req
399. Give it here.
And please stop imagining things.Copy !req
400. Listen...Copy !req
401. clean all this up, okay?Copy !req
402. Please don't touch anything.Copy !req
403. And if Maria Nikolayevna comes by,
tell her not go anywhere.Copy !req
404. Come in.Copy !req
405. Hello.Copy !req
406. Bring a cup of tea
for the young man, will you?Copy !req
407. Kindly get the notebookCopy !req
408. from the third shelf
of the bookcase at the end.Copy !req
409. That's it. Thank you.Copy !req
410. Now please read me
the page where the ribbon is.Copy !req
411. "When asked
how the arts and sciencesCopy !req
412. influence people's morals,Copy !req
413. Rousseau replied,
'Negatively."Copy !req
414. No. Read just
what's underlined in red.Copy !req
415. We don't have much time.Copy !req
416. "Despite the -"Copy !req
417. Oh, no.Copy !req
418. "'There's no doubtCopy !req
419. that the division of the churches
cut us off from EuropeCopy !req
420. and that we have not taken part
in any of the great eventsCopy !req
421. that shook Europe.Copy !req
422. But we had our own special destiny.Copy !req
423. It was Russia
and its vast expansesCopy !req
424. that swallowed up
the Mongol invasion.Copy !req
425. The Tatars dared not continue on
across our western bordersCopy !req
426. and leave us to their rear.Copy !req
427. They retreated to their wastelands,Copy !req
428. and Christian civilization was saved.Copy !req
429. To achieve this aim,Copy !req
430. we had to lead
a very special way of life,Copy !req
431. which, while preserving us
as Christians,Copy !req
432. left us completely alien
to the Christian world.Copy !req
433. As for our historic insignificance,Copy !req
434. I cannot agree with you about that.Copy !req
435. Do you honestly not see
anything significantCopy !req
436. in Russia's present situationCopy !req
437. that would amaze
a future historian?Copy !req
438. Though I'm deeply attached
to the czar,Copy !req
439. I'm far from thrilled
with everything I see around me.Copy !req
440. As a writer, I'm annoyed.Copy !req
441. As a man of discernment,
I'm insulted.Copy !req
442. Yet I wouldn't trade my fatherlandCopy !req
443. for anything in the world,Copy !req
444. nor would I choose
any other historyCopy !req
445. than that of our forefathers,Copy !req
446. exactly as God gave it to us.'Copy !req
447. From Pushkin's letter
to Chaadayev,Copy !req
448. "October 19, 1836."Copy !req
449. Go on. Open the door.Copy !req
450. Oh, I have the wrong address.Copy !req
451. - Hello?
- Ignat? How are things?Copy !req
452. Everything all right?Copy !req
453. Did Maria Nikolayevna come by?Copy !req
454. No.Copy !req
455. Some woman came by.
She had the wrong apartment.Copy !req
456. Find something to do.Copy !req
457. Just don't make a mess.Copy !req
458. Maybe invite a friend over.Copy !req
459. You know any boys or girls?Copy !req
460. From school? No way.Copy !req
461. At your age I was already in love.Copy !req
462. It was during the war.Copy !req
463. She had red, red hair,Copy !req
464. and her lips were always chapped.Copy !req
465. Our shell-shocked military instructor
was after her too.Copy !req
466. Are you listening?Copy !req
467. You there... what were you aiming at?Copy !req
468. Think I didn't see that?Copy !req
469. You shot up in the air!
Know what that will get you?Copy !req
470. - What did I do?
- What do you mean?Copy !req
471. - There's no one there.
- But what if there were?Copy !req
472. Where?
There's nothing but trees.Copy !req
473. What if someone were up in a tree?Copy !req
474. About face!Copy !req
475. The command was "about face."Copy !req
476. Enough fooling around.
Put the rifle back.Copy !req
477. About face is what I did.Copy !req
478. Did you study your drill manual?Copy !req
479. Did you or didn't you?Copy !req
480. "About face"
means all the way around.Copy !req
481. That's exactly what I did.Copy !req
482. As far as I understand,Copy !req
483. it means a 360-degree rotation.Copy !req
484. Forget the degrees, Asafiev.Copy !req
485. About face!Copy !req
486. To firing positions...Copy !req
487. march!Copy !req
488. I'm going to send for your parents.Copy !req
489. What parents?Copy !req
490. You know what parents.Copy !req
491. What is "firing position"?
I don't understand.Copy !req
492. Down on the mat!Copy !req
493. His parents died
in the siege of Leningrad.Copy !req
494. Firing position is... firing position.Copy !req
495. Understand?Copy !req
496. Markov.Copy !req
497. Name the basic parts...Copy !req
498. of a TOZ-8 rifle.Copy !req
499. The butt.Copy !req
500. The muzzle.
- I'll muzzle you!Copy !req
501. Then what's a muzzle?Copy !req
502. It's a grenade, boys!Copy !req
503. Let's go! Move it!Copy !req
504. It's an F1!
I saw one on a poster at school!Copy !req
505. Asafiev, don't!Copy !req
506. Get in the corner! Down!Copy !req
507. Shirokov!Copy !req
508. You'll be killed!Copy !req
509. It's a practice grenade.Copy !req
510. From Leningrad, eh?Copy !req
511. A siege survivor!Copy !req
512. I don't believe in premonitions...Copy !req
513. and I do not fear omens.Copy !req
514. I do not flee
from slander or poison.Copy !req
515. There is no death on this earth.Copy !req
516. All are immortal.
Everything is immortal.Copy !req
517. There's no need
to fear death at 17 or 70.Copy !req
518. There's only reality and light.Copy !req
519. There's neither darkness
nor death in this world.Copy !req
520. We've all reached the shore,Copy !req
521. and I'm among those
who haul in the netsCopy !req
522. when immortality
comes swimming by the shoal.Copy !req
523. Live in a house
and it will not crumble.Copy !req
524. I'll summon up
any century at will.Copy !req
525. I'll enter into it
and build a home there.Copy !req
526. That's why your children and wives
all share my table.Copy !req
527. At one table sit
both forefathers and grandchildren.Copy !req
528. What is to come is already here.Copy !req
529. And if I raise my hand,Copy !req
530. its five rays will remain with you.Copy !req
531. With my collarbones like beamsCopy !req
532. I shored up
every day that passed.Copy !req
533. I measured time
with a surveyor's staffCopy !req
534. and traversed it
like a mountain range.Copy !req
535. I chose an age
to my own measure.Copy !req
536. We headed south,
raising dust on the steppes.Copy !req
537. The tall grass smoldered
and a grasshopper sported,Copy !req
538. touching its antenna
to a horseshoe and prophesying,Copy !req
539. threatening me with ruin
like a monk.Copy !req
540. I strapped my fate
fast to my saddle,Copy !req
541. and even now I rise up in the stirrups
of the future like a youth.Copy !req
542. My immortality is all I needCopy !req
543. for my blood to flow
from age to age.Copy !req
544. For a warm and trusty cornerCopy !req
545. I'd give my life
of my own free will,Copy !req
546. had life's swift needle
not drawn meCopy !req
547. through this world like a thread.Copy !req
548. Marusya.Copy !req
549. Where are the children?Copy !req
550. Where are they?Copy !req
551. Alyoshka, I'm gonna tell
everyone you stole a book.Copy !req
552. What's that?Copy !req
553. I'm gonna tell.Copy !req
554. Stop it!Copy !req
555. Go on.Copy !req
556. Tell everyone.Copy !req
557. I will! I swear I will!Copy !req
558. Marina!Copy !req
559. You might visit more often.
You know how he misses you.Copy !req
560. You know what, Natalia?Copy !req
561. Let Ignat come live me.Copy !req
562. Are you serious?Copy !req
563. You yourself said once
that he wanted to.Copy !req
564. I can't say anything to you.Copy !req
565. Think I made it up
just for the fun of it?Copy !req
566. Let's set needless emotion aside
and ask him.Copy !req
567. We'll do whatever he decides.Copy !req
568. It'll be easier on you too.Copy !req
569. In what way?Copy !req
570. Did you get
all your schoolbooks together?Copy !req
571. Say good-bye to your father.Copy !req
572. Ignat, your mother and I wanted
to ask you something.Copy !req
573. What?Copy !req
574. Perhaps it's better
if you live with me.Copy !req
575. What do you mean?Copy !req
576. Live here with me,
go to a new school.Copy !req
577. Didn't you mention it
to Mama once?Copy !req
578. What did I say?Copy !req
579. When? No. There's no point.Copy !req
580. She and I really are alike!Copy !req
581. Not in the least.Copy !req
582. What sort of relationship
do you want with your mother?Copy !req
583. It can't be like in your childhood.
You've both changed.Copy !req
584. This feeling of guilt you mentionCopy !req
585. that her life was ruined
because of you -Copy !req
586. you'll never escape that.Copy !req
587. She needs nothing from youCopy !req
588. except for you
to become a child againCopy !req
589. so she can hold and protect you.Copy !req
590. Good Lord!Copy !req
591. Why am I meddling again?Copy !req
592. As usual.Copy !req
593. What are you moaning about?
Can you explain?Copy !req
594. Should I marry him or not?Copy !req
595. Do I know him?Copy !req
596. No.Copy !req
597. Is he Ukrainian?Copy !req
598. What difference does that make?Copy !req
599. Then what does he do?Copy !req
600. He's a writer.Copy !req
601. Named Dostoyevsky,
by any chance?Copy !req
602. That's right.Copy !req
603. He's never written a damn thing.
A complete unknown.Copy !req
604. Around 40, right? A real hack.Copy !req
605. You know...Copy !req
606. you've really changed.Copy !req
607. So he has no talent
and doesn't write a thing.Copy !req
608. He writes.
It just doesn't get published.Copy !req
609. Look at that.Copy !req
610. Our little genius has started a fire.Copy !req
611. Now I'll be fined.Copy !req
612. No need for sarcasm
about his poor grades.Copy !req
613. He'll drop out and be drafted.Copy !req
614. You'll try hard
to get him a deferral,Copy !req
615. but the shame will fall on me.Copy !req
616. All because of how you raised him.Copy !req
617. He's not ready for the army,
though it might do him some good.Copy !req
618. Why don't you call your mother?Copy !req
619. She lay in bed for three days
after Liza's death.Copy !req
620. - I didn't know that!
- Because you never call.Copy !req
621. I expected her here at 5:00 today.Copy !req
622. Is it so hard
to make the first move?Copy !req
623. I believe we were discussing Ignat.Copy !req
624. I don't know.
Maybe I'm to blame too.Copy !req
625. Or have we just become bourgeois?Copy !req
626. A backward,
Asian sort of bourgeois.Copy !req
627. It's not like we hoard riches.
I have one good suit.Copy !req
628. There's no private property,
but the standard of living is rising.Copy !req
629. It makes no sense.Copy !req
630. Why are you always so irritable?Copy !req
631. My friends' 15-year-old son
told them...Copy !req
632. "I'm leaving home.Copy !req
633. I can't stand all your hypocrisy."Copy !req
634. Smart kid.
Not like our little dummy.Copy !req
635. Ignat would never say
such a thing. Too bad.Copy !req
636. I can just imagine
those friends of yours!Copy !req
637. They're no worse than us.Copy !req
638. He's a newspaperman.Copy !req
639. Fancies himself a writer too,
by the way.Copy !req
640. He can't seem to understand
that a book is a statement,Copy !req
641. not a paycheck.Copy !req
642. A poet is called upon
to shock men's souls,Copy !req
643. not cultivate idolaters.Copy !req
644. What am I going to do?
I don't know.Copy !req
645. What do you mean?
You'll get married.Copy !req
646. You remember
who the burning bush appeared to?Copy !req
647. An angel in the form
of a burning bush.Copy !req
648. I don't remember.Copy !req
649. In any case, it wasn't Ignat.Copy !req
650. Should we send him
to military school?Copy !req
651. Ah... Moses.Copy !req
652. The angel appeared as a burning bush
to the prophet Moses,Copy !req
653. and he led his people
across the sea.Copy !req
654. Why don't things like that
ever happen to me?Copy !req
655. I keep having the same dreamCopy !req
656. with amazing regularity.Copy !req
657. It's like it's trying
to force me to returnCopy !req
658. to that place so achingly dearCopy !req
659. where my grandfather's house
once stood...Copy !req
660. and where, over 40 years ago,Copy !req
661. I was born
right on the dining room tableCopy !req
662. with a starched white cloth
thrown over it.Copy !req
663. And every time I try to go inside,
something stops me.Copy !req
664. I have this dream a lot.
I've gotten used to it.Copy !req
665. When I see those log walls
darkened with ageCopy !req
666. and the half-open door
leading to the dark entryway,Copy !req
667. even in my dream
I'm aware it's just a dream.Copy !req
668. Then my overwhelming joy
is clouded...Copy !req
669. by the expectation of awakening.Copy !req
670. Sometimes something happens,
and I stop dreamingCopy !req
671. of my childhood home
and the surrounding pines.Copy !req
672. Then I grow sad.Copy !req
673. I can't wait to once again
have this dream...Copy !req
674. in which I'll be a child again...Copy !req
675. and in which I'll be happy...Copy !req
676. knowing that everything
still lies ahead...Copy !req
677. that everything is possible.Copy !req
678. - They opened the door.
- What's wrong with you?Copy !req
679. Hello.Copy !req
680. Hello.Copy !req
681. Hello.Copy !req
682. Are you Nadezhda Petrovna?Copy !req
683. I don't believe I -Copy !req
684. I'm Matvei Ivanovich Ivanov's
stepdaughter.Copy !req
685. He was a friend of your husband's.Copy !req
686. What Matvei Ivanovich?Copy !req
687. The doctor.Copy !req
688. He lived around here once
but then moved to YuryevetsCopy !req
689. and became a forensic examiner.Copy !req
690. Where are you from?
You live in town?Copy !req
691. We're from Moscow,
but we're renting a room in Yuryevets.Copy !req
692. We were evacuated last fall.Copy !req
693. Why are you sitting down?
Are you tired?Copy !req
694. They started bombing Moscow,
and I have two kids.Copy !req
695. And my mother has
connections here from before.Copy !req
696. Dmitry Ivanovich isn't home.
He's in town.Copy !req
697. Stop scratching.
I've told you a thousand times.Copy !req
698. Actually I came to see you,
about a little ladies' secret.Copy !req
699. Come inside.Copy !req
700. Don't stand there outside.Copy !req
701. But wipe your feet.Copy !req
702. Masha just washed the floor.Copy !req
703. Sit here a while.Copy !req
704. We won't be long.Copy !req
705. Why are you sitting in the dark?Copy !req
706. Did the lamp go out?Copy !req
707. Why didn't you call us?Copy !req
708. What's your name?Copy !req
709. Alyosha.Copy !req
710. I have a son too.
Not as big, of course.Copy !req
711. It's hard raising kids now,
with the war and all.Copy !req
712. But I'd like a daughter too.Copy !req
713. Want to see him?
He's sleeping.Copy !req
714. - Won't we wake him?
- We'll be quiet.Copy !req
715. He's a little darling.Copy !req
716. The other day he asked his father...Copy !req
717. "Why is a five-kopeck coin bigger
than a ten-kopeck coin?"Copy !req
718. I was dumbfounded.Copy !req
719. My husband was speechless.
He didn't know what to say.Copy !req
720. He had wanted a girl.Copy !req
721. He'd even picked out a name: Lora.Copy !req
722. I'd made pink baby clothesCopy !req
723. and linens and a ribbon.Copy !req
724. I had to redo it all.Copy !req
725. The little rascal put us
to a lot of trouble.Copy !req
726. We thought we'd have a baby girl.Copy !req
727. Did we wake you up?Copy !req
728. That's your mama for you,
always chattering on.Copy !req
729. Look who's here.Copy !req
730. Don't know them, do you?
What's wrong?Copy !req
731. Can't wake up, huh?Copy !req
732. Then go back to sleep,
my precious.Copy !req
733. How do they look?Copy !req
734. The ring doesn't look
too vulgar on me?Copy !req
735. What's wrong?Copy !req
736. I don't feel well.Copy !req
737. The walk tired you out.
I wasn't even thinking.Copy !req
738. Drink this.
It will warm you up.Copy !req
739. I'm chattering away
when I should be fixing dinner.Copy !req
740. What time did you leave home?Copy !req
741. Thank you,
but don't worry about us.Copy !req
742. I can't just send you on your way.Copy !req
743. We ate just before setting out.Copy !req
744. That's a nasty cough.Copy !req
745. You know kids,
always running around.Copy !req
746. My husband should examine him.Copy !req
747. He'll be home soon.Copy !req
748. Thanks, but we can't wait.
It's a two-hour walk back.Copy !req
749. But he has the money
for the earrings.Copy !req
750. And the boy's so tired.
We'll slaughter a cockerel.Copy !req
751. I just have a little favor to ask.Copy !req
752. I'm three months' pregnant
and nauseous all the time.Copy !req
753. Even milking the cow
makes me ill.Copy !req
754. So slaughtering a cockerel...Copy !req
755. Could you do it?Copy !req
756. But I too...Copy !req
757. You too?Copy !req
758. No, it's not that.
I've just never done it.Copy !req
759. There's nothing to it!Copy !req
760. Of course, in Moscow
you buy them already slaughtered.Copy !req
761. I always do it here
on this little log.Copy !req
762. Here's the ax.Copy !req
763. My husband sharpened it
this morning.Copy !req
764. Right here inside?Copy !req
765. We'll put a basin under it.Copy !req
766. And tomorrow you'll take
a chicken with you.Copy !req
767. I really can't do it.Copy !req
768. It's our feminine frailty.Copy !req
769. Maybe we could ask Alyosha.
He's a man, after all.Copy !req
770. No, not Alyosha.Copy !req
771. Here, hold him good and tight,Copy !req
772. or he'll break all my dishes.Copy !req
773. Here.Copy !req
774. I'm feeling nauseous...Copy !req
775. Well?Copy !req
776. Don't worry.Copy !req
777. Relax.Copy !req
778. Everything will be fine.Copy !req
779. It's a shame I only see you
when I'm very sick.Copy !req
780. Can you hear me?Copy !req
781. Yes.Copy !req
782. Here I am, borne aloft.Copy !req
783. What's wrong, Marusya?
Are you sick?Copy !req
784. Don't be surprised.Copy !req
785. It's so obvious:Copy !req
786. I love you.Copy !req
787. - You're leaving?
- It's late.Copy !req
788. My husband will be back soon
with the money.Copy !req
789. We've changed our minds.
I'm sorry.Copy !req
790. It's 10 miles to town.
It'll be dark soon.Copy !req
791. It's all right.
Please don't worry.Copy !req
792. A man has but one body,
like a prison cell.Copy !req
793. The soul is sick
of this solid shellCopy !req
794. with ears and eyes
like five-kopeck coinsCopy !req
795. and skin - scar upon scar -
stretched tight over bones.Copy !req
796. Out through the cornea
the soul flies to a heavenly spring,Copy !req
797. to an icy spire
and a chariot for birds.Copy !req
798. And through
its living prison bars it hearsCopy !req
799. the rattle of woods and fields,
the trumpet of the seven seas.Copy !req
800. A soul without flesh is shameful,
like a body without a shirt.Copy !req
801. No thoughts or actions,
no designs or plans.Copy !req
802. A riddle with no answer:Copy !req
803. Who will returnCopy !req
804. from dancing on that floor
where there's no one dancing?Copy !req
805. I dream of a different soul
dressed in different garb,Copy !req
806. burning up like alcohol
as it flits from timidity to hope,Copy !req
807. slipping away, shadowless,Copy !req
808. leaving behind lilacs
as a memento on the table.Copy !req
809. Run, my child,
and mourn not for poor Eurydice,Copy !req
810. but drive your copper hoop
through the wide world,Copy !req
811. while in response to every step,Copy !req
812. you hear the earth reply,
its voice joyful and dry.Copy !req
813. Mama, the kerosene stove
is smoking.Copy !req
814. What?Copy !req
815. It's all up to him now.Copy !req
816. Can a sore throat be
that serious?Copy !req
817. A sore throat has
nothing to do with it.Copy !req
818. This is very common.
- Common?Copy !req
819. You know...Copy !req
820. the sudden death...Copy !req
821. of a mother or wife...Copy !req
822. or child...Copy !req
823. and a perfectly healthy man
wastes away in a few days.Copy !req
824. But no one in his family died.Copy !req
825. Well...Copy !req
826. there's conscience.Copy !req
827. Memory.Copy !req
828. What's memory got to do with it?Copy !req
829. You think he's guilty of something?Copy !req
830. No, but he thinks he is.Copy !req
831. Leave me alone.Copy !req
832. I'm sorry...Copy !req
833. but did you say something?Copy !req
834. Leave me alone.Copy !req
835. The truth is
I just wanted to be happy.Copy !req
836. Is that so?Copy !req
837. And what will happen
to your mother if you don't get well?Copy !req
838. Don't worry.Copy !req
839. Everything will turn out fine.Copy !req
840. Everything will be all right.Copy !req
841. Do you want a boy or a girl?Copy !req
842. THE ENDCopy !req