- 1. DIGITALLY RESTORED IN 2016
- 2. A few years ago, the painter Johan Borg
disappeared without a trace
- 3. from his home on Baltrum
in the Frisian Islands.
- 4. His wife, Alma,
subsequently left me Johan's diary,
- 5. which she had found among his papers.
- 6. It is this diary
along with Alma's verbal account
- 7. that make up the basis for this film.
- 8. Can somebody move that chair?
- 9. Can you lower it a little?
- 10. Have you been down there?
- 11. Quiet! Ready for take!
- 12. Camera!
- 13. Action!
- 14. No. I have nothing more to tell.
- 15. I've given you the diary.
- 16. You're wondering
why I'm going to stay here.
- 17. We've lived together in this house
for almost seven years.
- 18. Come winter, I can move to the mainland
and work in the store.
- 19. I've done it in previous years
when we were short on money.
- 20. The doctor said
the baby's due in a month.
- 21. I had an examination in May,
before the last time we came out here.
- 22. I remember it was a Friday.
- 23. It was pretty late. About 10:00, I think.
- 24. But it was still light out.
- 25. We had planned to stay here until August.
- 26. We were going to be completely alone.
- 27. He didn't want to see
another human being here.
- 28. He was scared.
- 29. He liked that I was quiet.
- 30. He liked...
- 31. We arrived at about 3:00 in the morning.
- 32. We found a cart in a shed on the beach.
- 33. When we got here, we were happy to see
that the apple tree was in bloom.
- 34. Then we discovered footprints
- 35. in the flower bed
under the kitchen window.
- 36. Johan became irritated,
but we forgot about it until...
- 37. We were happy.
- 38. We were happy to be back home again.
- 39. Johan was a bit worried.
- 40. He was always worried
when work wasn't going well
- 41. and lately it hadn't been.
- 42. He struggled to sleep.
- 43. He was frightened,
- 44. as if scared of the dark.
- 45. It had gotten worse the last few years.
- 46. - I know.
- 47. - I'm going to draw you.
- 48. - Yes.
- 49. Yes, let me.
- 50. If you sit over there.
- 51. Come on now. Up you go, fatty.
- 52. - Here?
- A bit farther back. There.
- 53. - Are you cold?
- 54. I knew that.
- 55. No, sit like you usually do.
Don't straighten your back.
- 56. And pull the robe off of your shoulder.
- 57. Like that. And pull your hair up
so I can see your neck better.
- 58. Just like that. Where are my glasses?
- 59. The temple is broken again.
- 60. Just like that.
Can you sit still like that?
- 61. If I patiently drew you, day after day...
- 62. Hi.
- 63. Look here.
- 64. I haven't shown these to anybody.
- 65. You see, I've drawn them.
- 66. This is the most common figure.
He's almost harmless.
- 67. I think he's homosexual.
- 68. Then there's the old lady.
- 69. Who's always threatening
to take off her hat.
- 70. - You know what happens then?
- 71. Her face comes off with it, you see.
- 72. Here.
- 73. This is the worst one.
- 74. I call him the Bird Man.
- 75. I don't know if it's a real beak
or if it's only a mask.
- 76. He's so remarkably fast.
- 77. He must be related
to Papageno from The Magic Flute.
- 78. The others.
The flesh eaters, the insects...
- 79. and especially the spider men.
- 80. Here.
- 81. The schoolmaster
with the pointing stick in his trousers.
- 82. And the... chattering,
- 83. You have to stay awake a while.
- 84. In an hour or so it'll be day.
- 85. Then I can sleep.
- 86. A minute really is
an immense amount of time.
- 87. Starting now.
- 88. Ten seconds.
- 89. These seconds...
- 90. See how long they last?
- 91. The minute is not up yet.
- 92. Finally.
- 93. Now it's passed.
- 94. Say something. Eh?
- 95. Talk to me, Alma.
- 96. You know, there's something
I've been thinking for quite a while.
- 97. Are you listening?
- 98. We've lived together for seven years now.
- 99. No, that's not what I was going to say.
- 100. Now I know.
- 101. Is it not true that old people,
who've spent a lifetime together,
- 102. start to resemble each other?
- 103. Eventually they have so much in common
- 104. that they not only
have the same thoughts,
- 105. but the same facial expressions.
- 106. Why do you think that is?
- 107. I hope we become so old
that we share each other's thoughts...
- 108. and that we get little, dry
and completely identical wrinkled faces.
- 109. What do you think of that?
- 110. Are you sleeping?
- 111. Come. Come, let's go.
- 112. Come, let's go to bed.
- 113. - Come on.
- 114. Yes.
- 115. Don't look so frightened, dear child.
- 116. I'm not dangerous.
- 117. Give me your hand.
- 118. Well? Can you feel my hand now?
- 119. My fingers, the veins under my skin.
- 120. At my age, the hands are a bit cold.
- 121. I'm 216 years old after all.
- 122. No, what am I saying?
- 123. Seventy-six, I mean.
- 124. No, I better move on.
- 125. Wait! What was it I was going to say?
- 126. Yes, now I remember.
- 127. In his black satchel under the bed,
- 128. is his sketchbook with the drawings...
- 129. He wants to tear them up.
- 130. Tell him not to do it.
- 131. And one more thing.
- 132. He hides his diary in that same satchel.
- 133. Read it.
- 134. No. No!
- 135. Wednesday, July 22nd. I've just been ill.
- 136. Not too bad, but still unpleasant enough.
- 137. Forgive my interruption,
but I've contemplated for days
- 138. the best way to approach you.
- 139. I decided it's most polite
to get straight to the point.
- 140. My name is von Merkens,
Baron von Merkens.
- 141. Borg.
- 142. As you may know, I own this island
- 143. and I live in the old castle
on the north side.
- 144. Would you and your wife be interested
in a simple family supper at our place?
- 145. That's very kind of you.
- 146. It will be very simple,
- 147. but I can offer good wine
and our salmon fishing is renowned.
- 148. Good-bye.
- 149. Yes, and I should probably mention
that my wife and I are admirers of yours.
- 150. I might even dare say
your fondest admirers.
- 151. Thursday, July 27th.
- 152. A very warm, hazy day.
- 153. I still feel unwell after my illness.
- 154. Do you see this mark?
- 155. You have to be more careful, my love,
- 156. or it will end in disaster.
- 157. Don't you remember?
- 158. I was going to a party and I was
wearing my green brocade dress.
- 159. And afterwards I had trouble
putting up my hair again.
- 160. And I forgot my gloves.
- 161. I have something
I need to speak to you about.
- 162. I've received a letter
that I need to show you.
- 163. It was sent yesterday.
- 164. It goes like this:
- 165. "You don't see us, but we see you.
- 166. The worst can happen.
- 167. Dreams can be revealed.
- 168. The end is near.
- 169. The wells will run dry,
- 170. and other liquids
will moisten your white loins.
- 171. So it has been decided."
- 172. I nearly got ill reading it.
- 173. Your hands are really hot.
- 174. Do you have a fever?
- 175. I always get so excited
when I'm going to meet you.
- 176. Can you understand that?
- 177. It's as if I'm in a dream all afternoon.
- 178. All chores feel unreal and meaningless.
- 179. Be so sweet and help me with my zipper.
- 180. It always gets stuck.
- 181. It's really windy,
but beautiful, don't you think?
- 182. This has to be a dream spot for painting.
- 183. You've lived here for quite some time.
- 184. You return to the scene of the crime,
so to speak. And commit new crimes.
- 185. You look tired. Don't overexert yourself.
- 186. I mean, at our age
some caution is advised.
- 187. Youth is much hardier.
- 188. I know what I'm talking about.
- 189. My name is Heerbrand, school counselor.
- 190. I probe people's souls
and turn the inside out.
- 191. And what do we see?
Well, I don't need to tell you.
- 192. You're an artist,
you know the human heart.
- 193. Who hasn't seen your facial studies,
not to mention your self-portraits?
- 194. Why do you look at me like that?
Are you angry?
- 195. Are your nerves all right?
Is something bothering you?
- 196. Shut up! Shut up!
- 197. I need to ask you for a little more money.
- 198. What you gave me
earlier this month is almost gone.
- 199. I have to pay the store
next time we go to the mainland.
- 200. The bill is 176.50,
and then there's the milk.
- 201. No, don't just fork over money like that,
take a look at my accounting.
- 202. It's actually important, at least for me.
- 203. I received 500 on the third.
- 204. You got me that blanket.
It was rather expensive, it cost 35.
- 205. But it's nice and warm
when you're lying alone.
- 206. And then there's the last bill
from the store.
- 207. It was high because we had to buy
flour, sugar and canned goods.
- 208. It was over 200 kronor... 219.
- 209. And then there's
pocket money and stamps,
- 210. a chain for my bicycle
and new batteries for the radio...
- 211. and the potato peeler.
- 212. There's soap, washing detergent
and a nail brush.
- 213. You need to buy a new toothbrush.
The one you have looks terrible.
- 214. - Yes.
- Yes, it does.
- 215. Then 50 kronor for your boy's birthday
and 0.75 for postage.
- 216. That leaves 7.36 out of 500.
- 217. You can check it to see if it's correct.
- 218. - We're invited to the castle on Friday.
- I know.
- 219. How do you know that?
- 220. Good day.
- 221. Let me present my wife, Corinne.
- 222. You're most welcome. Welcome.
- 223. My mother, Countess von Merkens.
- 224. My brother, Ernst.
- 225. A pleasure. It's a pleasure.
- 226. This is archivist Lindhorst.
- 227. It's nice to meet you.
I am one of your fondest admirers.
- 228. And this is Counselor Heerbrand.
- 229. Pleasure. Yes, we've met before.
- 230. Would you like a drink?
- 231. I thought you'd been living here
- 232. We've heard of you for so long.
- 233. Time flies so quickly.
- 234. We're so happy you wanted to come.
- 235. What an awful maidservant.
But she's cheap, of course.
- 236. My brother can't afford better.
Please observe that the reason the soup...
- 237. Quiet, dear Ernst.
Nowadays we're homebodies.
- 238. In the past we traveled a lot.
Do you like travel?
- 239. I love to travel.
There's nothing more stimulating.
- 240. Alma is an unusual and beautiful name.
- 241. Personally, I'm unable to feel aggression.
- 242. Well, I can manage
some bureaucratic vengefulness.
- 243. In this house we're used to humiliation.
- 244. It's supposed to be pleasurable
to be humiliated.
- 245. - We still have our fangs intact.
- 246. These days I want to be loved...
- 247. I bought a painting
from a then well-known artist...
- 248. No comments, dear Ernst.
- 249. Then I hung it upside down in my salon
- 250. and invited the artist over
with others who appreciated a good joke.
- 251. We had a good laugh at the time.
God, how we laughed.
- 252. What do you say, Mr. Artist?
Wasn't that a funny joke?
- 253. The wounds never heal,
the pus never ceases to flow.
- 254. The infection is constant.
- 255. Then it goes faster or slower
towards the end.
- 256. The determining factor
is the heart's resistance.
- 257. I'm constantly losing weight.
I travel the world consulting specialists.
- 258. Sometimes it stops as it has this summer,
but then it starts up again.
- 259. My husband says it's psychological,
that it started when we lost our money.
- 260. When I embezzled the family money.
I'm the guilty one.
- 261. - Please don't start.
- My dishonesty.
- 262. Why is Lindhorst at our table?
Why can't we sell and leave?
- 263. My fault. My fault.
All this suffering. My fault!
- 264. And then I shouted,
"Your medicine is worthless.
- 265. It won't go away. It will never go away.
- 266. You must remove it during operation.
Cut it out.
- 267. No, I'm an old woman.
There has to be some limit."
- 268. Then the professor laughed and said,
- 269. "No, Countess,
I've never heard of any limits."
- 270. Yes, we have children. Two boys.
- 271. Not here. Oh, no, they live with an uncle.
- 272. They're acquaintances of yours,
by the way.
- 273. I believe you know Veronica Vogler.
Very well from what I hear.
- 274. An incredibly beautiful woman.
- 275. Veronica Vogler is a charming woman.
Have you met her? Really very charming.
- 276. No?
- 277. Such hatred in those eyes.
- 278. Fredrik, the cacti
you planted in the park need to go.
- 279. My cats don't like them at all.
- 280. We'll have coffee in the library.
- 281. Help me a little.
- 282. Ladies and gentlemen.
- 283. May I present a puppet theater
performance as a pleasant diversion?
- 284. Shall we turn off the lights?
- 285. There we go.
- 286. Our guests of honor.
- 287. Come. Come.
- 288. There.
- 289. Music.
- 290. The Magic Flute is the prime example.
One moment and I'll prove it to you.
- 291. Tamino's guide has just left him
in the dark palace courtyard
- 292. outside the Temple of Wisdom.
- 293. And the young man cries out in despair:
- 294. "O eternal night,
when will you come to an end?
- 295. When shall the light find my eyes?"
- 296. The fatally ill Mozart
secretly sympathizes with these words.
- 297. The reply from the choir
and orchestra is also,
- 298. "Soon, soon, youth, or never."
- 299. The most beautiful,
most significant music ever written.
- 300. Tamino asks:
- 301. "Is Pamina still alive?"
- 302. The invisible choir answers,
- 303. "Pamina. Pamina is still alive."
- 304. Listen to the strange, illogical
but ingenious division of the word:
- 305. Pami... na.
- 306. Pami... na.
- 307. This is no longer
the name of a young woman.
- 308. It's a spell, an incantation.
- 309. A naive text...
In short, a commissioned piece of music...
- 310. and yet the greatest manifestation of art.
- 311. Isn't that so, Mr. Artist?
- 312. Forgive me. I call myself artist
for lack of a better term.
- 313. In my creativity nothing is self-evident,
except the compulsion to carry on.
- 314. Through no intent of my own,
- 315. I have been singled out
as something special,
- 316. a five-legged calf, a monster.
- 317. I never strove for that distinction,
nor do I strive to keep it.
- 318. But by all means,
- 319. I have felt megalomania
brush across my brow.
- 320. But I believe myself to be immune.
- 321. I need only for a moment
- 322. consider the insignificance
of art in the human world
- 323. to be brought back down to earth.
- 324. However, that doesn't inhibit
- 325. - Spoken by a true artist.
- This is a true confession.
- 326. - Magnificent.
- Such courage. Such insight.
- 327. I propose a toast to our artist.
- 328. He's not only a genius,
but a deep thinker as well.
- 329. I'll be damned. I didn't expect that.
- 330. A flowering rose for your hair.
- 331. I must have gotten your cheek
with my fingernail.
- 332. Let's see. Oh, you're bleeding.
Here's my handkerchief.
- 333. - No, it's clean.
- Our artist has been wounded.
- 334. Imagine that I would be so clumsy.
- 335. Be calm. You've had too much to drink.
- 336. Stay with me now.
- 337. He doesn't sleep at night.
That's why he can't handle too much.
- 338. Come, let's get some air.
- 339. The castle's core
is actually from the 1400s.
- 340. It's belonged to the family
since the late 1500s.
- 341. We got a little excited.
It's no wonder, we are so isolated here.
- 342. We simply frightened you.
But now you won't leave us, will you?
- 343. See, Corinne,
at night our castle is rather beautiful.
- 344. Yes, it would be at night.
- 345. My garter! No, no.
Turn away, Counselor Heerbrand.
- 346. Where did Ernst go?
Ernst, my friend, where are you?
- 347. I went off a little. I'm ashamed
that the park is so neglected.
- 348. Imagine 10 years ago,
a pristine park visited...
- 349. We never kiss each other.
Have you thought of that?
- 350. I can almost count our kisses.
- 351. There is something
that scares me to death.
- 352. I meet a stranger on the road.
- 353. We converse about this and that.
- 354. Suddenly he turns towards me
and delivers a hard blow to my cheek.
- 355. His face is deathly pale,
his eyes filled with hate.
- 356. I don't understand anything.
I just feel sick and get a nosebleed.
- 357. I sputter some silly excuses...
- 358. And after the man has disappeared,
I ask myself,
- 359. "Is this how it is?
Does it have to be like this?"
- 360. I'll never forget the man's eyes.
- 361. It's nothing to worry about.
- 362. The punch was horrible,
but his eyes were the worst.
- 363. Leaving already?
- 364. Before you go, you have to see where
I hung your painting of Veronica Vogler.
- 365. Alma, dear, come along.
- 366. She's sleeping. Let's not bother her.
- 367. No, I'm not sleeping.
- 368. - I think we should go now.
- Then come both of you.
- 369. It won't take long.
- 370. Alma, you're going to see something
very beautiful your husband has made.
- 371. Here's the painting,
- 372. directly across from my bed.
- 373. I can see it every morning and night.
- 374. It's become part of my lonely life.
- 375. I love her.
- 376. How long did you live together?
- 377. Forgive me for asking
something so personal.
- 378. - Five years.
- 379. He's told you?
- 380. He loved her, didn't he?
- 381. I don't need to ask.
- 382. It was a first-rate scandal at the time.
- 383. But so romantic.
- 384. Jealous?
- 385. - I don't believe so.
- My husband is quite jealous.
- 386. He's an excellent lover.
- 387. Look at this mark, by the way.
- 388. It's a scar from another man's,
shall we say, advances.
- 389. An eternal spring of renewed excitement.
- 390. All of it is very trivial, of course,
but for me it's stimulating.
- 391. Soon I'll have to come up with
- 392. That scar won't remain
- 393. Can you help me?
- 394. Alma, dear, don't get angry.
- 395. I'm only kidding.
- 396. It was a silly joke.
- 397. Come now. Let's go join the others.
- 398. I have at least bought a fairly
significant piece of your husband.
- 399. Don't you think?
- 400. I should tell you
that I've read your diary,
- 401. and I'm almost sick with fear.
- 402. Wait! Let me finish talking.
- 403. I want you to hear what I've been
thinking these past few days.
- 404. This is what I've been thinking.
- 405. I can see something is going to happen,
- 406. I don't know what to call it.
- 407. But if you think I'm going to run away...
- 408. I'm not going to run away,
no matter how frightened I am.
- 409. And one more thing.
- 410. They want to separate us.
They want you for themselves.
- 411. As long as I'm with you,
it'll be more difficult.
- 412. Johan.
- 413. I'm not going to run away,
no matter what they try.
- 414. I'll stay, I will. I'll stay.
- 415. Johan, answer me.
- 416. Johan!
- 417. - Do you hear how quiet it is?
- Yes, it's quiet.
- 418. There was a time
when nights were for sleep.
- 419. A deep, dreamless sleep.
- 420. Imagine, sleeping.
- 421. Waking up without fear.
- 422. - Alma?
- 423. - Are you tired?
- No, not terribly.
- 424. Now we've kept watch
every night until dawn.
- 425. This hour is the most difficult.
- 426. - Do you know what it's called?
- 427. Old people used to call it
the "hour of the wolf."
- 428. It's the hour when the most people die,
- 429. when the most babies are born.
- 430. It's the hour when nightmares come to us.
- 431. - And if we are awake...
- We are afraid.
- 432. We are afraid.
- 433. What is it?
- 434. It's nothing. I just thought of something
from my childhood.
- 435. It was some sort of punishment, you see.
- 436. They threw me in the closet
- 437. and shut the door.
- 438. It got dark and quiet.
- 439. I became terribly frightened.
- 440. I kicked and I pounded,
- 441. because they had told me
that a little person lived in that closet.
- 442. And he could gnaw the toes off
of naughty children.
- 443. When I stopped pounding
I heard something rattling in the corner
- 444. and I knew my time had come.
- 445. And in some sort of silent panic,
- 446. I started climbing
on shoe boxes and shelves.
- 447. I tried pulling myself up by my hands,
- 448. clothes falling all around me,
- 449. I lost my grip and I fell.
- 450. I swung my fists wildly all around me
- 451. to defend myself
against that little creature.
- 452. And the entire time
I screamed in horror
- 453. and asked for forgiveness.
- 454. Finally the door opened
and I could step out...
- 455. into the daylight.
- 456. My father said,
- 457. "Mother tells me
that you beg for forgiveness."
- 458. And I said,
"Yes, I beg so much for forgiveness."
- 459. "Prepare the couch then," he said.
- 460. I went to the green couch
in my father's room,
- 461. picked up some pillows
and stacked them on top of each other.
- 462. Then I went and fetched the cane,
unbuttoned my pants
- 463. and laid down over the pillows.
- 464. Father asked,
"How many strokes do you deserve?"
- 465. And I said, "As many strokes as possible."
- 466. And he struck me with the cane,
- 467. pretty hard, but not unbearable.
- 468. When the punishment was over
I turned towards Mother and asked,
- 469. "Can Mother forgive me now?"
- 470. And she cried, and said,
"Of course I forgive you."
- 471. Then she offered me her hand...
- 472. and I kissed it.
- 473. Alma, are you listening?
Are you sleeping?
- 474. No, I'm awake.
- 475. My back hurts.
- 476. Can you believe
that it's pitch-black out there still?
- 477. Do you hear how quiet it is?
- 478. It's strange
when the sea is completely calm.
- 479. Scary somehow.
- 480. Don't you think?
- 481. Are you crying?
- 482. No, I'm not.
- 483. I'm thinking of the child...
- 484. and of this great, silent darkness.
- 485. It's almost as if
it will never be light again.
- 486. My poor dear.
- 487. Give me your hand.
- 488. That's much better.
- 489. Remember that day I came home
and said I'd been bitten by a snake?
- 490. Yes.
- 491. It was no snake bite.
- 492. It wasn't a snake bite?
- 493. I never thought I'd tell anybody.
I don't even know if...
- 494. You need to tell me.
- 495. You can never tell anybody.
- 496. No, I promise. I'll never tell anybody.
- 497. You remember the place by the cliffs?
- 498. - We were there early this summer.
- 499. Did you lock it properly?
- 500. I checked it twice.
- 501. Good morning.
- 502. Sorry to disturb you. A thousand pardons.
- 503. It looks like a storm is coming,
so I thought I'd stop in for a while.
- 504. I have an errand as well.
- 505. May I sit down?
I promise I won't be long-winded.
- 506. I'm here with an invitation
from the castle.
- 507. We're going to have a little party.
- 508. Nothing big at all.
- 509. Just something
to distract those poor people a bit.
- 510. They sit there year round
and harp on each other.
- 511. As I said, not a large party.
- 512. But it will interest you.
- 513. Veronica Vogler has accepted.
She'll be there.
- 514. And you'll come as well, won't you?
- 515. Then it's agreed.
- 516. By the way, Von Merkens and I
discussed the other day
- 517. your ability to defend yourself.
- 518. I mean, against all the small game
on the island.
- 519. That's all for the moment.
- 520. Good morning, dear friends.
Hope to see you at our little party.
- 521. Shouldn't you lock up that weapon?
- 522. No, why?
- 523. What are we going to do now?
- 524. You're going to tell me
about Veronica Vogler.
- 525. What do you want me to tell you?
- 526. That it went on for five years?
- 527. You know that.
- 528. We were caught. It was a huge scandal.
- 529. Then the story quieted down.
- 530. Then it ended.
- 531. That's not what it says in your diary.
- 532. "My attachment to Veronica
finally became agonizing for both of us.
- 533. I followed her and spied on her jealously.
- 534. I believe my passion stimulated her,
- 535. but she was always passive
- 536. Sometimes we had frightening disputes
- 537. that lacked any semblance of reason.
- 538. We traveled from town to town
to evade her relatives and lawyers."
- 539. No!
- 540. "We truly embodied the words of the Bible
- 541. that man and woman
shall be of one flesh.
- 542. Then her husband came to get her.
- 543. I was taken to the hospital.
- 544. We didn't see each other
for several years."
- 545. You once said...
- 546. that the nice thing about me
was that God had made me in one piece.
- 547. That I had whole feelings
and whole thoughts.
- 548. You said it was important
that there were people like me.
- 549. I thought it sounded so lovely.
- 550. It made me so happy.
- 551. I was wrong.
- 552. I don't understand a thing.
- 553. I don't understand a thing.
I don't understand you.
- 554. Now I'm only frightened.
- 555. Do you think I want to stay here
and possibly be killed?
- 556. Do you think I want to see you
running after that woman,
- 557. talking to ghosts,
while I defend myself constantly?
- 558. Do you think I want that?
- 559. But here I am.
- 560. Get up from the table now.
- 561. Now go over to the door.
- 562. Now walk through the door.
- 563. Walk down the steps.
- 564. It's not dark anymore,
you'll find your way.
- 565. No, how lovely!
- 566. Welcome.
- 567. Be a dear and carry the tray.
- 568. There you go.
- 569. Thank you. It's my evening meal, you see.
- 570. Lindhorst, who's wise
in the way of the world,
- 571. claims that old harlots
have an obsessive need
- 572. of satisfying the mouth and stomach.
- 573. Are you sure you do not want any?
- 574. Isn't there a party this evening?
- 575. Not as far as I know.
- 576. No, no. Don't go.
- 577. Please help me remove my stockings.
- 578. You don't like touching me.
- 579. I can sense it clearly.
- 580. I don't understand you.
- 581. Veronica Vogler has arrived...
- 582. and I'm the only one
who can tell you where she is.
- 583. Look closely at my feet, Mr. Artist.
- 584. Have you ever seen
more youthful and fit arches?
- 585. Look closely. Look at my heel.
- 586. It's so smooth and nice.
- 587. And the strong toes and beautiful nails.
- 588. Kiss my foot.
- 589. Go on now.
- 590. There you go.
- 591. You've been kind,
- 592. so I'll tell you where she is.
- 593. Look in the west gallery.
- 594. At least she was there five minutes ago.
- 595. - Forgive me, I thought...
- You're always welcome, dear friend.
- 596. You come, you stay, you go.
You have complete freedom.
- 597. Let us speak candidly.
- 598. You're here looking for Veronica Vogler.
- 599. I should mention, before you meet her,
that Veronica has been my lover for years.
- 600. Your shared past
has kindly been detailed for me.
- 601. I can assure you I'm suffering.
- 602. Tonight I shall be by your bed.
- 603. Every word, every kiss,
every movement of your bodies...
- 604. I will be spared nothing.
- 605. Come, I'll show you the way.
- 606. It's only my jealousy.
Please go away.
- 607. Yes, of course.
- 608. Of course. Naturally.
- 609. It's Conductor Kreisler playing.
- 610. Conductor Kreisler
is a master of his instrument.
- 611. Don't you think Veronica
has waited long enough?
- 612. She started to prepare for your visit
early this morning.
- 613. She's become even more beautiful.
- 614. My husband is suffering.
- 615. He's jealous.
- 616. And your touching little companion...
- 617. Three shots, one of which was fatal.
- 618. Such lovely music.
- 619. I think I must remove my hat,
so I can hear better.
- 620. It really smells of glue.
- 621. Though she insists it's all synthetic.
- 622. But regular glue is what it is.
She doesn't fool me.
- 623. We know our tricks, don't we?
- 624. Let's see if we're presentable.
- 625. You're so pale, dear friend.
What a sight you are.
- 626. Your lips are as blue as blueberries.
We have to do something about that. Sit.
- 627. Let's see what we can come up with.
- 628. Yes!
- 629. A beautiful Cupid's bow...
- 630. and a sensually full lower lip
is very evocative.
- 631. The eyes are bloodshot and swollen.
Here, dab the eyes. Like that.
- 632. Oh, my dear.
- 633. We'll draw a few lines on your eyelids.
- 634. There we are.
- 635. A healthier skin color wouldn't hurt.
- 636. What should we come up with now?
Yes, borrow my morning robe.
- 637. There and there.
- 638. There we are.
- 639. There we are. It suits you, it suits you.
- 640. Wait.
- 641. Nice pajamas are needed
for occasions like this.
- 642. A lovely fragrance? No?
- 643. You prefer to smell of yourself,
- 644. Each to his own scent,
but a little puff of fragrance anyway.
- 645. I knew it.
- 646. Take a look in the mirror.
- 647. Now you are yourself,
- 648. and yet not yourself.
- 649. The ideal requirement for a tryst.
- 650. Come now. This way.
- 651. There is her door.
- 652. You see what you want to see.
- 653. Veronica?
- 654. No. No, no.
- 655. Don't worry about them.
Don't worry about them.
- 656. - Let me be.
- Don't worry...
- 657. I thank you...
- 658. for finally crossing the line.
- 659. The mirror has been shattered.
- 660. But what do the shards reflect?
- 661. Can you tell me that?
- 662. Yes, he fired three shots.
- 663. One of them tore open
a wound on my arm.
- 664. I still have a small scar.
- 665. I fell over in sheer terror.
- 666. I thought it best to lie still.
- 667. I heard him pacing back and forth
then go behind the house.
- 668. Then he started running towards the path.
- 669. I got up, went inside,
washed off the blood and put on a bandage.
- 670. I hid the pistol
and then sat down and waited.
- 671. He was gone a few minutes
- 672. and then he came running back.
- 673. I hid for safety's sake.
- 674. He looked completely insane.
- 675. He walked around the cottage
talking to himself.
- 676. Then he took out the diary
and began writing.
- 677. He wrote for several hours.
- 678. Late morning he packed his satchel
and headed off towards the woods.
- 679. I thought it was best to follow him.
- 680. He might hurt himself.
- 681. Johan.
- 682. Don't you see me?
- 683. Johan.
- 684. - Where is he?
- I know where you can find him.
- 685. Come.
- 686. - Call to him.
- 687. I've been wondering one thing.
- 688. Are you in a hurry?
- 689. I'd like to ask something.
- 690. It's like this...
- 691. Isn't it true that when a woman
has lived with a man for a long time...
- 692. Isn't it true that she eventually
becomes like the man?
- 693. I mean, she loves him,
- 694. tries to think like him,
and see things like him.
- 695. It's said that it can change a person.
- 696. Is that why I began seeing those spirits?
- 697. Or were they there regardless?
- 698. I mean, had I loved him less,
- 699. and not cared so much
about the things surrounding him...
- 700. would I have been able
to protect him better?
- 701. Or was it that I didn't love him enough...
- 702. that made me jealous?
- 703. Was it because of those "man eaters,"
as he called them...
- 704. Was it because of them
it went so horribly bad for us?
- 705. I thought I was so close to him.
- 706. Sometimes he also said
that he was close to me.
- 707. Once he said it with conviction.
- 708. If only I could have followed him
all the time.
- 709. There are so many things to ponder.
- 710. So many questions...
- 711. Sometimes you don't know up from down,
and you get completely...