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5. Felix, I can't get you high enough.
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So what was telling you you were dying?
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- —You love dying.
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12. - Hi. Eva!
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- —pull me up. Felix, pull me up.
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Dad, be careful,
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22. - Yeah, I am.
- —Okay. Promise?
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- —Your turn, your turn.
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29. - Dad, are you okay?
- Did you get it, mom?
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34. - I'm stuck. Come on, Steve, Felix.
- You need help. Steve.
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Thatis who you want for a father.
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Who we always had, my whole life.
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47. Whoa!
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62. - I can just do it like this.
- Just pop in.
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64. - I may never get out.
- I got your legs.
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That looks pretty good.
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68. - Nobody cares about comfort now.
- You do.
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89. By George.
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91. - We missed you.
- I missed you guys.
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I don't put this in a fantasy group.
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the more I love it.
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114. 'cause that would kinda sell it.
The legs go up, you know?
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115. - But most important, get it so no one —
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He's never lost any patients.
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I've had, I think, one or two suicides.
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I have a problem? I have no problems!
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- But first,
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130. Oh!
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is you could... your chair could...
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not getting breath, lying down,
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- —yeah, I'm glad...
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- Is it? Seven...
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- Is it 30 years?
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- That's pretty good, yeah.
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She died a long, long time ago.
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- Katie Jo, that's right.
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to me for my entire life.
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she cried and cried and cried.
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- And stepped into nothing.
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and rise up to heaven to live forever
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- Yeah, good.
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It's groundhog day all over again.
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- The resurrected dad.
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- Hope it is.
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—mmm—hmm. He was down...
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- A boating accident.
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I can start breaking this down.
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in about five, ten minutes,
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- Let's do that.
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281. - Bing, bing, bing, we're done.
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They call me Fred sanford.
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I can lift that. Dad...
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Oh, piece of cake.
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- —Yeah, right?
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you can always get out.
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making mistakes on their prescrrptions.
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at hrgh speed through a construction site,
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five mrles home, on four flat tires.
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- —right. That's all.
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- You can't keep the car.
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- It's not that bad.
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- It's not that bad.
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in New York City, that's all.
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—that's all we're doin'.
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- I got to see...
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They don't stick around.
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- —Well, it's not okay. You know?
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- —In order to kill me.
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- Right, that's what it was.
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look at mom's good memory book.
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she was deep into this.
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- —It's like visual...
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411. Yeah.
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412. Okay, here we go.
One, two... whoop.
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413. That work?
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414. I see that little clock
go around all the time.
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415. That little clock
goes around all the time?
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416. 'Kay.
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417. So your name is, uh, Johnson.
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418. My name's Johnson,
what's my first name?
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419. I'll give you a hint.
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420. I'm your daughter.
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421. You know.
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422. It's Kirsten. I'm Kirsten.
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423. No — that one. C. Richard Johnson.
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424. Yeah.
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425. S-Same family?
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426. Same family, totally.
That is a good point.
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427. Should we go downstairs?
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428. - —Shall we?
- Gotta keep your eyes open.
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429. I've been shooting documentaries
for nearly 30 years,
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430. but this is almost all the footage
we got of mom.
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431. I don't have a single frame of the warm
and brrlliant person she once was.
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432. So when mom was really...
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433. Could barely move and all that,
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434. and we were gonna move her
from the house, remember that?
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435. She, um... she came out here
and she sat in this chair
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436. - and she was like, "this is our house."
- Uh-huh.
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437. And I was like, "it's okay, mom,
we don't have to move you."
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438. And she said, um...
She was like...
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439. She sat there and that's when
she started singing "que sera, sera."
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440. Oh. —mmm— hmrn.
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441. Pretty good. —yeah.
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442. - She was tough.
- She was tough.
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443. It's tough.
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444. And now we experience
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445. Yeah.
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446. Yeah, it's scary.
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447. Yeah.
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448. - Ah... I'm sorry.
- —Yeah.
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449. Me, too.
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450. But I remember her being
just like, "this is our house."
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451. Yeah. —yeah.
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452. - It is our house.
- She didn't wanna go.
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453. Nope.
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454. But once she got there, I think...
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455. No, she was like, "let's get out of here."
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456. - "Let's get out of here."
- She hated that place.
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457. - —Oh, poor her.
- Ah...
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458. You can include this in...
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459. Well...
—i don't know... not very well.
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460. What's gonna happen
is that your feet
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461. are gonna be turned into feet with toes.
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462. Of... clothes?
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463. - With toes.
- Toes.
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464. Your feet are gonna be turned
into feet with toes.
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465. How are you gonna do that?
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466. Well, we're gonna do a close-up
on your real feet...
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467. And then we're gonna have another person...
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468. We're gonna do, like, the gold cloth
in front of your feet,
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469. and then someone else's bare feet
are gonna be there.
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470. Yeah. Um, because you said
to me once that that was...
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471. If you could wish for anything,
that was the wish that...
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472. Really, I told you that?
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473. Yeah, I was kind of surprised.
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474. I thought you'd wish
for world peace or something.
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475. - I thought —
- I'd wish for mom not to die.
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476. - That would be your wish?
- —mmm—hmm.
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477. Yeah. Yeah, I could see that.
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478. Yeah, I would wish for that, too.
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479. J“ holy, holy, holy j“
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480. j“ lord god almrghty j“
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481. j“ early in the morning j“
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482. j“ our song shall rise to thee j“
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483. j“ holy, holy, holy j“
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484. j“ merciful and mrghty j“
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485. j“ god r'n three persons j“
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486. j“ blessed Trinity j“
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487. J“ holy, holy, holy j“
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488. j“ lord god almrghty j“
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489. j“ all thy works shall praise thy name j“
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490. j“ in earth and sky and sea j“
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491. j“ holy, holy, holy j“
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492. j“ merciful and mrghty j“
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493. j“ god r'n three persons j“
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494. j“ blessed Trinity j“
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495. j“ amen j“
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496. Wow. Look at this.
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497. What a mess.
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498. There's mom up on top of the case.
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499. - Is she?
- Yeah, see, right up there?
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500. Who put her up there?
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501. I don't know.
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502. It must have been kirk.
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503. Well, maybe we should
change our minds.
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504. Just stay here.
What do you think about that?
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505. I kind of feel the same way.
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506. - It's such a great house.
- —yeah, it is, isn't it?
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507. It's crazy to leave it.
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508. Yeah, well, the problem is,
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509. if you don't leave it,
I don't get close to you.
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510. Yeah. —yeah.
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511. - —That's it.
- That's it.
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512. So, I'd trade this house any day
for being with you.
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513. There's no question about that.
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514. - That's not even a consideration.
- —yeah.
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515. I feel the same way.
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516. Dad, guess what's coming.
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517. A—ha, excellent.
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518. - —Thank you.
- You're welcome.
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519. - Isn't that good stuff?
- —Yeah.
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520. Carl, thank you.
You're the best.
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521. Yeah. Thank you, Carl.
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522. - I think that's good.
- —It's wonderful.
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523. Yeah, she looks
very happy there.
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524. You got me all this stuff here,
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525. it's gonna be hard to get rid of me.
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526. As much as I may be
trying to kill you off,
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527. I'm not trying to get rid of you.
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528. It's hard to believe.
That's all right, I'm a believer.
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529. - You are a believer.
- I'm a true believer.
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530. Yeah, good show, sweetie.
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531. You guys look great.
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532. Can I tell you
something? It looks...
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533. This is pretty cool.
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534. They said they wanted us to come
to their house...
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535. Want another one?
Oh, yeah, you guys.
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536. We're raising a glass to forrest vu.
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537. - Cheers, cheers, cheers.
- Did he die?
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538. No! Born. —oh.
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539. She. — She is born.
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540. - Viva, raise your glass.
- Is today a school day?
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541. It sure is. We're all going.
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542. Come on, guys. Let's do it.
Dad, you coming?
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543. - We're missing...
- —We're missing one person.
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544. I know. He's coming.
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545. - —You got my wallet?
- You don't need your wallet.
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546. One.
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547. Two.
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548. - —Where is my wallet?
- It's in the house.
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549. - Should I go get it?
- No, I got money.
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550. You don't need it.
We're not getting anything.
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551. All right.
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552. Nice. Nicely done.
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553. The car's here, guys.
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554. Watch out. Watch where you're going.
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555. You guys watching for bicycles?
Can you watch for me?
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556. Okay, all right.
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557. I'm gonna go down and get back,
and get my dad. I'll be back.
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558. Just watch the bikes, dad.
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559. Classic.
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560. J“ I'm popeye the sarlor man j“
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561. .f' / live r'n the garbage can I
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562. .f' / love to go swimmin'
with Bo w/egged women j“
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563. f I'm popeye the sarlor man j“
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564. Toot-toot.
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565. You gotta jump out, Felix.
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566. Have a good day, guys.
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567. Okay, I did it.
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568. Sol... lhave...
I really don't ha ve any regrets.
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569. - —Rrght.
- E verythingis a trade-off
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570. Do you feel lrke you had a...
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571. Ever had a fantasy of what you would do
with this period of your life?
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572. I don't think so.
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573. - You didn't even think about it.
- No, I didn't.
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574. You didn't think about the future.
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575. I'm pretty good about living
in the here and the now.
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576. I'm gonna be happy
with the windows down.
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577. I'm gonna figure out
what's rattling back here.
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578. Okay. Yeah, we're good.
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579. All right. I can't...
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580. I think we've got our
up and down the highway pretty good.
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581. Okay.
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582. We're gonna do
some memory testing.
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583. I'm gonna give you five words
to remember for me, okay? Ready?
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584. Face, velvet, church, Daisy, and red.
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585. Can you repeat them?
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586. Face.
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587. Velvet.
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588. Red.
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589. And I for... I don't know.
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590. I'm gonna do them
one more time. Ready?
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591. Face, velvet, church, Daisy, and red.
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592. Face, velvet, Daisy, and red.
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593. Okay.
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594. If I tell you that a banana and an orange
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595. are the same because they're both fruit,
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596. how are a what...
How are a train and bicycle the same?
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597. They're means of transportation.
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598. Excellent.
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599. Remember those words
I asked you to remember?
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600. Hmm.
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601. Okay, one was a color.
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602. You remember any of them?
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603. One was a body part.
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604. - Face.
- Okay. Good.
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605. - Okay. So he scored 22 in 2017...
- —Uh—huh.
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606. He's scoring 19 now.
—oh. I'm falling apart.
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607. Do you think
your memory is the same?
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608. - Oh, it's better.
- It's better than it was?
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609. I don't know,
it's probably the same.
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610. - Okay. Do —
—I don't think it's any worse.
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611. Okay. So that's why
we're gonna ask your daughter
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612. for some information, if that's okay.
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613. Vveh, okay.
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614. Okay, so do you think
his memory is changing?
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615. Yeah, you know, I...
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616. I was trying to think of something to say,
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617. but / couldn't stop thinking
about whatis coming.
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618. His moments of forgetfulness
are going to spread
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619. he 'i/ ask the same questions
0 ver and o ver again.
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620. His eyes will get that distant look.
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621. And his personality
will begin to fade away.
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622. And he won't be able to follow
what I'm saying,
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623. so I won't be able to ask him
any more advice.
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624. And the whole time,
we'll just be trying to get by.
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625. Sound speed.
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626. - Cue me when you want me to walk.
- —Take four, b marker.
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627. Okay, are you good?
All right, so, dad, we can start walking.
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628. Let's start walking,
just start walking to me,
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629. you're doing a great speed.
That's fantastic.
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630. Just keep on walking.
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631. Watch your step here 'cause it's bumpy.
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632. Just... be careful,
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633. - you're doing great.
- —Eight feet.
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634. Okay, so, dad,
just watch your step, and Jake...
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635. Down...
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636. Okay, uh...
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637. Okay, three, two, one, drop.
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638. Oh, no, that's me.
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639. Oh, it hurts so bad.
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640. Oh, you made that poor guy fall
instead of me.
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641. By the way, that's all...
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642. They wearing you out?
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643. Are they wearing you out? I get scared.
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644. Did you get me good on the sound?
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645. - Yeah, I heard that.
- Was it...
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646. Kirsten has a mic,
so even though I was far away,
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647. - —I heard it on Kirsten's mic.
- Yeah.
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648. Yeah. And I get scared each time,
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649. - 'cause I see this red jacket falling...
—oh, yeah.
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650. And I think it's you. —it is me.
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651. It's only you once.
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652. - That was enough to make my heart flutter.
- Oh, thank you.
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653. J“ holy, holy, holy j“
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654. j“ lord god almrghty j“
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655. j“ early in the morning j“
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656. j“ our song shall rise to thee j“
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657. j“ only thou art holy j“
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658. - Go up to the door and ring it?
- —Yeah.
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659. - Is anybody there?
- —Yep. Try it.
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660. All right. Here goes.
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661. J“ there is none beside thee j“
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662. j“ perfect r'n power j“
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663. J“ love and purity j“
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664. how do you do?
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665. This is lolita?
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666. - Oh.
- —Oh.
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667. Oh, it's so good to see you.
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668. You look just the same.
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669. Uh... you haven't changed
a bit either.
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670. I would know you anywhere.
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671. And let's make an agreement
that neither of us ever will.
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672. Oh, okay.
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673. - We'll just always be the same.
- —excellent.
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674. Come on in.
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675. Thanks.
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676. Not many people
go back as far as we do.
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677. - Nope.
- And we meet each other
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678. - and we pick up where we left off.
—that's right.
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679. You're the best.
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680. I blame his constant
association with formaldehyde.
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681. - Such a potent poison.
- He was a pathologist, wasn't he?
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682. - In every sense of the word.
- —Yeah.
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683. He told me that when he goes
into the morgue
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684. and he sees all these tables
with a body on it,
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685. he just felt a thrill go through him.
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686. And he said, "that's all a mystery..."
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687. - —Yeah.
- "... And I'm the only one
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688. - that can figure it out."
- That can solve it.
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689. I thought, well, cheap thrill,
you're welcome to it.
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690. Leave me out of it.
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691. Did it change your
relationship to death, lolita,
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692. being with a pathologist so long?
Did you think differently about death?
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693. Well... I don't know.
I suppose, a little bit, but...
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694. It's just inevitable...
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695. - And a part of who we all are.
- —yeah.
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696. Are you still a believer?
Do you go to church?
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697. - What's your relationship to all that?
- —oh, I'm definitely a believer.
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698. - —Mmm—hmm.
- I don't worry about it.
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699. The Bible says that people will be
resurrected, that's good enough for me.
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700. Uh-huh.
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701. You're not worried
about the details.
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702. Nah...
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703. Those are pretty clothes, but you would
have been prettier without them.
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704. You don't know all the sagging
that's been going on.
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705. Oh. Of course I know. Of course I know.
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706. You know, wrinkles make twice
as much surface area, really.
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707. - Oh, yes.
- —really, it's improved by the wrinkles.
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708. - You don't really have many...
- I need some.
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709. - I need some. Yeah.
- Yes. Yes.
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710. That's looking good, guys.
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711. Wake up. It's time to get up.
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712. He's heavy.
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713. Oh, my gosh, grandpa.
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714. Hello.
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715. Wake up or I'm gonna pull
your pants off.
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716. Ahh!
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717. I don't think
I warrant all this attention.
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718. I know.
I don't know how this is happening,
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719. but we're getting paid to do this, so...
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720. Really? — Yep.
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721. Hmm.
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722. I'm not getting paid, am I?
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723. No.
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724. Well, why do you become a documentarian?
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725. Why not just make fiction films,
where the big bucks are?
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726. Well, real life
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727. is often much more fascinating
than what you can make up.
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728. Mmm. Mmm—hmm.
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729. So, you're paid for the adventure-making.
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730. Mmm—hmm. Exactly.
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731. Do you remember when your mom
came to live with us?
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732. Mmm—mmm.
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733. Remember she got senile
and she lived with us?
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734. - At beaux arts?
- —where were you living?
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735. No, I was there.
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736. You were there. Oh, yeah.
Yeah, when you were a child.
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737. - Yeah, exactly.
- Right, I remember that.
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738. And now you're recreating history.
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739. Yeah, our history's...
History's bending back on itself.
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740. What do you remember about that time
with your mo... grandma?
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741. With grandma?
What I remember is that, um,
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742. we always wanted her to make that, um...
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743. Either the coconut cream pie
or the chocolate cream pie,
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744. - and she kept making —
- it was coconut cream.
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745. Yeah, we wanted
the coconut cream pie,
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746. and she kept making the banana cream pie.
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747. - —Mmm—hmm.
- And it would just be so disappointing.
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748. Chocolate ice cream.
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749. Nice.
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750. So nice.
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751. Life is good.
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752. Ooh, bummer.
You missed the house, dad.
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753. - I missed the house.
- —yeah.
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754. - Is this the house?
- —yeah.
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755. With the wolf on it? —yeah.
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756. That was it.
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757. It's the house, all right.
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758. Now, the question is,
do you know which room you live in?
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759. - —Yeah.
- Where do you live?
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760. - —Right in this room here.
- Nicely done.
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761. - —You mind if! Sit down?
- No. Are you tired?
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762. Would you like this...
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763. No, leave it in,
leave it in. Thank you.
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764. I'm gonna sit down.
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765. Ah, how sweet it is. Yes, indeed.
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766. You tired?
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767. Am I tired?
My feet are like concrete blocks.
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768. I don't really notice
a brg problem with my memory.
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769. I think its more apparent
to people around me than it is to me.
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770. You do experience worry
that you'll be a burden.
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771. Yeah.
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772. What does that mean to you?
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773. Nothing much more than, uh, it says.
I, you know...
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774. You know, if I... I... I sort of...
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775. I'm living with you now, and, uh...
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776. I... for you, it might get worse, you know?
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777. You might have to take care
of me more than you do now.
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778. But, uh, I like living with you,
so I'm not terribly worried about it.
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779. Do you have any... I mean,
there are some people who feel like,
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780. if it gets worse
to a certain place, I don't want to live.
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781. No, I love life too much for that.
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782. So you would be interested
in living to the state
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783. that mom was in
where she couldn't communicate?
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784. Yeah, I think so.
But I give you permission to euthanize me.
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785. At what point do I have
permission to do that?
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786. Well... pass it by me before you do it.
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787. Hey, buddy, you want a coffee?
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788. No. What I really want is a beer.
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789. I'm bleeding!
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790. No, I'm bleeding to death.
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791. I'm dying.
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792. So this is what I'm gonna stick
to your neck,
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793. and this is where the blood
will actually come out of.
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794. This is going to go along here,
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795. and then all of this is gonna go
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796. - back down through your wardrobe.
- —Down here.
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797. Then I pump the blood through there,
which forces it to shoot right out.
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798. Where are you getting the blood?
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799. - —Right here.
- Right here. From the makeup store.
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800. - —Not from you...
- It's the makeup store.
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801. That's my real blood?
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802. - No. We would never do that.
- —No, no, no. Never.
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803. Oh, I thought you just explained
to me how you did it.
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804. No, it's all fake.
With fake blood.
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805. - —It's like paint.
- Oh, that's a relief.
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806. Yeah...
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807. I thought you were talking...
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808. - Gotta do a transfusion.
- About my blood.
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809. - No, they don't want your blood.
- Good.
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810. I like my blood,
I've grown accustomed to its...
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811. - You can hang on to all of your blood.
- Good.
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812. Not a drop of your blood
will be spilled on this plan.
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813. Excellent. Very good.
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814. So you feel comfortable with it?
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815. - I'm comfortable with that.
- Great.
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816. I would sayjust keep saying
the words "fake blood."
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817. Let's all only use the word "fake blood."
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818. - —Yes.
- That's the way to do it.
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819. I'd say
stick with the fake blood...
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820. - You got it.
- And you're in good shape.
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821. Dad once told me that when
he first fell in love with mom,
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822. he doubted that someone
as extraordrnary as her
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823. would e ver accept him.
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824. He felt so much shame
about the strangeness of his feet,
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825. and he didn't want
to re veal them to anyone.
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826. But then he learned
about the grief she was hiding.
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827. On the day of her graduation fiom college,
a drunk driver crashed into her car,
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828. krlling her mother, who was riding
alongside her in the passenger seat.
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829. My mom was a visual person.
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830. She photographed fio wers and landscapes.
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831. She and / shared a lo ve
of the color orange.
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832. But when / think of that moment,
when she looked over
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833. and saw her be/o ved mother
suddenly dead rrght next to her,
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834. I feel lrke / could now finally understand
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835. why she wanted to forever turn away
fiom things that were difficult to see.
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836. It would be so easy if lo ving
only ga ve us the beautiful.
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837. But what lo vr'ng demands is that we face
the fear of losr'ng each other.
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838. That when it gets messy,
we hold each other close.
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839. And when we can, we defiantly celebrate
our brr'ef moments of [0 y.
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840. J“ hold me close j“
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841. j“ hold me, babe j“
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842. j“ lets make the most of our time
let the devil shake j“
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843. j“ only a moment ago j“
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844. j“ we were paintr'ng the town j“
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845. jredj“
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846. j“ hot on the heels of a lo ve j“
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847. j“ that would never end j“
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848. j“ strrke up the band j“
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849. j“ can lha ve this dance? J“
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850. j“ trll the bells n'ng for us j“
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851. J“ trll the bells n'ng for us j“
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852. j“ oh, oh, oh, oh j“
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853. j'ohj'
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854. This is worse than my heart attack.
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855. Really? Scarier? —yeah.
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856. Much worse. I mean, much more unpleasant.
Much more painful.
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857. Really? —yeah.
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858. - —What is painful?
- The wet and cold
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859. Yeah.
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860. I think we gotta stop.
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861. I'm so glad,
the blood, it's good, right?
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862. Totally.
—othennise, I think, "what's going on?"
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863. Uh, well...
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864. - Maybe ten different people...
- Ten different people?
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865. From the last 30 years
I've been here in New York.
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866. - You've taken care —
- i have experience
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867. with different kind cancer patients.
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868. Paranoia. Stroke patients.
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869. I can take this. Thank you.
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870. Thank you. Sorry to interrupt.
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871. You're not interrupting, dad.
We're talking about...
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872. We're just talking
about how much marta knows about...
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873. About what people go through
at the end of their lives.
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874. - —Yeah.
- Yeah.
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875. She's saying she's accompanied
ten different people.
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876. Wow. — Yeah.
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877. And now there's 11.
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878. And I know the families, and...
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879. Yeah. — Mmm—hmm.
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880. Everybody's different.
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881. It's sort of like
being a psychiatrist, in a way.
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882. Right, it is, yeah. Mmm—hmm.
It's a mental health profession.
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883. It's a mental health
profession, caregiving. Right?
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884. Yep. — Mmm—hmm.
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885. You've both dealt with...
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886. Paranoia, schizophrenia,
psychotic behavior.
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887. - —Mmm—hmm.
- People losing their minds.
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888. I think, in my experience,
is if you're accepting stuff, right,
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889. - the life, it's much easier.
- —Mmm—hmm.
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890. Much easier. And fighting
something that you can't...
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891. - Right.
- Fighting it doesn't bring it back.
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892. - No. You can't control so many things.
- —Yeah. Hmm.
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893. Especially you can't control sickness,
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894. - the conditions...
- Certainly can't.
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895. - You can't control death.
- You can't control people.
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896. - You just... you have to accept.
- —Mmm—hmm.
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897. Deal with it. —deal with.
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898. Mmm—hmm.
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899. I remember I work in New Jersey,
I save life a few times
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900. for a man who had heart attack.
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901. After that, I remember
he gave me $20 after that.
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902. Like a tip.
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903. "It means so much for me.
Like, you saved my life."
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904. Bye.
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905. See you tomorrow.
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906. I love the bunny.
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907. So great.
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908. We all need a little bunny
with us at these times.
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909. Yeah.
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910. Yeah, it definitely feels like
he's sleeping more and more, doesn't it?
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911. - What?
- We should stop harassing you
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912. with this camera, huh?
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913. No, it's all right. I don't mind.
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914. I don't consider it harassment.
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915. The fact that he's willing
to keep doing this is...
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916. - It's amazing.
- Right?
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917. He's doing for you.
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918. Yeah. —with love.
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919. He's doing it for me with love.
He'll do anything for me.
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920. I mean, I just have to be
careful about, like...
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921. You know, not overstepping the bounds
of what's decent for him,
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922. but it's hard to know
what that is anymore.
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923. Yeah, he's happy.
He's laughing no matter what.
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924. - —He is. Yeah.
- Right?
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925. And he's accepting...
I mean, he's very smart.
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926. - But the memory, what you gonna do?
- —yeah.
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927. - Mmm, how sweet it is.
- Pretty sweet.
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928. Shut the door behind you when you leave,
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929. because the light's on
and it keeps me awake.
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930. Okay. It's
actually daytime, so...
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931. So, you know that you woke up
in the middle of the nrght last nrght
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932. - mu/trple trmes...
- —Mmm-hmm.
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933. Uh,
and you were looking for a patient.
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934. What was I/ooking for?
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935. You thought that the living room
was the waiting room.
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936. Is that rrght?
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937. - And this was your ofiice.
- How about that?
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938. And you kept checking
to see if a patient was waiting there.
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939. - Hal
- do you remember any of that?
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940. - No.
- Yeah.
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941. - Isn't that interesting?
- Yeah.
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942. - Huh.
- And you were fully dressed...
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943. - Uh-huh.
- So it was 3:00 in the morning
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944. and you got dressed
and came looking for the patient.
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945. Was / all dressed earlier?
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946. - Well, you were asleep r'n bed...
- Yeah.
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947. And then you got dressed
and you came to look for the patient.
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948. - I got dressed to come out?
- Yeah.
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949. 'Cause / must ha ve
thought somebody was out there.
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950. - —/ was.
- Uh-huh.
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951. And the kids were, too.
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952. - But you were in bed
- yeah, we were asleep.
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953. You were asleep.
You should not let me get away with that.
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954. How would / stop you?
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955. Wake me up. Send me back to bed
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956. - I did send you back to bed
- did / go?
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957. Yeah,
and then you came back again.
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958. Oh.
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959. - You came back three times.
- Did / really?
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960. Yeah. 'Cause you were
really convinced that, um...
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961. - There was a patient out there.
- —How about that?
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962. - What can we do about that?
- —I don't know.
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963. Well, just more forcibly
go back... wake me up and tell me,
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964. you know, you... you...
"You no longer have a practice,
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965. this is not your office,
this is where you're living and sleeping,
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966. and go back to bed.
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967. You're bothering me and the children."
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968. I feel like
you guys have a ton of candy,
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969. I can only imagine how...
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970. Come here, let me see, let me see.
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971. How much you got?
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972. Okay, we're crossing, guys. Crossing.
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973. [Gunshofl
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974. Can we cross the street?
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975. You want more candy over there?
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976. We have to get grandpa,
and let Marco go home...
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977. - Where's your dad?
- In your apartment.
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978. Hopefully.
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979. Hold on.
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980. Where are they? Are they that way?
They must be.
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981. - Can you see them?
- —Okay.
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982. Here is what happened,
ill tell you.
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983. You gotta get into the car,
come around that side,
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984. be really careful of the traffic.
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985. You were at the house of one of the kids,
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986. and then we sat you down
in front of the TV
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987. - 'cause you were tired.
- Right.
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988. - Then we went out...
- —Yeah.
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989. And we came back.
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990. You left me in the house,
nobody else was in the house.
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991. Yeah, you were watching TV.
We left you watching TV.
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992. Well, it was different, it was a...
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993. Not... not knowable place.
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994. - I hadn't been there before.
- —Yeah.
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995. Anyway, you found me,
and I'm grateful for you,
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996. and grateful that you found me. Okay?
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997. - —And rescuing me.
- We'll never lose you.
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998. I hope that's right. —yeah.
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999. I sure could have
been lost that time, though.
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1000. Did it feel...
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1001. If you hadn't come back
with those people...
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1002. I have no idea what I would've done.
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1003. Oh, man, sweetie, your father is a wreck.
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1004. Happy Halloween!
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1005. - I'm glad you found me.
- —I'm glad we found you.
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1006. We burlt this set rmagining
what dad must ha ve felt like
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1007. when / left hrm all alone.
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1008. But / was nervous puttr'ng him r'nto it.
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1009. It is so rare
that he is completely himself anymore.
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1010. The other nrght, / stopped him
fiom Lea vr'ng the apartment at 3:00 a. M.
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1011. He thought he had a trar'n to catch.
He said he was on a secret mission.
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1012. But when lstepped onto the set
to lead him out,
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1013. there was a moment of clarity,
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1014. and we both knew
what this was really about.
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1015. It was about what it was about with mom.
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1016. That / would have to leave hrm somewhere.
Someday. Somehow
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1017. I'll stretch the elastic.
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1018. - —Yep.
- Perfect.
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1019. - You're a trouper. Okay.
- —Yep. Yes, sir.
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1020. So nowjust lie down
and take a real nap.
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1021. - Okay.
- Put your feet up.
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1022. - I can do that.
- Okay.
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1023. In adventism, after a global apocalypse,
Jesus wrll return to earth
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1024. to resurrect his followers, the rrghteous,
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1025. and bring them up with him
to hea ven for eternity
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1026. so r'n the face of death,
there is hope that everything will be okay
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1027. but what adventism recognizes,
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1028. that / 've ne ver grasped before,
is that the worst thing,
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1029. the deepest fear, is being left behind
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1030. Dad, you know I'm going to,
uh, Israel tonight.
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1031. Oh, I didn't know that.
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1032. - You didn't know that?
- —no.
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1033. I thought...
I thought you remembered.
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1034. No, I forgot.
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1035. Aw.
Is it hard on you when I'm gone?
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1036. Yeah, it's hard.
Well, not really. Not actually.
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1037. You know I... I miss you. —yeah.
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1038. Yeah. —I miss you.
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1039. Is there anything you want me to do...
Or do while you're gone?
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1040. - —Mmm...
- How would you like me to behave?
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1041. Well, you're doing great behaving.
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1042. You don't need me to tell you
how to behave.
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1043. - You'll do fine.
- Well, that's why you're here.
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1044. When you're here, I'm behaving greatly.
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1045. What do you do when I'm gone?
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1046. That's what I'm asking you
to tell me.
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1047. I don't know what to do without you.
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1048. - You be careful, okay?
- —I will be careful.
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1049. You have this little brother
that you need to take care of.
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1050. - Are you my little brother?
- I'm your little brother,
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1051. who's now demented, you know?
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1052. That's so cute that I'm your little
brother. You're my little brother.
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1053. I'm your little brother.
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1054. I'm no longer your father,
I'm your little brother.
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1055. What does the little brother do?
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1056. Oh, he just tags along behind.
Gets in your way.
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1057. - Little brothers don't get in your way.
- They do.
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1058. - Little brothers are fun.
- —are they? Okay.
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1059. Aw. —I love you.
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1060. Mmm. Your eyes get a little, like, teary.
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1061. - Yeah.
- Are those real tears,
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1062. or it's just your eyes are that way?
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1063. - That's real, they're real tears.
- Aw.
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1064. I'm sorry to admit it.
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1065. From joy. Love.
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1066. That's great.
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1067. What you guys have to do...
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1068. Is you each have to fill
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1069. your pie plate with the chocolate first.
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1070. - What do you think, Felix?
- Um, is this good?
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1071. I'm excited
you guys are making the cake
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1072. for grandpa's 86th birthday.
Just to have forever.
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1073. - Wow, that's awesome.
- —Right?
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1074. That's so cool.
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1075. Don't look! — Don't look.
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1076. - Did he see?
- —Will you fix my television for me?
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1077. - —I don't think he saw.
- Did you see?
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1078. - —What did I see? I saw...
- You saw?
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1079. Uh, some cake.
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1080. But lucky... lucky he won't...
He will forget, right?
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1081. I think so. He won't
remember that we're making a cake.
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1082. - —Don't look!
- Okay.
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1083. - Can somebody fix my TV for me?
- —Leave.
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1084. - Yeah. I can.
- —I'm coming.
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1085. - —Thank you.
- Let's put on kirk's show.
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1086. We find leaves both above
and below the k - t boundary,
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1087. but the y're different Lea ves.
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1088. So there was
not only a dinosaur extinction,
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1089. but there was a major
plant extinction as well
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1090. with little to eat, dinosaurs, mosasaurs,
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1091. and nearly 75 % of known species
go extinct.
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1092. Can you do it?
Just hold it, it's heavy.
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1093. J“ happy birthday to you j“
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1094. j“ happy birthday to you j“
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1095. oh, wow!
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1096. J“ happy birthday, c. Richard Johnson j“
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1097. Wow!
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1098. J“ happy birthday to you j“
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1099. - I have never seen a prettier cake.
- And there's a other cake!
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1100. - Make the "8" stand up?
- —I can.
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1101. - Look at that. 86, is that right?
- —86.
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1102. - It should be 88, shouldn't it?
- —No.
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1103. Make a wish.
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1104. T — Yay!
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1105. Well done. Well done.
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1106. Yay.
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1107. - —I wanna cut in the middle.
- Can I cut, too? I wanna cut.
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1108. Everyone's gonna
get a chance to cut. Wait.
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1109. One at a time.
Let your sister do it first.
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1110. Remember to save
some pieces for the people. Oh, yeah.
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1111. - That's why we're cutting so many.
- Way to go.
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1112. My turn! — Wow.
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1113. - —Nice.
- Nicely done.
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1114. I'll tell you,
it's the best chocolate cake I ever had.
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1115. And I had a lot of chocolate cakes.
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1116. - That's true.
- —I bet.
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1117. This is the best.
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1118. - Kids, what do you think?
- —Wow.
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1119. Oh, who made the cake?
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1120. What do you think...
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1121. Did you eat it?
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1122. Did you eat it? — Yes.
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1123. Six-one-one with a notification.
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1124. We have an 86-year-old male
in cardiac arrest witnessed,
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1125. the patient's currently in v-fib,
one shock delivered,
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1126. cpr is in progress,
eta is about six minutes.
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1127. Thank you so much.
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1128. We're gonna do a pulse check, rhythm check
after this. Not a problem, ma'am.
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1129. Analyzing now
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1130. Still in v—fib. Jimmy, pull over,
we're gonna shock one more time.
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1131. Shock advised now
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1132. It's still stopped,
there's one second, charging.
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1133. - Clear, clear.
- —Clear? All clear.
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1134. Charged, shock delivered.
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1135. - Go ahead, Jimmy. Continue cpr.
- —Ten—four.
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1136. Push analyze.
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1137. Go ahead, Jimmy.
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1138. - —Three, four, five, six, seven.
- Analyzing now
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1139. Ma'am, you gotta sit down
over there,
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1140. put on your seatbelt, for your safety.
And I will explain it while I go.
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1141. Five, six, seven, eight.
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1142. He's still in v-fib.
We're gonna shock one more time.
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1143. Did his heart stop again?
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1144. No, it's still stopped,
there's one second, charging.
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1145. Clear. Clear? — Clear.
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1146. One, two, three,
four, five, six, seven...
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1147. His heart is still
not beating on its own, ma'am.
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1148. One day I was going to work,
and on the way to work,
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1149. I witnessed the suicide of a woman...
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1150. Who jumped two meters ahead of me
from the bridge.
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1151. The first thing that I did when I came
to work was to send an email to...
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1152. Dick.
Uh, it had only one word in it.
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1153. It was a subject line, it said, "help."
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1154. And he called me right away.
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1155. His ability to recognize
the hurt and the loss,
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1156. and to find the best way through that,
was something incredible.
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1157. He was the first person I called
when my husband died.
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1158. And it kind of broke my heart
a few days later when I saw him...
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1159. When he gave me a big hug...
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1160. And then five minutes later,
asked me how is my husband doing.
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1161. And I realized...
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1162. This is yet another kind of loss.
The loss of memory.
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1163. But I know one thing,
that for as long as my memory lives...
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1164. The memory of him will be in me.
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1165. Thank you.
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1166. Dick loved to attend
the many parties at our home.
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1167. He loved my tradition
of ending a party on a happy note.
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1168. Around 10:00 pm, I would ring a bell,
get everybody's attention,
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1169. and with a loud voice, announce,
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1170. "you have eaten all my food,
you have drunk all my wine,
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1171. you said everything worth hearing,
now it's time to go home."
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1172. Before they left, I would play
a tune on my hunting horn
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1173. called "going away."
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1174. Boy, I gotta get through this.
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1175. Dick came over and said, "ray...
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1176. If you outlive me,
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1177. I want you to play
'going away..."' Oh, god.
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1178. "I want you to play 'going away'
at my funeral."
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1179. I spent every Saturday
of m y chrldhood in this church.
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1180. Mom is funeral was here.
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1181. And just before we moved dad
fiom Seattle to New York,
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1182. a little over three years ago,
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1183. our famrly, our fiiends, our congregation,
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1184. all gathered with generosity and love
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1185. to let us film this fare well to dad
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1186. even kno wing that he was still alive.
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1187. Today is not a happy day.
I promised him I would play...
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1188. My lip muscles are weak,
my breath is limited, but, dick,
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1189. I'll try. I'll keep my promise.
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1190. He thinks it's the real thing.
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1191. See you later, dick.
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1192. Are you ready, dad?
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1193. We were so happy
with ourselves that day.
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1194. We thought that maybe we could stop
what was coming.
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1195. That we 'd found a way to hold on.
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1196. Or almost found a way.
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1197. What can you say
when you've lost a best fiiend?
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1198. Or a mother?
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1199. Or your best fiiend and your father?
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1200. All I know is that dick Johnson is dead.
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1201. All I know is that dick Johnson is dead.
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1202. All I can say is dick Johnson is dead.
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1203. And all I want to say is,
long live dick Johnson.
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1204. Thank you.
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1205. J“ soon / wrll be done j“
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1206. j“ with the troubles of the world j“
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1207. j“ troubles of the world j“
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1208. j“ troubles in this world j“
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1209. j“ soon / wrll be done j“
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1210. j“ with the troubles of the world j“
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1211. j“ I'm goin'home j“
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1212. j“ to live with my lord j“
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1213. j“ soon / wrll be done j“
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1214. j“ with the trouble r'n the world j“
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1215. j“ trouble of the world j“
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1216. j“ trouble in this world j“
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1217. j“ soon / wrll be done j“
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1218. j“ with the troubles of the world j“
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1219. j“ I'm goin'home j“
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1220. j“ to live j“
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1221. j“ with mylord j“
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1222. j“ lwantj“
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1223. j“ to see my mother j“
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1224. j“ lord, / want j“
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1225. j“ oh, to see my mother j“
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1226. j“ child, / want j”
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1227. j“ to see my mother j“
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1228. j“ I'm goin'home j“
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1229. j“ to live j“
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1230. j“ with mylord j“
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1231. j“ no more j“
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1232. j“ weepin'and wailin' j“
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1233. j“ no more j“
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1234. j“ whoa-oh-oh j“
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1235. j“ weepin'and wailinj chrld j“
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1236. j“ no more j“
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1237. j“ weepin'and wailing j“
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1238. j“ I'm goin'home j“
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1239. j“ to live j“
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1240. j“ with mylord j“
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1241. J“ soon / wrll be done j“
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1242. j“ with the trouble r'n the world j“
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1243. j“ troubles of the world j“
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1244. j“ oh, troubles in this world j“
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1245. j“ soon / wrll be done j“
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1246. j“ with the troubles of the world j“
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1247. j“ I'm goin'home j“
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1248. j“ I'm goin'home j“
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1249. j“ no more trials, no j“
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1250. j“ no more tribulations j“
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1251. j“ I'm goin'home j“
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1252. j“ to live j“
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1253. j“ with mylord j“
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