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So what was telling you you were dying?
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- If you love dying.
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7. - Hi. Eva!
- Oh.
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8. - Hi.
- Pull me up. Felix, pull me up.
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Dad, be careful,
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the straw's really slippery.
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really slippery so be careful.
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16. - Yeah, I am.
- Okay. Promise?
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21. - Dad, are you okay?
- Did you get it, Mom?
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22. - I got it.
- Oh, wonderful.
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26. - I'm stuck. Come on, Steve, Felix.
- You need help. Steve.
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That's who you want for a father.
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Who I've always had, my whole life.
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- Wow, that's pretty narrow.
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51. - I can just do it like this.
- Just pop in.
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53. - I may never get out.
- I got your legs.
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That looks pretty good.
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- You do.
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he looks really dead.
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71. - Okay, one, two, three.
- Push with your feet.
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- There you go.
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- Support him from behind.
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76. By George.
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78. - We missed you.
- I missed you guys.
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I don't put this in a fantasy group.
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the more I love it.
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- It'd be really...
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101. 'cause that would kinda sell it.
The legs go up, you know?
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He's never lost any patients.
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I've had, I think, one or two suicides.
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I have a problem? I have no problems!
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- But first,
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- Sure.
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- ...you know...
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142. Yeah. And, you know,
the whole thing put together.
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- Mm-hmm.
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not getting breath, lying down,
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147. and arresting, and the whole scenario.
Not one part of it, but the whole thing.
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- Yeah, I'm glad...
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- Is it? Seven...
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- Thirty years.
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- Is it 30 years?
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- That's pretty good, yeah.
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- This is my grandma.
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She died a long, long time ago.
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- Katie Jo, that's right.
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of these toes.
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to me for my entire life.
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182. - I never wanted to go barefoot.
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she cried and cried and cried.
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- I was there.
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how Mom did fall on these stairs?
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before she was down.
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189. - Yeah.
- And stepped into nothing.
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going down them.
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- That was beautiful.
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to our questions about death.
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that nobody's up in heaven yet.
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They're unconscious, in a kind of sleep.
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for the Day of Judgment
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and rise up to heaven to live forever.
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Adventism was a strict religion.
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not to break a single rule.
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He had a way of living in the moment.
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219. "I've got my heaven," he would say.
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- Yeah, good.
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It's Groundhog Day all over again.
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- The resurrected dad.
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I went, "Oh, no."
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I was like, "All right. That's awesome."
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- Hope it is.
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- He drowned, actually.
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- Mmm-hmm. He was down...
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- A boating accident.
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I can start breaking this down.
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in about five, ten minutes,
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neatly on the floor.
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262. - Beautiful.
- Let's do it.
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263. - Bing, bing, bing, done.
- All right.
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it's such a good-looking space,
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They call me Fred Sanford.
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- Bye.
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I can lift that. Dad...
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Oh, piece of cake.
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- Yeah, right?
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and his office is closed.
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your insurance website,
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phone number.
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to the nearest emergency room.
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you can always get out.
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ever since my mom died.
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thousands of miles away,
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with Mom's Alzheimer's,
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until it was almost too late.
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Then his secretary.
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298. He was double-booking his patients,
making mistakes on their prescriptions.
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at high speed through a construction site,
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five miles home, on four flat tires.
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we should have understood perfectly,
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you were taking the car away from me.
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- Right. That's all.
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- You can't keep it.
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- That's all.
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- It's not that bad.
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- It's not that bad.
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We just are not paying $2,000
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in New York City, that's all.
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- That's all we're doin'.
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- Yeah, I hear ya.
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- I got to see...
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They don't stick around.
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- Well, it's not okay. You know?
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- In order to kill me.
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it was double, um, artery.
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- Right, that's what it was.
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look at Mom's good memory book.
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she was deep into this.
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- ...ill, you know?
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- Having Alzheimer's.
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she was doing all that stuff.
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- It's like visual...
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- ...they stick out in your mind.
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That is a good point.
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409. - Shall we?
- Gotta keep your eyes open.
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410. I've been shooting documentaries
for nearly 30 years,
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411. but this is almost all the footage
I've got of Mom.
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412. I don't have a single frame of the warm
and brilliant person she once was.
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413. So when Mom was really...
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414. could barely move
and all that,
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415. and we were gonna move her
from the house, remember?
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416. She, um... She came out here
and she sat in this chair
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417. - and she was like, "This is our house."
- Uh-huh.
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418. And I was like, "It's okay, Mom,
we don't have to move you."
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419. And she said, um...
She was like...
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420. She sat there and that's when
she started singing "Que Sera, Sera."
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421. - Pretty good.
- Yeah.
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422. - She was tough.
- She was tough.
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423. It's tough.
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424. And now we experience
something similar all over again.
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425. Yeah.
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426. Yeah, it's scary.
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427. Yeah.
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428. - Ah... I'm sorry.
- Yeah.
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429. Me, too.
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430. But I remember her being
just like, "This is our house."
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431. - Yeah.
- Yeah.
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432. - It is our house.
- She didn't wanna go.
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433. Nope.
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434. But once she got there, I think...
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435. No, she was like, "Let's get out of here."
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436. - "Let's get out of here."
- She hated that place.
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437. - Oh, poor her.
- Ah...
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in the movie.
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439. - Well...
- I don't know... Not very well.
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440. What's gonna happen
is that your feet
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441. are gonna be turned into feet with toes.
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442. Of... clothes?
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443. - With toes.
- Toes.
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444. Your feet are gonna be turned
into feet with toes.
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446. Well, we're gonna do a close-up
on your real feet...
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447. and then we're gonna have
another person...
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448. We're gonna do, like, the gold cloth
in front of your feet,
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449. and then someone else's bare feet
are gonna be there.
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450. Yeah. Um, because you said
to me once that that was...
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451. If you could wish for anything,
that was the wish that...
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453. Yeah, I was kind of surprised.
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454. I thought you'd wish
for world peace or something.
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455. - I thought...
- I'd wish for Mom not to die.
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456. - That would be your wish?
- Mmm-hmm.
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457. Yeah. Yeah, I could see that.
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458. Yeah, I would wish for that, too.
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459. Wow. Look at this.
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460. What a mess.
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461. There's Mom up on top of the case.
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462. - Is she?
- Yeah, see, right up there?
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463. Who put her up there?
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464. I don't know.
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465. It must have been Kirk.
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466. Well, maybe we should
change our minds.
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467. Just stay here.
What do you think about that?
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468. I kind of feel the same way.
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469. - It's such a great house.
- Yeah, it is, isn't it?
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470. It's crazy to leave it.
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471. Yeah, well, the problem is,
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472. if you don't leave it,
I don't get close to you.
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473. - Yeah.
- Yeah.
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474. - That's it.
- That's it.
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475. So, I'd trade this house any day
for being with you.
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476. There's no question about that.
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477. - That's not even a consideration.
- Yeah.
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478. I feel the same way.
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479. Dad, guess what's coming.
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480. A-ha, excellent.
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481. - Thank you.
- You're welcome.
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482. - Isn't that good stuff?
- Yeah.
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483. Carl, thank you.
You're the best.
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484. Yeah. Thank you, Carl.
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485. - I think that's good.
- It's wonderful.
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486. Yeah, she looks
very happy there.
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487. You got me all this stuff here,
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488. it's gonna be hard to get rid of me.
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489. As much as I may be
trying to kill you off,
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490. I'm not trying to get rid of you.
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491. It's hard to believe.
That's all right, I'm a believer.
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492. - You're a believer.
- I'm a true believer.
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493. Yeah, good show, sweetie.
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494. You guys look great.
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495. Can I tell you
something? It looks...
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496. This is pretty cool.
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497. They said they wanted us to come
to their house...
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498. Want another one?
Oh, yeah, you guys.
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499. We're raising a glass to Forrest Vu.
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500. Cheers, cheers, cheers.
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501. - Did he die?
- No! Born!
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502. She.
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503. She is born.
Viva, raise your glass.
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504. Is today a school day?
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505. It sure is. We're all going.
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506. Come on, guys. Let's do it.
Dad, you coming?
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507. - We're missing...
- We're missing one person.
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508. I know. He's coming.
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509. - You got my wallet?
- You don't need it.
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511. Two.
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512. - Where is my wallet?
- It's in the house.
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- No, I got money.
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514. You don't need it.
We're not getting anything.
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515. All right.
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516. Nice. Nicely done.
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517. The car's here, guys.
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518. Watch out. Watch where you're going.
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519. You guys watching for bicycles?
Can you watch for me?
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520. Okay, all right.
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521. I'm gonna go down and get back,
and get my dad. I'll be back.
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522. Just watch the bikes, Dad.
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523. Classic.
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524. Toot-toot.
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525. You gotta jump out, Felix.
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526. Have a good day, guys.
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528. So I... I have...
I really don't have any regrets.
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529. - Right.
- Everything's a trade-off.
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531. Ever had a fantasy of what you would do
with this period of your life?
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532. I don't think so.
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533. - You didn't even think about it.
- No, I didn't.
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534. You didn't think about the future.
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535. I'm pretty good about living
in the here and the now.
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536. I'm gonna be happy
with the windows down.
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537. I'm gonna figure out
what's rattling back here.
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538. Okay. Yeah, we're good.
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539. All right. I can't...
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540. I think we've got our
up and down the highway pretty good.
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541. Okay.
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542. We're gonna do
some memory testing.
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543. I'm gonna give you five words
to remember for me, okay? Ready?
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544. Face, velvet, church, daisy, and red.
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546. Face.
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547. Velvet.
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548. Red.
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549. And I for... I don't know.
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550. I'm gonna do them
one more time. Ready?
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551. Face, velvet, church, daisy, and red.
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552. Face, velvet, daisy, and red.
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553. Okay.
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554. If I tell you that a banana and an orange
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555. are the same because they're both fruit,
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556. how are a what...
How are a train and bicycle the same?
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557. They're means of transportation.
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558. Excellent.
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559. Remember those words
I asked you to remember?
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560. Okay, one was a color.
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562. One was a body part.
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563. - Face.
- Okay. Good.
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564. - Okay. So he scored 22 in 2017...
- Uh-huh.
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565. - ...he's scoring 19 now.
- Oh. I'm falling apart.
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566. Do you think
your memory is the same?
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567. - Oh, it's better.
- It's better than it was?
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568. I don't know,
it's probably the same.
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569. - Okay. Do...
- I don't think it's any worse.
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570. Okay. So that's why
we're gonna ask your daughter
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571. for some information, if that's okay.
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572. Well, okay.
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573. Okay, so do you think
his memory is changing?
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574. Yeah, you know, I...
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575. I was trying to think of something to say,
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576. but I couldn't stop thinking
about what's coming.
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577. His moments of forgetfulness
are going to spread.
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578. He'll ask the same questions
over and over again.
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579. His eyes will get that distant look.
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580. And his personality
will begin to fade away.
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581. And he won't be able to follow
what I'm saying,
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582. so I won't be able to ask him
any more advice.
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583. And the whole time,
we'll just be trying to get by.
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584. Sound speed.
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585. - Cue me when you want me to walk.
- Take four, B marker.
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586. Okay, are you good?
All right, so, Dad, we can start walking.
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587. Let's start walking,
just start walking to me,
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588. you're doing a great speed.
That's fantastic.
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589. Just keep on walking.
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590. Watch your step here 'cause it's bumpy.
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591. Just... be careful,
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592. - you're doing great.
- Eight feet.
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593. Okay, so, Dad,
just watch your step, and Jake...
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594. Down.
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595. Okay, uh...
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596. Okay, three, two, one, drop.
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597. Oh, no, that's me.
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598. Oh, it hurts so bad.
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599. Oh, you made that poor guy fall
instead of me.
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600. By the way, that's all...
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601. They're wearing you out.
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602. They're wearing you out. I get scared.
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603. Did you get me good on the sound?
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604. - Yeah, I heard that.
- Was it...
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605. Kirsten has a mic,
so even though I was far away,
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606. - I heard it on Kirsten's mic.
- Yeah.
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607. Yeah. And I get scared each time,
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608. - 'cause I see this red jacket falling...
- Oh, yeah.
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609. - ...and I think it's you.
- It is me.
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610. It's only you once.
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611. - That was enough to make my heart flutter.
- Oh, thank you.
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612. - Go up to the door and ring?
- Yeah.
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613. - Is anybody there?
- Yep. Try it.
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614. All right. Here goes.
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615. I don't think anybody's there.
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616. How do you do?
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617. This is Lolita?
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618. Oh, it's so good to see you.
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619. You look just the same.
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620. Uh... you haven't changed
a bit either.
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621. I would know you anywhere.
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622. And let's make an agreement
that neither of us ever will.
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623. Oh, okay.
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624. - We'll just always be the same.
- Excellent.
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625. Come on in.
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626. Thanks.
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627. Not many people
go back as far as we do.
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628. - Nope.
- And we meet each other
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629. - and we pick up where we left off.
- That's right.
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630. You're the best.
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631. I blame his constant
association with formaldehyde.
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632. - Such a potent poison.
- He was a pathologist, wasn't he?
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633. - In every sense of the word.
- Yeah.
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634. He told me that when he goes
into the morgue
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635. and he sees all these tables
with a body on it,
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636. he just felt a thrill go through him.
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637. And he said, "That's all a mystery..."
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638. - Yeah.
- "...and I'm the only one.
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639. - That can figure it out."
- That can solve it.
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640. I thought, well, cheap thrill,
you're welcome to it.
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641. Leave me out of it.
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642. Did it change your
relationship to death, Lolita,
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643. being with a pathologist so long?
Did you think differently about death?
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644. Well... I don't know.
I suppose, a little bit, but...
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645. It's just inevitable...
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646. - and a part of who we all are.
- Yeah.
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647. Are you still a believer?
Do you go to church?
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648. - What's your relationship to all that?
- Oh, I'm definitely a believer.
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649. I don't worry about it.
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650. The Bible says that people will be
resurrected, that's good enough for me.
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651. You're not worried
about the details.
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652. Nah.
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653. Those are pretty clothes, but you would
have been prettier without them.
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654. You don't know all the sagging
that's been going on.
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655. Oh. Of course I know. Of course I know.
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656. You know, wrinkles make twice
as much surface area, really.
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657. - Oh, yes.
- Really, it's improved by the wrinkles.
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658. - You don't really have many...
- I need some.
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659. - I need some. Yeah.
- Yes. Yes.
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660. That's looking good, guys.
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661. Wake up. It's time to get up.
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662. He's heavy.
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663. Oh, my gosh, Grandpa.
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664. Hello.
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665. Wake up or I'm gonna pull
your pants off.
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666. I don't think
I warrant all this attention.
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667. I know.
I don't know how this is happening,
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668. but we're getting paid to do this, so...
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669. - Really?
- Yep.
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670. I'm not getting paid, am I?
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671. No.
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672. Well, why do you become a documentarian?
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673. Why not just make fiction films,
where the big bucks are?
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674. Well, real life
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675. is often much more fascinating
than what you can make up.
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676. So, you're paid for the adventure-making.
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677. Mmm-hmm. Exactly.
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678. Do you remember when your mom
came to live with us?
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679. Remember she got senile
and she lived with us?
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680. - At Bozarts?
- Where were you living?
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681. No, I was there.
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682. You were there. Oh, yeah.
Yeah, when you were a child.
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683. - Yeah, exactly.
- Right, I remember that.
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684. And now you're recreating history.
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685. Yeah, our history's...
history's bending back on itself.
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686. What do you remember about that time
with your mo... Grandma?
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687. With Grandma?
What I remember is that, um,
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688. we always wanted her to make that, um...
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689. either the coconut cream pie
or the chocolate cream pie,
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690. - and she kept making...
- It was coconut cream.
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691. Yeah, we wanted
the coconut cream pie,
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692. and she kept making the banana cream pie.
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693. And it would just be so disappointing.
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694. Chocolate ice cream.
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695. Nice.
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696. So nice.
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697. Life is good.
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698. Ooh, bummer.
You missed the house, Dad.
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699. - I missed the house.
- Yeah.
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700. - Is this the house?
- Yeah.
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701. - With the wolf on it?
- Yeah.
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702. That was it.
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703. It's the house, all right.
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704. Now, the question is,
do you know which room you live in?
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705. - Yeah.
- Where do you live?
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706. - Right in this room here.
- Nicely done.
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707. - You mind if I sit down?
- No. Are you tired?
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708. Would you like this...
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709. No, leave it in,
leave it in. Thank you.
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710. I'm gonna sit down.
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711. Ah, how sweet it is. Yes, indeed.
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712. You tired?
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713. Am I tired?
My feet are like concrete blocks.
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714. I don't really notice
a big problem with my memory.
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715. I think it's more apparent
to people around me than it is to me.
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716. You do experience worry
that you'll be a burden.
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717. Yeah.
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718. What does that mean to you?
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719. Nothing much more than, uh, it says.
I, you know...
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720. You know, if I... I... I sort of...
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721. I'm living with you now, and, uh...
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722. I... For you,
it might get worse, you know?
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723. You might have to take care
of me more than you do now.
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724. But, uh, I like living with you,
so I'm not terribly worried about it.
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725. Do you have any... I mean,
there are some people who feel like,
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726. if it gets worse
to a certain place, I don't want to live.
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727. No, I love life too much for that.
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728. So you would be interested
in living to the state
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729. that Mom was in
where she couldn't communicate?
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730. Yeah, I think so.
But I give you permission to euthanize me.
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731. At what point do I have
permission to do that?
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732. Well... pass it by me before you do it.
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733. Hey, buddy, you want a coffee?
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734. No. What I really want is a beer.
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735. I'm bleeding!
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736. No, I'm bleeding to death.
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737. I'm dying.
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738. So this is what I'm gonna stick
to your neck,
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739. and this is where the blood
will actually come out of.
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740. This is going to go along here,
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741. and then all of this is gonna go
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742. - back down through your wardrobe.
- Down here.
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743. Then I pump the blood through there,
which forces it to shoot right out.
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744. Where are you getting the blood?
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745. - Right here.
- Right here. From the makeup store.
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746. - Not from you...
- It's the makeup store.
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747. That's my real blood?
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748. - No. We would never do that.
- No, no, no. Never.
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749. Oh, I thought you just explained
to me how you did it.
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750. No, it's all fake.
With fake blood.
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751. - It's like paint.
- Oh, that's a relief.
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752. Yeah.
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753. I thought you were talking...
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754. - Gotta do a transfusion.
- ...about my blood.
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755. - No, they don't want your blood.
- Good.
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756. I like my blood,
I've grown accustomed to its...
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757. - You can hang on to all of your blood.
- Good.
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758. Not a drop of your blood
will be spilled on this plan.
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759. Excellent. Very good.
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760. So you feel comfortable with it?
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761. - I'm comfortable with that.
- Great.
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762. I would say just keep saying
the words "fake blood."
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763. Let's all only use the word "fake blood."
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764. - Yes.
- That's the way to do it.
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765. I'd say
stick with the fake blood...
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766. - You got it.
- ...and you're in good shape.
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767. Dad once told me that when
he first fell in love with Mom,
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768. he doubted that someone
as extraordinary as her
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769. would ever accept him.
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770. He felt so much shame
about the strangeness of his feet,
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771. and he didn't want
to reveal them to anyone.
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772. But then he learned
about the grief she was hiding.
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773. On the day of her graduation from college,
a drunk driver crashed into her car,
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774. killing her mother, who was riding
alongside her in the passenger seat.
Copy !req
775. My mom was a visual person.
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776. She photographed flowers and landscapes.
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777. She and I shared a love
of the color orange.
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778. But when I think of that moment,
when she looked over
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779. and saw her beloved mother
suddenly dead right next to her,
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780. I feel like I could now finally understand
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781. why she wanted to forever turn away
from things that were difficult to see.
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782. It would be so easy if loving
only gave us the beautiful.
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783. But what loving demands is that we face
the fear of losing each other.
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784. That when it gets messy,
we hold each other close.
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785. And when we can, we defiantly celebrate
our brief moments of joy.
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786. This is worse than my heart attack.
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787. - Really? Scarier?
- Yeah.
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788. Much worse. I mean, much more unpleasant.
Much more painful.
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789. - Really?
- Yeah.
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790. - What's painful?
- The wet and cold.
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791. Yeah.
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792. I think we gotta stop.
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793. I'm so glad,
the blood, it's good, right?
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794. - Totally.
- Otherwise, I think, "What's going on?"
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795. Uh, well...
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796. - maybe ten different people...
- Ten different people?
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797. ...from the last 30 years
I've been here in New York.
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798. - You've taken care...
- I have experience
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799. with different kind cancer patients.
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800. Paranoia. Stroke patients.
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801. I can take this. Thank you.
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802. Thank you. Sorry to interrupt.
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803. You're not interrupting, Dad.
We're talking about...
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804. We're just talking
about how much Marta knows about...
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805. about what people go through
at the end of their lives.
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806. - Yeah.
- Yeah.
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807. She's saying she's accompanied
ten different people.
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808. - Wow.
- Yeah.
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809. And now there's 11.
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810. And I know the families, and...
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811. - Yeah.
- Mmm-hmm.
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812. Everybody's different.
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813. It's sort of like
being a psychiatrist, in a way.
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814. Right, it is, yeah. Mmm-hmm.
It's a mental health profession.
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815. It's a mental health
profession, caregiving. Right?
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816. - Yep.
- Mmm-hmm.
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817. You've both dealt with...
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818. paranoia, schizophrenia,
psychotic behavior.
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819. People losing their minds.
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820. I think, in my experience,
is if you're accepting stuff, right,
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821. - the life, it's much easier.
- Mmm-hmm.
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822. Much easier. And fighting
something that you can't...
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823. - Right.
- Fighting it doesn't bring it back.
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824. - No. You can't control so many things.
- Yeah. Hmm.
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825. Especially you can't control sickness,
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826. - the conditions...
- Certainly can't.
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827. - You can't control death.
- You can't control people.
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828. - You just... You have to accept.
- Mmm-hmm.
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829. - Deal with it.
- Deal with.
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830. I remember I work in New Jersey,
I save life a few times
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831. for a man who had heart attack.
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832. After that, I remember
he gave me $20 after that.
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833. Like a tip.
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834. "It means so much for me.
Like, you saved my life."
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835. Bye.
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836. See you tomorrow.
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837. I love the bunny.
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838. So great.
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839. We all need a little bunny
with us at these times.
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840. Yeah.
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841. Yeah, it definitely feels like
he's sleeping more and more, doesn't it?
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842. - What?
- We should stop harassing you
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843. with this camera, huh?
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844. No, it's all right. I don't mind.
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845. I don't consider it harassment.
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846. The fact that he's willing
to keep doing this is...
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847. - It's amazing.
- Right?
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848. He's doing for you.
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849. - Yeah.
- With love.
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850. He's doing it for me with love.
He'll do anything for me.
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851. I mean, I just have to be
careful about, like...
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852. you know, not overstepping the bounds
of what's decent for him,
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853. but it's hard to know
what that is anymore.
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854. Yeah, he's happy.
He's laughing no matter what.
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855. - He is. Yeah.
- Right?
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856. And he's accepting...
I mean, he's very smart.
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857. - But the memory, what you gonna do?
- Yeah.
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858. - Mmm, how sweet it is.
- Pretty sweet.
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859. Shut the door behind you when you leave,
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860. because the light's on
and it keeps me awake.
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861. Okay.
It's actually daytime, so...
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862. So, you know that you woke up
in the middle of the night last night
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863. - multiple times...
- Mmm-hmm.
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864. ...uh,
and you were looking for a patient.
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865. What was I looking for?
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866. You thought that the living room
was the waiting room.
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867. Is that right?
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868. - And this was your office.
- How about that?
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869. And you kept checking
to see if a patient was waiting there.
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870. Do you remember any of that?
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871. - No.
- Yeah.
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872. - Isn't that interesting?
- Yeah.
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873. And you were fully dressed...
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874. ...so it was 3:00 in the morning.
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875. And you got dressed
and came looking for the patient.
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876. Was I all dressed earlier?
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877. - Well, you were asleep in bed...
- Yeah.
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878. ...and then you got dressed
and you came to look for the patient.
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879. - I got dressed to come out?
- Yeah.
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880. 'Cause I must have
thought somebody was out there.
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881. I was.
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882. And the kids were, too.
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883. - But you were in bed.
- Yeah, we were asleep.
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884. You were asleep.
You should not let me get away with that.
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885. How would I stop you?
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886. Wake me up. Send me back to bed.
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887. - I did send you back to bed.
- Did I go?
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888. Yeah,
and then you came back again.
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889. - You came back three times.
- Did I really?
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890. Yeah. 'Cause you were
really convinced that, um...
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891. - there was a patient out there.
- How about that?
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892. - What can we do about that?
- I don't know.
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893. Well, just more forcibly
go back... Wake me up and tell me,
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894. you know, you... you...
"You no longer have a practice,
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895. this is not your office,
this is where you're living and sleeping,
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896. and go back to bed.
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897. You're bothering me and the children."
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898. I feel like
you guys have a ton of candy,
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899. I can only imagine how...
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900. Come here, let me see, let me see.
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901. How much you got?
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902. Okay, we're crossing, guys. Crossing.
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903. Can we cross the street?
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904. You want more candy over there?
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905. We have to get Grandpa,
and let Marco go home...
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906. - Where's your dad?
- In your apartment.
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907. Hopefully.
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908. Hold on.
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909. Where are they? Oh, they're that way?
They must be.
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910. - Can you see them?
- Okay.
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911. Here's what happened,
I'll tell you.
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912. You gotta get into the car,
come around that side,
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913. be really careful of the traffic.
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914. You were at the house of one of the kids,
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915. and then we sat you down
in front of the TV
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916. - 'cause you were tired.
- Right.
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917. - Then we went out...
- Yeah.
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918. ...and we came back.
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919. You left me in the house,
nobody else was there?
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920. Yeah, you were watching TV.
We left you watching TV.
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921. Well, it was different, it was a...
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922. not... not knowable place.
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923. - I hadn't been there before.
- Yeah.
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924. Anyway, you found me,
and I'm grateful for you,
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925. and grateful that you found me. Okay?
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926. - And rescuing me.
- We'll never lose you.
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927. - I hope that's right.
- Yeah.
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928. I sure could have
been lost, though.
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929. Did it feel...
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930. If you hadn't come back
with those people...
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931. I have no idea what I would've done.
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932. Oh, man, sweetie, your father is a wreck.
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933. Happy Halloween!
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934. - I'm glad you found me.
- I'm glad we found you.
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935. We built this set imagining
what Dad must have felt like
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936. when I left him all alone.
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937. But I was nervous putting him into it.
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938. It's so rare
that he's completely himself anymore.
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939. The other night, I stopped him
from leaving the apartment at 3:00 a.m.
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940. He thought he had a train to catch.
He said he was on a secret mission.
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941. But when I stepped onto the set
to lead him out,
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942. there was a moment of clarity,
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943. and we both knew
what this was really about.
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944. It was about what it was about with Mom.
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945. That I would have to leave him somewhere.
Someday. Somehow.
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946. I'll stretch the elastic.
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947. - Yep.
- Perfect.
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948. - You're a trouper. Okay.
- Yep. Yes, sir.
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949. So now just lie down
and take a real nap.
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950. - Okay.
- Put your feet up.
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951. - I can do that.
- Okay.
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952. In Adventism, after a global apocalypse,
Jesus will return to earth
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953. to resurrect His followers, the righteous,
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954. and bring them up with Him
to heaven for eternity.
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955. So in the face of death,
there's hope that everything will be okay.
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956. But what Adventism recognizes,
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957. that I've never grasped before,
is that the worst thing,
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958. the deepest fear, is being left behind.
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959. Dad, you know I'm going to,
uh, Israel tonight.
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960. Oh, I didn't know that.
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961. - You didn't know that?
- No.
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962. I thought...
I thought you remembered.
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963. No, I did not.
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964. Is it hard on you when I'm gone?
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965. Yeah, it's hard.
Well, not really. Not actually.
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966. - You know I... I miss you.
- Yeah.
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967. - Yeah.
- I miss you.
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968. Is there anything you want me to do...
Or do while you're gone?
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969. - Mmm...
- How would you like me to behave?
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970. Well, you're doing great behaving.
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971. You don't need me to tell you
how to behave.
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972. - You'll do fine.
- Well, that's why you're here.
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973. When you're here, I'm behaving greatly.
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974. What do you do
when I'm gone?
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975. That's what I'm asking you
to tell me.
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976. I don't know what to do without you.
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977. - You be careful, okay?
- I will be careful.
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978. You have this little brother
that you need to take care of.
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979. - Are you my little brother?
- I'm your little brother,
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980. who's now demented, you know?
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981. That's so cute that I'm your little
brother. You're my little brother.
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982. I'm your little brother.
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983. I'm no longer your father,
I'm your little brother.
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984. What does the little brother do?
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985. Oh, he just tags along behind.
Gets in your way.
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986. - Little brothers don't get in your way.
- They do.
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987. - Little brothers are fun.
- Are they? Okay.
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988. I love you.
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989. Mmm. Your eyes get a little, like, teary.
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990. - Yeah.
- Are those real tears,
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991. or it's just your eyes are that way?
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992. - That's real, they're real tears.
- Aw.
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993. I'm sorry to admit it.
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994. From joy. Love.
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995. That's great.
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996. What you guys have to do...
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997. ...is you each have to fill
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998. your pie plate with the chocolate first.
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999. - What do you think, Felix?
- Um, is this good?
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1000. I'm excited
you guys are making the cake
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1001. for Grandpa's 86th birthday.
Just to have forever.
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1002. - Wow, that's awesome.
- Right?
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1003. That's so cool.
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1004. - Don't look!
- Don't look.
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1005. - Did he see?
- Will you fix my TV for me?
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1006. - I don't think he saw.
- Did you see?
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1007. - What did I see? I saw...
- You saw?
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1008. ...uh, some cake.
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1009. But lucky... lucky he won't...
He will forget, right?
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1010. I think so. He won't
remember that we're making a cake.
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1011. - Don't look!
- Okay.
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1012. - Can somebody fix my TV for me?
- Leave.
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1013. - Yeah. I can.
- I'm coming.
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1014. - Thank you.
- Let's put on Kirk's show.
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1015. We find leaves both above
and below the K-T boundary,
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1016. but they're different leaves.
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1017. So there was
not only a dinosaur extinction,
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1018. but there was a major
plant extinction as well.
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1019. With little to eat, dinosaurs, mosasaurs,
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1020. and nearly 75 % of known species
go extinct.
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1021. Can you do it?
Just hold it, it's heavy.
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1022. Oh, wow!
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1023. Wow!
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1024. - I have never seen a prettier cake.
- And there's a other cake!
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1025. - Make the "8" stand up?
- I can.
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1026. - Look at that. 86, is that right?
- 86.
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1027. - It should be 88, shouldn't it?
- No.
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1028. Make a wish.
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1029. Yay!
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1030. Well done. Well done.
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1031. Yay.
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1032. - I wanna cut in the middle.
- Can I cut, too? I wanna cut.
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1033. Everyone's gonna
get a chance to cut. Wait.
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1034. - One at a time. Let her do it first.
- Wait.
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1035. Remember to save
some pieces for the people. Oh, yeah.
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1036. - That's why we're cutting so many.
- Way to go.
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1037. - My turn!
- Wow.
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1038. - Nice.
- Nicely done.
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1039. I'll tell you,
it's the best chocolate cake I ever had.
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1040. And I had a lot of chocolate cakes.
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1041. - That's true.
- I bet.
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1042. This is the best.
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1043. - Kids, what do you think?
- Wow.
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1044. Oh, who made the cake?
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1045. What do you think...
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1046. Did you eat it?
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1047. - Did you eat it?
- Yes.
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1048. Six-one-one with a notification.
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1049. We have an 86-year-old male
in cardiac arrest witnessed,
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1050. the patient's currently in V-fib,
one shock delivered,
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1051. CPR is in progress,
ETA is about six minutes.
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1052. Thank you so much.
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1053. We're gonna do a pulse check, rhythm check
after this. Not a problem, ma'am.
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1054. Analyzing now.
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1055. Still in V-fib. Jimmy, pull over,
we're gonna shock one more time.
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1056. Shock advised now.
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1057. It's still stopped,
there's one second, charging.
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1058. - Clear, clear.
- Clear? All clear.
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1059. Charged, shock delivered.
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1060. - Go ahead, Jimmy. Continue CPR.
- Ten-four.
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1061. Push analyze.
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1062. Go ahead, Jimmy.
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1063. - Three, four, five, six, seven.
- Analyzing now.
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1064. Ma'am, you gotta sit down
over there,
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1065. put on your seatbelt, for your safety.
And I will explain it while I go.
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1066. Five, six, seven, eight.
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1067. He's still in V-fib.
We're gonna shock one more time.
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1068. Did his heart stop again?
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1069. No, it's still stopped,
there's one second, charging.
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1070. - Clear. Clear?
- Clear.
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1071. One, two, three,
four, five, six, seven...
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1072. One day I was going to work,
and on the way to work,
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1073. I witnessed the suicide of a woman...
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1074. who jumped two meters ahead of me
from the bridge.
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1075. The first thing that I did when I came
to work was to send an email to...
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1076. Dick.
Uh, it had only one word in it.
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1077. It was a subject line, it said, "Help."
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1078. And he called me right away.
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1079. His ability to recognize
the hurt and the loss,
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1080. and to find the best way through that,
was something incredible.
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1081. He was the first person I called
when my husband died.
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1082. And it kind of broke my heart
a few days later when I saw him...
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1083. when he gave me a big hug...
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1084. and then five minutes later,
asked me how is my husband doing.
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1085. And I realized...
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1086. this is yet another kind of loss.
The loss of memory.
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1087. But I know one thing,
that for as long as my memory lives...
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1088. the memory of him will be in me.
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1089. Thank you.
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1090. Dick loved to attend
the many parties at our home.
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1091. He loved my tradition
of ending a party on a happy note.
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1092. Around 10:00 p.m., I would ring a bell,
get everybody's attention,
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1093. and with a loud voice, announce,
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1094. "You have eaten all my food,
you have drunk all my wine,
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1095. you said everything worth hearing,
now it's time to go home."
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1096. Before they left, I would play
a tune on my hunting horn
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1097. called "Going Away."
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1098. Boy, I gotta get through this.
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1099. Dick came over and said, "Ray...
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1100. if you outlive me,
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1101. I want you to play
'Going Away...'" Oh, God.
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1102. "I want you to play 'Going Away'
at my funeral."
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1103. I spent every Saturday
of my childhood in this church.
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1104. Mom's funeral was here.
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1105. And just before we moved Dad
from Seattle to New York,
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1106. a little over three years ago,
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1107. our family, our friends, our congregation,
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1108. all gathered with generosity and love
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1109. to let us film this farewell to Dad.
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1110. Even knowing that he was still alive.
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1111. Today is not a happy day.
I promised him I would play...
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1112. My lip muscles are weak,
my breath is limited, but, Dick,
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1113. I'll try. I'll keep my promise.
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1114. I think he thinks it's the real thing.
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1115. See you later, Dick.
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1116. Are you ready, Dad?
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1117. We were so happy
with ourselves that day.
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1118. We thought that maybe we could stop
what was coming.
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1119. That we'd found a way to hold on.
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1120. Or almost found a way.
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1121. What can you say
when you've lost a best friend?
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1122. Or a mother?
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1123. Or your best friend and your father?
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1124. All I know is that Dick Johnson is dead.
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1125. All I know is that Dick Johnson is dead.
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1126. All I can say is Dick Johnson is dead.
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1127. And all I want to say is long live,
Dick Johnson.
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