1. How are you?Copy !req
2. Didn't we just talk about that?Copy !req
3. That was yesterday.Copy !req
4. Today is Tuesday.Copy !req
5. So I've been here long?Copy !req
6. A month.Copy !req
7. Wayne SaysCopy !req
8. My grief pattern is atypicalCopy !req
9. YeahCopy !req
10. Got to talk with Wayne.Copy !req
11. I think he gives too much medication
Way too muchCopy !req
12. Stop it, please.Copy !req
13. trust on this to be smarter than you.Copy !req
14. He strayed out of medical school
He don't know what he's doingCopy !req
15. I've treated ten tenths
as many patients as he hasCopy !req
16. But you're not a doctor.Copy !req
17. No, I'm notCopy !req
18. And I'm proud that I'm not a doctor like him.Copy !req
19. There is nothing ...Copy !req
20. atypical about your griefCopy !req
21. It was my fault.Copy !req
22. What about me?Copy !req
23. I was there too.Copy !req
24. I could have stopped him.Copy !req
25. No.Copy !req
26. You didn't know that he...Copy !req
27. Started waking up latelyCopy !req
28. I was aware that he would sometimes ...Copy !req
29. wake upCopy !req
30. And crawl out of bedCopy !req
31. And walk aboutCopy !req
32. Just as you thought that
he was soundly asleepCopy !req
33. He could open the baby gateCopy !req
34. He ...Copy !req
35. He woke up ...Copy !req
36. And w...Copy !req
37. Was confusedCopy !req
38. Hey!Copy !req
39. Dr. Wayne says he won't be back home.Copy !req
40. You couldn't leave it, could you?Copy !req
41. You had to mettle.Copy !req
42. This place leads nowhere.Copy !req
43. On the contrary ...Copy !req
44. GriefCopy !req
45. It's not a disease ...Copy !req
46. It's a natural healthy reaction.Copy !req
47. You can't just remove it
You mustn't ...Copy !req
48. Wayne knows you're a therapistCopy !req
49. He said you shouldn't treat your own familyCopy !req
50. In principle I agree, but ...Copy !req
51. But you're just so much smarterCopy !req
52. Aren't you?Copy !req
53. I love you.Copy !req
54. Nothing hurts more than
to see the one thy in love ...Copy !req
55. Subjected to mistakes and wrongsCopy !req
56. No therapist can know
as much about you as I doCopy !req
57. - It hurts.
- I know.Copy !req
58. There's no way around it.Copy !req
59. I want to talk to ...Copy !req
60. I'm not gonna let you do that.Copy !req
61. Why not just go all alone?Copy !req
62. No.Copy !req
63. A little change.Copy !req
64. Wouldn't get any worse ...Copy !req
65. Yes, it will.Copy !req
66. You're always been distant from me and NickCopy !req
67. Ever I come to think of itCopy !req
68. Very very distantCopy !req
69. OkayCopy !req
70. Can you give me some examples
from this?Copy !req
71. Hell, That's not that difficult to understand.Copy !req
72. I've lost someone, for instance...Copy !req
73. You terribly distant lost someoneCopy !req
74. As a father ...Copy !req
75. And as a husband.Copy !req
76. And that was Nick's last summerCopy !req
77. you missed that onCopy !req
78. Too badCopy !req
79. I never interested you.Copy !req
80. Until now.Copy !req
81. That I'm your patient.Copy !req
82. Perhaps I'm not supposed
to talk about these thingsCopy !req
83. There is nothing you can't talk aboutCopy !req
84. You are indifferent
to whether your child is alive or deadCopy !req
85. I bet you have a lot of
clever therapist replies to that.Copy !req
86. Haven't you?Copy !req
87. Well, actually ...Copy !req
88. It was to ...Copy !req
89. Honor your wish.Copy !req
90. You wanted peace to write.Copy !req
91. Perhaps I didn't mean itCopy !req
92. What I understood ...Copy !req
93. Is that you want me to ride aloneCopy !req
94. That you and Nick,
were going to go to Eden.Copy !req
95. Just the two of youCopy !req
96. That way
you could finish your thesisCopy !req
97. But I didn'tCopy !req
98. You didn't?Copy !req
99. You see?Copy !req
100. You didn't even know that.Copy !req
101. Why did you give up?
That's not like youCopy !req
102. The hope project Just seemed ...
Less important upthere.Copy !req
103. As you said,
When I like told you about my subject...Copy !req
104. GlibCopy !req
105. I never called your subject glibCopy !req
106. Perhaps you didn't use that word,
but that's what you meant.Copy !req
107. And all of a sudden
It was glibCopy !req
108. Or even was ...
some kind of lie.Copy !req
109. I seeCopy !req
110. No, You don't see.Copy !req
111. You see a lot of thingsCopy !req
112. But not that.Copy !req
113. Inhale...
On a count of fiveCopy !req
114. Call me, call me.Copy !req
115. Just ... Follow me ...Copy !req
116. Do it with me ... Inhale ...Copy !req
117. Inhale ...Copy !req
118. on a count to five ...Copy !req
119. Inhale... TwoCopy !req
120. Stay with me ...Copy !req
121. Stay with me ...
I'm Gonna teach you how to breathe.Copy !req
122. Inhale ...Copy !req
123. 2 ... 3 ...Copy !req
124. 4, 5, hold.Copy !req
125. 2 ... 3 ...Copy !req
126. 4, 5, exhale ...Copy !req
127. Good.Copy !req
128. Imagine ...Copy !req
129. Imagine you're blowing on your ...Copy !req
130. Vessel plumbsCopy !req
131. Calmly, quietly ...Copy !req
132. Yes, yes, that's good.Copy !req
133. That's good.Copy !req
134. That's very good.Copy !req
135. I told you there would be a change.Copy !req
136. You're still mourning
but you're in a new phase.Copy !req
137. What phase?Copy !req
138. Anxiety.Copy !req
139. Anxiety.Copy !req
140. YesCopy !req
141. This is physical.Copy !req
142. It's dangerous.Copy !req
143. No, it's not dangerous.Copy !req
144. Just as your grief wasn't dangerousCopy !req
145. a main part of anxietyCopy !req
146. Is physicalCopy !req
147. Dizzy spellsCopy !req
148. Dry mouth ...Copy !req
149. misguided hearing ...Copy !req
150. TremblingCopy !req
151. Heavy breathing ...Copy !req
152. Less pulse ...Copy !req
153. Nausea ...Copy !req
154. Hey!Copy !req
155. Easy ...Copy !req
156. Never screw your therapist.Copy !req
157. No matter how much
your therapist may like itCopy !req
158. I know that distracts you, but ...Copy !req
159. It's not good for us.Copy !req
160. Do the breathing.Copy !req
161. HoldCopy !req
162. ExhaleCopy !req
163. You love me?Copy !req
164. Yes, I doCopy !req
165. Then help me.Copy !req
166. It's what I'm doingCopy !req
167. ExposureCopy !req
168. That's the only thing that really works ...Copy !req
169. Everything else is ...Copy !req
170. Just talkCopy !req
171. You have to have the courage
to stay in the situation that frightens you.Copy !req
172. And then you'll learn
that fear isn't dangerous.Copy !req
173. Let's make a list of things
you're afraid of.Copy !req
174. In the top
You put the situation you fear the mostCopy !req
175. But I don't know
what I'm afraid ofCopy !req
176. Just ... take your time.Copy !req
177. I'm thinking.Copy !req
178. OkayCopy !req
179. I'm thinking, but ...Copy !req
180. Can't I just be afraid
without a definite object?Copy !req
181. No, no!Copy !req
182. This won't doCopy !req
183. Stupe Stupidest thing I could do to youCopy !req
184. If you can't tell me ...Copy !req
185. What your fear's of.Copy !req
186. Maybe it would be easier for you to tell meCopy !req
187. Where you're afraid?Copy !req
188. Where would you feel most exposed?Copy !req
189. What would be the worst place?Copy !req
190. An apartment?Copy !req
191. The street?Copy !req
192. A store?Copy !req
193. The park?Copy !req
194. Listening to someone, maybe.Copy !req
195. The woods.Copy !req
196. The woods?Copy !req
197. The woods, yes.Copy !req
198. It's funny because ...Copy !req
199. you were the one that always wanted
to go into the woodsCopy !req
200. What scares you about the woods?
What frightens you... there?Copy !req
201. EverythingCopy !req
202. Tell me what you think
is supposed to happen in the woods.Copy !req
203. Eh?Copy !req
204. Is it any woods in particular?Copy !req
205. Eden.Copy !req
206. Eden?Copy !req
207. What do you say we put...Copy !req
208. A garden round Eden
at the top of the pyramid?Copy !req
209. No.Copy !req
210. Not quite at the top.Copy !req
211. No.Copy !req
212. OkayCopy !req
213. It's... It's okayCopy !req
214. - I'm sorry
- It's okayCopy !req
215. We can start by working on your expectationsCopy !req
216. Close your eyes.Copy !req
217. Feel the seat underneath you.Copy !req
218. Feel yourself sinking down into itCopy !req
219. Folding you ...Copy !req
220. It's a nice feeling.Copy !req
221. What you feel is a pleasant warmthCopy !req
222. and heavinessCopy !req
223. your breath... is deepCopy !req
224. I gather
You sink ...Copy !req
225. Down ...Copy !req
226. Imagine you're at Eden.Copy !req
227. Imagine you arrived
at Eden through the woods.Copy !req
228. Tell me what you see?Copy !req
229. I'm at the bridge.Copy !req
230. It's eveningCopy !req
231. Almost no voice can be heard.Copy !req
232. The water is running without a sound.Copy !req
233. Darkness comes out anytime hereCopy !req
234. I walk into itCopy !req
235. The little deers ... are hiding.Copy !req
236. Among their friends. As usual.Copy !req
237. Is it Difficult to go upthere?Copy !req
238. No.Copy !req
239. Not really.Copy !req
240. That is almost okayCopy !req
241. In a mountain of trees ...Copy !req
242. AlmostyCopy !req
243. There's a built foxholeCopy !req
244. How do you feel there?Copy !req
245. I can't really tell.Copy !req
246. It should be easy ...Copy !req
247. passingCopy !req
248. And yet ...Copy !req
249. It's like walking through mud.Copy !req
250. The trunk is thickCopy !req
251. It has some strange kind of personality.Copy !req
252. I've always found that.Copy !req
253. No.Copy !req
254. Where are you, are you...?
Are you heading for the cabin?Copy !req
255. Yes, I amCopy !req
256. I'm walking up above ...Copy !req
257. Through the tall grass ...Copy !req
258. Then don't come in.Copy !req
259. Don't go in.Copy !req
260. You see outside you're afraid ofCopy !req
261. Don't look around ...Copy !req
262. No.Copy !req
263. Lie down on the green.Copy !req
264. You want me to lie down?Copy !req
265. Lie down on the grass.Copy !req
266. On top of all the plants?Copy !req
267. Yes, lie down on the plants.Copy !req
268. Are you lying down?Copy !req
269. YesCopy !req
270. GoodCopy !req
271. What is everything like around you?Copy !req
272. Green.Copy !req
273. It's all very green.Copy !req
274. GoodCopy !req
275. Now will you do what I ask you?Copy !req
276. YesCopy !req
277. What do you want me to do?Copy !req
278. I want you...Copy !req
279. To melt... into the green.Copy !req
280. Don't fight it.Copy !req
281. Just ...Copy !req
282. Turn green.Copy !req
283. No matter what happens
you were there. You did it.Copy !req
284. Let fear come, if it likes.Copy !req
285. Remember.Copy !req
286. But the mind can concieve
and believe it can achieveCopy !req
287. What's wrong?Copy !req
288. Ground is burning.Copy !req
289. The ground is not burning.Copy !req
290. Gotta go.Copy !req
291. I want to lie down.Copy !req
292. Just for a minute.Copy !req
293. Sure.Copy !req
294. Yea. We'll take a rest.Copy !req
295. Shouldn't we go home?Copy !req
296. YeahCopy !req
297. Yeah, we should.Copy !req
298. Scared?Copy !req
299. Stay awake for me.Copy !req
300. RelaxCopy !req
301. Stay ... stay in there.Copy !req
302. It's just stupid acornsCopy !req
303. What are you doing?Copy !req
304. I'm just ...Copy !req
305. Setting up... a little exercise.Copy !req
306. It's... It's like a ...Copy !req
307. It's like a game.Copy !req
308. You cheated me yesterday.Copy !req
309. Running is not good.Copy !req
310. You have to
really feel the grass.Copy !req
311. I want you to go from this stone ...Copy !req
312. To this stone.Copy !req
313. Pretty scary, huh?Copy !req
314. You're ready?Copy !req
315. YeaCopy !req
316. I'll give you a ride.Copy !req
317. I'll put you on the first stone.Copy !req
318. Stay with meCopy !req
319. Here we goCopy !req
320. Put your foot down
I got you.Copy !req
321. I got you
I'm right here.Copy !req
322. I can't do this.Copy !req
323. Yes, you can.Copy !req
324. You can and you will.Copy !req
325. Just like I will.Copy !req
326. We're gonna walk together.Copy !req
327. We're gonna walk together, okay?Copy !req
328. Now ...Copy !req
329. Alright now, Breathe.Copy !req
330. Let's step off the rock.Copy !req
331. And step on that grass.Copy !req
332. Step downCopy !req
333. See? What happened?Copy !req
334. Keep breathing ...
See? Keep breathingCopy !req
335. I've got youCopy !req
336. You're really doing greatCopy !req
337. Okay? keep breathing.Copy !req
338. Five, five and five.Copy !req
339. You're almost there.Copy !req
340. You're almost there
You're doing greatCopy !req
341. Five.Copy !req
342. We're there ... We are thereCopy !req
343. Here, told youCopy !req
344. You did itCopy !req
345. You learned something.Copy !req
346. Didn't you?Copy !req
347. You did beautiful.Copy !req
348. You did beautiful.Copy !req
349. I miss him so much ...Copy !req
350. I've been afraid of here before.Copy !req
351. Yes, it seems likely.Copy !req
352. I just didn't know it was fear.Copy !req
353. I became afraid
and I stopped writing.Copy !req
354. What was different ... the last time?Copy !req
355. I heard a sound.Copy !req
356. Nick?Copy !req
357. Nick!Copy !req
358. Nick!Copy !req
359. Nick!Copy !req
360. Nick!Copy !req
361. You didn't hear Nick screaming.Copy !req
362. Apparently not.Copy !req
363. And because you experienced
something that you can't explain rationally,Copy !req
364. You placed
Eden very high on the pyramid chart.Copy !req
365. Eden was the catalyst
that triggered your fear.Copy !req
366. You jumped to conclusions.Copy !req
367. Entitled the emotional event with a place.Copy !req
368. When you feel threat
It's natural to react.Copy !req
369. If the danger were real ...Copy !req
370. Your fear would save your life.Copy !req
371. Because your adrenaline will be used
for fight or flight.Copy !req
372. But what you're experiencing
is panic, nothing more.Copy !req
373. The scream wasn't realCopy !req
374. Stop!Copy !req
375. Calm down.Copy !req
376. You shouldn't have come here.Copy !req
377. You're just so damn arrogant.Copy !req
378. But this may not last.Copy !req
379. Have you thought of that?Copy !req
380. Oak trees grow to be hundreds of years oldCopy !req
381. They only have to produce
one single tree, every hundred years.Copy !req
382. In order to perpetuate ...Copy !req
383. May sound benign to you but ...Copy !req
384. It was a big thing for me to realize that
when I was out here with Nick.Copy !req
385. The acorns fell on the roof then too...Copy !req
386. Kept falling, and fallingCopy !req
387. And dying ... and dying.Copy !req
388. And I understood that ...Copy !req
389. Everything that used to be beautiful about EdenCopy !req
390. Was perhaps hideousCopy !req
391. Now I could hear
what I couldn't hear before.Copy !req
392. The cry of... all the things that are to dieCopy !req
393. It's all...Copy !req
394. very touchingCopy !req
395. If it was a children's book.Copy !req
396. acorns don't cryCopy !req
397. You know that as well as I do.Copy !req
398. That's what fear is.Copy !req
399. Your thoughts distort reality.Copy !req
400. Look the other way around ...Copy !req
401. Satan's ChurchCopy !req
402. Satan? Jesus!Copy !req
403. Nature is Satan's Church.Copy !req
404. What?Copy !req
405. Well, there you have himCopy !req
406. That was his brother.Copy !req
407. Nick?Copy !req
408. He drifted away from me the last time.Copy !req
409. He was always out and about...Copy !req
410. He might have made more of an effort
to be there for me.Copy !req
411. You look like you slept well.Copy !req
412. Thanks, I did.Copy !req
413. I just wanted to say how happy
I am that you're here ...Copy !req
414. I love you darling...Copy !req
415. Did you have a good sleep?Copy !req
416. I've just been having a lot of ...Copy !req
417. crazy dreams ...Copy !req
418. Dreams are of no interest
in modern psychology.Copy !req
419. Freud is dead, isn't he?Copy !req
420. What are you doing?Copy !req
421. Look!Copy !req
422. I'm well again.Copy !req
423. I'm cured.Copy !req
424. See? perfect.Copy !req
425. I'm fine.Copy !req
426. You can't just be happy for me, can you?Copy !req
427. Chaos ... reignsCopy !req
428. Chapter Three: The despairCopy !req
429. I want to do one more excercise.Copy !req
430. It's like a role play.Copy !req
431. My role ...Copy !req
432. Is ..Copy !req
433. All the thoughts
that provoke your fear ...Copy !req
434. Yours ...Copy !req
435. is rational thinking.Copy !req
436. I am nature ...Copy !req
437. All the things that you call nature.Copy !req
438. Okay Mr. NatureCopy !req
439. what do you want?Copy !req
440. To hurt you as much as I can.Copy !req
441. How?Copy !req
442. How do you think?Copy !req
443. By Frightening me?Copy !req
444. By killing you.Copy !req
445. Nature can't hurt me.Copy !req
446. You just told you're the green in the outside...Copy !req
447. No, I'm more than that.Copy !req
448. I don't understand.Copy !req
449. I'm outside, but also...Copy !req
450. withinCopy !req
451. I'm nature of all human beingsCopy !req
452. Oh, That kind of nature.Copy !req
453. The kind of nature that...Copy !req
454. Causes people do
the evil things against womenCopy !req
455. That's exactly who I am.Copy !req
456. That kind of nature interested me a lot.Copy !req
457. When I was uphereCopy !req
458. That kind of nature
was the subject to my thesis ...Copy !req
459. But you shouldn't underestimate Eden.Copy !req
460. What did Eden do?Copy !req
461. I discovered somethng else
in my material than I expected.Copy !req
462. If human nature is evil...Copy !req
463. Then that goes as well...Copy !req
464. That the nature ...Copy !req
465. of the women.Copy !req
466. Female nature.Copy !req
467. The nature of all the sisters.Copy !req
468. Women do not
control their own bodiesCopy !req
469. Nature does.Copy !req
470. I have it in writing in my books.Copy !req
471. The literature you used
in your office search...Copy !req
472. Was about evil things
committed against women.Copy !req
473. But you read it as proof
of the evil of women?Copy !req
474. You were supposed to be critical of those says
That was your thesisCopy !req
475. Instead you're embracing itCopy !req
476. Do you know what you're saying?Copy !req
477. Forget it.Copy !req
478. I do not know why I said it.Copy !req
479. It can't work anymore now.Copy !req
480. Hit me.Copy !req
481. What?Copy !req
482. Hit me so it hurts ...Copy !req
483. No.Copy !req
484. Hit me, please.Copy !req
485. No!Copy !req
486. I can't stand itCopy !req
487. I do not want toCopy !req
488. I do not want to...Copy !req
489. Then you don't love me.Copy !req
490. OkayCopy !req
491. Maybe I don't love you.Copy !req
492. YeahCopy !req
493. Again ...Copy !req
494. Again.Copy !req
495. This is too from nature's spell ...Copy !req
496. Could start a hail storm ...Copy !req
497. I'm not gonna continue this
if you don't listen to me.Copy !req
498. Good... and evil.Copy !req
499. Have nothing to do with therapy.Copy !req
500. You know how many innocent women were
killed in the sixteenth century aloneCopy !req
501. just for being women?Copy !req
502. I'm sure you do... Many.Copy !req
503. Not because they were evil...Copy !req
504. I know.Copy !req
505. It's just sometimes I forget.Copy !req
506. The evil you talk about is an obsession.Copy !req
507. Obsessions never materialize.
It's a scientific fact.Copy !req
508. Anxieties can't trick you into doing things
you won't do otherwise...Copy !req
509. It's like hypnotizing youCopy !req
510. You can't be hypnotized into doin
something you wouldn't...Copy !req
511. Normally do.
Something against your nature.Copy !req
512. You understand me?Copy !req
513. Yeah, I think so.Copy !req
514. You think so?
You don't have to understand me, just trust me.Copy !req
515. What's this?Copy !req
516. It's from the medical officer
It's a copy of the autopsy report.Copy !req
517. The autopsy?Copy !req
518. They performed an autopsy?Copy !req
519. I didn't wanna tell you,
because you weren't feeling well.Copy !req
520. WellCopy !req
521. What did they find?Copy !req
522. Nothing that would have any ...Copy !req
523. bearing on the case.Copy !req
524. The only abnormalityCopy !req
525. in the victim is a slight deformityCopy !req
526. of the bones in his feet,
of an earlier dateCopy !req
527. We did not attention a significance to this.Copy !req
528. You were rather to put Nick's shoes on
wrong in this picture?Copy !req
529. WellCopy !req
530. How I would?Copy !req
531. A slip of the mind that day?Copy !req
532. I wishCopy !req
533. Herself.Copy !req
534. Bastard.
You're leaving me, aren't you?Copy !req
535. get off me, bastard.Copy !req
536. You're leaving me.Copy !req
537. I'm not.Copy !req
538. I'm helping you.Copy !req
539. - You're leaving me, aren't you?
- No!Copy !req
540. - I love you.
- I don't believe you!Copy !req
541. YesCopy !req
542. I don't believe you!Copy !req
543. I don't fucking believe you!Copy !req
544. Where are you?Copy !req
545. You bastard!Copy !req
546. Where are you?Copy !req
547. Where are you?Copy !req
548. Where are you?Copy !req
549. Where are you?Copy !req
550. You bastard!Copy !req
551. Where are you?Copy !req
552. Where are you?Copy !req
553. How dare you leave me?Copy !req
554. You said you wanted to help me.Copy !req
555. Where are you?Copy !req
556. Where are you?Copy !req
557. Where are you?Copy !req
558. You bastard!Copy !req
559. Get out!Copy !req
560. Get out! You bastard!Copy !req
561. Get out!Copy !req
562. You bastard!Copy !req
563. Get out!Copy !req
564. Get out!Copy !req
565. Get out!Copy !req
566. You bastard!Copy !req
567. Get out!Copy !req
568. Sorry.Copy !req
569. You gotta get this thing off... my legCopy !req
570. I can't find the wrench.Copy !req
571. Did you want to kill me?Copy !req
572. Not yetCopy !req
573. The three beggars aren't here yet.Copy !req
574. The three beggars?Copy !req
575. What does that mean?Copy !req
576. When the three beggars arrive ...Copy !req
577. Someone must die.Copy !req
578. I see.Copy !req
579. The crying woman
is a scheming woman.Copy !req
580. False in legs
False in thighsCopy !req
581. False in breasts
Teeth, hair and eyesCopy !req
582. Hold meCopy !req
583. Hold meCopy !req
584. There is no such constellation.Copy !req
585. None of it is any useCopy !req
586. Not good.Copy !req
587. No!Copy !req