1. The fear in her eyes and
the knife in the chestCopy !req
2. That's my last memory of my motherCopy !req
3. That's why I had to go
to prison for four yearsCopy !req
4. Even though she survived itCopy !req
5. After that it went good for a whileCopy !req
6. Until I met that 70 year oldCopy !req
7. "Oh my god" were her last wordsCopy !req
8. Then she was deadCopy !req
9. I didn't know her and I didn't steal anythingCopy !req
10. That damned idea was suddenly thereCopy !req
11. I just had toCopy !req
12. I couldn't explain itCopy !req
13. So I went to prison for 10 yearsCopy !req
14. Then the psychologists got interested
in my inner lifeCopy !req
15. When they asked me about my dreams,
I told them about flowersCopy !req
16. FlowersCopy !req
17. Always just flowersCopy !req
18. Apart from that, I could phantasize
in my mind whatever I wantedCopy !req
19. It helped me control this urge to...Copy !req
20. Just let it all outCopy !req
21. Prison exists so one
can better oneselfCopy !req
22. But that urge to torture a human,
that's one thing I never could get rid ofCopy !req
23. If you sum everything upCopy !req
24. Then I've been behind bars more than
half of my lifeCopy !req
25. Only, I never commited a crime
out of pure joyCopy !req
26. There was always a little something,
that was added to it.Copy !req
27. I knew: It will happen againCopy !req
28. It has toCopy !req
29. But this time they won't get meCopy !req
30. Nobody came to pick me upCopy !req
31. No family
NothingCopy !req
32. I would've been to excited anywayCopy !req
33. I couldn't sleep the whole last nightCopy !req
34. Finally freeCopy !req
35. I already had a concrete planCopy !req
36. The details were all fixedCopy !req
37. Now it was only neccesary to find somebodyCopy !req
38. But I didn't know where I wasCopy !req
39. I've lived in this town for 10 yearsCopy !req
40. Only, behind bars you can't get
to know a cityCopy !req
41. My first question was: "Where to?"Copy !req
42. I thought. Where can you meet somebody?Copy !req
43. So I went to the first Café that was openCopy !req
44. There were really two sitting thereCopy !req
45. They were still pretty youngCopy !req
46. But that would've workedCopy !req
47. I felt a bit awkward, dressed as I wasCopy !req
48. But after 10 years of prison,
you can't be dressed modernCopy !req
49. They stared at meCopy !req
50. I was on it immediatelyCopy !req
51. They literally provoked meCopy !req
52. My fantasy immediately began to go wildCopy !req
53. I wondered how I could approach themCopy !req
54. That excited me enormouslyCopy !req
55. I immediately imagined the greatest thingsCopy !req
56. But it would've caused too much
attention in the CaféCopy !req
57. Everybody could've heard usCopy !req
58. That wasn't a good opportunityCopy !req
59. It was absolutely neccesary to find
a quiet placeCopy !req
60. and everything would've gone by itselfCopy !req
61. Then a coincidence helped meCopy !req
62. Where to?Copy !req
63. Straigt ahead, pleaseCopy !req
64. The opportunity in the Texi was just greatCopy !req
65. It shouldn't be a robbery,
I wasn't interested in moneyCopy !req
66. That woman reminded me of my
first girlfriend, Anna-MarieCopy !req
67. A real whoreCopy !req
68. I was 14 at the time, and she was
significantly older than meCopy !req
69. She nearly could've been my motherCopy !req
70. We sat on a bench in the parkCopy !req
71. I had to remove a shoeCopy !req
72. - She took the shoe away from me...
- What are you doing?Copy !req
73. and she only would return it to meCopy !req
74. - ... if I gave her a kiss
- What are you doing there?Copy !req
75. Anna-Marie then took me home with herCopy !req
76. She seduced meCopy !req
77. That's when I was able to get active
for the first timeCopy !req
78. First I tied her up, then sealed
her mouth shut...Copy !req
79. Then I hit herCopy !req
80. With a belt and later with a real whipCopy !req
81. She couldn't get enoughCopy !req
82. I really enjoyed itCopy !req
83. I became that Anna-Marie's slave,
and it really excited meCopy !req
84. What are you doing there?Copy !req
85. Nobody had followed meCopy !req
86. Where to and how long I'd run, I don't knowCopy !req
87. I didn't know that areaCopy !req
88. I'd never been thereCopy !req
89. The house seemed desolate to meCopy !req
90. I wasn't sure if somebody would live in thereCopy !req
91. I noticed nobodyCopy !req
92. and didn't hear anythingCopy !req
93. No human soul aroundCopy !req
94. I thought, that's a paradise for meCopy !req
95. The house was well protected
by the park and the treesCopy !req
96. I didn't have to be afraid of neighbours hereCopy !req
97. The locatin was perfectCopy !req
98. No danger of being spotted hereCopy !req
99. I could hardly breatheCopy !req
100. I was incredibly excitedCopy !req
101. The opportunity to meet someone in here...Copy !req
102. nearly made me go madCopy !req
103. I thought I couldn't take it much longerCopy !req
104. I was sure someone lived in hereCopy !req
105. My victimsCopy !req
106. I was afraidCopy !req
107. Da-dy?Copy !req
108. Not of the lawCopy !req
109. I was in a state of mind that excluded
every kind of logicCopy !req
110. I was afraid of myselfCopy !req
111. Already earlier in my life,
I had been in great fearCopy !req
112. For example, as a child it was impossible for
me to be alone in a roomCopy !req
113. My grandmother once locked me alone in the
dark room for a whole nightCopy !req
114. I thought she was trying to kill meCopy !req
115. That I'd die of fearCopy !req
116. The only thing that helped me
were those soundsCopy !req
117. What luck I hadCopy !req
118. What luck I hadCopy !req
119. This house was perfect for meCopy !req
120. My plan would workCopy !req
121. MommyCopy !req
122. Daddy is hereCopy !req
123. Don't be stupid, he's long been deadCopy !req
124. As a child, I always had to fear for my lifeCopy !req
125. First my mother threw out my fatherCopy !req
126. Then she lived with another manCopy !req
127. My stepfatherCopy !req
128. And she tried to kill meCopy !req
129. She winded me in wet diapersCopy !req
130. and put me in front of
the open windowCopy !req
131. I should get cold at the windows
and freeze to deathCopy !req
132. Sylvia!Copy !req
133. SylviaCopy !req
134. SylviaCopy !req
135. I was never safe of my motherCopy !req
136. She hated boysCopy !req
137. For my mother, I was only an attempt
to get a girlCopy !req
138. She didn't want a boy like meCopy !req
139. She developed a real infatuation
for my sisterCopy !req
140. I didn't exist for herCopy !req
141. My sister could do with me
whatever she wantedCopy !req
142. My mother always just laughedCopy !req
143. But one time, I caught my sister aloneCopy !req
144. I really gave it to her thenCopy !req
145. I wanted to hit her until she was deadCopy !req
146. In her eyes I saw that she was afraid of meCopy !req
147. That excited me enormouslyCopy !req
148. Because my mother didn't want me,
I grew up at my grandmother'sCopy !req
149. But she always just said that she
had to be ashamed of meCopy !req
150. That I was a shame for the whole familyCopy !req
151. Because I was a illegitimate childCopy !req
152. She was incredibly religiousCopy !req
153. and to purge the guilt,
she sent me to a conventCopy !req
154. I didn't want toCopy !req
155. But I had to become a priestCopy !req
156. Whe students lived in that conventCopy !req
157. and the nuns and priests had a farm thereCopy !req
158. There were all kinds of animals thereCopy !req
159. One afternoon, I secretly snuck into the barnCopy !req
160. and used a knife until the blood fleowCopy !req
161. It was a pigCopy !req
162. It was afraid of me and squeaked so loudly
that the nuns came and caught meCopy !req
163. After this incident I had to leave
the conventCopy !req
164. For my grandmother, a world collapsedCopy !req
165. She was so religious...Copy !req
166. No I was no longer allowed to become a priestCopy !req
167. After the incident ant the convent,
my mother saidCopy !req
168. that my family had to be afraid of meCopy !req
169. For her, I now was a monsterCopy !req
170. She punished me by not letting
me back to my grandmotherCopy !req
171. That was because my stepfather decided
to take over my ubringingCopy !req
172. But he hated meCopy !req
173. He was always good to my sisterCopy !req
174. He only couldn't stand meCopy !req
175. She was never treated badlyCopy !req
176. One time, he hit me so badly, that I had
to crawl on the floorCopy !req
177. My mother and my sister just stood there
and laughed at meCopy !req
178. I wanted to take revenge on my stepfatherCopy !req
179. I wanted to kill him, out of rageCopy !req
180. Da-dyCopy !req
181. But I was too weakCopy !req
182. So I had to run away from homeCopy !req
183. I slept in the parkCopy !req
184. There I observed a swanCopy !req
185. First I strangled itCopy !req
186. Then I cut off its headCopy !req
187. It was expelled by his group and
didn't go back into the waterCopy !req
188. It lived all by itself in a corner
of the parkCopy !req
189. It liked humans very muchCopy !req
190. But it was afraid of meCopy !req
191. I imagined, that I was taking my revenge thenCopy !req
192. Everything went wrongCopy !req
193. Everything happened to fastCopy !req
194. I had it imagined totally differentlyCopy !req
195. Much much more dramaticCopy !req
196. At least now I wanted to stick to my planCopy !req
197. First the mother should visit her dead sonCopy !req
198. She should observe very carefullyCopy !req
199. how he no longer could moveCopy !req
200. That would teach her some respectCopy !req
201. But... she wasn't moving anymore herselfCopy !req
202. I thought she was playing a trick on meCopy !req
203. Like a fox that pretends to be deadCopy !req
204. I really thought she was simulatingCopy !req
205. Then I noticed that there was really
something wrong with herCopy !req
206. Nobody can act that wellCopy !req
207. That's impossibleCopy !req
208. But she shouldn't be unconsciousCopy !req
209. She had to experience every phase
very thoroughlyCopy !req
210. I had lost controlCopy !req
211. A catastrophe!Copy !req
212. That couldn't happen to meCopy !req
213. What are you doing?Copy !req
214. Mother is illCopy !req
215. She needs her medicineCopy !req
216. In the kitchenCopy !req
217. - She could help me
- PleaseCopy !req
218. The old one had to stay concscious
no matter whatCopy !req
219. I wanted to strangle her after allCopy !req
220. And the daughter should watch
how her mother slowly diedCopy !req
221. She should see what it meant to dieCopy !req
222. The young one tried to get meCopy !req
223. Either she liked me that much or she
was just trying to rescue herselfCopy !req
224. But that didn't matter, she just
didn't know it yetCopy !req
225. I had planned something very special for herCopy !req
226. She would take the most, that was obviousCopy !req
227. The thing with her is going to be
very specialCopy !req
228. In the kitchen I had already noticed
various toolsCopy !req
229. With her, I'll do it in the most
precise mannerCopy !req
230. Exactly that, what I had always imaginedCopy !req
231. But first I had to get up the old oneCopy !req
232. She had to gain consciousness againCopy !req
233. After all, she was supposed to
whimmer and be afraid of meCopy !req
234. Then the daughter would have to watch
how she would dieCopy !req
235. She can't give upCopy !req
236. Just like thatCopy !req
237. I finished herCopy !req
238. Now only the girl was left to meCopy !req
239. You!Copy !req
240. YouCopy !req
241. YouCopy !req
242. YouCopy !req
243. You... YouCopy !req
244. I didn't want to leave the corpses in
the house like thatCopy !req
245. I decided to take the family with meCopy !req
246. The thought that I could have the corpses
with me all the timeCopy !req
247. excited me tremendouslyCopy !req
248. I no case would I leave without themCopy !req
249. I had my plans with the corpsesCopy !req
250. I was determined that this all was only
the beginningCopy !req
251. I wanted to live out my fantasiesCopy !req
252. At that moment, I didn't care where that
would leadCopy !req
253. I didn't think about it at allCopy !req
254. I wanted to get new victims
as soon as possibleCopy !req
255. I was crazy about itCopy !req
256. I made a new planCopy !req
257. I wanted to show the corpses to
the new victimsCopy !req
258. I was convinced that I could really scare
them with thatCopy !req
259. I had the idea, that I lock the new victims
together with the corpsesCopy !req
260. That would scare them enormouslyCopy !req
261. Some would surely die of fearCopy !req
262. They couldn't stand being tortured that wayCopy !req
263. And then I would finish them offCopy !req
264. After the act I felt very wellCopy !req
265. My head felt lighterCopy !req
266. Also my whole body felt lighterCopy !req
267. I thought that everything I did was
easier nowCopy !req
268. As if I was floatingCopy !req
269. I was in a bright, yes even cheerful moodCopy !req
270. Of course I knew that this state of mind...Copy !req
271. . that this relief wouldn't last longCopy !req
272. That this urge would returnCopy !req
273. Hey!Copy !req
274. Hey!Copy !req
275. Hey, get out of there!Copy !req
276. Get out of there already!Copy !req
277. Hey!Copy !req
278. Come on!Copy !req
279. I can't pity the victimsCopy !req
280. I wanted to continue to murderCopy !req
281. I already had a perfect planCopy !req
282. The two women were sitting there againCopy !req
283. I was on it immediatelyCopy !req
284. My fantasy immediately began to go wildCopy !req
285. It was irresistibleCopy !req
286. Just phantasticCopy !req
287. I thoughtCopy !req
288. How could I approach them?Copy !req
289. Then I decided:Copy !req
290. I'll take them allCopy !req
291. I'll take all four of them right now
right hereCopy !req
292. Show me your registrationCopy !req
293. I don't have anything to do it with!Copy !req
294. The registration!Copy !req
295. I got that car from someone else,
I don't know how that happenedCopy !req
296. - I don't care, show me your registration
- I...Copy !req
297. What now?Copy !req
298. Do you have a registration or don't you?
- It's not my fault, that's not my car...Copy !req
299. I don't care, show me your registrationCopy !req
300. The moment was very enthrallingCopy !req
301. It really excited meCopy !req
302. - But I don't have anything to do with it!
- Open up the trunk!Copy !req
303. Now everybody's going to be scared to deathCopy !req
304. Now everybody is afraid of meCopy !req
305. I'm famousCopy !req
306. It's a pity about those girls, though...Copy !req
307. That would've been a nice tangoCopy !req
308. Excerpt from the psychiatric opinionCopy !req
309. The patient planned and commited
the crime consciouslyCopy !req
310. to get physical satisfactionCopy !req
311. His personality is labile and perverseCopy !req
312. The worst mental disorder is a pronounced
sadismCopy !req
313. A mental illnes wasn't diagnosed, thoughCopy !req
314. That by hurting somebody and by
using violenceCopy !req
315. on other people, he could get
sexually excitedCopy !req
316. is known to the patient since
earliest childhoodCopy !req
317. His relation to society is severy disturbedCopy !req
318. This is because already as a baby he was
abandoned by the motherCopy !req
319. and would later never know a stable familyCopy !req
320. The patient is 100% responsible...Copy !req
321. but one cannot speak of guilt in
the common sense in this caseCopy !req
322. The prospect of punishment didn't stop
him from murderingCopy !req
323. Sentence on behalf of the public:Copy !req
324. Prison for lifeCopy !req