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my second tour in Iraq,
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70. Luke, how about you?
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You kidding me?
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75. - Thank you.
- You are welcome.
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78. - Hi, Luke.
- Hi.
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this much time before.
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the man I saw in the basement.
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101. That's weird.
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102. - You know, she was just here.
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103. It's okay, I just thought you might like
these cool old buttons
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Look.
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133. who share an open center for play.
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138. Well...
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139. Casegoods and leather, though, for sure.
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140. And I see an accident waiting to happen
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143. I'll get to it.
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148. We're only as sick as our secrets.
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150. Let's see.
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151. I've burned Shirley
for thousands of dollars.
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152. Lied to Theo like it was my job.
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153. Stolen from Steve on countless occasions.
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keep me up at night.
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158. Try stealing morphine from your mother
on her deathbed.
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159. Probably would've
but she didn't really give me a chance.
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160. At least you have other family,
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161. - Someone you can make amends to.
- Yeah.
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162. But I've done some shitty things, Joey.
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Like, do I cover high school?
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out of my aunt's wallet for beer,
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168. or do I just start with "I briefly
lived in a haunted house".
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170. Yeah.
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186. - Yeah, wanted to know if you were here.
- That's typical.
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187. You should call him back tomorrow.
Tell him about your chip.
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191. - It's kind of their thing.
- I don't know.
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Tons, actually.
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197. Yeah, yeah.
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198. - Later.
- Goodnight.
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You ready?
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in ten minutes.
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230. Joey chose to leave treatment
in the middle of the night.
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231. This is what happens
when we forget why we're here.
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relationships the first year.
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someone else instead of on ourselves.
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249. We didn't all end up in here
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and you won't reach me at the center.
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I'm fine.
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277. I found her. We're coming back.
We can be there in 20 minutes.
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You know that... we're full up
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280. You run, you give up your spot.
That's the way it is.
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She'll cop, she's already...
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Why did you?
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295. It's just, you gotta go back. Just 'cause I messed up,
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- Can you get money?
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- No.
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302. And I'm gonna fix this. I'm gonna get us
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- No, it's a true story.
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- And I said that's great.
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- Jesus, Luke.
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- I am.
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They catch you, you wear the phone, like
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unless a caseworker signs off, so...
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393. - Well, that's a little harsh, isn't it?
- It's not as harsh as an overdose.
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a connection.
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- It's true.
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I'm surprised he mentioned it.
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I'm afraid there's no shortage of them.
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- Yeah.
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He's really talented.
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- Yeah.
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- Yeah.
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like this for himself.
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to treatment centers, huh?
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Something must be.
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Sure, man.
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Every day is different.
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Every meeting is different.
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456. in spite of
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457. a backslide or in spite of a full-fledged
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458. Doesn't mean you stop just 'cause
it gets a little repetitive.
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459. One day at a time.
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460. When we decide to get clean,
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461. it's not because we expect it
to be fucking exciting, you know?
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462. Is it normal to bring a friend home
on a day pass?
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463. Yeah.
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464. It happens.
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465. - I just never really felt like it before.
- You must like her.
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466. I admire her.
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467. Don't you?
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468. I feel like she's got her shit together.
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469. I'd think you'd want me to take a page
out of a book like that.
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470. Look, I get it. She's charming.
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471. She's articulate, she's funny.
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472. - Yeah.
- Disarming, you might say.
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473. You might even say "slick."
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474. Slick?
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475. Just saying.
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476. You know she stayed up with me.
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477. That first week when I was coming down.
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478. You ever seen someone
in withdrawal, Steve?
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479. Nope.
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480. Well, it's hell.
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481. It's...
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482. You're freezing all the time.
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483. LA in July, no air conditioning,
freezing.
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484. Muscle aches, stiff as boards,
nausea, shakes.
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485. - I wouldn't know.
- Well, she does.
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486. Because she was there.
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487. And she talked me through it,
she rode it out with me.
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488. Wow. Awesome.
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489. Fuck. Steve.
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490. I'm not— I'm not asking
for her hand in marriage.
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491. I just wanted to bring a friend to dinner
and you're not giving her a chance.
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492. No, I guess I'm not.
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493. - Why not?
- I'm fresh out of those.
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494. I gave 'em all to you.
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495. Wow.
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496. - I just want you to be careful, is all.
- I'm doing good, Steve.
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497. Anyway, she's a good person,
she's a good influence.
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498. Just because someone's a good person,
just because you care about them...
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499. doesn't mean they won't burn you.
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500. You're a good person, Luke.
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501. And I love you. And...
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502. you know.
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503. Thanks, Steve.
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504. You know, I'm so glad we got to share
this milestone.
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505. That's all I wanted. Thirty days clean
so you can make me feel like shit again.
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506. - Luke.
- Fuck you.
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507. Jesus, Steve.
It's fucking freezing in here.
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508. Fother mucker.
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509. Hey, Luke.
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510. Hey... Hey, Steve.
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511. This isn't what it looks like.
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512. Are you cold?
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513. Yeah.
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514. How'd you know where to find me?
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515. Tell you what, I've got 200 bucks here.
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516. You hand me that iPad,
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517. you can keep the cash
and sell that old camera.
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518. But, I need the iPad.
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519. It stays here.
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520. Hey.
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521. Hey.
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522. Oh my God, I saw him walking in.
I thought you were fucked.
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523. It's all good.
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524. Should be enough for a night,
maybe two.
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525. And some food. Oh, here.
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526. Amazing, Luke.
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527. Amazing.
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528. Goddammit, it's cold tonight.
Are you cold?
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529. Where are we? Seventh?
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530. Yeah, almost.
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531. It's a few more blocks.
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532. I want a clean hotel,
no junkies on the sidewalk.
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533. Man, I don't know if I'm gonna make it
a couple blocks without a piss.
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534. I'll just...
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535. pop into the little junkies' room
and be back in a minute.
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536. Baby.
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537. You got a fever?
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538. Yeah, maybe.
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539. It's my arms and legs, you know?
Muscle aches.
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540. No, I'm fine.
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541. Hey, I...
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542. Thank you.
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543. For coming after me.
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544. Oh.
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545. It means a lot.
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546. You're welcome.
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547. It's all right.
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548. What are you doing? Be back in a flash.
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549. Okay.
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550. Come on, let's— let's keep going.
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551. Joey.
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552. Joey.
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553. Fuck.
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554. Joey!
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555. Joey!
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556. Joey!
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557. Luke, addict.
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558. Hi, Luke.
- Hi.
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559. I actually don't know
what I want to say here.
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560. You know, I've...
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561. I've never had this much time before.
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562. You know, 90 days.
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563. Um...
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564. So here goes.
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565. It's taken me ten years
to get 90 days clean.
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566. And I'm starting step four,
which is always the one that does me in.
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567. "A fearless moral inventory."
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568. Now, I've been called a lot of things
in my life,
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569. but "fearless" is not one of them.
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570. You know, I was always
a scared little kid,
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571. and I thought...
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572. I thought I'd get braver
as I got older, but...
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573. um, I didn't.
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574. I, um...
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575. I just got scared of anything.
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576. My mom committed suicide
when I was six years old.
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577. And my siblings and I
were sent to live with our aunt,
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578. and, I mean, I was just a kid, you know.
I didn't...
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579. I didn't really understand death yet.
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580. So, I guess I just expected her to...
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581. to come back.
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582. And every night, I'd...
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583. I'd stare out my window as the cars
came around the corner,
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584. just hoping that one would stop
and my mom would step out,
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585. you know, to come take me home.
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586. Every time I saw those headlights
come round the corner,
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587. I'd sit up in bed...
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588. and I'm staring out of my window,
just full of hope.
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589. One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven.
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590. But they'd just keep driving.
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591. Those tail lights, they were the worst.
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592. Red eyes in the dark,
just taking hope with them.
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593. I mean, Mom...
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594. she never came back, of course,
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595. but other things
from when I was a kid,
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596. they came back.
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597. And I guess that's...
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598. I guess that's why I started using
in the first place, you know?
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599. To keep those things away.
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600. And I'd get clean...
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601. you know, a week, a month.
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602. But I'd always feel 'em, you know,
just sneaking back up on me.
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603. - So I'd use.
- He's not real.
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604. You know, my family,
they're not gonna believe this.
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605. They never really believe me.
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606. And I don't blame them.
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607. You know, I fucked them over
so many times. Lied, stole.
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608. Come on, you all know what I mean.
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609. And I guess...
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610. I guess I'll...
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611. I'll never know how it felt for them
to be done like that.
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612. I hope I never know.
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613. Ah, sorry.
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614. I want to thank my caseworker, Paige.
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615. And every one at our recovery house.
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616. And someone...
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617. Someone special,
who's always had my back.
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618. Thank you.
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619. Any addict alone...
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620. is in bad company.
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621. That's right.
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622. Thank you.
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623. I couldn't help her.
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624. We've been waiting
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625. There's something I need to tell you.
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626. Listen, I know I fucked up. Okay? But I... I didn't use, I didn't.
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627. And I'm so fucking cold,
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628. and my... and my arms and legs
are so stiff.
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629. I just, I...
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630. I... I need a bed. Like, a couch.
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631. I'll sleep on the goddamn floor.
Just... please.
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632. Please, please let me come back.
Please.
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633. Where are you?
We'll come get you.
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634. One, two, three, four,
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635. five, six, seven.
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636. One, two, three, four, five, six,
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637. seven.
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638. Hey.
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639. You're awake.
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640. Well, yeah, 'cause...
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641. you're awake.
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642. I saw her again.
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643. The Bent-Neck Lady?
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644. Mommy and Daddy don't believe me.
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645. Ever.
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646. They say she's a nightmare,
but she's real.
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647. I know she is.
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648. I got an idea.
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649. You need seven,
and you set them up like this.
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650. Why seven?
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651. Mom, Dad...
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652. Steven, Shirl, Theo,
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653. you, me.
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654. It has to be seven.
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655. It helps if you touch each one
and count out loud.
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656. One, two,
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657. three, four,
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658. five, six, seven.
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659. That keeps you safe.
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660. Sometimes you got to do it a lot.
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661. Like, a lot a lot.
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662. Don't forget to count.
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663. One... two...
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665. Four, five, six, seven. One, two, three, four,
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666. five, six, seven.
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667. One, two, three, four, five, six...
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668. seven.
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669. One, two, three, four, five, six,
seven.
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670. One, two, three, four, five, six,
seven.
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671. One, two, three...
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672. Come home, my love.
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673. Steve.
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674. I'm so sorry, I didn't—
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675. I couldn't— I couldn't help her.
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676. And I'm so— I'm so cold.
I didn't...
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677. My arms and legs
are... are stiff.
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678. And I...
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679. I...
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680. It's...
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681. It's like— It's like withdrawal, but...
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682. but I didn't use. I wasn't using, but...
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683. But I...
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684. But I feel it anyway.
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685. You... You believe me, right?
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686. You gotta come with me.
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687. You gotta come with me, Luke.
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688. What? Why?
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689. It's Nell.
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690. Nell's dead.
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691. How?
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692. It was... It was suicide.
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694. Stevie...
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