1. He was in the basement.Copy !req
2. He even ripped my shirt,Copy !req
3. and they still didn't believe me.Copy !req
4. They never believe me.Copy !req
5. They don't even believe me about you.Copy !req
6. You believe me, don't you, Abigail?Copy !req
7. When I was a kid, my brother
taught me how to spot faces in clouds.Copy !req
8. I could pull a face out of
a lot of things. Water...Copy !req
9. mud, leaves...Copy !req
10. wallpaper.Copy !req
11. You know, I get a little older,
I start messing aroundCopy !req
12. with liquor and drugs and...Copy !req
13. I was going down all the wrong routes,
you know?Copy !req
14. So, uh...Copy !req
15. I joined the service,Copy !req
16. you know, thinking it
would straight me out.Copy !req
17. And it did.Copy !req
18. Two thousand and four,
my second tour in Iraq,Copy !req
19. my company secured the ruins
of a bombed-out hospital in Baghdad,Copy !req
20. and...Copy !req
21. We came across this little Iraqi girl.Copy !req
22. I mean, she was burnt up, dead.
You know.Copy !req
23. See, the thing is, most folks
don't know what happen to...Copy !req
24. Most folks don't know what happens
to eyeballs in a fire.Copy !req
25. In the right kind of fire, they...Copy !req
26. they can melt.Copy !req
27. Like runny eggs on black skin.Copy !req
28. You know?Copy !req
29. And...Copy !req
30. I mean, that fucked me up pretty bad.Copy !req
31. Um...Copy !req
32. anyway, six months later
I'm back in the States,Copy !req
33. and pretty soon I start seeing
that little dead girl's face everywhere.Copy !req
34. It's in the clouds, it's in the dark,
on fabric.Copy !req
35. It's fucking everywhere.Copy !req
36. You know?Copy !req
37. That little girl's charred body and...Copy !req
38. melted eyes...Copy !req
39. running down her cheeks.Copy !req
40. And pretty soon, before I know it,
I'm using again.Copy !req
41. So one night, I drop a little acid
and there she is.Copy !req
42. I mean, it's growing
out of the goddamn wallpaper, you know?Copy !req
43. I mean, and she's staring at me.Copy !req
44. Eyeless even, I can tell.Copy !req
45. So I grab this knitting needle...Copy !req
46. you know, and...Copy !req
47. all I can think about was how to—Copy !req
48. how to make it stop.Copy !req
49. Seemed like a good idea at the time.Copy !req
50. So, then I'm blind.Copy !req
51. But I mean, like,
I-can't-see-anything blind, right?Copy !req
52. Thing is, is I still see her.Copy !req
53. I can't see anything else.Copy !req
54. I see her.Copy !req
55. Crispy kid with the runny-egg eyes.Copy !req
56. Twenty-four/seven, I see her face.Copy !req
57. Shit, I see it now.Copy !req
58. You know?Copy !req
59. But...Copy !req
60. I'm here.Copy !req
61. Two months I've been clean.Copy !req
62. It's a little too late.Copy !req
63. I leaned on my habit to get rid
of that faceCopy !req
64. and my habit made sure
that I never would.Copy !req
65. That's why I'm here.Copy !req
66. Two months.Copy !req
67. Well, thanks, Gordon.Copy !req
68. We're glad you're here.Copy !req
69. Any of our newbies want to share?Copy !req
70. Luke, how about you?Copy !req
71. And follow that?
You kidding me?Copy !req
72. Would anyone like to take
a newcomer chip?Copy !req
73. How about 30 days clean?Copy !req
74. Sixty? Ninety?Copy !req
75. - Thank you.
- You are welcome.Copy !req
76. Um...Copy !req
77. Luke, um, addict.Copy !req
78. - Hi, Luke.
- Hi.Copy !req
79. I actually don't know what I
want to say here.Copy !req
80. You know, I've never had
this much time before.Copy !req
81. You know, 90 days.Copy !req
82. Um...Copy !req
83. So, here goes.Copy !req
84. One.Copy !req
85. Two.Copy !req
86. Three.Copy !req
87. Four.Copy !req
88. Five.Copy !req
89. Six.Copy !req
90. Seven.Copy !req
91. That's him,
the man I saw in the basement.Copy !req
92. Well, your mother and I
searched the entire basement, pal,Copy !req
93. and there's nothing down there.Copy !req
94. It's normal for kids to have
imaginary friends and nightmares.Copy !req
95. But...Copy !req
96. Go ahead, I'm listening.Copy !req
97. This house is bad, Dad. It's bad.Copy !req
98. Boy oh boy, we could have a heck
of a yard sale, guys.Copy !req
99. Yeah.Copy !req
100. Has anyone seen Nellie?Copy !req
101. That's weird.Copy !req
102. - You know, she was just here.
- Oh.Copy !req
103. It's okay, I just thought you might like
these cool old buttonsCopy !req
104. - I found upstairs.
- Buttons?Copy !req
105. You got me.Copy !req
106. My little Houdini.
Look.Copy !req
107. Whoa.Copy !req
108. Can I have the hat?Copy !req
109. Um...Copy !req
110. I think it's too big for you, honey.Copy !req
111. I don't know. He'll grow into it.Copy !req
112. That is a big boy hat, all right.Copy !req
113. You want this?Copy !req
114. Well, you are a big boy now.Copy !req
115. But you know, big boys,Copy !req
116. they know the difference between
what's real and what's imaginary.Copy !req
117. So what do you say, champ?Copy !req
118. You like it?Copy !req
119. He loves it.Copy !req
120. Well, how do you know that?Copy !req
121. It's a twin thing.Copy !req
122. You two go and play.Copy !req
123. So much up there.Copy !req
124. Nice.Copy !req
125. I'm having a total déjà vu right now.Copy !req
126. What do you see?Copy !req
127. Two tables... advancing colors.Copy !req
128. Four reading areas.Copy !req
129. Casegoods and leather.Copy !req
130. A mom and dad sitting in reading chairs
that face each other.Copy !req
131. Smaller ones for two...Copy !req
132. no, three kids...Copy !req
133. who share an open center for play.Copy !req
134. Kids' books are on the lower shelfCopy !req
135. so even the little boy with the wheelchair
can reach his favorites.Copy !req
136. - Wow.Copy !req
137. That got really specific.Copy !req
138. Well...Copy !req
139. Casegoods and leather, though, for sure.Copy !req
140. And I see an accident waiting to happen
if you don't pull those down.Copy !req
141. Bodies swinging back and forth
right there.Copy !req
142. Yeah.Copy !req
143. I'll get to it.Copy !req
144. I must be allergic
to the fourth step.Copy !req
145. Every time I do one,
I break out in track marks.Copy !req
146. Good. If you liked it
you'd be doing it wrong.Copy !req
147. "A fearless moral inventory."Copy !req
148. We're only as sick as our secrets.Copy !req
149. Okay, well...Copy !req
150. Let's see.Copy !req
151. I've burned Shirley
for thousands of dollars.Copy !req
152. Lied to Theo like it was my job.Copy !req
153. Stolen from Steve on countless occasions.Copy !req
154. I broke Nellie's heart.Copy !req
155. Missed her wedding.Copy !req
156. I've even robbed my asshole
of a father.Copy !req
157. Though that one doesn't exactly
keep me up at night.Copy !req
158. Try stealing morphine from your mother
on her deathbed.Copy !req
159. Probably would've
but she didn't really give me a chance.Copy !req
160. At least you have other family,
you know?Copy !req
161. - Someone you can make amends to.
- Yeah.Copy !req
162. But I've done some shitty things, Joey.Copy !req
163. Who hasn't?Copy !req
164. I've been on the streets since I was 13.Copy !req
165. There aren't enough pages
in that notebook for all my shit.Copy !req
166. I never know how far back to go.
Like, do I cover high school?Copy !req
167. Like stealing cash
out of my aunt's wallet for beer,Copy !req
168. or do I just start with "I briefly
lived in a haunted house".Copy !req
169. Hey. You okay?Copy !req
170. Yeah.Copy !req
171. Something's bothering you tonight.Copy !req
172. What could possibly be bothering me
in a place like this?Copy !req
173. You're nine months clean, Joey.Copy !req
174. Nine months.Copy !req
175. Your sobriety, it's full term.Copy !req
176. It's a fully-formed little baby anywhere.Copy !req
177. Nine months clean is a palace.Copy !req
178. - Ten o'clock. Lights out.Copy !req
179. Seriously, what's wrong?Copy !req
180. How's the step?Copy !req
181. You know.Copy !req
182. - Kicking my ass.Copy !req
183. Fourth one always does.Copy !req
184. I meant to tell you,
your brother called earlier.Copy !req
185. Steve called?Copy !req
186. - Yeah, wanted to know if you were here.
- That's typical.Copy !req
187. You should call him back tomorrow.
Tell him about your chip.Copy !req
188. Yeah, I don't know.Copy !req
189. He won't believe it.Copy !req
190. They never do.Copy !req
191. - It's kind of their thing.
- I don't know.Copy !req
192. That sister of yours,
the one that dropped you off,Copy !req
193. she seemed to believe in you.
Tons, actually.Copy !req
194. Yeah, well...Copy !req
195. It's a twin thing.Copy !req
196. Ten o'clock, Joey.Copy !req
197. Yeah, yeah.
Back to the ladies' cell block.Copy !req
198. - Later.
- Goodnight.Copy !req
199. Go.Copy !req
200. Luke. You ready?Copy !req
201. Ready.Copy !req
202. I'm sending down three buttons.
You ready?Copy !req
203. I said I'm ready.Copy !req
204. Did you get 'em?Copy !req
205. I got two.Copy !req
206. I sent three.Copy !req
207. Well, I only got two.Copy !req
208. It must be stuck.Copy !req
209. Maybe we can drop some other stuff
to shake it loose.Copy !req
210. Like what?Copy !req
211. There were some rocks in the garden,
pretty ones.Copy !req
212. Abigail showed me one in...Copy !req
213. Clara.Copy !req
214. Clara.Copy !req
215. Was somebody else up there?Copy !req
216. Like who?Copy !req
217. Mrs. Dudley or Theo?Copy !req
218. You're scared.Copy !req
219. No, I'm not.Copy !req
220. - I can tell.
- How? Because I'm scared.Copy !req
221. Nellie, still down there?Copy !req
222. I'm here.Copy !req
223. I was right. There's nothing.Copy !req
224. It was probably just Theo...Copy !req
225. messing around.Copy !req
226. Nellie!Copy !req
227. Jesus.Copy !req
228. Seven a.m. Breakfast
in ten minutes.Copy !req
229. As you've all heard by now...Copy !req
230. Joey chose to leave treatment
in the middle of the night.Copy !req
231. This is what happens
when we forget why we're here.Copy !req
232. I know we're all going to have
a lot of feelings about that.Copy !req
233. Some more than others.Copy !req
234. This is a moment we should all
pay attention to,Copy !req
235. especially you newbies here.Copy !req
236. There's a reason
why the program encourages usCopy !req
237. to stay out of personal
relationships the first year.Copy !req
238. We're not in a relationship.Copy !req
239. Any kind of relationship.Copy !req
240. We can get real close to people
in recovery.Copy !req
241. We're friends.Copy !req
242. How the fuck do you expect people
to get through this without friends?Copy !req
243. We don't.Copy !req
244. One of the biggest issues that can
sometimes happen and just...Copy !req
245. sometimes...Copy !req
246. and I'm not saying this about
you, Luke, is we canCopy !req
247. start to hang our recovery on
someone else instead of on ourselves.Copy !req
248. And you lean too hard
on another addict? Shit.Copy !req
249. We didn't all end up in here
'cause we're so reliable.Copy !req
250. - Luke.
- I'm fine.Copy !req
251. Luke.Copy !req
252. I'm just getting some air.Copy !req
253. Fuck.Copy !req
254. Luke.Copy !req
255. Luke, you okay in there?Copy !req
256. Hi, this is Nell. Please leave a
message after the beep.Copy !req
257. Hey, hey, it's, uh, it's me.
Uh...Copy !req
258. I... I had a moment. Um...Copy !req
259. Last night, one of those.Copy !req
260. You know what I'm talking about.Copy !req
261. I just wanted to make sure
that you were okay.Copy !req
262. I, uh, I don't have a phone...
and you won't reach me at the center.Copy !req
263. But, you can call there and leave
me a message there.Copy !req
264. I should be back by tonight.Copy !req
265. I just have to find a friend.Copy !req
266. And don't... don't worry.
I'm fine.Copy !req
267. I just...Copy !req
268. I just wanted to be sure
you're okay.Copy !req
269. You know. Yeah, okay.Copy !req
270. - Fuck you.Copy !req
271. Hey.Copy !req
272. Hey.Copy !req
273. How'd you know where to find me?Copy !req
274. I know your spots.Copy !req
275. Hey, hey, it's okay.Copy !req
276. Come on, it's okay.Copy !req
277. I found her. We're coming back.
We can be there in 20 minutes.Copy !req
278. This isn't a hotel, Luke.
You know that... we're full upCopy !req
279. and we need these beds for people
who actually want to get well.Copy !req
280. You run, you give up your spot.
That's the way it is.Copy !req
281. Please, Paige. Please.Copy !req
282. Your best bet is gonna
be a shelter.Copy !req
283. That's the last place she should be.
She'll cop, she's already...Copy !req
284. Look, I need a place where she can
come down safe.Copy !req
285. Ah, fuck, Luke. I...Copy !req
286. I'm sorry.Copy !req
287. But you did it to yourselves.Copy !req
288. Fuck.Copy !req
289. She's right.
I knew the rules when I left.Copy !req
290. You okay?Copy !req
291. Yeah.Copy !req
292. Just, I slept on it funny last night.Copy !req
293. I told you not to follow me.
Why did you?Copy !req
294. I'm sorry.Copy !req
295. It's just, you gotta go back. Just 'cause I messed up,
doesn't mean you have to.Copy !req
296. I got an idea.Copy !req
297. - If I can get you a motel, then—
- Do you have money?Copy !req
298. - No.
- Can you get money?Copy !req
299. - What about your sisters or your brother?
- No.Copy !req
300. Do you think you can call them?Copy !req
301. I'll get some. Okay?Copy !req
302. And I'm gonna fix this. I'm gonna get us
a place to stay tonight.Copy !req
303. Tomorrow, too.Copy !req
304. And I'm gonna get you clean again.Copy !req
305. And I'm gonna be right here,
right there with you.Copy !req
306. All the way,
just like you were for me, okay?Copy !req
307. And we're gonna find a new place.Copy !req
308. I promise.Copy !req
309. You got anything left?Copy !req
310. Yeah.Copy !req
311. That should get us most of the way.Copy !req
312. Come on.Copy !req
313. You got some balls, man.Copy !req
314. How long do you wait this morning?Copy !req
315. Before hopping the wall?Copy !req
316. Oh, not long.Copy !req
317. I still can't believe you came after me.Copy !req
318. Well, my sister kind of told me to.Copy !req
319. No, not really. She...Copy !req
320. We're kind of in each other's heads.
It's been like that since we were kids.Copy !req
321. It's a twin thing.Copy !req
322. You know, once I...Copy !req
323. Once I broke my foot...Copy !req
324. and...Copy !req
325. and Nell called me a few minutes later,
and she was just...Copy !req
326. she was just watching TV and her
ankle just went nuts.Copy !req
327. - It hurt like hell.Copy !req
328. She had no idea why.
She iced it for an hour.Copy !req
329. - Bullshit.
- No, it's a true story.Copy !req
330. You know, there are...Copy !req
331. There are moments
you kind of remind me of her.Copy !req
332. And she...Copy !req
333. You know, she's always believed in me.Copy !req
334. Not...Copy !req
335. The rest of the family,
not so much, but...Copy !req
336. the only other person that believed in me
like that was you.Copy !req
337. So yeah, of course I came.Copy !req
338. It's what she would've done for me.Copy !req
339. Fuck.Copy !req
340. You okay?Copy !req
341. Yeah, I'm...Copy !req
342. I don't know, I'm cold.Copy !req
343. Listen, when we get there,
just hang back.Copy !req
344. I don't want her to see your eyes.Copy !req
345. - She'll know, okay?
- Yeah.Copy !req
346. She always fucking knows.Copy !req
347. - Luke.
- Hey, Leigh.Copy !req
348. How you doing?Copy !req
349. This is a... surprise.Copy !req
350. Ah, what are you...Copy !req
351. - How are you?
- I'm good.Copy !req
352. Ah, I'm really, really good.
Ninety days good, in fact.Copy !req
353. That's really great.Copy !req
354. I can tell, you look different.Copy !req
355. Thank you.Copy !req
356. So good, I got a day pass.
Is Steve here?Copy !req
357. No, he isn't.Copy !req
358. Is he— Well, is he coming back soon? I just kinda need to talk to him
about something.Copy !req
359. He didn't tell you.Copy !req
360. Tell me what?Copy !req
361. No, Steve is not coming back soon.
Maybe ever.Copy !req
362. He doesn't live here anymore.Copy !req
363. Wait, what?Copy !req
364. We separated a month ago.Copy !req
365. Why?Copy !req
366. I would really rather not get into that.Copy !req
367. Okay.Copy !req
368. Listen, I'm— I'm clean.Copy !req
369. - Ninety days, like I said.
- And I said that's great.Copy !req
370. - Leigh, I need to borrow some money.
- Jesus, Luke.Copy !req
371. No, it's not like that. I just—Copy !req
372. We have been through this
over and over.Copy !req
373. It's for a hotel. Or if you could just
let us stay here—Copy !req
374. You know you can't do that.
You know that.Copy !req
375. Okay.Copy !req
376. Okay, can you...Copy !req
377. Can you just give me
Steve's address then, please?Copy !req
378. I think he's out of town.Copy !req
379. I mean, even if he wasn't.Copy !req
380. I am proud of you, I am.Copy !req
381. But you have to talk to Steven. You know what he's going to say.Copy !req
382. I really can't deal with
this right now.Copy !req
383. - Things are bad enough.Copy !req
384. - You're not serious.
- I am.Copy !req
385. They'll hang a toy phone around
your neckCopy !req
386. and you have to wear it all day,
maybe longer.Copy !req
387. Like a child's toy phone?Copy !req
388. Yes, it's like The Scarlet Letter
for violating the phone rule.Copy !req
389. Improper use of a phone.
They catch you, you wear the phone, likeCopy !req
390. "Let this be a chilling example
to the others."Copy !req
391. You...Copy !req
392. You can't make calls in the first 30 days
unless a caseworker signs off, so...Copy !req
393. - Well, that's a little harsh, isn't it?
- It's not as harsh as an overdose.Copy !req
394. I mean, addicts, we're...Copy !req
395. we're pretty slippery in early recovery.Copy !req
396. That's why they confiscate
our cell phones, you know,Copy !req
397. in case someone was to call
a connection.Copy !req
398. Yeah.Copy !req
399. What if you want to call your mom?Copy !req
400. For some folks in there,
their connection is their mom.Copy !req
401. - Truly.
- It's true.Copy !req
402. So...Copy !req
403. Luke tells me you're a writer.Copy !req
404. He did?
I'm surprised he mentioned it.Copy !req
405. Where do you get your ideas from?Copy !req
406. I write about haunted houses, mostly.Copy !req
407. And haunted people.
I'm afraid there's no shortage of them.Copy !req
408. Must run in the family.Copy !req
409. I mean, Luke's a great writer, too.Copy !req
410. - Yeah?
- Yeah.Copy !req
411. No, I'm not.Copy !req
412. Stop selling yourself short.
He's really talented.Copy !req
413. You should show them the one about...Copy !req
414. the short story with
the imaginary little friend in the garden.Copy !req
415. - The one— Do you know that one?
- Yeah.Copy !req
416. - Abigail.
- Yeah.Copy !req
417. I put her in one of my books, too.Copy !req
418. Something tells me
Luke won't get as much blow back for his.Copy !req
419. It's just an essay.Copy !req
420. It's not anything, you know.Copy !req
421. I keep telling him
he should publish it.Copy !req
422. Off his name alone.Copy !req
423. Maybe get a sweet place
like this for himself.Copy !req
424. I mean, you guys—
This is so awesome.Copy !req
425. You guys got it all, man.Copy !req
426. Where do you go from here?Copy !req
427. Nothing left to do except...Copy !req
428. maybe fill this place up with some kids,
I guess.Copy !req
429. So is this your first rehab, Joey?Copy !req
430. Ah, it's far from it.Copy !req
431. But some of us are addicted
to treatment centers, huh?Copy !req
432. Not Luke's first rodeo either.Copy !req
433. So what's different this time?
Something must be.Copy !req
434. I mean, you know the definition
of insanity.Copy !req
435. Steve.Copy !req
436. "Doing the same thing over and over—"Copy !req
437. "... and expecting different results."
Sure, man.Copy !req
438. They're all different, though.
Every day is different.Copy !req
439. Every craving is different.
Every meeting is different.Copy !req
440. Right. I'm not trying to suggest
you're not taking this seriously.Copy !req
441. Oh...Copy !req
442. And I'm just...Copy !req
443. This time around...Copy !req
444. I'm just speaking for myself, like...Copy !req
445. Like, I got more support.Copy !req
446. And I'm giving more support.Copy !req
447. So...Copy !req
448. in a sense, I guess you could say...Copy !req
449. it looks like the same thing
over and over again,Copy !req
450. but that's not insanity.Copy !req
451. Out there on the streets,
that's insanity.Copy !req
452. Of course.Copy !req
453. So that's what recovery is, you know?Copy !req
454. It's the same thing
over and over again,Copy !req
455. in spite of the result, or...Copy !req
456. in spite ofCopy !req
457. a backslide or in spite of a full-fledged
fucking relapse.Copy !req
458. Doesn't mean you stop just 'cause
it gets a little repetitive.Copy !req
459. One day at a time.Copy !req
460. When we decide to get clean,Copy !req
461. it's not because we expect it
to be fucking exciting, you know?Copy !req
462. Is it normal to bring a friend home
on a day pass?Copy !req
463. Yeah.Copy !req
464. It happens.Copy !req
465. - I just never really felt like it before.
- You must like her.Copy !req
466. I admire her.Copy !req
467. Don't you?Copy !req
468. I feel like she's got her shit together.Copy !req
469. I'd think you'd want me to take a page
out of a book like that.Copy !req
470. Look, I get it. She's charming.Copy !req
471. She's articulate, she's funny.Copy !req
472. - Yeah.
- Disarming, you might say.Copy !req
473. You might even say "slick."Copy !req
474. Slick?Copy !req
475. Just saying.Copy !req
476. You know she stayed up with me.Copy !req
477. That first week when I was coming down.Copy !req
478. You ever seen someone
in withdrawal, Steve?Copy !req
479. Nope.Copy !req
480. Well, it's hell.Copy !req
481. It's...Copy !req
482. You're freezing all the time.Copy !req
483. LA in July, no air conditioning,
freezing.Copy !req
484. Muscle aches, stiff as boards,
nausea, shakes.Copy !req
485. - I wouldn't know.
- Well, she does.Copy !req
486. Because she was there.Copy !req
487. And she talked me through it,
she rode it out with me.Copy !req
488. Wow. Awesome.Copy !req
489. Fuck. Steve.Copy !req
490. I'm not— I'm not asking
for her hand in marriage.Copy !req
491. I just wanted to bring a friend to dinner
and you're not giving her a chance.Copy !req
492. No, I guess I'm not.Copy !req
493. - Why not?
- I'm fresh out of those.Copy !req
494. I gave 'em all to you.Copy !req
495. Wow.Copy !req
496. - I just want you to be careful, is all.
- I'm doing good, Steve.Copy !req
497. Anyway, she's a good person,
she's a good influence.Copy !req
498. Just because someone's a good person,
just because you care about them...Copy !req
499. doesn't mean they won't burn you.Copy !req
500. You're a good person, Luke.Copy !req
501. And I love you. And...Copy !req
502. you know.Copy !req
503. Thanks, Steve.Copy !req
504. You know, I'm so glad we got to share
this milestone.Copy !req
505. That's all I wanted. Thirty days clean
so you can make me feel like shit again.Copy !req
506. - Luke.
- Fuck you.Copy !req
507. Jesus, Steve.
It's fucking freezing in here.Copy !req
508. Fother mucker.Copy !req
509. Hey, Luke.Copy !req
510. Hey... Hey, Steve.Copy !req
511. This isn't what it looks like.Copy !req
512. Are you cold?Copy !req
513. Yeah.Copy !req
514. How'd you know where to find me?Copy !req
515. Tell you what, I've got 200 bucks here.Copy !req
516. You hand me that iPad,Copy !req
517. you can keep the cash
and sell that old camera.Copy !req
518. But, I need the iPad.Copy !req
519. It stays here.Copy !req
520. Hey.Copy !req
521. Hey.Copy !req
522. Oh my God, I saw him walking in.
I thought you were fucked.Copy !req
523. It's all good.Copy !req
524. Should be enough for a night,
maybe two.Copy !req
525. And some food. Oh, here.Copy !req
526. Amazing, Luke.Copy !req
527. Amazing.Copy !req
528. Goddammit, it's cold tonight.
Are you cold?Copy !req
529. Where are we? Seventh?Copy !req
530. Yeah, almost.Copy !req
531. It's a few more blocks.Copy !req
532. I want a clean hotel,
no junkies on the sidewalk.Copy !req
533. Man, I don't know if I'm gonna make it
a couple blocks without a piss.Copy !req
534. I'll just...Copy !req
535. pop into the little junkies' room
and be back in a minute.Copy !req
536. Baby.Copy !req
537. You got a fever?Copy !req
538. Yeah, maybe.Copy !req
539. It's my arms and legs, you know?
Muscle aches.Copy !req
540. No, I'm fine.Copy !req
541. Hey, I...Copy !req
542. Thank you.Copy !req
543. For coming after me.Copy !req
544. Oh.Copy !req
545. It means a lot.Copy !req
546. You're welcome.Copy !req
547. It's all right.Copy !req
548. What are you doing? Be back in a flash.Copy !req
549. Okay.Copy !req
550. Come on, let's— let's keep going.Copy !req
551. Joey.Copy !req
552. Joey.Copy !req
553. Fuck.Copy !req
554. Joey!Copy !req
555. Joey!Copy !req
556. Joey!Copy !req
557. Luke, addict.Copy !req
558. Hi, Luke.
- Hi.Copy !req
559. I actually don't know
what I want to say here.Copy !req
560. You know, I've...Copy !req
561. I've never had this much time before.Copy !req
562. You know, 90 days.Copy !req
563. Um...Copy !req
564. So here goes.Copy !req
565. It's taken me ten years
to get 90 days clean.Copy !req
566. And I'm starting step four,
which is always the one that does me in.Copy !req
567. "A fearless moral inventory."Copy !req
568. Now, I've been called a lot of things
in my life,Copy !req
569. but "fearless" is not one of them.Copy !req
570. You know, I was always
a scared little kid,Copy !req
571. and I thought...Copy !req
572. I thought I'd get braver
as I got older, but...Copy !req
573. um, I didn't.Copy !req
574. I, um...Copy !req
575. I just got scared of anything.Copy !req
576. My mom committed suicide
when I was six years old.Copy !req
577. And my siblings and I
were sent to live with our aunt,Copy !req
578. and, I mean, I was just a kid, you know.
I didn't...Copy !req
579. I didn't really understand death yet.Copy !req
580. So, I guess I just expected her to...Copy !req
581. to come back.Copy !req
582. And every night, I'd...Copy !req
583. I'd stare out my window as the cars
came around the corner,Copy !req
584. just hoping that one would stop
and my mom would step out,Copy !req
585. you know, to come take me home.Copy !req
586. Every time I saw those headlights
come round the corner,Copy !req
587. I'd sit up in bed...Copy !req
588. and I'm staring out of my window,
just full of hope.Copy !req
589. One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven.Copy !req
590. But they'd just keep driving.Copy !req
591. Those tail lights, they were the worst.Copy !req
592. Red eyes in the dark,
just taking hope with them.Copy !req
593. I mean, Mom...Copy !req
594. she never came back, of course,Copy !req
595. but other things
from when I was a kid,Copy !req
596. they came back.Copy !req
597. And I guess that's...Copy !req
598. I guess that's why I started using
in the first place, you know?Copy !req
599. To keep those things away.Copy !req
600. And I'd get clean...Copy !req
601. you know, a week, a month.Copy !req
602. But I'd always feel 'em, you know,
just sneaking back up on me.Copy !req
603. - So I'd use.
- He's not real.Copy !req
604. You know, my family,
they're not gonna believe this.Copy !req
605. They never really believe me.Copy !req
606. And I don't blame them.Copy !req
607. You know, I fucked them over
so many times. Lied, stole.Copy !req
608. Come on, you all know what I mean.Copy !req
609. And I guess...Copy !req
610. I guess I'll...Copy !req
611. I'll never know how it felt for them
to be done like that.Copy !req
612. I hope I never know.Copy !req
613. Ah, sorry.Copy !req
614. I want to thank my caseworker, Paige.Copy !req
615. And every one at our recovery house.Copy !req
616. And someone...Copy !req
617. Someone special,
who's always had my back.Copy !req
618. Thank you.Copy !req
619. Any addict alone...Copy !req
620. is in bad company.Copy !req
621. That's right.Copy !req
622. Thank you.Copy !req
623. I couldn't help her.Copy !req
624. We've been waiting
for you to call.Copy !req
625. There's something I need to tell you.Copy !req
626. Listen, I know I fucked up. Okay? But I... I didn't use, I didn't.Copy !req
627. And I'm so fucking cold,Copy !req
628. and my... and my arms and legs
are so stiff.Copy !req
629. I just, I...Copy !req
630. I... I need a bed. Like, a couch.Copy !req
631. I'll sleep on the goddamn floor.
Just... please.Copy !req
632. Please, please let me come back.
Please.Copy !req
633. Where are you?
We'll come get you.Copy !req
634. One, two, three, four,Copy !req
635. five, six, seven.Copy !req
636. One, two, three, four, five, six,Copy !req
637. seven.Copy !req
638. Hey.Copy !req
639. You're awake.Copy !req
640. Well, yeah, 'cause...Copy !req
641. you're awake.Copy !req
642. I saw her again.Copy !req
643. The Bent-Neck Lady?Copy !req
644. Mommy and Daddy don't believe me.Copy !req
645. Ever.Copy !req
646. They say she's a nightmare,
but she's real.Copy !req
647. I know she is.Copy !req
648. I got an idea.Copy !req
649. You need seven,
and you set them up like this.Copy !req
650. Why seven?Copy !req
651. Mom, Dad...Copy !req
652. Steven, Shirl, Theo,Copy !req
653. you, me.Copy !req
654. It has to be seven.Copy !req
655. It helps if you touch each one
and count out loud.Copy !req
656. One, two,Copy !req
657. three, four,Copy !req
658. five, six, seven.Copy !req
659. That keeps you safe.Copy !req
660. Sometimes you got to do it a lot.Copy !req
661. Like, a lot a lot.Copy !req
662. Don't forget to count.Copy !req
663. One... two...Copy !req
664. three...Copy !req
665. Four, five, six, seven. One, two, three, four,Copy !req
666. five, six, seven.Copy !req
667. One, two, three, four, five, six...Copy !req
668. seven.Copy !req
669. One, two, three, four, five, six,
seven.Copy !req
670. One, two, three, four, five, six,
seven.Copy !req
671. One, two, three...Copy !req
672. Come home, my love.Copy !req
673. Steve.Copy !req
674. I'm so sorry, I didn't—Copy !req
675. I couldn't— I couldn't help her.Copy !req
676. And I'm so— I'm so cold.
I didn't...Copy !req
677. My arms and legs
are... are stiff.Copy !req
678. And I...Copy !req
679. I...Copy !req
680. It's...Copy !req
681. It's like— It's like withdrawal, but...Copy !req
682. but I didn't use. I wasn't using, but...Copy !req
683. But I...Copy !req
684. But I feel it anyway.Copy !req
685. You... You believe me, right?Copy !req
686. You gotta come with me.Copy !req
687. You gotta come with me, Luke.Copy !req
688. What? Why?Copy !req
689. It's Nell.Copy !req
690. Nell's dead.Copy !req
691. How?Copy !req
692. It was... It was suicide.Copy !req
693. No.Copy !req
694. Stevie...Copy !req
695. it wasn't.Copy !req