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of a head of cauliflower.
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will not be this bumpy.
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13. Dr. Glassman has moved
down the hall.
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to work at the hospital.
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16. But, you know, the dynamic
might be a little different.
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that when working with friends,
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18. you get more done in less time
and have fun on the job.
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for you, not with you.
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20. It can be different
when you have to
manage a friend.
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and that can be hard.
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exchanging keys,
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a whole-new place together?
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He did not ask me to move in.
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to talk to you about?
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even more,
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will continue until...
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35. Yeah, these early calls
are gonna take
some getting used to.
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36. - Hmm.
- A little Kendrick's
the perfect pick-me-up.
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37. Never mad at Kendrick.
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38. Yes.
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40. Yeah, my good luck charm.
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41. Figured it couldn't hurt
on my first day back.
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42. For $700, it should give you
more than luck.
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43. On occasion, it has.
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45. The car is a bit much,
but the fashion is lit.
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46. Now, Mr. Grumpy,
what's going on with you?
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47. Goodbye.
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48. Dr. Kalu is not your peer,
not your friend.
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49. He is your employee
and you are his boss.
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50. I am confident that Jared
will do a good job.
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what I'm talking about.
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52. He is not "Jared."
He is "Dr. Kalu."
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53. I do not always call people
by their professional titles.
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54. - Sometimes I call Dr. Allen—
- Dr. Murphy.
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55. An informal communication style
with Dr. Kalu
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56. can create a perception
of special treatment
and favoritism.
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57. I do not plan to give Jared
special treatment.
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58. That doesn't mean
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59. And if I see it, it won't
be good for either of you.
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60. She has bruising and pain
even with passive
range of motion.
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61. Some bullies at school
chased her.
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62. She fell down the stairs
trying to get away.
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63. That's not even
how it happened.
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64. I knew we should have stuck
with homeschooling.
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65. She insisted,
and look what happened.
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66. You need to be still.
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67. Your shoulder is fractured.
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68. Ultrasound the patient.
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69. Why are you laughing?
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70. Sh-She can't help it.
Yara has Tourette syndrome.
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71. - It's why she got into
the fight at school.
- Mom, he was asking me.
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72. You never let me speak
for myself.
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73. It wasn't a fight.
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74. Some kids thought
it would be funny
to point and stare at me,
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75. and I thought it would be funny
to egg their lockers.
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76. Then my stupid tics
messed up my getaway.
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77. There's significant
tissue swelling
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78. and massive hematoma
at the proximal humerus.
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79. The fracture has caused
an acute compartment syndrome.
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80. You need surgery right away.
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when you started getting dizzy?
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started to spin.
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86. I just introduced Carter
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to learn the twirl.
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89. I don't blame you.
The twirl is awesome.
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90. Where's my little guy?
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91. - Hey, Mama E.
- Hey, Carter G.
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92. You should have
called me immediately.
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93. Elaine's my mom.
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your permission
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to the hospital.
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99. Uh, his heart rate
is— is quite low.
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100. What does that mean?
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101. It looks like Carter
has an abnormality
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102. of the electrical signals
controlling his heartbeat.
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103. We need to run some tests.
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104. Echo
and electrophysiology study.
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105. The prodigal resident returns.
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106. Aha. Lovely to see you as well,
Dr. Reznick.
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107. Will the hospital
be getting a new wing
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108. in the Kalu family name?
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109. My family are doing well.
Thanks for asking.
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110. And I was recruited to return
based on my training,
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112. and willingness to take
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113. a demotion
back to a first year.
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114. Ooh, it's gonna be hellish
being bossed around by newbies
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115. and people
who used to be your peers.
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116. Grab me that box
on the top shelf.
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117. I missed you, too.
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118. You know, while I was away,
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119. I learned how to read
emotional energy.
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120. And sniping at people's
your love language.
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121. Happy to know you still care.
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122. Good luck, newbie.
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124. I, uh—
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125. I gotta get to surgery. Enjoy.
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of the shaft segment
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128. Thank you.
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129. Brown retractor.
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130. No brown retractor.
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131. I thought I put it on your tray
from the supply room.
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132. All of my tools must be
individually selected,
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133. sterilized,
and placed in my tray
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135. Understood. Got it.
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136. That will do.
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137. Further expose
the proximal humerus.
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138. Place sutures in rotator cuff
to mobilize humeral head.
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139. Sorry for dropping the ball
with your tools.
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140. Rookie mistake.
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141. Don't sweat it.
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142. You're BFFs
with the boss, right?
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143. I treat
every resident the same.
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144. Dr. Allen,
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145. place Steinmann pins
proximal to biceps tendon.
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146. Dr. Kalu, you are on suction.
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147. Oh.
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148. Catheter placed
in the axillary vein.
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149. I feel bad for Carter's mom.
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150. I can't imagine
trying to raise a kid
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151. with my mother backseat driving
my every move.
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152. Well, maybe if Bianca
told Elaine
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to the hospital,
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155. Pacing wire.
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156. Bianca was probably doing
what she thought was best.
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157. Withholding information
is never for the best.
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158. Advancing
to the right ventricle.
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159. Everything okay
between you two?
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160. We're... fine.
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161. That can't be right.
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162. I need contrast to clear up
what I'm seeing on fluoroscopy.
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163. L-transposition
of the great arteries.
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164. The ventricles are...
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166. His heart is... backward.
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167. Your surgery went well.
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168. We were able
to decompress and release
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your humerus fracture.
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171. Great. When can I go
back to school?
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172. You'll only be out a few days.
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173. Just be sure
to wear your sling.
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174. You're not going
back to school.
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175. - Why not?
- It's not safe.
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so they can hurt you again.
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177. I'm not a baby.
I can take care of myself.
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178. I just need
to take your vitals.
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take care of yourself,
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in the hospital.
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181. Going to school
is literally the only thing
that I do that is normal.
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stuck at home with you.
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do anything by mys—
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186. She's having a seizure.
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187. We need 2 milligrams
of lorazepam and MRI, stat!
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188. She's sleeping like a baby.
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189. You should've used propofol
instead of Versed
to sedate her.
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190. Versed is old school.
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191. Same effects,
none of the overshooting.
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192. Why are you
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193. Peds case.
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194. Shorter duration
imaging sequences
cuts the time in half.
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probably use a refresher
before trying a shortcut.
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a few tricks up my sleeve.
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who has to repeat a year.
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200. - Ow.
- Mm-hmm.
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201. Shaun will appreciate getting
Yara's results back faster.
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202. Trust me.
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204. Was the patient
properly sedated
before you began this MRI?
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205. Yeah, of course. I used
the standard pediatric
protocol with Versed.
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about our revised
propofol protocol?
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207. Yeah. But in my experience,
Versed provides better—
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208. You should have listened
to Dr. Allen.
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an MRI, Shaun.
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211. There is too much
motion degradation.
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please go redo the MRI.
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special treatment
because you are my friend.
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special treatment, Shaun.
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being treated
like an intern, either.
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I'm a first year,
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for as long as you have.
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and you have a lot to learn.
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judging my performance
off of your performance,
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228. Good. You need
to go practice basic skills
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229. and observe our current
standardized MRI process.
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230. Heart block plus
inverted cardiac anatomy.
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232. Intravenous pacemaker is out,
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place it surgically.
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234. That doesn't address
the underlying anatomy issue.
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235. The defect could lead to
heart failure as he gets older.
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236. It could, but he might be fine
with just the pacemaker.
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237. But if he's already
developed arrhythmia,
not a great sign.
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the double switch reconstruction,
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to the right ventricle.
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and cardiac labs.
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received them digitally.
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242. But the hard copies
are always appreciated.
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243. - Trouble in paradise?
- Everything's fine.
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in this passive-aggressive
fight all day.
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- No, that would require
you talking to me.
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of experience between us.
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in contact with an ex?
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250. Took a job out of state
without including you
in the process?
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251. Jerome lied to me,
about something very important.
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252. - I didn't lie.
- A lie of omission
is still a lie.
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- You should have told me.
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- Yes, but you didn't.
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of how you'd react.
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have been a secret,
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nothing to hide.
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my viral load
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for years.
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265. I have work to do.
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surgery to the family.
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267. If they agree, I'll scrub in.
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268. On it.
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269. No. How did we get
from a pacemaker
to reconstructing his heart?
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may sound drastic,
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his risk of developing
heart failure.
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the pacemaker now,
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if the problem gets worse?
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signs of heart failure,
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to do the reconstruction.
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for mistakes I made
when I was 17.
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280. I've been back for two years.
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281. How can I be a mother
when you won't even
give me a chance?
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before his condition deteriorates.
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293. You have nothing
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295. Undetectable equals untransmittable.
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never any risk to him.
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and how it makes them feel
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two very different things.
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to process your status.
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"I told you so."
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But I'm gonna think it.
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work hard for anything.
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Bravo to that.
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of this program,
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taking care of a billionaire.
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with open arms.
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and your old tricks, and think,
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but you're not. Yet.
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and I have seniority.
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that I belong here.
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high enough resolution.
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redoing the imaging?
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all the protocols,
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still doesn't look clear.
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was incorrect.
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a hypothalamic hamartoma.
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336. They are gelastic seizures
caused by the tumor
in your brain.
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and treat the seizures.
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341. Will it stop this?
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344. There are other options
you can consider in the future
if you don't see improvement.
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could stop the seizures immediately.
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I can go back to school.
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Mommy, please.
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352. Tumor resection
can cause stroke,
partial paralysis,
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- You can.
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the Gamma Knife procedure.
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to any more trauma.
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363. - I left him with you.
- Expecting me to pick up
all the pieces
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like always.
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than with me.
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wasn't involved enough,
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369. My mistakes were mine,
not yours.
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372. I have to do better for Carter.
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373. Well, the surgery is
what's best for Carter,
long-term.
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to deprive your pregnant wife
her lunch.
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380. I thought it would be fun
working with a friend.
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special treatment,
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giving him special treatment.
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385. In fact, I am being very firm
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made several errors,
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388. Well, he's a new resident
on his first day.
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a bit of a learning curve.
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390. Mm, he is not acting
like a new resident.
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391. Well, he's your friend.
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you expect a lot of him.
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397. There may not be enough
tissue for redirection of flow
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399. We can use pericardium
to create a baffle. Metz.
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400. You make up with Jerome yet?
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401. He betrayed my trust.
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402. All right, securing edge
to atrial septum.
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403. You've never hidden
anything from him?
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something like this.
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You win the virtue contest.
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406. Possible prizes include
the end of your relationship.
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407. Or you could just talk it out.
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408. Dividing the aorta.
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who changed things.
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410. I mean, why is it on me
to figure out?
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to change with him?
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to pulmonary valve.
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416. I never met a teenager
who wanted to go to school
as much as you.
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not being able to control
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420. Egging those lockers
made you feel in control?
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- Hmm.
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422. Those bullies messed with me,
I messed with them back.
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in high school, too.
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with braces, a lisp—
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427. But my mom helped me.
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428. Gave me her credit card
to buy them off
with pizza and candy.
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430. She won't even let me
make my own PB and J.
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431. She thinks I'll tic out
and hurt myself with the knife.
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432. When my body
isn't controlling me, she is.
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this tumor out of my head,
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434. for 30 seconds...
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435. I could imagine only laughing
when something was funny.
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436. Think I found a solution.
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437. Oh. I have found
a solution, as well.
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438. I have made a list
of boundaries and rules
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439. to make our working
relationship better.
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440. You need to study them.
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441. What have you found
a solution for?
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442. I think I found a better
resection technique.
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443. Has a lower risk profile,
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444. closer to that
of the Gamma Knife radiation.
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445. And it offers a better
outcome for Yara.
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446. I presented the safest option
to the patient,
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447. which she agreed to.
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448. And you should not have
presented the tumor resection
without consulting me.
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449. That is an important boundary.
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450. Number two on the list.
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451. I thought you'd be happy
I was thinking outside the box,
like you.
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452. You are not me.
You are here to learn.
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453. Yes. I'm also here
to help people like Yara.
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454. You need to respect
that I am your attending.
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455. Number six on the list.
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456. I don't have to be an attending
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457. to know that she's sad,
lonely, and depressed.
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458. We cannot make
medical decisions
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459. based off
of the patient's emotions.
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460. Well, sometimes
the emotions are just
as important as the medical.
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461. You are
making my job very hard!
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462. Number ten:
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463. At work,
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465. If you cannot comply,
you will be out of the program.
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466. I really messed up.
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467. I should have trusted you
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468. and been upfront
about everything.
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469. Yeah, you should have.
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470. After my diagnosis,
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471. it took a long time for me
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473. I spent so much time alone,
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474. and when I finally put myself
back out there,
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475. there was a lot of rejection.
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476. Guys just didn't want to deal
with my status.
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477. So, when this adorable,
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478. brilliant doctor
popped into my life,
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479. and I liked him so much...
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480. I was too scared
to tell him the truth.
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481. I'm sorry.
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482. This doctor
sounds pretty great.
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483. He is.
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484. I made sure we always
used protection,
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485. encouraged you to stay on PrEP.
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486. All to make sure
that you were safe.
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487. That was a decision
that you made
for the both of us.
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488. You did all those things
to make yourself feel better
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489. while you took away my choice.
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490. How could you have known me
and loved me
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491. and think that this
is something
that I-I couldn't accept?
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492. When I first
had to make this decision,
I didn't love you.
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493. I barely knew you.
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494. And I'm not sure
I know you now.
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495. I made a mistake.
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496. That doesn't change who I am.
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497. No, but maybe it changes
how I feel.
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498. I'm sorry that I put you
through this,
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499. but I'm still the one
living with this disease,
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500. and it's not easy.
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501. It's Carter. I have to go.
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502. He woke up
from the surgery,
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503. and he was laughing
about his comic book,
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504. then he started to turn blue.
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505. Oxygen saturation at 80%.
120 BPM.
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506. Blood pressure's dropping.
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507. All right, administering oxygen
and 250cc normal saline bolus.
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508. Why can't he breathe?
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509. I thought the surgery
was supposed to prevent this.
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510. Normal lead impedance.
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511. The pacemaker
is functioning properly.
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512. Something else is going on.
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513. We need a cardiac echo, stat.
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514. A kink in Carter's
reconstructed atria
caused the clot in his heart.
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515. He's stable, but he needs
another operation
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516. to remove the clot
and repair the conduit.
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517. Are there other alternatives?
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518. We could use a catheter
to dissolve the blockage
with medication,
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519. but that still leaves the risk
of a clot forming again
down the line.
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520. I knew doing this
was the wrong decision.
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521. We both want
what's best for Carter.
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522. But I'm the one
who is responsible for him.
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523. And I'm sorry
I put that on you.
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524. I will never forgive myself
for losing out on
those years of Carter's life,
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525. but I've realized that I need
to try to let go of that.
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526. Let go of my regret
and focus on what I know,
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527. that leaving him with you
was the best decision for him.
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528. That will never change.
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529. And this surgery
is the right decision
for him, too.
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530. You're his mother.
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531. You know what's best
for Carter.
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532. I want my son
to have the surgery.
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533. You were right.
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534. I usually am.
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535. What was I right about, exactly?
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536. I came out of the gate too hot,
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537. annoyed Shaun,
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538. screwed things up for Yara.
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539. Agree.
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540. I gotta figure out
my next move.
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541. Listen.
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542. This whole case,
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543. you've been pitching
and shortcutting
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544. and trying to be Mr. Fix-it
for everything.
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545. Stop flexing and listen.
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546. Mom, let me try the tumor
resection surgery. Please.
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547. I'm sorry. No.
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548. We're ready for you.
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549. All right, baby.
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550. But first, I, um...
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551. want you to tell your mom
what you told me,
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552. about what you're dealing with.
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553. What this surgery means to you.
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554. I know what she's dealing with.
I see it every day.
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555. But have you listened
to how it feels to her?
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556. She doesn't care.
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557. Of course I do.
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558. You just want
to boss me around.
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559. I'm just trying to help,
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560. but no matter what I do,
you're always so angry at me.
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561. I'm angry...
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562. I'm angry at everything.
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563. I'm angry at my body
for not doing
what I want it to do.
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564. I'm angry at other kids
for being jerks.
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565. And I'm angry at you...
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566. for acting like the only way
for me to survive in this world
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567. is by you protecting me.
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568. I feel like I'm a puppet
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569. and somebody else
is constantly
pulling the strings,
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570. yanking me all around.
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571. Getting this tumor removed
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572. is the only way for me
to cut the strings.
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573. Okay, don't— don't—
don't take her yet.
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574. We need to talk.
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575. I need you to scrub in
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576. on a hypothalamic
hamartoma surgery.
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577. Okay.
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578. I had planned to use
Gamma Knife radiation,
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579. but Dr. Kalu violated
rule number two,
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580. and now we have to do
his tumor resection.
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581. You're upset with Jared
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582. because he changed
your surgical plan?
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583. He overstepped with me
and the patient and her mother.
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584. Well, a tumor resection
seems like a pretty good idea.
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585. Are you planning on letting
Jared scrub in?
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586. Yes, he will be on suction.
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587. That's an insult.
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588. He has to learn
to follow rules.
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589. He has made my job
very difficult.
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590. Shaun, sit down.
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591. When you were a resident,
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592. you did things completely
your own way.
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593. You still do.
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594. You rubbed everybody
the wrong way.
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595. You made
everybody's job more difficult,
especially mine.
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596. You were a pain in the ass.
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597. But we gave you
the space to learn,
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598. and we learned from you.
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599. And you turned yourself
into an asset.
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600. Give Jared
the same opportunity.
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601. Okay, he overstepped.
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602. Give him a chance to learn
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603. and to prove himself
to be an asset.
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604. Even if you think
he's a pain in the ass.
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605. I will take it
into consideration.
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606. Okay.
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607. Please scrub in
for that surgery.
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608. Advance the catheter
and endoscope
gently into the ventricle.
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609. Suction and irrigate
more aggressively
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610. so she can see
what she is doing.
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611. Proceed along the midline
posteroinferior floor
of the third ventricle.
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612. Oh, there's the tumor.
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613. We can begin excision.
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614. Bipolar scissors.
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615. Micro forceps.
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616. I'll take the specimen
to pathology.
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617. No.
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618. You are going to close.
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619. Are you sure?
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620. This was your surgical plan.
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621. You will become
a better surgeon
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622. by getting a fair shot
to be an asset.
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623. I will take the specimen.
Dr. Glassman will supervise.
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624. I'm hungry.
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625. That's a very good sign.
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626. I'll run down to the cafe
and grab him some food.
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627. Any restrictions?
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628. He can have as many
chicken nuggets as he wants.
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629. I'll go down.
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630. I'll get something
for you to eat, too.
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631. You haven't left his side
since we got here.
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632. Comes with being a good mom.
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633. I had a great teacher.
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634. You know,
a little birdie told me
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635. that the gift shop
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636. just got in the latest volume
of Wonder Woman.
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637. Really? Can we get it?
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638. If your mom is okay with it.
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639. Of course.
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640. But no twirling just yet, okay?
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641. Dr. Murphy was able
to remove all of the tumor.
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642. Yara?
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643. Dr. Kalu.
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644. Memory is intact.
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645. The light didn't provoke
a seizure.
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646. And your tics are gone.
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647. Thank you, Dr. Kalu.
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648. Thank you, Yara.
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649. Dr. Andrews.
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650. I heard about your work
on the Fields case. Good job.
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651. Thank you.
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652. I just came in
to ask you for a favor.
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653. Please judge me for my work,
and not Shaun.
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654. Shaun's part of the reason
you're back here.
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655. And I appreciate him for that.
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656. But I want to stand on my own.
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657. And if I sink, I don't want
to take my friend down with me.
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658. I'm ready to prove myself
as an asset to this hospital.
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659. I'll be watching.
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660. Thank you.
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661. I'm sorry for being
such a jerk.
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662. You opened yourself up,
and I shut down.
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663. And I should've trusted you
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664. that we could
figure this out together.
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665. Yesterday, you said
you didn't know me.
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666. That adorable doctor can be
kind of an ass sometimes.
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667. I've never been in love
before you.
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669. I'm pretty sure
I ran over a raccoon,
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670. but I didn't stop to check
because I was running late
to a baseball game.
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671. Also...
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672. I love a pumpkin spice latte.
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673. - Ugh.
- Even though I know it's basic.
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674. You know those cufflinks I wore
to Shaun and Lea's wedding?
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675. Yeah.
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676. I bought them for you,
but I liked them so much,
I kept them for myself.
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677. That explains so much.
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678. But you can totally
borrow them...
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680. I love you.
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682. Just, uh,
came to say good night.
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683. And thank you.
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684. Why are you thanking me?
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686. I was wrong to expect that,
even if we are friends.
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687. You are a good doctor.
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688. And I would like to continue
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689. and your boss...
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691. You're right.
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692. And I'm studying your list.
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693. Oh, there is one rule
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when we are in friend mode.
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699. Yeah, that works for me, Shaun.
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701. Jared, I would like
to take you out for drinks
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being back at Saint Bon's,
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705. I noticed you only used
eight sutures when you closed
and she had a small bleed.
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706. You should have used ten.
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707. You need to go work
on your suturing technique.
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708. Happy to— to practice,
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709. but I only replaced
the small bone flap.
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710. Dr. Glassman
closed the galea and skin.
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711. Dr. Glassman
skipped two sutures?
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712. I guess so.
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in an hour?
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