1. Previously on
The Good Doctor…Copy !req
2. The aneurysm caused his back pain.
Dr. Wolke missed it.Copy !req
3. I screwed up.Copy !req
4. - Compressions.Copy !req
5. - Dr. Wolke.Copy !req
6. He's dead.Copy !req
7. Take as much time as you need.Copy !req
8. The virus has damaged
your mother's lungs.Copy !req
9. We're doing everything we can to help her.Copy !req
10. - 120 joules.Copy !req
11. I've got hydroxychloroquine, ribavirin…Copy !req
12. I'm twice the size of SJ General.Copy !req
13. I should have twice the amount of tests.Copy !req
14. I'm a doctor. What happened?Copy !req
15. I don't know. He was running. I honked.Copy !req
16. All of a sudden,
he was in front of my car.Copy !req
17. Pedestrian versus car, GCS five at scene.Copy !req
18. Rigid abdomen with active bleeding.
Flail chest with pneumo.Copy !req
19. He needs an ex lap. Now.Copy !req
20. We've got a massive hemoperitoneum.Copy !req
21. I need two large suctions
and lap pads in all four quadrants.Copy !req
22. There's a grade-three liver laceration
in right lateral segments.Copy !req
23. Liver stitch, number 1 chromic
on a blunt needle and a combat gauze.Copy !req
24. What were you doing
on your bike at that hour?Copy !req
25. Heading into work.Copy !req
26. Trying to prep for my budget meeting
with Glassman.Copy !req
27. Mobilize the liver to check
for any associated diaphragm injury.Copy !req
28. It's the other side of town.Copy !req
29. I was taking the scenic route.Copy !req
30. BP's dropping.Copy !req
31. He's got another bleed.Copy !req
32. Add more lap pads and run the bowel.Copy !req
33. There's a perforation
near the terminal ileum.Copy !req
34. Ah. Something tore
through the intestinal wall.Copy !req
35. It's shrapnel.Copy !req
36. From the accident?Copy !req
37. The coat's eroded.Copy !req
38. It looks like it's been in there a while.Copy !req
39. It must have gotten dislodged
in the accident.Copy !req
40. How does Asher seem to you?Copy !req
41. He seems fine.Copy !req
42. Too fine for someone
who's just lost their first patient.Copy !req
43. I don't have time to worry
about people being too fine.Copy !req
44. - He's faking it.
- Good.Copy !req
45. The brain releases serotonin
when you smile,Copy !req
46. even if you're miserable.
I feel better already.Copy !req
47. Denial is not a proven strategyCopy !req
48. for psychological health.Copy !req
49. Dwelling on things you can't
change doesn't help either.Copy !req
50. 24-year-old woman came into the ERCopy !req
51. complaining of abdominal pain
and headaches,Copy !req
52. and, surprise, she's pregnant.Copy !req
53. Apparently not a happy surprise.Copy !req
54. She wants an abortion.Copy !req
55. Well, what's wrong with her?Copy !req
56. I assume you haven't
recently learned the value of sharing,Copy !req
57. which means there's another reasonCopy !req
58. you're unloading this
onto the surgical department.Copy !req
59. She has a congenital IgA deficiencyCopy !req
60. and a history of severe infections.Copy !req
61. She'll need IV antibioticsCopy !req
62. and close post-surgical observation.Copy !req
63. I figured one of your newbies
may as well learn something.Copy !req
64. Lea's birthday is tomorrow.Copy !req
65. There are many cute frogsCopy !req
66. and many romantic songs.Copy !req
67. I can't decide.Copy !req
68. It is my first gift as her boyfriend.Copy !req
69. It needs to be… awesome.Copy !req
70. Well, then, maybe singing frogs,Copy !req
71. however cute, might be a mistake.Copy !req
72. Try something more personal or romantic.Copy !req
73. And find a resident
who hasn't done a suction D&CCopy !req
74. and teach them.Copy !req
75. Oh. No, n… no.Copy !req
76. I'll do it myself.Copy !req
77. I'm not going to teach anymore.Copy !req
78. I'm a good surgeon. I'll do surgery.Copy !req
79. Dr. Murphy, part of your job as a surgeon
is to teach.Copy !req
80. You can't opt out because it's difficult.Copy !req
81. I am opting out because I'm bad at it.Copy !req
82. Well, you can't opt out for any reason.Copy !req
83. But I may have given you
too much responsibility too soon,Copy !req
84. so I will supervise your supervisionCopy !req
85. until you get the hang of it.Copy !req
86. Pick someone.Copy !req
87. Did you two lose something?Copy !req
88. Our patient.Copy !req
89. Rose Babcock.Copy !req
90. She's post-op from repair
of a distal radius fracture.Copy !req
91. 60s. White hair.Copy !req
92. Looks at you
like she's staring into your soul.Copy !req
93. Does she have a limp?Copy !req
94. No.Copy !req
95. Well, I think she does now.Copy !req
96. Uh, Ms. Babcock,
did you fall down again?Copy !req
97. Oh, no, I'm fine.Copy !req
98. But… But there's a poor man in room 318Copy !req
99. who's in a lot of pain.Copy !req
100. Let's get you back in bed.Copy !req
101. Ah.Copy !req
102. Yep.Copy !req
103. Apply a new Tegaderm,
not antibiotic ointment.Copy !req
104. They breathe.Copy !req
105. Don't make us handcuff you
to the bed, Rose.Copy !req
106. We charge extra for that.Copy !req
107. Dry the skin more so it'll stick.Copy !req
108. You're doing just fine, dear.Copy !req
109. Heart rate's spiking
in the 130s.Copy !req
110. BP 162 over 95.Copy !req
111. Are you feeling any pressure
in your chest?Copy !req
112. No, it's just anxiety.Copy !req
113. Not mine. It's one of yours.Copy !req
114. We're gonna pretend,
since it's happening in your chest,Copy !req
115. that it's yours.Copy !req
116. 20 milligrams IV labetalol.Copy !req
117. I'm fine.Copy !req
118. I'm an empath.Copy !req
119. I can feel what other people are feeling,Copy !req
120. and one of you is very stressed out.Copy !req
121. Olivia, stay where you are.Copy !req
122. And one milligram of Ativan.Copy !req
123. Keep away from me!Copy !req
124. No! Step back!Copy !req
125. Sir, you were in an accident.Copy !req
126. We're taking care of you.Copy !req
127. Stop. Stop it! Now!Copy !req
128. Get away from me!Copy !req
129. I need you to hold him down
while I administer Haldol.Copy !req
130. Sir, please just…Copy !req
131. I'm warning you.
This room is being cleared.Copy !req
132. No one
is gonna hurt you.Copy !req
133. Ben.Copy !req
134. Huh?Copy !req
135. You're having a flashback.Copy !req
136. You're not in Afghanistan.Copy !req
137. You're in the hospital.Copy !req
138. Look around.Copy !req
139. What do you see?Copy !req
140. Zoe?Copy !req
141. Yeah. Yeah, baby, it's me.Copy !req
142. Zoe, I… I couldn't sleep.Copy !req
143. I… I went for a run, and I…Copy !req
144. I heard an explosion.Copy !req
145. And I don't…
I don't know what happened after that.Copy !req
146. You were hit by a car.Copy !req
147. We had to do surgery,
but you're gonna be okay.Copy !req
148. - It's okay.Copy !req
149. Take him back to his room,
make sure he didn't open his wound.Copy !req
150. I'm sorry.Copy !req
151. Dr. Murphy?Copy !req
152. Rose is not your patient.Copy !req
153. She was teaching me about her gift.Copy !req
154. She says the basis of empathy
is curiosity,Copy !req
155. which I find curious because…Copy !req
156. I'm curious about the job
you're supposed to be doing.Copy !req
157. Who are you leading
through the D&C?Copy !req
158. None of them.Copy !req
159. The only one who hasn't done one
does not want to,Copy !req
160. so I will.Copy !req
161. Which resident?Copy !req
162. Wanting to is irrelevant. It's their job.Copy !req
163. Wanting to is irrelevant. It's your job.Copy !req
164. I'm a Christian.Copy !req
165. Performing an abortion
goes against my beliefs.Copy !req
166. Okay.Copy !req
167. You may encounter a situation one dayCopy !req
168. where this procedure
could save a woman's life.Copy !req
169. Then I hope someone else can…Copy !req
170. And it's my job to make sure
you can perform all surgeries,Copy !req
171. including abortions.Copy !req
172. So where does that leave us?Copy !req
173. I'll do the surgery.Copy !req
174. I've only done one.Copy !req
175. I'm sure there's a lot I still can learn.Copy !req
176. Dr. Murphy, you have a new student.Copy !req
177. Get her started running
pre-surgery assessments.Copy !req
178. Thank you, Olivia.Copy !req
179. That's the kind of ambition I like to see.Copy !req
180. He did three tours.Copy !req
181. He came home after he was injuredCopy !req
182. in some kind of explosion.Copy !req
183. I don't really know what happened.Copy !req
184. Some… He's tried to tell me about it
several times,Copy !req
185. but he just… He breaks down.Copy !req
186. When was he diagnosed with PTSD?Copy !req
187. Two years ago.Copy !req
188. But he hasn't been the same
since he got back.Copy !req
189. At first, he was moody, irritable.Copy !req
190. Little things would set him off.Copy !req
191. Then the insomnia started.Copy !req
192. His mind is just… It's never at rest.Copy !req
193. Nights are the worst, you know?Copy !req
194. He, um…Copy !req
195. He gets these terrible nightmares.Copy !req
196. Flashbacks.Copy !req
197. Just… We can't sleep
in the same room anymore.Copy !req
198. Make sure he stays off his feet.Copy !req
199. Would you like us
to arrange a psych consult?Copy !req
200. We've been down that road.Copy !req
201. Talk therapy, group therapy,
exposure therapy…Copy !req
202. endless medications.Copy !req
203. Let us know if you change your mind.Copy !req
204. Jillian, I need those stats on elective
surgeries for my budget meeting.Copy !req
205. And a coffee.Copy !req
206. Jillian?Copy !req
207. She's not there. I need approval for this.Copy !req
208. And this.Copy !req
209. You said I couldn't give her the frogs.Copy !req
210. Oh, you can't give her this either.Copy !req
211. You don't know what it is.Copy !req
212. I know it would mean more if you had to
leave the building to get it.Copy !req
213. I would like to do
the suction D&C surgery.Copy !req
214. I assume your religious convictions
haven't changed in the last few hours.Copy !req
215. No.Copy !req
216. But I believe I was
put in this program for a reason.Copy !req
217. So, if you think it's important for me
to learn how to do an abortion,Copy !req
218. then I should learn.Copy !req
219. Take Jordan to the skills lab.
Run the surgery steps.Copy !req
220. You two will handle the D&C yourselves.Copy !req
221. With you.Copy !req
222. How are you going to supervise
my supervisionCopy !req
223. if you're not there?Copy !req
224. I will help you prep
and debrief afterwards.Copy !req
225. But this patient doesn't need
a gallery of strangersCopy !req
226. standing around, gawking
at her most private experience.Copy !req
227. Sorry to interrupt.Copy !req
228. Ben woke up complaining of pain.Copy !req
229. Did you check the incision?Copy !req
230. The pain is in his arm.Copy !req
231. Now test external rotation
of the shoulder.Copy !req
232. - We're almost done.Copy !req
233. Can you describe the pain?Copy !req
234. Aah!Copy !req
235. We'll call it a 10.Copy !req
236. It's been hurting for years,
but, aah, this is…Copy !req
237. This is something else.Copy !req
238. How did you injure your shoulder before?Copy !req
239. I was in a…Copy !req
240. I was in a convoy in Kandahar,Copy !req
241. and there was a…Copy !req
242. I dislocated my…Copy !req
243. You don't need to discuss it with us.Copy !req
244. What did you find?Copy !req
245. Swelling, sensitivity to touch,
discoloration.Copy !req
246. - Could be CRPS.
- What is that?Copy !req
247. Well, it appears the car accidentCopy !req
248. aggravated a prior injury.Copy !req
249. You've developed
complex regional pain syndrome.Copy !req
250. We'll start you
on Gabapentin and Dilaudid.Copy !req
251. Opioids make me a little insane.Copy !req
252. We could do a stellate ganglion block.Copy !req
253. It's an injection of anesthetic
near the spineCopy !req
254. that blocks the pain signals,Copy !req
255. and could also help the PTSD.Copy !req
256. I've been treated for PTSD for years.Copy !req
257. Why haven't I heard about this?Copy !req
258. It's experimental, but promising.Copy !req
259. The procedure comes with risks:Copy !req
260. vascular injury, infection,
major hematoma.Copy !req
261. Dr. Lim, I've been taking a risk
every time I go to sleep.Copy !req
262. I want to do it.Copy !req
263. Stellate block is an accepted procedure
for treatment of pain.Copy !req
264. Which you wouldn't have suggested
if the patient didn'tCopy !req
265. also have a mental health condition.Copy !req
266. - I hear Jordan's back on the D&C,Copy !req
267. - in spite of her righteous indignation.
- Is something chirping?Copy !req
268. I think you're being unfair.Copy !req
269. Well, if anyone's being unfair, it's me.
I told Jordan to do it.Copy !req
270. I told her.Copy !req
271. We make decisions that
are hard to live with all the time.Copy !req
272. We make them anyway.Copy !req
273. And I told her pissing off the ChiefCopy !req
274. was a very bad way
to start your residency.Copy !req
275. Glad you're still moonlighting
as surgical department camp counselor,Copy !req
276. but I don't mean
you were being unfair to Jordan.Copy !req
277. You're being unfair to the patient.Copy !req
278. She's facing
an emotionally fraught procedure.Copy !req
279. She needs the support of her doctors.Copy !req
280. And who she's getting is a rookie
who thinks she's committing murder.Copy !req
281. And Shaun.Copy !req
282. I have a point.Copy !req
283. I'll lead Jordan through the D&C myself.Copy !req
284. You're happy.Copy !req
285. Dr. Murphy will be happy.Copy !req
286. My cup runneth over.Copy !req
287. Now get whatever's in that box
out of my department.Copy !req
288. Morning sickness.Copy !req
289. Nurse Ella's.Copy !req
290. Rose claims she can feel her pregnancy.Copy !req
291. She was right about the guy in Room 318.Copy !req
292. He had a clot in his ankle.Copy !req
293. I'm sure she picked up
on some subtle clues,Copy !req
294. like the guy moaning
and grasping his ankle.Copy !req
295. Get a CT to rule out
abdominal injury from her fall.Copy !req
296. We're going to
insert a thin needle into your neckCopy !req
297. so we can inject the anesthetic.Copy !req
298. It may sting a bit.Copy !req
299. Use an in-plane approach
to place the needleCopy !req
300. between the C6 tubercle
and carotid artery.Copy !req
301. You might feel some discomfort.Copy !req
302. What's wrong?Copy !req
303. Zoe's hurt.Copy !req
304. I'm okay.Copy !req
305. Get some ice.Copy !req
306. Let me take a look.Copy !req
307. What happened?Copy !req
308. - I hit her.
- I was laying next to him.Copy !req
309. I know I shouldn't,Copy !req
310. but the shot just made his pain
feel so much better.Copy !req
311. - I thought…
- Zo.Copy !req
312. You didn't do anything wrong.Copy !req
313. There was a noise in the hall.Copy !req
314. - I lashed out.
- I know.Copy !req
315. I didn't mean to.Copy !req
316. I'm sorry.Copy !req
317. Nothing's broken.Copy !req
318. I can get you something for the swelling.Copy !req
319. No. I'm okay.
I'm gonna go home, get cleaned up.Copy !req
320. I just need some time.Copy !req
321. I love you.Copy !req
322. I think we can help Ben.Copy !req
323. There have been some promising resultsCopy !req
324. using Vagal Nerve Stimulation
to treat PTSD.Copy !req
325. His scarring
would make it impossibleCopy !req
326. to expose and find the nerve
without damaging it.Copy !req
327. Those scars
are the reason that we need to try.Copy !req
328. Imagine reliving
your worst nightmare over and over again.Copy !req
329. Why doesn't anyone here
want to do the job they were hired for?Copy !req
330. What Ben needs is psychological help.Copy !req
331. I've ordered a consult.Copy !req
332. Leave it to the people
who are trained to do it.Copy !req
333. It sets a bad precedent
to force a residentCopy !req
334. to do a procedure
they're not comfortable with.Copy !req
335. Does anyone around here
not have an opinionCopy !req
336. about who should do
that damn abortion?Copy !req
337. Jordan had a choice,
and in my opinion, she made the right one.Copy !req
338. It's not a true choice
if you're coerced by your boss.Copy !req
339. I asked her to do her job.Copy !req
340. You took an opportunity
from a resident who wants to learnCopy !req
341. in favor of one who doesn't.Copy !req
342. Is this song and dance
about Jordan doing the procedureCopy !req
343. or your niece not doing it?Copy !req
344. Neither.Copy !req
345. There's a misconception that Olivia
came to St. Bonaventure because of me.Copy !req
346. She's here because of your reputation.Copy !req
347. The great Dr. Lim,Copy !req
348. a master class in technique,
professionalism, empathy.Copy !req
349. Lately, it doesn't seem like
that reputation holds up.Copy !req
350. I'm giving you
an antibiotic to prevent infection.Copy !req
351. The vacuum aspiration
will take about 15 minutes,Copy !req
352. and you'll be numbed
with a local anesthetic.Copy !req
353. Conscious sedation is also an option,Copy !req
354. but you will need someone
to drive you home afterwards.Copy !req
355. Do you have any questions for me?Copy !req
356. I'm scared.Copy !req
357. Are you certain you wanna
go ahead with the abortion?Copy !req
358. Yes.Copy !req
359. Then you don't have to be scared.Copy !req
360. You're the making
the right decision for you.Copy !req
361. Give her another 400 micrograms
of misoprostol.Copy !req
362. I'll be back for the procedure.Copy !req
363. This doesn't work.Copy !req
364. I need these numbers
in spreadsheet format.Copy !req
365. - Thank you.
- Oh, excuse me.Copy !req
366. Dr. Park?Copy !req
367. Rose's CT was normal.Copy !req
368. Get an upper GI barium study.Copy !req
369. First quarter supply costs you requested.Copy !req
370. Also, one of your first-years seems upset.Copy !req
371. He's been in the stairwell for a while.Copy !req
372. Everything okay in here?Copy !req
373. I just needed some quiet.Copy !req
374. Surgeons come into the stairwell
for two reasons,Copy !req
375. fire drills or doctor trauma.Copy !req
376. You having a fire drill?Copy !req
377. I just wish we had a more
effective treatment for Ben.Copy !req
378. His head's so messed up,
and we can't help him.Copy !req
379. I don't think this is about Ben.Copy !req
380. Have you ever lost a patientCopy !req
381. you knew you could have saved?Copy !req
382. When COVID was at its worst,Copy !req
383. we had to cancel
all non-urgent procedures.Copy !req
384. A young mom with a heart condition wasCopy !req
385. more urgent than I thought.Copy !req
386. And she died waiting
for me to put her on the schedule.Copy !req
387. How do you get past that?Copy !req
388. You get past it because that's the job.Copy !req
389. You will always remember it.Copy !req
390. And you will eventually stop reliving it.Copy !req
391. How can you be so sure?Copy !req
392. Because if you don't,
you can't be a surgeon.Copy !req
393. And I'm pretty sure you're a surgeon.Copy !req
394. I should get back to work.Copy !req
395. Insert the speculum.Copy !req
396. Now dilate the cervix.Copy !req
397. Begin suction.Copy !req
398. Begin gentle suction in the uterus.Copy !req
399. Is anything wrong?Copy !req
400. You're okay.Copy !req
401. Dr. Allen, I can take it from here.Copy !req
402. Don't worry. We're almost done.Copy !req
403. You're gonna be just fine.Copy !req
404. You have no idea
what that woman was going through,Copy !req
405. - and you made it worse for her.
- I know. I didn't…Copy !req
406. You had an opportunity to opt out
before you walked in there,Copy !req
407. but you agreed to do
the procedure,Copy !req
408. you took on an obligation to that patient,
and you failed her.Copy !req
409. If you ever do anything like that again,
I will have you removed from my program.Copy !req
410. Maybe you should be
cleaning bedpans for a while.Copy !req
411. Hopefully there's no moral objection
to that.Copy !req
412. Why are there adult toys on my desk?Copy !req
413. I've heard good things about the Llama,Copy !req
414. but online reviews aren't always accurate.Copy !req
415. Do you have a favorite?Copy !req
416. They're for Lea.Copy !req
417. Which one do you like the most, Claire?Copy !req
418. Uh…Copy !req
419. Uh…Copy !req
420. Evidence suggests that trauma
changes the way the brain works.Copy !req
421. An overactive amygdala
can heighten someone's responseCopy !req
422. to emotional stimuli, including fear.Copy !req
423. I think we should consider
amygdala ablation for Ben.Copy !req
424. That's crazy.Copy !req
425. And completely outside
the scope of our care.Copy !req
426. - We're s…Copy !req
427. Oh.Copy !req
428. We're surgeons.Copy !req
429. We fix physiological problems,
not mental ones.Copy !req
430. It is a physiological problem.Copy !req
431. His brain isn't functioning properly.Copy !req
432. If it was a tumor
that was causing these reactions,Copy !req
433. you wouldn't hesitate to remove it.Copy !req
434. But there is no tumor.Copy !req
435. You're talking about
inflicting damage on his brain.Copy !req
436. He could suffer a stroke
or come out in a comaCopy !req
437. or not come out at all.Copy !req
438. If you use
a stereotactic laser approachCopy !req
439. rather than an open craniotomy,
you would greatly reduce the risks.Copy !req
440. This is not your case!Copy !req
441. You cannot jump into this oneCopy !req
442. because you don't want to do
the one assigned to you,Copy !req
443. which is to teach,
which you've made my problemCopy !req
444. just like you made
Lea's birthday gifts my problem.Copy !req
445. You need to grow up
and accept some responsibility.Copy !req
446. I was diagnosed with PTSD last year.Copy !req
447. I kept it mainly private.Copy !req
448. Melendez really helped me through it.Copy !req
449. It was nice to have a friend to lean on.Copy !req
450. So if you need one…Copy !req
451. I feelCopy !req
452. off.Copy !req
453. Disconnected.Copy !req
454. Like I can't catch my breath.Copy !req
455. ButCopy !req
456. it comes with the job.Copy !req
457. I'll get over it.Copy !req
458. It's Ben.Copy !req
459. Ben.Copy !req
460. No one is gonna hurt you.Copy !req
461. You're having a flashback.Copy !req
462. I know where I am.Copy !req
463. Every day since I came home,Copy !req
464. I've felt like
there's a monster chasing me.Copy !req
465. I try to outrun itCopy !req
466. but I end up hurting
the one I love the most.Copy !req
467. I'm a threat to everyone around me.Copy !req
468. No, Ben, you just need help.Copy !req
469. Nothing helps.Copy !req
470. I can't smile. I can't laugh.Copy !req
471. I can't feel anything but pain.Copy !req
472. I make everyone around meCopy !req
473. suffer.Copy !req
474. Ben.Copy !req
475. There's a surgery that may help.Copy !req
476. I would like to scrub in
on the amygdala ablation surgery.Copy !req
477. Rose said you're feeling overwhelmed
and need…Copy !req
478. I don't wanna hear any more things
that woman has said.Copy !req
479. Your job is to supervise your residents.Copy !req
480. Why are you here instead of doing that?Copy !req
481. You said you were
going to supervise my supervision,Copy !req
482. but you didn't.Copy !req
483. You took over my case.Copy !req
484. I don't know what I was
supposed to learn or how.Copy !req
485. Scrub in.Copy !req
486. Dr. Murphy,
walk Asher through the probe placementCopy !req
487. and trajectory to the amygdala.Copy !req
488. I will supervise your supervision.Copy !req
489. Okay, insert the probeCopy !req
490. perpendicular to the cortical surface.Copy !req
491. Stop! You're off course.Copy !req
492. On the current trajectory,
you will penetrateCopy !req
493. a branch of the choroidal artery
and cause a hemorrhage.Copy !req
494. - Step away from the probe.
- Your job is to teach,Copy !req
495. not take over.Copy !req
496. Adjust the probe
one millimeter inferiorly.Copy !req
497. Avoid the temporal horn on your right.Copy !req
498. I can't see it on the image guidance.Copy !req
499. Tell Asher what you see.Copy !req
500. It should point toward
your six o'clock on the Y axis.Copy !req
501. You have to feel it.Copy !req
502. The…Copy !req
503. The tissue plane
along the parenchyma is smooth.Copy !req
504. It should feel like gliding.Copy !req
505. You've reached the amygdala.Copy !req
506. Ready to begin
thermal laser ablation.Copy !req
507. Rose's upper GI and labs were normal.Copy !req
508. Should we keep her
another day to observe?Copy !req
509. No. If she's stable,
let's send her home.Copy !req
510. - Okay, I'll have Olivia…
- Open your mouth.Copy !req
511. Pardon me?Copy !req
512. Open your mouth.Copy !req
513. - I can, uh…
- Shut your mouth.Copy !req
514. - There's this rat.
- A mouse.Copy !req
515. A little dead mouse in the garage,Copy !req
516. and the big, strong man
is afraid to get it out.Copy !req
517. Not afraid, disgusted.Copy !req
518. Neither of us wanna deal with it,Copy !req
519. so we are settling it
in the only responsible way, a bet.Copy !req
520. A dare. A series of dares, actually.Copy !req
521. Whoever wusses out first has to…Copy !req
522. Take those things out of your mouth.Copy !req
523. I will discharge Rose.Copy !req
524. You two, go home.Copy !req
525. - We were just…
- Being idiots at work,Copy !req
526. while people are sick and dying.Copy !req
527. Go home.Copy !req
528. All your tests are normal.
We're discharging you.Copy !req
529. Right, because you're psychic.Copy !req
530. I'm an empath, not a psychic.Copy !req
531. Whatever the case,
I would suggest you take it easy.Copy !req
532. No drinking, no heavy lifting…Copy !req
533. You have to let it out, dear.Copy !req
534. It was you.Copy !req
535. You made my heart rate spike.Copy !req
536. You're about to implode.Copy !req
537. There's nothing wrong with you… or me.Copy !req
538. Code blue!Copy !req
539. Yeah?Copy !req
540. Dr. Lim, my behavior yesterday
was inexcusableCopy !req
541. and unprofessional.Copy !req
542. I let you down. I let the patient down.Copy !req
543. I am deeply sorry.Copy !req
544. And I promise it will not happen again.Copy !req
545. You let your personal judgment
get in the way of doing your job.Copy !req
546. You're right. That is inexcusable.Copy !req
547. You said I had no idea
what the patient was going through.Copy !req
548. The truth is I kinda do.Copy !req
549. Scared, alone,
afraid of anyone finding out.Copy !req
550. I chose my career over motherhood,Copy !req
551. over my faith.Copy !req
552. But I don't regret it.Copy !req
553. And I know God forgave me
because I get to be here,Copy !req
554. living my dream of being a doctor.Copy !req
555. But I purposely try not to think about it.Copy !req
556. You're off scut duty.Copy !req
557. That's not why I…Copy !req
558. Take it.Copy !req
559. My name is Benjamin Alan Harris.Copy !req
560. I'm in St. Bonaventure Hospital
in San Jose.Copy !req
561. Language and memory appear to be intact,Copy !req
562. and your motor function is normal.Copy !req
563. But that doesn't mean it worked, does it?Copy !req
564. No.Copy !req
565. We'll have to do an fMRI
to see how you respondCopy !req
566. to fear-inducing stimuli.Copy !req
567. But we'll let you rest for now.Copy !req
568. I'm not gonna rest
until I know I'm better.Copy !req
569. I want you to know
how I got these scars.Copy !req
570. No. Not now.Copy !req
571. Just give yourself time.Copy !req
572. I was in a convoy in Kandahar.Copy !req
573. I was in a Husky,
the big vehicle at the front.Copy !req
574. Ben, you don't have to do this.Copy !req
575. Ronnie was driving.Copy !req
576. He was telling me a story,Copy !req
577. something about a goat at the base,Copy !req
578. or maybe it was a chicken.
I don't know. But…Copy !req
579. We were laughing.Copy !req
580. Then the world was on fire.Copy !req
581. It's the Husky's jobCopy !req
582. to spot IEDs.Copy !req
583. And I missed one.Copy !req
584. I can't see their faces.Copy !req
585. JustCopy !req
586. bodies everywhere.Copy !req
587. Dying alone,Copy !req
588. without their families.Copy !req
589. All I could do was hold their hand.Copy !req
590. Are you okay, Ben?Copy !req
591. Fun day.Copy !req
592. What do you need?Copy !req
593. We have a diagnosis.Copy !req
594. I thought I felt someone here.Copy !req
595. You've had a long day.Copy !req
596. You have Prinzmetal's Angina, Rose.Copy !req
597. A heart condition.
But it's very treatable.Copy !req
598. It explains all your symptoms,Copy !req
599. and it's exacerbated by stress,Copy !req
600. which is likely
what caused your heart attack.Copy !req
601. You need to stop seeking out
other people's pain.Copy !req
602. It's literally killing you.Copy !req
603. You're the Chief of Surgery.Copy !req
604. You could have sent somebody else
to tell me this.Copy !req
605. Sure.Copy !req
606. But then I'd miss my chance to gloat.Copy !req
607. You're here because you're hurtingCopy !req
608. and you don't know where else to go.Copy !req
609. Go ahead. Use your magic.Copy !req
610. Tell me what's wrong with me.Copy !req
611. How do I stop feeling like this?Copy !req
612. It doesn't work that way.Copy !req
613. I don't have a magic wand.Copy !req
614. I can only hold up a mirror,Copy !req
615. make you slow down,Copy !req
616. look at the parts of yourselfCopy !req
617. that you've been trying to ignoreCopy !req
618. because you're afraid
if you look too closely, you'll break.Copy !req
619. Maybe you will. I don't know.Copy !req
620. Maybe breaking is the point.Copy !req
621. You can't outrun your pain, Dr. Lim.Copy !req
622. If you keep trying, it's gonna kill you.Copy !req
623. Time of death,34.Copy !req
624. Time of death,13.Copy !req
625. Time of death,25.Copy !req
626. Time of death, 2100 hours.Copy !req
627. - Time of death…
- Time of death,26.Copy !req
628. - Time of death…
- Time of death,13.Copy !req
629. - Time of death…
- 26.Copy !req
630. - 55.
- Time of death…Copy !req