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- Oh, I'm sorry.
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471. Two ticket stubs to Quantum of Solace.
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472. Now, you once called
Daniel Craig "James Blonde,"
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473. and yet, 11 years later,
these were in your drawer,
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474. on top of an instruction manual
for a 2019 cellphone,
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475. which means you dug them out
within the last year.
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476. Why? I can only assume
you are currently
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477. once again hooking up
with the James Blonde fan.
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478. How could you possible deduce…
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479. I also read your e-mails.
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480. You've been sleeping with an ex
without asking for any commitment.
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481. It's sex.
It's not keeping me from anything.
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482. What's more likely
to prevent someone from moving on?
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483. A parrot in a drawer
or an ex in your bed?
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484. I'm at least getting something hot
from the situation.
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485. You're just wallowing in failure.
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486. So, if your bag's empty,
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487. I'm naked and have to go to the bathroom.
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488. It's called a Y-shaped vein graft.
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489. Your aorta is damaged from the aneurysm
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490. right where it branches off.
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491. We're gonna find a vein in your leg
that's similar in size,
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492. cut it out, and use it
to replace the damaged artery.
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493. How bad is it?
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494. This is an excellent solution.
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495. If it works.
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496. What are the actual chances
that it doesn't,
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497. that I'm gonna die?
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498. - I don't want to give a number.
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499. I mean, I can't.
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500. I literally can't.
There are too many factors.
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501. I can call in Dr. Murphy…
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502. I don't need to hear numbers.
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503. How bad is this?
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504. Bad.
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505. Thank you.
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506. Whatever happens,
you're gonna be an incredible doctor.
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507. And I am honored
to have been your first patient.
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508. I screwed up.
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509. That first exam,
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510. I felt something.
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511. I should have known it was an aneurysm.
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512. We could have saved you
before it got bad.
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513. Why…
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514. You were my first patient.
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515. I need you to do something for me.
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516. I need you to pray.
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517. You must know a prayer for the sick.
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518. I'm not a believer anymore.
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519. Neither am I.
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520. But…
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521. Ellie, do you know these men?
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522. Of course.
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523. Brendan.
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524. And…
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525. And are you a friend of Brendan's?
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526. Something like that.
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527. A lot has happened in the last week.
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528. So before you went under,
the doctors made a video.
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529. It's sort of, uh, a message
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530. from your old self to your new one.
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531. Um…
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532. I just want you to know
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533. that I love you.
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534. Tell me about the day you met.
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535. I was in the middle
of an art exhibit in SoMa,
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536. and I noticed this guy, and he was
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537. Looking at all the same paintings
I had been looking at.
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538. Need another 6-0 loaded backhand
for the arterial stump.
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539. Graft is secure.
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540. Take off the Satinsky clamp.
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541. Good perfusion to his lower body.
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542. - Heart rate's spiking.
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543. There's no ST elevations.
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544. BP's tanking. Did he thrombose the graft?
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545. Distal anastomosis is pulsatile.
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546. But there is blood pooling
in the left lower quadrant.
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547. The right, too.
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548. He's bleeding everywhere but the graft.
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549. It's DIC.
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550. Send a stat ROTEM and coag profile…
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551. Start compression, give epinephrine,
and get the defib.
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552. - Set it to 120.
- 120.
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553. - Clear.
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554. Compressions.
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555. No response.
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556. Go to monophasic at 360.
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557. - Clear.
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558. Why aren't you shocking again?
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559. He's in asystole.
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560. Dr. Lim?
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561. Dr. Wolke.
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562. He's dead.
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563. Time of death,23 p.m.
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564. Take as much time as you need.
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565. I was in love with him.
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566. All those moments I had,
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567. meeting at the gallery,
the conversations…
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568. I don't remember any of them.
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569. But they were real.
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570. And they brought up feelings.
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571. Ones I don't remember having
for a really long time.
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572. But all they made me
think of was you, Brendan.
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573. Hearing how I met Zane just reminded me
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574. how you and I met at Chelsey's party,
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575. and you showed up
in that ugly bomber jacket.
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576. And Zane taking me to the hospital
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577. reminded me how you nursed me for months
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578. when I broke my femur in Aspen.
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579. And the whole time…
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580. I just couldn't stop thinking about
how much I must have hurt you.
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581. And I…
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582. I don't know
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583. if you can forgive me.
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584. But I love you.
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585. And I… I want to come home.
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586. Well, you're wrong.
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587. That bomber jacket was really cool.
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588. He died.
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589. I tried stepping back.
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590. I tried brainstorming.
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591. And he died.
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592. I don't know what people
are thinking or feeling.
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593. I can't communicate what I need.
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594. And more patients will die.
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595. You don't think your ASD had anything
to do with your patient's death, do you?
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596. Because it didn't.
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597. It did.
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598. Asher wasn't sure
about his abdominal exam.
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599. I should have known that.
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600. Shaun, you're gonna do
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601. most things better than anyone else,
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602. and there are days when you're gonna fail,
like everyone else.
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603. Today might be one of those days.
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604. So…
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605. What do you do then?
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606. You go home,
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607. you be with the people you love.
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608. You take comfort in that,
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609. and then you wake up tomorrow
and start all over again.
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610. You can go home.
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611. I just
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612. don't wanna be alone right now.
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613. I opened a Bumble account today.
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614. Mm.
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615. I swiped right three times today.
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616. Gronk's jersey
didn't have a tag in the back.
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617. It's symbolic.
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618. You have any idea how much the real one
will be worth one day?
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619. Fair enough.
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620. I'm glad you're here with me.
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