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82. Oh, hi.
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113. Long enough for you, not for me.
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120. No.
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137. Her son's a sculptor. Daughter's a composer.
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139. They're famous, if you're into the arts at all.
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149. Oh.
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160. I'm not good with nonverbal communication.
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163. You'll figure this out.
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167. Excellent.
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169. are here to check on me.
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170. They're curious.
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171. About what monster created me.
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173. Morgan, you're smart and nice and perfectly normal.
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179. Your daughter is right, Mrs. Reznick.
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318. Where the hell is everybody?
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321. Knuckle's still there, but we need to get her to an O.R.
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322. Whoa, whoa! No one touches that but the surgeon.
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374. Don't bother. I'll be staying.
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484. That's not something I hear a lot.
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485. Well, he's right.
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486. You would reign like a queen over your own death,
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487. insisting on absolute control.
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488. I just meant you each have a funny way
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489. of picking things up with both hands sometimes.
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490. I don't think this is anatomically correct.
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491. Hmm.
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492. Hmm.
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493. Stereotactic laser ablation.
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494. You worked with one of the people who developed the technique.
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495. We never used to call it that.
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496. I never liked that name.
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497. Also, it's never been used in Cerebral Cavernous Malformations.
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498. Not yet.
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499. It would allow us to target the malformations
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500. without needing to slice all those cerebral fibers
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501. or remove a chunk of my mother's brain.
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502. It would have to be applied to each malformation
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503. with exact precision.
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504. Okay, so do that. You can't.
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505. You're gonna make a mistake on one or two of them.
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506. And then you got more bleeding, seizures,
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507. you got inflamed malformations growing out of control.
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508. You can.
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509. Even if I was still a neurosurgeon,
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510. which I'm not, I wouldn't.
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511. You don't get to quit who you are.
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512. How long has it been since you had your hands
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513. inside the source of what makes us human?
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514. That flow, in surgery, knowing every move
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515. and just feeling how right it is...
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516. That's peak existence.
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517. I'm sorry. I'm not gonna do the surgery.
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518. Are you s...
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519. Are you scared to pick up a scalpel?
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520. You had months of chemo and radiation.
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521. Maybe it took its toll.
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522. E-Even a 10% drop in performance would be unbearable.
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523. Why risk finding it out?
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524. Get out.
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525. Skydiving?
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526. Fugu?
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527. And apparently a yellow suit.
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528. Do you think a deadline like he has
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529. burns you down to who you really are?
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530. Or does it just make you nuts and desperate?
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531. Why can't it be both?
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532. Hmm.
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533. Okay, um...
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534. A little house in the middle of nowhere.
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535. Two chickens. One dog.
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536. Nobody who expects anything from me.
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537. Nobody who is even verbal.
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538. I'm tired of trying to fix myself.
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539. And I'm tired of being known as a soft touch.
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540. Not buying it.
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541. There's no way you would get a dog
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542. if you only had six months to live.
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543. Wouldn't be fair.
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544. Okay, then I would foster a series of rescue dogs.
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545. You said you're tired of being a soft touch,
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546. and yet your fantasy involves helping.
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547. We are who we are.
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548. It's called stereotactic laser ablation.
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549. Never liked the name.
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550. He said it's minimally invasive, and if it works,
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551. it would save my life
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552. and allow me to continue painting.
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553. If I win, I win everything.
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554. And if I lose, it's over.
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555. When you first came to see Dr. Glassman, he didn't offer this option.
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556. Why not?
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557. Stereotactic laser ablation is a new technique,
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558. and it's never been used on a Cav Mal patient.
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559. So, he just didn't think of it?
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560. But then it came to him?
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561. It was my idea.
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562. Dr. Glassman didn't sugarcoat the risks.
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563. This is the last chance you've got to keep your art.
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564. I'm not going to complete my work if I'm dead.
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565. No.
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566. But thank you so much for trying.
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567. Why didn't you back me up?
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568. I didn't know you were gonna throw this crapshoot at us.
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569. Do you even listen to what she's been saying?
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570. She wants to finish her work.
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571. She could live another 40 years,
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572. and her art would grow with her.
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573. Don't pretend those words mean anything to you.
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574. You don't give a damn about art.
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575. Her family could grow with her...
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576. Her children, her grandchildren.
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577. You and her don't give a damn about anything except for art.
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578. You need to listen to me and do what I tell you.
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579. This is why we didn't call you.
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580. The competition in that family
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581. must have been like a buzz saw.
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582. Okay. Please.
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583. It's perfectly reasonable to get out of a game you can't win.
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584. You did everything right...
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585. Moved 3,000 miles, found your own calling,
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586. a career people respect and value.
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587. Actually, there's a good comparative measure for how people value things.
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588. We call it money.
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589. And my brother's already a million dollars ahead.
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590. See how you went straight to your brother?
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591. Did you ever think he might be tired of being your competitor?
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592. He won a long time ago.
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593. That's why I left that dysfunctional world behind.
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594. Really?
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595. Because it seems to me you re-created the competition you grew up with
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596. the very first day you got here.
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597. Shingles? Like, from chicken pox?
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598. The virus was dormant,
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599. then your chemo suppressed your immune system,
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600. and the virus woke up.
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601. It can be painful,
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602. but the treatment is very simple.
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603. Do you want us to call your wife?
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604. No, thank you.
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605. Just fix me up and release me into the wild.
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606. Back to the bucket list.
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607. She was right.
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608. I'm not the same person.
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609. I'm doing what we all should be doing.
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610. We all want to cut loose,
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611. but we're just too practical.
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612. If this had not happened,
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613. I might've lived to be 90, never looking up.
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614. Dr. Murphy, what do you want to do
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615. that you just haven't done yet? What makes you happy?
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616. I want to give Carly... Shaun.
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617. Oh.
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618. I like a crisp apple.
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619. The way the sunlight hits my bedsheets
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620. in the morning in a perfect square.
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621. I like the movement of wind in leaves.
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622. And the way the circumference of a circle
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623. is always equal to pi times the diameter,
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624. no matter what numbers you put in.
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625. You like the happiness of small things.
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626. Yes.
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627. Your happiness is too loud.
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628. Shake your head again.
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629. Didn't he have a muscle issue?
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630. His range of motion seems good.
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631. All the better for zip-lining in Costa Rica, right?
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632. Not right.
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633. We need more tests.
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634. I'm sorry.
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635. I know we want the same things.
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636. I'd like to show you something.
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637. DR. Neurons that fire together wire together.
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638. One neuron goes off, exciting the next,
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639. creating a pathway in the brain
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640. that wasn't there before.
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641. Every time Mom takes a brushstroke,
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642. every time you use a chisel.
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643. It's like we're creating ourselves in the choices we make.
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644. We are creating this.
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645. It's beautiful.
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646. We target each malformation
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647. with a thermal laser probe.
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648. Just the malformation.
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649. The trajectory has to be perfect.
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650. You can't paint over it.
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651. You could show this to Mom.
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652. But from you, she'll accept it.
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653. DR. Inserting the laser probe into the cooling catheter.
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654. Locked and loaded. Ready to fire.
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655. DR. Dr. Glassman,
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656. are you sure of this location?
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657. It seems significantly far
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658. from what we saw on her pre-surgical MRIs.
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659. You know what the brain and breakfast cereal have in common?
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660. Contents tend to shift during transport.
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661. Yes, I'm quite sure.
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662. First ablation complete.
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663. Now we just have to do it perfectly nine more times.
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664. It's gone?
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665. DR. Well, not quite. But close.
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666. The recent infections got into the tumor.
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667. Which allowed your immune system to find it.
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668. But they said it was an aggressive cancer.
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669. What makes a cancer aggressive
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670. is its ability to evade the immune system.
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671. That's no longer true about yours.
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672. The tumor has become small enough to remove surgically.
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673. We can make an appointment to do that in a few days,
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674. once the infection has fully cleared your system.
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675. Meanwhile, you can go home.
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676. Congratulations.
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677. Home?
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678. How do you feel?
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679. Tired.
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680. Of being in this place.
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681. Reasonable answer.
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682. Do you feel your creativity's impaired?
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683. Isn't that the graphic you use to sign your paintings?
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684. Thank you for knowing that.
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685. Ariel was afraid you'd feel vandalized.
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686. Ah, don't be silly. We'll auction off the door.
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687. Mom, you've thanked your doctors,
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688. but you haven't said anything to Morgan.
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689. You know, getting out of this mess intact,
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690. that's down to her.
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691. Oh, yes, I know.
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692. I owe you everything.
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693. Thank you...
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694. For saving my life.
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695. You're welcome.
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696. Our little plodder came through.
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697. Not everybody gets a parade.
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698. Maybe Carly doesn't have them.
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699. Maybe I haven't practiced enough.
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700. I've worked on my surgical technique
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701. for hundreds of hours.
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702. You can't just take the pizza out of the freezer and dig in.
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703. You have to put it in the microwave first.
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704. Actually, Dr. Lim,
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705. a toaster oven is better for the crust.
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706. She's not talking about pizza, Shaun.
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707. Mm.
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708. Men your age run out of patience.
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709. They turn off the microwave before that pizza's ready.
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711. Yes.
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713. Are there differences in parades?
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714. Some have balloons and marching bands.
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715. Other parades are sparsely attended.
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716. I want Carly to have the best parade possible.
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717. I know you do.
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718. Just as you want to be the best surgeon possible.
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719. When you're in the O.R., you commit totally.
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720. You persevere. Everything else falls away.
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721. You focus entirely on what you're doing.
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722. That's your superpower.
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723. Now I want you to take Carly home
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724. and work that parade route
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725. and don't stop until the band begins playing.
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726. And then go 3% longer.
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727. I will.
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728. See you tomorrow.
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729. All that focus.
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730. Strangely intriguing.
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732. I wouldn't want to be anywhere but where I am.
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