Scenes from a Marriage 1x4

1. Production,

2. Jessica's pulling into set in a minute.

3. Copy that.

4. Yeah, I'm walking up to the house now, okay, Ava?

5. But I can't find my...

6. There's nothing to worry about.

7. No. Nothing's gonna happen to your dolls.

8. I've looked everywhere.

9. Honey, I promise you.

10. But what if she's not in the box?

11. Listen, if you put Lucy in the box,

12. then that's where she still is, honey.

13. - Mm-hmm. That's why we agreed...

14. I apologize for the delay,

15. but it was a— it was a force majeure.

16. Uh-huh. Well, Daddy's here.

17. It means that my wife had a really important meeting come up

18. - that she couldn't cancel. - And he and I will make sure...

19. - But she just arrived.

20. all of your stuff goes safely on the truck, okay?

21. My wife, she just— she just got here, so you guys can come any time.

22. - Okay, but we're not gonna be there...

23. Okay. I'm going upstairs right now. Right now.

24. - Wait, wait, wait. What?

25. Yeah. I'm gonna check on your dolls.

26. But first of all, it's the afternoon. It's not evening right now.

27. - All right. But I— - Yes, I'm going—

28. No, not your— not your new room.

29. Your old room, sweetheart.

30. - Right. Well, what are the evening rates? - Okay. Oh, sw—

31. Ava, this is so good. You did such a good job.

32. There's no way anyone is ever gonna mix this up,

33. I promise.

34. I'm totally happy to compensate you for the delay, but...

35. No. You know what? I've got her in my hand.

36. I'm gonna put this box in my car,

37. so it's not even gonna go in the truck, okay?

38. - No, no, no, not tomorrow. It has to be today.

39. I know, sweetheart, but I promise you that—

40. If you just— Are you there? Ava?

41. - Honey? - Fine, but I can't go tomorrow.

42. - Hey, Mira. - Oh, hey, Veronica.

43. - Yeah, no. She's really angry.

44. No, I'll have cash for you when you get here, okay?

45. It's good she's expressing it.

46. I mean, it's healthy, but it's just,

47. - I didn't... - Yeah. Yeah. That's good.

48. Six o'clock is fine, but please no later than that, all right?

49. — Do you know when you'll be done? - I think I'll be done at- 00?

50. Yeah. All right. See you soon. Thank you.

51. All right. Thank you for everything. Bye.

52. Hey.

53. Everything okay?

54. Yeah. It's just this fixation on her things.

55. I mean, it's normal.

56. Her therapist warned us about it.

57. I just didn't realize it would be this intense.

58. Yeah. You know, I'm sure she's gonna feel

59. so much better once everything's unpacked, and...

60. Mm-hmm. You don't think I could find an Advil by chance?

61. I've got such a crazy headache.

62. Um, I don't know. Let me see, maybe...

63. Oh, God.

64. Maybe in the bathroom?

65. Is Tylenol okay?

66. Uh, it'll have to be.

67. Okay. Here you go. Here.

68. - Thanks. - You got a migraine?

69. I don't know yet.

70. It started in the middle of my meeting with Ackerman.

71. Hmm.

72. Well, Ackerman's a migraine personified.

73. I don't know about that, you know?

74. I think it's the stress of having to leave in the middle.

75. We weren't exactly finished.

76. Uh, yeah. Sorry. Couldn't cancel the movers.

77. Okay. But I'm still just a little unclear

78. why it had to be today.

79. Why? Because we agreed to vacate on the 20th.

80. But why did we agree to vacate on the 20th?

81. Because I'm leaving on a flight the day after tomorrow.

82. Yeah, but you're only gone for a week.

83. Well, nine days, actually.

84. Okay. So what's the big deal, honey?

85. - What is it? - Okay, okay, okay.

86. Let's just get through this, okay?

87. Okay. Let's go downstairs.

88. Well, shouldn't we just start here since we're already—

89. No, we can do it later.

90. Okay.

91. But wait, wasn't it just supposed to be a week?

92. I mean, how many lectures are you doing? Just two, no?

93. Um, well, two in Berlin,

94. and then there's the panel in Vienna.

95. - I showed you the itinerary. - Right. Yeah. I just—

96. I better get used to you traveling so much.

97. Well, it's not— it's only my second trip this year.

98. Yeah. Uh, where are the documents?

99. - There. - Okay.

100. It's just this last paper really took off, you know.

101. - Yeah, it's great. - Yeah, it's crazy.

102. Yeah. Okay.

103. Okay, yeah, so...

104. - There you go.

105. So here is the list of items right here.

106. Mm-hmm.

107. And here's the settlement itself.

108. Right.

109. Uh, which is exactly what we agreed to with Jason.

110. Remember, he sent us the memo?

111. He emailed it to us last week? Right? Okay?

112. And the only difference is the amount we got

113. for the house, split in two, minus the broker's fee.

114. In the last draft, it was blank.

115. Okay.

116. Uh, what is— What am I supposed to—

117. You'll sign by the stickers, and then

118. - you'll initial each page. - Right.

119. - Wait, hold on, hold on. - No, I got it.

120. Wait, wait. We have to look through all the items

121. and make sure everything's okay. That's why we're doing it here.

122. - I'm just not up for this right now, so... - We'll do it really quickly.

123. We'll just go through it quickly, then you'll sign, and that's it. You'll be done.

124. You don't even have to wait for the movers, okay?

125. No, I do. I promised Ava I would be here to put—

126. make sure her boxes got on the truck.

127. Well, then you have to wait anyway, right?

128. So come on. Let's get started.

129. Okay. Okay. Fine.

130. - So what do the colors mean? - Yeah.

131. Yellow's mine. Um, red is yours.

132. - Okay. - Blue is storage.

133. So they'll pack everything up, and, uh,

134. then they'll unload at my place first,

135. then you guys, then the storage facility.

136. Okay?

137. Will Poli be home?

138. Will he be able to help you unpack?

139. I'm not sure.

140. Uh— didn't we say said that I was gonna get the green couch?

141. Uh, actually, no, we didn't.

142. We didn't. You said that you didn't want

143. any of the living room furniture

144. because you got all new stuff at the tower.

145. No, I'm pretty sure we talked about the green couch specifi—

146. - We didn't. - Okay.

147. Do you want to? You wanna talk about it?

148. I mean, like formally in the settlement?

149. It's fine. It's just furniture.

150. Okay.

151. All right. All right. All right.

152. Okay. There you go.

153. Happy to do it.

154. Really. Okay?

155. How's your headache?

156. You need to lie down for a moment?

157. - No. I'm fine. - Okay.

158. You up for doing this?

159. We'll just go through the house quickly

160. - and just get it done? - No.

161. I'm not up for it, Jonathan.

162. But you already wanted to make an adjustment to the thing.

163. - I just think it's important... - I know. It's okay. I trust you.

164. I really do. Just— you do it. I trust you.

165. Is... is something wrong?

166. No. It's just, um,

167. it's been a shitty day, you know?

168. - Yeah. - It's really—

169. it's a horrible ending to just a terrible day.

170. What's horrible?

171. Oh, yeah. Well, yeah. Yeah.

172. No, I mean, it is— it's a— It is surprising

173. how something so formal can have such an impact, right?

174. I mean, it's just a piece of paper,

175. - just a fucking gett. - A "get"?

176. Yeah. It's, uh, it's Hebrew for divorce papers.

177. Oh, yeah. I think I remember that.

178. Although "give" would be more like it.

179. - Yeah. - Give up.

180. It's Aramaic for deed.

181. - Mm. - It's basically papers

182. that when I give them to you, we're divorced.

183. - And that's it? - Yeah.

184. Yeah. But it's like— it's a crazy,

185. traumatic ceremony.

186. - There's three judges. - Mm-hmm.

187. And, um, you have to have witnesses

188. to testify that you are who you say you are

189. and I am who I say I am. It's humiliating.

190. - Is it gett with two Ts? - Yeah.

191. And then you have to go into this little room,

192. - and there's a guy in there... - Uh-huh.

193. writing calligraphy on parchment.

194. And he's writing out the text of the gett.

195. - Yeah. - And it's—

196. it's like a thriller, because the tiniest mistake

197. and you have to start all over again.

198. And then, uh, and then you go back in to the judges...

199. - Mm-hmm. - ... and the witnesses.

200. And then I have to hand you the gett in front of everybody

201. and yell a few sentences at you, and then you hold it up high,

202. and you walk around the room with it.

203. And then the judge rips it to pieces.

204. - And there's more. - Jesus.

205. Yeah, totally.

206. Why does it have to be like that?

207. - Isn't it brutal enough? - Well, I think there's a—

208. plenty of legal reasons, but I think it just has to be

209. absolute and definitive. That's the... you know.

210. - They don't like any gray areas. - Mm.

211. You're either in or you're out.

212. And if you're out... there's no going back.

213. - Right. - There's some logic to that, no?

214. So what's it say?

215. It's like, um...

216. "This is your gett, and with it,

217. you are divorced from me

218. and hereby permitted to all men."

219. To all men? Thank you very much.

220. Yeah.

221. Does all men include you?

222. No. No.

223. I'm not allowed to touch you anymore

224. or even be in the same room alone with you

225. - from that point on. - Hmm.

226. It's over. Clean break.

227. And like, um... What are— are you...

228. allowed to marry me again?

229. Am I allowed to marry you?

230. In principle, but only if you haven't been

231. with any other men.

232. - We are fucked. - Yeah.

233. - Hey. - Hmm?

234. Come here.

235. - Come here.

236. So basically, this is forbidden?

237. Well, we're not divorced yet.

238. Not yet.

239. - Oh, yeah.

240. Oh, my—

241. - Okay.

242. No.

243. - Just— - No, don't.

244. Don't go yet. Don't go yet.

245. Please.

246. Stay here.

247. Penny for your thoughts?

248. It'll cost you a lot more than that.

249. Are you hungry?

250. Yeah. I'm always hungry.

251. Let's go out.

252. - What? - Yeah.

253. - Really? - Yeah.

254. The movers are gonna be here in 20 minutes.

255. We'll go to The Grille, all right?

256. Back in 20 minutes.

257. - I want a steak.

258. Okay. Okay. Great. Let's do it.

259. - Okay. - I'm just gonna...

260. Sure. Do your thing.

261. What?

262. Nothing.

263. I should probably...

264. Just give me a second, okay?

265. Mm-hmm.

266. I'll be right back.

267. Right, so...

268. Okay.

269. Let's get these stupid papers signed,

270. and we'll go get a bite to eat.

271. Pay tribute to a long and happy marriage.

272. You can go home straight from there, yeah?

273. Um, I think I'm gonna take these home

274. and take a minute to go over it.

275. What do you mean? We went over it a hundred times.

276. Yeah, but you have to read a contract before you sign it.

277. Uh, no. Actually, you don't, 'cause that's the exact

278. same document that we approved already.

279. All right. So what's— Why does it have to be today?

280. Mira. Come on. We agreed, today.

281. - We agreed we'd do it today. - It'll be tomorrow, I promise.

282. — No, I c— — What's the big deal?

283. I cannot do it tomorrow

284. - because I'm getting ready for my trip... - Okay.

285. - ... and I won't have time to go down to the courthouse. - That's fine.

286. - So let's do it now. - So it— it'll be, um,

287. - when you get back. - Oh, my God. I—

288. No. Okay. Okay.

289. Okay, here.

290. Sit down right here, okay? Right now.

291. - Babe, I'm not— - Just listen.

292. Go over it. Go over it. Take all the time you need.

293. I'm gonna get out of your way.

294. Just for fuck's sake, get it over with.

295. Why are you talking to me like that? What is wrong?

296. - What's wrong is... - Yeah?

297. we went over it a hundred times!

298. We spent months hashing it out,

299. - so what is your latest whim? - Okay. Whoa. Okay.

300. - Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. - You can't, like...

301. We're here. We're—

302. We were just having a really good time.

303. - Yeah. - And we're about to go get something to eat.

304. I don't think so. I'm not going to, okay? No.

305. - Jonathan. Hey. - No. Mira. Mira.

306. Please, get it over with.

307. I don't understand what the big deal is.

308. What could be more rational than wanting to take it

309. and go over it quietly at home? So...

310. - Mm-hmm.

311. - Okay. - Yeah?

312. Yeah. Fine.

313. Fine. That's okay. Forget about it, okay?

314. Just take it home. Go over it quietly with Poli.

315. He's nobody's sucker, that's for sure, right?

316. - Just make sure, you guys can look through it... - Jonathan.

317. that I haven't, you know, fucked you over

318. in some secret clause or something

319. that I've put in there. Go ahead. Just take it.

320. - Don't do this. - Fucking forget it.

321. It's fine. I don't care. It's fine.

322. I don't understand what—

323. We were just so close to each other.

324. Yup. Exactly.

325. Just so you know, if we're talking about renegotiating, it's a two-way street,

326. and there's plenty of stuff in there that I'm not crazy about either.

327. I'm not saying that I wanna renegotiate. I'm just saying I wanna read it.

328. - Okay. - Okay?

329. - Just saying. I'm just saying. - Okay.

330. Jesus.

331. By the way, since we're talking, um,

332. you haven't paid your half of Ava's dance classes,

333. and they're bugging me about it.

334. All right. I'll pay you right now.

335. No. Don't pay me. Pay them what you owe them.

336. Your half. That's how it works.

337. Right. I will pay them. How much is it?

338. I don't know. Check with them.

339. Okay.

340. It's 2,500 dollars.

341. - What? - Yeah.

342. What?

343. We moved her into the intermediate group.

344. That's twice a week, ballet and jazz.

345. Yeah. I know it's twice a week. It was my idea.

346. Okay, well, that's how much it costs.

347. I don't know what you want me to tell you. You asked me to take care of it.

348. You didn't think it was a little exorbitant or...

349. If I can afford it, Mira, you can afford it too.

350. Okay. It's not about whether or not I can afford it.

351. - It's just... - Okay.

352. It's outrageous, so—

353. Well, I guess if that's what it costs,

354. then we'll just, you know, we'll cut her back down

355. - to once a week. - Okay. That's fine. Go for it.

356. Tell her that she can only go once a week

357. and she's gotta choose between ballet and jazz.

358. I'm fine with that.

359. Can't— can you tell her that?

360. Why should I tell her that?

361. Because I can't— You know why.

362. I'm— She's furious at me.

363. I'm walking a delicate line with her.

364. Okay. Well, you know what? Not giving her boundaries,

365. that's not gonna make it any better.

366. Fine. Jonathan, I know I'm a failure as a mother,

367. - but that's not really helping. - You know what, instead of acting like a martyr,

368. - why don't you just try... - Oh, my God.

369. having an honest conversation with her?

370. - She's seven years old. - Give me a break!

371. - She's not a toddler anymore. - You know things are shitty between her and I right now,

372. - and your lecture isn't helping. - Well, you have to— Okay.

373. - Will you tell her or not? - What do you want me to tell her?

374. That her mother ran away with some guy one day

375. and now she has to choose between ballet and jazz?

376. Wow.

377. I hoped I'd never hear that again.

378. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't— That was unnecessary.

379. I'm sorry about that.

380. I'm sorry.

381. Is that what you tell her?

382. Is that the story you tell her about me?

383. No. No. I don't—

384. I don't talk to her about that.

385. I don't ever talk to her about the separation.

386. Okay.

387. Why, do you talk to her about it?

388. No.

389. It's fucked up.

390. I mean, I don't— like, it's hard.

391. Where do we even begin to...

392. I know, I wish we...

393. We don't even know what's going on.

394. We just all grow up illiterate about it.

395. Maybe we should've been more prepared for it.

396. It's a fact that it doesn't always end up that way.

397. I mean, it doesn't even usually end up that way.

398. So how do you prepare someone for that?

399. I don't know.

400. I think we should teach kids that, yeah, love ends.

401. It's, uh...

402. Yeah, relationships end and people leave

403. and they break up and they divorce.

404. - And that's just a part of life. - Yeah.

405. And then maybe it just wouldn't be so painful

406. and, uh, you know, all the suffering.

407. I think the real suffering is the in-between.

408. You know, the limbo, neither here nor there, just...

409. I think that's way harder than a breakup.

410. That's much more traumatic

411. for the kids and for the parents.

412. At least, that's how it is for me.

413. Mira, let's get this over with, okay?

414. I'll—

415. I promise you that if you find something in the document,

416. or if there's a mistake in the settlement,

417. I won't contest it.

418. I'll write something right now guaranteeing you that.

419. All right?

420. I don't understand. I mean, what—

421. This isn't about the money, right?

422. So what is...

423. I got fired.

424. What?

425. Or I was— I was invited to resign.

426. Anyway, it's— it's over.

427. I don't understand. What do you mean?

428. That's what my meeting with Ackerman today was about.

429. Oh.

430. Yeah.

431. I mean, it was kind of obvious something like this could happen

432. ever since I didn't take the London job. I mean, I was...

433. You were never gonna take the London job.

434. No, that's— Okay, that's not accurate.

435. - And there were various options to that. - Mira. No, there—

436. There was no option, so...

437. Come on. I'm not blaming you. That's not what this is about.

438. It's just like, you know,

439. when I didn't take the job, then...

440. yeah, they didn't know what to do with me.

441. Couldn't relocate. I couldn't travel because of Ava.

442. And, you know, going, uh, back to running

443. a product management team, it just—

444. it seemed like a demotion.

445. So they started shopping me around the company,

446. to find me a position.

447. - Nothing clicked. - Yeah.

448. So this morning, uh, he asked me for a meeting,

449. which he began by saying,

450. "Mira, I would like to set you free for a new adventure."

451. Asshole.

452. I'm like, "I'm 43 and half years old.

453. I'm one-half of a single parent.

454. What kind of new adventure do you have in mind?

455. I mean, tell me the truth. Tell me that you're firing me

456. because I no longer live for this company,

457. I'm not at your beck and call 120 percent of the time

458. like I used to be. You can't ask me to,

459. you know, go out, entertain the clients anymore

460. because I'd rather be at home with my kid.

461. And you know what, maybe the new, young,

462. ambitious product manager should take them out anyway,

463. because she's much more fun."

464. I guess the weird— I was, uh...

465. You know, I was sitting across from him and, um,

466. I could see in his eyes, they were just like

467. switched off, you know?

468. I was invisible to him.

469. I used to have all this power over him.

470. I could steer him in whatever direction

471. I wanted him to go, and now I was nothing.

472. And then I realized that I, um...

473. I've lost that power over everything.

474. You know, that power that comes from, um, being desirous.

475. I sat at the table and I just— I felt so disposable

476. and, uh... yeah, so I really, I felt old.

477. So, that's it.

478. Yeah, I'm, uh... There's a hearing in two weeks.

479. I have a severance, there'll be stock options, and...

480. But that's it. That's— You know, it's done.

481. I'm really sorry that happened to you.

482. You're sorry that happened to me?

483. Yeah. Yeah.

484. Okay. You don't need to be polite.

485. No. No. I'm not. I, uh—

486. But, uh, I, uh, it's...

487. What?

488. You know, it's weird.

489. What?

490. I'm just— I'm—

491. - I'm listening to everything that you're saying... - Uh-huh.

492. and it's just— it's not, uh...

493. You're right.

494. If circumstances were different,

495. I'd be fucking losing my mind right now.

496. I'd be telling you I was gonna murder Ackerman

497. - and... - Mm-hmm.

498. be going crazy with revenge fantasies.

499. - Right. - Yeah.

500. And I'm listening to you right now,

501. and I don't... I don't feel...

502. anything.

503. Oh, wow.

504. Well, congratulations.

505. - I'm sorry. - No.

506. I don't— I'm not trying to be callous. I'm not.

507. I know that you're going through a really hard time right now,

508. - but you asked, and that's... - Yeah.

509. I'm sharing how I feel.

510. Well, how you don't feel.

511. Half an hour after you were inside me.

512. - Yeah. It's a— - Yeah.

513. That was— That's the weird part.

514. Uh-huh.

515. But, honestly, even when we were having sex,

516. - which was great. It was. - Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

517. - It really was, right? - Yeah.

518. And— there was a part of me that was observing myself

519. from the outside, checking in to see like how I felt,

520. how I was feeling. What if this was the last time?

521. What if I never even see you again?

522. - Mm-hmm. - How do I feel?

523. Would it be so unbearable? And no,

524. I realized I could do without it.

525. - You didn't feel that way? - Mm-mm. No.

526. Okay, it's just like, I think about it a lot,

527. - you know? - Mm-hmm.

528. Because I do— I do think that my...

529. extreme dependence on you, that that's really what ruined

530. everything for us beyond repair because that paralyzed me.

531. Hmm.

532. The thought of losing you, the fear of losing you,

533. because that would mean losing everything.

534. So I'm just saying that, like when we were in the middle

535. - of that... - Mm-hmm.

536. I realized that that fear wasn't there anymore.

537. That I was free from you at last—

538. Okay. I don't wanna— I don't wanna hear anymore.

539. I mean, it's not really the right time

540. for a therapy session. You don't have to blurt out

541. - whatever pops in your head. - Shut the fuck up.

542. Just shut up.

543. Like, what... what is this?

544. What is this sarcasm and this fucking toxic shit?

545. Who are you to say when the time is right and when the time is wrong?

546. - Why do you get to decide that? - While you tell me you just fucked me

547. in order to prove yourself that you don't love me anymore?

548. I'm trying to talk to you. I'm trying to talk to you.

549. I'm trying to tell you something about—

550. No. You're a fucking narcissist. This isn't sharing.

551. This is you vomiting your stream of consciousness all over me.

552. You don't give a fuck how it makes me feel.

553. That is such bullshit.

554. I— Mira, there—

555. I have never had an inch of emotional space

556. - to share about my feelings with you. - Oh, my God.

557. If I hear one more word of this psychobabble,

558. - I'm gonna scream. - Well, go ahead, scream.

559. Scream. You've always been much better at that

560. than actually communicating,

561. - than actually having a conversation. - Right.

562. And you're surprised they fired you?

563. It's a miracle they kept you this long

564. - when you never learned... - Shut up!

565. how to actually communicate.

566. I fucking hate you.

567. Wow. Okay.

568. I hate fucking you too, so everything you said just...

569. Well, you know what, it didn't seem like that

570. - a second ago, but... - Oh, my God, you moron.

571. You think because you fucked me like that one time,

572. - it suddenly makes you— - Mira, just stop it.

573. Oh, what? Oh, sorry. God, I said fucked.

574. I forgot I'm not allowed to say that.

575. - What are you talking about? - Oh, is it allowed now?

576. Am I allowed to say cock, pussy, and cum,

577. and all those bad words

578. without you, you know, running out of the room?

579. You are so out of touch with my life.

580. It's actually really sad.

581. - Oh, really? - Yeah.

582. So all of your religious hang-ups are just like gone?

583. - What? - 'Cause a minute ago, you—

584. you sprinted to the shower after 'cause, you know, bodily fluids

585. gross you out. So what's different?

586. It's actually none of your business.

587. But why? We're sharing, right?

588. So now I'm gonna share with you how shitty it felt

589. to pretend like I wasn't a sexual person,

590. because for you, I knew it would turn you off.

591. Feeling depraved every time I wanted to fuck you

592. because for you it was "complicated."

593. And I tried not to take it personally.

594. I did. I said, "Okay. It's not about me.

595. It's who you are. It has to do with you,

596. - where you're from." - You know what amazes me,

597. is that I actually really bought it.

598. I believed you. I believed that I was hopelessly screwed up.

599. Right.

600. And I could've lived my entire life not realizing

601. that everything that you've despised me for...

602. Mm-hmm.

603. everything that you hated about me,

604. somebody else would love me for exactly the same thing.

605. They would accept me for exactly who I am.

606. Well, either they're lying or they're very inexperienced.

607. You're so fucking twisted.

608. You are the most twisted person that I have ever known.

609. And not a day goes by that I don't thank God...

610. - Sure. - ... that I realized

611. - how amazing sex can be... - Oh, my God.

612. and I didn't have to waste my life.

613. You are the most asexual person I ever met,

614. and you made a thousand theories to justify it.

615. It's true! And you know what, it turns out

616. all I needed was a woman who actually wanted me as I am.

617. And I had to teach you everything about sex.

618. That's exactly right! That's exactly the problem.

619. You taught me, and you managed me,

620. and you told me how we would do it and when would do it,

621. - and everything about it. - Oh, my God.

622. - That's so unreal. - And you'd scold me.

623. You would scold me like a fucking child.

624. You know, I think of all the mistakes we've made in our life.

625. The biggest, that we got together in the first place.

626. Okay. Well then, let's fix our mistake.

627. Let's sign these papers so we can get the fuck out of here.

628. - Bring them to me. I will. - Happy to.

629. Here you go.

630. Initial on each page. Sign by the stickers.

631. Yeah, I heard— I heard you the first time.

632. Great.

633. Stop staring at me. I can't concentrate.

634. Okay. Whatever you need.

635. Okay.

636. You don't wanna sign it.

637. I'm trying to skim it.

638. You're doing everything you can to distract...

639. Mira, you've read it a hundred times.

640. - You don't wanna sign it. - Fuck off.

641. You don't want to get a divorce.

642. That's what this is about. What I'm trying to figure out

643. is if you already knew that before you got here today.

644. Jonathan, please. My head's pounding. Just...

645. Will you just say it?

646. Will you just say it, please? Say it. You don't want to.

647. - Just say it. - I just can't.

648. I wanna come home.

649. God, don't look at me like that. I know. I'm just—

650. I know what this looks like.

651. Oh, man.

652. I don't, like—

653. You can think whatever you want about me.

654. I guess there's nothing more pathetic

655. - than what I'm doing now. - Just— like how do you—

656. What— wh— wh— what...

657. How are you not ashamed?

658. I've never been more ashamed in my whole life.

659. I don't— like—

660. So...

661. I don't know. So should I be expecting

662. another surprise call from Poli?

663. Does he know that you're here?

664. Just help me.

665. Help me understand what your thinking is here.

666. So if I said, "Okay. Yeah. Great. Let's forget it.

667. Let's get back together."

668. You— what?

669. You'll go back home to Poli and tell him what exactly?

670. There's no Poli.

671. We broke up two weeks ago. It's over. And he's in Tel Aviv.

672. Okay.

673. I haven't told Ava yet, so please don't say anything to her.

674. He's gonna come back next week to say goodbye.

675. I'm gonna, um, pick her up on Wednesday

676. and we'll tell her together.

677. Please, please don't do that

678. unless you're absolutely sure that it's over, okay?

679. It's over.

680. Um, you know, for a long time now,

681. we've been having these really, uh, vicious fights.

682. After the last time I was here,

683. he gave me an ultimatum. He said, uh,

684. either we're having a kid or, um, we're breaking up.

685. Well, kids, plural. It was not— it wasn't just one.

686. And I guess I agreed.

687. Eventually, I gave in

688. and we tried for six months, and nothing happened.

689. Then we went to Dr. Varona, and...

690. she said that, uh, I should start IVF as soon as—

691. sooner rather than later 'cause of my age.

692. And, uh...

693. somehow I just— I kept delaying

694. picking up the prescription.

695. And, eventually, Poli, he was like, um...

696. "You don't want this.

697. It's not happening, and it isn't gonna happen

698. because, um, you don't wanna have my kid...

699. 'cause you'll always see me as the guy

700. who broke up your family."

701. And we went to counseling and on the first session,

702. the, um, therapist, she— you know, she asked me

703. if I thought that, um...

704. I could ever give up on you.

705. You know, if I could, um, accept that it was over.

706. I didn't say anything. And, um, I just—

707. was just silent.

708. And in the second session, it was obvious

709. that the relationship was done,

710. but it took Poli another week to accept that.

711. I don't know if you care.

712. And, yeah, I'm sure you think this is probably

713. another manipulation.

714. I'm too tired to try to convince you otherwise, so just...

715. - do with it what you want. - Do with it what I want?

716. What— what—

717. What do you expect me to do with it?

718. I don't know.

719. - Uh-huh. - I'm not trying to—

720. I'm not trying to talk you into it,

721. 'cause you've made yourself pretty clear.

722. I'm just saying that, um...

723. I mean, I know it would be different this time.

724. Right.

725. We both have so much more self-knowledge now and, um,

726. that has to make a difference, don't you think?

727. No, I don't think.

728. Why not? Like how can you be so sure?

729. Because, Mira, you don't want me.

730. You got fired and you got dumped, and so you just...

731. No, I didn't— I didn't get dumped. I just—

732. You're not listening to me. I just told you what happened.

733. It doesn't matter. It really doesn't matter.

734. But why? Why doesn't it matter?

735. I'm trying to tell you something about how I feel

736. and about how I felt for you this whole time.

737. - Mm-hmm. - Like, why doesn't that matter?

738. And I know that you feel it too.

739. - I know you do. - Okay.

740. - And maybe the fact that we haven't been able to... - You don't— you don't, like—

741. extricate ourselves from each other's lives all this time,

742. I mean, that means— it means something.

743. You didn't absorb a single word that I said to you before,

744. and I don't know how to get it through to you

745. that I don't have feelings for you anymore.

746. I don't. I'm sober.

747. I'm inoculated. That's it.

748. I know you're angry.

749. And, um...

750. - Oh, my God - I'm just like asking that,

751. you know, you just take a second to think about it.

752. - And I'm not saying it's immediately gonna... - Mira, what the fuck?

753. But like maybe you— when you're in Europe.

754. What do you think?

755. You think I'm just gonna throw away all the progress

756. that I made over the last two years

757. just 'cause you— I mean—

758. You know— do you wanna something?

759. You know that there was a period where I started praying?

760. Like actually praying to God for you to come back?

761. After you came over to the house that one time and you just—

762. Yeah!

763. I was laying right over there with Ava

764. waiting for her go to sleep,

765. so that I could talk to you, try to convince you.

766. And I heard the door slam...

767. and I wanted to kill you all over again.

768. And somehow I found myself right here

769. in the middle of this kitchen, just like with my eyes closed

770. swaying, praying to God...

771. that you would come back to me.

772. So you got me to pray again.

773. That was unexpected.

774. Can I have some?

775. It's pineapple vodka. It's revolting.

776. I don't know who brought it here.

777. I can take it.

778. Thanks.

779. Can I have more?

780. - Look...

781. You should be happy for me.

782. You really should.

783. That I'm finally rid of this dybbuk, you know?

784. It's better that I'm over it, for both of us.

785. And I know you're gonna get through too, honestly.

786. - No. - Yes. I do know that.

787. And it can be a new chapter for you.

788. You can start a whole new life.

789. It could be a really exciting time for you.

790. Yeah.

791. Let me tell you one thing.

792. I have zero interest in my new life. I mean, zero.

793. I have no curiosity about it, and I...

794. I have no motivation to start anew.

795. You're saying that from where you are right now

796. after just getting fired and everything that's happening.

797. No. It's not about now. It's like all the time.

798. - Yeah. - All I want is what I— what I used to have.

799. I don't want anything new.

800. Please. Don't. Don't. Don't.

801. - Why? - Mira.

802. Look, you know me better than anybody else on this planet,

803. so I'm not gonna try to hide from you the fact

804. that I do have that urge, okay?

805. I have that urge to say, "Fuck it. Let's just..."

806. - Yeah. - "... tear up these papers.

807. Let's do it. Let's start again," right?

808. I mean, I have been waiting two years for this very moment.

809. - Right. - But I have to fight it.

810. - We both have to fight it. - No, we don't.

811. Yes, we do, because it's never going to work.

812. I'm not in that place anymore, and you're not in that place.

813. But, but we can find our way back,

814. I think that's what we're doing right now.

815. No, that's not what we're doing.

816. Look, just because there's this thing that happens

817. whenever we see each other, that doesn't mean anything.

818. - It's a mirage. - No, no.

819. And I know that after a day passed, after the excitement passes,

820. we would look at each other and we'd think,

821. - "What the fuck did we do?" - No.

822. We can't live in the same house together.

823. - And by then it'd be too late because we—

824. - It's not gonna happen again. - Listen. Listen to me, please.

825. I've never been more sure of anything in my life.

826. Just trust my instincts for once.

827. - Okay? Okay?

828. - But... - I'm sorry. Hold on.

829. I have to just check this 'cause I think—

830. I think there's, um...

831. Oh, fuck. The movers just— They're running late.

832. And you have to call Veronica. She's been trying to call you.

833. Oh.

834. Hey, Veronica.

835. No, no. It's ok— It's no problem.

836. Just, you know, let me talk to her.

837. — Hi, Mommy! — Hey, Ava.

838. Sweetheart, if you made a mistake

839. with the boxes, you know, that's easy to fix.

840. We can just, you know...

841. But, honey, you and Daddy can like—

842. you can make that decision tomorrow

843. when you see the new house.

844. Because, uh, tomorrow's Wednesday, honey.

845. You're— you know, you're with me today.

846. Yeah, I know you were, but, um, Tuesday switches every week.

847. So, yeah, just check your chart, okay?

848. I know, but, you know, that's what we decided on, so—

849. - Please. - Oh, Ava.

850. - Mira... - Oh, hey, Veronica.

851. No, no, no, no. She doesn't— if she doesn't wanna talk to me,

852. so that's okay.

853. Um, I think maybe an hour or so.

854. Okay. Bye.

855. Okay. Bye.

856. Why don't you go home, honey?

857. I've got everything under control here, okay?

858. Calm down. Get going, okay?

859. What about the settlement?

860. Forget about the settlement. Let's just toss it.

861. - But wh— - It's not important. I—

862. It's not worth it.

863. It was— it was important, but—

864. to get it done today, but, uh, not at this cost.

865. But why was it so important to you?

866. Doesn't matter now.

867. Just tell me. Please.

868. Just say it. Why?

869. Well, I thought that maybe I wanted to have another kid.

870. Suddenly I realized that it's the thing

871. that brings me the most joy in my life.

872. I'm good at it.

873. I want Ava to have a sibling.

874. And I'm not willing to wait for the love of my life

875. or whatever.

876. And in therapy, it came up, actually,

877. that having another kid was more important to me

878. than having another partner.

879. And I was having lunch with, uh, Celia Patterson,

880. - from my department? - Mm.

881. Her and her girlfriend just split up and, uh...

882. Well, it came up that she was in the process

883. of looking for a partner,

884. a man, for, um...

885. What's it called? Um...

886. Elective co-parenting, which— yeah.

887. And kind of as a joke, she was like,

888. "You'd be perfect. What about you?"

889. So you're gonna have a kid with Celia Patterson?

890. I don't know. Maybe.

891. I mean, not necessarily her.

892. But it's a— it's a cleaner situation

893. to go into that arrangement officially divorced.

894. But I'm not gonna put that stress on you right now.

895. - No. - No. I mean...

896. it's not really...

897. I'm just asking, you know?

898. All this thinking, you know, you've been doing

899. about having a kid with whoever...

900. Um...

901. Even occur to you to have it with me?

902. With you?

903. Honestly, it never occurred to me that you would want to.

904. Why not?

905. - Why not? - Yeah.

906. Are you punishing me for the abortion?

907. Mira, what? No. What are you talking about? I—

908. There's nothing that would make me believe

909. - that you would want to. - But I would.

910. I mean, I'm not gonna—

911. I'm not gonna say that we made a mistake back then.

912. I didn't think we could handle it,

913. you know, back then.

914. I didn't think our marriage could survive another kid.

915. I know. Joke's on me.

916. But that's the truth, so...

917. I believe you.

918. And we're in a different place now.

919. - Yeah. - Yeah.

920. Yeah. We're in a different place.

921. We're not the same people. You know, we're not, uh,

922. young anymore. We're not...

923. You mean, I'm not young anymore?

924. - No. That's not what I said. - That's what you meant.

925. - No. No. That's not... - Yeah.

926. No, that's— it's not about you at all, Mira.

927. - Okay. - What I'm trying to do is see

928. if there's a way to undo this paradigm

929. where having a kid is bound to having a romantic partner

930. because then maybe I'd be free to think about...

931. Free to keep fucking around and still get to have a kid?

932. Is that the idea? No?

933. 'Cause it's wrapped up in so much psychological bullshit,

934. I'm still trying— I'm just trying to understand

935. what you're actually saying. Is it that your successful therapy

936. has turned you into an egocentric asshole

937. who, you know, just does whatever the fuck he feels like...

938. - Okay. We're done. - ... and then doesn't even—

939. What do you mean?

940. Here's the tip for the movers.

941. No. You're not leaving.

942. - What's the balance? - Come on.

943. They should know the route,

944. but if there's any problems, just have them call me.

945. Jonathan.

946. Otherwise, I'm sure you can handle it.

947. Okay. Just hold on a second.

948. Let's talk for a minute, okay?

949. About what? Haven't you had enough?

950. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I lashed out.

951. I'm really strung out, okay?

952. It's okay. I understand.

953. Okay. We can't end it like this.

954. I mean, you can't just leave, okay?

955. Jonathan, listen, you can't drop a bomb like that

956. and just leave.

957. - Okay, we'll do it another time. - No. No.

958. - We're gonna talk about it right now. Right now. - Mira, you need to calm down.

959. - Mira, let me go. - Because this affects all of our lives.

960. - It affects Ava's life. - I'm done. I'm done, okay?

961. Okay. Um, okay.

962. Just— I'm not gonna let it end like this, okay?

963. Please. I'm really sorry.

964. - I said something really nasty. - Okay. Okay.

965. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it.

966. I got that. I got that, okay? Okay.

967. - All right. Let me go now. - Okay. Okay.

968. So— no, no, no. Just take a second to take a breath.

969. - Just a breath! For a second, just take a breath! - You need to let me go. Stop.

970. Give me the key.

971. No. Just, you know— like just take a second,

972. - just like... - Mira...

973. I mean, let's talk for a little bit.

974. - Like, what's your problem? - Can you just—

975. - No! - Give me the key. Mira, stop.

976. Stop.

977. Give me the key.

978. No.

979. - No. Stop it.

980. Stop. Stop it. Stop. Stop it.

981. Wait. Wait.

982. We should have done that a long time ago.