1. Look, man, I got to be honest with you.Copy !req
2. If I was inventing hell,
it would look a lot like this.Copy !req
3. Hell...Copy !req
4. Really? I think it's clean.Copy !req
5. No, not this place.
This, this whole situation.Copy !req
6. It's not that bad.Copy !req
7. I mean, our lives depend
on each other for, like, eternity?Copy !req
8. That's my own worst personal nightmare.Copy !req
9. Alan. Alan.Copy !req
10. Come on.Copy !req
11. No, man, it's— it's not you.Copy !req
12. It's—Copy !req
13. I don't want to be attached to anyone.Copy !req
14. I want to just at least maintain
the illusion of free will, you know?Copy !req
15. Aah! Fuck! Fuck!Copy !req
16. See, I didn't feel that.Copy !req
17. I'm sorry, man.Copy !req
18. I just had to be definitively sure that,
you know, we're not the same person.Copy !req
19. - I just wanted to rule it out.
- Well, we aren't.Copy !req
20. - Okay.
- I think you've already tried that.Copy !req
21. Right, right. You're right.Copy !req
22. Well, if it's not that,
then what else could it be?Copy !req
23. Three sisters.Copy !req
24. No sisters. No siblings at all.Copy !req
25. - Are your parents alive?
- Yeah, you?Copy !req
26. What happened, irritable bowels?Copy !req
27. Oh, wow.Copy !req
28. You starting a cleaning supply company?Copy !req
29. Well, you...Copy !req
30. you got some ash on the table.Copy !req
31. Man, take a chill pill, okay?
It'll reset when we die.Copy !req
32. Hey, hey, could you not
touch my stuff, please?Copy !req
33. - I have it organized...
- Uh-uh. Fucking A.Copy !req
34. in a very specific way.Copy !req
35. Man, you play this?Copy !req
36. No, not since it came out.
It is the worst.Copy !req
37. You know, this is one of the first games
I helped design.Copy !req
38. Well, that's something we have in common.
You designed it. I played it.Copy !req
39. Yeah, you and every other dude
between the ages of 18 and 35.Copy !req
40. - Why do you think this sucks?
- It is impossible.Copy !req
41. I spent six months trying
to get out of the snake roomCopy !req
42. before I realized whoever designed this
probably didn't bother to play it.Copy !req
43. - Let me tell you something. You? You?
- Yeah?Copy !req
44. You don't think I played my own game?Copy !req
45. Uh... I'd bet my life on it.Copy !req
46. Well, that does not mean much
given our present circumstances.Copy !req
47. You created an impossible game
with a single characterCopy !req
48. who has to solve everything
entirely on her own.Copy !req
49. That's stupid.Copy !req
50. Watch and learn, baby face.Copy !req
51. Uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh.Copy !req
52. There you go.Copy !req
53. You little bitch.Copy !req
54. I say...Copy !req
55. the trick is
you got to find a labyrinth keeper.Copy !req
56. You know, she's based on Tatum O'Neal
in Paper Moon, but with my hairdo.Copy !req
57. They call that an Easter egg.Copy !req
58. Be careful.Copy !req
59. Mea culpa, this shit
is fucking harder than I remember.Copy !req
60. Do you mind smoking outside?Copy !req
61. Look, if I smoke outside,
then I could die.Copy !req
62. And if I die, you die.
So basically, you're welcome, all right?Copy !req
63. Don't be so fucking uptight, man.Copy !req
64. - Hey, how did you die?
Oh.Copy !req
65. Um...Copy !req
66. - Crushed in rush hour traffic.
- Uh-huh.Copy !req
67. Slipped in the shower.
Uh, bathtub electrocution.Copy !req
68. Um...Copy !req
69. Open manhole.Copy !req
70. Right, but, you know, the first time?
How did you die that first time?Copy !req
71. I don't know. I can't remember.Copy !req
72. What do you mean you can't remember?
I remember my first time.Copy !req
73. I was hit by a car.Copy !req
74. Honestly, all I remember
is suddenly being in my bathroomCopy !req
75. and then just reliving the same day.Copy !req
76. You don't remember your first death?Copy !req
77. Mm-mm.Copy !req
78. Look, your first death could be
what started this whole thing.Copy !req
79. Why?Copy !req
80. I mean, maybe it's not, but...Copy !req
81. honestly, it's the only unknown factor
that we have.Copy !req
82. Johari window.Copy !req
83. You know, it's a known unknown.Copy !req
84. We got to trigger your memory.Copy !req
85. W— Wait, how?Copy !req
86. You see, lucky for you,
I know a professional.Copy !req
87. Darling, that is not how I work.Copy !req
88. I see patients regularly for years
before even trying EMDR.Copy !req
89. Right, right. Uh... hypnosis.Copy !req
90. Or, um... I don't know, ayahuasca?Copy !req
91. Listen to me.Copy !req
92. I'm a therapist, not a shaman.Copy !req
93. Would either one of you like some tea?Copy !req
94. No, no, no tea.Copy !req
95. Ruth, you have a gas leak.Copy !req
96. Okay? I will call it in
while you're in session.Copy !req
97. - Please don't roll your eyes at me.
- No. No. No, no, no.Copy !req
98. I... No.Copy !req
99. I don't need to go to see a therapist.
No offense to you, but I...Copy !req
100. People thinking that I'm crazy
is one of my biggest fears.Copy !req
101. - That's fine.
- No, no, no, no. No, no, no.Copy !req
102. We do not use the word "crazy"
in this house.Copy !req
103. Look, has Nadia ever told you
about her mother?Copy !req
104. Ah, here it comes.Copy !req
105. Nadia's mother was a brilliant woman,Copy !req
106. - just like Nadia.
- Eye roll.Copy !req
107. But she would get fixated
on little things, and...Copy !req
108. She'd read somewhere that purple is
the color of the seventh chakra healing,Copy !req
109. so naturally, she wore nothing but purple
for an entire year.Copy !req
110. And, oh... the mirrors.Copy !req
111. Don't get me started on the mirrors.Copy !req
112. One day, she shattered them.Copy !req
113. And when I came to take Nadia to school,
well, the mirrors were goneCopy !req
114. and there was glass everywhere.Copy !req
115. I think
there were some shards in your hair.Copy !req
116. And that's a wrap.Copy !req
117. - It wasn't that bad.
- It was that bad.Copy !req
118. - I was there.
- So was I.Copy !req
119. Why— Why mirrors?Copy !req
120. Reflection.Copy !req
121. Proof of existence.Copy !req
122. Another pair of eyes.Copy !req
123. See, that's why therapists are important.Copy !req
124. Without them, we are very unreliable
narrators of our own stories.Copy !req
125. Okay.Copy !req
126. Okay, I— I— I will...
I'll give it a try, just this once.Copy !req
127. Okay, I was wrong. I accept it,
but we got to figure out how you died.Copy !req
128. I told you that wouldn't work,
and therapy is one of my biggest fears.Copy !req
129. Ruth isn't a spider. She's got more
of a praying mantis vibe,Copy !req
130. which, as somebody
who's always been allergic to bees,Copy !req
131. I find highly comforting.Copy !req
132. That's weird. I'm allergic to bees, too.Copy !req
133. Seriously? Oh, so I guess we run
into a bunch of fucking honeybees now.Copy !req
134. Okay, new plan. Hear me out.Copy !req
135. What if I go through your night with you?Copy !req
136. We recreate what you did that first time.
Maybe I see something that you didn't.Copy !req
137. Look, you don't understand.Copy !req
138. You get to relive
your fancy birthday party with...Copy !req
139. awesome people that you don't even like.Copy !req
140. And I have to relive
the worst night of my life.Copy !req
141. I don't want you to see it.Copy !req
142. Alan, I have seen some shit.Copy !req
143. Okay? Whatever happened that night...Copy !req
144. you're not gonna surprise me, I promise.Copy !req
145. - Come on.Copy !req
146. All right, what did you do first?Copy !req
147. The first time I lived this cycle,Copy !req
148. I didn't know she was on the phone
before I went in, so... so, um...Copy !req
149. we should wait until she's done.Copy !req
150. I just hope
he is not planning to propose.Copy !req
151. I was planning on proposing
on the original night.Copy !req
152. I— I didn't hear any of this.Copy !req
153. I spent months trying to get
through to him, but he doesn't seem...Copy !req
154. She's talking to that guy named Mike.Copy !req
155. The one she cheated on me with? The one
who was at your party? The douchebag?Copy !req
156. - A pseudo-intellectual white guy?
I have to tell him tonight.Copy !req
157. - That's Maxine's friend.
Okay, bye.Copy !req
158. Huh.Copy !req
159. Huh. So this is the famous Beatrice.Copy !req
160. Alan. Who's this?Copy !req
161. Ah. Uh...Copy !req
162. I'm... We just ran into each other
on the street.Copy !req
163. I gotta take a leak. Is that okay?Copy !req
164. - Sure.
Thank you. Tiny bladder.Copy !req
165. Oh. Uh, real quick.
Do you have any cottage cheese?Copy !req
166. Who eats cottage cheese?Copy !req
167. Look, it's how I maintain my figure,
all right?Copy !req
168. - The bathroom's over there.
- Thank you.Copy !req
169. Who the hell is that?Copy !req
170. It's a long story.Copy !req
171. - She's helping me out with something.
I thought we were going away.Copy !req
172. You and I both know that's not
gonna happen, so let's get this over with.Copy !req
173. Look, I know
we're supposed to leave tonight,Copy !req
174. but I've just been thinking a lot
about our relationship.Copy !req
175. We've been together
since we were kids and...Copy !req
176. basically, you're like my best friend.Copy !req
177. But if I'm honest with myself...
this isn't what I want.Copy !req
178. I want more for my life.Copy !req
179. I want to make mistakes.
I want to get my degree.Copy !req
180. There's so much I want to do, and you
just want to stay exactly the same.Copy !req
181. I love you, but...Copy !req
182. I've been taking care of this, us, you,
for the last nine years, and...Copy !req
183. I just can't help but realize
that I've been worrying about you...Copy !req
184. and managing us,
and it's just becoming a job.Copy !req
185. And I already have a full-time job.Copy !req
186. Oh, you have a job?Copy !req
187. Yeah.Copy !req
188. I'm working on my PhD in literature.Copy !req
189. Wow, that is totally useless.Copy !req
190. I'm so sorry. I actually—
I just came overCopy !req
191. because I wanted to tell you that
these gluten-free crackers are dynamite.Copy !req
192. Who do you think you are?Copy !req
193. I think I get the picture.
So you think you can do better.Copy !req
194. It's interesting, 'cause I actually think
that Alan over hereCopy !req
195. is way out of your league.
No one asked you, okay?Copy !req
196. Where— Where'd you get this art from?Copy !req
197. Is it, like, all from Urban Outfitters
or just a couple of the pieces?Copy !req
198. Who is this woman?Copy !req
199. Are we done here?Copy !req
200. All right, great, man. Come on.Copy !req
201. Yeah. Yeah.Copy !req
202. All right, keep the crackers.Copy !req
203. This guy right hereCopy !req
204. can maintain erections
like few men I've known, all right?Copy !req
205. And you're gonna miss out on all that,
so meditate on that.Copy !req
206. Stupid.Copy !req
207. Oh.Copy !req
208. I know she's not gonna remember
any of that, but that was so great.Copy !req
209. It was great. You were amazing. Thank you.Copy !req
210. You know what?
I really was fucking amazing.Copy !req
211. I gotta tell you, man.
I never stick my neck out for anybody,Copy !req
212. but I feel like fucking Rocky right now.Copy !req
213. Hey, 'cause the thing is
it's so great every time.Copy !req
214. This little bitch fucked you,Copy !req
215. and this time, you went in there
and fucked her.Copy !req
216. Yeah. Yeah, thank you. Thank you.Copy !req
217. You're welcome.Copy !req
218. You're welcome.Copy !req
219. All right, so, what happened next?Copy !req
220. So, is this about as drunk as you were?Copy !req
221. I was way more drunk.
I don't even remember how drunk I was.Copy !req
222. Oh, I get it.Copy !req
223. Uh, hey, bartendress.Copy !req
224. - Hello. Uh, more drunk, please.
Here you go.Copy !req
225. - Yes, thanks. Great.
- Yeah.Copy !req
226. I knew she was unhappy.Copy !req
227. I don't know why I thought proposing
would be a good idea.Copy !req
228. Sometimes Hail Marys
are the best Marys we've got.Copy !req
229. You ever been married, engaged?Copy !req
230. You know, I've thought about it,
I've thought about it,Copy !req
231. but then I realize
that's just a base instinctCopy !req
232. mostly for suckers
and, you know, mediocres.Copy !req
233. And so, I move on. I get over it.
I mean, I don't really think it's for me.Copy !req
234. I think I'm meant to be alone.Copy !req
235. Not many people could go through
what we are going through.Copy !req
236. Mm-mm.Copy !req
237. That's pretty.Copy !req
238. Oh, this. This was my mother's.Copy !req
239. It's a krugerrand. You know what that is?Copy !req
240. May— No. No, I definitely don't.Copy !req
241. It's a South African gold bullion.Copy !req
242. It goes for about $1,500 an ounce.Copy !req
243. Whoa. Cool.Copy !req
244. I told you my grandparents
are Holocaust survivors, right?Copy !req
245. No, we basically just met.Copy !req
246. I'm sorry about—Copy !req
247. It's not on you.Copy !req
248. Anyway, after the war, you know,Copy !req
249. most survivors were a little bit paranoid
about putting their money in banks,Copy !req
250. so my grandparents acquired
150 of these babies,Copy !req
251. and then my mother,
'cause she's a fucking piece of work,Copy !req
252. she spent them all except for this one.Copy !req
253. How much is 150—Copy !req
254. You know,
the price of gold fluctuates, but, uh...Copy !req
255. if I had to guess,Copy !req
256. $152,780.86.Copy !req
257. - Whoa.
- Yeah.Copy !req
258. I know this, because why?
Because it was my fucking college fund.Copy !req
259. But hey, I got
a pretty necklace, right? So...Copy !req
260. - Your mom, she— she sounds—
Great.Copy !req
261. Uh, so, what happened after this?Copy !req
262. Um...Copy !req
263. Um, I'm trying... It's hazy. Um...Copy !req
264. You know what, man? Don't work too hard.
I mean, it's only eternity.Copy !req
265. Hey.Copy !req
266. Hey. Whoa, whoa, whoa. Whoa.Copy !req
267. Why— Why am I the only one
who's being interrogated?Copy !req
268. You're involved in this shit too,
so it's whatever.Copy !req
269. Midnight? Where were you at this time?Copy !req
270. I was taking care of business.Copy !req
271. Look, you promise
you're not gonna flip out?Copy !req
272. Yeah.Copy !req
273. I was fucking Mike from the party.Copy !req
274. Beatrice Mike?Copy !req
275. Yeah. What are the odds, right?Copy !req
276. I mean, like, she's cheating on you,
he's cheating on her.Copy !req
277. Ipso facto,
it's like we all fucked Beatrice.Copy !req
278. I mean, you the most, of course,Copy !req
279. but, you know, in a kind of fun
gang-bang way, it's like a mash-em-up.Copy !req
280. - You fucked Mike from the party?
- Oh, here we go.Copy !req
281. Okay.Copy !req
282. You— You know what?Copy !req
283. You know what?
This is not about my first death.Copy !req
284. This is probably because
you were fucking that Irish—Copy !req
285. that Irish fucking gingerbread
fisherman-looking motherfucker.Copy !req
286. All right, man.Copy !req
287. First of all, I mean,
this guy's hands are so fucking soft,Copy !req
288. there's no way he's done
a day's worth of hard labor in his life,Copy !req
289. let alone that, you know,
hardcore fishing.Copy !req
290. And second of all, the sex was,
I want to say, mediocre at best.Copy !req
291. Like medium, you know?
And there's no way that it set offCopy !req
292. a whole world-bending multiverseCopy !req
293. wonderland fucking splitting-level shit,
all right?Copy !req
294. Let's slow down.
Bukowski's not your greatest look.Copy !req
295. I can fuck you better than Mike.Copy !req
296. Wow. It looks like someone just threw
a gauntlet right into my puss-puss.Copy !req
297. Let's have at it.Copy !req
298. That's right.
- You want to see how a gingerman fucks?Copy !req
299. - Fuck yes, I do.
Uh-huh.Copy !req
300. Call me Beatrice.Copy !req
301. Beatrice.Copy !req
302. Hey, I'm cheating on you.Copy !req
303. All right, but you're gonna
fuck me anyway.Copy !req
304. Then you're gonna marry me.Copy !req
305. I'd fuck anything, huh.Copy !req
306. I'd fuck fucking...Copy !req
307. pizza.Copy !req
308. - Where'd you go?
- Pizza and all.Copy !req
309. - Come on, role play. Don't pass out.
- I'm Mike. Yeah, I'm Mike.Copy !req
310. I'm fat Mike. I'm gonna fuck it right.Copy !req
311. - Okay.
- Uh-huh.Copy !req
312. Yeah, you... You wanna...
You wanna just...Copy !req
313. - You wanna just fuck right now?
- Yes.Copy !req
314. Yeah.Copy !req
315. Fucking rats.Copy !req
316. Hey. Hey, Horse.Copy !req
317. Hey, man.Copy !req
318. Uh...Copy !req
319. Uh, Nadia. Yeah.Copy !req
320. It's me. I'm your friend.
You gave me a haircut.Copy !req
321. I don't know you.Copy !req
322. All right, be cool, man.
Look, look, look, what size are you?Copy !req
323. What do you mean?Copy !req
324. Come with me.Copy !req
325. All right.Copy !req
326. Where the fuck are we going?Copy !req
327. I got plants.Copy !req
328. I prefer casual acquaintances
over closer relationsCopy !req
329. and strangers above everybody else,
'cause humanity's a fuck, man.Copy !req
330. I had this business partner once
in the '90sCopy !req
331. when we were creating the dark web.Copy !req
332. And he got arrested because it was a scam
and our government is a scam.Copy !req
333. And once I saw it was all just bullshit,
I just dropped out completely.Copy !req
334. How do you know that you're real?Copy !req
335. Huh?Copy !req
336. Do you think that we need people
to be, like, witnesses?Copy !req
337. I'm here.Copy !req
338. That's where you know.Copy !req
339. I'm glad I lost everything.Copy !req
340. Technology, cryptocurrencies...Copy !req
341. It's all bullshit, man.Copy !req
342. You don't need any of that stuff.Copy !req
343. The more stuff you accumulate...Copy !req
344. the more space you take up.Copy !req
345. You know, people can't even pick me
out of a line up 'cause...Copy !req
346. they don't remember me.Copy !req
347. I'm a shadow, man.Copy !req
348. I think I'm a shadow now, too.Copy !req
349. Is that real gold?
Why?Copy !req
350. It's too heavy.Copy !req
351. Next time, get a plastic bag.Copy !req
352. - Hey.
- HiCopy !req
353. How's the, uh, novel coming?Copy !req
354. Ugh, I— I can't do dialogue. It makes me
feel like I don't know how people talk.Copy !req
355. I think it's one of those things
like swallowing.Copy !req
356. Like, if you think about it,
you can't do it anymore.Copy !req
357. Like now I'm thinking about it
and I can't swallow.Copy !req
358. You know Alan. He was here that night.Copy !req
359. - What night?
- Alan Zaveri, how do you know him?Copy !req
360. We're good friends.Copy !req
361. We worked at a cannery together in Alaska.Copy !req
362. Wait, what?Copy !req
363. Nah, I'm just kidding. We actually pledged
Alpha Delta in college.Copy !req
364. That cannery thing though,
it's pretty good. I put in my novel.Copy !req
365. As for my friend, keep the change.Copy !req
366. - Thanks, Ferran.
Yeah, have a good night.Copy !req
367. Hey, Alan. Guess what, man?Copy !req
368. We saw each other
on the night of our first loop.Copy !req
369. Where were you?Copy !req
370. I did not realize
that Howard Hughes was gonna show up.Copy !req
371. You went through my stuff?Copy !req
372. I didn't know where you were
and I couldn't find my shoes.Copy !req
373. I started to look for them and then...
I just got away with myself.Copy !req
374. - So then you went through my stuff?
- I cleaned.Copy !req
375. Cleaned?Copy !req
376. I— I found those under your bed.Copy !req
377. Did it occur to you
that these were under my fucking bed...Copy !req
378. because I wanted them
under my fucking bed?Copy !req
379. Well, it will all reset like you said.Copy !req
380. It will all just go back
to the way you had it.Copy !req
381. Fuck you for going through my shit.
Fuck you for touching these.Copy !req
382. Fuck you for being a fuck face.
Get the fuck out.Copy !req
383. Nadia, I'm sorry. We— we need each other.
I need you. You need me.Copy !req
384. Did I stutter?Copy !req
385. Uh...Copy !req
386. - I don't have any shoes, Nadia.
- Oh, my God, get the fuck out!Copy !req
387. - I'm sorry.
- Just get out of my fucking house, dude!Copy !req
388. God!Copy !req
389. Looking at these old pictures
of me and Mom...Copy !req
390. it just fucked me up, Ruth.Copy !req
391. Remember when she was trying
to get the Betty Boop trademark,Copy !req
392. she had the licensing company.Copy !req
393. There was all these Betty Boop towels,
Betty Boop clocks, Betty Boop watches.Copy !req
394. - What the fuck was that?
- Darling, you have to forgive her.Copy !req
395. Look, don't you want
to move on with your life?Copy !req
396. You know what, Ruth? Seriously...Copy !req
397. Humanity... a little bit overrated, no?Copy !req
398. We need other people.Copy !req
399. Other people are garbage.Copy !req
400. - Then forgive them.
- Oh, God.Copy !req
401. That's what I do with you.Copy !req
402. Just... try it sometime.Copy !req
403. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Chag sameach.Copy !req
404. You have a gas leak.Copy !req
405. Fucking no meat on these.Copy !req
406. Throat.
Throat.Copy !req
407. - Sweet birthday baby, having fun?
- Where'd it go?Copy !req
408. - Where'd what go?
- The mirror in the bathroom.Copy !req
409. What mirror? There's never been
a mirror in that bathroom.Copy !req
410. It's a statement
on narcissism and waste...Copy !req
411. and the beauty industrial complex.Copy !req
412. Alan!Copy !req
413. Alan, come on. Buzz me in!Copy !req
414. Come on, man.Copy !req
415. - Hey, there are no mirrors, Alan.
- No mirrors, I know.Copy !req
416. I know. Me too.Copy !req
417. What is happening, man?
Why are they disappearing?Copy !req
418. I don't know.Copy !req
419. I don't know.Copy !req
420. Look. I am sorry that I yelled at you
for just trying to be a nice person, okay?Copy !req
421. I— I— I just—
I do not want to do this alone.Copy !req
422. I'm sorry, too.Copy !req
423. I— I need to tell you something. I— I...Copy !req
424. I remembered.Copy !req
425. - Alan, it's okay. You know—
- No.Copy !req
426. No, listen to me.
I remembered my first death.Copy !req
427. I threw myself off the top of a building.Copy !req
428. I killed myself.Copy !req