1. Look, man, I got to be honest with you.Copy !req
2. If I was inventing hell,
it would look a lot like this.Copy !req
3. Hell...Copy !req
4. Really? I think it's clean.Copy !req
5. No, not this place.
This, this whole situation.Copy !req
6. It's not that bad.Copy !req
7. I mean, our lives depend
on each other for, like, eternity?Copy !req
8. That's my own worst personal nightmare.Copy !req
9. Alan. Alan.Copy !req
10. Come on.Copy !req
11. No, man, it's— it's not you.Copy !req
12. It's—Copy !req
13. I don't want to be attached to anyone.Copy !req
14. I want to just at least maintain
the illusion of free will, you know?Copy !req
15. Aah! Fuck! Fuck!Copy !req
16. See, I didn't feel that.Copy !req
17. I'm sorry, man.Copy !req
18. I just had to be definitively sure that,
you know, we're not the same person.Copy !req
19. - I just wanted to rule it out.
- Well, we aren't.Copy !req
20. - Okay.
- I think you've already tried that.Copy !req
21. Right, right. You're right.Copy !req
22. Well, if it's not that,
then what else could it be?Copy !req
23. Three sisters.Copy !req
24. No sisters. No siblings at all.Copy !req
25. - Are your parents alive?
- Yeah, you?Copy !req
26. What happened, irritable bowels?Copy !req
27. Oh, wow.Copy !req
28. You starting a cleaning supply company?Copy !req
29. Well, you...Copy !req
30. you got some ash on the table.Copy !req
31. Man, take a chill pill, okay?
It'll reset when we die.Copy !req
32. Hey, hey, could you not
touch my stuff, please?Copy !req
33. - I have it organized...
- Uh-uh. Fucking A.Copy !req
34. in a very specific way.Copy !req
35. Man, you play this?Copy !req
36. No, not since it came out.
It is the worst.Copy !req
37. You know, this is one of the first games
I helped design.Copy !req
38. Well, that's something we have in common.
You designed it. I played it.Copy !req
39. Yeah, you and every other dude
between the ages of 18 and 35.Copy !req
40. - Why do you think this sucks?
- It is impossible.Copy !req
41. I spent six months trying
to get out of the snake roomCopy !req
42. before I realized whoever designed this
probably didn't bother to play it.Copy !req
43. - Let me tell you something. You? You?
- Yeah?Copy !req
44. You don't think I played my own game?Copy !req
45. Uh... I'd bet my life on it.Copy !req
46. Well, that does not mean much
given our present circumstances.Copy !req
47. You created an impossible game
with a single characterCopy !req
48. who has to solve everything
entirely on her own.Copy !req
49. That's stupid.Copy !req
50. Watch and learn, baby face.Copy !req
51. Uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh.Copy !req
52. There you go.Copy !req
53. You little bitch.Copy !req
54. I say...Copy !req
55. the trick is
you got to find a labyrinth keeper.Copy !req
56. You know, she's based on Tatum O'Neal
in Paper Moon, but with my hairdo.Copy !req
57. They call that an Easter egg.Copy !req
58. Be careful.Copy !req
59. Mea culpa, this shit
is fucking harder than I remember.Copy !req
60. Do you mind smoking outside?Copy !req
61. Look, if I smoke outside,
then I could die.Copy !req
62. And if I die, you die.
So basically, you're welcome, all right?Copy !req
63. Don't be so fucking uptight, man.Copy !req
64. - Hey, how did you die?
Oh.Copy !req
65. Um...Copy !req
66. - Crushed in rush hour traffic.
- Uh-huh.Copy !req
67. Slipped in the shower.
Uh, bathtub electrocution.Copy !req
68. Um...Copy !req
69. Open manhole.Copy !req
70. Right, but, you know, the first time?
How did you die that first time?Copy !req
71. I don't know. I can't remember.Copy !req
72. What do you mean you can't remember?
I remember my first time.Copy !req
73. I was hit by a car.Copy !req
74. Honestly, all I remember
is suddenly being in my bathroomCopy !req
75. and then just reliving the same day.Copy !req
76. You don't remember your first death?Copy !req
77. Mm-mm.Copy !req
78. Look, your first death could be
what started this whole thing.Copy !req
79. Why?Copy !req
80. I mean, maybe it's not, but...Copy !req
81. honestly, it's the only unknown factor
that we have.Copy !req
82. Johari window.Copy !req
83. You know, it's a known unknown.Copy !req
84. We got to trigger your memory.Copy !req
85. W— Wait, how?Copy !req
86. You see, lucky for you,
I know a professional.Copy !req
87. Darling, that is not how I work.Copy !req
88. I see patients regularly for years
before even trying EMDR.Copy !req
89. Right, right. Uh... hypnosis.Copy !req
90. Or, um... I don't know, ayahuasca?Copy !req
91. Listen to me.Copy !req
92. I'm a therapist, not a shaman.Copy !req
93. Would either one of you like some tea?Copy !req
94. No, no, no tea.Copy !req
95. Ruth, you have a gas leak.Copy !req
96. Okay? I will call it in
while you're in session.Copy !req
97. - Please don't roll your eyes at me.
- No. No. No, no, no.Copy !req
98. I... No.Copy !req
99. I don't need to go to see a therapist.
No offense to you, but I...Copy !req
100. People thinking that I'm crazy
is one of my biggest fears.Copy !req
101. - That's fine.
- No, no, no, no. No, no, no.Copy !req
102. We do not use the word "crazy"
in this house.Copy !req
103. Look, has Nadia ever told you
about her mother?Copy !req
104. Ah, here it comes.Copy !req
105. Nadia's mother was a brilliant woman,Copy !req
106. - just like Nadia.
- Eye roll.Copy !req
107. But she would get fixated
on little things, and...Copy !req
108. She'd read somewhere that purple is
the color of the seventh chakra healing,Copy !req
109. so naturally, she wore nothing but purple
for an entire year.Copy !req
110. And, oh... the mirrors.Copy !req
111. Don't get me started on the mirrors.Copy !req
112. One day, she shattered them.Copy !req
113. And when I came to take Nadia to school,
well, the mirrors were goneCopy !req
114. and there was glass everywhere.Copy !req
115. I think
there were some shards in your hair.Copy !req
116. And that's a wrap.Copy !req
117. - It wasn't that bad.
- It was that bad.Copy !req
118. - I was there.
- So was I.Copy !req
119. Why— Why mirrors?Copy !req
120. Reflection.Copy !req
121. Proof of existence.Copy !req
122. Another pair of eyes.Copy !req
123. See, that's why therapists are important.Copy !req
124. Without them, we are very unreliable
narrators of our own stories.Copy !req
125. Okay.Copy !req
126. Okay, I— I— I will...
I'll give it a try, just this once.Copy !req
127. Okay, I was wrong. I accept it,
but we got to figure out how you died.Copy !req
128. I told you that wouldn't work,
and therapy is one of my biggest fears.Copy !req
129. It's like if you said
that you were afraid of spiders
and then I was like,
"Here's a bunch of spiders."Copy !req
130. Ruth isn't a spider. She's got more
of a praying mantis vibe,Copy !req
131. which, as somebody
who's always been allergic to bees,Copy !req
132. I find highly comforting.Copy !req
133. That's weird. I'm allergic to bees, too.Copy !req
134. Seriously? Oh, so I guess we run
into a bunch of fucking honeybees now.Copy !req
135. Okay, new plan. Hear me out.Copy !req
136. What if I go through your night with you?Copy !req
137. We recreate what you did that first time.
Maybe I see something that you didn't.Copy !req
138. Look, you don't understand.Copy !req
139. You get to relive
your fancy birthday party with...Copy !req
140. awesome people that you don't even like.Copy !req
141. And I have to relive
the worst night of my life.Copy !req
142. I don't want you to see it.Copy !req
143. Alan, I have seen some shit.Copy !req
144. Okay? Whatever happened that night...Copy !req
145. you're not gonna surprise me, I promise.Copy !req
146. - Come on.Copy !req
147. All right, what did you do first?Copy !req
148. The first time I lived this cycle,Copy !req
149. I didn't know she was on the phone
before I went in, so... so, um...Copy !req
150. we should wait until she's done.Copy !req
151. I just hope
he is not planning to propose.Copy !req
152. I was planning on proposing
on the original night.Copy !req
153. I— I didn't hear any of this.Copy !req
154. I spent months trying to get
through to him, but he doesn't seem...Copy !req
155. She's talking to that guy named Mike.Copy !req
156. The one she cheated on me with? The one
who was at your party? The douchebag?Copy !req
157. - A pseudo-intellectual white guy?
I have to tell him tonight.Copy !req
158. - That's Maxine's friend.
Okay, bye.Copy !req
159. Huh.Copy !req
160. Huh. So this is the famous Beatrice.Copy !req
161. Alan. Who's this?Copy !req
162. Ah. Uh...Copy !req
163. I'm... We just ran into each other
on the street.Copy !req
164. I gotta take a leak. Is that okay?Copy !req
165. - Sure.
Thank you. Tiny bladder.Copy !req
166. Oh. Uh, real quick.
Do you have any cottage cheese?Copy !req
167. Who eats cottage cheese?Copy !req
168. Look, it's how I maintain my figure,
all right?Copy !req
169. - The bathroom's over there.
- Thank you.Copy !req
170. Who the hell is that?Copy !req
171. It's a long story.Copy !req
172. - She's helping me out with something.
I thought we were going away.Copy !req
173. You and I both know that's not
gonna happen, so let's get this over with.Copy !req
174. Look, I know
we're supposed to leave tonight,Copy !req
175. but I've just been thinking a lot
about our relationship.Copy !req
176. We've been together
since we were kids and...Copy !req
177. basically, you're like my best friend.Copy !req
178. But if I'm honest with myself...
this isn't what I want.Copy !req
179. I want more for my life.Copy !req
180. I want to make mistakes.
I want to get my degree.Copy !req
181. There's so much I want to do, and you
just want to stay exactly the same.Copy !req
182. I love you, but...Copy !req
183. I've been taking care of this, us, you,
for the last nine years, and...Copy !req
184. I just can't help but realize
that I've been worrying about you...Copy !req
185. and managing us,
and it's just becoming a job.Copy !req
186. And I already have a full-time job.Copy !req
187. Oh, you have a job?Copy !req
188. Yeah.Copy !req
189. I'm working on my PhD in literature.Copy !req
190. Wow, that is totally useless.Copy !req
191. I'm so sorry. I actually—
I just came overCopy !req
192. because I wanted to tell you that
these gluten-free crackers are dynamite.Copy !req
193. Who do you think you are?Copy !req
194. I think I get the picture.
So you think you can do better.Copy !req
195. It's interesting, 'cause I actually think
that Alan over hereCopy !req
196. is way out of your league.
No one asked you, okay?Copy !req
197. Where— Where'd you get this art from?Copy !req
198. Is it, like, all from Urban Outfitters
or just a couple of the pieces?Copy !req
199. Who is this woman?Copy !req
200. Are we done here?Copy !req
201. All right, great, man. Come on.Copy !req
202. Yeah. Yeah.Copy !req
203. All right, keep the crackers.Copy !req
204. This guy right hereCopy !req
205. can maintain erections
like few men I've known, all right?Copy !req
206. And you're gonna miss out on all that,
so meditate on that.Copy !req
207. Stupid.Copy !req
208. Oh.Copy !req
209. I know she's not gonna remember
any of that, but that was so great.Copy !req
210. It was great. You were amazing. Thank you.Copy !req
211. You know what?
I really was fucking amazing.Copy !req
212. I gotta tell you, man.
I never stick my neck out for anybody,Copy !req
213. but I feel like fucking Rocky right now.Copy !req
214. Hey, 'cause the thing is
it's so great every time.Copy !req
215. This little bitch fucked you,Copy !req
216. and this time, you went in there
and fucked her.Copy !req
217. Yeah. Yeah, thank you. Thank you.Copy !req
218. You're welcome.Copy !req
219. You're welcome.Copy !req
220. All right, so, what happened next?Copy !req
221. So, is this about as drunk as you were?Copy !req
222. I was way more drunk.
I don't even remember how drunk I was.Copy !req
223. Oh, I get it.Copy !req
224. Uh, hey, bartendress.Copy !req
225. - Hello. Uh, more drunk, please.
Here you go.Copy !req
226. - Yes, thanks. Great.
- Yeah.Copy !req
227. I knew she was unhappy.Copy !req
228. I don't know why I thought proposing
would be a good idea.Copy !req
229. Sometimes Hail Marys
are the best Marys we've got.Copy !req
230. You ever been married, engaged?Copy !req
231. You know, I've thought about it,
I've thought about it,Copy !req
232. but then I realize
that's just a base instinctCopy !req
233. mostly for suckers
and, you know, mediocres.Copy !req
234. And so, I move on. I get over it.
I mean, I don't really think it's for me.Copy !req
235. I think I'm meant to be alone.Copy !req
236. Not many people could go through
what we are going through.Copy !req
237. Mm-mm.Copy !req
238. That's pretty.Copy !req
239. Oh, this. This was my mother's.Copy !req
240. It's a krugerrand. You know what that is?Copy !req
241. May— No. No, I definitely don't.Copy !req
242. It's a South African gold bullion.Copy !req
243. It goes for about $1,500 an ounce.Copy !req
244. Whoa. Cool.Copy !req
245. I told you my grandparents
are Holocaust survivors, right?Copy !req
246. No, we basically just met.Copy !req
247. I'm sorry about—Copy !req
248. It's not on you.Copy !req
249. Anyway, after the war, you know,Copy !req
250. most survivors were a little bit paranoid
about putting their money in banks,Copy !req
251. so my grandparents acquired
150 of these babies,Copy !req
252. and then my mother,
'cause she's a fucking piece of work,Copy !req
253. she spent them all except for this one.Copy !req
254. How much is 150—Copy !req
255. You know,
the price of gold fluctuates, but, uh...Copy !req
256. if I had to guess,Copy !req
257. $152,780.86.Copy !req
258. - Whoa.
- Yeah.Copy !req
259. I know this, because why?
Because it was my fucking college fund.Copy !req
260. But hey, I got
a pretty necklace, right? So...Copy !req
261. - Your mom, she— she sounds—
Great.Copy !req
262. Uh, so, what happened after this?Copy !req
263. Um...Copy !req
264. Um, I'm trying... It's hazy. Um...Copy !req
265. You know what, man? Don't work too hard.
I mean, it's only eternity.Copy !req
266. Hey.Copy !req
267. Hey. Whoa, whoa, whoa. Whoa.Copy !req
268. Why— Why am I the only one
who's being interrogated?Copy !req
269. You're involved in this shit too,
so it's whatever.Copy !req
270. Midnight? Where were you at this time?Copy !req
271. I was taking care of business.Copy !req
272. Look, you promise
you're not gonna flip out?Copy !req
273. Yeah.Copy !req
274. I was fucking Mike from the party.Copy !req
275. Beatrice Mike?Copy !req
276. Yeah. What are the odds, right?Copy !req
277. I mean, like, she's cheating on you,
he's cheating on her.Copy !req
278. Ipso facto,
it's like we all fucked Beatrice.Copy !req
279. I mean, you the most, of course,Copy !req
280. but, you know, in a kind of fun
gang-bang way, it's like a mash-em-up.Copy !req
281. - You fucked Mike from the party?
- Oh, here we go.Copy !req
282. Okay.Copy !req
283. You— You know what?Copy !req
284. You know what?
This is not about my first death.Copy !req
285. This is probably because
you were fucking that Irish—Copy !req
286. that Irish fucking gingerbread
fisherman-looking motherfucker.Copy !req
287. All right, man.Copy !req
288. First of all, I mean,
this guy's hands are so fucking soft,Copy !req
289. there's no way he's done
a day's worth of hard labor in his life,Copy !req
290. let alone that, you know,
hardcore fishing.Copy !req
291. And second of all, the sex was,
I want to say, mediocre at best.Copy !req
292. Like medium, you know?
And there's no way that it set offCopy !req
293. a whole world-bending multiverseCopy !req
294. wonderland fucking splitting-level shit,
all right?Copy !req
295. Let's slow down.
Bukowski's not your greatest look.Copy !req
296. I can fuck you better than Mike.Copy !req
297. Wow. It looks like someone just threw
a gauntlet right into my puss-puss.Copy !req
298. Let's have at it.Copy !req
299. That's right.
- You want to see how a gingerman fucks?Copy !req
300. - Fuck yes, I do.
Uh-huh.Copy !req
301. Call me Beatrice.Copy !req
302. Beatrice.Copy !req
303. Hey, I'm cheating on you.Copy !req
304. All right, but you're gonna
fuck me anyway.Copy !req
305. Then you're gonna marry me.Copy !req
306. I'd fuck anything, huh.Copy !req
307. I'd fuck fucking...Copy !req
308. pizza.Copy !req
309. - Where'd you go?
- Pizza and all.Copy !req
310. - Come on, role play. Don't pass out.
- I'm Mike. Yeah, I'm Mike.Copy !req
311. I'm fat Mike. I'm gonna fuck it right.Copy !req
312. - Okay.
- Uh-huh.Copy !req
313. Yeah, you... You wanna...
You wanna just...Copy !req
314. - You wanna just fuck right now?
- Yes.Copy !req
315. Yeah.Copy !req
316. Fucking rats.Copy !req
317. Hey. Hey, Horse.Copy !req
318. Hey, man.Copy !req
319. Uh...Copy !req
320. Uh, Nadia. Yeah.Copy !req
321. It's me. I'm your friend.
You gave me a haircut.Copy !req
322. I don't know you.Copy !req
323. All right, be cool, man.
Look, look, look, what size are you?Copy !req
324. What do you mean?Copy !req
325. Come with me.Copy !req
326. All right.Copy !req
327. Where the fuck are we going?Copy !req
328. I got plants.Copy !req
329. I prefer casual acquaintances
over closer relationsCopy !req
330. and strangers above everybody else,
'cause humanity's a fuck, man.Copy !req
331. I had this business partner once
in the '90sCopy !req
332. when we were creating the dark web.Copy !req
333. And he got arrested because it was a scam
and our government is a scam.Copy !req
334. And once I saw it was all just bullshit,
I just dropped out completely.Copy !req
335. How do you know that you're real?Copy !req
336. Huh?Copy !req
337. Do you think that we need people
to be, like, witnesses?Copy !req
338. I'm here.Copy !req
339. That's where you know.Copy !req
340. I'm glad I lost everything.Copy !req
341. Technology, cryptocurrencies...Copy !req
342. It's all bullshit, man.Copy !req
343. You don't need any of that stuff.Copy !req
344. The more stuff you accumulate...Copy !req
345. the more space you take up.Copy !req
346. You know, people can't even pick me
out of a line up 'cause...Copy !req
347. they don't remember me.Copy !req
348. I'm a shadow, man.Copy !req
349. I think I'm a shadow now, too.Copy !req
350. Is that real gold?
Why?Copy !req
351. It's too heavy.Copy !req
352. Next time, get a plastic bag.Copy !req
353. - Hey.
- HiCopy !req
354. How's the, uh, novel coming?Copy !req
355. Ugh, I— I can't do dialogue. It makes me
feel like I don't know how people talk.Copy !req
356. I think it's one of those things
like swallowing.Copy !req
357. Like, if you think about it,
you can't do it anymore.Copy !req
358. Like now I'm thinking about it
and I can't swallow.Copy !req
359. You know Alan. He was here that night.Copy !req
360. - What night?
- Alan Zaveri, how do you know him?Copy !req
361. We're good friends.Copy !req
362. We worked at a cannery together in Alaska.Copy !req
363. Wait, what?Copy !req
364. Nah, I'm just kidding. We actually pledged
Alpha Delta in college.Copy !req
365. That cannery thing though,
it's pretty good. I put in my novel.Copy !req
366. As for my friend, keep the change.Copy !req
367. - Thanks, Ferran.
Yeah, have a good night.Copy !req
368. Hey, Alan. Guess what, man?Copy !req
369. We saw each other
on the night of our first loop.Copy !req
370. Where were you?Copy !req
371. I did not realize
that Howard Hughes was gonna show up.Copy !req
372. You went through my stuff?Copy !req
373. I didn't know where you were
and I couldn't find my shoes.Copy !req
374. I started to look for them and then...
I just got away with myself.Copy !req
375. - So then you went through my stuff?
- I cleaned.Copy !req
376. Cleaned?Copy !req
377. I— I found those under your bed.Copy !req
378. Did it occur to you
that these were under my fucking bed...Copy !req
379. because I wanted them
under my fucking bed?Copy !req
380. Well, it will all reset like you said.Copy !req
381. It will all just go back
to the way you had it.Copy !req
382. Fuck you for going through my shit.
Fuck you for touching these.Copy !req
383. Fuck you for being a fuck face.
Get the fuck out.Copy !req
384. Nadia, I'm sorry. We— we need each other.
I need you. You need me.Copy !req
385. Did I stutter?Copy !req
386. Uh...Copy !req
387. - I don't have any shoes, Nadia.
- Oh, my God, get the fuck out!Copy !req
388. - I'm sorry.
- Just get out of my fucking house, dude!Copy !req
389. God!Copy !req
390. Looking at these old pictures
of me and Mom...Copy !req
391. it just fucked me up, Ruth.Copy !req
392. Remember when she was trying
to get the Betty Boop trademark,Copy !req
393. she had the licensing company.Copy !req
394. There was all these Betty Boop towels,
Betty Boop clocks, Betty Boop watches.Copy !req
395. - What the fuck was that?
- Darling, you have to forgive her.Copy !req
396. Look, don't you want
to move on with your life?Copy !req
397. You know what, Ruth? Seriously...Copy !req
398. Humanity... a little bit overrated, no?Copy !req
399. We need other people.Copy !req
400. Other people are garbage.Copy !req
401. - Then forgive them.
- Oh, God.Copy !req
402. That's what I do with you.Copy !req
403. Just... try it sometime.Copy !req
404. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Chag sameach.Copy !req
405. You have a gas leak.Copy !req
406. Fucking no meat on these.Copy !req
407. Throat.
Throat.Copy !req
408. - Sweet birthday baby, having fun?
- Where'd it go?Copy !req
409. - Where'd what go?
- The mirror in the bathroom.Copy !req
410. What mirror? There's never been
a mirror in that bathroom.Copy !req
411. It's a statement
on narcissism and waste...Copy !req
412. and the beauty industrial complex.Copy !req
413. Alan!Copy !req
414. Alan, come on. Buzz me in!Copy !req
415. Come on, man.Copy !req
416. - Hey, there are no mirrors, Alan.
- No mirrors, I know.Copy !req
417. I know. Me too.Copy !req
418. What is happening, man?
Why are they disappearing?Copy !req
419. I don't know.Copy !req
420. I don't know.Copy !req
421. Look. I am sorry that I yelled at you
for just trying to be a nice person, okay?Copy !req
422. I— I— I just—
I do not want to do this alone.Copy !req
423. I'm sorry, too.Copy !req
424. I— I need to tell you something. I— I...Copy !req
425. I remembered.Copy !req
426. - Alan, it's okay. You know—
- No.Copy !req
427. No, listen to me.
I remembered my first death.Copy !req
428. I threw myself off the top of a building.Copy !req
429. I killed myself.Copy !req