1. In January 2004,
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his next big show.
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Drake & Josh,
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4. premiering January 11th.
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go on to establish
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of Nick stars.
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7. He's gonna be my...
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8. Hug me, brother!
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9. The hit Nickelodeon show,
Drake & Josh.
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10. If you have a tween
at home,
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with the Nickelodeon show,
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12. Drake & Josh.
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13. Nickelodeon star,
Drake Bell,
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writer and actor.
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the rock charts right now
in Mexico.
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17. We want Drake! We want Drake!
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18. He's beautiful.
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19. You killed it, brother.
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20. Thank you, man.
Thank you so much.
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21. But it was the lead up to
this premier of Drake and Josh
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chapters in this story.
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23. Dialogue coach,
Brian Peck, is arrested.
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of the announcement
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be working with us.
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are related to a child actor.
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all of the ingredients
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30. for huge scandal.
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31. But it wasn't.
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32. My name is Drake Bell,
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33. and I came here today
to tell my story.
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34. Have you ever told your story
publicly before?
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35. I have never
told my story publicly.
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36. No.
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37. I started acting
when I was five years old.
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38. My mom and my dad
were going through divorce,
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looking for something
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to old movies,
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44. I Love Lucy
and Abbott and Costello
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and Dean Martin
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the parenting magazine,
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and I saw an advertisement for
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"Whoa, that's something
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52. Robin, my ex-wife,
she said, "Oh, that's great."
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to auditions.
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a manager and an agent,
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having any background it,
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by the seat of our pants.
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some commercials
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all 150 Pokemon by yourself.
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67. Then we just continued
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at 3:30 at school.
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until 10:00, 11:00 at night.
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the next day.
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it was just natural.
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on TV shows in the late 90s.
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Home Improvement.
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a little construction guy.
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Mr. Tool Man.
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80. He also did an episode
of Seinfeld,
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in there playing it.
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86. And then he got the role
for Jerry Maguire.
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to flip him off.
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use his middle finger.
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you'll see that.
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94. And the goal, eventually,
you know, became to
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somehow, someway.
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a regular student
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discarded piece of rubbish
a second glance...
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102. an audition came up for
The Amanda Show
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the hallway of Paramount,
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done an audition.
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comes out and says,
"Hey, come here, Drake."
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"Amanda wants you
on the show."
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108. And then I got a call
that I had booked the show,
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the greatest experience ever.
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for this moment
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somewhere every day
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it's Nickelodeon,
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it was great.
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the Paramount Studios.
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started rolling,
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sketches and characters.
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and he'd tell like these...
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ways to play something
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really, really cool.
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139. When we moved
over to Nick on Sunset
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during the second season.
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on The Amanda Show.
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when we did a table read.
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in the industry
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the history Hollywood,
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stuff like that.
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the history of Hollywood.
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Brian was a good coach
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get Drake some jobs.
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Leonardo DiCaprio,
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that person.
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you need to come to my house
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I give the lessons."
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as an acting coach.
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in the beginning.
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eye distance of them.
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to go to Brian's house.
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Hollywood memorabilia,
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you wanted to live in.
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really close
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the same interests.
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I think that was probably
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about the business,
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your kids,
and this and that,
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would be seen and not heard,
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interrupt anything,
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sat in the green room,
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keep my eyes on Drake.
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I started with seeing
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hang around Drake too much.
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set well with me.
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in the dressing room
or something,
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what are you doing?
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on his self."
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this is in front of people.
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walk over to Drake
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some lines or whatever,
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around his waist,
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up on his shoulder
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down his arm.
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happen routinely.
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teen idol there is.
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of Brian Peck
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with Leonardo DiCaprio.
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and going down his arms.
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anything abnormal,
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but he's gay.
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and you just...
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don't understand
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everything was fine.
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anything that was happening.
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you have no clue.
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on the next idea
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the Drake & Josh show.
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for The Amanda Show.
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like, a tussle
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from the sky.
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of The Amanda Show
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Dan and said,
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buddy comedy."
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and he goes,
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- I want the shrimp!
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to lunch one day.
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about that.
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to get a little bit, um...
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extracurricular than normal.
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come to a concert
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to San Diego
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I was playing.
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totally normal to me.
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that I set up a concert
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for Drake and his band.
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the Strawberry Festival.
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that I'd ever played with.
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to be playing live,
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"My friends are coming
to my shows."
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a birthday party for Drake.
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to have it at his house.
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at your house."
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my 15th birthday.
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and everybody can come."
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which was an hour away,
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to come to my birthday
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on the show.
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like something
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out of the ordinary.
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presents out of the car,
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Brian's friends
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really inappropriate.
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adult things in them,
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"Woah, this is..."
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"Drake, what is this?"
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I didn't even know
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left it at that.
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with Brian
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building up.
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making it very difficult
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that my dad was...
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to really drive a wedge
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stealing my money,
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that my dad's on set,
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making me believe that
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be able to move forward
with him in it.
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someone like Brian,
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because he's...
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for so long
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spending so much time
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than I was really my dad.
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distraught over everything
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relationship.
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getting into my mom's mind
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the same things
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financial situation.
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any mishandling of any funds.
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an army against my dad.
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with his mom for about a week,
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from his mom.
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want you to be his
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my son wants."
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it's hurting me...
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what Drake wants."
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just completely eviscerated.
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he was going through
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all over again.
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you know?
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son's relationship.
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be seeing him.
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five years old,
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"Give me my visitation."
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to make his own decisions.
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you know, the bank account,
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all kinds of...
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Drake's career.
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in person, I said,
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with Brian Peck,
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be around him
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whatsoever.
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absolutely tricked her.
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going to Disneyland.
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"Hey, me and my friends
are going to Disneyland
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like to come?"
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the whole day there
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The Amanda Show was over.
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of, like, floating around.
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for Drake and Josh.
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in the position
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my whole life.
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to drive to LA.
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and pick me up for auditions.
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staying the night
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in Orange County
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and then it would be,
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home the next day
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and getting me home
at midnight,
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it happened, uh...
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every aspect of my life.
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with Brian one morning.
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was gonna be absolutely,
completely different
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get out of the situation.
Copy !req
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have my—
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Copy !req
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call my mom and be like,
Copy !req
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Can you come and pick me up?
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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that I had held onto.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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I no longer wanted to go
to Brian's house,
Copy !req
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raise questions,
Copy !req
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to go to Brian's?"
Copy !req
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he's so apologetic,
Copy !req
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happen again,
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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got into me."
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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happen again."
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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and everyone around to...
Copy !req
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have an audition,
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on dialogue or anything,
Copy !req
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back at Brian's house.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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how to, uh...
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on camera, really.
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or you think would—
Copy !req
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Yeah.
Copy !req
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the worst stuff
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to somebody
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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your question.
Copy !req
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how else to put it.
Copy !req
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it was not a...
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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in the world I survived.
Copy !req
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of the abusive events.
Copy !req
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is very blurry to me.
Copy !req
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because I, uh...
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great things in my life,
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during all this time.
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so overshadowed and...
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on the inside.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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anyone knew anything.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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was just a big, giant secret.
Copy !req
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it would just stop.
Copy !req
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spending all of my time
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because I felt...
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Copy !req
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six seconds...
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Copy !req
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what was going on.
Copy !req
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that I was at her house,
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to take me to Disneyland.
Copy !req
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"This is not happening.
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Copy !req
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my cell phone non-stop.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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my girlfriend's house.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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and over and over.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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"What are you doing?
We had plans."
Copy !req
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on the phone,
Copy !req
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"I must've made double plans,
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hang here tonight.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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and calling back.
Copy !req
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"Hey, Drake,
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in the kitchen for a second?"
Copy !req
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so it's just the two of us.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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we had plans"
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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my daughter's boyfriend
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Copy !req
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"What's going on?"
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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he is kind of strange.
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myself from him
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560. because, like, things
are getting a little weird."
Copy !req
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into her own hands.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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our therapist tomorrow
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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figure it out because...
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in quite a bit of danger."
Copy !req
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to the therapist and...
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to say anything,
Copy !req
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how to explain it.
Copy !req
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I mean, I'm still like...
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outside of...
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Everything's...
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Copy !req
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things are getting
a little weird, but...
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581. But nothing's happened." Uh...
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582. You know, "Good thing
we caught it when we did,"
you know.
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583. And then I realized...
Copy !req
584. it was just so calculated,
you know, it's just...
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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into place."
Copy !req
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was mental manipulation.
Copy !req
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in all of these
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directors and these producers,
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to basically...
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with this person,
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with that person."
Copy !req
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that I would
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to do this ever again.
Copy !req
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how to wax surfboards or...
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what I loved to do and...
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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the pilot for Drake & Josh.
Copy !req
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the dad on the show.
Copy !req
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"That is not gonna happen.
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anywhere near the show."
Copy !req
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on the phone to my mom.
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what provoked it,
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621. everything...
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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called the police,
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how much time,
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of my mom's house
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and my mom,
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Copy !req
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was pretty brutal.
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had happened...
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Copy !req
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a phone call to Brian
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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of my mom's house.
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Copy !req
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tape recorder...
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phone, landline.
Copy !req
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headphones on.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
651. So I said...
Copy !req
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struggling with...
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I'm so broken
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Copy !req
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distressed right now."
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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a full-on confession.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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over and over again.
Copy !req
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"Are we being recorded?"
Copy !req
664. It was just all these
mixed emotions of... of...
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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to this person.
Copy !req
669. I was like, "What next?
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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make my show?
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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on my head.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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vitals are fine,
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Copy !req
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these days?"
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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horrendous things to me.
Copy !req
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going through me were...
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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started blowing up.
Copy !req
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what happened to Brian?"
Copy !req
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nobody knew it was me.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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to do with you?"
Copy !req
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"Yeah, man, like, this is...
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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anymore about it.
Copy !req
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Are you okay?"
Copy !req
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anything from me?
Copy !req
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that you need?"
Copy !req
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so much time...
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pretty obvious.
Copy !req
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from Drake.
Copy !req
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I haven't heard from you
for a while."
Copy !req
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Did you see they got him?
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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for a molestation."
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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"I am so glad
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to get his hands on you."
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and I've just...
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our relationship,
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Copy !req
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"Yeah, you know,
they got him."
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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do something to someone."
Copy !req
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when you finally found out?
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Copy !req
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from the moment that I knew.
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on any parent
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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to go to court.
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after he was arrested,
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shooting the show,
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Copy !req
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what I was doing.
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and doing a scene with Josh,
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and just have fun.
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any basket—
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yourself on a red carpet
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or something like that.
Copy !req
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on the show,
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the nerdy, wacky kid,
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the "think I'm cool" guy,
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that smooth.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
744. But that juxtaposed
with one of the most...
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of my life.
Copy !req
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how to process it.
Copy !req
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that led to a lot of...
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Copy !req
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really, you know?
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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substance abuse.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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making money off of you...
Copy !req
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this great role model."
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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how to be a role model.
Copy !req
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the ability or capability
at this point."
Copy !req
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you know, after the arrest,
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Copy !req
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any executives
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Copy !req
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I'm not really certain
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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brought up to me a lot.
Copy !req
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it's very sensitive subject.
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Copy !req
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no therapy,
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to my own devices,
Copy !req
783. which, at that age,
probably isn't the best thing.
Copy !req
784. There's a long period,
and then we go to sentencing.
Copy !req
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the outcome would be
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never be able to
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Copy !req
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pretty much mean
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work in Hollywood,
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Copy !req
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one kid on the set.
Copy !req
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Copy !req
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Copy !req
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happened at all.
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