Neon Genesis Evangelion 1x25

Directed by Kazuya Tsurumaki

Takehito Koyasu as Shigeru Aoba (voice) • Koichi Yamadera as Ryouji Kaji (voice) • Hiro Yuuki as Hyuuga Makoto (voice)

Instrumentality has begun, and now its inner process, the joining of all souls into one, will be depicted. The episode is primarily driven by dialogue, the background usually complete darkness. White text often appears on a black screen, an omniscient voice questioning the characters.

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1. Like a cruel angel

2. Become a legend, young boy

3. When a blue wind Knocks on the door to your heart

4. You just gaze back at me And smile oh so gently

5. So eager for something You touch so softly

6. Those innocent eyes Know nothing of the fate that awaits

7. But one day, you will realize That upon your back

8. You have wings You can fly to the faraway future

9. The cruel angel's thesis

10. One day, you'll take off through a window

11. If your overflowing pathos

12. Leads you to betray your memories

13. Then embrace the heavens and shine bright

14. Become legend, young boy

15. RAISON D'ÊTRE, ONE'S REASON FOR BEING

16. THE REASON IT'S OKAY TO BE HERE

17. THE CASE OF SHINJI IKARI

18. A BOY WISHED FOR HIS OWN DEATH

19. A BOY GRANTED HIS WISH

20. THE FINAL ANGEL IS GONE

21. YET SHINJI IKARI AGONIZES OVER IT

22. WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?

23. WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?

24. WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?

25. WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?

26. WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?

27. I didn't have any choice!

28. WHY DID YOU KILL HIM?

29. Because Kaworu was... He was an Angel!

30. WASN'T HE AS HUMAN AS YOU ARE?

31. No! He was an Angel! Our enemy!

32. WASN'T HE AS HUMAN AS YOU ARE?

33. No! No! He wasn't!

34. But he was a person just like me.

35. No! He was an Angel!

36. So you killed him?

37. That's right! If I hadn't, we all would have died!

38. Everyone would have died!

39. So you killed him?

40. I didn't want to do it! But there was no other way!

41. SO YOU KILLED HIM

42. Help me...

43. SO YOU KILLED HIM

44. Help me...

45. SO YOU KILLED HIM

46. Help me!

47. SO YOU KILLED HIM

48. Somebody, help me!

49. SO YOU KILLED HIM

50. I'm begging you! Somebody, please help me!

51. Yeah, if only one of us could survive, it should have been him.

52. He was a way better person than I am.

53. Kaworu should have survived!

54. You're wrong. Only those with the will to live get to survive.

55. He craved death.

56. He abandoned his will to live and clung to a false hope.

57. You didn't do anything wrong, Shinji.

58. Really?

59. Did I really do the right thing?

60. I don't know. What should I do?

61. What should I do?

62. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?

63. Afraid?

64. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?

65. Myself?

66. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?

67. Being rejected.

68. By who? Who?

69. I'm afraid... of Father!

70. I was abandoned by Father. He hated me.

71. What will I do if people hate me? What should I do then?

72. What is this place?

73. Where should I go?

74. I can't see anything. I can't make anything out.

75. Ms. Misato?

76. Ms. Misato!

77. Hey! Where did you go, Ms. Misato?

78. Hey! Where should I go from here?

79. Ms. Misato! Asuka! Ayanami!

80. Tohji! Kensuke! Ms. Ritsuko!

81. Mr. Kaji!

82. Father!

83. Mother...

84. Somebody, tell me...

85. Please, tell me what I should do!

86. Evangelion Unit 01...

87. In the end, is piloting this all I have?

88. Am I supposed to pilot this again like Father and everybody else says?

89. Even if it means killing people I like?

90. Mother! Say something! Answer me!

91. WHY DO YOU PILOT THE EVA?

92. Because people tell me to.

93. THAT'S WHY YOU PILOT THE EVA?

94. To... To help everyone! What's wrong with that?

95. YOU PILOT THE EVA TO HELP EVERYONE? TO HELP OTHERS?

96. That's right! That's a great thing!

97. It's a really great thing!

98. Everybody praises me when I do! Everybody takes care of me!

99. That's a lie.

100. What are you, an idiot? That means you're actually doing it for yourself.

101. There you go again, making excuses to yourself right off the bat.

102. I am?

103. The mindset that you're doing your best to serve others,

104. that's a cop-out right there!

105. It is?

106. What it boils down to is that you're lonely, Shinji.

107. I am?

108. That's just dependency! A symbiotic relationship!

109. Maybe that's true...

110. You're just hoping that you'll be needed by others!

111. Maybe that's true...

112. You're just sitting around, waiting for someone to bring happiness to you!

113. To bring you false happiness.

114. But don't you do the same thing?

115. OUR SECOND CHARACTER

116. THE CASE OF ASUKA LANGLEY SORYU

117. I don't remember getting in, but I'm back in the Eva.

118. Forced back into it.

119. It's not like this busted piece of junk even works.

120. No, I guess I'm the busted piece of junk...

121. They don't want me.

122. Nobody would ever want me!

123. Nobody needs a pilot who can't operate an Eva!

124. You're looking to others to define yourself.

125. Shut up!

126. SEPARATION ANXIETY

127. You're afraid of being alone, aren't you?

128. You're afraid that if everyone else goes away, so will you.

129. That's why you pilot your Eva.

130. Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!

131. I don't want to hear that crap, not from a doll like you!

132. OUR THIRD CHARACTER

133. THE CASE OF REI AYANAMI

134. Who am I?

135. Rei Ayanami.

136. But who... are you?

137. REI AYANAMI

138. You're also Rei Ayanami?

139. Yes. I'm an object that's called Rei Ayanami.

140. We're all objects that are called Rei Ayanami.

141. Why are all of you me?

142. Because other people all call us Rei Ayanami.

143. Why do you have a heart and body that are forgeries?

144. They aren't forgeries. Because I'm me.

145. No. You're a person whose fake soul

146. was created by a human named Gendoh Ikari.

147. You're nothing but a fake object that is pretending to be a human being.

148. See that? Inside of you is a heart

149. that's a dark, impenetrable, unfathomable abyss.

150. The real you is in there.

151. I am the real me.

152. I became myself over the time that I've existed

153. and through the connections that I've formed with others.

154. The person I am is shaped by my interactions with others.

155. Interactions with others and the passage of time

156. will change the shape of my heart.

157. THOSE ARE LINKS?

158. Yes. Those are what created the person that I have been,

159. the object called Rei Ayanami.

160. They will create the person I will be.

161. THOSE ARE LINKS

162. But there's another, real you.

163. You just don't know it.

164. You don't want to see her, so you just keep avoiding her subconsciously.

165. BECAUSE YOU'RE AFRAID

166. Because she might not be human in shape.

167. Because the person you have been up until now might disappear.

168. YOU'RE AFRAID

169. You're afraid that who you are will vanish.

170. You're afraid that you'll disappear from everyone's hearts.

171. Afraid? Why would I be afraid?

172. Your own personal world would disappear, too.

173. ISN'T THAT SCARY?

174. It means you would disappear.

175. ISN'T THAT SCARY?

176. No, that would make me happy. I want to die.

177. What I want is despair. I want to return to nothingness.

178. But I can't. I can't return to nothingness.

179. He won't let me go back.

180. He won't let me go, not yet.

181. I came into existence because he needs me.

182. But it's over now. I won't be needed anymore.

183. I'll be abandoned by him.

184. I had always longed for that day, but now I'm afraid.

185. Let's go.

186. This is the day

187. you were born for, Rei.

188. Yes, sir.

189. AND...

190. THE INSTRUMENTALITY OF HUMANITY BEGINS

191. BACK TO SHINJI IKARI

192. What's this sensation?

193. I think I've felt it before.

194. Like the lines of my body are melting away.

195. It feels nice...

196. It's like I'm getting bigger, spreading out.

197. Forever... and ever...

198. THIS WAS HOW EVERYONE'S INSTRUMENTALITY BEGAN

199. PARTS THEY WERE MISSING

200. HEARTS THEY HAD LOST

201. THAT EMPTINESS IN THEIR HEARTS WAS FILLED

202. THE INSTRUMENTALITY OF THE HEART, THE SOUL, BEGINS

203. EVERYONE'S INSTRUMENTALITY BEGINS,

204. RETURNING EVERYTHING TO NOTHINGNESS

205. No, we aren't returning to nothingness.

206. I'm simply returning everything to its beginning.

207. Returning to the mother who has been lost to this world.

208. Our hearts will become one, and we will achieve eternal peace.

209. That's all this is, nothing more.

210. That's the Instrumentality Project?

211. Yes. We all have a part of our heart that is forever empty.

212. Something we have lost.

213. THIS CAUSES EMOTIONAL STARVATION

214. THIS CAUSES EMOTIONAL ANXIETY AND FEAR

215. We all fear that darkness within us,

216. and we live our lives trying to escape it or banish it.

217. As long as there are people, that darkness will never disappear.

218. So you think we should merge everyone's hearts together

219. to get them to make each other whole?

220. And without anyone's consent? What gives you the right?

221. That's just forcing people to cozy up to each other!

222. But you yourself always wanted the same thing.

223. Where am I?

224. THE CASE OF MISATO KATSURAGI (PART 1)

225. This is my heart inside your heart, Ms. Misato.

226. And at the same, it's also my heart inside your heart, Shinji.

227. For me to find myself, I need to interact with lots of different people.

228. I need to take a good look inside myself.

229. I need to take a good look at the Ms. Misato that's inside me.

230. Ms. Misato, what do you wish for?

231. DO YOU WANT TO BE A GOOD GIRL?

232. I need to be a good girl.

233. WHY?

234. Because Daddy is always gone.

235. I need to be a good girl and help Mommy.

236. But I don't want to end up like Mommy.

237. Because Mommy is always crying when Daddy is away.

238. I shouldn't cry. I shouldn't act spoiled.

239. That's why I need to be a good girl.

240. And I'll make sure that Daddy won't hate me.

241. But I hate my father. That's why I hate being a good girl.

242. I hate it... I'm so tired.

243. Tired of keeping myself all clean and pretty.

244. Tired of the me that keeps up the charade of being clean and pretty.

245. I'm exhausted.

246. I want to get sullied.

247. I wanted to see myself absolutely filthy.

248. That's why you slept with him?

249. No, I loved him. That's why I slept with him.

250. Were you really in love with him?

251. Yes, that's right. He accepted me for who I am.

252. ARE YOU SURE?

253. He was gentle with me!

254. No! Please! Don't show that to Shinji!

255. It's nothing to get embarrassed about at this point.

256. It's embarrassing!

257. Why is it embarrassing?

258. You were fine with it in front of the man you loved.

259. In fact, you loved parading around off like this.

260. No! Stop!

261. The truth is, you actually love letting Shinji see you like this.

262. That's a lie! You're wrong! Wrong!

263. Really, now?

264. It's really your father that you want to show this to.

265. You're wrong!

266. You tried to find solace in Ryoji's face as he slept.

267. You're wrong!

268. You tried to find solace in the warmth of Ryoji's body.

269. You're wrong!

270. You tried to find your father in Ryoji's arms.

271. You're wrong!

272. It's true.

273. I recognized my father in Ryoji back then.

274. That's why I ran away from him.

275. I was afraid. It was like my father and I were...

276. But the truth is, I ran away because I was happy.

277. It felt so good.

278. Those were moments of utter bliss.

279. That's why I hated it.

280. That's why I broke up with him.

281. I guess they're right. "You never have a reason to fall in love,

282. but you always have a reason to fall out of love."

283. You're kind, Ryoji.

284. Use that kindness... I'm begging you.

285. Make me filthy.

286. Don't try to hurt yourself just because you hate who you are at this moment.

287. That's just using momentary punishment to distract yourself.

288. You really don't want to do that.

289. You're saying that I should take care of myself, huh?

290. Men are all like that.

291. They get lost in their work, in their own little worlds.

292. And leave me behind.

293. That's exactly what Father did.

294. They're always running away from a harsh reality.

295. Harsh reality?

296. Meaning me, right?

297. It must be. Just look at me. Could anybody blame him?

298. Knock it off, Ms. Misato!

299. I can't live with myself sometimes! I hate myself!

300. How indecent. That's filthy.

301. How appalling.

302. That's so smutty! So absolutely gross!

303. This is what an adult relationship is like? I'm gonna puke!

304. Congratulations on your promotion, Major Katsuragi.

305. The me that's respected is a character that I play to try to earn respect.

306. That's not the real me.

307. The real you is always crying.

308. No, I'm happy.

309. AM I HAPPY?

310. I'm happy.

311. AM I HAPPY?

312. I'm happy!

313. AM I HAPPY?

314. I'm not! This isn't happiness!

315. WHAT IS HAPPINESS?

316. This isn't the real me!

317. I just try to convince myself that it is!

318. We can't go through life unless we do that?

319. We get scared if we're not with others.

320. We get anxious.

321. If someone isn't sleeping next to us.

322. You're scared of sleeping alone?

323. So sleeping by yourself makes you feel lonely?

324. You can't stand the hole in your heart.

325. That's why you don't care who it's with.

326. You're wrong!

327. No, you just want to experience simple pleasures.

328. You want to soothe your suffering heart with those momentary escapes.

329. You're just using men as a means to that end.

330. You're wrong! You're wrong! You're wrong!

331. WHAT COULD SHE BE WISHING FOR?

332. Where am I?

333. This is my heart inside your heart, Asuka.

334. And at the same, it's also my heart inside your heart, Shinji.

335. THE CASE OF ASUKA LANGLEY SORYU (PART 1)

336. Asuka, what do you wish for?

337. I'll live on my own.

338. I don't need Mommy or Daddy. I'll live on my own.

339. I won't cry anymore.

340. But I'm still crying...

341. Why am I crying?

342. I honestly don't know how to deal with her.

343. It's not like a doctor to sound so unsure of herself.

344. A doctor is also a human being. As I've told you before.

345. Still, it's hard to believe that a woman like you could be rattled by a child.

346. She's strangely mature.

347. So tightly wound and absolutely unapproachable.

348. She scares me sometimes. Have you ever sensed that about her?

349. Not really. Anyway, you're Asuka's mother now.

350. I became your wife before I became her mother.

351. - It was at the same time. - Yes, in terms of societal roles.

352. But while you can never stop being her father,

353. I can stop being her mother whenever I like.

354. I suppose that's true.

355. Don't, Mommy! Don't stop being my Mommy!

356. I'll be a good girl that you'll love!

357. So don't stop being my Mommy!

358. So please look at me!

359. Don't, Mommy! Please don't kill me!

360. Daddy hates Mommy now.

361. He doesn't need me anymore.

362. No, he never loved me in the first place.

363. He never really needed me at all, I know it.

364. So die with Mommy, all right?

365. Because Daddy doesn't want us.

366. Am I a nuisance? Am I unwanted?

367. Die with me...

368. No! I'm not your doll, Mommy!

369. I'll think for myself and live for myself!

370. When I found her, Mom was hanging from the ceiling.

371. She had such a happy look on her face.

372. But I hated that look on her face so much.

373. I don't want to die. I don't want to fade away and disappear.

374. I don't want boys, either! And I don't want Dad or Mom!

375. I don't want anyone!

376. No one will protect me!

377. No one will be with me!

378. WHAT DOES SHE WISH FOR?

379. So I'll live for myself!

380. But I hate it! It's hard!

381. I don't want to be alone!

382. Don't abandon me.

383. Don't cast me aside.

384. Don't kill me.

385. What is this?

386. What your father was working on. The Human Instrumentality Project.

387. - That's what this is? - Part of it, looks like.

388. The truth is something we never really know.

389. What you experience at any given time are mere facts.

390. Your own set of facts.

391. And memory of those facts gradually become your reality.

392. Some truths change and transform over time.

393. This is a fact? This is how everything turns out?

394. There are lots of facts. This is just one.

395. This is the outcome you wished for.

396. I wished for this?

397. That's right. For destruction. A world where no one is saved.

398. No! It's a world where nobody saved me! That's all.

399. No one can save you.

400. This is what you wished for.

401. Destruction. Death. A return to nothingness.

402. These are things you wished for.

403. This is reality.

404. What is reality?

405. The world around you.

406. Your own world, one that exists alongside time and space and other people.

407. A world where you yourself choose how to interpret and accept things.

408. Right now, it's a world made up of only what was given to you.

409. THAT IS REALITY

410. A world of your own that you have no control over.

411. You mean a world where everything is decided for me, right?

412. No, it's not. It's a world where you make the decisions.

413. It is a world where your heart decides how things will be.

414. THAT IS REALITY

415. The will to go on living.

416. A heart that wanted to die.

417. Those are things that you yourself wished for.

418. This darkness and this strange world... You're saying that I wished for this?

419. That's right.

420. You wished for a closed-off world that's comfortable for you and only you.

421. To protect your fragile heart.

422. To protect your pleasure.

423. This is just the natural outcome.

424. People can't live in a closed-off realm. In a world all their own.

425. But you wished for the world, for the world around you, to be closed off.

426. Driving away everything you dislike, you wished for a lonely world.

427. Your own heart did this.

428. It culminated in this tiny world of peace of mind for you alone.

429. The shape it's taken here is one possible ending.

430. This is the end of the world that you yourself brought about.

431. AND SO, THE QUEST FOR INSTRUMENTALITY

432. CONTINUES

433. Endings. They can always be found after a beginning.

434. Will our wishes lead to our destruction?

435. Is our hope death itself?

436. The final episode, "The Beast That Shouted 'I' at the Heart of the World".

437. Dan Kanemitsu Subtitle Editor: David Fleming