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He's still in the church.
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- Eddie—
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They'd have to come with us, right?
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The guns and knives?
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- She's in there.
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- Mom!
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- It's not.
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You're gonna be all right, Annie.
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You'll be up and about in no time.
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how many deaths occur every second…
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and our daughter, she was never a sin.
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- Help! Help me!
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- Someone help me!
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- Help me, please!
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It'd take more than the west bank
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and there came hail and fire
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and they were hurled to the Earth."
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and a third of the trees were burned up,
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which is the second death." Let it burn.
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- Leeza, honey, please!
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birds of the sky. They were blotted out."
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for those who were with him on the ark."
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Monsignor. It's an ark.
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Not you, Monsignor.
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We are wrong. And this needs to stop.
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It has to be you. It has always been you.
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It's supposed to be about God!
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You were always…
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the hardest, test of my faith. You.
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- Nothing.
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only doing in rare and specific…
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There's gotta be somewhere else.
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- No, no, I…
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435. Hey, kid.
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436. Kid, you okay?
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437. I don't think so.
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438. I think I…
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439. I don't know, but I think I killed my mom.
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440. Yeah. I done some stuff tonight
that I feel…
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441. I done some stuff.
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442. Will you forgive me, kid?
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443. I'll forgive you.
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444. Come on. You too, Howie, come on.
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445. Just hang on.
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446. - Dad. Dad.
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447. There.
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448. It's heading west.
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449. It's running.
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450. It's running from the sunrise.
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451. Do you think it can make it?
Before the sunrise?
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452. Thirty miles?
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453. I mean, that thing can barely fly.
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454. No, I… I don't think it can.
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455. What happens?
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456. What?
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457. When we die.
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458. What happens?
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459. Yeah, what the fuck happens?
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460. So what do you think
happens when we die, Erin?
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461. Speaking for myself?
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462. Speaking for yourself.
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463. Myself. My self.
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464. That's the problem.
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465. That's the whole problem
with the whole thing.
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466. That word, "self."
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467. That's not the word.
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468. That's not right, that isn't…
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469. That isn't.
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470. How did I forget that?
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471. When did I forget that?
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472. The body stops a cell at a time,
but the brain keeps firing those neurons.
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473. Little lightning bolts,
like fireworks inside,
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474. and I thought I'd despair or feel afraid,
but I don't feel any of that.
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475. None of it.
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476. Because I'm too busy.
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477. I'm too busy in this moment. Remembering.
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478. Of course.
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479. I remember that every atom in my body
was forged in a star.
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480. This matter, this body is
mostly just empty space after all,
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481. and solid matter?
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482. It's just energy vibrating very slowly
and there is no me.
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483. There never was.
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484. The electrons of my body mingle and dance
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485. with the electrons of the ground below me
and the air I'm no longer breathing.
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486. And I remember
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487. there is no point
where any of that ends and I begin.
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488. I remember I am energy. Not memory.
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489. Not self.
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490. My name, my personality,
my choices, all came after me.
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491. I was before them and I will be after,
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492. and everything else is pictures,
picked up along the way.
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493. Fleeting little dreamlets
printed on the tissue of my dying brain.
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494. And I am the lightning that jumps between.
I am the energy firing the neurons,
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495. and I'm returning.
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496. Just by remembering, I'm returning home.
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497. And it's like a drop of water
falling back into the ocean,
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498. of which it's always been a part.
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499. All things… a part.
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500. All of us… a part.
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501. You, me and my little girl,
and my mother and my father,
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502. everyone who's ever been,
every plant, every animal, every atom,
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503. every star, every galaxy, all of it.
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504. More galaxies in the universe
than grains of sand on the beach.
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505. And that's what we're talking about
when we say "God."
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506. The one.
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507. The cosmos and its infinite dreams.
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508. We are the cosmos dreaming of itself.
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509. It's simply a dream
that I think is my life, every time.
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510. But I'll forget this. I always do.
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511. I always forget my dreams.
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512. But now, in this split-second,
in the moment I remember,
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513. the instant I remember,
I comprehend everything at once.
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514. There is no time. There is no death.
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515. Life is a dream.
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516. It's a wish.
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517. Made again and again and again
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518. and again and again and again
and on into eternity.
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519. And I am all of it.
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520. I am everything. I am all.
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521. I am that I am.
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522. Forgive me.
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523. I can't feel my legs.
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