1. Dear Simon,Copy !req
2. I know it's been a minute
since I've reached out,Copy !req
3. and you were probably thinking, "Wow!Copy !req
4. I bet Victor finally
has his shit together."Copy !req
5. But Simon, my shit is not together.Copy !req
6. My shit is...Copy !req
7. Well, it's shit.Copy !req
8. Benji wants to take a break from us.Copy !req
9. We've been far from perfect lately,Copy !req
10. but I thought we were strong enough
to get through anything.Copy !req
11. And now, I'm not so sure.Copy !req
12. - So, I told off a priest.Copy !req
13. Well, "telling off" might be a bit strong.Copy !req
14. Nobody had to hold my earrings,Copy !req
15. but I did tell Father Lawrence
that we're quitting the church.Copy !req
16. - Cool.Copy !req
17. - And I found another congregation
in Five Points.Copy !req
18. Their website says all are welcome,Copy !req
19. which is Catholic for less homophobic.Copy !req
20. Victor...Copy !req
21. Is everything okay?Copy !req
22. - Not really.
- Well, is it something
you want to talk about?Copy !req
23. - No.Copy !req
24. - If you're wondering how
he gets his hair that perfect,Copy !req
25. there isn't a pomade in the world
that can do that for you.Copy !req
26. Should we shave his head in his sleep
and make a wig?Copy !req
27. We could share it.Copy !req
28. Okay, that was funny. Are you okay?Copy !req
29. - Benji and I are taking a break.
It was his choice.Copy !req
30. - What? Why?
- I don't know. A lot of things.Copy !req
31. I mean, he wasn't too thrilled
that I told you that he was in AA.Copy !req
32. - Oh, no! I, I didn't tell anyone,
I swear.
- No, no, no.Copy !req
33. I know, and it's, it's not your fault.Copy !req
34. I shouldn't have told you.Copy !req
35. But it's not just that. We've been
fighting about everything lately.Copy !req
36. He says he needs some time to figure out
if we still make sense.Copy !req
37. And now I just have to
sit next to him in pre-calcCopy !req
38. and pretend like
I'm not dying inside.Copy !req
39. - How are you supposed to learn
complex mathCopy !req
40. while having gay relationship drama?Copy !req
41. - Yeah, high school is demented.Copy !req
42. - Hey, what do you say we get out of here?Copy !req
43. - What do you mean? Like, skip school?Copy !req
44. - Scandalous, I know, but it kind of
works out for me, too.Copy !req
45. I have this test in third period,Copy !req
46. and I did not finish Lord of the Flies.Copy !req
47. Who knew a bunch of hot British boys
getting stranded on an islandCopy !req
48. could be so boring?Copy !req
49. - You're right. Let's get out of here.Copy !req
50. But let's be stealthy about it.
I don't want to get in trouble.Copy !req
51. - Then fix your face and unclench
your butt cheeks,Copy !req
52. 'cause you look like you just murdered
your family, embezzled your inheritance,Copy !req
53. and started over in Boca Raton.Copy !req
54. I watch a lot of true crime.Copy !req
55. - Ah, not that way.Copy !req
56. That's where Mrs. Potemkin goes
to chain smokeCopy !req
57. and cry about her dead marriage.Copy !req
58. I should teach a master class
on skipping school.Copy !req
59. Although, I'd probably skip that, too.Copy !req
60. - So, wait, how do you not get in trouble?
Doesn't the school call your parents?Copy !req
61. - Nope. I just email the school officeCopy !req
62. saying it's some made up
Muslim holiday.Copy !req
63. None of those old ladies in admin want to
go down for religious perse-cush.Copy !req
64. - Yeah, you see, I don't think
"Muslim holiday" is gonna work for me.Copy !req
65. What are you doing?Copy !req
66. - Hi, this is
Victah Salazah's mothah, Isabel?Copy !req
67. - Why are you pretending to be my mom
and not my dad?Copy !req
68. - Um, I don't know what
your dad sounds like.Copy !req
69. - Well, neither do they!
- Okay, well, it's too late to switch now.Copy !req
70. Ah, yeah, sorry about that. Um,Copy !req
71. look, Victah's not gonna be
able to come in today.Copy !req
72. Yeah, he'd kill me for telling you this,Copy !req
73. but he got into some bad
chimichangas last night,Copy !req
74. and let's just say he got it
comin' out of both ends.Copy !req
75. Yeah— Aw, thank you so much.Copy !req
76. Aw, that's so sweet. Adios!Copy !req
77. She said to feel better
and to drink lots of fluids.Copy !req
78. - I hate you so much right now.Copy !req
79. I never would have pegged you
as the "cutting class" type.Copy !req
80. - Hey. Don't judge a book
by it's extremely chic cover.Copy !req
81. It's just sometimes I feel likeCopy !req
82. all these Creekwood kids are living
in their happy little bubbles,Copy !req
83. and I'm not like any of them.Copy !req
84. Sometimes I feel outside of it all.Copy !req
85. And when that happens,Copy !req
86. I need to get out from under the
tragic fluorescent lighting and breathe.Copy !req
87. But today's your day to breathe.
So, what do you want to do?Copy !req
88. - I don't know.Copy !req
89. I can't stop thinking about Benji.Copy !req
90. I mean, we were supposed to go to
Mia's dad's wedding this weekend,Copy !req
91. and now—
- Okay, so we just have to
get your mind off of Benji.Copy !req
92. - But everywhere reminds me of him.Copy !req
93. - Okay, then we'll go somewhere you
and Benji have never been before.Copy !req
94. A Benji memory-free zone.Copy !req
95. I know just the place.Copy !req
96. Here you go. Enjoy.
- Thanks.Copy !req
97. Okay, what am I eating,
and why haven't I had it before?Copy !req
98. - It's Tahchin.
A crispy rice cake, with chicken.Copy !req
99. Anytime I'm in my feels,
I have to have that.Copy !req
100. - It kind of reminds me of my mom's
arroz con pollo.Copy !req
101. She used to make it every Sunday
after church.Copy !req
102. - Used to?Copy !req
103. - Well, now that she and my dad
are separated...Copy !req
104. - Oh, yeah. How are things going
with that, by the way?Copy !req
105. - I don't know. It's on the long list
of things that we don't talk about.Copy !req
106. - What about you?
How are things with your parents?Copy !req
107. - Actually...Copy !req
108. Remember when I told youCopy !req
109. I didn't finish Lord of the Flies
last night?Copy !req
110. - It's 'cause I was coming out
to my parents.Copy !req
111. - What? Rahim!
Why didn't you tell me before?Copy !req
112. - I don't know.
You were so bummed about Benji,Copy !req
113. and I didn't want to make today about me.Copy !req
114. - So, how did you do it?Copy !req
115. - This is humiliating,Copy !req
116. but I wrote everything
I wanted to say on a notecard,Copy !req
117. because I knew once I took it out,
I wouldn't be able to bail.Copy !req
118. And I didn't. I, I read it to them,Copy !req
119. and they sat there for
what felt like six years,Copy !req
120. and my, my dad said,
"I'm really happy you finally told us."Copy !req
121. - Wait. They were glad that you
"finally" told them?Copy !req
122. - Okay, so apparently,
my mom had discoveredCopy !req
123. my internet search history
when I was twelve,Copy !req
124. and saw that I had been Googling
"Tom Holland" plus "penis."Copy !req
125. No!Copy !req
126. Tom Holland?
- I know.Copy !req
127. Anyway, thank you.Copy !req
128. For helping me be brave.Copy !req
129. - No. Rahim, you did that all on your own.Copy !req
130. I'm... I'm really proud of you.Copy !req
131. Is something going on?Copy !req
132. - No. Sorry.Copy !req
133. - Victor?Copy !req
134. - Dad?Copy !req
135. - Victor, why aren't you in school?Copy !req
136. - That, that would be my fault,
Mr. Salazar.Copy !req
137. I had to miss school today for the
Muslim Festival of a Thousand Pistachios.Copy !req
138. Very sacred.Copy !req
139. Uh, Victor had a free period,Copy !req
140. and he was kind enough to bring me
my homework so I wouldn't fall behind.Copy !req
141. I'm Rahim, by the way.
- Hi.Copy !req
142. Oh, uh, sorry. Uh, Victor, this is, uh,
my friend Shelby.Copy !req
143. - So nice to meet you, Victor.Copy !req
144. Your dad talks about you all the time.Copy !req
145. - He does? When?Copy !req
146. - PFLAG. Shelby and I, we know
each other from the meetings.Copy !req
147. Uh, Victor, can we talk for a second?Copy !req
148. - Happy holidays. I just love pistachios.Copy !req
149. - Are you on a date right now?
- Shelby and I...Copy !req
150. Yes, we're seeing each other.Copy !req
151. It's very new. It's too new
to tell you about, but here we are.Copy !req
152. - Does Mom know?
- She does.Copy !req
153. - So, that's it?Copy !req
154. You guys are never getting back together?
You're just giving up on her?Copy !req
155. - Victor, I'm not giving up on anything.Copy !req
156. - You're dating other people.
You're not even trying anymore.Copy !req
157. - Look, I think that this is a much
bigger conversation.Copy !req
158. And maybe me catching you skipping schoolCopy !req
159. is not the best time to have it.Copy !req
160. Your friend over there,
he's pretty smooth,Copy !req
161. but I wasn't born yesterday.Copy !req
162. - Are you gonna tell Mom?Copy !req
163. - If you head back to class now,
maybe I'll forget to mention it.Copy !req
164. I can't believe my dad got a girlfriend.Copy !req
165. God. How could he do this to my mom?Copy !req
166. - Can I ask you a personal question?
- Mmm.Copy !req
167. - Do you think your parents
should get back together?Copy !req
168. Like, do you think that
they're right for each other?Copy !req
169. - I don't know. I mean, last year,
they were constantly fighting.Copy !req
170. And sometimes I just wished they'd
get the hell away from each otherCopy !req
171. and give us all a break.Copy !req
172. Before that...Copy !req
173. They were pretty magic together.Copy !req
174. I mean, they were our age
when they started dating.Copy !req
175. But maybe that's part of the problem.
You know, like...Copy !req
176. what are the odds that the first person
you date is the personCopy !req
177. you're supposed to end up with?Copy !req
178. - Okay, I don't care what your dad says.
We're not going back to school.Copy !req
179. It's time to turn the self-care
up to an eleven.Copy !req
180. You know, I've never actually
had a pedicure before.Copy !req
181. - You're acting like this is news,
but those hooves are rough.Copy !req
182. Linda, Michelle,
the number 4 special, please.Copy !req
183. "Oh oh aubergine" for me,Copy !req
184. and "clear" for my very
wild friend over here.Copy !req
185. - Okay.Copy !req
186. Okay, why do you keep grinning
at your phone like that?Copy !req
187. Did Tom Holland slide into your DMs?
- No!Copy !req
188. Okay? It's just this guy Charlie
I've been talking to on one of those apps.Copy !req
189. You know which one.
- Well, let me see.Copy !req
190. Wait. Are all these
headless torsos in Atlanta?Copy !req
191. - This is just guys nearby.Copy !req
192. Turns out there's a ton of gay fish
in the online sea.Copy !req
193. - And all the fish claim
to have 9-inch dicks.Copy !req
194. - Yeah, all the fish kind of lie.Copy !req
195. Like when Charlie and I started talking,
we both said we were twenty-two.Copy !req
196. But turns out he's a senior
at Thadwick Academy.Copy !req
197. - Thadwick?
- Mm-hmm.Copy !req
198. - Damn. Your boyfriend's bougie.Copy !req
199. - He's not my boyfriend, okay?
We, we haven't even met.Copy !req
200. We just text a lot.Copy !req
201. And send the occasional
mildly scandalous pic.Copy !req
202. - You should ask him
if he wants to meet up.Copy !req
203. - What, like now?Copy !req
204. - You said I get to pick what we do today,
and this is what I pick.Copy !req
205. - I can't believe I'm actually
gonna do this.Copy !req
206. I feel a pimple starting on my chin,Copy !req
207. and this isn't even
one of my top-tier outfits.Copy !req
208. - Well, lucky for you, we're in a spa.Copy !req
209. Linda, Michelle, give him the works.Copy !req
210. - I have $17 in my wallet.Copy !req
211. - Give him $17 worth of works.
- There we go.Copy !req
212. Okay, you sure you don't mind being here?Copy !req
213. - No. Benji's not working today.Copy !req
214. And plus, I know where
we keep the pepper sprayCopy !req
215. in case Charlie turns out to be
a sixty-year-old murdererCopy !req
216. whose kink is decapitating high school
students with a box cutter.Copy !req
217. Do you think you're the only person
that watches true crime?Copy !req
218. - Oh, my God. I think that's him.Copy !req
219. Okay, I would so let him decapitate me.Copy !req
220. - Maybe don't start with that.
- Right.Copy !req
221. - Go.Copy !req
222. - Charlie. Hi-yee!Copy !req
223. I don't know why I just said "hi"
like that. I'm nervous.Copy !req
224. - It's fine. Nice to meet you.
- Yeah.Copy !req
225. You look just like your pics, thank God.Copy !req
226. A lot of people use those ring light
things that make their pores disappear,Copy !req
227. and they end up looking like
hideous monsters in real life,Copy !req
228. but you don't.
So, drop that skincare routine, sis!Copy !req
229. - Thanks. Thank you.Copy !req
230. What's good here?Copy !req
231. - Ah, well, the chili mocha latte
is my personal obsesh.Copy !req
232. She's serving spicy, she's serving sweet.Copy !req
233. You need her in your life.Copy !req
234. - "Her" as in the, the coffee?Copy !req
235. - Uh, why don't you order,
and I'll grab us a table?Copy !req
236. - Hey, um...Copy !req
237. Sorry. Uh...Copy !req
238. You're, you're just different
from how I pictured.Copy !req
239. - What do you mean?
- No, I just— Like the...Copy !req
240. The way you talk.Copy !req
241. And like, the way you... are.Copy !req
242. Sorry, I—Copy !req
243. I tend to go for guys
who are a bit more masculine?Copy !req
244. No offense.Copy !req
245. - Oh.Copy !req
246. Yeah. It's just my preference.Copy !req
247. Yeah. No, if you're not into it,
you're not into it.Copy !req
248. - I kind of wish
he'd decapitated me instead.Copy !req
249. I'm so embarrassed.Copy !req
250. I can't believe you just saw that.Copy !req
251. - No, he should be embarrassed.
What a dick.Copy !req
252. - No. I, I get it.
If he's into "masc" guys or whatever,Copy !req
253. I'm never gonna be that.Copy !req
254. I'm wearing lavender suede.Copy !req
255. - Okay, first off, that jacket is fire,
and you know it.Copy !req
256. And secondly, don't let one stupid boy
ruin what's great about you.Copy !req
257. - Except it's not just one stupid boy.Copy !req
258. You know, a lot of people see me as just
this funny, fruity beanpole,Copy !req
259. and nothing else.
- All right, that's bullshit.Copy !req
260. You're tall, you're smart,
you're super handsome—Copy !req
261. - Super handsome?Copy !req
262. - Stop. I'm just saying that objectively,Copy !req
263. you're a very good looking guy.Copy !req
264. - Okay. Okay, this is the content
I signed up for.Copy !req
265. Can you start an OnlyFans where
it's just you complimenting me?Copy !req
266. Maybe in an ASMR whisper voice?Copy !req
267. - I'm trying to tell you something.Copy !req
268. You're a catch, Rahim.Copy !req
269. And, uh,Copy !req
270. if we went to a gay bar,
you would totally clean up.Copy !req
271. - Well. I'm pretty sure you would
clean up at a gay bar, too.Copy !req
272. If you were single.
Which you're not.Copy !req
273. Because things are gonna work out
between you and Benji.Copy !req
274. - Maybe. Or maybe not.Copy !req
275. It's just my mom.Copy !req
276. - Oh. Sorry.Copy !req
277. - You know what?
We don't we go to a gay bar?Copy !req
278. - Really? I don't have, like,
an ID or anything.Copy !req
279. - So? I went to one in New York,
and they never even checked.Copy !req
280. Ugh, no...Copy !req
281. - Okay, we can do this.
Just act confident,Copy !req
282. and try to make yourself look older,
like, like, beaten down by life.Copy !req
283. - Right.Copy !req
284. - No. It's not gonna work.
- God, we're never gonna get in.Copy !req
285. - Screw it. Come on.Copy !req
286. - Remember this morning,
when you wouldn't even skip school?Copy !req
287. - Well, I guess you're a bad influence.Copy !req
288. Rahim?Copy !req
289. - Sorry. This is amazing.Copy !req
290. - I think if you keep staring,
you gotta tip him.Copy !req
291. - No, I, I mean... all of this.Copy !req
292. Everyone's...Copy !req
293. This is the first time
in my life where I feel like...Copy !req
294. - I know.Copy !req
295. Just give him a dollar.Copy !req
296. Go.Copy !req
297. - You are so full of shit!Copy !req
298. Your number one hottest thing
about a guy is his brain?Copy !req
299. - Yes! Like if a guy hits me up
and he says, "You're handsome,"Copy !req
300. but spells it Y-O-U-R?Copy !req
301. Immediate block.Copy !req
302. - Okay, so number one is smart.Copy !req
303. You big liar. Then what?
- Then...Copy !req
304. A great smile.
- Um...Copy !req
305. - Symmetrical eyebrows.Copy !req
306. I wouldn't be mad at a cute hockey butt.Copy !req
307. - So, you're into athletes.Copy !req
308. - Their bodies, yes.Copy !req
309. Their personalities, not so much.Copy !req
310. What about you? What's your type?Copy !req
311. - Uh, Benji?Copy !req
312. Your type is Benji?Copy !req
313. - Well, he was the first guy
that I ever kissed,Copy !req
314. the first guy that I ever dated...Copy !req
315. I, I wasn't even sure I was gay
until I met him.Copy !req
316. I mean, did I have a
recurring dreamCopy !req
317. where Charlie Puth and I were trapped
in a jail cell? Sure.Copy !req
318. - Been there, dreamed that.Copy !req
319. - But Benji was the only real life guyCopy !req
320. that I ever considered going for.Copy !req
321. - Then you went for it.Copy !req
322. And he went for you back.Copy !req
323. That's more than a lot of us can say.Copy !req
324. - Listen, that guy at Brasstown
was a total asshole.Copy !req
325. - Yes, he was, but...Copy !req
326. What I meant was...Copy !req
327. I've never had what you and Benji have.Copy !req
328. I've never even kissed a guy before.
- Oh.Copy !req
329. You will.Copy !req
330. DJ: Hey, it's karaoke time!Copy !req
331. The first one of the night
is Victor and Rahim!Copy !req
332. - What did you do?Copy !req
333. - Sorry, not sorry. Come on.Copy !req
334. Victor Salazar!Copy !req
335. - Oh, shit...Copy !req
336. - We are so sorry, Mrs. Salazar.Copy !req
337. But can I just say,
vermilion is totally your color.Copy !req
338. - How did you even find us?Copy !req
339. - A very worried woman
called me from your school,Copy !req
340. asking if you were feeling any betterCopy !req
341. from the poisoned chimichangas
that I served you!Copy !req
342. We're not even Mexican!Copy !req
343. And then I used my motherly instincts
to track you down.Copy !req
344. Your brother showed me how
to do "find my iPhone."Copy !req
345. Rahim, can you give us a minute, please?Copy !req
346. You're playing hooky now?
Hanging out at bars?Copy !req
347. When I tell Papi about this—
- He knows already.Copy !req
348. About the skipping school part, anyways.Copy !req
349. We bumped into him at lunch,Copy !req
350. and he was with some woman
that he's seeing.Copy !req
351. - Oh.Copy !req
352. - Yeah, so much for you and Dad
being the loves of each other's lives.Copy !req
353. - So, is this why you're acting out?Copy !req
354. Are you upset about me and Papi?
- No! I mean...Copy !req
355. I mean,
maybe that's part of it, but...Copy !req
356. I think Benji's breaking up with me.Copy !req
357. - What? When did that happen?Copy !req
358. - Last night. We got into a huge fight,
and now he's not talking to me.Copy !req
359. - Mijo.
Why didn't you tell me about Benji?Copy !req
360. - Because I thought you might be... happy.Copy !req
361. - Happy?Copy !req
362. Victor...Copy !req
363. I need you to hear this.Copy !req
364. Your happiness is my happiness.Copy !req
365. If your heart is broken, so is mine.Copy !req
366. And I know you said that Papi
is the love of my life.Copy !req
367. That's only sort of true.Copy !req
368. You kids are the love of my life.Copy !req
369. There is nothing in this world
that is more precious to me.Copy !req
370. And I know...Copy !req
371. that I didn't make you
feel that way this year.Copy !req
372. I'll never forgive myself for that, but...Copy !req
373. I accept you, Victor.Copy !req
374. I, I... love every single part of you.Copy !req
375. And I will spend the rest of my life
to make sure that you know that. Okay?Copy !req
376. And if things with Benji are really over,Copy !req
377. I know you'll find another
wonderful person.Copy !req
378. I— Not "person."Copy !req
379. Another young man,
who is just right for you.Copy !req
380. - Why do I keep having
these life changing moments
outside of gay bars?Copy !req
381. - What?Copy !req
382. How many gay bars have you been to?Copy !req
383. - I said "outside of gay bars."Copy !req
384. - Victor!Copy !req
385. - Super cool of your mom
to give me a ride, by the way.Copy !req
386. I don't smell like alcohol, do I?Copy !req
387. My mom doesn't even keep
mouthwash in the house,Copy !req
388. 'cause it's a slippery slope.Copy !req
389. - You smell normal.Copy !req
390. Uh, hey...Copy !req
391. Um, I just wanted to, uh...Copy !req
392. thank you for cutting with me today.Copy !req
393. I had a lot of fun.
- Me, too.Copy !req
394. Best fake Muslim holiday ever.Copy !req
395. I should probably go inside
and finish Lord of the Flies.Copy !req
396. Here's hoping they get rescued.
Or at least find some soap.Copy !req
397. - Goodnight, Rahim.Copy !req
398. - Goodnight.Copy !req
399. Hey.Copy !req
400. It's Benji.Copy !req
401. - Take the call, honey.
I'm not here. Just...Copy !req
402. - Hey.Copy !req
403. - Yeah, it, it was weird
not talking all day.Copy !req
404. - I missed you, too.Copy !req
405. - Uh, I, I, I don't want to rush back
into things either but—Copy !req
406. No, yeah. I understand.Copy !req
407. All right. Bye.Copy !req
408. He doesn't want to go with me
to Harold and Veronica's wedding.Copy !req
409. Yeah. He says, that, uh,Copy !req
410. we need some more time
to figure stuff out.Copy !req
411. - I'm sorry, mijo.Copy !req
412. But maybe a little more time
will be a good thing?Copy !req
413. - Maybe.Copy !req
414. - Can we go home?Copy !req
415. - Yeah.
- Thank you.Copy !req