Love Is Blind 7x2

1. Taylor has a game.

2. Perfect husband, but… he doesn't wear shoes anywhere.

3. - Would you marry him? No.

4. No.

5. - I would do it. - You would do it?

6. - We're like dirty hippies. - Not wearing shoes?

7. I would think about it.

8. Perfect husband, but, like, he can't read.

9. I'd be like, "I can read the menu for both of us."

10. Perfect husband, but you're his fifth wife.

11. Oh!

12. - He's learned a lot of lessons.

13. Yes, Taylor!

14. How have the marriages ended, in divorce or death?

15. Yeah.

16. That is the question.

17. Okay, yeah, they all have to be alive. Yeah, I have boundaries.

18. It takes a lot for me to really like a guy.

19. And every guy I fall for, every single time,

20. it was like, oh, the first date, we just had this crazy chemistry.

21. I felt like I knew him. Oh, my— There was so much chemistry.

22. Then I get into it after a few months. I'm like, "We are not compatible."

23. Like, this, it's leading with compatibility.

24. I do have a typical type when it comes to men.

25. Like, they're all hot.

26. Ray, you look like a celebrity.

27. - Step aside, Nick Lachey. It's the chin. It's the chin.

28. Arms tend to, like, make me feel a little hot and bothered.

29. There is a pattern there.

30. Everything is outside first.

31. I'm here to, like, not judge a book by its cover.

32. Hello.

33. - Who's this? This is Monica. Who's this?

34. It's Stephen.

35. - It's Stephen! - Hi!

36. I didn't actually ever ask you, when was your last serious relationship?

37. Two and a half years ago.

38. How long did you date for?

39. - Two years. - Two years.

40. I can honestly say it was also my most healthy,

41. communicative relationship I've been in.

42. - I love that. - Yeah.

43. I'm huge on communication.

44. - And emotional intelligence. - Me too.

45. Even if it's, "How are you?" You're like, "I'm fine."

46. - "No, you're not. How are you feeling?" - Oh, I love that.

47. We're gonna talk about this until we figure it out.

48. Whether it's a relationship, a marriage, a job,

49. you have to talk about how you're feeling.

50. When I think about marriage, and what I've learned

51. and what I'm looking for, it's like being confident enough to know

52. that, like, it's okay and very normal to have a bad day

53. and wanting someone that's not expecting perfection,

54. 'cause it's fucking exhausting.

55. - Can I just tell you this now? - Yeah.

56. I want somebody who's not afraid to be imperfect

57. and who's not afraid to call me out on being imperfect.

58. - That's what makes things beautiful. - I agree.

59. Here's what I believe.

60. You like someone for their qualities,

61. but you love someone for their flaws.

62. I've always been drawn to… flaws.

63. - Believe me, I've been the same way. - Mentally. Yeah.

64. Actually, my most recent relationship,

65. since, you know, we're already getting into this.

66. Let's do it.

67. I will divulge something that I am not very proud of at all.

68. - But I wear this brand. - Yeah.

69. And I think it's very important to be honest about it.

70. Yeah.

71. So…

72. …we're gonna talk about cheating.

73. Yep.

74. I technically hold the title of being a cheater.

75. I've been cheated on multiple times as well.

76. I believed that this person that I was dating at the time,

77. I believed I didn't deserve her.

78. Everyone has a different concept of cheating.

79. One person's could be, you know, looking at someone.

80. You know, someone else's could be an actual physical act.

81. I basically slid into a girl's DMs like a dumb-ass,

82. and we were flirting with intention.

83. You're emotionally cheating at that point.

84. I got caught, which I knew I would. I was very disappointed with myself.

85. - I'm so sorry. - I mean, we went through therapy.

86. We figured it out, 'cause I'm actively in therapy to talk about these things.

87. And by the way, I really appreciate you sharing with me.

88. I want you to feel like you can tell me anything.

89. Like, we're all human.

90. I'm 36 years old. Like, it's not so black and white.

91. Right.

92. The experiences that I've had to deal with from cheating are…

93. They are, like, really gross and very, very bad.

94. And even in those situations, I've always found a path to forgiveness.

95. - "This feels so shitty and terrible." - Yes.

96. But, like, something good will come from it."

97. - Like, look at where you are now. - Yes.

98. I can tell, even the way you described how upset you were with yourself,

99. I really appreciate it, and I think you were, like, too hard on yourself.

100. It was, uh, yeah, it sucked.

101. Also, I'm gonna stop you for a second,

102. because I really wanna take you on a date tonight.

103. - You do? - Yes, yes, I do.

104. Aww, thank you for saying that. I wanna go on a date with you too.

105. God, this is gonna be hard.

106. I'm in love.

107. What, are you feeling bad 'cause of what you had to do,

108. or are you regretting what you did?

109. I don't know. I think I'm regretting it a little bit.

110. Nick was like, "You are my person. I envisioned you being my wife."

111. Like, "I like— you are so friggin' special."

112. "If you have stronger connections with other people, like,

113. you are gonna find someone so special.

114. "You're beautiful inside and out, I would do anything to be with you,

115. but it's not mutual."

116. - What did I miss? He was like, "I'm gonna leave."

117. - He left. Oh, he left?

118. He was like, "I have nothing else to say." And I didn't say anything.

119. I didn't know what to say. I feel like I didn't do it right.

120. Then Brittany came in. She goes, "I just got out of my date with Leo."

121. I'm gonna kill myself.

122. She was upset because she had just broken up with Nick D.

123. - Oh. - You know what?

124. Nick's gonna get home today, and the first thing he's gonna do?

125. - Look us upon Instagram. - Facts.

126. Sexting mad bitches. He's got nudes in his phone.

127. Probably. He's fine.

128. I don't even know if Nick is gone, but, um,

129. I already requested a date with him.

130. Whew! It's been a really stressful day.

131. I think everyone's had a little emotional meltdown today.

132. - What happened? Everyone has learned who's dating who.

133. It was really bad.

134. What?

135. I said your fucking name.

136. Then, apparently, someone else on your list was in— like, heard that.

137. This was…

138. - Uh… - Right after our date today.

139. Damn.

140. Like, I would never ever, ever, ever, ever say that.

141. Mostly because I so strongly believe in negative energy.

142. - Evil eyes and jealousy. - Yeah.

143. And I don't want any of that

144. projected on to what I'm doing in here, you know?

145. - Yeah, I'm into evil eyes too. - Mm-hmm.

146. And I'm not at all mad at you. Like, you're really honest with me.

147. Like, I really appreciate that.

148. It's inevitable once we get to this point that people will probably start knowing.

149. Yeah.

150. Honestly, like, I just wanna focus on you and I.

151. - Mm-hmm. - Like…

152. I kind of have, like, a crush on you.

153. Like, I really do.

154. Well, good.

155. Sorry, I'm like…

156. Maybe I should have went home. I'm kind of in a sad mood.

157. Why?

158. I don't know.

159. It's fine.

160. Like, Brittany, like, I'm not gonna lie.

161. Like, using the I word is something that's,

162. like, so sacred and scary for me, but like,

163. like, I'm falling for you so fucking hard.

164. I'm afraid to use it, like, now,

165. but I feel like I'm, like, going to.

166. I'm kind of in the sense in the lucky position of,

167. like, "Oh, my God, I have two connections."

168. Like, I'm not trying to say "woe is me." Like, it's harder for you.

169. It is what it is.

170. I'll be fine.

171. I'm not gonna ever beg someone to be with me.

172. - I know. - That would just never happen.

173. So it's just your decision to make.

174. It just sucks.

175. But I will either be happy or sad.

176. It's on you there, buddy.

177. I know.

178. I really don't know what to say, Brittany.

179. I'm, like, never gonna forget our date today.

180. Why?

181. Like, what you said was, like, so brave and vulnerable.

182. I love that about you, that you're just, like, so open with me.

183. Like, I want you to feel like you can cry around me and everything.

184. Like, you'll be, like, forever seared into my memory.

185. Like, forever.

186. What if I just ghosted you?

187. Oh, my God.

188. - I would fucking be so heartbroken. - Good.

189. I wanna say, like, and I really mean this,

190. when I'm with you, you're the only girl.

191. I, like, hate feeling like a player.

192. - That's so not what I'm trying to do. - But it also doesn't surpr—

193. Like, I knew.

194. I'm telling— I'm very intuitive. I just already knew.

195. And then it was just confirmed today.

196. Because I already knew and then knowing your personality,

197. I know you would be…

198. with a pros and cons list on each person.

199. Mm.

200. Because I knew you would never just have one.

201. You're right. You're really smart.

202. I'm very smart.

203. You are. You know what? I bet that you…

204. Because of, like, your voice,

205. and what I feel like your vibe is,

206. I feel like people assume that you're not smart,

207. but I think, like, people underestimate you.

208. - Oh, 100%. - Which is a low-key superpower.

209. And I feel like that's, like, actually extra smart,

210. "I'm okay with people thinking I'm dumb. Because now, I have an advantage."

211. Yeah.

212. I'll tell you one thing.

213. Before our date today, like,

214. I'll be honest, like,

215. you were, like, a really, really,

216. like, you were number two.

217. And after our date today, like, honest to God, you're, like…

218. I swear to God, you're, like, both number one.

219. - We're both number one? - Yes.

220. I don't know if that makes you feel good or shitty.

221. I don't know if I should've said that.

222. I guess I can't take it back, but it's true.

223. And it's really scary.

224. Like, I—

225. Like, I have two connections,

226. and I don't, like, wanna be talking about that,

227. but, obviously, you know, when you bring that up, like, it's—

228. it is like an elephant in the room, you know, like,

229. I'm not just dating you, you know?

230. Yeah.

231. Like, if someone told me, like,

232. you and me are getting engaged and married tomorrow,

233. I'd, like... I'd be, like, fucking overjoyed.

234. I mean that shit.

235. Like, I could totally see myself, like, being married to you,

236. and, like, being engaged to you

237. and, like, having such a fucking amazing life.

238. And I'm, like, falling for you, like…

239. But then there's also someone else.

240. - It's unfortunate that, like— yeah. - It's fine.

241. I'm here for you, like, really.

242. I'm, like, holding a pillow, like, pretending it's you.

243. I appreciate that, but

244. I don't know.

245. Can you see yourself being married to me?

246. Yeah.

247. Fuck. I know. Me too.

248. Fuck.

249. I don't even know what to say either.

250. I'm just, like, sitting here with my face in my hands.

251. It just fucking sucks, like…

252. I'm, like…

253. I knew this was gonna happen.

254. I know.

255. Oh, God.

256. Hello.

257. I think I'm going crazy.

258. You and me both.

259. I just want you to know, I, like, have not been okay today.

260. Why's that?

261. - Because of what I did! - What you did with us?

262. Yes.

263. You think you made the wrong decision?

264. Of course I did. I'm, like, going insane. I don't know up from down.

265. I thought we were very sure about each other.

266. Then this morning, you made your decision, and it was pretty clear.

267. You're like, "Yeah, like, I don't know if this is gonna work."

268. And I get it. You know, you're fantastic.

269. You're gonna be a great wife to whoever that is,

270. but, um, I was hurt.

271. You know, I... I felt really hurt.

272. I know you did, and I'm sorry.

273. I think I hurt you because I didn't want you to hurt me,

274. which is very selfish.

275. Everyone was like, "Hannah, you should end it with Nick."

276. And I was like, "Okay, that's what I'll do."

277. So people were telling you to end it with me?

278. And that's what you listened to?

279. Yeah, kind of.

280. I don't know what I'm doing.

281. I don't know how I feel about anything.

282. You still don't know how you feel about us?

283. I think I'm scared you're gonna be disappointed in me or something.

284. I don't know.

285. You're a very confident person.

286. I'm scared, I don't know, how confident you are and stuff

287. is gonna make me less confident in myself. I don't know.

288. - You know what actually it is? - What's that?

289. I think, I don't know why.

290. I just think, like,

291. like, you will break my fucking heart, I think.

292. - Why do— - Don't know. That's the problem.

293. Because you say everything right, but I feel like you're gonna hurt me.

294. I don't say everything right. I'm not perfect. I told you that.

295. I'm not perfect.

296. You feel perfect, I think.

297. Maybe I sound confident, and maybe I'm saying the right things,

298. but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared too.

299. At the reveal, you don't like what you see?

300. What if you don't like what you see?

301. I have doubts too.

302. - It goes both ways. - I know.

303. It goes both ways. Like, I told you, I'm cool with the person you are.

304. Like, that's honestly how I feel.

305. I want you. I want you really bad.

306. - You gotta give me a chance. - I know.

307. I know.

308. - Do you wanna continue to talk to me? - Yes!

309. - That's why I'm here. - Well, I'm here.

310. - It's getting pretty intense. - Yeah.

311. I'm gonna assume that you know who my other connection is.

312. Yeah, trust me. It was a total accident. She didn't mean to.

313. Inevitably, y'all were gonna find out. I don't know.

314. It's freakin' tough, like…

315. - I have such a strong connection with you. - Yeah.

316. It's like, I'd be lying if I said I didn't also have a strong connection with her.

317. - Yeah. - And, like, both of y'all are amazing.

318. And, um,

319. I would think that if I was in this position right now…

320. - Yeah. - …I would be, "Leo, look at you."

321. "You dawg. You player." Like, I don't feel like that at all.

322. It's tough 'cause I wanna explore both of them to the end.

323. That's what this is for.

324. That's what you're supposed to do. You're to figure it out.

325. You're really understanding of this.

326. We gotta figure out everything about each other if we're gonna get married.

327. I'll never figure out everything about you.

328. That's one thing that excites me the most about you.

329. It's still wild to me, like, that you're on the other side of that wall.

330. I know.

331. And I'm just surprised how well we know each other.

332. - And haven't seen each other. - I know.

333. I truly don't care what you look like.

334. I just wanna, like, be with you.

335. - You know? - Yes.

336. I just wanna hang out with you, snuggle you and, like, have sex with you

337. and kiss you and, like, have fun with you

338. and go swim with you.

339. You know what I mean? I just wanna do things with you.

340. - Yeah. - It's real, I know.

341. It's exactly what you said. We're twin flames, I think. Like, truly.

342. Look at us, a little lovey-dovey.

343. - I'm excited to see you tomorrow. - I'll dream about you.

344. I hope so.

345. - Hey, babe. Hello-hello.

346. How are you? Oh, my gosh. Look at this.

347. Look at this!

348. - You got me a plant? Yeah!

349. - What? It's an avocado.

350. - No way. Look at this. Mm-hmm.

351. I've never grown avocado like this. This is cool.

352. Glad you liked it.

353. I remember, like, on one of our dates, we literally talked about

354. wanting, like, plants and trees.

355. It'd be easy to go get, like, some houseplant, but I really wanted, like,

356. a plant that's, like, you know, I think, more me.

357. I thought it'd be cute, like, in five to seven years, like,

358. then avocados start providing other avocados.

359. And that's, like, the timeline of when I want kids.

360. And so, like, who doesn't like avocados?

361. No one that I trust.

362. - This is cool as hell. - Okay, I have some honey.

363. Oh, yeah. That is my dad's, Randy's world-famous honey.

364. That's his bees from the farm.

365. I use the honey as my secret ingredient for my spicy margaritas.

366. Mm! Nice. I wanna get one of those.

367. - I feel very good about us, so… - That's good.

368. I'm excited to talk more about all the things that we need to talk about.

369. Did you have, like, anything specific you wanted to—

370. Questions? Yeah, sure. I had some stuff I was thinking about.

371. You said something about this tree providing fruit in five to ten years.

372. That's kind of your timeline for children.

373. Five to ten years is a very long time in my head, like, my initial reaction.

374. I was definitely thinking sooner.

375. - I said five to seven. - All right.

376. That's a long time, but…

377. It's not a deal-breaker, but I would love to talk to you about compromising.

378. Yeah, but I don't think it's something that we have to compromise on.

379. I always thought that

380. maybe, like, marriage and, like, falling in love,

381. and, like, doing the whole kids thing was something that

382. I was kind of, like, I would say,

383. like, dragging my feet on because I was worried that it was going to, like,

384. make me rush into some—

385. like, I had to compromise on time,

386. or, like, I had to compromise on my independence in some ways.

387. But, like, I feel like with you,

388. it's, like, something that I'm excited about.

389. I feel like I live a great life now.

390. It's not that I can't see it evolving,

391. but, like, I just think you're gonna add a lot more meaning to it.

392. I think we're going to,

393. together, experience things that

394. we kind of always, like, dreamed of.

395. It feels super cliché to, like, say,

396. but it's like I actually genuinely mean it.

397. A good life.

398. So when are you asking me to be your girlfriend?

399. Taylor, would you be my girlfriend?

400. - No. - No?

401. You have two hours to convince me.

402. If I haven't convinced you by now, we are in trouble.

403. I'm still a little salty

404. that the movie that makes you think of me is Shrek.

405. We're supposed to be getting engaged and, like, you're playing hard to get.

406. Hard to earn. Let's be very clear.

407. - Very clear. - I stand corrected.

408. I don't wanna end this date without you being my girlfriend.

409. I'm not walking out without that.

410. We're in a situationship right now.

411. It's not friends with benefits. That's for sure.

412. Hear that, Nick Lachey?

413. First ever pod situationship.

414. Oh.

415. - I am really enjoying this though. - I am too.

416. I really respect you and can see you as, like, my life partner.

417. Same.

418. What do you think it's gonna feel like when you see me for the first time?

419. Well, it's gonna be a shock, 'cause I have no idea what you look like.

420. I'm probably gonna be smiling like a friggin'-- cheesing like an idiot.

421. I'm gonna probably kiss you right away.

422. - I can agree to that. - Okay.

423. If I decide to be your girlfriend.

424. Oh, my God.

425. Are you worried about…

426. Are you worried about, like, how I look at all? Like, just…

427. Nope.

428. I just really hope that I'm taller than you, honestly.

429. Yeah. That'd be such a strangely unique experience.

430. If I found you super ugly?

431. No. Well, I'm not sure. That'll be…

432. I'm kidding. I'm kidding.

433. Well, no, it's only concerning

434. because the truth of it is people do care about looks.

435. Like, it just— we do.

436. Especially on the dating apps. It's just all pictures.

437. And when you're talking to one of them, my friends are like,

438. when you talk to them about that person, their first question is, like,

439. "What does she look like?"

440. So I just feel like society, like, trains us to think this way,

441. whether it's, like, right or not.

442. And me, personally, like, I want my partner to find me attractive.

443. That's something I desire. There's a reason why, like, I work out.

444. You want them to, like, find you attractive.

445. Some people, just chemically, like, it may not be there.

446. This is the whole "love is blind" question.

447. And so this is a huge, like, risk for both of us.

448. But I want this with you.

449. I just feel like that's a risk that we are accepting.

450. Also trying to figure out how the hell I'm gonna ask you to be my girlfriend.

451. What are your favorite flowers?

452. I'm sure I'd love any flower you got me, so I'm not—

453. - You don't have favorites? - They're sunflowers.

454. Aww.

455. That's what honestly I thought, for real. That's my mom's favorite flowers.

456. I like sunflowers.

457. I guess we haven't said we love each other yet, have we?

458. Uh, I've been very much on the cusp here, but, uh,

459. I don't know. I'm not sure how I will react if you don't say it back.

460. This vulnerability thing again, right? So, I like you a lot, babe.

461. - G? - Yeah.

462. - It's been okay. - Shut up.

463. - Can't wait to see you. - I can't wait to see you too.

464. - Have a good night. - Bye.

465. Hello.

466. - Hey, who do we have? - Marissa.

467. - Marissa! - Bohdan!

468. Yes!

469. Oh, I love it! I love it.

470. In the real world, people have definitely made judgments about me.

471. I look like a white bread kid.

472. So they just think, like, just probably some frat boy who got a job

473. because his parents did something and had connections.

474. Doesn't necessarily have the depth to him.

475. But that's not the case.

476. I was born in Ukraine.

477. I came to the States young, when I was about two years old.

478. Uh, my biological father passed away shortly thereafter.

479. And my dad who raised me is Filipino.

480. He is my hero.

481. He's the inspiration for who I try to be as a person.

482. I'm like an onion. I have a lot of layers to me.

483. So to judge off one layer, I think is ridiculous.

484. Oh! How's it going?

485. Looking forward to this conversation.

486. I had an incredible time with you last night.

487. Yeah! Me too!

488. Incredible time with you during the day.

489. I read for a little bit and then went to bed.

490. Wait!

491. I was literally about to say I read for a bit then went to bed.

492. - Twinsies. - What are you reading?

493. Uh, I'm reading, like, this kind of nerdy book.

494. It's, like, a fantasy thing.

495. - Did we talk about this? - No.

496. - Fantasy! That's all I read. - Oh, really?

497. - Have you read Lord of the Rings? - Yeah.

498. I have a Harry Potter tattoo. Do you read Harry Potter?

499. I love that you have a Harry— I've read all of them.

500. I wanna, like, escape into these worlds.

501. Escape? Wow. Okay.

502. If you went to a party with friends, what's your go-to party story?

503. And if you want, I can go first.

504. - I want you to go first. - No problem.

505. Okay, in 2010, I was in the Marine Corps,

506. and we were in Kuwait.

507. And we were doing, like, this training thing

508. in the middle of the desert for, like, 30 to 40 days.

509. We were sleeping, like, underneath the stars and tents.

510. Can't see anything. Just desert everywhere.

511. We see a ton of camels on the horizon, like, hundreds of them.

512. Like, "I'm in the middle of the desert. I want some cool camel pictures."

513. - Okay. - And one of my friends, like…

514. He was, like, super nervous about it.

515. He's like, "No, dude, no. He's like, "They're dangerous."

516. Like, "What's dangerous about camels?"

517. "He's gonna spit on me? That's a funny story. Who cares?"

518. Of course, I pick out the biggest one, and I walk towards that one.

519. It's, like, hump was probably at, like, eight, nine feet.

520. Yeah, it was literally the biggest camel I could see.

521. And I bring out my camera, take a picture of it.

522. And I look up from my camera,

523. and the camel is staring at me in my eyes.

524. - Oh. - I make solid eye contact with it.

525. And I don't wanna break eye contact.

526. - If I break it now, then I'm like— - You're the weak one.

527. Right, so it takes a step forward, and I take a step back.

528. It takes another step forward, and it starts, like, hissing.

529. Just demonic sounds is, like, the best way I can describe it.

530. And it just starts running.

531. And of course, I turn around and just run as fast as I can.

532. The next thing I know,

533. I feel something hit me in the back of my head.

534. And I fall face down.

535. I immediately, like, roll over and look up.

536. The camel is on its hind legs

537. with its front legs up in the air coming down on to me.

538. - Oh, my God! - Trying to stomp me out.

539. And I'm thinking, "Oh, fuck. I'm dead."

540. I'm in the Marine Corps during two wars, and my mom's gonna get a letter

541. or a phone call that I died from a fucking camel.

542. I can feel the vibration of its hooves. That's how close it was.

543. Oh.

544. And then just huffs, makes crazy sounds and, like, leaves us alone.

545. For the rest of the time, I was like, "Holy shit."

546. "That's what it feels like to know you're gonna die, for sure."

547. - You were gonna die! - Yeah, for sure.

548. I didn't feel that way again until Ukraine,

549. where, like, I also felt like I was gonna die.

550. It's the exact same feeling.

551. Can you tell me a bit about your, like, Ukraine story?

552. Sure, when the war in Ukraine started, if you remember, I said I was born there.

553. I knew, like, "I have to go."

554. And so I told my work. I was like, "Hey, I'm leaving. I'm going to Ukraine."

555. My whole thing was…

556. …I am Ukrainian.

557. I have Ukrainian family.

558. Don't have a wife or kids. I have a military background.

559. - Like, who else should go help but me? - Mm-hmm.

560. So my work was phenomenal.

561. They, like, said, "Don't quit."

562. "If you need to take time to do anything you need to do, go do it."

563. I had friends fly in and help me get ready for it.

564. My work ended up raising a bunch of money for me

565. and paid for all my gear and stuff.

566. My parents, I thought it was gonna be, like, the toughest phone call I made.

567. Um, they said…

568. Like, "We were just waiting for you to call us."

569. "We knew you were gonna do this," and I…

570. I was, like, very honored that they would think so highly—

571. - Yeah. - …think so highly of me that they—

572. - Give me a second. - It's okay. Now take your time.

573. It was like it really touched me that…

574. they would think that.

575. How many people helped me, and I just didn't—

576. I didn't feel like I deserved…

577. - You did deserve it. - …deserved so much help.

578. You deserved all the support. I mean, that's a huge deal.

579. First of all, it's, like, terrifying.

580. I mean, yeah, it was for sure scary, um, a million percent.

581. And then being my age, I was 33 when I left,

582. because I knew what I was, like…

583. I wasn't going in there thinking, "Oh, I'm gonna be Rambo."

584. "I'm gonna win this war." I knew this was a super shitty situation.

585. But, like, all I can think about was there's 19-year-old kids

586. or maybe even younger kids,

587. who would have, like, no training, and they're being…

588. Yeah, it was a no-brainer.

589. I know I had a choice.

590. I didn't have to go, but internally, I had no choice.

591. Obviously, as someone who was in the military,

592. like, I understand the honor, the commitment and the integrity.

593. And I think you obviously have very good people in your life

594. who clearly love you and support you,

595. 'cause you seem to be like a really good person.

596. Thank you. I appreciate that.

597. I'm sorry.

598. Okay.

599. What's your party story, Marissa?

600. I don't know. How am I supposed to follow that up?

601. With something lighthearted hopefully?

602. Okay, I'll try to think of one that's just, like, not stupid.

603. - It can be stupid. - No!

604. - I don't want you to know anything stupid. - Oh, why not, Marissa?

605. Because I don't want you to think I'm stupid!

606. You're in law school. I don't think you're stupid.

607. Okay, I have homework. I'm gonna come back.

608. And I'm gonna tell you a good story like your camel story.

609. - But it's gonna be my own. - Okay. I'm writing down "HW."

610. - Oh, God! What are you, my professor? - "Owes me…"

611. All right. Homework.

612. - We'll talk tomorrow, for sure? 100%? - Yes, yes, 100%.

613. - 100%. - 100%.

614. - Bye. - Bye.

615. Whoo!

616. Whoo!

617. I haven't had this much excitement dating and getting to know people

618. in a long-ass time.

619. - I'm ready to, like, find my love, so… - Right.

620. Which I was very skeptical until…

621. Here we are.

622. - Damn, bro. - Just can't stop debating in my head.

623. Bro, I can't even sleep.

624. I close my eyes at night, all my dreams are of being in here, like, on dates.

625. - Yeah. - I just wanna get on another date.

626. - I wanna see what happens. - Yeah.

627. I feel like there's gonna be love triangles at a certain point.

628. As we, like, start winding down, there's gonna be, like,

629. girls who are maybe, like, stuck between two guys.

630. - Somebody's gonna leave heartbroken. - Oh, yeah.

631. - For sure. - You know what I'm saying?

632. Like, that would be tough, man.

633. Yeah.

634. Hello.

635. Hello.

636. Oh, Ramses!

637. - It's Marissa, right? - Sho' is!

638. Sho' nuff is, girl.

639. - How's your night? It's good! I was doing push-ups.

640. - Push-ups? - Yeah!

641. - My God. - We were out there doing a little workout.

642. - So… - Of course y'all were.

643. So yeah, I did some push-ups, and now I'm wide awake, honestly.

644. Okay. So, first off, I wanted to say "thanks."

645. "Thanks"?

646. - Thank you for our date earlier. - To me?

647. It made me feel comfortable. Like, "I'll talk to him about anything."

648. Aw, I'm glad you feel comfortable with me.

649. Yeah, I do. I feel comfortable.

650. I know we're at a point now where it's like

651. we're starting to dwindle in terms of, like, our choices.

652. Yeah! We're whittling it down.

653. There's still more time left in this, but, um,

654. I wanted to let you know I think about you a lot,

655. and you've been, like,

656. probably, like, my top one for, like, a while now.

657. - Where's your head at? - Oh, I'm excited to talk to you.

658. And, yeah, I'm being open with other connections as well.

659. Of course, yeah.

660. But I would say there's only two of you guys that I'm connecting with.

661. - Yeah. - Like, on another level.

662. But it's kind of scary to think that, like,

663. let's say we're connecting with two people.

664. - And then you end up picking one. - You have to pick one. Right.

665. I might end up in a love triangle.

666. Oh, God!

667. - I better not be the second girl! - No, no!

668. I mean, there's gonna be probably, like, two guys after you.

669. I don't know.

670. I told myself I wouldn't really care if someone else was feeling

671. someone I was feeling.

672. - Yeah, but that's not— - I still don't. I wouldn't care.

673. At the end of the day, if we both like the same person,

674. it's up to, you know, that person to decide for themselves

675. what they want and what works best for them.

676. - Yeah. - I told you I was previously married?

677. - Yeah. - She was my high school sweetheart.

678. I grew up in a very religious home.

679. That was one thing that really brought us together.

680. I was married four and a half years, and I was moving away from Christianity

681. and just religion in general.

682. We tried to figure things out, but ultimately, it didn't work out for us.

683. - Do you still talk to your ex? - No.

684. I can be so empathetic, but then with myself, like,

685. I'm just, like, terrible in terms of, like, how I critique myself.

686. - Okay. - Like, I never feel like it's enough.

687. I think it, like, it comes from my dad was just, like, very critical.

688. I felt like whatever I did was never good enough for him.

689. I think that was something that sort of, like,

690. just kind of creeped into my adulthood.

691. Yeah.

692. When my parents divorced, my dad, like, left and didn't help at all.

693. - It was just my mom with us four kids. - Yeah.

694. We were, like, on welfare and really poor for a couple years.

695. I had a lot of people come into my life

696. that were really helpful in shaping how I view the world

697. and, like, introducing me to experiences

698. that I don't think people in that socioeconomic…

699. - Sort of demographic, yeah. - Yeah, world.

700. Yeah, like, experience.

701. Something as simple as, like, I had a volleyball coach,

702. and they, like, took me down to Disney.

703. - I know it sounds so silly. - No, that's, like, incredible.

704. - And that really makes me grateful. - Yeah.

705. I'm a giver. I give back.

706. I give to homeless people. I know some people don't like that.

707. I give.

708. One thing I'm just really grateful for is sort of,

709. like, my real, like, close-knit group of friends.

710. They're like family to me.

711. And, like, they've really, like, been great examples

712. of, like, healthy masculinity for me.

713. And, like, what it looks like to be a fucking good-ass guy

714. and, like, express your emotions and be in touch with who you are

715. and not have to worry about what anyone else thinks about me

716. or what, you know, conclusions they wanna arrive at.

717. I feel like men have, like, such wild expectations placed on them

718. about what's expected of, like, men in society.

719. I'm just really grateful that I have that example.

720. Wow. You sound like you have a great, like, group of friends.

721. Something I will say about you that I find so attractive

722. is how comfortable you are talking about gender roles,

723. how there is toxic masculinity and how you lean away from that.

724. I think that's, like, so attractive.

725. Yeah, I just don't really care to try to follow traditional expectations

726. of what, like, masculinity should look like.

727. Masculinity is, like, what I make it.

728. I absolutely love that more than you might realize.

729. 'Cause I'm used to military masculine men.

730. Got you. Yeah, yeah, that makes sense.

731. Which is interesting because it's still something that I…

732. I'm obviously still attracted to because I've dated them.

733. So what is your type, typically?

734. - I don't have a physical type. - Okay.

735. So, what if I am, like, 5'5", 5'6"?

736. - That's fine. That's fine. - Really?

737. I'm not gonna friggin' say no to some guy because of his height.

738. - Okay. No, no, no, I was just curious. - Like…

739. I never really cared much about the physical.

740. I'm more, like, how they make me feel and how I get along with them.

741. I usually date guys who are pretty smart.

742. I dated a conservative Trump supporter for three years.

743. Oh, shit.

744. But then I dated a progressive liberal guy.

745. Like, I date people for who they are.

746. Let's say I propose to you.

747. - But, like— - Oh, my God.

748. I need more time.

749. - More time. - More time.

750. Um, we'll let it be like a little a slow burn.

751. - Not too slow though. - Yeah.

752. I feel like with Garrett, we keep using the word, like, "serendipitous."

753. It's just like a magnetic feeling that you can't really describe.

754. Taylor.

755. If I had a script…

756. Oh.

757. - Are those yours? - Uh-huh.

758. - How do you know? - 'Cause they're my favorite flower.

759. I told him, like, if you want to ask me to be your girlfriend…

760. Yeah, you did say that. You told him to do something for you.

761. Look at him actually listening.

762. "Taylor Morgan Krause, since we first met in Pod Two,

763. and we've just…"

764. - Of course he knows what pod we were in. - Of course. Of course.

765. "It feels like we've been dating for months."

766. "We continue to do this on our own unique way,

767. and I can't wait to continue this journey with you."

768. "Your boo thing, Garrett. P.S. Will you be my girlfriend?"

769. "Will you be my girlfriend? Check yes or no!"

770. I love it! It's so sweet!

771. - Maybe. - Let me get you a pen.

772. Let me get you a pen. Put him out of his misery.

773. Okay, okay.

774. Garrett really surprises me.

775. It's so sweet.

776. - This is so incredibly sweet. - So thoughtful.

777. He gets me all giddy,

778. and I think we're definitely not just friends.

779. I feel like he wants me to follow instructions.

780. I think it was really, really, really, really sweet.

781. It's amazing.

782. - Let me smell. - Yeah. It's also… mm-hmm.

783. - Ooh! Is that lip gloss? - Ooh.

784. - Or perfume? - It's perfume.

785. Let me see? Wow, I love that.

786. It's also pheromones.

787. "Pheromone unisex perfume oil."

788. You dirty, dirty dog.

789. - I told you I always come prepared. - You do. You have all the things.

790. All the things.

791. Hello.

792. - Yay! - Oh, yay.

793. - I've been so excited to talk to you. - Yeah, me too.

794. I told I look forward to talking to you every time.

795. Yeah. When our date ended yesterday,

796. you had something to talk about, like, with Norfolk State, why you applied there,

797. and, like, only applied there.

798. I wanted to go to Norfolk State literally to be in a band.

799. I grew up singing a lot in church 'cause my mom made me.

800. But also, like, me and my sisters played a lot of instruments.

801. My middle sister was a wonderful singer and a wonderful songwriter.

802. We had pianos in the house. I played horns. My sister played trumpet.

803. I went there on a music scholarship, but college, it felt very directionless.

804. I was not the straight-A student. I was not the honor roll student,

805. but funny enough, I always tested really high.

806. - Yeah. - I've always looked at, like,

807. this education system and, like, my education experience

808. with a little bit of spite,

809. because I remember what it felt like to feel stupid.

810. - Yeah. - I've always hated school.

811. But I love learning.

812. And I ended up joining the Navy.

813. - Which I have told you, right? - Yes.

814. Okay. To this day, joining the Navy was the best decision of my life.

815. And getting out was the second best.

816. Though I loved the Navy and the things it gave to me,

817. I assumed that that's all I ever could be.

818. Since then, I've been in a lot of rooms and at a lot of tables

819. that I would have never imagined myself in

820. and looked a lot of people in the eyes that,

821. at certain points in my life and career, didn't feel like real people to me,

822. 'cause they were so out of reach.

823. And, like, I don't know where I'm going from here,

824. but there's nothing that I can't do,

825. and there's nobody I can't look in the eye.

826. Mm-hmm.

827. My grandfather. Are you familiar with the Nation of Islam?

828. Absolutely.

829. He was the National Secretary for the Nation of Islam.

830. - Oh, okay. - And he was very close.

831. And worked with Elijah Muhammad.

832. And there's a photo

833. in my dad's house of, like, him and Muhammad Ali.

834. - Muhammad Ali is, like, one of my heroes. - Really? Yes!

835. I have— there's four photos of Muhammad Ali in my house.

836. My grandfather, he was really big on not going to college.

837. But I did it because my parents were like,

838. "Hey, you get the grades, you go to college."

839. But when it was time for me to go, there was no money.

840. And I'm, like, all for people getting an education.

841. But don't also think that you have to do it to be successful.

842. - Talking about the Nation of Islam. - Yeah.

843. And talking about the Navy,

844. on one of my last deployments, I remember I was in the Atlantic Ocean.

845. Mm-hmm.

846. On my way from Norfolk, Virginia, to Senegal.

847. First time I ever touched the continent of Africa.

848. And I happened to have been reading The Autobiography of Malcolm X.

849. And it, like, struck me where I first started thinking, like…

850. - "Yo, I could do and be more." - Yeah.

851. I wasn't raised Muslim.

852. My dad grew up Catholic, but then his dad,

853. you know, was part of the Nation.

854. I asked him, "What is your religion?" He was like, "I just believe in God."

855. I love that just because if you take a look at all religion,

856. you'll find a lot of common themes about love.

857. Absolutely.

858. So I would like to tell you more about me.

859. - Yeah. Yeah. - And, like, my family story.

860. For me, it's, like, oddly personal, particularly with my sisters,

861. because whatever children I have will never know their aunts.

862. Mm-hmm.

863. So I want to be able to be like, "This is what your aunt was like."

864. Mm-hmm.

865. "This is what me and your aunt did when we were six and seven years old."

866. But I'll never forget the night my older sister died.

867. You never told me exactly what happened.

868. She had lupus.

869. One day, she checked in the hospital and never checked out.

870. I remember I was at my grandmother's house,

871. and, like, I was waiting on my parents. I knew she was at the hospital.

872. Then my grandmother told me that one of my cousins was gonna pick me up.

873. And I got to the hospital. I saw tears in my dad's eyes.

874. That was my first sign of like, "Oh, something's wrong."

875. Yeah.

876. The big thing I will always remember from that night is

877. knowing that she was gone before anybody told me,

878. because I heard my mother make a noise that I've never heard her make again.

879. It was primal and animalistic.

880. And that's my mother, you know?

881. - Like, it was almost out of body. - Yeah.

882. After she passed, me and my other sister were in there with her alone.

883. And she had her class ring on,

884. and my other sister was trying to tug her class ring off her finger,

885. but her finger was so swollen, she couldn't get it off, and I remember…

886. Like, I was like, "Can you do that? Come on, don't do that." You know?

887. It was a lot going on, but I remember, like,

888. I'm glad she did it. I'm glad I have that memory,

889. 'cause, like, I'm literally wearing that ring around my neck right now.

890. - Really? - Yeah.

891. I wear both of my sisters' high school class rings on my necklace.

892. But my most cherished memories are the exact opposite.

893. To where up to that point, most of my life was like a sitcom.

894. My parents, like, they did…

895. Like, I could not have asked more from them.

896. Like, if you look at photos of us, it don't even look real.

897. Like, it was just so beautiful and innocent.

898. I wouldn't change a thing.

899. Just stupid brother-sister shit, like…

900. - Yeah. - I think about…

901. It's funny.

902. I think about my sisters used to lock me out of the house in my underwear.

903. - Just a beautiful childhood, man. - Yeah.

904. It really was. And I wouldn't trade it for the world.

905. Yeah.

906. - Um, thank you for sharing. - Yeah, thank you for listening.

907. I'm gonna say something that I have been thinking,

908. but I have not said out loud to anyone.

909. What?

910. I get to give my parents one more daughter.

911. And I love that.

912. I love that so much.

913. And I can already see our lives coming together in a lot of ways.

914. Yeah.

915. I don't take it lightly how close I feel to you

916. and how grateful I am to have met you,

917. even though we've never met.

918. And, like, honestly, that's beautiful.

919. Hi, baby.

920. More flowers from my boyfriend?

921. Oh!

922. I have some things that I'd like to say.

923. What do you see in front of you?

924. I have a ton of notes.

925. - I'm kind of nervous if you can't tell. - All right.

926. - I'm gonna start reading. - Okay.

927. Well, G.

928. I've always considered myself great with words,

929. but it's clear with you, I need my notes.

930. I thought it was cute and kind of cheesy,

931. my dad gave me my grandparents' love letters.

932. But last night I found this one letter

933. my grandparents wrote on November 13, 1953.

934. They're no longer… here,

935. but they are kind of here.

936. - Here goes. - Doing great, babe.

937. "Dear Kathleen, I certainly didn't mean to say or write

938. things that would make you speechless."

939. "All I wanted to do was tell you what I've been thinking about

940. and hoping and praying for."

941. "I just can't imagine that what I would have to say

942. would make anyone speechless."

943. "I'm very flattered that you should think that my letters are so nice."

944. "I don't want to leave you so speechless that you can't say yes."

945. "That would indeed be very bad."

946. "I also am very happy if my letters do make you feel good and happy."

947. "At least they are doing in a small way

948. what I would very much like to do myself personally."

949. "I hope they convey my deep and sincere feeling toward you."

950. "As far as to what you can say, I would be perfectly happy

951. just to have you say that you would marry me."

952. "Of course, I realize that that is asking for a great deal from you,

953. but I assure you that I would spend the rest of my life

954. trying to show you that this is what I really want."

955. "So really all you have to say is yes."

956. "It would be much better, of course, if you were here

957. so that you didn't have to write."

958. "I think that it should be obvious to you by now that this is my intention,

959. that is to have you here with me, as my wife."

960. "Um, so, G,

961. we started this experiment…

962. …inherently very skeptical,

963. but discovered we're excited to problem-solve this uncertainty together

964. on our own time and pace,

965. some might even say velocity."

966. Shout out, Heisenberg.

967. "You've really been the perfect husband…

968. …I've been looking for

969. with all the words of affirmation I didn't know I needed."

970. "So thank you for being vulnerable and persistent with me."

971. "Our connection is magnetic."

972. "You've been my number one for nine days running,

973. and I can't wait to lose count for the rest."

974. Hello?

975. Sorry.

976. Everything's running through me right now.

977. Yeah. This is, um, these letters are incredible too.

978. - They're pretty cool, huh? - It's beautiful, honestly. It's so cool.

979. It's just tough to…

980. …um, form words right now.

981. I know we would've done all the things that we wanted to do,

982. but it's gonna be

983. so much more than we could have imagined doing it together, and I'm so excited.

984. Yeah…

985. So I was a mess for the first, like, three days.

986. I didn't know what to do.

987. I'm trying to follow my heart, and hadn't done it in so long.

988. And it was tough, but that fire started with us,

989. and it just started to grow and grow.

990. There was nothing else I could think about.

991. I knew the answer was there all along.

992. I wasn't coming in here expecting or really even hoping.

993. Like, I just didn't expect it at all.

994. And you weren't in here, like, dying

995. to just get engaged with anyone.

996. You know, you were looking for me.

997. Mm-hmm.

998. When it comes to you, Garrett,

999. I really think we could have it all.

1000. And I didn't think that was possible before coming in here.

1001. Taylor,

1002. I love everything about you.

1003. I think you're an incredible person.

1004. I think you're intelligent.

1005. You are very caring, kind. You're authentic.

1006. You're passionate.

1007. In here, I've fallen in love with the person that you are.

1008. I've fallen in love with your quirks.

1009. I'm looking forward to seeing more of them.

1010. I love finding out things about you you're not even telling me, picking up on them.

1011. The more and more I peel back these layers,

1012. I'm just loving the person that's underneath.

1013. It's been an incredible experience just getting to know you.

1014. Our connection too, you talked about it, the magnetic feeling, it's crazy.

1015. It's electric. Like, it's a very visceral experience.

1016. It's like every molecule of me

1017. just wants to come through this wall and to be with you.

1018. Our bodies are telling us that we're meant to be together,

1019. and we just had to make sure our heads didn't get in the way.

1020. Taylor Morgan Krause.

1021. Will you marry me?

1022. Absolutely.

1023. Oh, my God!

1024. Oh, my God, I'm shaking. I can't even get up right now.

1025. I'm so freaking excited.

1026. Just gotta soak this in.

1027. This is not how I imagined it, but honestly, it's, like,

1028. the most amazing feeling in the world.

1029. - We're very, very, very lucky. - Yeah, we are.

1030. Can't wait to see you.

1031. - I'm wearing blue tomorrow. - Blue?

1032. - I am. Just a heads-up. - Wow. I'm not gonna tell you.

1033. I want you to be just as confused as I am in there.

1034. Equally as excited. I'll see you soon.

1035. See you soon, babe.

1036. Wow.

1037. This is awesome.

1038. Whoo!

1039. - Oh, my God! - Flowers!

1040. - Look at her! - Are you a fiancée?

1041. I'm a fiancée.

1042. Taylor!

1043. He's really, like, taking me being a plant mom to the entire next level.

1044. Oh, my God, dude.

1045. Dawg! Took a while, son.

1046. Yeah.

1047. Dude, what? What? I'm engaged?

1048. I'm engaged!

1049. How do I ask? I don't even know what I wanna ask,

1050. but okay, let's start with this.

1051. Did you vote in the last presidential election and the election before that?

1052. Yes, I did.

1053. It is— I mean,

1054. both as a veteran and an American, it's kind of my responsibility.

1055. - Yeah. - To do so.

1056. Thank you again for your service. I don't know if I said that.

1057. Yeah, you have. You don't have to do it anymore. I get it. Thank you.

1058. - I really mean it though. - I appreciate it.

1059. - Grateful for people like you. - Yes.

1060. Whether I liked the candidates or not is a different story.

1061. - Yeah. - But I did vote, and it was rough.

1062. Yeah.

1063. It was rough for both the last election and this election,

1064. because, I mean, since we're already on this topic,

1065. my dad is a Republican.

1066. He'll vote Republican because he's a Republican,

1067. and I don't agree with that concept.

1068. It's always mind-blowing to me when people aren't okay with changing their mind.

1069. - 'Cause that says a lot about them. - Yeah.

1070. - I agree. - I'm very much a centrist.

1071. I want to vote for my candidate because I believe in what they're selling.

1072. I'll be completely honest.

1073. I voted for President Trump because I didn't like Hillary.

1074. - In the first election. - Mm-hmm.

1075. But I despise the way that Trump handled his time in office.

1076. - Mm-hmm - And I voted for Biden.

1077. And I can honestly say I put a lot more thought

1078. and passion into that second vote than I did the first.

1079. I will happily admit that my first vote wasn't the most educated vote.

1080. You know, I'm— my background's actually a little interesting.

1081. Tell me.

1082. For the most part, I identify as white.

1083. But my dad…

1084. Mm-hmm.

1085. So this is an interesting story.

1086. For years, on my dad's side, my grandmother on my dad's side,

1087. she is German,

1088. and she told us for years that my dad's side of the family

1089. and my grandfather's was Italian.

1090. So I grew up thinking, "Okay, I got some flavor here."

1091. "I'm Italian!" You know?

1092. My class ring when I bought it in high school

1093. had the Italian flag on it. I was so proud to be Italian.

1094. Fast-forward, three years ago, my sister does an ancestry.com.

1095. I knew that this is where we were headed. I'm so excited.

1096. And it turns out the closest we have

1097. is 0.3% broadly European.

1098. - Shut up! - It's not even Italian.

1099. It's not even 0.3% Italian?

1100. Most of it is Nigerian, Congolese, Sierra Leonean

1101. and primarily a lot of West Africa.

1102. So it turns out that my dad is actually, like…

1103. three-fifths or half black.

1104. Wow.

1105. I have identified as white my whole life.

1106. - Yeah. - I pretty much thought I was, you know.

1107. - Yeah. - Turns out I'm not even Italian.

1108. It's a really good story. And of course, you wanna understand it.

1109. - That's cool. - Yeah.

1110. Once I found out, of course, I immediately found some books,

1111. and started looking into Ghanaian and Nigerian cultures.

1112. That's really cool.

1113. This is, like, a lot of West Africa that I'm mixed with.

1114. There's a lot of different cultures here that now I get

1115. to learn about on a more personal level.

1116. - Yeah. - I find it fascinating.

1117. - That's so cool. - Right?

1118. A cool experience for you to, like, really dive in.

1119. And I'm really glad we're having this conversation

1120. because the world is changing, and I can't wait

1121. for it to evolve even further, but, like,

1122. we have been somewhat forced to think that we had to fit in one box.

1123. Yeah.

1124. Growing up, in my childhood…

1125. Mm-hmm.

1126. …I would be given, the, like, standardized tests

1127. that said, "What is your race? Ethnicity?"

1128. - Yes. - And I was always confused.

1129. Oh, really?

1130. I'm mixed, right? So my mom is from Honduras.

1131. Okay.

1132. Her parents are Honduran, but they are an interracial couple.

1133. And then my dad is African-American Black.

1134. He has, like, some Cherokee ancestry that goes…

1135. - Okay, so you really are a mutt, girl. - I'm a fucking mutt.

1136. I believe that you date or marry somebody for selfish reasons.

1137. You do it because they're gonna make you a better person,

1138. and that comes from pushing you to look into new ideas.

1139. Because in turn, if somebody's making you better,

1140. you're gonna do the same to them.

1141. You're gonna force them to be a better version of themselves.

1142. I don't wanna settle for anything less.

1143. I agree.

1144. Like, you make me feel super confident

1145. in being here was the right thing for me and for you.

1146. Like, you make me feel really special.

1147. And you give me butterflies. You're incredibly sweet.

1148. You're just such a good guy.

1149. There's a difference between having a good conversation

1150. and feeling something through the pods.

1151. - Yeah. - Let's just say…

1152. How can I put it? Uh…

1153. I know where my feelings lie, and I know what my gut says,

1154. and I'm gonna follow that because you just know.

1155. When I get down on one knee and I say, "You know, I choose you,"

1156. I want you to know without a shadow of a doubt

1157. that it's me as well.

1158. - Whoo! - Yes!

1159. - There it is! - Hey!

1160. - That's what I'm talkin' about! - Hey, Bohdi! Hey, Tim!

1161. I'm floating. I get butterflies.

1162. Hello? Ooh, food.

1163. - I got your blanket. - Same.

1164. I'm going home night with it.

1165. It's funny. I was playing pool just now, like, before I came in here.

1166. My blanket was sitting, I turn around, and Bohdi was sniffing hard as shit.

1167. I was like, "Hey, man, keep my wife's blanket out your fucking nose."

1168. - Mm-hmm. - Yeah.

1169. - I love this. - Me too.

1170. - I'm so excited. - So we're gonna eat, right?

1171. - We should. - I did write a prayer for us.

1172. So, um…

1173. - Tyler, shut up. - I'm dead serious.

1174. - I wrote something. - Okay.

1175. "Dear God, thank you for allowing this food

1176. and being healthy enough to eat it."

1177. "Thank you for waking us up today, allowing us to see each other right now."

1178. "Thank you for bringing us together in this unique experience."

1179. "I thank you, God, for the blessing

1180. with someone who is such a soft and kind spirit."

1181. "I thank you for allowing me to feel so safe with Ashley."

1182. "I ask that you watch over us

1183. as we continue to grow and create an unbreakable bond."

1184. "And thank you for showing me what love can truly feel like."

1185. "I am truly blessed, and I just wanna say thank you."

1186. - "In your precious name, I pray. Amen." - Oof!

1187. Amen. Oh, my gosh.

1188. That's so sweet.

1189. Yeah, I was, you know…

1190. So sweet. Oh, my gosh.

1191. So, yeah, we can eat. Let's eat this food. It looks good.

1192. I'm, like, emotional. I'm sorry. Ooh!

1193. There's no right way to pray,

1194. but I've always been scared to, like, pray out loud.

1195. I just wanna, like, have a relationship moving forward

1196. where we're able to comfortably talk and pray with each other.

1197. Mm-mm-mm!

1198. Here we go. Mm-hmm.

1199. My faith has gotten me through so many different things that, like…

1200. I've never really had someone that I could pray with.

1201. I never experienced this feeling ever.

1202. Before I got here, I never needed to feel safe.

1203. Then after, like, being here with you, like, I feel safe that I can talk to you,

1204. express my past, and not feel judged.

1205. That we can, like, have a conversation and it not be an argument.

1206. Like, I feel comfortable doing that moving forward.

1207. I love that you're consistent. You felt sincere right away.

1208. You didn't show up as anyone else.

1209. You just showed up, like, "Hey, I'm sorry."

1210. "Like, I'm fucking nervous. This is who I am."

1211. I was telling the guys too. I was like, "I have no clue what she looks like."

1212. - Nope, sure don't. - Yeah, and I do not give a fuck.

1213. Like, I know how I feel.

1214. And whoever I end up seeing, that's gonna be my roll dog from now on.

1215. Love that.

1216. You ready to listen to some music?

1217. - I am. - Yeah.

1218. I have an eclectic musical palate.

1219. Listen to a little country, a little alternative.

1220. '90s and early 2000s R&B is my favorite.

1221. This is, like, when people weren't afraid to talk about love.

1222. I love that. But just know this, some of my songs are embarrassing.

1223. - No, me too. - All right, I'm ready.

1224. Okay, here we go.

1225. Oh, my God, I love this song!

1226. - Are you listening? - Yeah.

1227. I really love you.

1228. I want you to know you're safe, and you're protected.

1229. No matter what happens here…

1230. I'm going to always have you.

1231. I got your back for life.

1232. - You okay? - Yeah.

1233. Oh, man.

1234. Crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy.

1235. Smell the blanket.

1236. That's me hugging you.

1237. Wipe the tears up with my blanket.

1238. And I'm, like, not a crier at all. I just, like…

1239. No, I can tell. Trust me.

1240. What's going through your head?

1241. It's just everything I want long-term, you know,

1242. that I feel I could have here.

1243. You can have it. You see that little blue moving wall?

1244. It's on the other side.

1245. Mm-mm-mm.

1246. Oh, Tyler, Tyler, Tyler.

1247. Ashley, Ashley, Ashley.

1248. Who knew? Ooh! Who knew that would happen today?

1249. I didn't.

1250. Mm-hmm.

1251. I promise you, I don't care what's on the other side of that wall.

1252. Like, 100%.

1253. 'Cause we gettin' married.

1254. I'm, like, so emotional. I'm about to cry.

1255. In a good way.

1256. He literally wrote down a prayer, like a blessing over our dynamic.

1257. - He loves you. And our future and, like, trust.

1258. - And, like…

1259. And I'm in there, like, "Is this a dream or something?"

1260. - What's happening? "This has got to be a dream."

1261. - He's a good man. He loves you. God.

1262. - I'm so happy for you! - This is, like, nuts!

1263. Oh, God.

1264. Stroll of a man in love.

1265. The desire to be loved on the inside was something that I really wanted,

1266. but I didn't want a potential husband.

1267. I didn't need a husband, but what I really wanted was a soulmate.

1268. I've never felt this way in my entire life.

1269. It's…

1270. It's indescribable and unprecedented.

1271. It's amazing. It's…

1272. I mean, I melt every time I hear her voice, and it's just— I just…

1273. It's really hard to describe how incredible I feel when I'm with her.

1274. Taylor is brilliant. She's caring.

1275. She's thoughtful. She's passionate.

1276. Um…

1277. She's very, very sweet, and she's very…

1278. Everything that she's saying just feels very real to me.

1279. This is so wild.

1280. To know the person that Taylor is

1281. and how amazing she is

1282. and feeling that she feels the same way for me is just…

1283. it's— it's incredible.

1284. I've been very diligent

1285. about making sure that I don't share anything about how I look.

1286. I'm obviously very excited to see what he thinks I look like.

1287. I keep forgetting that's a bit, a part of it.

1288. Last night, I started being like, "Oh, my God."

1289. Today, I'm starting to get the nerves.

1290. But I'm really excited about seeing him.

1291. And I don't think it matters what we look like.

1292. When I made the decision to not share my mom's name,

1293. because that gave away a bit of my ethnicity,

1294. to then have Garrett reach a point where he feels that

1295. the inside parts of me and what makes Taylor is more than enough.

1296. To have Garrett make me feel the way that I do is incredible.

1297. And I'm so excited.

1298. Nobody gets engaged this way. There's no way to replicate it.

1299. Before coming here, I was at a point in my life

1300. where I didn't think that I was ever going to find the one for me.

1301. I wasn't able to find someone

1302. that I connected with so deeply and so passionately.

1303. And

1304. now I have.

1305. Taylor and I have remained very strict in not talking about appearances.

1306. So, uh, she knows I'm white.

1307. She has nothing else on me other than that, and I have nothing on her.

1308. I hadn't thought about it until this moment,

1309. but not knowing Taylor's ethnicity doesn't concern me.

1310. It's as if this experiment forces us to do exactly what marriage is intended for.

1311. It's for us to marry one another for the people that we are, not how we look.

1312. And I believe that

1313. my love for Taylor

1314. is so strong that it won't matter what she looks like.