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they're killing everyone.
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right into Dale Park's face...
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and the gun misfired.
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calling for help.
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grievously wounded.
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run into the jungle.
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finished them off,
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tractor and return to Jonestown.
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locals get to the airstrip
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of the airstrip.
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on top of an ant hill.
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ants crawling over my body,
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the group of assassins were.
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four, five, six.
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I knew for many years.
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on the tarmac.
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include Ryan,
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and one woman
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and was trying to escape.
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back at Jonestown,
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comes on the speaker
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to come to the pavilion.
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longer a matter of if, but when.
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to go back to the States.
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left to him
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that now is the time.
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a revolutionary act.
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They've killed people.
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he knows he's gone.
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want to go alone.
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from the cottages,
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it was very somber.
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in this conversation,
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something is going on.
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there are people
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to attack us.
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This is our final stand.
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in Jones' ear.
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true quote unquote lieutenants,
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was closest to Jim Jones.
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"Is it supposed to be quick?"
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it's supposed to be quick."
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"Does it taste okay?"
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supposed to taste good."
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guinea pigs were testing cyanide
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in a vat of Flavor Aid.
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a cheap Kool-Aid knockoff.
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how do I get out of here?
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Malcolm out of here with me?
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in the pavilion,
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what was said that day.
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as the death tape.
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went to go see a movie.
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the radio room by Sharon Amos.
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She was a fanatic.
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and he said,
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Mr. Frazier," which was a code.
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angels have visited Leo Ryan
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to avenge our actions.
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revolutionary suicide.
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has been killed.
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to avenge our deaths,
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and kill yourself.
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I was in Jonestown
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these white night drills
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about dying for the cause,
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gonna die for the cause.
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to kill ourselves.
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Jonestown can't die."
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"Go get my brothers."
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and Sharon Amos is like,
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how to kill ourselves.
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have, you know, thin wire?"
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our way back
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were far worse
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been before
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manage the situation.
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Sharon Amos out of your sight.
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she had to be watched
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and capable of terrible things.
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the U.S. Embassy
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a little squawk box,
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"Send us into Jonestown.
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know what's going on,
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out there right now."
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the embassy, if nothing else,
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before anything happens,
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call in, you know,
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"No, we're closed."
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and yelling.
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her kids...
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named Chuck Brightman
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inside, Stephanie,
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the children's throats.
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is not something
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but it was horrible.
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people gurgling.
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busted into the bathroom
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had stopped.
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Jim Jones is on the stage.
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fired the shot.
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the congressman.
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concerned, I killed him.
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what I'm saying?
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I told him not to come.
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the word gets out,
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parachuting in,
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for us,
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kill us all,
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our kids.
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revolutionary suicide.
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to tell more lies,
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more congressmen.
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we can survive. Hmm?
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getting ready to commit suicide,
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Miller begins to question
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letting 14 people who defect
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of over 1,000 people.
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schizophrenic at this time,
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is saying,
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you're going to die.
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is saying,
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make any sense.
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yet that didn't die.
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kind of death for a change.
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hell, that's what I'm tired of.
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is filled up with people.
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around the pavilion.
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was just...
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to describe it. Defeated?
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people had been crushed.
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kind of intellectual.
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is this gonna come down?
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go down without a fight...
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on my shoulder.
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shoulder by Maria Katsaris.
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Come with us."
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to a back cabin
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three suitcases.
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suitcases of money
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in Georgetown.
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"If you're successful,
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on and have a good life,
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are you to be taken alive.
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if you're caught."
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to go to the Russians,
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Jim Jones' final "eff you"
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government.
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I was buying time,
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catch up.
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with what was going on.
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with their child
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with their child.
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you go, though.
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through this hell no more.
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no more.
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Flavor Aid are brought out,
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the drink to the children first
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children have been poisoned,
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their own children die?
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All I think...
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the hands of the enemy.
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squirt this stuff
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No more pain.
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about to have their turn.
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of them refused to do it,
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and forcibly injected.
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later with the bodies,
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on their neck, on their arms,
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a needle could get jammed.
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the needles went in.
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is lined up to die.
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the gold, I went to get water.
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the jungle without water.
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the back of the pavilion,
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started dying,
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the rest of it today,
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but needless to say,
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were dying.
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anywhere in my life.
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to Jones' cottage,
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coming up and she said,
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"They've murdered my son,
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they've murdered my son."
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going to be easy.
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the worst ways to go possible.
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from absorbing oxygen.
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hearing were screaming.
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in fear, in pain, in death.
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joyous going on.
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hallelujah for Jim Jones.
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was screaming,
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Stop this! Stop this!"
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massacred.
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please, please.
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Don't do this.
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that my mother was up there
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but that runs contrary
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about my mother.
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slightly behind your man era,
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very strong-willed,
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ordered her restrained
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the last child died.
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wanted the nightmare to stop.
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that said, you cannot die,
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you cannot die.
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got the suitcases,
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if I wanted to live.
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to do with Jim Jones,
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to do with Russians,
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with money.
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we can't do this.
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the suitcases.
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that doesn't even believe
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the way the world is.
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we got tired.
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revolutionary suicide
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of an inhumane world.
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the day before.
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the ground. It's like fog.
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is clearing a little bit.
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almost impossible to describe
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waiting back in Georgetown.
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there's just heaps of them.
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"Heaps of what?"
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from Jonestown
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everybody,
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hardened news people,
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and disbelief.
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was "shades of Auschwitz."
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strewn all over the place.
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and orderly,
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corpses after a battle
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hand-in-hand sometimes,
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each other's shoulders.
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was methodical.
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contained poison,
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had tranquilizers.
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there's a lot we don't know,
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the Reverend Jim Jones,
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Peoples Temple, is
dead,
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a gunshot wound to the head,
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on the pavilion,
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a gunshot wound to the head.
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that Jim Jones,
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didn't want it for himself.
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of the people went willingly,
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by armed guards.
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was being passed out,
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area here with crossbows.
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of four known eyewitnesses
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than 700 had died
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didn't want to die.
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Frightened. Afraid.
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struggled pretty hard,
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didn't want to die.
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in the arm.
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can you count 'em?
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and killings,
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stories of our time,
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in Jonestown.
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500 people who are still alive.
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run into the jungle.
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my plan was to escape,
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brother and my niece and nephew.
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if not all of them.
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wrong from the beginning.
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American soldiers
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bodies in Jonestown, Guyana.
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in the poison ritual
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last week.
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would so many people
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and be obeyed?
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heavily forested area,
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in the compound.
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is mass suicide.
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Drinking the Kool-Aid.
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the Kool-Aid.
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people were murdered.
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your child murdered,
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motherthat did it,
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the only choice you have
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a poison or getting shot,
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the easiest way out
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you're gonna die anyway?
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what happened
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was murder.
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family in Jonestown.
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Mark, who was 16.
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Michelle, who was 24.
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at— in one moment.
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hopes up for— for John Victor,
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one of the survivors said
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John and that he had evidently
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he was in Jim's cabin
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and they actually saw.
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so...
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my diaphragm, my stomach.
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My pancreas was removed.
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happened in Jonestown,
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just came into my room
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like this,
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of the dead bodies.
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I knew that my son was dead
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to describe his clothing,
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a mental breakdown.
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well for a very long time.
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handle this nightmare?
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were only gonna get worse.
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they can never escape
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happened at Jonestown.
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but I— I really don't
want to talk right now.
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this is very important.
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422. I lost two
friends here, too.
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right now.
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and all of a sudden,
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everywhere.
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of media interviews.
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first reporter said,
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the evening national news
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you guys are hitmen.
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if you want or not.
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433. There was no place
for us to go or hide.
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the media was everywhere.
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you know?
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are my life.
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known no one else, right?
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a few people tried to leave.
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what could happen.
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the community that I loved.
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We were devastated.
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I felt terrified,
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hopeless, and ashamed.
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that I hate this man
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451. because he has destroyed
everything I've lived for.
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latest 17 survivors
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Airport last night,
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them onto buses
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yet of returning survivors.
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457. the Reverend Jim Jones'
adopted son, Jim.
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To me, he was sick.
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but if I was to look at him,
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and say, that's a sick man.
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and hungry
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by our whole experience,
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the questioning.
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being part of the plot.
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they might be murderers.
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in that way.
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I'd have a plainclothes car
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was like,
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with him? What is he gonna do?
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in my mind.
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with black hair,
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and I would start running.
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deal with, among many,
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Jonestown jokes.
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thought I was very stupid.
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480. We all felt like we had been
made fools of, in a way,
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so totally
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was saying.
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leader who was maniacal
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pursue this horrific cause
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aggrandizement.
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the word "church"
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his grotesque behavior.
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corrupts absolutely.
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dark recesses of his mind
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was scary. It was terrible.
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in the position
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could tell him no.
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demagogues do.
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his nature took over
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consumed him and, sadly,
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who had believed in him.
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my responsibility
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funerals as possible.
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friends of mine.
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I went to her funeral,
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coming out of the hallway
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and pointing it at me
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when my daughter's not?
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grabbing her,
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there going,
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510. At that— At that point,
I didn't want to live.
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the settlement itself.
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guards patrolling
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Jim Jones sat
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to die is still there,
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where they sat
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survivors and defectors
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settled in San Francisco.
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building was sold.
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Presbyterian Church.
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the former Temple members
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fear, and guilt.
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to build a life for themselves.
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526. The fears, the memories,
and some of the scars,
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it'll be a lifelong process
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529. For many years,
I wasn't healing.
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on a daily basis,
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to quiet the noise inside me.
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my daughter was born.
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cracked my heart open
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pushed me toward life
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the easy way out.
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for a long time,
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many years after
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by Jim Jones again.
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outside Peoples Temple.
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um, I survived.
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542. I was hospitalized
for two months.
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543. I had a lot of time
to think.
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that they thought
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amputate my arm and/or my leg.
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through my body.
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a commitment to myself
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spend the rest of my life
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survivor of Guyana,
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to spend the rest of my life
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551. in public service, to continue
Congressman Ryan's legacy.
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United States, I was shattered.
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guilt and I wasn't diagnosed.
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554. Every day I was like,
why did I survive?
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to survive?
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until 20 years later.
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558. My son, Jakari, calls me
his, you know, warrior queen.
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the sacrifice that I made.
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560. He knows every step
of the way, I'm there.
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not going anywhere.
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562. And I know a lot of it
is because of Jonestown.
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563. I call Leslie Wagner
my, uh, my hero
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with her son.
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of great courage,
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get her son out,
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to risk death.
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with my journey,
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that's always with me.
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572. I still struggle
to forgive myself.
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try to comfort each other
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is their bond.
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575. Whatever their thoughts
about Jim Jones,
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to rebuild shattered lives.
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allow ourselves
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there we can use.
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anyone watching this
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whatever is valuable to them
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those we lost.
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be learned from Jonestown.
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that we're in,
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this parallel.
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Peoples Temple began.
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was a socio-political change,
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based on fear.
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environment, if not worse,
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generate something
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than Jonestown.
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what happened in Jonestown
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the story is Jim Jones.
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is the people
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to— to Jonestown.
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how appropriately named
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people that made that church.
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life were in Peoples Temple.
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it was a sense of community.
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thing when no one was looking.
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gone down in history
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humanitarian group that we were.
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to be reckoned with.
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an easy answer
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and Jonestown.
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no easy answers.
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taken the time
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has discovered that,
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like, real folks, you know?
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nothing unspecial about us.
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