1. - Previously on hannibal.
- Layers and layers of lies
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2. Betrayed by the sad glint
in a child's eyes.
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3. - How did you feel
seeing marissa schuur
impaled in his antler room?
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4. - Guilty.
- Because you couldn't save her?
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5. - Because I felt
like I killed her.
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6. - Our friend will seems
haunted today.
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7. - We don't know what nightmares
lie coiled beneath
will's pillow.
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8. - At night, I leave the lights
on in my little house
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9. And walk across the flat fields.
When I look back
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10. From a distance, the house is
like a boat on the sea.
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11. It's really the only time
I feel safe.
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12. - Children transport us
to our childhoods.
- What do you see, will?
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13. - Will may feel the tug of life
before the fbi, before you.
He needs an anchor, jack.
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14. - Where are you going?
- I'm gonna go home.
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15. - You lost?
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16. - Uh, what?
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17. - What's your name?
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18. - Will graham.
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19. - Do you know where
you are, mr. Graham?
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20. - No.
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21. - Where do you live?
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22. - Wolf trap, virginia.
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23. - We're in wolf trap, so that's
good. You're close to home.
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24. Is that yours?
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25. - Aw, hi, winston.
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26. Hey—
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27. Uh, can I sit down?
My feet are sore.
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28. - Why don't we take you home?
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29. - Ok.
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30. - Are you on any drugs?
Medication?
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31. Prescription or otherwise?
- No.
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32. - You been drinkin'?
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33. - No. Uh, yes.
Not excessively.
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34. I had two fingers of whiskey
before I went to bed.
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35. - You have a history
of sleepwalking, mr. Graham?
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36. - I'm not even sure
if I'm awake now.
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37. - Although I may be,
is it safe
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38. To assume you're
not sleepwalking now?
- I'm sorry it's so early.
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39. - Never apologize
for coming to me.
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40. Office hours are for patients.
My kitchen is always
open to friends.
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41. Onset of sleepwalking
in adulthood
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42. Is less common than in children.
- Could it be a seizure?
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43. - I'd argue good old-fashioned
post-traumatic stress.
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44. Jack crawford has gotten
your hands very dirty.
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45. - I wasn't forced
back into the field.
- I wouldn't say "forced".
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46. "manipulated" would be
the word I'd choose.
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47. - I can handle it.
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48. - Somewhere between
denying horrible events
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49. And calling them out lies the
truth of psychological trauma.
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50. - So I can't handle it.
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51. - Your experience may have
overwhelmed ordinary functions
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52. That give you
a sense of control.
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53. - If my body is walking around
without my permission,
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54. You'd say that's
a loss of control?
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55. - Wouldn't you?
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56. Sleepwalkers demonstrate
a difficulty
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57. Handling aggression.
Are you experiencing
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58. Difficulty with
aggressive feelings?
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59. - You said jack sees me
as fine china
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60. Used for special guests.
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61. I'm beginning to feel
more like an old mug.
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62. - You entered into a devil's
bargain with jack crawford.
It takes a toll.
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63. - Jack isn't the devil.
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64. - When it comes to how far
he's willing to push you
to get what he wants,
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65. He's certainly no saint.
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66. - Room was registered to a john
smith. Heh, big surprise there.
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67. - An appalling failure
of imagination.
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68. - They paid cash.
There are no security cameras
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69. On the premises—
another big surprise.
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70. - John smith one of the victims?
- Mr. And mrs. Anderson,
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71. According to the register.
Mutilated and displayed.
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72. I thought it might be
the chesapeake ripper, but
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73. There were no surgical trophies
taken. I'm gonna need you
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74. To prepare yourself on this one.
- I'm prepared.
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75. - Prepare yourself some more.
It's soup in there.
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76. - Soup isn't good for the soul.
- Not this kind.
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77. Alright, look, there are no
jurisdictional rivalries here.
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78. The local police begged us
to take this. Where's your head?
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79. - It's on my pillow.
I didn't sleep.
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80. - Got just the thing
to wake you up.
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81. - Ok, I'm awake.
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82. - Hooks were bored
into the ceiling.
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83. Fishing line was used
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84. To hold up the bodies
and... The wings.
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85. - At least we know
he's a fisherman.
- And/or a viking.
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86. - Vikings do this?
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87. - Vikings used to execute
christians by breaking
their ribs,
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88. Bending them back, and
draping the lungs over them
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89. To resemble wings. They used
to call it a "blood eagle."
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90. - Pagans mocking
the god-fearing?
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91. - Then who's mocking who?
- No, he isn't mocking them.
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92. He's transforming them.
- I don't know if it was
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93. The good night's sleep,
but he slept here.
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94. Hair on the pillow
and the sheets are still damp.
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95. He's a sweater.
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96. - Madness slept here
last night.
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97. - He threw up
on the nightstand.
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98. - Couldn't stomach
what he did.
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99. Flop sweat and
nervous indigestion.
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100. - Not nervous.
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101. Righteous.
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102. Thinks he's...
Elevating them somehow.
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103. I need a plastic sheet
for the bed.
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104. This is not who you are.
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105. This is my gift to you.
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106. I allow you to become angels.
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107. And now,
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108. I lay me down to sleep.
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109. - A masterpiece
foie gras au torchon
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110. With a late harvest
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111. Of vidal sauce...
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112. With dried and fresh figs.
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113. - Wonderful.
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114. - Mrs. Crawford,
your husband
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115. Introduced you as bella. Are you
an isabelle or an annabelle?
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116. - I'm a phyllis.
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117. Jack only calls me phyllis
when we disagree.
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118. - So, named bella
for your beauty.
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119. - We were both stationed
in Italy. I was army,
she was nato staff.
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120. All of the italian men
kept calling her
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121. "bella, bella, bella."
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122. Well, I wanted her
to be my bella.
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123. Mm. Cold foie gras
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124. With warm figs.
- Yes.
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125. - Very nice.
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126. - Would I be a horrible guest
if I skipped this course?
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127. - Too rich?
- Too cruel.
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128. - Phyllis.
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129. - Jack.
- First and worst sign
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130. Of sociopathic behavior:
Cruelty to animals.
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131. - That doesn't apply
in the kitchen.
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132. - I have no taste
for animal cruelty,
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133. Which is why I employ
an ethical butcher.
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134. - An ethical butcher? Be kind
to animals and then eat them?
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135. - I'm afraid I insist on it.
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136. No need for unnecessary
suffering.
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137. Human emotions are a gift
from our animal ancestors.
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138. Cruelty is a gift
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139. Humanity has given itself.
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140. - The gift that
keeps on giving.
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141. - Your perfume is exquisite.
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142. Similar to the aroma
on the earth just after
lightning strikes.
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143. Is it jar?
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144. - That is some nose
you have there, doctor.
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145. - He's quite
the charmer.
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146. - I first noticed
my keen sense of smell
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147. When I was a young man.
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148. I was aware one of my teachers
had stomach cancer
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149. Even before he was.
- Hm.
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150. Wow, that must have been
some parlor trick.
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151. - For our next course,
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152. Roasted pork shank.
And I assure you, bella,
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153. It was an especially
supercilious pig.
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154. - "death makes angels
of us all and gives us wings
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155. Where we had shoulders
smooth as raven's claws."
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156. - Robert frost.
- Jim morrison.
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157. - Even a drunk with
a flair for the dramatic
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158. Can convince himself he's god.
Or the lizard king.
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159. - God makes angels. Jesus was
fond of fishermen.
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160. Are we talking hardcore
judeo-christian upsetting,
or just upsetting in general?
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161. - This is a very
specific upsetting.
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162. - Increased serotonin
in the wounds
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163. Is much higher than
the free histamines, so, uh,
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164. She lived for about 15 minutes
after she was skinned.
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165. - Powder residue on
the neck of the soda bottle
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166. Shows vecuronium—
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167. Scotch and soda
and a paralytic agent.
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168. - Kneeling in supplication
at the feet of g-dash-d.
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169. - Supplication is the most
common form of prayer.
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170. Gimme,
gimme, gimme.
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171. - They weren't praying to him.
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172. They were praying for him.
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173. He's afraid.
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174. - What is somebody who
could do something like this
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175. Afraid of?
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176. - What's in his vomit?
- Uh, dexamethasone...
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177. Keppra...
- He was epileptic. Radiation?
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178. - Gamma four.
- Steroids for the inflammation,
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179. Anticonvulsants for
the seizures, radiation
for the chemotherapy.
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180. Our guy has a brain tumor.
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181. - He's afraid of dying
in his sleep.
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182. He's making angels
to watch over him.
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183. - Mrs. Crawford.
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184. Please come in.
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185. How often do you see him?
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186. - Twice a week at first.
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187. Now usually just once.
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188. - You're satisfied, then?
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189. - Enough to keep seeing him.
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190. - Your intention is
not to tell jack.
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191. - I don't see what good
it would do.
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192. Jack sees the world
at its worst.
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193. Don't need him
seeing me at mine.
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194. He already has
too much to worry about.
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195. - He has room
for one more worry.
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196. I feel like
you're protecting him.
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197. - I am. I've had dinner
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198. At your home.
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199. You have a professional
relationship with my husband.
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200. There's no conflict of interest,
me being here?
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201. - It's unorthodox,
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202. But not unheard of.
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203. Given the nature of your
problem, seeing someone
who knows jack
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204. Removes some
of the guesswork.
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205. - This all started
as some misguided stab
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206. At maintaining my dignity.
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207. - Nothing undignified
about this.
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208. - Not yet.
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209. But I have indignity
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210. To look forward to, don't I?
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211. - The only indignity
I see is resentment.
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212. Why do you resent
your husband?
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213. - I resent that jack...
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214. Has too much to worry about
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215. To worry about me.
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216. - But that's your choice.
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217. Not his.
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218. - Then maybe you should see us
both for couples counseling.
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219. - I would recommend another
psychiatrist for couples.
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220. I wouldn't want you to have
the home-couch advantage.
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221. - It's hard enough
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222. Dealing with how I feel
about all of this.
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223. Don't need to deal with
how jack feels about it.
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224. - There is no one and only
spiritual center of the brain.
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225. Any idea of god comes from many
different areas of the mind
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226. Working together
in unison.
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227. - Maybe I was wrong.
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228. How do you profile
someone who has
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229. An anomaly in their head
changing the way they think?
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230. - A tumor can definitely
affect brain function,
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231. Even cause vivid hallucinations.
However, what appears
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232. To be driving your angel maker
to create heaven on earth
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233. Is a simple issue of mortality.
- Can't beat god, become him?
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234. - You said he was afraid.
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235. - He feels abandoned.
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236. - Ever feel abandoned, will?
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237. - Abandonment requires
expectation.
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238. - What were you expectations
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239. Of jack crawford
and the fbi?
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240. - Jack hasn't abandoned me.
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241. - Not in any discernible way.
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242. Perhaps in the way gods
abandon their creations.
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243. You say he hasn't abandoned you,
but at the same time
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244. You find yourself
wandering around wolf trap
in the middle of the night.
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245. - Well...
this should be interesting.
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246. Please, doctor, proceed.
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247. - Jack gave you his word
he would protect your headspace,
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248. Yet he leaves you
to your mental devices.
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249. - Are you trying to alienate me
from jack crawford?
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250. - I'm trying to help you
understand this angel maker
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251. You seek.
- Well, help me understand
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252. How to catch him.
- If he were a classic paranoid
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253. Schizophrenic, you might be able
to influence him
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254. To become visible.
- What, scare him out
into the daylight?
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255. - Might even get him
to hurt himself,
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256. If he hasn't already.
- If he were self-destructive,
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257. He-he-he wouldn't be so careful.
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258. - Unless he's careful
about being self-destructive,
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259. Making angels to pray over him
when he sleeps.
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260. Who prays over us when we sleep?
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261. - So, do you wait until you
think I'm asleep before
you come to bed?
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262. - It's not intentional.
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263. I'm working late.
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264. Nothing personal.
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265. - So can we have a conversation,
or do you want to pretend that
everything's alright?
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266. - Everything is alright.
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267. - So no conversation.
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268. - I'm a bit overwhelmed
at the moment.
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269. - With?
- With things at work...
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270. Etcetera.
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271. I've got some things
I have to sort through.
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272. It's, uh, outside
your jurisdiction, jack.
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273. - You know something...
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274. I'm very good
at sorting things out,
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275. And at the very least
I can underwhelm you
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276. While you're being overwhelmed.
- You've never been able
to underwhelm me.
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277. - Is there anything I can offer
you romantically or physically
or spiritually that'll help?
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278. - Nope.
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279. - So as your husband,
what I can do for you is, um,
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280. Leave you alone and not ask you
any questions.
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281. - You can ask me anything
you want to.
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282. - I won't insult you by asking
if there's someone else.
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283. - Thank you.
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284. - You'll sort out whatever it is
you have to sort out, we'll get
back to being us.
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285. I love you, bella.
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286. - I love you too.
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287. - Why angels?
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288. - Well, it isn't biblical.
His angels have wings.
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289. Um, angels in sculptures
and paintings can fly,
but not in scripture.
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290. - He's drawing
from secular sources?
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291. - His mind has turned
against him and there's
no one there to help.
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292. - Uh, jack, look at this.
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293. - Are those...
What are those?
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294. - Somebody got an orchiectomy
real cheap.
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295. - Doesn't look like the victim.
- So they're the angel maker's?
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296. - He castrated himself?
- So he isn't just
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297. Making angels; he's getting
ready to become one.
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298. Angels don't have genitalia.
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299. - So he was afraid of dying.
Now he's, what, getting used
to the idea?
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300. - He's accepting it
or he's bargaining.
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301. - Heh, bargaining chips!
- So, does this mean that
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302. He's done making angels,
or is he just getting started?
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303. - I don't know.
- Well, he's not just
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304. Killing them when he's sleepy.
I mean, how is he choosing them?
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305. - I don't know. Ask him.
- I'm asking you.
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306. - You're the head of the
behavioral science unit, jack.
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307. Why don't you come up
with your own answers
if you don't like mine?
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308. - I did not hear that!
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309. Did I?
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310. - Um...
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311. No, you didn't.
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312. I'm sorry.
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313. - I've never heard anybody talk
to jack the way you talked
to jack.
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314. - I was out of line.
- You were out of your mind.
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315. My ears rang like the first time
I heard my mom use the f-word.
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316. you ok?
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317. I know it's a stupid question
considering that none of us
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318. Could possibly be ok doing what
we do, but... Are you ok?
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319. - Do I seem different?
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320. - You're a little different,
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321. But you've always been
a little different.
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322. Brilliant strategy—
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323. That way no one ever knows
if something's up with you.
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324. - How would I know if something
was up with you?
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325. - You wouldn't.
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326. But I would tell you if you
asked me. Return the favor?
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327. - Meet roger
and marilyn brunner.
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328. You might recognize them
from such lists as most wanted.
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329. He likes to rape and murder,
she likes to watch.
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330. We got a dna match.
They falsified
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331. The motel registry
and were driving a stolen car,
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332. So it took a second
to identify them.
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333. - I wonder how long it took
angel maker to identify them.
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334. He didn't choose them randomly.
- He knows something about them.
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335. The murdered security guard
wasn't actually a security
guard.
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336. - Could angel maker be
a vigilante?
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337. - Well, vigilantes are
pragmatic, they're purposeful;
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338. They don't lay down and sleep
under their crimes.
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339. In his mind,
he was doing god's work.
- That spells vigilante.
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340. - Well, playing at god has
other advantages. One of them...
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341. Is always being alone.
- So he makes angels
out of demons.
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342. - How does he know
they're demons?
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343. - He doesn't have to know.
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344. All he has to do is believe.
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345. - Has jack begun
to suspect?
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346. He's a behavioral specialist.
He must know
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347. You are keeping something
from him.
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348. - Oh, he knows. He asked me
if I was having an affair—
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349. By reassuring me
that he didn't have to ask.
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350. - I doubt he believes
you're unfaithful.
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351. - And why do you doubt that?
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352. - It's clear you love
your husband.
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353. - Women who love their husbands
still find reasons to cheat
on them.
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354. - Not you.
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355. Still, you seem more betrayed
by jack than by your own body.
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356. - I don't feel betrayed
by jack.
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357. And there's no point in being
mad at cancer for being cancer.
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358. - Sure there is.
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359. - Cancer isn't cruel.
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360. Tiny cell wanders off
from my liver, gets lost,
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361. Finds its way into my lung,
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362. Where it's just trying
to do its job and...
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363. Grow a liver.
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364. - What it grows and where it's
growing it will likely kill you.
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365. - Not likely.
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366. It will kill me,
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367. And no amount of blueberries
or antioxidants can
change that now.
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368. - But you hold jack accountable
for his inability
to cure cancer.
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369. Should I have said
his inability to save you?
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370. Would that be more accurate?
- I am slowly shrinking,
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371. While this tiny thing grows
larger every day.
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372. And yet I feel fine.
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373. - You will feel fine—
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374. Up until the precise moment
you don't.
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375. - It's a... Really very
dull story, though, isn't it?
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376. The ending is always the same,
and that same is that it ends.
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377. - So, you withdraw
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378. From your relationship
with your husband,
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379. The man who strolled along
the quays of livorno, Italy,
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380. And called you bella.
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381. - It's difficult to lie still
and fear going to sleep
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382. When it's there
to think about.
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383. You listen to your breathing
in the dark
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384. And the tiny clicks
of your blinking eyes.
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385. - I dream more now
than I used to.
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386. - Well, your dreams were
the one place you could be
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387. Physically safe, relinquishing
control. Not anymore.
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388. - Yeah, I thought about zipping
myself up into a sleeping bag
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389. Before I go to sleep,
but it, heh,
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390. Sounds like a poor man's
straightjacket.
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391. - Have you determined how this
angel maker is choosing
his victims?
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392. - Well, he doesn't see people
how everyone else sees them.
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393. He can tell if you're naughty
or nice,
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394. Or he thinks he can.
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395. - So god has given this person
insight into the souls of men.
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396. - God didn't give him insight;
god gave him a tumor.
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397. He's just a man whose brain is
playing tricks on him.
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398. - You are not unlike
this killer.
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399. - My brain is playing tricks
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400. - You want to feel such sweet
and easy peace.
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401. The angel maker wants
that same peace.
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402. He hopes to feel his way
cautiously inside and then find
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403. It's endless, all around him.
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404. - He's gonna be disappointed.
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405. - You accept the impossibility
of such a feeling,
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406. Whereas the angel maker is
still chasing it.
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407. If he got close to it,
that's why he will
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408. Look for it again.
- I've tried to reconstruct
his thinking, find his patterns.
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409. - Instead you find yourself
in a behavior pattern
you can't break.
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410. You realize
you have a choice.
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411. - What is it?
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412. - Angel maker will be destroyed
by what's happening
inside his head;
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413. You don't have to be.
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414. - Did you just smell me?
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415. - Difficult to avoid.
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416. I really must introduce you
to a finer aftershave.
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417. That smells like something
with a ship on the bottle.
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418. - Well, I keep getting it
for christmas.
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419. - Have your headaches been
any worse lately? More frequent?
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420. - Yes, actually.
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421. - I'd change the aftershave.
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422. - Elliot budish: 35-year-old
truck driver.
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423. He's got a fishing license too.
Uh, match came from the national
cancer database.
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424. Married, two kids—they haven't
seen him in four months.
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425. He was diagnosed
five months ago.
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426. - Meet the angel maker.
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427. Have you heard from him
since he left?
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428. - I left him.
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429. And, uh, no, no,
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430. I haven't.
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431. - Why did you leave?
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432. - Because of his cancer.
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433. It makes me sound
like a horrible wife.
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434. - I'm sure you had
your reasons.
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435. - I took a leave from work
to, uh, to be with him.
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436. I wanted to be there
for him.
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437. But what he wanted was
to be alone.
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439. And pulling away.
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440. He made it clear
he didn't want me there.
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441. And then it wasn't clear.
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442. And then it didn't matter why
he was acting the way he was.
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443. It was weird
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I mean,
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445. What kind of mother exposes
her children to someone
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447. - Was he ever violent,
mrs. Budish?
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448. - He was angry.
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451. It was hardest on them
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452. To see him slip away.
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453. He lost himself,
and they lost a father.
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as he got weaker,
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455. As the cancer got worse,
that it would be less confusing
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456. For them.
They could just see him
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458. Instead of someone
who was so terrified.
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459. - And, uh, did your husband's
faith falter
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460. After he was told
about the cancer?
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461. - Elliot wasn't
ever religious.
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462. Is he doing
something religious?
- He may believe he is.
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463. - Your husband is dying,
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and soon.
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466. To... We'd like to find him
before he hurts himself
or anyone else.
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468. A near-death experience.
He suffocated
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469. In a fire
when he was a little boy.
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470. Fireman said he must've had
a guardian angel.
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471. - Where did this happen?
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473. Where he grew up.
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474. - This'll be the last one.
- It's budish?
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475. - He made himself
into an angel.
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476. It wasn't god, it wasn't man.
It was his choice to die.
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477. - His choice?
- As much as he can make it.
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478. I don't know how much longer
I can be all that useful
to you, jack.
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479. - Really? You caught three.
The last three we had,
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480. You caught.
You caught three of them.
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481. - No, I didn't catch this one.
Elliot budish... Surrendered.
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482. - You know, I'm used to my wife
not talking to me.
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483. I don't have to get used to you
not talking to me too.
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484. - It's getting harder and harder
to make myself look.
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485. - Well, nobody's asking you
to look alone.
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486. - But I am looking alone.
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487. And you know what
looking at this does.
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488. - I know what happens
if you don't look,
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489. And so do you.
- I can make myself look, but
the thinking is shutting down.
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490. - What is it about this one?
- It isn't this one.
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491. It's all of them. It's the next
one, it's the one that I know
is coming after that.
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492. - You wanna go back
to your lecture hall?
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493. Read about this stuff
on tattlecrime.Com?
- No, I don't.
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494. But that may be what I have
to do. This is bad for me.
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495. - I'm not your father, will.
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496. I'm not gonna tell you
what you ought to do.
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497. - Seems like that's exactly
what you're gonna do.
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498. - You go back
to your classroom.
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499. When there's killing going on
that you could've prevented,
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500. It will sour your classroom
forever.
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501. - Maybe. And then maybe
I'll find a job
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502. As a diesel mechanic
in a boatyard.
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503. - You wanna quit?
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504. Quit.
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505. - I see what you are.
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506. - What do you see?
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508. I can bring it out of you.
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509. - Not all the way out.
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510. - I can give you...
The majesty
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512. - Hello, doctor.
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513. My wife and I need
to talk.
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514. May we use your waiting room?
- You can have the office.
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515. - Thank you.
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516. - Just popping in
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or did you follow me?
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They said you were
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519. At an appointment.
I figured you'd be here.
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524. - Twelve weeks ago?
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528. - Is it treatable?
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530. And we know there's
no stage five, don't we?
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532. - Far enough into the future
that I'm really not prepared
to have this conversation
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533. Right now.
- Neither am I,
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534. But we're having it.
We're having it right now.
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537. When you couldn't hide it
anymore?
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538. - I don't think I want
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539. - Well, do I have any say
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542. - Do you want to be alone?
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543. I don't want you
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544. I want you to think
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545. I want you to know that I don't
want you to be alone,
not now and not ever.
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546. - We'll beat this
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547. - No, it's your fight, baby,
but I'm in your corner.
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549. - I appreciate that, jack.
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551. But I'm not comforted
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552. I know that's what you need
and, and...
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553. You need
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554. But I can't give you
what you need.
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555. - Don't worry
about what I need.
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557. - I thought
if I kept it to myself,
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558. I didn't count on changing
as much as I did.
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560. - I'm gonna sit here
until you're ready to talk.
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561. You don't have to say a word
until you're ready, but...
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562. I'm not going anywhere
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