1. All right, y'all,
I'm finna head out.Copy !req
2. Wait, you're, uh,
you're leavin'?Copy !req
3. Yeah, I'm about
to leave right now.Copy !req
4. Is-is everything good?Copy !req
5. Yeah, before you go, bro,
I, I really gotta talk
to you about somethin'.Copy !req
6. Like what, man?Copy !req
7. Everything.Copy !req
8. The fuck is you
talkin' 'bout, bruh?Copy !req
9. Bro...Copy !req
10. The fuckin' cops
found Mouse's body.Copy !req
11. Sorry.Copy !req
12. Did you hear what I said?Copy !req
13. Ch-ch-ch...Copy !req
14. I thought you
told me that Laurie
killed Mouse, right?Copy !req
15. - Laurie?
- Wha—Copy !req
16. I never said that.Copy !req
17. What are you
talkin' about?Copy !req
18. Yeah, you know, Laurie,Copy !req
19. the drug dealer that
lives in the apartment
complex off Kemper.Copy !req
20. Yeah, you were
the one that told me
she killed Mouse.Copy !req
21. I never said that.Copy !req
22. - Yes, you did.
- What are you talking about?Copy !req
23. - Are you high?
- You know that Laurie and thoseCopy !req
24. fucking people,
they scare me.Copy !req
25. Why are you trying
to protect them?Copy !req
26. I'm not fuckin'
protecting anyone.Copy !req
27. What the fuck is this?Copy !req
28. - So, you're working for Laurie?
- Hey, no!Copy !req
29. So how about you
just shut the fuck up!Copy !req
30. Okay, then why are you
trying to cover up a murder
that she committed?Copy !req
31. All right, now.Copy !req
32. Think it's time
for you to get outta
here, big fella.Copy !req
33. Bro... we gotta figure out
what the fuck we're gonna say.Copy !req
34. - Okay, this is becoming a fucking issue.
- Wait, Ash. Ash, Ash!Copy !req
35. No!Copy !req
36. Do you ever think
about the future?Copy !req
37. - Yeah, all the time.
- Really?Copy !req
38. Yeah.Copy !req
39. Like you have a plan?Copy !req
40. I mean, I don't, I don't got,
like, a plan-plan,Copy !req
41. but I be thinking aboutCopy !req
42. living on a farm, you know?Copy !req
43. I don't really
see you as a farmer.Copy !req
44. Yeah, fuck it.Copy !req
45. Get some horses, cows,
pigs, chickens, goats.Copy !req
46. Have a little family.Copy !req
47. Like some "Little House
on the Prairie"-type shit.
You know?Copy !req
48. I don't know
if I know that show.Copy !req
49. You never heard of "Little
House on the Prairie"?Copy !req
50. Okay, this might
sound kind of crazy but,Copy !req
51. my plan is to have,
like, three kids at 30.Copy !req
52. Like, each one
a year and a half apart.Copy !req
53. So from 30 to 58,
I can focus on,Copy !req
54. you know, being a good mom
and raising my kids,
et cetera, et cetera.Copy !req
55. And then, drop the last one
off at college at 58.Copy !req
56. Which will give me,
like, 32 yearsCopy !req
57. to focus on me
and live my lifeCopy !req
58. and take my time
with writing.Copy !req
59. I mean, you really got
this shit all figured out, huh?Copy !req
60. Yeah.
It's kind of crazy, right?Copy !req
61. I mean...Copy !req
62. they got, they got
three kids in that show.Copy !req
63. There's no need
to forget your manners.Copy !req
64. Just because we're
hundreds of miles
from civilized folk.Copy !req
65. If you lived in a place
like this, do you think
you'd have a gun?Copy !req
66. Hell yeah, I'd own a gun.Copy !req
67. I hate guns.Copy !req
68. Nobody's ever got shot at
and thought to they-self,Copy !req
69. "Whoa! Thank goodness
we didn't have a gun
to shoot back." You know?Copy !req
70. Yeah, but then what
are the police for?Copy !req
71. Fucked if I know. Shit.Copy !req
72. Wait, are you
on Instagram or Twitter?Copy !req
73. Hell no.Copy !req
74. Really? Why? - Oh yeah.Copy !req
75. Well, why would
I want anybodyCopy !req
76. knowin' what I'm
thinkin' or feelin'?Copy !req
77. I don't know.
You can connectCopy !req
78. with people who have
similar interests.Copy !req
79. Mmm.
I just feel like peopleCopy !req
80. be sharin' way
too much on there.Copy !req
81. Online? - Yeah.Copy !req
82. They be ruinin'
the mystery, you know?Copy !req
83. Like, say if I like a girl,Copy !req
84. I wanna find out what she's
about on my own, you know?Copy !req
85. I don't wanna google the scraps.Copy !req
86. I wanna, I wanna
peel back the layers.Copy !req
87. Yeah, but, like, why
would you wanna waste time
getting to know someone...Copy !req
88. if you don't have anything
in common with them?Copy !req
89. I don't know.
That's what I likeCopy !req
90. about you the most,
though, like...Copy !req
91. we don't really
have nothin' in common.Copy !req
92. That's not true.
We both...Copy !req
93. have the same sense of humor,Copy !req
94. and... are empathic and curious.Copy !req
95. And wanna have, like, kids.Copy !req
96. Those aren't interests,
you know, those areCopy !req
97. real character traits.Copy !req
98. It's—
That's the important
shit that, thatCopy !req
99. people don't post online.Copy !req
100. Yeah, I never thought
about it that way.Copy !req
101. Well, aren't you glad
that we became friends?Copy !req
102. Yeah... very much so.Copy !req
103. Yeah, me too.Copy !req
104. Hey, Lexi!
It's going so well!Copy !req
105. We're gettin' a lot
of really good laughs.Copy !req
106. Yeah, let's not
get cocky, okay?Copy !req
107. Oh god.Copy !req
108. thousand versions of myself.Copy !req
109. Only do I look good,
but I fucking feel good—Copy !req
110. Lexi, you really
outdid yourself.Copy !req
111. I mean...Copy !req
112. where did she find
these knock-offs.Copy !req
113. Oh shit.Copy !req
114. I had no ideaCopy !req
115. that my sister
had this in her.Copy !req
116. Good job, right?Copy !req
117. Isn't she brave?Copy !req
118. She's up here,
unpacking all of her trauma.Copy !req
119. I had no idea how hard
your life was, Lexi.Copy !req
120. - Shush!
- Can we give a round of applauseCopy !req
121. for how hard Lexi's life is?Copy !req
122. Come on, guys.Copy !req
123. I know they hack
the heads off of women
in Afghanistan or wherever.Copy !req
124. - That's racist!
- God.Copy !req
125. It is nothing compared
to living in my shadow.Copy !req
126. Yo, is this like
a part of the play?Copy !req
127. I don't know.Copy !req
128. - Lexi.
- Her name's Luna!Copy !req
129. Is this part
of the play?Copy !req
130. - Lexi?
- Stop, please stop.Copy !req
131. This is your show.
Come out!Copy !req
132. You're the big star
of the day!Copy !req
133. - Oh shit.
- Please, Cassie, stop it.Copy !req
134. You're the star
of the night.Copy !req
135. She's always wanted
to be the star.Copy !req
136. Whoo-hoo! Go, Lexi!Copy !req
137. This is your big moment.
Shine!Copy !req
138. Please, stop. Please, stop.
Please, stop. Please, stop.Copy !req
139. I should stop? Me?Copy !req
140. I'm not the one
putting on a playCopy !req
141. - to humiliate and embarrass you!
- I didn't do that.Copy !req
142. Oh really?Copy !req
143. Then what is this?Copy !req
144. - What act are we in?
- Don't question it.Copy !req
145. That's the brilliance
of Lexi Howard.Copy !req
146. Hi, everyone.Copy !req
147. I'm Suze.
I'm the girls' mom
in real life.Copy !req
148. Oh my god.Copy !req
149. Um, played by Ethan.Copy !req
150. Where is he? Ethan?Copy !req
151. Who by the way—Copy !req
152. he— you have me down to a,
to a, to a science, honey.Copy !req
153. - Thank you. Thank you, guys. I appreciate it.
- He's gonna win an award.Copy !req
154. Honey, let's go home.Copy !req
155. - I deserve this, right?
- Oh my god, please, Mom, Mom.Copy !req
156. - I deserve this?
- Stop!Copy !req
157. - Mom, stop!
- Shh, you stop it.Copy !req
158. Lexi, I'm going
to fucking kill you.Copy !req
159. I deserve this, right?Copy !req
160. Because I've actually
lived a life?Copy !req
161. Mom?Copy !req
162. I'm the one who takes risks.Copy !req
163. Show us your boobs!Copy !req
164. I'm the one who falls in love?Copy !req
165. I'm the one who gets hurt,
not you, Lexi!Copy !req
166. You never even fucking lived!Copy !req
167. That's why you're able
to stand up here
and judge all of us!Copy !req
168. You're just a fuckin'
bystander.Copy !req
169. - Alright, alright—
- Mom, stop!Copy !req
170. Alright!Copy !req
171. Oh, okay...Copy !req
172. Well if that
makes me a villain,Copy !req
173. - Whoo!
- Then so fuckin' be it.Copy !req
174. I can play
the fucking villain.Copy !req
175. Yeah, do it!Copy !req
176. Lexi, is this
the part of the playCopy !req
177. where I steal Jake from Marta?Copy !req
178. No, Cassie,
that's not in the play.Copy !req
179. It is now!Copy !req
180. Who said that?Copy !req
181. Look, I wanna say,
I get it.Copy !req
182. - Oh god...
- I understand what you're going through.Copy !req
183. - I do not want to hear from you.
- I lived it.Copy !req
184. Wait, Hallie steals
Marta's boyfriend?Copy !req
185. I don't know how many times
I have to say this.Copy !req
186. They were not
fucking together.Copy !req
187. Yeah, not only that,Copy !req
188. but she was fucking him
the entire timeCopy !req
189. Marta was talking about
getting back together with him.Copy !req
190. No... Why?Copy !req
191. Because Hallie
is a two-faced cunt.Copy !req
192. I'm not a cunt! You're the cunt!Copy !req
193. You're the fucking cunt,
bitch!Copy !req
194. I am not a fucking cunt.Copy !req
195. Language, missy!Copy !req
196. Okay, okay, you know what?Copy !req
197. You're just fucking
embarrassing yourself.Copy !req
198. - Let's go home.
- I'm not going home.Copy !req
199. - The play's not over.
- Oh, my god.Copy !req
200. I feel like
I'm gonna throw up.Copy !req
201. - Mom, this isn't fair!
- It's not her fault. She's a writer.Copy !req
202. - She's a writer!
- This isn't fair, Mom!Copy !req
203. How can she do this—?Copy !req
204. $3.25 for a grapefruit?
What is this, Venezuela?Copy !req
205. - Lexi, Lexi, I'm gonna fucking kill you!
- Okay, enough!Copy !req
206. - Mom!
- I don't know. I'm panicking.Copy !req
207. Go away. Just go away.Copy !req
208. Stop. Stop it!Copy !req
209. Oh, my god, yes!
Oh, that's it!Copy !req
210. Oh, my god, I just
love fucking everything!Copy !req
211. No!
I'm going to fucking kill you!Copy !req
212. - Get the fuck off of the horse.
- Ow!Copy !req
213. Get off!
You fucking bitch!Copy !req
214. Oh, this bitch
needs to be put down.Copy !req
215. No, no, no.
Maddy! No!Copy !req
216. Maddy, no, no, no,
no, no, no, no, no!Copy !req
217. No, no, no, Maddy! No, no, no, no, no!Copy !req
218. - Maddy, no!
- Maddy, beat her ass!Copy !req
219. Fucking bitch!Copy !req
220. Fuck you!Copy !req
221. Oh fuck.Copy !req
222. Ooh!Copy !req
223. No, no! Stop! Stop!
Stop this! Stop, stop...Copy !req
224. Maddy!
No, no, no, no, no, no!
No, no, no!Copy !req
225. Maddy! No!Copy !req
226. Beat her fuckin' ass, Maddy!
She fuckin' deserves that shit!Copy !req
227. She fucked your boyfriend!Copy !req
228. It's all make-believe.
This is all scripted.Copy !req
229. Can you believe this?
My baby's a genius.Copy !req
230. Close the curtain!Copy !req
231. Close the fucking curtain!Copy !req
232. Now!Copy !req
233. A few days earlier,Copy !req
234. I stopped by Elliot's.Copy !req
235. Yo... Hey.Copy !req
236. - What's goin' on?
- Ah, nothin' much. I was just, uh...Copy !req
237. walkin' around
the neighborhood.Copy !req
238. Thought I'd stop by
and come tell yaCopy !req
239. to go fuck yourself
for bein' a snitch.Copy !req
240. Uh...Copy !req
241. uh...Copy !req
242. I know, but for real,
man, I, um...Copy !req
243. I think you might've
accidentally saved my life.Copy !req
244. So, uh, you know,
whatever happened...Copy !req
245. however it happened,
you know, however...Copy !req
246. it got to be...
whatever it is, uh...Copy !req
247. thank God it did.Copy !req
248. 'Cause I wouldn't be here
to tell you that I forgive you.Copy !req
249. And that feels...Copy !req
250. that feels really,
really nice because, uh,Copy !req
251. I have a lot of
"I'm sorry's" to do.Copy !req
252. But not a lot
of "I forgive you's."Copy !req
253. So...Copy !req
254. thank you for that.Copy !req
255. So, you're not doin' anything?Copy !req
256. Nah, you?Copy !req
257. Yeah.Copy !req
258. - Don't worry. I'm not gonna tell anyone.
- Thank you. Yeah.Copy !req
259. You talk to Jules?Copy !req
260. - No, you?
- Not really.Copy !req
261. Yeah, that one's gonna
take me a little bit longer.Copy !req
262. I get that.Copy !req
263. Can I play you something?Copy !req
264. Uh, yeah, sure.
Go ahead.Copy !req
265. Okay.Copy !req
266. I'm still workin' on it.Copy !req
267. I like it.Copy !req
268. Um... truth or dare?Copy !req
269. Truth.Copy !req
270. Do you think we can
still be friends?Copy !req
271. You know you're the one
who said we weren't
any good for each other.Copy !req
272. I still think that.Copy !req
273. Yeah...
I, I found her.Copy !req
274. I'm telling everyone
that that was a part
of the play.Copy !req
275. It's the only thing
I've ever done
and it's a disaster.Copy !req
276. It could be worse.Copy !req
277. How?Copy !req
278. It could be boring.Copy !req
279. That's true.Copy !req
280. I mean, how many showsCopy !req
281. in the history
of East Highland HighCopy !req
282. has started a riot?Copy !req
283. It's not even over yet.Copy !req
284. Art should be dangerous.Copy !req
285. The show goes on.Copy !req
286. Lexi, Lexi, Lexi!Copy !req
287. AllCopy !req
288. Lexi, Lexi, Lexi!Copy !req
289. Hallie... dust yourself off...Copy !req
290. and get back on that pony.Copy !req
291. Giddy up.Copy !req
292. Let's fuckin' do this.Copy !req
293. Um, as you may have noticed,Copy !req
294. we're experiencing some
technical difficulties.Copy !req
295. Um, but seriously,Copy !req
296. I think we're gonna
need a few minutes.Copy !req
297. Um...Copy !req
298. I just wanted
to thank you all
for being here.Copy !req
299. I didn't know
any of that was
gonna happen, uh...Copy !req
300. A little bit ago,Copy !req
301. I was talking to a friend
about this play,Copy !req
302. and I asked him...Copy !req
303. "What if I upset people?"Copy !req
304. And he said to me,Copy !req
305. "Sometimes, people need
to get their feelings hurt."Copy !req
306. Um...Copy !req
307. so even though he couldn't
be here with us tonight...Copy !req
308. this one's for you.Copy !req
309. I'm sorry, bruh,Copy !req
310. but we have to make it
look like you ain't do this.Copy !req
311. Just get out, man.
The cops are gon' kick down
that door any second, bro.Copy !req
312. Even if they know that
you did this, bruh...Copy !req
313. I'm still gonna
go down longer.Copy !req
314. - No.
- Come here, bruh.Copy !req
315. Listen to me.Copy !req
316. Just go out there and surrender.Copy !req
317. It's all on me, bruh.
You hear me?Copy !req
318. - No.
- They gon' come in here.Copy !req
319. They gon' find me
with the knife in my hand.Copy !req
320. Tell 'em you had nothin'
to do with this shit.Copy !req
321. Listen to me.
I did this shit!Copy !req
322. I killed this muthafucker.Copy !req
323. You hearin' me?
Not you.Copy !req
324. Mm-mm. No.Copy !req
325. C'mon, now go wash
your fucking hands.Copy !req
326. I love you, brother.Copy !req
327. Ash, stop playin'!
I need you to walk out this
fuckin' door right now, bruh!Copy !req
328. Ash, we not doin'
this shit, man!Copy !req
329. How you think this
gonna end, bruh?Copy !req
330. You trying to die?Copy !req
331. Give me the gun, bruh.Copy !req
332. Ash...Copy !req
333. I'm not finna let
nothin' happen to you.
Now, give me the gun.Copy !req
334. Come on, bro.Copy !req
335. I'm not fuckin' askin', bro.Copy !req
336. Come on, bro, please.Copy !req
337. Fuck!Copy !req
338. Ash!
Ash, open the fucking
door right now!Copy !req
339. I'm not playin' with you!Copy !req
340. Ash!Copy !req
341. Open the fucking door!Copy !req
342. Wrong. I know.Copy !req
343. Cal's Friend:
Enough with the dirty dad joke.Copy !req
344. Who is that?Copy !req
345. You know him?Copy !req
346. You're not even gonna
give me a hug, Dad?Copy !req
347. That's your son?Copy !req
348. Yep.Copy !req
349. Got all the best
parts of him.Copy !req
350. Think I know
what part that is.Copy !req
351. You know what I think
we have in common?Copy !req
352. When we both get off
on hurting other people.Copy !req
353. What do ya think?Copy !req
354. - You wanna talk about this upstairs?
- No.Copy !req
355. So, you, uh,
livin' here now?Copy !req
356. Uh, or the moment, yeah.Copy !req
357. Ya happy?Copy !req
358. I'm figuring it out.Copy !req
359. Sorry.Copy !req
360. - Are you happier?
- Why don't we go talk about this upstairs?Copy !req
361. - It's a simple question.
- Yes...Copy !req
362. In some ways.Copy !req
363. - That's not fair.
- I know.Copy !req
364. You don't get
to ruin our lives.Copy !req
365. And then, just... move on
and get to be happier.Copy !req
366. I've made a lot of mistakes.Copy !req
367. When I was...Copy !req
368. eleven years old...Copy !req
369. I found these videos of my dad
fucking hookers in a motel room.Copy !req
370. You know, for the longest time,Copy !req
371. I had this recurring nightmare,
just over and over...Copy !req
372. and in it, he was fuckin' me
the way that he fucked them.Copy !req
373. Did I ever tell you
about that, Dad?Copy !req
374. I think it's time that...
uh, that everybody go.Copy !req
375. - Um, um, I need to talk to my son.
- Oh god.Copy !req
376. Good luck.Copy !req
377. - Bye.
- See ya, buddy.Copy !req
378. I spent my whole life
tryin' to protect you.Copy !req
379. And instead of loving me,
you fuckin' hated me for it.Copy !req
380. I'm not proud
of the person I've been.Copy !req
381. I know that
I've hurt you.Copy !req
382. I don't wanna hear it.Copy !req
383. I tried to keep it separate.Copy !req
384. I failed.Copy !req
385. I fucked up, Nate...Copy !req
386. but I love you.Copy !req
387. I love you.Copy !req
388. And I should've
protected you,Copy !req
389. I should've
kept you safe,
and I didn't.Copy !req
390. I didn't.Copy !req
391. And there's nothing
I regret more.Copy !req
392. I don't want your apology.Copy !req
393. I just want revenge.Copy !req
394. What does that mean?Copy !req
395. What is that?Copy !req
396. It's everything.Copy !req
397. Everything.Copy !req
398. Nate...Copy !req
399. don't do this.Copy !req
400. Nate, look at me.Copy !req
401. Do not do this.Copy !req
402. Nate, don't do this.Copy !req
403. I'm, I'm,
I'm begging you.Copy !req
404. - Don't do this.
- You are...Copy !req
405. who you are.Copy !req
406. I don't think you're
ever gonna change.Copy !req
407. Chief Greenwood?
He's in here.Copy !req
408. Thanks, Nate.
Appreciate it.Copy !req
409. Cal, you're under arrest.Copy !req
410. Put your hands
behind your head.Copy !req
411. Both of 'em.Copy !req
412. Hands up!Copy !req
413. Ash!Copy !req
414. Hands in the air!Copy !req
415. Fezco
Don't do this shit!Copy !req
416. Hands up!Copy !req
417. Hands up!Copy !req
418. On the ground!Copy !req
419. Open door right!Copy !req
420. Get 'em up!Copy !req
421. Come on! Come out!Copy !req
422. Ash!Copy !req
423. Ash, open the door!Copy !req
424. - Don't move!
- Drop the knife now!Copy !req
425. Don't shoot, don't shoot!
There's a kid in there!Copy !req
426. Don't shoot! Don't shoot!
Don't shoot!Copy !req
427. - There's a kid in here! There's a kid in here!
- Drop the knife now!Copy !req
428. Please, don't shoot!Copy !req
429. Ash, come outta there!Copy !req
430. Drop your knife!Copy !req
431. Move slowly!
There's a kid in here!Copy !req
432. Please, don't shoot!Copy !req
433. - Please, Ash, come out!
- Move back to my voice!Copy !req
434. - Keep backing out!
- Ash!Copy !req
435. Come out, man!Copy !req
436. There's a fuckin' kid
up in there!Copy !req
437. Aaaah!Copy !req
438. Ash!Copy !req
439. Ash!Copy !req
440. Don't shoot!Copy !req
441. Ash, come on!
Get outta there!Copy !req
442. Please! Ash, come on, please!Copy !req
443. Don't shoot him!
It's a fucking kid!Copy !req
444. Don't shoot! Don't shoot! Ash!Copy !req
445. Ash!Copy !req
446. Ash!Copy !req
447. Ash!Copy !req
448. Ash! Ash!Copy !req
449. Answer me!Copy !req
450. Ash!Copy !req
451. Shh.Copy !req
452. He's down!Copy !req
453. I was in the hall
when you died.Copy !req
454. You let out a loud cry
like you didn't know
what was gonna happen...Copy !req
455. and then,
it was silent.Copy !req
456. My... my first
thought was...Copy !req
457. "This feels
like a movie."Copy !req
458. I know a lot of people
feel that way whenCopy !req
459. traumatic things
happen to them.Copy !req
460. Uh, at least,
I, I hear that a lot.Copy !req
461. It didn't feel real.Copy !req
462. It felt like a movie.Copy !req
463. Uh, and this is it.
This is...Copy !req
464. This is the part where
the character never recovers.Copy !req
465. The part where...
life takes them down.Copy !req
466. This is the s—Copy !req
467. This is the scene
that scars her forever.Copy !req
468. Lexi.Copy !req
469. - Get dressed. It's your dad.
- What?Copy !req
470. Feel like your whole life
you've been forced
to take care of everyone.Copy !req
471. I, uh—Copy !req
472. I watched you die...Copy !req
473. and all I could think about
was how none of it felt real.Copy !req
474. The lights,
the heavy boots
of the EMTsCopy !req
475. and their respectful,
quiet voices...Copy !req
476. "Let's lift him on three."Copy !req
477. It was so quiet.Copy !req
478. I was numb.Copy !req
479. I didn't care.Copy !req
480. I wasn't feeling life
in the way it was meant
to be felt because...Copy !req
481. I wasn't present.
I wasn't actually there.Copy !req
482. I was just watching it.Copy !req
483. But that's not true.Copy !req
484. I do care.Copy !req
485. And what if...Copy !req
486. what if... the reason
it felt like a movieCopy !req
487. was because I wanted
to believe that losing you...Copy !req
488. is a part of a larger story.Copy !req
489. One that maybe I could...Copy !req
490. maybe I could still shape.Copy !req
491. I... I remember
a couple of days before
you passed away.Copy !req
492. You told me...Copy !req
493. that if I ever wanted
to be with you...Copy !req
494. all I would have to do
is close my eyes...Copy !req
495. and we'd be together.Copy !req
496. You said that...Copy !req
497. memories exist
outside of time...Copy !req
498. and have no
beginning or end.Copy !req
499. You said as long as I live...Copy !req
500. you'll be with me forever.Copy !req
501. I miss you, Dad.Copy !req
502. I miss you until
I close my eyes.Copy !req
503. That's it.Copy !req
504. Thank you.Copy !req
505. Lexi
Hey.Copy !req
506. Hey.Copy !req
507. Um...Copy !req
508. I, I just, I just wanted
to tell you that I...Copy !req
509. I thought your play
was really beautiful.Copy !req
510. You might be the only
one who thinks that.Copy !req
511. Yeah, well, could you
imagine if I, like,Copy !req
512. hated it and Cassie loved it?Copy !req
513. Um, but what are
you doing today?Copy !req
514. Um, I was—Copy !req
515. Yeah, just laying in bed.Copy !req
516. Cool, well, um, can I...
maybe, like, come over?Copy !req
517. Yeah.Copy !req
518. Totally.Copy !req
519. Okay cool.
I'll... see you later then.Copy !req
520. - Okay.
- Okay, bye.Copy !req
521. I feel like all
the kids in high school
are super crazy.Copy !req
522. It's literally
the same as eighth grade.Copy !req
523. People are just
way more dramatic.Copy !req
524. All the senior guys
are, like, nice.Copy !req
525. How are you
feeling?Copy !req
526. I don't know.
I'm okay.Copy !req
527. All right, all right.
I never see the fiveCopy !req
528. of you little
babies together,Copy !req
529. so we're gonna take
a photo, okay?Copy !req
530. - No, Mom, please don't take a photo.
- All right, everyone comeCopy !req
531. together like that.
Beautiful!Copy !req
532. - Mom, no one wants to remember this moment.
- Oh, you littleCopy !req
533. - sugar sweethearts.
- Please, stop, stop.Copy !req
534. I think your play
was the first timeCopy !req
535. I was able to look at my life
and not hate myself...Copy !req
536. for everything I've done.Copy !req
537. What do you mean?Copy !req
538. I don't know.
I think I've been
through a lot.Copy !req
539. And I don't know
what to do with it.Copy !req
540. But you've been through a lot
and you know what to do with it.Copy !req
541. - I don't know about that.
- Lex, look what you made.Copy !req
542. I don't know how to do that.Copy !req
543. I don't know how to get
to where you are.Copy !req
544. But I just wanted you
to know that seeing it
meant the world to me.Copy !req
545. Do you think about
your dad often?Copy !req
546. Me too.Copy !req
547. I feel like I had
so much to learnCopy !req
548. from him still,
you know?Copy !req
549. I also think I'm
really angry about it.Copy !req
550. Yeah.Copy !req
551. Do you ever...
get angry about it?Copy !req
552. It's a bit more
complicated than that.Copy !req
553. What do you mean?Copy !req
554. I think, like...Copy !req
555. I was kind of relieved
when he stopped showing up.Copy !req
556. 'Cause I was so worried
something bad was gonna happen.Copy !req
557. I get that.Copy !req
558. Now...Copy !req
559. every time the phone rings,
it's like...Copy !req
560. You know?Copy !req
561. But you figured it out.Copy !req
562. You fuckin' figured it out.Copy !req
563. When my dad died,
everybody would
tell me that...Copy !req
564. he died
for a reason.Copy !req
565. Ah, that shit
used to piss me off.Copy !req
566. I would literally wanna
fucking strangle them.Copy !req
567. But...Copy !req
568. I think what they're
actually saying is that
you gotta give it a reason.Copy !req
569. You gotta give all
this shit a reason.Copy !req
570. Because I don't wanna
hold on to this forever.Copy !req
571. I can't, I can't
hold on to it forever.Copy !req
572. Just doesn't feel good.Copy !req
573. It's just—Copy !req
574. - I know other people are, like, built different, but—
- Yeah.Copy !req
575. it's too much for me.Copy !req
576. - I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
- No.Copy !req
577. - No, sorry.
- I'm sorry. I didn't—Copy !req
578. Lexi...Copy !req
579. I promise you,
it's not all his fault.Copy !req
580. I don't know for certain...Copy !req
581. but I'm, uh...Copy !req
582. I'm pretty sure he
wakes up every dayCopy !req
583. and he thinks,
"I'm gonna be better for her.Copy !req
584. I'm gonna be there for her."Copy !req
585. That's also the problem.Copy !req
586. Because he only wants
to be better for you.Copy !req
587. Because I know that
he loves you a lot more
than he loves himself.Copy !req
588. Mm.Copy !req
589. I don't know if that
made you feel better.Copy !req
590. Thank you.Copy !req
591. It's okay.Copy !req
592. I miss you.Copy !req
593. Do you know what's funny?Copy !req
594. Nate broke up with me before
I even went on that stage.Copy !req
595. Don't worry.Copy !req
596. This is just the beginning.Copy !req
597. Sorry.Copy !req
598. Sorry.Copy !req
599. Sorry.Copy !req
600. Hi!Copy !req
601. I know you're probably
still really angry at me...Copy !req
602. but I just wanted to tell
you that I love you.Copy !req
603. And I miss you.Copy !req
604. So much.Copy !req
605. Jules was my first love.Copy !req
606. I'd like to
remember it that way.Copy !req
607. I don't know if that's
actually true, though.Copy !req
608. I think I was high
for too much of it.Copy !req
609. I know it wasn't easy for her.Copy !req
610. And I hope she forgives me.Copy !req
611. I stayed clean through
the rest of the school year.Copy !req
612. I wish I could say that
was a decision I made.Copy !req
613. In some ways,
it was just easier.Copy !req
614. I don't know if this feeling
will last forever...Copy !req
615. but I am trying.Copy !req
616. I remember Ali said,Copy !req
617. "The thought of maybe
being a good person,Copy !req
618. is what keeps me trying
to be a good person."Copy !req
619. Maybe there's
something to that.Copy !req