1. E.R.Copy !req
2. Previously on E.R.Copy !req
3. How much of your brain
did they cut out?Copy !req
4. He has a mild expressive aphasia.Copy !req
5. - It's temporary.
- I don't like it.Copy !req
6. - This is just gonna be between us, right?
- Of course.Copy !req
7. The only reason you gave me that job
is because I'm black.Copy !req
8. Lupus is very serious.Copy !req
9. I know what it does, Dr. Kovac.Copy !req
10. I even know I'm gonna die from it.Copy !req
11. I need information about
evaluating a physician...Copy !req
12. who's possibly cognitively impaired.Copy !req
13. E.R. 7x14 "A WALK IN THE WOODS"Copy !req
14. You asleep?Copy !req
15. Cleo?Copy !req
16. Cleo?Copy !req
17. You asleep?Copy !req
18. It's snowing outside.Copy !req
19. What time is it?Copy !req
20. Almost 6.Copy !req
21. You know, I was thinking...Copy !req
22. I have to be in at 7.Copy !req
23. The alarm's going off in 10 minutes.Copy !req
24. I'll be quick.Copy !req
25. The hell you will.Copy !req
26. - You feel it?
- No.Copy !req
27. There.Copy !req
28. It's really moving. How long
has she been going on like this?Copy !req
29. On and off all night.Copy !req
30. Go back to sleep.Copy !req
31. I keep thinking about that movie.Copy !req
32. Alien, you know?Copy !req
33. It's moving around under his skin...Copy !req
34. and then, all of a sudden,
it breaks its way through with its teeth.Copy !req
35. Amanda, stop it.
You're scaring your mother.Copy !req
36. Amanda.Copy !req
37. So the baby's a girl today.Copy !req
38. Or Matthew, after my grandfather.
I can't decide.Copy !req
39. Last day?Copy !req
40. Last day.Copy !req
41. What?Copy !req
42. It's okay.Copy !req
43. Hi.Copy !req
44. Did I wake you?Copy !req
45. I was trying to let you sleep.Copy !req
46. I should probably get home anyway.Copy !req
47. You should bring a few things over.Copy !req
48. I could clear out
some closet space for you.Copy !req
49. - Are you sure you can spare it?
- I can find a couple of inches...Copy !req
50. somewhere, maybe.Copy !req
51. I need to dry my hair.Copy !req
52. Are you gonna watch me again?Copy !req
53. Are you okay?Copy !req
54. And you?Copy !req
55. Penny for your thoughts.Copy !req
56. - Pardon?
- It means...Copy !req
57. It means,
"What are you thinking about? "Copy !req
58. Nothing, really.Copy !req
59. I was thinking about the bishop.Copy !req
60. Making love with me makes you
think of a priest with lupus?Copy !req
61. You watch me when we make love.Copy !req
62. You're beautiful.Copy !req
63. What was her name?Copy !req
64. Who?Copy !req
65. Your wife.Copy !req
66. Daniella.Copy !req
67. Did you love her very much?Copy !req
68. Yeah.Copy !req
69. I'm glad.Copy !req
70. E.R.Copy !req
71. Carter, 4-year-old boy's
coming in from preschool.Copy !req
72. Fever, trouble breathing.
Sixty-two's pulling in.Copy !req
73. Okey-dokey.Copy !req
74. Hey, Frank.
Is Dr. Greene here yet?Copy !req
75. No. Said he was coming in late.Copy !req
76. Weaver's upstairs at some
big administrative powwow.Copy !req
77. Probably suggesting the installation
of pay toilets in the bathrooms.Copy !req
78. Is Kovac here?Copy !req
79. He's got a dead shovel
they're trying to bring back.Copy !req
80. It's just you and me, then,
with this 4-year-old.Copy !req
81. I can take it.Copy !req
82. - Welcome back!
- Thanks.Copy !req
83. - How are you feeling?
- Pretty good.Copy !req
84. - Want me to tag along with you?
- No. I've got it.Copy !req
85. Eight weeks.
Could be some cobwebs.Copy !req
86. Thanks, anyway.Copy !req
87. - Call me if she gets into any trouble.
- Okay.Copy !req
88. You look great.Copy !req
89. I still have a few pounds to drop.Copy !req
90. - Can't tell.
- I should have gotten a coat.Copy !req
91. - Grab one.
- No, I'm all right.Copy !req
92. Zack Woodman, 4 years old.
Post grand mal seizure at preschool.Copy !req
93. We were finishing crafts, and
he started shaking and wet his pants.Copy !req
94. - You his mother?
- No. Preschool teacher.Copy !req
95. Feels like he's burning up.
BP's 100/60. Pulse, 120.Copy !req
96. - Does he have a history of epilepsy?
- Not that I know of.Copy !req
97. - Zack, open your eyes. Zack-
- Excuse me. Can somebody help me?Copy !req
98. - Are you hurt?
- It's not me. He's in the car.Copy !req
99. He's very weak.
I don't think he can walk on his own.Copy !req
100. Abby?Copy !req
101. - What's wrong?
- He's having trouble breathing.Copy !req
102. - Has he been ill?
- Yes.Copy !req
103. When did this start?Copy !req
104. I don't know.
A couple hours ago, I guess.Copy !req
105. - Hi.
- Hello.Copy !req
106. - Can you walk?
- I don't think so.Copy !req
107. I need a septic workup, CBC, blood
and urine cultures, chest x-ray.Copy !req
108. - Temp's 105.
- Sorry.Copy !req
109. - The bishop's back.
- I need a weight.Copy !req
110. Blue zone, 20 kilos.Copy !req
111. 360 milligrams of rectal Tylenol.Copy !req
112. - Pulse ox, 82.
- Put him on a mask, 10 liters.Copy !req
113. Do you want to do a spinal tap?Copy !req
114. He could have meningitis.Copy !req
115. Or a febrile seizure,
and he's gonna wake up.Copy !req
116. - Why don't I get an LP tray?
- I want to wait a few minutes.Copy !req
117. Give 900 of cefotaxime
after the cultures.Copy !req
118. Well, I love what you've done
with the place. Very Teutonic.Copy !req
119. No trappings of success
to interfere...Copy !req
120. with your performing
your new duties.Copy !req
121. I requisitioned some furniture...Copy !req
122. but the form's on your desk
waiting for your signature.Copy !req
123. Well, you should see my in-box.
Must be 18 inches deep.Copy !req
124. - Are those admissions folders?
- Yeah.Copy !req
125. I thought I'd familiarize
myself with them.Copy !req
126. Don't bother. Kids are gonna toss out...Copy !req
127. clichés about wanting to help people.Copy !req
128. You could ask their favorite color,
or if they like cheese. Doesn't matter.Copy !req
129. Step outside a minute, would you?Copy !req
130. He showed up whining
about not getting an interview.Copy !req
131. You should shake his hand,
since this falls under your purview...Copy !req
132. before you have Security
toss him out.Copy !req
133. Hey. That's your man.Copy !req
134. - Dean Benton?
- Dr. Benton.Copy !req
135. William White.
Thanks for finding time to see me.Copy !req
136. Yeah. Well, what can I do for you?Copy !req
137. I got this letter.
I applied to the medical school.Copy !req
138. But I didn't get an interview.Copy !req
139. Teacher doesn't have a signed
emergency consent form.Copy !req
140. - He's still not waking up.
- How long?Copy !req
141. - Forty minutes.
- Zack? Zack, can you hear me?Copy !req
142. - He needs an LP.
- We don't have parental consent.Copy !req
143. Get another doc
to sign off the chart with you.Copy !req
144. Okay. Get the tray set up.Copy !req
145. - Frank, where's Carter?
- In 4. Granny took a fall.Copy !req
146. Can I see you for a moment?Copy !req
147. Sure.Copy !req
148. I've got that 4-year-old
with febrile seizure.Copy !req
149. He's still altered.
I wanna do a spinal tap.Copy !req
150. The preschool doesn't have
an emergency consent.Copy !req
151. Haven't been able
to contact a parent.Copy !req
152. - Any other signs?
- X-ray looks like viral pneumonia.Copy !req
153. I can't assess for a stiff neck,
but there is photophobia.Copy !req
154. Where do you want me to sign?Copy !req
155. Oxygen saturation's only 78.Copy !req
156. - What should it be?
- Hundred.Copy !req
157. Seventy-eight sounds
like a passing grade.Copy !req
158. Barely.Copy !req
159. Put him up to four liters.Copy !req
160. CBC, blood cultures, ABG,
sed rate and a portable chest.Copy !req
161. Hang a gram of cefotaxime
in case it's pneumonia.Copy !req
162. Pneumonia? I don't
even feel like I have a fever.Copy !req
163. The steroids prevent you
from having fevers.Copy !req
164. And push 125 of Solu-Medrol.Copy !req
165. You're giving me more steroids?Copy !req
166. You could have a flare of the lupus
with inflammation in the lung.Copy !req
167. There's also a chance
that you are throwing blood clots.Copy !req
168. Lupus makes your blood
coagulate more easily.Copy !req
169. Have you called your own doctor?Copy !req
170. No.Copy !req
171. - I'll call him.
- No.Copy !req
172. Why? Because you think
I'm easier to manipulate?Copy !req
173. I'm not nearly as Machiavellian
as you imagine me to be.Copy !req
174. I came here
because I prefer your care.Copy !req
175. How's it going?Copy !req
176. Easy tap when they're unconscious.
Looks pretty clear.Copy !req
177. - Cute kid. What's his name?
- Zack.Copy !req
178. Cell count, glucose, protein,
Gram's stain and culture.Copy !req
179. He's got those shoes that light up
when you walk. How do they do that?Copy !req
180. - Want to roll him back over?
- What is that?Copy !req
181. - What?
- That.Copy !req
182. You didn't tell me
he had a macular rash.Copy !req
183. It wasn't there half an hour ago.Copy !req
184. - It must be a viral exanthem.
- It could be measles.Copy !req
185. - Measles?
- Yeah.Copy !req
186. Fever, altered mental status,
pneumonia.Copy !req
187. More likely,
he has a virus with pneumonia...Copy !req
188. and had a febrile seizure
from the high temperature.Copy !req
189. That is a classic measles rash.Copy !req
190. Abby, can you hand me
a tongue depressor?Copy !req
191. - Have you ever seen measles?
- No. You?Copy !req
192. Of course not.
Nobody's seen measles.Copy !req
193. Can you...?Copy !req
194. He's got Koplik spots
on the buccal mucosa.Copy !req
195. What?Copy !req
196. Or he bit the inside of his mouth
when he was seizing.Copy !req
197. There's a Nelson's in the lounge.
Can you grab it, please?Copy !req
198. Now.Copy !req
199. - Is Zack all right?
- This is Mrs. Woodman.Copy !req
200. I was in court. I have to turn off
my cell in session. My God!Copy !req
201. I'm Dr. Chen. Your son had a seizure
and a high temperature.Copy !req
202. We've done a spinal tap
to rule out meningitis.Copy !req
203. - Are Zack's immunizations up-to-date?
- No.Copy !req
204. Has he had the MMR?Copy !req
205. He hasn't had any immunizations.
None of our children have.Copy !req
206. - I got it.
- Abby, put a mask on Zack.Copy !req
207. What's the matter?Copy !req
208. - What's happening?
- Get him into the Laminar Flow Room.Copy !req
209. Call the school.
Don't let anybody leave.Copy !req
210. What's the matter with my son?Copy !req
211. - Your son has measles.
- That's not too bad, right?Copy !req
212. One in 500 kids die from measles.Copy !req
213. Frank, I'm taking
the Luiz kid up now.Copy !req
214. Please send along the films
when you find them again, will you?Copy !req
215. Yes, ma'am.Copy !req
216. - Hi.
- Hey.Copy !req
217. - So how'd it go?
- Fine.Copy !req
218. Fine? That's it?Copy !req
219. I laid down, they shot...Copy !req
220. a couple billion more rads
into my skull, and then I left.Copy !req
221. And that's it.Copy !req
222. Hopefully, my irradiated head
won't screw up...Copy !req
223. any navigational equipment
on our next flight.Copy !req
224. All right, all right.Copy !req
225. I have to go.Copy !req
226. - Lunch?
- If I can. Come find me.Copy !req
227. Okay.Copy !req
228. So did I hear right? You're done?Copy !req
229. Radiation treatment. Just two
more weeks of immune therapy.Copy !req
230. - Dr. Greene?
- Yeah?Copy !req
231. That's great. Did they
give you the tumor back?Copy !req
232. When they took it out,
did they give it back to you?Copy !req
233. Because my uncle Al,
he's got his on a mantle in a jar.Copy !req
234. Guy over there wants to talk to you.Copy !req
235. You know, Dave, I don't really
want a tumor on my mantle.Copy !req
236. Hi. Dr. Greene. Can I help you?Copy !req
237. Robert Wilson. Is there
some place we could talk?Copy !req
238. - Actually, I'm on duty.
- It'd be better if we had some privacy.Copy !req
239. - I'm sorry, Mr...
- Dr. Wilson.Copy !req
240. Dr. Wilson. What is it?Copy !req
241. I work for the Illinois Department
of Professional Regulation.Copy !req
242. We've been asked
to evaluate your competency...Copy !req
243. to continue practicing medicine.Copy !req
244. - Where in the hell did he catch measles?
- Europe, I think.Copy !req
245. Mom was in Paris two weeks ago,
took the whole family.Copy !req
246. She some fringe lunatic thinks
immunizations are a conspiracy...Copy !req
247. between doctors
and drug companies?Copy !req
248. I don't think so.Copy !req
249. Find out if there are
other kids at home...Copy !req
250. where the child's been, who he's
had contact with over the last week.Copy !req
251. How is he?
They won't let me back there.Copy !req
252. We moved him to a room
with special ventilation...Copy !req
253. so he doesn't contaminate
the rest of the ER.Copy !req
254. - Is he awake?
- He's still unconscious.Copy !req
255. He has pneumonia.
And, in all likelihood, encephalitis.Copy !req
256. - What's that?
- Inflammation around the brain.Copy !req
257. - Did you call the preschool?
- Yes. All the children are there.Copy !req
258. Make sure they've all
been immunized.Copy !req
259. Their parents, their siblings,
anyone they've been in contact with.Copy !req
260. There's a phone at the desk. Tell Frank
that Dr. Carter said you could use it.Copy !req
261. Please.Copy !req
262. You have other children?Copy !req
263. A daughter. I called my husband.
He's coming with her.Copy !req
264. And she hasn't been
immunized either?Copy !req
265. No. Is Zack gonna be okay?Copy !req
266. Well, he's in grave condition
with a highly contagious disease.Copy !req
267. I'm not an irresponsible parent.Copy !req
268. I read all the literature on the Internet,
the parenting magazines.Copy !req
269. - I discussed it with my pediatrician.
- He didn't recommend the MMR?Copy !req
270. Zack's immune system could have
been weakened from vaccinations.Copy !req
271. The immune system
is strengthened by vaccines.Copy !req
272. - Kids are exposed to foreign antigens.
- Vaccines aren't completely safe.Copy !req
273. - I'm sorry-
- They aren't, and you know it.Copy !req
274. The connection between
vaccinations and autism-Copy !req
275. There is no connection.Copy !req
276. Dr. Carter, Zack dropped his sats.Copy !req
277. He's at 75 at 100 percent.Copy !req
278. He's getting cyanotic.
I've already started the atropine.Copy !req
279. Etomidate and sux. I need a 5-0 uncuffed
ET and a number 2 curved blade.Copy !req
280. What's going on?Copy !req
281. There's so much lung damage that
oxygen can't get into his bloodstream.Copy !req
282. - What are you doing?
- Trying to get him more oxygen.Copy !req
283. He needs a machine to breathe?Copy !req
284. If we don't intubate him,
he's gonna die.Copy !req
285. - I'll do it.
- I got it.Copy !req
286. Not on your first day back.
Step out.Copy !req
287. - What?
- Step out! Give me some suction.Copy !req
288. - He's throwing PVCs.
- Oh, my God!Copy !req
289. Come on.Copy !req
290. - Okay, I got it.
- Good breath sounds bilaterally.Copy !req
291. Pulse ox up to 88.Copy !req
292. Tidal volume of 150, AC of 14.Copy !req
293. Let's keep him on 100 percent
with three of PEEP.Copy !req
294. - He's okay now?
- Yeah, sure. He's great.Copy !req
295. Is that the bishop's?Copy !req
296. - He says he's feeling better.
- The oxygen and the medication.Copy !req
297. So he'll be able to perform
the ordination this afternoon?Copy !req
298. What?Copy !req
299. That's where we were headed
when he became ill in the car.Copy !req
300. A kid that he baptized
at his first parish...Copy !req
301. is being ordained as a priest today.Copy !req
302. Where do you think you're going?Copy !req
303. I feel much better.Copy !req
304. Your ABG shows
an oxygen level of 58.Copy !req
305. And your sed rate is 84.Copy !req
306. Eighty-four. Is that good?Copy !req
307. No, it's not good!
It's an indication of active lupus!Copy !req
308. Stop buttoning that damn shirt.Copy !req
309. Is Joe still outside? I think I'm gonna
need help getting into these pants.Copy !req
310. You need to be admitted
to the ICU for IV Cytoxan.Copy !req
311. Only a couple of hours.Copy !req
312. If the inflammation
in your lungs continues...Copy !req
313. you won't get enough oxygen
to stay alive.Copy !req
314. If I skip the reception,
I can be back here by 6.Copy !req
315. You'll be dead by 6!Copy !req
316. - It's in God's hands.
- God could give a damn!Copy !req
317. Is there something I should sign...Copy !req
318. so I can go?Copy !req
319. - You're kidding! Stephanie?
- She just up and moved to Seattle.Copy !req
320. - I thought she was living with Deborah.
- No. She met a stewardess.Copy !req
321. Another stewardess!Copy !req
322. Hey, we were just looking for you.
This is Christy.Copy !req
323. Christy, Kerry.Copy !req
324. - Hi.
- Hello.Copy !req
325. - Christy and I were having coffee.
- I insisted that she bring me here.Copy !req
326. I'm sorry, but a bunch of us were
beginning to question your existence.Copy !req
327. We were thinking about having
dinner tonight. You game?Copy !req
328. I can't get off in time.
But thank you for asking.Copy !req
329. I checked your schedule.
You get off at 6.Copy !req
330. Don't worry. Nobody bites.Copy !req
331. Chief, can I get you to sign off
on this LOL? Head CT's clear.Copy !req
332. - 7:30?
- Okay.Copy !req
333. - Great. We'll see you then.
- Bye.Copy !req
334. That Legaspi's girlfriend?
I heard she's gay.Copy !req
335. I don't know.Copy !req
336. What I wouldn't pay to drop in
on that little party, huh?Copy !req
337. You turned me in?Copy !req
338. A guy from the medical board's
questioning my competency.Copy !req
339. - Don't walk away!
- I'm not.Copy !req
340. I don't wanna have this
conversation in the lobby.Copy !req
341. He wants to see my medical records.Copy !req
342. He's planning on interviewing the staff
to see if I'm fit to practice medicine.Copy !req
343. He can pull my license!Copy !req
344. I'm concerned about your personality
changes since the surgery.Copy !req
345. I tried to talk to you,
but you've chosen to ignore me.Copy !req
346. - So you call in the licensing board-?
- Keep your voice down.Copy !req
347. They cut a tumor out of my head.Copy !req
348. I'm sorry if I seem
a little different to you.Copy !req
349. I wouldn't come back to work
if I couldn't do the job.Copy !req
350. - What about the aphasia?
- It's getting better.Copy !req
351. If you couldn't think of the name
of the drug you wanted ordered...Copy !req
352. the nurses ask questions
while the patient dies?Copy !req
353. - Nobody's dying!
- You've been insensitive and argumentative.Copy !req
354. - I have not!
- You have been shooting from the hip.Copy !req
355. I'm not the only one
who's expressed concern.Copy !req
356. For the safety of the patients...Copy !req
357. I felt I had to call the board
for an objective assessment.Copy !req
358. I want you to pass,
so we can all get back to work...Copy !req
359. confident in your abilities. Okay?Copy !req
360. Rich people think if poor kids are
immunized, then they don't have to be.Copy !req
361. I thought it stopped snowing.Copy !req
362. If everybody stops
getting vaccines...Copy !req
363. then smallpox will be back,
polio, measles.Copy !req
364. Then they'll be lined up begging us...Copy !req
365. to stick a needle into little Annie's arm.Copy !req
366. Fifty-year-old male
with non-Hodgkin's lymphoma.Copy !req
367. Persistent nausea and vomiting
despite Compazine.Copy !req
368. BP's 88/58. Pulse, 130.Copy !req
369. Mucous membranes very dry.
Gave a liter of saline en route.Copy !req
370. He only finished the chemotherapy
last week. Is the cancer back?Copy !req
371. No. He's probably having
a reaction to the chemo.Copy !req
372. - How's the boy?
- Which one?Copy !req
373. The kid with the febrile seizure.Copy !req
374. - You brought him in?
- Couple hours ago.Copy !req
375. - They didn't call you?
- About?Copy !req
376. Measles. You drove an immunosuppressed
patient in the same rig?Copy !req
377. - What does that mean?
- Nobody told us!Copy !req
378. I'll need a CBC and a Chem-20.Copy !req
379. Watch your step.Copy !req
380. Excuse me.Copy !req
381. I need to review a file of an applicant
who wasn't given an interview.Copy !req
382. And you are?Copy !req
383. Peter Benton.
I'm the new director of diversity.Copy !req
384. - Lucky you. This year?
- Yeah.Copy !req
385. It'd be in the reject pile.
What's the name?Copy !req
386. White. William White.Copy !req
387. We had over 3000 applications
for 150 spots.Copy !req
388. Big pile.Copy !req
389. Director of diversity, huh?Copy !req
390. That position's a little quixotic
around here these days.Copy !req
391. My David wouldn't be with Morgan
Stanley without affirmative action.Copy !req
392. William Jackson White.Copy !req
393. Thank you.Copy !req
394. Excuse me. Do you keep files of
past candidates that were accepted?Copy !req
395. I need to compare them.Copy !req
396. Compare to last year's acceptances.
They're over there by graduating year.Copy !req
397. 2004 is on the right.Copy !req
398. Student Affairs.Copy !req
399. Fax it over.Copy !req
400. I'll be looking for it.Copy !req
401. Student Affairs.Copy !req
402. What are you doing out here?Copy !req
403. Just getting some air.Copy !req
404. What's the matter?Copy !req
405. - How's your bishop?
- He just left.Copy !req
406. That's good, right?Copy !req
407. He's having an acute lupus flare.
He left AMA.Copy !req
408. So go get him.Copy !req
409. Take some oxygen,
make sure he's okay.Copy !req
410. He knew what he was doing.
I'm not his keeper.Copy !req
411. - So this is you, huh?
- Yep.Copy !req
412. Could use a little something.
What is that back there?Copy !req
413. My room with a view.
Cafeteria kitchen.Copy !req
414. Vending machine only had
turkey and egg salad. No veggie.Copy !req
415. Thank you.Copy !req
416. Hear about our measles kid downstairs?Copy !req
417. Four years old, parents didn't vaccinate.Copy !req
418. - What's all this?
- Med school applications.Copy !req
419. Thinking about starting over?Copy !req
420. Is this your file?Copy !req
421. This black kid applied
and didn't get an interview.Copy !req
422. I went to Records to find out why
and found that.Copy !req
423. - Yeah? Anything interesting?
- Yeah. My file wasn't with the rest.Copy !req
424. It was in the back with three
others filed under AA.Copy !req
425. Affirmative Action.Copy !req
426. - That surprised you?
- Hell, yeah!Copy !req
427. Look, my grades were good.
My MCAT scores were competitive.Copy !req
428. Yeah, but when I compared it
to the other applicants...Copy !req
429. that were accepted that year,
I shouldn't have gotten in.Copy !req
430. You're an excellent physician.
They were right to let you in.Copy !req
431. Yeah?Copy !req
432. This is the kid's file that didn't
even get an interview this year.Copy !req
433. William White.Copy !req
434. His grades, his MCAT scores,
they're better than mine were.Copy !req
435. Bishop Stewart?Copy !req
436. Damn it!Copy !req
437. I'm okay.Copy !req
438. How long have you been
having trouble breathing?Copy !req
439. I'm just gathering my strength.Copy !req
440. You have to go to the hospital.Copy !req
441. It's pretty, isn't it?Copy !req
442. The snow.Copy !req
443. So much beauty.Copy !req
444. Where's the phone?
I need to call an ambulance.Copy !req
445. No. Please, I only need a minute.Copy !req
446. You're dying.Copy !req
447. Evidently.Copy !req
448. As I was sitting here, I was reminded
of the night I chose to become a priest.Copy !req
449. I'd been struggling with it
for a long time.Copy !req
450. Several years.Copy !req
451. Anyway, that night, I couldn't sleep.Copy !req
452. So I got up
and went out for a walk...Copy !req
453. in the woods
behind my father's house.Copy !req
454. It was snowing like it is now.
I don't have any idea how long I walked.Copy !req
455. At a certain point, I suddenly realized
I didn't know which way to go.Copy !req
456. I'd gotten lost. I was frightened.Copy !req
457. As I looked up
into that dark night...Copy !req
458. he came to me.Copy !req
459. I saw all those millions of snowflakes
drifting down toward me.Copy !req
460. So still.Copy !req
461. So peaceful.Copy !req
462. Perfect.Copy !req
463. And I was filled with the love
of our Lord Jesus Christ.Copy !req
464. Like pouring wine
into an empty glass.Copy !req
465. I'm afraid...Copy !req
466. I may have wasted my life.Copy !req
467. For some reason, I never
accomplished the things I should have.Copy !req
468. What God wanted of me.Copy !req
469. And now I'm frightened.Copy !req
470. I'm afraid of dying.Copy !req
471. There. I said it.Copy !req
472. I am afraid to die.Copy !req
473. You have to go to the hospital.Copy !req
474. The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want.Copy !req
475. He maketh me to lie down
in green pastures.Copy !req
476. He leadeth me
beside the still waters.Copy !req
477. Is he all right?Copy !req
478. - No.
- Yes.Copy !req
479. The procession is forming.Copy !req
480. What should I tell them?Copy !req
481. Tell them...Copy !req
482. I think I have to skip
the processional.Copy !req
483. When did you lose your faith?Copy !req
484. I've found with most people,
it comes and goes.Copy !req
485. Like intimacy in a relationship.Copy !req
486. Sometimes it's so strong,
a passion, rapture.Copy !req
487. And then at other times
it's impossible, distant, lost.Copy !req
488. But that's not God. That's us.Copy !req
489. We put up our own barriers
with our egos...Copy !req
490. and our pain.Copy !req
491. He's always there.Copy !req
492. No matter what.Copy !req
493. Bach.Copy !req
494. I love Bach.Copy !req
495. Well...Copy !req
496. that's my cue.Copy !req
497. So, Kevin, why do you
want to be a doctor?Copy !req
498. I've given that question
a great deal of thought.Copy !req
499. I think it all boils down to one thing:Copy !req
500. I really want to help people.Copy !req
501. My dad died of lung cancer...Copy !req
502. and I was 12.
I vowed I would work for a cure.Copy !req
503. My research in molecular biology
has been very rewarding.Copy !req
504. We'll see gene therapy
in our lifetime.Copy !req
505. I'm a people person.Copy !req
506. The bottom line is,
I really want to help people.Copy !req
507. I volunteered for the Pediatrics ward.
I'm very empathetic.Copy !req
508. When I saw my kitty suffering like that,
I knew that I had a calling.Copy !req
509. To help people in their time of need.Copy !req
510. You have to combine
humanistic skills-Copy !req
511. With a passion
for making a difference.Copy !req
512. I really just wanna help people.Copy !req
513. - I just wanna help people.
- I wanna help people.Copy !req
514. Help people.Copy !req
515. How dare you? Damn it, Kerry!
They sawed off half his skull.Copy !req
516. They inserted high-dosage chemotherapy
wafers into the empty cavity.Copy !req
517. It caused temporary swelling
right next to Broca's.Copy !req
518. Of course he had a little aphasia.
But that was six weeks ago.Copy !req
519. The swelling's gone down,
and he's back to normal.Copy !req
520. If anything, I find his honesty
rather refreshing.Copy !req
521. We could all do
with more candor here.Copy !req
522. Candidly speaking then, are you sure
that you can be objective about this?Copy !req
523. Of course I'm not objective!Copy !req
524. I've been with him every moment,
and I can tell you...Copy !req
525. he's making remarkable progress
and is no danger to anyone.Copy !req
526. Except perhaps easily threatened,
minor demigods.Copy !req
527. He may be endangering patients.Copy !req
528. I'm not unsympathetic
to his circumstances...Copy !req
529. but I have larger responsibilities.Copy !req
530. It's despicable, and you
should be ashamed of yourself.Copy !req
531. I hope that you end up with a
possibly fatal illness one day...Copy !req
532. so that I can do absolutely
nothing to help you.Copy !req
533. What was that about?Copy !req
534. Some days I really hate this job.Copy !req
535. Well, you, me and everyone else
around here. Are you ready?Copy !req
536. - Dinner?
- Right.Copy !req
537. Yes. I just have to drop this off.Copy !req
538. - You still got that leg lac in Sutures.
- I'm on it.Copy !req
539. - Get there by Easter, would you, please?
- Yeah, yeah.Copy !req
540. - Hey, Malik?
- Yeah?Copy !req
541. Is this the measles kid's
post-intubation film?Copy !req
542. Why didn't it go
to the PICU with him?Copy !req
543. - I'll take it up.
- No, I'll do it.Copy !req
544. I want to check on him anyway.Copy !req
545. Phi Beta Kappa, Yale.
GPA's 3.95.Copy !req
546. MCATs in the 97th percentile.Copy !req
547. - Yeah, sure.
- Peter?Copy !req
548. And Carpenter.
University of Georgia.Copy !req
549. Was this the geek in the Smashing
Pumpkins T-shirt, with the lisp?Copy !req
550. - Sarah. Redhead, glasses.
- Yeah. Right.Copy !req
551. GPA, 3.79. Ninety-fourth
percentile on the MCATs.Copy !req
552. - Finalist for the Falsberg Science Award.
- Whatever that is. We've got better.Copy !req
553. Peter?Copy !req
554. No.Copy !req
555. That's it. We are recommending two
to the full committee, rejecting 14.Copy !req
556. Great. I still might make it home
in time for SportsCenter.Copy !req
557. There is another candidate
I'd like to discuss.Copy !req
558. - William White.
- Who?Copy !req
559. His MCAT scores were
only in the 91st percentile...Copy !req
560. but his GPA was 3.80,
and he was class president.Copy !req
561. - I don't see him on the list.
- We didn't grant him an interview.Copy !req
562. I met with him today. He asked me
to reconsider his application.Copy !req
563. Oh, no. Is this that whiner
I told you to get rid of?Copy !req
564. - Where did he go to school?
- University of Illinois, Chicago.Copy !req
565. My gardener could have gotten
a 3.8 at the U of I...Copy !req
566. and his head was run over
by a truck as a kid.Copy !req
567. I went to the University of Illinois.Copy !req
568. His MCATs are well below
our admission standards.Copy !req
569. MCATs don't predict
how good a doctor you'll be.Copy !req
570. Just what you do
the first years of school.Copy !req
571. - This kid is bright. He's dedicated-
- He's black.Copy !req
572. - Yeah, he's black.
- Affirmative action's against the law.Copy !req
573. We didn't interview one black
or Latino candidate today.Copy !req
574. We have a colorblind policy. If he was
good enough, he would've been here.Copy !req
575. Minority kids don't have the same
access to academic opportunities.Copy !req
576. You want to address that...Copy !req
577. by advancing underqualified applicants
at the expense of our integrity and theirs?Copy !req
578. I want him to have an interview.Copy !req
579. Clear.Copy !req
580. - Still V-fib.
- What happened?Copy !req
581. Hypoxia, bradyed down to 20,
then he arrested.Copy !req
582. - Another round of epi.
- He's on PEEP?Copy !req
583. Maxed out, and his PO-2's
only 39 on 100 percent oxygen.Copy !req
584. - Charge to 50.
- Clear!Copy !req
585. Asystole.Copy !req
586. - How long has he been down?
- Forty minutes.Copy !req
587. He's had two rounds of atropine?Copy !req
588. Lidocaine, amiodarone and dopamine.
You got any other ideas?Copy !req
589. Hold compressions.Copy !req
590. Vicki is dating guys now,
and Carol is getting married to one.Copy !req
591. Both of these women marched...Copy !req
592. in every gay-pride parade
for the past 15 years.Copy !req
593. - I don't get it.
- I do.Copy !req
594. You get society's blessing,
your family's-Copy !req
595. Survivor benefits, tax breaks.Copy !req
596. And all you gotta do
is lay there a few times a week.Copy !req
597. I'm sorry.
We're not usually this bad.Copy !req
598. - It's okay.
- Hey...Copy !req
599. do you realize that everyone
at this table has slept with Kim?Copy !req
600. - Oh, my God!
- Cut it out, you guys.Copy !req
601. I bet she brought a U-Haul
on your second date, right?Copy !req
602. I don't understand.Copy !req
603. It's a lesbian joke. A bad one.Copy !req
604. Do you want another drink?Copy !req
605. Actually, I gotta go.
I have an early shift tomorrow.Copy !req
606. - Kerry-
- It was really...Copy !req
607. It was really nice to meet you both.Copy !req
608. - Wait. Are you upset?
- No.Copy !req
609. Well, why are you leaving, then?Copy !req
610. I don't belong here.
I don't belong here.Copy !req
611. I dated Christy in college.
Kate and I dated for maybe a month-Copy !req
612. It's not that. This isn't me.Copy !req
613. I mean, my experience,
the jokes, your friends.Copy !req
614. I'm... I care about you.Copy !req
615. I'm not interested
in adopting a lifestyle.Copy !req
616. Wow, I can't believe
you just said that.Copy !req
617. I'll call you later.Copy !req
618. Just drive.Copy !req
619. Dr. Kovac.Copy !req
620. I was helping him off
with his dolman.Copy !req
621. He was very short of breath,
and he just collapsed.Copy !req
622. Oh, God!Copy !req
623. Bishop Stewart, can you hear me?Copy !req
624. Call 911.Copy !req
625. Tell them we have a man
with impending respiratory arrest.Copy !req
626. Mark?Copy !req
627. Mark, you home?Copy !req
628. Mark?Copy !req
629. Mark.Copy !req
630. Are you okay?Copy !req
631. He recommended
formal competency testing.Copy !req
632. Psychiatrists, neuropsychologists,
MRI, personality tests...Copy !req
633. It's gonna take five days.Copy !req
634. I'm so sorry.Copy !req
635. The good times just keep coming.Copy !req
636. Luka?Copy !req
637. What are you doing?Copy !req
638. I couldn't find a forest.Copy !req
639. What?Copy !req
640. You brought Bishop Stewart back in?Copy !req
641. How's he doing?Copy !req
642. He's dying.Copy !req
643. He might surprise you.Copy !req
644. We get enough miracles around here.
Why not one more?Copy !req
645. I'm freezing.Copy !req
646. - Ready to go home?
- Yeah.Copy !req