1. I might have a little
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terrifying clown.
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this gimmick, Doink...
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person to do this."
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"You're gonna make this
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I mean, look what he did.
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What is that get ya?
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Matt was a very fitting name.
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in charge right now.
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But he was solid.
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the clown suit,
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generation wrestler with
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something to prove.
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that's right.
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as one of the WWF's
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and bad habits
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to haunt him.
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there in the real world.
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of professional wrestling.
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back, having a cigarette,
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whooped his ass, didn't I?"
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lining here.
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best of him and,
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different human being.
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he liked steroids,
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he was on crack.
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violent tendencies
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grease paint.
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about Doink the Clown
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fighting...
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a terrible person.
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that you don't have to
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have to get violent.
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Just be you.
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his tragic death
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looking for answers.
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that it was an accident.
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foul play.
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crowd in history, 1.2 million.
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of that many people, Tito.
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wasn't it?
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it was phenomenal.
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Oregon...
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good shape, himself,
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generation wrestler.
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to Steamboat, like,
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my dad just killed it, like,
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the way he hit the floor.
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that they beat each other up.
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is not done yet.
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to be famous.
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what he did,
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frickin' good at it.
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Doink The Clown.
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here he comes! Wow!
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the ring, he got him!
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in Ellwood City.
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fired from WWE.
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a lot, put it that way.
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met him, he's like,
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I'm like, "What,
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birthday parties, or...?"
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pro wrestler."
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that shit's all fake."
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it look so real to me.
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Matt Osborne...
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until his death.
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but we were friends.
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women that married him,
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for the money.
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this man, I really did.
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I was 21.
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were, wow, this guy's old.
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still good at it.
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influential...
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extension anyone who
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and liked it,
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work of Matt Borne.
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WWE champion,
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Hardcore Legend.
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colleague and friend of mine.
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hoped to one day be.
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play a character,
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yourself.
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wrestler that respect had
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his dad, "Tough" Tony Borne.
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being a Portland wrestler,
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"Tough" Tony Borne,
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knows who he is.
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his dad, actually,
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divorced when he was 10.
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day they split up.
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with your dad because
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little bastard."
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in Matt's head
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the day he died.
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him, and passion in him.
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to the Incredible Hulk, yes.
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just my dad.
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He was just thick.
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His neck was thick.
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dad was just bigger.
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dad's legacy helped or
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pretty big name to live up to.
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the child of a wrestler.
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dad and his dad.
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and Matt Borne.
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no longer here, but...
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where you laid it in,
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people believe.
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work in the ring.
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mind is, "Whirling Dervish".
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constant motion.
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Matt's father had
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making Matt tough.
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and I first met
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the early 1980s.
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grown up there.
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through his father,
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even more insane.
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from his dad,
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than I am of mine.
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regional territories.
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everywhere he did,
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in Portland.
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Matt Borne!
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did not get along.
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in my opinion.
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"Hacksaw" Jim Duggan!
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age of wrestling!
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a snake pit of tough guys.
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tags were pretty big.
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really, really hot.
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the Von Erichs were hot.
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put together a six-man tag,
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second generation guys with
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he obviously saw something
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those guys who were
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established...
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The Rat Pack.
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all for one.
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you're throwing punches,
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You're getting potato'd.
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incredible performers,
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chance against us.
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a lot going for him,
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aggressive wrestler-
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through reputation.
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B. Brian Blair,
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wrestler.
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Portland territory,
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all I knew about Matt,
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full of the boys.
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Matt Borne now-
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and he comes up to me and
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messing with my girl?"
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and I said,
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with your girl, Matt.
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a little, you know,
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you know, just...
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establish himself on.
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around and, boom,
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and he goes to suplex me,
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I turned in mid-air and
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on top of Matt,
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he's pulling my head down.
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I can still see his teeth,
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ready to bite my nose.
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to bite my nose,
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so I went down and bit
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and spit his lip off.
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and you know,
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he's like a zombie.
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he comes back,
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really good this time.
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I don't know.
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all the way live.
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now and people are
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they're laughing and,
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jumps on me again.
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drag him towards the door,
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somehow and I fell forward.
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I felt him on my back
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reaching for my eyeball.
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right at the doorway and,
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hand and said,
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my eyeball out.
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electricity.
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over the place-
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from his mouth.
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outside the ring is already
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with his coworkers,
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will bring his time in
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get in there and
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in the teeth.
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been well schooled.
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coming out of the ring.
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I'm jacked up,
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bench, I'm blown up.
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and steam and sweat,
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out of the ring,
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the crowd- Boom!
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We were bad guys.
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back then, brother.
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you know. Boom!
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guy right back.
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I kept on going.
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Matt put a boot to him.
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orbital lobe.
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his eyeball fell out."
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altercation with
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he sued me.
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he sued the company.
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"Did you go to jail?"
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get in trouble at all."
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Duggan was kept.
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on Matt's side.
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Mid-South under a cloud,
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into his contract,
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this time, for drug use.
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ever was sober.
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snorting coke.
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his day smoking weed.
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if he had 'em.
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go out and drink.
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lead to this.
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again as he's hired by
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Championship Wrestling,
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by his northwest roots.
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a lumberjack.
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but yet, in a sweet way.
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am Matt Borne's ex-wife,
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and we were at a match.
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one of the security guys out
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wanted to meet me.
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he introduced himself,
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and I out for a drink.
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he was...
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to move down.
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job and I moved.
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"I want the whole thing.
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things like that."
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in the hospital,
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in at 10:30 in the morning.
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and never came home.
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my daughter was born-
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Vince McMahon.
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another opportunity
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sense because Hawk,
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looking at Matt 'cause Matt,
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cigarette after his match,
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his hair all a mess
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and is like,
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pretty good.
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is concerned, knowing holds,
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and what have you,
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with the best of 'em.
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having fun!
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that's all that matters!
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character he ever did.
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He looked scary,
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goofy teddy bear.
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I don't think that's Doink,
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my environment.
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into this gimmick.
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Doink The Clown pops up.
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405. They beat the shit out
of Crush at the end,
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406. and I'm like,
holy shit, like,
Copy !req
407. that came out
of nowhere.
Copy !req
408. And then they
did the mirror.
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409. He felt like, he don't
know why Vince did that.
Copy !req
410. He felt like he was
being set up for failure.
Copy !req
411. And then he was right.
He called it.
Copy !req
412. As Doink The Clown rules
the WrestleMania ring,
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Matt Borne will soon
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414. bring his turn in the
spotlight to an end,
Copy !req
415. even as Doink lives on.
Copy !req
416. As Matt Borne enjoys the
highest levels of
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threaten to destroy
Copy !req
418. everything he's
worked to create.
Copy !req
419. There were times when he
would take off, go somewhere.
Copy !req
420. Didn't see him for
three or four days.
Copy !req
421. It happened a lot.
Copy !req
422. He was fired
for drug abuse.
Copy !req
423. He tested dirty and
Vince let him go.
Copy !req
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everyone else
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425. except himself
for that, but...
Copy !req
426. I, I wasn't surprised.
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427. As he would tell it,
he lost his job and
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428. I left him because
he no longer had his job,
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429. but that wasn't
the case.
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430. He started to get really...
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431. angry, and drank
a lot more.
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432. Seemed to be going
out a lot more.
Copy !req
433. And, I did know he was
doing, doing a lot of coke.
Copy !req
434. He became very physically
abusive to me...
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435. and my daughter.
Copy !req
436. He was sitting on the couch-
he was a smoker,
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437. and he was just complaining
and bitching and, you know,
Copy !req
438. about this and that, and then
he would just take cigarettes
Copy !req
439. and he was throwing these
cigarettes, lit cigarettes,
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440. at me, you know, and...
Copy !req
441. came over and he grabbed me
and pulled me off the chair-
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in my arms.
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443. She was only a
couple months old.
Copy !req
444. She went flying,
and that's when I knew,
Copy !req
445. I can't do this, and I
can't do this to her.
Copy !req
446. And, I packed her up,
both on our back.
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447. One bag,
and drove off.
Copy !req
448. I tell people the story
and they're like,
Copy !req
449. "What? Really?
You were what?
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450. You were married to who?"
A lot of people,
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451. when you tell them that,
they're impressed.
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452. And it's like, no,
don't be impressed.
Copy !req
453. It's not a good story.
Not a good story at all.
Copy !req
454. I mean,
he literally had a
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455. million-dollar home
being built.
Copy !req
456. They had just
moved into it.
Copy !req
457. He had his bathtub engraved
with 18-karat gold, "Doink".
Copy !req
458. He was still proud of Doink,
but he really struggled.
Copy !req
459. At the end of the day, I know
deep down it killed him
Copy !req
460. because he knew
he was good,
Copy !req
461. and it got fucked up
over drugs.
Copy !req
462. The day he went home,
as he got fired,
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eight days straight and did
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hallucinating because
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everything he just gained.
Copy !req
466. Though Matt Borne
has been fired,
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467. the character of
Doink The Clown
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468. makes his return at the
very next show.
Copy !req
469. Only this time, there's
another wrestler
Copy !req
470. under the grease paint.
Copy !req
471. A character cannot usually
be readily replaced.
Copy !req
472. But in this case, I think the
sentiment was he's a clown.
Copy !req
473. We'll put someone else in
the exact same makeup,
Copy !req
474. and it was successful as
portrayed by Steve Keirn,
Copy !req
475. and later by Ray Apollo.
Copy !req
476. But it was, ah, it was never
as good as it was
Copy !req
477. when Matt wore the paint.
Copy !req
478. They figured since Steve
did this with Matt,
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479. that maybe he
could pull it off.
Copy !req
480. Then they brought Dink,
Copy !req
481. 'cause they were trying
to keep it alive.
Copy !req
482. I mean, Doink The Clown
and Dink,
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483. they were mainstays.
Copy !req
484. You can stick anybody
in a Doink suit,
Copy !req
485. and it's a great
character that way.
Copy !req
486. So, Matt came and gone,
and a lot of folks
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487. don't even realize he
came and gone.
Copy !req
488. And that's
when he went...
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489. way down.
Copy !req
490. How he came to Ellwood City,
I don't know 'cause
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491. it's such a small town,
but it was meant to be.
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492. That's where
he met my mom.
Copy !req
493. He worked for the
telemarketing company
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494. right around the corner.
Copy !req
495. He went from a millionaire
to us, you know,
Copy !req
496. like just making a
weekly cheque and...
Copy !req
497. it didn't work
with him up there.
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498. He had some issues,
you know,
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499. with his alcohol
and his drug addiction,
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500. which he didn't do
in front of me,
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501. but I still knew there
was something
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502. weird about him, right.
Copy !req
503. You know, he paid the rent,
he paid the bills.
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504. He didn't want me working,
he didn't want me socializing.
Copy !req
505. Not too many men talked
to me, put it that way.
Copy !req
506. And that's the way
Matt wanted it.
Copy !req
507. He knew what
he was doing.
Copy !req
508. One night we were at a bar,
and my ex-boyfriend ended up
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509. walking in and came up and
spit on me for some reason.
Copy !req
510. And I saw Matt
coming at him,
Copy !req
511. and I'm like, "Dude,
you need to run."
Copy !req
512. Well, Matt picked him up
by his earlobes.
Copy !req
513. Legit, earlobes,
off the ground.
Copy !req
514. And was screaming
in his face,
Copy !req
515. spitting all over him
'cause he didn't have
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516. his two teeth here.
Copy !req
517. The guy went out,
got in his car.
Copy !req
518. Matt had the back of
his car lifted up.
Copy !req
519. The two wheels off the
ground, spinning like crazy.
Copy !req
520. And he's holding
the car there.
Copy !req
521. And the cops came.
Copy !req
522. They maced him,
tased him.
Copy !req
523. I'm like, "Might want to
shoot him in the leg.
Copy !req
524. He's not gonna stop." So then
they put him in jail and,
Copy !req
525. he kept telling 'em, "Take
your badge and your guns off,
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And that's when
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527. he ripped the sink out
in the jail cell.
Copy !req
528. Like, literally ripped it
out of its plumbing.
Copy !req
529. Stripped of the beloved
character he brought to life,
Copy !req
530. Matt returns to the
wrestling business,
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531. but the business
has changed.
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532. Nobody wanted
Maniac Matt Borne.
Copy !req
533. Nobody wanted Big Josh
the lumberjack.
Copy !req
534. They all wanted Doink.
Copy !req
535. I mean, he still
had the costume,
Copy !req
536. and he knew how to
put the makeup on.
Copy !req
537. He could do it himself.
Copy !req
538. Matt even takes his Doink
character to the last place
Copy !req
539. anyone would expect a clown,
the violent renegade company
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Championship Wrestling.
Copy !req
541. This is ECW!
Copy !req
542. That clown is in
the wrong place.
Copy !req
543. I was in ECW when
Matt Borne came in.
Copy !req
544. And it was effective
because on the surface,
Copy !req
545. ECW fans hated it because
it was Doink The Clown.
Copy !req
546. This is ECW!
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547. But underneath that hatred,
there was that level of
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548. respect because
he was Matt Borne.
Copy !req
549. How does it feel
to live in my hell?
Copy !req
550. I think the Borne Again
gimmick was half clown,
Copy !req
551. half Matt Borne.
Copy !req
552. Vince McMahon found out
he was on all these
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553. independent
promoters' cards-
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554. 'cause it was his
copyright, it was.
Copy !req
555. So, Vince McMahon
sent legal papers.
Copy !req
556. Midwest Territorial
Wrestling!
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557. Ha-ha!
It's the best!
Copy !req
558. Ooh-ooh!
Copy !req
559. So, Vince was like,
"Alright, that's fair.
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560. But you can't use Doink,
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561. and you get your residuals
every month."
Copy !req
562. As Matt struggles to
rebuild his career,
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563. his home life is upended
by the arrival of
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564. two more children.
Copy !req
565. I can remember when
Tegan was born.
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566. He looked at her and he
looked at me, and he said,
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567. "She's gonna be
something someday."
Copy !req
568. And he adored her.
Copy !req
569. And of course, his boy,
my son, Matthew,
Copy !req
570. he adored him too.
Copy !req
571. Because that was
his second chance.
Copy !req
572. He had two other kids.
Copy !req
573. He didn't get to see them,
he didn't get to raise them.
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574. But me and him, when we
ended up having two kids,
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575. they were his life.
Copy !req
576. I just try to remember
the good times.
Copy !req
577. And when he was clean,
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578. he was a completely
different human being.
Copy !req
579. I mean, he was
so put together,
Copy !req
580. has nothing
negative to say.
Copy !req
581. I mean,
he was my dad.
Copy !req
582. I think he thought, "I gotta
bring myself back because
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583. I'm not myself anymore."
Copy !req
584. Like, "I'm a wrestler,
that's what I do."
Copy !req
585. Though striving to reclaim
his glory in the wrestling
Copy !req
586. industry, Matt's battles
with addiction continue to
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587. threaten his aspirations.
Copy !req
588. Though Matt struggles to be
a good father and family man,
Copy !req
589. his ongoing issues with
drugs and alcohol
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590. make him unpredictable
and dangerous.
Copy !req
591. He went and got
clean a few times,
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592. and I stood by his
side the whole time,
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593. because everybody else
just washed him away
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594. like he was nothing.
Copy !req
595. If he was on too much
drugs or too much alcohol,
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596. he would just get very
violent, mean, and be crazy.
Copy !req
597. I could be upstairs sleeping
with my son, he'd be like,
Copy !req
598. "Why were you out tonight
with so-and-so?"
Copy !req
599. I'm like, "What?" I thought,
this guy needs help.
Copy !req
600. Like, I just can't turn
my back on him.
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601. He got me one time,
super good.
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602. He went to the gym-
he would go to the gym
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603. for like two,
three hours a day.
Copy !req
604. So, I was just reading the
newspaper on our couch.
Copy !req
605. He walked up the steps,
Copy !req
606. accused me of
cheating on him.
Copy !req
607. The next I know,
I'm in the hospital.
Copy !req
608. He beat me up real good.
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609. I couldn't see for two weeks.
Copy !req
610. My eyeballs were shut,
he broke my nose.
Copy !req
611. And yes, you're
probably gonna say,
Copy !req
612. "Why did you go
back with him?"
Copy !req
613. Down in my heart, like the
next day he saw me-
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he was like,
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615. "What happened
to your face?
Copy !req
616. Did I do that?" He literally
don't remember any of it.
Copy !req
617. He said, "I am truly,
truly sorry."
Copy !req
618. And I forgave him.
Copy !req
619. As Matt's drug use
becomes even more extreme,
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620. his downward
spiral intensifies.
Copy !req
621. Him and my mom fought.
Copy !req
622. You know,
he loved to drink.
Copy !req
623. And when he drank, he said
some really Fd up shit.
Copy !req
624. Finally, one day,
I don't know what it was...
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625. I grabbed both
their hands, I said,
Copy !req
626. "Matt, I can't
do this anymore.
Copy !req
627. I have been here through
thick and thin with you."
Copy !req
628. I said, "I'm not taking
anything with me.
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629. I am done."
Copy !req
630. She hurried up,
packed the bag.
Copy !req
631. She was scared. I remember
her being so scared.
Copy !req
632. And I walked out the door
and he didn't come after me,
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633. 'cause I thought
he was going to.
Copy !req
634. I thought, Jesus, if this
is gonna be the day,
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635. he's gonna kill me.
Copy !req
636. And he went, "I understand,"
and he let me go.
Copy !req
637. It takes a lot of balls to
leave somebody like that when
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638. they don't have the ability
to get clean or get better.
Copy !req
639. Strung out and landing
at rock bottom,
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640. Matt's behaviour in the
ring becomes as
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641. unpredictable as his
behaviour at home.
Copy !req
642. When Matt didn't like you,
it was a wrap.
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643. And he's not gonna
let it go, like,
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644. he's that type of person
to not let anything go.
Copy !req
645. We were up in White
Plains, New York.
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646. I look at the board and
I'm working with Matt.
Copy !req
647. I go, "Cool," you know,
"Hey, Matt, how's it going?"
Copy !req
648. He goes, "Well,
Hacksaw,
Copy !req
649. how about I come out,
I hit you with a chair?
Copy !req
650. You hit me with a 2x4."
I'm like,
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651. "Matt, there's 100 people
out there, brother.
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652. I'll come out,
I'll cheer USA,
Copy !req
653. we'll have a nice
walk and talk."
Copy !req
654. Jim had something he did that
was, and still is, effective.
Copy !req
655. And Matt wanted more.
Copy !req
656. It just so happens that
my opponent tonight,
Copy !req
657. we go way, way,
way, way back.
Copy !req
658. Long story short,
we're in the ring,
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659. and he gave me
a nut shot.
Copy !req
660. Alright, gentlemen!
Copy !req
661. Tried to hurt me.
Copy !req
662. Hacksaw's going to work!
Copy !req
663. It's a shoot.
Copy !req
664. So I rolled up,
I pushed him in the corner.
Copy !req
665. And I'm asking him,
"Do you wanna work
Copy !req
666. or you wanna shoot,
brother?"
Copy !req
667. Let's go!
You wanna work?
Copy !req
668. - Wanna fight?
- You want to work?
Copy !req
669. He rolls out of the ring
and grabs a chair.
Copy !req
670. I got my 2x4, so I tell the
referee, I said, you know,
Copy !req
671. "Tell him we'll finish it in
the dressing room
Copy !req
672. like you're supposed to do."
Copy !req
673. So, I wait, and I wait,
and I wait, no Matt.
Copy !req
674. He came out of the ring,
went right out the fire exit,
Copy !req
675. got in his car and left.
Copy !req
676. It was a
pre-planned attack.
Copy !req
677. You have to make
a real attempt
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Jim Duggan.
Copy !req
679. He's not a divisive
personality in our business,
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680. like everybody likes...
Copy !req
681. Jim Duggan,
like...
Copy !req
682. You know, for him to make
that move, what, 30 years?
Copy !req
683. After the incident.
Copy !req
684. That's carrying a grudge.
Copy !req
685. By 2013, Matt has
moved to Plano, Texas,
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686. where he lives with
a new girlfriend.
Copy !req
687. I met Matt in
1988, '89.
Copy !req
688. And, I was actually
Mean Nurse Kratchet.
Copy !req
689. Here comes Nurse Kratchet.
Copy !req
690. So, I would just, you know,
bing him with my bed pan,
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691. knock him out.
Copy !req
692. Hi, my name is
Connie Cook,
Copy !req
693. and I was Matt Borne's
girlfriend.
Copy !req
694. He was crazy,
I was crazy.
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695. And, we just hit it off.
Copy !req
696. 2011, he found me
on Facebook.
Copy !req
697. Then he just never
left my side.
Copy !req
698. I loved him and, I wanted
to make it work.
Copy !req
699. That's why I
moved to Texas.
Copy !req
700. Some days it was good.
Some days it wasn't.
Copy !req
701. After I moved to Texas, I was
stressing about my mom.
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702. She was very sick.
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703. And he took care
of my mom.
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704. He'd cook for her, he gave
her her medicine.
Copy !req
705. I knew he had my back and,
I definitely had his.
Copy !req
706. It was June of 2013.
Copy !req
707. And, I was getting up
for softball practice.
Copy !req
708. My mom texts me and said,
"I think your dad's dead".
Copy !req
709. 'Cause we saw it on TMZ.
Copy !req
710. My mom said she
called my dad's cellphone,
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711. and Connie
answered the phone.
Copy !req
712. She was like crying
hysterically.
Copy !req
713. My mom said, "What the
fuck happened, Connie?"
Copy !req
714. I say, "Connie, do not
tell me he's dead."
Copy !req
715. I know Connie
killed my dad.
Copy !req
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that she did it.
Copy !req
717. She took him away from me,
and I hate her for it.
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Michelle and Tegan
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719. are shocked to learn that
Matt has passed,
Copy !req
720. tragic news confirmed
by a phone call
Copy !req
721. with Matt's girlfriend,
Connie Cook.
Copy !req
722. I said, "Okay, so,
like what happened?"
Copy !req
723. She goes, "Well, he stole
all my mom's drugs."
Copy !req
724. And she said,
"Yeah, he's dead."
Copy !req
725. And I'm thinking,
"Oh, my God,
Copy !req
726. this wasn't in the cards.
Copy !req
727. How am I supposed to take
care of these kids?" Right?
Copy !req
728. They were
12 and 15.
Copy !req
729. Sorry, getting
emotional.
Copy !req
730. But, it changed everything
in our lives, everything.
Copy !req
731. The night before
my dad died,
Copy !req
732. my mom was on the
phone with him,
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733. and he said, "Michelle,
I called you because
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734. I'm leaving Connie."
Copy !req
735. He went, "I told the crazy
bitch I'm leaving her."
Copy !req
736. I said,
"Oh, Jesus Christ!"
Copy !req
737. We giggled, and then he
went, "Well, you know what,
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738. if anything does happen
to me, Michelle,
Copy !req
739. don't let it go."
I said,
Copy !req
740. "Matt, what are
you talking about?
Copy !req
741. Why would you say that?"
Copy !req
742. He went, "Seriously,
just don't let it go."
Copy !req
743. The day that all
this happened,
Copy !req
744. he was moaning
in the kitchen.
Copy !req
745. And I was like, "What is
wrong with you?"Nothing."
Copy !req
746. So, then, he does it again,
moans again.
Copy !req
747. And so he turned around
and falls to his knee,
Copy !req
748. and he grabbed my hand,
he goes, "Marry me."
Copy !req
749. I said, "Oh, my God,
Copy !req
750. you're really on my
nerve right now."
Copy !req
751. I think he may have been
having a heart attack and
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752. he just wouldn't tell me.
Copy !req
753. And he wore glasses,
and so he was like,
Copy !req
754. "Connie, I can't
find my glasses."
Copy !req
755. So, I go retrace
his steps-
Copy !req
756. kitchen, my mom's
bedroom.
Copy !req
757. Well, I noticed that one of
the bottles was moved.
Copy !req
758. And I was like, "Matt,
that medicine
Copy !req
759. is from hospice."
I was like,
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760. "We're gonna be
in trouble if you don't
Copy !req
761. tell me where those are."
And he said to me,
Copy !req
762. "Well, I guess I'll just go
to jail." And I was like,
Copy !req
763. "That's just crazy."
Copy !req
764. So, I go to bed and,
later on,
Copy !req
765. I don't even know
what time it was,
Copy !req
766. I hear somebody
beating on the door.
Copy !req
767. And, there's a
girl at the door.
Copy !req
768. She was like, "My brothers
found your husband
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769. laying on the
ground outside.
Copy !req
770. They think he's dead."
Copy !req
771. It was like a gated community
kind of place where everybody
Copy !req
772. could see everything that's
going on in your life.
Copy !req
773. And, there was witnesses.
Copy !req
774. They saw him.
He was stumbling,
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775. falling over air
conditioners.
Copy !req
776. He was bruised.
Copy !req
777. So, I heard sirens,
and I was like,
Copy !req
778. "Matt, you need to get up
because I think
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779. someone's called the police
on you for being drunk
Copy !req
780. out here because they said
you were on the ground."
Copy !req
781. So, we get him
to his feet,
Copy !req
782. we set him down in the
recliner by the door.
Copy !req
783. At that time, I didn't
know he was OD'ing.
Copy !req
784. Well, I went in
and got in the bed,
Copy !req
785. and I could hear
him snoring.
Copy !req
786. So, I didn't think anything
was wrong with him
Copy !req
787. 'cause he snored.
Copy !req
788. You were watching
him overdose,
Copy !req
789. and you did nothing!
Copy !req
790. If you saw someone puking
in their mouth and
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791. gagging on it,
wouldn't you think
Copy !req
792. there was
something wrong?
Copy !req
793. According to Plano
police reports,
Copy !req
794. on the morning Matt died,
Connie awoke at 6:30 AM and
Copy !req
795. saw Matt gurgling and
foaming at the mouth.
Copy !req
796. After calling her friend,
Connie went back to bed.
Copy !req
797. At 9 AM, two and a half hours
after she first woke up,
Copy !req
798. Connie called 9-1-1.
Copy !req
799. That was like early
in the morning.
Copy !req
800. My alarm usually went
off 6 o'clock, 6:30.
Copy !req
801. I heard him all
night snoring,
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802. but when I came
out the bedroom,
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803. there's something
coming out of his nose,
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804. and so I grabbed the rag
and I was like,
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805. "Hey, what-
you need to get up.
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806. That's nasty." And he was
making a different noise.
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807. And so, I called my
friend in Tennessee,
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808. and I leaned over the
counter and was
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809. trying to let
her listen to it.
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810. And I said, "Do you
hear that?" She said,
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811. "Connie, that's a death
rattle." She was like,
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812. "Hang up right now
and call 9-1-1."
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813. It's not like I just left
him sitting there.
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814. I mean, it might have
been 5 minutes until
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815. I called my friend.
I didn't go back to bed.
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816. No, they have that wrong.
I didn't go back to bed.
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817. As soon as I hung up talking
to her, I called 9-1-1.
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818. And they snatched him up
and put him on the gurney,
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819. trying to get the
thing down his throat,
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820. and they were like,
"We gotta go now."
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821. I mean, dude was on top
of him, pounding on him.
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822. I'm just like- now I'm
really freaking out.
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823. And then, the detective
came in and
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824. I told her what I knew.
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825. We went in the room,
she found the bottle.
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826. I think there was maybe 30
missing out of the bottle,
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827. so I don't know how many
he actually had taken.
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828. And so, I left and went
to the hospital, and...
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829. went and saw him,
and...
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830. So, I'm screaming at
Matt to get up.
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831. And then they were trying
to make me leave.
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832. And I literally wouldn't
leave the room
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833. because they were trying
to put him in the dark,
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834. and Matt hated the dark.
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835. Overdose of hydrocodone
and morphine.
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836. And an enlarged heart.
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837. Connie believes Matt's heart
issues were a secret
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838. he had kept for a
very long time.
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839. When he was in WWF,
he went to the hospital
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840. 'cause he was having,
I guess, chest pains.
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841. And so, they hooked him
up to a EKG machine.
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842. I think they wanted to do
something, but Matt never did.
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843. And then, when he
passed away,
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844. I called the coroner's
office to find out exactly,
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845. you know,
what they found out.
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846. His heart was six times the
normal size, and I was like,
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847. "What does that mean?"
They were like,
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848. "Substance abuse, stress."
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849. I think he
worried about it,
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850. but he just didn't
tell nobody about it.
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851. I called the ambulance when
I realized that there was
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852. something wrong with him.
I did everything to help him.
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853. With his backstory,
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854. he has a track record for
being on drugs.
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855. On his death certificate
it was accidental overdose.
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856. Of course, it's easy
to put that down
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857. because of who he was.
But, no.
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858. When I hung up with him,
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859. she was about to bring
him out a drink.
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860. He probably got
a thing of Crown.
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861. She mixed some liquid
morphine in there and
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862. he's probably fucked up
out of his mind and,
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863. he sat on the recliner.
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864. He laid there and
died all night.
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865. He was foaming
out the mouth.
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866. I'm confused.
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867. Why'd you wait all
night to call 9-1-1?
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868. There was foul play.
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869. I'm just, I'm just
flabbergasted that
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870. someone would even
think that of me.
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871. I feel horrible!
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872. I'm horrified that that
child would think that.
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873. The allegations are crazy.
They're not true.
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874. I did not kill him. I did not
put anything in his drink.
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875. I love him. I still
love him to this day!
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876. And still wish
that he was here.
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877. Why would I want
to kill him?
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878. And if it meant me dying and
leaving here for him
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879. to be alive, I would be dead,
and he would be here.
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880. An investigation by the
Plano Police Department
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881. found no evidence of any
criminal conduct,
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882. no evidence that Matt Borne
was deliberately drugged with
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883. liquid morphine
by Connie Cook,
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884. and no evidence of
negligence in her
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885. response to
Matt Borne's overdose.
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886. On June 28th, 2013,
Matt Borne,
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887. known to wrestling fans
as Doink The Clown, dies.
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888. According to the autopsy,
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889. it was from an
overdose of opiates.
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890. I remember that
day very vividly,
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891. going into that
funeral home and...
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892. my brother, like, that was
his first funeral ever.
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893. He was like, "Why is he
so cold?" And, I lost it.
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894. I mean it was-
that was really tough.
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895. The worst thing of all this
was watching them
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896. to look over their
dad in that casket.
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897. And there was nothing I
could do- a hug, a kiss,
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898. nothing- that I could
take away their pain.
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899. You know, I'm not
gonna lie to you.
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900. It's been,
it's been terrible.
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901. I mean, I struggled with
depression for a little bit.
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902. I lost a lot of friends.
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903. And I kind of felt like
my dad in that moment,
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904. now that I look back at it,
he lost so many people
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905. because of his actions,
and it was like, damn,
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906. now I know how
this dude felt.
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907. No wonder why
he did drugs,
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908. 'cause he felt
like shit all the time.
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909. I heard comments that people
have made about me, you know,
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910. that the reason I got Doink
over is because I'm a sick
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911. motherfucker that needs
some serious help.
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912. There's times I think
that too, you know,
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913. but who isn't, you know?
I mean, come on.
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914. I'm not getting into the
ring with some jabroni that
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915. puts on some clown outfit
and calls himself Doink.
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916. It's Matt Borne.
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917. Matt lived fast
and hard, and so,
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918. it did not come as a shock
when I learned that
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919. Matt had passed.
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920. He seemed to have a
lot going for him.
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921. Come on, tough guy!
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922. But ultimately,
Matt's biggest adversary
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923. was not a wrestler,
but his demons,
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924. from a substance standpoint,
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925. and the temperament
issue he struggled with.
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926. His legacy is of a guy who
willingly gave more to the
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927. wrestling business
than it gave back.
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928. - Yeah!
- Oh!
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929. And a guy whose weaknesses
were exploited by
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930. the nature of the beast-
constant travel,
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931. the strain on relationships,
the pain involved that
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932. opens the door
to medication.
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933. Matt Borne meant a
lot to wrestling,
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934. and to anyone who
saw Matt at his best,
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935. which was not in the
national spotlight,
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936. but in those
regional territories.
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937. And Borne throws him back!
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938. He connected, and he
made a difference.
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939. This picture is actually
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940. two weeks before
Matt passed,
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941. with his son, Matthew,
at the airport, leaving.
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942. Very sad.
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943. Yeah, Matthew was always
sad when Dad left.
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944. Yeah, it tore him up.
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945. This picture's one of my
favourites 'cause it's one of
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946. the last I got with him. But
this picture, he was like,
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947. "Come on, Tee, we gotta get
one picture before I leave."
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948. And I'm like, "Alright."
This is one of my favourites.
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949. And his big hand's
back there too.
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950. It looks like a spider,
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951. but it's Dad's huge-ass
hand, so...
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952. Sad to see him go.
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953. This is all we
have left of him.
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954. Yeah.
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955. We all have these
troubled souls.
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956. We're all troubled souls,
if we look at it honestly.
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957. But Matt had,
had talent.
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958. Matt had a legacy.
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959. He made Doink The Clown
bigger than it
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960. ever should have been,
in my opinion.
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961. And, that gets covered up by
some of his transgressions
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962. outside of the ring.
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963. From time to time, when
Matt had a few drinks,
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964. he would open up
about the pain of...
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965. being an absentee dad.
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966. And I really think
that bothered Matt.
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967. Yeah, he had a lot of
regrets about marriages,
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968. about his kids.
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969. And I seen that,
firsthand.
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970. I never gave up on him
through all that bad stuff
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971. we did go through.
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972. I knew he was
a good person.
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973. The horrible things that my
kids read about their dad,
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974. oh, just, "Doink
was a drug addict,
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975. he was a piece of shit,
washed up wrestler,"
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976. that he was not that.
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977. Yes, he did do his
share of drugs,
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978. and he did make mistakes just
like every other human being.
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979. But, I just want people
to know that
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980. that's not what he was.
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981. I want him to be remembered
as a great father.
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982. He wanted to raise
those two kids.
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983. I miss him,
not gonna lie.
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984. But they miss him way more.
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985. One thing my mom always
told me, she's like,
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986. "Well, Tegan, when you
were born, your dad said,
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987. 'She's gonna be
something someday'."
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988. And every time
my mom says that,
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989. it makes me feel like he's
still here a little bit,
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990. and I'm like,
I mean, I'm not no
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991. Doink The Clown,
I'm not no famous wrestler,
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992. but when I graduated college,
I graduated with almost a 4.0.
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993. I graduated
magna cum laude.
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994. Took these CPA exams
that were so hard,
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995. and got a job right
out of college.
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996. I'm a certified
public accountant.
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997. And then you just get the
little negative part where
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998. I'm like, damn, like,
he should be here.
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999. We had our little
rough patches.
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1000. We butted heads, and now
that I'm getting older,
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1001. I realize we butted heads
so much because
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1002. we were so much alike.
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1003. And now I wish I could just
say, "You know what, Dad,
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1004. I'm sorry." Wasn't perfect,
but he was my dad, so...
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