Crazy Ex-Girlfriend 4x17

1. Happy Valentine's Day!

2. Oh...

3. Okay.

4. - You ready? - Yeah.

5. I'm so excited, Paula.

6. I just... I know I'm making the right decision.

7. You're gonna share your true love with the whole world.

8. And it doesn't get any bigger than that.

9. Come on, we're late, and they're waiting for us.

10. - Okay. - Okay.

11. Man, leave it to Rebecca

12. to make a big production out of everything.

13. Whatever.

14. I'm just glad I don't have to spend Valentine's Day

15. with my wife.

16. I think it's exciting and romantic.

17. I love a big reveal.

18. Like, check this out.

19. Ah. Oh, solid.

20. I thought there were sleeves there.

21. Okay, this is real, this is real.

22. Ah...

23. my heart is beating so quickly.

24. Okay, listen, you can do this.

25. I will be right here,

26. and if you get nervous, you look at me. Okay?

27. Okay.

28. And hey,

29. enjoy this moment.

30. It took a long time to get here.

31. Yeah.

32. Yeah, it did.

33. Ooh, thank you so much for seeing me on such short notice

34. and first thing in the morning.

35. I keep my Valentine's Days open for walk-ins.

36. Bigtrigger day.

37. Yeah, so, I'm in a bit of a panic, Dr. Akopes.

38. Uh, I went on three dates with three guys,

39. and I have no clarity on the situation.

40. It's killing me. I'm not eating,

41. I'm not sleeping, and those are usually my two best events.

42. I just, I have to pick a guy by the end of Valentine's Day,

43. and, uh, that's today.

44. Okay, Rebecca, I hear you...

45. and I think I have the answer.

46. An answer?

47. Mm-hmm.

48. Oh, thank God. You usually want me

49. to figure things out on my own,

50. which I think is such a waste of money.

51. Not today.

52. Today I have a wonderful treatment for you.

53. A treatment?

54. - Is it another pill? - Nope.

55. I'm gonna show you your future.

56. - Oh, you're not Dr. Akopian. - Mm-mmm.

57. - You're the Dream Ghost. - Mm-hmm.

58. - I'm asleep right now. - Mm-hmm.

59. This morning you decided

60. to try one of Josh's green juices

61. and had to run to the bathroom, fell asleep on the toilet.

62. That's where you are right now.

63. Yeah, that sounds like me.

64. I can show you anything you want.

65. What would you like to see?

66. Who I should choose.

67. Show me that.

68. Huh.

69. Oh, my God.

70. It's Greg.

71. Of course I should choose Greg.

72. Ugh, we're so happy. Look at us.

73. Wait, what's wrong? What's that empty and sad look on my face?

74. Do I not love Greg? Does he not make me happy?

75. O-Okay, who should I choose, then?

76. Oh.

77. Nathaniel.

78. I see what you're doing.

79. Yep, I should be with Nathaniel.

80. Show me the future with Nathaniel, please.

81. Of course.

82. Yeah. Yeah.

83. Oh, my gosh...

84. - Oh, my God. - Yeah, what is that?

85. - Okay. - I definitely want this.

86. Look what I found. Oh, is that...

87. - It's Baby Ruth Gator Ginsberg! - Where did you get this?

88. - I got it at this random store... - Oh, my gosh, look at that.

89. Yes.

90. I mean, look at it.

91. It's Nathaniel.

92. I should choose Nathaniel.

93. - Of course. - Oh! - Uh, okay.

94. And we look so happy.

95. I love you.

96. Oh, no.

97. No, no, no, no. There's, there's that-that look again.

98. That sad, empty look.

99. So... okay,

100. does this mean it's Josh?

101. Who knows?

102. You're so vague.

103. Am I?

104. Oh.

105. That is very...

106. All right, I mean, I guess you guys,

107. you guys ate a lot of your waffles...

108. - Which is very good, funny... - Babe, they're both delicious.

109. Yep.

110. It's Josh. Yeah.

111. This is happiness.

112. Did you fill out

113. the form for the Sacramento trip?

114. Oh, yeah, absolutely.

115. Why didn't we just start with this one?

116. It's great.

117. It's gonna be so fun. It's gonna be so fun.

118. Here we go. Come on.

119. - All right, honey, I'll see you later... oh... - Anyone want their...

120. - Walk, walk, walk... - No dinosaur, okay.

121. Bye, bye, bye.

122. See you.

123. What?

124. No, no, no, no...

125. There's that look again.

126. Okay.

127. So, clearly, I'm not happy in any of these futures.

128. Why?

129. I don't know.

130. Do you know?

131. Okay. You're useless.

132. All right, I'm just gonna figure this out myself. Hey.

133. Hey! Hello, hi.

134. Hey, what's wrong?

135. What's wrong? What's wrong with Josh?

136. Why don't you love him?

137. Why aren't you happy?

138. Ugh, I need answers.

139. Just... come on.

140. Just... For a spirit, you are slow.

141. Okay. What's the problem?

142. Is Nathaniel cheating on you?

143. Uh... me? Us?

144. Huh?

145. Damn it, I need answers.

146. Come on. Come on, come on, come on, come on, come on.

147. Tell me.

148. Huh?

149. Tell me why you're so sad.

150. Why aren't you happy with Greg?

151. Huh? I mean, what's wrong with him?

152. There's nothing wrong with Greg.

153. Or Nathaniel or Josh.

154. They're all wonderful.

155. Okay, then why am I not happy, with any of them?

156. Don't-don't I love them?

157. You do love them.

158. The problem is,

159. you don't know who you are.

160. No, that's not true.

161. Stupid Dream Ghost.

162. What a dumb dream.

163. Oh, I'm not done. I'm gonna be here a while.

164. Yeah, yeah. Yeah.

165. Hi. Hi, hi, how are you? Mm, hey.

166. Okay. I got your text.

167. What's wrong? I got here as fast as I could.

168. Nothing's wrong. I'm really excited.

169. Look, I read online that there are these new expungement rules,

170. and I checked, and my shoplifting charges

171. are eligible to be stricken from my record.

172. Oh, wow, oh, that's great news.

173. Yeah, it could change my life. I wouldn't be a felon anymore,

174. - no more parole. - Mm-hmm.

175. So I just need you to help me file the casework

176. and we can get the process started,

177. - you know? - I'm so sorry, I can't.

178. This new job that I have, I'm exclusive to my firm,

179. and I checked my contract and I just, I can't

180. do any outside cases anymore. I'm so sorry.

181. But I've already talked to Nathaniel, Sunil and Rebecca

182. about taking over all of my cases.

183. But you know my case.

184. And you care more than anyone.

185. I know.

186. But, hey, look,

187. I get it. We're friends. I'm happy for you.

188. You love that job.

189. I'll work with someone else.

190. I am so sorry, Hanifa.

191. Damn it.

192. So, did you hear from Rebecca?

193. If I had heard from Rebecca, would I be here talking to you?

194. Uh, probably. Yeah. You're a bit needy.

195. She said she was supposed to let me know

196. by the end of the day, so...

197. What does that mean?

198. Is she gonna call? Text?

199. Send a rose over here in per... I-I'm unsure

200. about the mechanics of this thing.

201. Which is a bit annoying.

202. You helped set up this whole three date thing

203. and you don't know how Rebecca was supposed to respond?

204. Eh, that's not the fun part.

205. Wow. Having a beer

206. at 10:00 a.m.

207. Unlike you.

208. Waiting for Rebecca to decide, it's just killing me, man.

209. Yeah, I wonder how she'll tell you.

210. She's kind of dramatic. She might just call you all together

211. and pop out of a giant cheesecake.

212. Are those cheesecakes they jump out of?

213. Well, whatever she decides,

214. she'll do it in a great way, because she's the woman I love

215. and she's great.

216. Oh... Oh, dear.

217. I just want to be in love.

218. Get married, have babies. I'm ready now.

219. She has to pick me.

220. Oh, God, I'm so cold.

221. - Hold me. - Okay,

222. I-I will not hold you.

223. But I do have an extra fleece in my car.

224. - Thank you. - Yeah.

225. I've been trying to distract myself

226. from thinking about Rebecca and her decision with my work,

227. but half-assing cases at a nothing firm

228. is just not doing it for me anymore.

229. I'm sorry, should I not say that to you guys?

230. It's fine.

231. Daddy and Papa understand.

232. Sir? I just need a signature on this file.

233. But while my bosses are here, I did want to ask,

234. what is the company policy on fun hair?

235. - I don't think we have one. - No.

236. I was thinking about growing my hair long.

237. Not for a man bun,

238. but for a sweet, sweet pony.

239. - Oh. - Ohhhh.

240. It's gonna take about a year to grow out.

241. And there are gonna be some awkward stages along the way,

242. - so I need your blessings. - Yes.

243. - Mm-hmm. - Yes?

244. I've had the same haircut since 1998,

245. so I don't care.

246. You make it seem great. Thank you so much.

247. I have nothing for you to sign,

248. I just wanted to ask that question.

249. Giddyup, pony!

250. Anyway, guys, what do you think? What do I do?

251. Well, maybe take a break. Like a sabbatical.

252. Oh, that's a great idea.

253. I've always wanted to go to Israel.

254. Don't sabbaticals have to do with Israel?

255. Well, I mean the word "sabbath" and "rabbi" are both in there.

256. For what it's worth,

257. I think Rebecca's gonna pick you.

258. 'Cause you're the best.

259. And you don't have any venereal diseases.

260. Not that I know of.

261. But check for human papilloma virus.

262. It's more common than you think,

263. and most men do not experience symptoms.

264. Okay, great. Great, tip, thank you, Bert.

265. You're right. I'm probably just...

266. stressing about Rebecca, and my life and my job

267. are not as lame, boring and sad as they seem.

268. Again, no offense.

269. Honey, you here?

270. Hey.

271. Oh, hi. I am so happy you're here.

272. Okay, look. I know

273. today is your Valentine's decision day

274. and you have a lot on your mind,

275. but I need your help.

276. I can't work at the county jail because of my new job,

277. and it is killing me.

278. And I know that you and Nathaniel are covering

279. a lot of it, but.

280. I really care about the work that we're doing down there,

281. and I just...

282. What do I do?

283. Ah-huh.

284. Well, you could just ask Julia to start

285. a pro bono arm of the firm and offer free representation.

286. - That's a thing? - It's definitely a thing.

287. Lot of firms do it.

288. Hey, did you just solve my problem?

289. I mean... I hope so.

290. That's great!

291. Because, you know, sometimes I

292. ask your advice on stuff, and then you just

293. talk about yourself and... but this time...

294. - Oh, I did that right? - Yes!

295. Oh, cool! So proud of you.

296. Um...

297. What else can I say that's helpful?

298. Well, hey, Paula,

299. never give up on what you believe in.

300. Well, I will not.

301. - Great. - Okay.

302. So, is it appropriate to talk about myself now? Yes.

303. Great. Okay. So, just now,

304. I was in the bathroom, and I was asleep on the toilet...

305. - Multitasking. Smart. - Thank you.

306. And I had just the worst dream.

307. Aw. So, I dreamt that I had a future

308. with each of the three guys.

309. But in no future was I happy.

310. And then Bride Rebecca turned to me and said...

311. There were three Rebeccas, one of them was, like,

312. a really pretty bride...

313. And she turned to me, and she said

314. that the reason I wasn't happy with them

315. was because I don't know who I am.

316. And then I woke up!

317. So I don't know what that meant,

318. 'cause that's crazy, right?

319. Well, do you?

320. - Of course I do! - Okay.

321. I mean, God, no one's worked harder

322. on themselves than I have, you know?

323. I got workbooks and meds and therapy coming out the wazoo.

324. Yeah. But...

325. you're Rebecca.

326. So, I mean, those thoughts

327. are coming from you.

328. Damn it.

329. You're right.

330. I have no idea who I am.

331. You and my unconscious...

332. As manifested by a very pretty bride... are right.

333. Oh, Cookie.

334. Uh, how?

335. How is this possible?

336. I've done so much work.

337. And now, I'm more confused than I ever was.

338. And it's Valentine's Day,

339. and it's already... What time is it?

340. 11 o'clock.

341. 11 o'clock, Paula!

342. Okay, it's... I mean, 11:00 a.m., it's, uh, the day is young.

343. No, just, 11 o'clock is a significant time.

344. If we were in a musical,

345. this is where I would perform my big 11 o'clock number.

346. Really? You don't know... okay.

347. An 11 o'clock number is a big showstopping number

348. with some sort of thematic revelation,

349. and it usually happens around 11:00 p.m.,

350. because shows used to start at 8:30, but now

351. they start earlier for some reason.

352. Uh, okay.

353. What do I do?

354. Well...

355. What I think that you sh...

356. Rebecca?

357. Woo-hoo, hello?

358. Shh.

359. What are you doing?

360. Give me one sec, one second.

361. Oh, I get it.

362. You're doing that thing that you do.

363. All right. Well, I'll just wait.

364. Oh, good, an abstract theatrical space.

365. Now I can actually think.

366. But I want to keep discoing.

367. Rebecca? Hello?

368. Hey!

369. What?

370. Okay! Next up at our open mic,

371. we have a lady who is here to reveal

372. the biggest decision of her life.

373. So it shouldn't be self-indulgent at all.

374. I suffer from insomnia, and I think we've just found the cure.

375. George, I can't see.

376. Oh, I'm sorry, Maya.

377. Is my lustrous ponytail blocking your view?

378. Yes. You know, in the year since you grew that lustrous ponytail,

379. you've gotten a big ego.

380. Well, I'm sorry. But it's a part of who I am.

381. I call her.

382. "Raven's Nest."

383. - Shut up, come on. - All right, everybody.

384. Next step. Please help me welcome to the stage

385. Regina Nota Brunch.

386. Yeah, I clearly wrote "Rebecca Nora Bunch" on the card.

387. Oh. Do you want to do this, or do you want to do that?

388. Hi, everyone. Um...

389. Happy Valentine's Day.

390. Thank you so much for all being here

391. on this very, very, very important holiday.

392. So...

393. one year ago today, I made a very important decision.

394. That's the reason you're here, of course.

395. But before I get to that, I, uh...

396. I just want to say how inspired I've been

397. by everyone in this room, and their journeys

398. over the past year.

399. And I'm just talking about my friends, not the other people

400. who are here for the other acts in the open mic. Sorry.

401. Valencia and Beth.

402. You two took a big step, and you did it your own way.

403. Will you?

404. Valencia, yes.

405. That was the perfect proposal.

406. It was exactly what I wanted; a moment...

407. just for us.

408. Is that a drone outside the window?

409. Of course it's a drone, what are we doing?

410. Right, of course.

411. Wait, show 'em the ring.

412. We did it. We did it!

413. Darryl and April.

414. You two created a blended family.

415. April adopted Hebecca.

416. Oh, wow.

417. - Darryl. - I know.

418. - That's amazing. - Thank you.

419. Wow, so you're gonna have three kids

420. in one house, that's a lot.

421. Four.

422. No.

423. Mm-hmm. It's that super sperm.

424. Oh, we are so excited.

425. We already picked out some names, we've got.

426. Harryl and Hapril

427. and Hannison and...

428. I'm kidding. Okay.

429. Okay.

430. By the way, we just found out,

431. so don't tell anyone.

432. Lips are sealed.

433. And now there's another baby! Congratulations... Oof.

434. Oh, I wasn't supposed to say anything, I'm so sorry.

435. Why do you tell her things?

436. I honestly have no idea.

437. Heather and Hector.

438. You also ha have a new addition to your family.

439. One we all love and adore.

440. Shout out to your new hot tub.

441. Oh, yeah.

442. Oh... ooh.

443. My back... Ah...

444. Oh, my back. Ah.

445. Do you want to see a picture?

446. Sometimes she drives me crazy,

447. but eight jets, four light settings,

448. jumbo cup holders? She's perfect.

449. She has her daddy's hair.

450. - In her filter. - Yeah.

451. And White Josh.

452. Something happened...

453. with you this year...

454. that was really important...

455. I want to say it involves the circus.

456. My a-apartment burned down.

457. Along with everything I own.

458. On the same day that

459. my childhood home also burned down in the same wildfire.

460. - That was it. - Yeah.

461. I was at the circus when I found out that that happened.

462. And I left the circus, as you recall...

463. 'cause the circus was over.

464. Right.

465. I'm sorry about that.

466. I never really came around on you.

467. Never will.

468. Respect.

469. "Respect" is not an appropriate response there.

470. - Respect. - Okay.

471. And Paula...

472. what you did...

473. A pro bono arm

474. of the firm will allow us to represent

475. women who are forgotten

476. or outright mistreated by the system.

477. I did a lot of research and I put together

478. a proposal for you.

479. Um, many firms have these programs and they offer

480. great PR and some tax breaks, as well.

481. What an amazing ask.

482. It's so indicative of why we hired you.

483. Oh, great.

484. Oh!

485. Oh, I am so relieved.

486. But we're busy

487. with the cases we already have and we're trying

488. to make the most money for the partners.

489. You understand.

490. Yeah, I know.

491. Um, I really do.

492. Uh, and-and...

493. the thing is, is, uh...

494. and I say this with so much affection,

495. um, either we do this, or...

496. I quit.

497. What?

498. I love this job.

499. But I am not gonna walk around with a hole in my heart

500. because there are people out there who need me

501. and I'm sitting up here on my ass in a fancy suit.

502. I have to be true to who I am... inside.

503. So.

504. Thanks.

505. I loved it here.

506. Bye.

507. Paula, wait.

508. Let's talk.

509. Damn, Paula.

510. That was badass.

511. Which brings us to another person.

512. The person I care about very much.

513. And...

514. he's really the reason I'm here.

515. Josh Chan.

516. Josh, you really are the reason I'm here tonight.

517. I know you've been waiting

518. for me to make a decision today.

519. Yeah.

520. Josh...

521. Some day you're gonna find a girl

522. who is perfect for you.

523. And honestly, I feel like it'll happen soon

524. because you are ready

525. for a serious relationship.

526. You mean so much to me, I hope you know that.

527. But I'm sorry.

528. Oh.

529. Yeah.

530. Can I have a minute?

531. Of course, yeah.

532. Without you here?

533. Oh.

534. Yes. Absolutely. Mm-hmm. Hmm.

535. Yes.

536. I'll just go, I'll go in my...

537. But I'm gonna give you your space. Um...

538. You sure I can have Estrella?

539. Of course, you really forged

540. a beautiful bond with number 28.

541. Well, I got to run, uh...

542. I got a magic club meeting.

543. We let in some more members

544. and George is having a party to celebrate, so, yeah.

545. - Well, that sounds fun. - Yeah.

546. See you.

547. Good-bye, Josh Chan.

548. I'm shocked that I'm doing this.

549. But $80 a month is a great deal.

550. Oh, we're gonna have so much fun.

551. I'm a great roommate.

552. do you own a vibrator?

553. You will never know.

554. I should stop asking people that.

555. Josh, I moved to West Covina for you.

556. And I will never forget that.

557. And I'm so, so happy for you.

558. That you found what you wanted.

559. With a little magic.

560. You found love.

561. They met in a magic club, that's why I'm saying magic.

562. Oh, she's sweet.

563. Yeah.

564. She's also a lot.

565. I know, but in a good way.

566. And then, Nathaniel.

567. Okay, Nathaniel.

568. So what I want to say

569. - is that... - Ah.

570. Huh.

571. Uh, based on your words, tone,

572. and body language, I'm guessing...

573. we're not riding off into the sunset

574. on the horses I rented, are we?

575. There are horses? Where are the horses?

576. In the stable.

577. With the champagne.

578. And the giant diamond.

579. Okay, um...

580. You have to know, you haveto know

581. that the-the times that we've spent together

582. have been some of the best of my life.

583. - But, I... - You don't, you don't have to explain.

584. You only get one life.

585. And you got to live that the way you want.

586. I think everyone deserves that.

587. I'm quitting, Dad.

588. I don't want to work for you anymore,

589. or anyone, for a while.

590. No, you can't forbid it.

591. I'm a grown-up man.

592. Mm-hmm. Mm.

593. Oh, yeah? Well, I love you.

594. Thanks for your support, guys. It really has meant a lot to me.

595. - Of course. - Of course.

596. - Jinx. - Jinx.

597. Now, if you'll excuse me,

598. I need to see a man...

599. about a monkey.

600. Speaking Spanish...

601. Hola.

602. ¿Cómo estás?

603. You upended your life.

604. You changed everything.

605. But, unlike me,

606. you did it for the right reasons.

607. And I am in awe of you.

608. And finally...

609. Hi, Greg.

610. Greg, uh...

611. Uh, Greg, I, uh... I don't know...

612. what I can say to you that I haven't already said.

613. So tell me. Yes or no.

614. Just say it fast.

615. I... So, before I tell you,

616. I just, I want you to...

617. I want you to understand the choice I'm making.

618. - Okay. - Okay.

619. So, this morning,

620. I had a terrible dream while on the toilet.

621. This is starting off well.

622. Right. And then Paula came over.

623. Trying to follow.

624. Greg, you deserve a full explanation,

625. and here it is. So...

626. Right, toilet, Paula came over,

627. I helped her through an issue,

628. and then she asked me

629. probably the most important question

630. anyone's ever asked me in my life.

631. Rebecca, hello? Hey!

632. What?

633. What are you doing?

634. Uh, sorry, nothing, nothing.

635. No, that's not nothing.

636. That's... You're staring off into space, like you do.

637. You do that a lot.

638. What's...

639. what's happening when you do that?

640. I don't want to tell you. It's weird.

641. Oh, come on, any weirder than the many, many weird things

642. you and I have done since we met?

643. I've just... I don't know... I've never told anybody,

644. except for the Dream Ghost and Dr. Phil.

645. What?

646. What the hell? Okay.

647. When I stare off into space...

648. I'm imagining myself in a musical number.

649. That's how I sometimes see big moments in my life,

650. as musical numbers.

651. And because I do that, so does the show.

652. And by show, I mean the very popular BPD workbook acronym,

653. "Simply Having Omniscient Wishes."

654. So, yeah, I...

655. I see myself in these songs.

656. Wait, I'm confused. What?

657. All right. Paula, can I show you something?

658. You can show me anything.

659. - Okay. - Okay.

660. Look off with me like this.

661. Do I have to be thinking anything while I...

662. - Just Okay. - Just look off.

663. Whoa.

664. What...

665. What is all this?

666. This is me.

667. Okay, these are all

668. of the identities that I've tried to fit into.

669. Okay?

670. So this is all the weird and freaky

671. and dumb and useless stuff that is my life

672. and has led me to nothing.

673. It's not nothing.

674. It's...

675. it's beautiful.

676. What do you mean, beautiful? I can't focus here.

677. Let's go back to reality.

678. Okay, wait, I'm sorry, what do you mean, beautiful?

679. Okay.

680. Those-those songs that you imagine, when you come back,

681. you've always figured something out, right?

682. I mean, yeah,

683. I guess I've processed something, sure.

684. And have you ever written them down?

685. Written down my-my mind songs?

686. No. Why would I do that?

687. I mean, the-the closest I came to that, I guess,

688. was during the community theater revue

689. when I changed those lyrics.

690. And you loved that, right?

691. - Yeah. - Okay.

692. Rebecca, just... get me back there.

693. Uh, okay, uh...

694. Baby, it's here.

695. What you're looking for,

696. the way to know who you are,

697. it's here.

698. Are you sure?

699. These songs in your head, you have to write them down.

700. That's how you do it.

701. Write them down.

702. Write down the songs.

703. Write down the songs. Okay. Okay.

704. - Uh, I need paper! - You need a pen!

705. Yeah, yeah, yeah!

706. Now get started.

707. This is gonna be so much fun.

708. I know it sounds crazy.

709. Writing down the flights of fancy in my head.

710. I mean, you know,

711. what even is that? But, Greg,

712. I've been doing it for the past couple hours,

713. and I think Paula's right, this is what I need to do.

714. And you need to do this alone?

715. Yeah.

716. I think that's how this works.

717. And I don't know how long it's gonna take.

718. Okay, I hear you, Rebecca. You just got to know that...

719. I'm not gonna wait, not anymore.

720. I know.

721. Greg, when I look at you,

722. I see someone who's ahead of me,

723. and who has been ahead of me.

724. Your recovery,

725. and then your love for Serrano's, I...

726. I want that for myself.

727. She wants to own an Italian restaurant?

728. Oh, come on, you know what she means.

729. God, I wish you were not still single.

730. I will not feel safe until one of you is married.

731. Oh, shh. Just let her talk.

732. And so, over the past year,

733. I have done some really new and really scary things.

734. "When writing songs, the most important thing

735. "is to learn to tell your story,

736. "not a story you get from the outside world,

737. but your own story."

738. AJ, this book's, like, amazing!

739. You borrowed my Dartmouth sweatshirt again?

740. There are chocolate stains all over it.

741. Sorry.

742. I'll just get him a Harvard sweatshirt, it's better.

743. Okay, the best songs...

744. How many years of piano

745. - have you had? - None.

746. What other instruments do you play?

747. None.

748. What do you know about piano?

749. There appear to be black keys and white keys.

750. Well,

751. showing up is the first step.

752. Yeah, it is. Let's do this.

753. Okay. Can I call you Rick?

754. Uh, sure. Is that your name?

755. No, but call me Rick.

756. Okay. Thanks, Rick.

757. Yeah, uh, that's... That was, um...

758. - Was it better than last week? - Sure.

759. Okay, great, 'cause I've been working really hard.

760. Yeah. You're getting most of the notes.

761. - You're getting there. - Yes!

762. - It's just gonna take a while. - Great.

763. Okay.

764. I don't know about that last lyric. I don't think it's good.

765. Oh, I liked it.

766. Take it easy on yourself.

767. Yeah.

768. I think it's catchy, and I have great taste.

769. Really? Oh, yeah, keep going.

770. You're doing great, honey.

771. Will you stop mentioning that hot tub?

772. I'm gonna look really snatched for the wedding.

773. And, look, I don't know if what I'm doing yet

774. is any good, but all I know is that

775. I can finally show the outside world

776. what's been inside of me this whole time.

777. All of it. All of the-the nuances and the gray areas.

778. It's not just about the act of writing. It's about how,

779. when I'm doing that,

780. when I'm telling my own story...

781. for the first time in my life,

782. I am truly happy.

783. It's like I just met myself.

784. Like I just met Rebecca.

785. I came to this town to find love,

786. and I did.

787. I love every person in this room.

788. Each and every one of you.

789. Again, just talking to my friends, not the other people

790. here for the open mic night.

791. But, you know what, screw it, I love you guys, too.

792. Love that sweater.

793. And now,

794. for the first time in my life, I can say that

795. maybe I'm finally ready

796. for the other kind of love.

797. You know, the kind we talk about a lot more.

798. And, hell, it-it might be with someone in this room.

799. But whoever it's with, it won't be

800. "ending up" with someone,

801. because romantic love is not an ending,

802. not for me or for anyone else here.

803. It's just a-a part of your story,

804. a part of who you are.

805. And so,

806. um...

807. here we go.

808. This is a song I wrote.

809. Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH access.wgbh.org.

810. Sync corrections by srjanapala