1. When I was six, my grandmother died.Copy !req
2. My father drove us to his hometownCopy !req
3. of Wiggins, South Carolina
for her funeral.Copy !req
4. I had never met her,
so her death didn't mean much to me…Copy !req
5. though it made my father very sad.Copy !req
6. I was afraid of her in that coffin.Copy !req
7. She was part of something
that, even at six, I wondered about.Copy !req
8. The place after this one.Copy !req
9. I worried she was looking down
and didn't like us because we were young.Copy !req
10. Where's Dr. Zicherman?Copy !req
11. Excuse me.Copy !req
12. Where's Dr. Zicherman?Copy !req
13. He's on vacation.Copy !req
14. He didn't tell you?Copy !req
15. No.Copy !req
16. That seems so unlike him.Copy !req
17. Do you see him every Tuesday?Copy !req
18. No, just—Copy !req
19. Just, you know.Copy !req
20. No, I don't know.Copy !req
21. Just if I need to.Copy !req
22. Well, that's an uncommon arrangement.Copy !req
23. How'd you know I'd be here?Copy !req
24. Routine schedule is foundational
in the doctor-patient relationship.Copy !req
25. But how did you know I'd be here?Copy !req
26. I don't understand the question.Copy !req
27. But Dr. Zicherman and I
don't have a routine.Copy !req
28. How did you know
I had an appointment today?Copy !req
29. We have a daily schedule.Copy !req
30. Your name was on it.Copy !req
31. Why are you here?Copy !req
32. Because I had an appointment.Copy !req
33. No.Copy !req
34. Why are you here?Copy !req
35. The charges involvedCopy !req
36. selling unregistered weapons
and crossing state lines to do so.Copy !req
37. Why are you here?Copy !req
38. I just told you.Copy !req
39. Why are you?Copy !req
40. To treat mental illness.Copy !req
41. Came to the right place.Copy !req
42. I'm not in law enforcement.
I'm not a judge.Copy !req
43. I don't concern myself
with the crimes of the men I treat.Copy !req
44. My sole concern is
protecting their mental health.Copy !req
45. Sounds like you found
your purpose in life.Copy !req
46. Do you prefer James or Jimmy?Copy !req
47. Jimmy.Copy !req
48. Jimmy.Copy !req
49. Some people's psyches are
so much more fragileCopy !req
50. than most people
you've probably encountered in your life.Copy !req
51. Or your own, for example.Copy !req
52. How do you know anything about my psyche?Copy !req
53. I don't know much.
But I suspect you're of fairly sound mind.Copy !req
54. Good to know.Copy !req
55. But some of my patients are not.Copy !req
56. They're one wrong thought,Copy !req
57. one termite of an unhealthy idea
from losing their minds.Copy !req
58. If they break,Copy !req
59. sometimes the person they were
never comes back from the break.Copy !req
60. They become ghosts in their own bodies.Copy !req
61. Why are you telling me this?Copy !req
62. I'm asking you for compassionCopy !req
63. when you deal with
some of the men in here.Copy !req
64. Some of the men?Copy !req
65. Jimmy…Copy !req
66. Doctor.Copy !req
67. - I'm asking—
- Asking what?Copy !req
68. Are you a threat to the mental health
of any of my patients?Copy !req
69. Which patients?Copy !req
70. I'm giving you
an opportunity for candor here.Copy !req
71. I urge you to take it seriously.Copy !req
72. Which… patients?Copy !req
73. After they buried my grandmother,
my father drove us to the ocean.Copy !req
74. It was the only time
I would ever see the ocean.Copy !req
75. When they were looking
for Tricia Reitler, Larry drove Marion PDCopy !req
76. up and down these roads
over and over and over again.Copy !req
77. "I think I buried her here.Copy !req
78. No, it was here.Copy !req
79. Maybe it was there.Copy !req
80. No, I think I buried her under a tree."Copy !req
81. Exactly.Copy !req
82. That night before I take him back
to Illinois, they go back out there.Copy !req
83. Same area, same result.Copy !req
84. I think she's there. Somewhere.Copy !req
85. That's why he dragged them back out
a second time.Copy !req
86. Son of a bitch couldn't get enough of it.Copy !req
87. Let me see
if I can get my hands on these reports.Copy !req
88. All right.Copy !req
89. They took a left up here before the lake.Copy !req
90. There's nothing but fields out here.Copy !req
91. That's a nice gas station
for the middle of nowhere.Copy !req
92. Yeah.Copy !req
93. All right, there should be a haul road
right up here. Take a right there.Copy !req
94. - Well, good morning, James.
- Morning, Larry.Copy !req
95. I didn't see you yesterday.Copy !req
96. Nothing happened
that didn't happen the day before.Copy !req
97. And the day before that, right?Copy !req
98. How was your day?Copy !req
99. It was good. Thanks for asking.Copy !req
100. Gary visited.Copy !req
101. - That's cool.
- It was.Copy !req
102. Always nice to see family.
Is he into cars too?Copy !req
103. A little. Well, not like me.Copy !req
104. But the Civil War stuff?Copy !req
105. He didn't stick with it.Copy !req
106. That's a shame.Copy !req
107. He married a stinky bitch.Copy !req
108. Well…Copy !req
109. She thinks it's "playing dress-up."Copy !req
110. She said that?Copy !req
111. Oh, yeah.Copy !req
112. So I said to her— I said,Copy !req
113. "You would be a grandmother
in Civil War times. An old hag."Copy !req
114. Nobody would fight for her.Copy !req
115. Brides were young.Copy !req
116. Unspoiled.Copy !req
117. People married younger then.Copy !req
118. Much younger. Yeah.Copy !req
119. My great-grandmother
had my grandmother when she was just 14.Copy !req
120. That was perfectly normal back then.Copy !req
121. Until the government saw
a way to make money.Copy !req
122. By raising the age of consent?Copy !req
123. Exactly.Copy !req
124. Nobody attended a high school back then.Copy !req
125. There was no such thing.Copy !req
126. But, once the government sawCopy !req
127. that there was money to be made
in high schools,Copy !req
128. well, then greed trumps all.Copy !req
129. It's not about education.Copy !req
130. - No?
- No, it's about—Copy !req
131. It's about forcing kids
to delay growing up.Copy !req
132. So that their parents can spend
every extra dime on tuition,Copy !req
133. and everyone makes money.Copy !req
134. And that's what's going to
bankrupt the country someday.Copy !req
135. You know,
I never thought about it that way,Copy !req
136. but damn.Copy !req
137. You could be onto something.Copy !req
138. You think?Copy !req
139. You got a fresh perspective.Copy !req
140. You must have heard that before.Copy !req
141. Thank you.Copy !req
142. So these brides were how young?Copy !req
143. Twelve, 13 for sure.Copy !req
144. Old enough to pee,
old enough for me. Right?Copy !req
145. That's funny.Copy !req
146. Hey…Copy !req
147. So what's the—Copy !req
148. what's the youngest you ever had?Copy !req
149. What?Copy !req
150. The youngest you ever had.Copy !req
151. You first.Copy !req
152. Why? I asked first.Copy !req
153. You first.Copy !req
154. Fourteen.Copy !req
155. Did she fight back?Copy !req
156. No. You had some fighters?Copy !req
157. How old were you?Copy !req
158. With the 14-year-old?Copy !req
159. She was a freshman.Copy !req
160. I was a senior, so I was 17.Copy !req
161. - What?
- Seventeen.Copy !req
162. Larry.Copy !req
163. Is it still dripping?Copy !req
164. Drip's turned into leaks.Copy !req
165. He had 'em drive
up and down 400 East several times.Copy !req
166. 440 South is mentioned four times.Copy !req
167. So is 250 East and 375 South.Copy !req
168. This is pointless.Copy !req
169. He took 'em up and down 550 East the most.Copy !req
170. Six times the first time.
Five times the second.Copy !req
171. Okay. 550 intersects with 400
at that gas station.Copy !req
172. Maybe they stopped
for sodas and bathroom breaks.Copy !req
173. I doubt that gas station was there.Copy !req
174. That looked pretty new.Copy !req
175. So, what was there?Copy !req
176. Here it is.Copy !req
177. Construction at 550-400 intersection.Copy !req
178. Hey, there a manager around?Copy !req
179. Dale only comes in a couple times a week.Copy !req
180. The rest of the time?Copy !req
181. It's just me and Keith.
He works the 3:00 to 11:00.Copy !req
182. How long you been here?Copy !req
183. Since 6:00.Copy !req
184. No, not today.
How long have you worked here?Copy !req
185. Six months.Copy !req
186. Would you know
how long this place has been open?Copy !req
187. A few years, I think.Copy !req
188. Dale and Keith know exactly?Copy !req
189. Dale's been here since the beginning.Copy !req
190. Got his number?Copy !req
191. Thank you.Copy !req
192. You work on cars here?Copy !req
193. No, sir.Copy !req
194. Know anybody who does?Copy !req
195. Not local, no.Copy !req
196. Where's the nearest auto parts dealer
around here?Copy !req
197. I don't know. Not into cars.Copy !req
198. John Dickey though…Copy !req
199. "John Dickey though," what?Copy !req
200. He's like a Mr. Fixit.Copy !req
201. People bring him stuff to fix sometimes,
but it ain't, like, official.Copy !req
202. Uh-huh. John Dickey?Copy !req
203. John Dickey Hansen.
He runs a bait shop up the road.Copy !req
204. Okay, thanks.Copy !req
205. The manager said the station opened
in the spring of '94.Copy !req
206. He says he believes they broke ground
around midsummer of '93.Copy !req
207. Fucking Larry Hall.Copy !req
208. I heard you tried to get
some product in here.Copy !req
209. Don't do that.Copy !req
210. A shrug is a nonanswer,Copy !req
211. and a nonanswer is disrespectful.Copy !req
212. I thought about it,Copy !req
213. but it turned out
I couldn't get it in here.Copy !req
214. But let's say you had.Copy !req
215. And you used it
to dig someone out of some troubleCopy !req
216. they're having on the outside.Copy !req
217. Now, that would help them.
Maybe it'd help you.Copy !req
218. But I don't see how it would help me.Copy !req
219. I'm not sure I understand.Copy !req
220. A man who can't get help anywhere else
eventually comes to me.Copy !req
221. And then he's in my debt.Copy !req
222. My apologies. Sincerely.Copy !req
223. I fucked up. I had no idea.Copy !req
224. All right.Copy !req
225. I asked around about you. In Milwaukee.Copy !req
226. You checked out. Flying colors.Copy !req
227. Everyone knew someone who knew someone
who knew you and spoke highly of you.Copy !req
228. That's nice.Copy !req
229. But no one could remember
laying eyes on you directly.Copy !req
230. Everyone knew someone who said they had,Copy !req
231. but no one had
actually done it themselves.Copy !req
232. What do you make of that?Copy !req
233. They need to get out more.Copy !req
234. Is that what they need to do?Copy !req
235. Do you have kids?Copy !req
236. How was your week, Larry?Copy !req
237. I'm just asking.Copy !req
238. Would you describe it as productive?Copy !req
239. I'm just asking!Copy !req
240. And you have asked before.
Several times over the years.Copy !req
241. And what has been my response?Copy !req
242. I'm just curious.Copy !req
243. What has been my response?Copy !req
244. You don't discuss your personal life.Copy !req
245. Correct.Copy !req
246. That's all that I discuss.Copy !req
247. Because you are the patient,
and I am the doctor.Copy !req
248. Can't we try, like, role reversal?Copy !req
249. Isn't that therapeutic?Copy !req
250. And what would you say to me
if you were my doctor?Copy !req
251. Bitch, tell me your dreams!Copy !req
252. I bet they smell good.Copy !req
253. Your children.Copy !req
254. What's troubling you?Copy !req
255. Nothing.Copy !req
256. You often use provocation
to mask vulnerability.Copy !req
257. I'm not vulnerable. You're vulnerable.Copy !req
258. You seem agitated.Copy !req
259. I'm perfectly fucking fine.Copy !req
260. It's the best mood I've been in for years,
and you don't like it.Copy !req
261. Why wouldn't I like it?Copy !req
262. Because if I got betterCopy !req
263. and I told people how,Copy !req
264. and then those people got better…Copy !req
265. you'd have no job.Copy !req
266. Then I'd retire.Copy !req
267. You— Then you'd retire.Copy !req
268. And have tea with your daughters.Copy !req
269. Watch them bend over
to do their gardening.Copy !req
270. What's making you feel so good?Copy !req
271. My appeal.Copy !req
272. You have fresh news about it?Copy !req
273. Let's just sayCopy !req
274. that there are positive signs
if you know how to read them.Copy !req
275. That would explain your affect.Copy !req
276. What's my affect?Copy !req
277. Confident.Copy !req
278. Almost cocky.Copy !req
279. Sometimes a man has
every reason to feel that way.Copy !req
280. Well, I've seen you confident before.Copy !req
281. When?Copy !req
282. When you talk about Civil War history
and engines and old car parts.Copy !req
283. I've just never seen you cocky.Copy !req
284. That seems more like your friend.Copy !req
285. What friend?Copy !req
286. You mean James.Copy !req
287. You know who I mean, Larry.
He's very charismatic.Copy !req
288. You've met him?Copy !req
289. Our paths crossed.Copy !req
290. I see what you respond to in him.Copy !req
291. He gives off the aura
of someone who's never known regret.Copy !req
292. He decides something, he does it.
He never looks back.Copy !req
293. You'd think that, but…Copy !req
294. Well, but he has known regret.Copy !req
295. He does regret things.Copy !req
296. He has known pain.Copy !req
297. But he doesn't, you know, let it warp him.Copy !req
298. Is that how you see yourself?
Warped by pain?Copy !req
299. Not lately.Copy !req
300. Because of James.Copy !req
301. I'm…Copy !req
302. I'm not alone anymore.Copy !req
303. When I was in seventh grade,Copy !req
304. Cooper Ross told me, "You're so nice,"Copy !req
305. and then he turned redCopy !req
306. and couldn't look me in the eyes
for a few minutes.Copy !req
307. Hello.Copy !req
308. Help you?Copy !req
309. Are you John Dickey Hansen?Copy !req
310. Well, you can call me JD, if you like.Copy !req
311. You sell auto parts here?Copy !req
312. Well, if I happen across something that's
worth putting an ad in the Auto Trader,Copy !req
313. I might do so.Copy !req
314. You ever meet this guy?Copy !req
315. That's Larry.Copy !req
316. So, you know him well?Copy !req
317. No, miss.Copy !req
318. He's just memorable.Copy !req
319. Those mutton chops, whatnot.Copy !req
320. Help me out with "whatnot."Copy !req
321. He's as creepy as all fuck, you know?
Excuse me.Copy !req
322. No, speak freely.Copy !req
323. Well, I sold him a pair
of slotted brake rotorsCopy !req
324. for a '79 Dodge B200Copy !req
325. back about, I don't know, '92, '93.Copy !req
326. Seemed a harmless squirt of a fella.Copy !req
327. Had that look of somebody
who'd never been hugged.Copy !req
328. Not even as a baby.Copy !req
329. You know, I guess I was too kind to him,Copy !req
330. 'cause he started coming back
even when he didn't need a part.Copy !req
331. Started just hanging around,
talking up the young girls.Copy !req
332. Anything ever happen?Copy !req
333. What do you mean, like bad? No.Copy !req
334. We run him off after a while.Copy !req
335. Every now and then
I wonder what ever became of him.Copy !req
336. Since you're coming around
asking about him, figure it ain't good.Copy !req
337. Why'd you run him off?Copy !req
338. He made too many of the girls
uncomfortable.Copy !req
339. Including my own.Copy !req
340. Audrey.Copy !req
341. She was a teenager then,
but Larry took a shine to her.Copy !req
342. Sure didn't sit right with me.Copy !req
343. Is Audrey around?Copy !req
344. She's in town running some errands.
Should be back soon.Copy !req
345. You mind if we wait around?Copy !req
346. Not in the least.Copy !req
347. When I was 12,
my sister and I got new sneakers.Copy !req
348. And almost immediately,
we stepped in cow pies,Copy !req
349. even though our parents told us
to stay clear of that field.Copy !req
350. Took hours for those shoes to dry.Copy !req
351. I don't remember anything we talked about.Copy !req
352. Just that we were happy.Copy !req
353. Be a good boy.
You listen to your mother.Copy !req
354. I don't wanna hear this…Copy !req
355. Thank you for using DOP Connect.Copy !req
356. To make a call,
please enter your account number.Copy !req
357. That account number is not recognized.Copy !req
358. To make a call,
please enter your account number.Copy !req
359. That account number is not recognized.Copy !req
360. To make a call,
please enter your account number.Copy !req
361. That account number is not recog—Copy !req
362. That account number is not recog—Copy !req
363. That accoun—Copy !req
364. Hang up the fucking phone!Copy !req
365. This phone?Copy !req
366. Be my guest.Copy !req
367. …please enter your account number.Copy !req
368. …snitch.Copy !req
369. Can't have that on the yard.Copy !req
370. …snitch.Copy !req
371. Yes, sir. I understand what you're saying,Copy !req
372. but I'm telling you
there must be a mistakeCopy !req
373. because I paid that credit card myself
just last week.Copy !req
374. You're telling me that my son
can't make or receive calls?Copy !req
375. Is that what you're telling me?Copy !req
376. Okay, sir, please.Copy !req
377. How about if I give you the credit card
right here, right now, over the phone.Copy !req
378. Would you be able to connect me then?Copy !req
379. Okay. All right. Thank you.Copy !req
380. I appreciate you trying to help.Copy !req
381. Bitch. Motherfucker.Copy !req
382. Jim, I should come with you.Copy !req
383. No, hon. I'll be fine.
I just need to clear my head.Copy !req
384. Okay. Well, don't get yourself worked up.Copy !req
385. I'm taking a drive to relax,
not to get worked up.Copy !req
386. All right.Copy !req
387. Can you pick us up some Kahlúa
on your way back?Copy !req
388. Yeah, imagine that.Copy !req
389. Woodshop.Copy !req
390. What's that?Copy !req
391. Last place I saw Larry.Copy !req
392. How long you been working on those?Copy !req
393. Couple of weeks.Copy !req
394. What do you do with them?Copy !req
395. I send them home.Copy !req
396. Why?Copy !req
397. Donny said that you
almost got into a fight today.Copy !req
398. At the phones?Copy !req
399. Yeah, some con wanted the phone.Copy !req
400. There's some mess-up with my account.
I can't make calls out.Copy !req
401. But you funded the account?Copy !req
402. Maybe you made an enemy.Copy !req
403. Of who?Copy !req
404. Someone who works here.Copy !req
405. Have you had any disagreements
with anyone lately?Copy !req
406. I had some minor words
with a guard yesterday.Copy !req
407. Can't remember the guy's name,
but he was just busting my balls.Copy !req
408. About what?Copy !req
409. Nothing.Copy !req
410. It's not nothing.Copy !req
411. James, come on. It's me.Copy !req
412. It was about you, Larry.Copy !req
413. Why would some guard talk about me?Copy !req
414. He said…Copy !req
415. He said you're a kid-diddler.Copy !req
416. And a kid-killer.Copy !req
417. I don't mean to laugh, I just—Copy !req
418. A kid-diddler?Copy !req
419. I've never raped anyone in my life, James.Copy !req
420. So, what did you do?Copy !req
421. I had sex with them.Copy !req
422. Okay.Copy !req
423. And they weren't children, James.Copy !req
424. Not until recently.
I mean, not back in the 1800s.Copy !req
425. Sure.Copy !req
426. James, how many women have you fucked?Copy !req
427. - Since high school? I mean…
- No, not high school.Copy !req
428. I mean how many women have—Copy !req
429. You know, over the high school ages,
have you fucked?Copy !req
430. - Eighty.
- What?Copy !req
431. - Eighty?
- I guess.Copy !req
432. I mean, there's probably
one or two I'm forgetting about,Copy !req
433. but I'm not totally sure the figure.Copy !req
434. That's not funny, James. Is it 80?Copy !req
435. Yeah.Copy !req
436. How?Copy !req
437. How did you manage to— How—Copy !req
438. - Do you have like a line you use?
- No.Copy !req
439. I just— I mean, I talk to 'em.Copy !req
440. And they talk to me,
and eventually, our clothes come off.Copy !req
441. - But how?
- I just told you.Copy !req
442. No you didn't.Copy !req
443. I don't follow, Larry. I'm sorry.Copy !req
444. No woman will ever just "talk to me."Copy !req
445. But younger girls will.Copy !req
446. Some.Copy !req
447. Yeah.Copy !req
448. She was nice at first.Copy !req
449. Who's that?Copy !req
450. - Who was nice, Larry?
- Jessica Roach.Copy !req
451. Her bike had a flat,
she was driving up this gravel road.Copy !req
452. Even though she had a mountain bike—Copy !req
453. You know, rocks and gravel
mix in with each otherCopy !req
454. and rocks can be sharp, so…Copy !req
455. Girls think they're so smart,
but there she was with a flat.Copy !req
456. You fix it?Copy !req
457. - Oh, no. I just offered her a ride.
- Right.Copy !req
458. They make it sound like I jump
on these girls, James, and attack them.Copy !req
459. That's not reflective of the truth.Copy !req
460. She liked talking to me. She did.Copy !req
461. I had my bike that day,
and I opened up the doors to the vanCopy !req
462. and I showed her, and…Copy !req
463. I told her how much I like cycling,
and we talked about that.Copy !req
464. Sounds like you had no trouble
talking to her, Larry.Copy !req
465. None.Copy !req
466. Yeah, she was nice, like I said.Copy !req
467. Until she wasn't.Copy !req
468. She turned on you, huh?Copy !req
469. Like a rabid squirrel, justCopy !req
470. You remember why?Copy !req
471. Why are you asking?Copy !req
472. Shit, Larry,
I thought we were just talking.Copy !req
473. Is that what we're doing?Copy !req
474. That's what I'm doing.Copy !req
475. She got into my van just fine.Copy !req
476. She looked at my bike
and my cleaning supplies.Copy !req
477. She asked if I live locally,
and why I had such big burnsides.Copy !req
478. She called them sideburns.Copy !req
479. I told her about reenactments,Copy !req
480. and she asked really good questions,
you know?Copy !req
481. She was so curious and so smart.Copy !req
482. And so I kissed her.Copy !req
483. And that's when she turned mean.
Just awful, slapping me and hitting me.Copy !req
484. And I just had to rag her
with the starter fluid.Copy !req
485. I had to.Copy !req
486. So we drove for a little while.Copy !req
487. I was trying to find, like,
a nice, quiet, little place.Copy !req
488. And I did,
even though I didn't know where I wasCopy !req
489. or where we were going, but I found one.Copy !req
490. Then what happened?Copy !req
491. I— Well, I, you know.Copy !req
492. I went into the back of the van with her,
and I ragged her a few more times.Copy !req
493. She kept waking up?Copy !req
494. She scratched me.Copy !req
495. So hard. It was deep.Copy !req
496. And when I cleaned out the flesh
from under her nails later on,Copy !req
497. there was a lot of me under there.Copy !req
498. A lot of me.Copy !req
499. You have sex with her?Copy !req
500. I knew you were gonna ask that.
No— It's weird.Copy !req
501. I don't totally remember.Copy !req
502. It was like I blacked out,
but then it was like I was in a dreamCopy !req
503. where I see myself
beating on her and ragging her,Copy !req
504. beating on her and ragging her.Copy !req
505. And then I woke up,
and her clothes were off,Copy !req
506. and my clothes were off.Copy !req
507. So, I…Copy !req
508. I think we had sex together.Copy !req
509. Sure sounds like it, buddy.Copy !req
510. Well, then she started to cry.Copy !req
511. Sometimes they do that.Copy !req
512. They thought they wanted it,Copy !req
513. but they changed their mind
after the fact.Copy !req
514. Well, no, she was crying for her mother.Copy !req
515. She was, huh?Copy !req
516. "I want my mommy.Copy !req
517. Just take me to my mommy."Copy !req
518. I did not like that.Copy !req
519. It made me mad. It ruined everything.Copy !req
520. So, I took her out of the van,Copy !req
521. and I walked her
pretty far back into the field.Copy !req
522. And I found this tree,
and I had made this…Copy !req
523. Tool, I guess, that I had made
by putting two leather belts together.Copy !req
524. And I had this stick—Copy !req
525. Well, I told her to sit down
with her back against the tree.Copy !req
526. I didn't want to see her face, you know?Copy !req
527. And,Copy !req
528. So yeah, so then I quickly whipped
the two belts around her neck,Copy !req
529. and I squeezed and put the stick in.Copy !req
530. I just started twisting it,
like one of those…Copy !req
531. What do you call it…Copy !req
532. - Tourniquet?
- Tourniquet, exactly.Copy !req
533. Yeah.Copy !req
534. I just kept twisting
until she stopped making…Copy !req
535. You know.Copy !req
536. Sounds.Copy !req
537. Well, it sounds like
you did what you had to do.Copy !req
538. Never said anything totally gross,
just off.Copy !req
539. Always off.Copy !req
540. How?Copy !req
541. He'd be like,
"You have really pretty ankles."Copy !req
542. Or, said to me once,
"Your earlobes are very ripe."Copy !req
543. That was Larry making small talk.Copy !req
544. Other times, he'd just sit at
one of the picnic benches and just stare.Copy !req
545. And, if it got to you
like sometimes it did,Copy !req
546. you'd be like, "Larry, what's up?"Copy !req
547. And he'd be all, "Did you know
that most cleaners contain lye?"Copy !req
548. And then he'd want you to go to his van
and look at the list of ingredients.Copy !req
549. - Did you ever go?
- Fuck no.Copy !req
550. You know anyone who did?Copy !req
551. Not around here, no.
We were all creeped out by him.Copy !req
552. Then, when he started to give me stuff…Copy !req
553. He gave you stuff?Copy !req
554. A pair of earrings once.Copy !req
555. A locket.Copy !req
556. Pair of used ballet flats.Copy !req
557. Were they your size?Copy !req
558. Yep. Made it worse.Copy !req
559. No chance you kept any of this stuff?Copy !req
560. We have a lost and found sale
at the end of every season.Copy !req
561. There is one thing
that I didn't throw away.Copy !req
562. Last time we ever saw him,
he gave me that.Copy !req
563. I never rode it, not once.Copy !req
564. Every time I look at it,
it makes me wanna take a shower.Copy !req
565. My mother said I was never any troubleCopy !req
566. except when I fixated
on something I wanted,Copy !req
567. like a dog on a pork chop.Copy !req
568. So that's what she'd call it.
My pork chop.Copy !req
569. When I was six,
my pork chop was a goldfish.Copy !req
570. When I was nine,
it was a pack of butterfly hair clips.Copy !req
571. Multicolored.Copy !req
572. But my biggest pork chop,
the one I obsessed overCopy !req
573. and had to wait
until my 13th birthday for,Copy !req
574. and still work off
five months' allowance to get,Copy !req
575. was a mountain bike.Copy !req
576. I did the math. I lived over 5,000 days.Copy !req
577. Over 135,000 hours.Copy !req
578. All that time was mine.Copy !req
579. You can die, but you can't un-live.Copy !req
580. I lived.Copy !req
581. Here.Copy !req
582. Here.Copy !req
583. Here.Copy !req
584. And here.Copy !req
585. It was great.Copy !req
586. It's not enough.Copy !req
587. That's bullshit.Copy !req
588. Heard of chain of evidence?Copy !req
589. We have a witness
who swears Hall gave it to her.Copy !req
590. Where's the serial number of the bike?Copy !req
591. Someone burned it off with acid.Copy !req
592. There's no way to conclusively prove
that this is Jessica Roach's,Copy !req
593. unless matching fingerprints
of both Hall and Roach are found on it.Copy !req
594. And after four years,
I'm fairly confident it won't be.Copy !req
595. We have witnesses who place
Larry Hall in the area…Copy !req
596. I'm not trying a new case here.Copy !req
597. Where he claimed to have buried Reitler…Copy !req
598. I'm defending against a second appeal.Copy !req
599. And where he gave someone
Jessica Roach's bike.Copy !req
600. It's not enough.Copy !req
601. Not even close.Copy !req
602. But you did great work here.Copy !req
603. You did. This is top-fucking-notch.Copy !req
604. Hey, look at me.Copy !req
605. You did. But it's not enough.Copy !req
606. What would be enough?Copy !req
607. I don't know.Copy !req
608. But this ain't it.Copy !req
609. James?Copy !req
610. James.Copy !req
611. James, you up?Copy !req
612. Well, good night.Copy !req
613. Sleep well.Copy !req